#wow i think i might actually tag this one!

[shinestarhwaa]

PHYSICAL || KANG YEOSANG

Genre: Smut, mild angst and fluff

Pairing: Genius!Yeosang x Bartender!Femreader

Word Count: 1.9K

Tags/Warnings: Friends to lovers AU, College student Yeosang, Yeosang is anxious and sad, Protected sex, Oral sex, Virgin!Yeosang, Experienced!reader, Praise

Taglist: @anyamaris @a-soft-hornytiny @whatudowhennooneseesyou @wooyoungmybelovedhusband @pyeonghongrie-main @woosanbby @dreamlesswonder86 @changbinslovelylegs @jonghostie @lovjensoo @mjyungi @bratty-tingz @sugarnspice630 @stardragongalaxy @bro-atz @wisejudgedragonhairdo @mingisg00dgirl @vesvosmozhno

ENJOY!

"Can I have two vodka shots, please?"

A beautiful guy sat on the stool right on front of you. His hair was dark and kind of fell before his eyes. His skin was pale and you noticed a little red mark on the side of his face, looking like a birthmark. His shoulders were tense and his leg bounced up and down rapidly. He must feel nervous or anxious, you figured. You gave him a smile and nodded, filling two shotglasses with straight vodka. The guy thanked you and put some money down and immediately after he took both shots. "Re-fill, please."

"Wow, you must have a rough night," you say as you re-fill the shot glasses. "You shouldn't shot too much vodka though." "I know the exact amount of vodka I can handle, thank you," he says, putting more money down. He shots the vodka again and sighs deeply.

You keep watching him as you're making a martini cocktail for another customer. You had never seen this guy around before, while you usually tend regulars. The guy thanked you again and left the bar, leaving you a little confused, wondering who he was.

A few nights later he showed up again, sitting down on the same stool. You walked up to him and smiled. "Good evening," you greeted him. "Hey, could I get a scotch on the rocks?" "Sure," you nodded, making his drink.

You watched him drink it but he seemed not to like it very much. "Something wrong with your drink, sir?" "No, no, I just... I don't usually drink alcohol. It's not my thing. But I kinda need it right now." You nodded, understanding where he comes from. A lot of people who come to the bar for drinks come to forget about their current situation.

"What's bugging you?" You asked. "Honestly? I feel like I'm at a dead end,'' he sighed. ''A dead end? About what?'' He then started to explain he's a Physics student at the university nearby and his research is failing. ''I was so sure, you know? I was so sure I'd have a breakthrough but all my inspiration is just gone. I've got nothing and the deadline is coming up soon. I'm just... stuck and I can't get over it.''

''Well then get on top of it, of someone,'' you grinned, ''Let your stress out.'' ''I don't have sex,'' he stated, sipping from his glass. You looked at him, intrigued. ''You do not have sex? Are you a-sexual?'' ''Oh, no, not necissarily. Well. I don't really know actually. I haven't paid attention to those sort of things. It is not like I do not want sex though. I would... But no one really likes me or anything so I stopped caring a while ago. It is what it is you know?''

You frowned and looked at him up and down to which he gave you a questioning look. ''What?'' ''Well,'' you sighed, ''I just can't understand how people don't like you. You're kind. You're hot. What's there not to like?'' ''Well, the fact that I am a virgin,'' he said quietly. ''I don't know why people care about those things, I sure don't.''

The guy looked at you, with hopeful, big brown eyes. ''You don't?'' ''No, I don't think it is right to judge someone for being a virgin. I don't care about that stuff.'' ''So you'd have sex with me?'' The two of you were quiet now. ''You want me to have sex with you?'' you grinned as you cleaned some glasses, ''Are you sure about that?'' ''Well I... I'd like to try it and you just said I'm handsome right? And that you do not mind my virginity. You said it might help, right?''

You laughed. ''You're really endearing. What's your name?'' ''Oh, I apologize, how rude of me. I'm Kang Yeosang.'' ''Nice to meet you Yeosang, I'm Y/N. You'll need that when you're moaning out my name tonight after I'm done with my shift,'' you smirked. Yeosang swallowed thickly, biting his lip. ''Really?'' ''Really. I get off at 11, wait for me? I'll take you to my place, it's right down the street.'' Yeosang nodded and politely waited, drinking his bitter whiskey.

A while later you approached him again when your shift had ended. You took his hand and giggled at his shocked expression. ''Come with me cutie.'' Your seductive voice made Yeosang's hormones rage through his body. In a matter of minutes you got into your apartment, taking off coats and shoes and you took him to your couch.

''Have you kissed before, Yeosangie?'' He nodded shyly, ''A long timeago, but yes, I have... I know how that part works. It's the part after that I don't know.'' You nodded and pulled him close. You pressed your lips against his and God, were they soft. He looked so clean and polished and he probably took good care of his lips too. How else would they be this soft? They were so warm too, making you completely melt into the kiss. His lips parted slightly, allowing your tongue to slip inside his mouth.

You pressed your body onto his and he tensed up, probably never have felt this before. You pulled back and ran your hand through his hair. ''Never felt a woman's body before, have you, Yeosangie?'' He shook his head, swallowing thickly. He was already growing a raging boner in his pants that needed to be freed. You palmed his crotch and his cheeks heated up, growing red. ''It's okay, Sangie, I'm gonna take care of you. No reason to be afraid, okay?'' He nodded and took a deep breath to relax himself.

Standing up, you took him to your bedroom for more comfort. He sat down on the edge of the bed, looking around curiously as you got on your knees in front of him. He blushed when your gentle hands travelled up his thigh towards his zipper. You grinned at the bashful boy as you opened up his corduroy pants. Your heart was racing with excitement when you pulled his pants and boxers down, revealing his hard, girthy length.

''Look at that,'' you breathed out, your hot breath fanning over the tip of his twitching cock. ''I-I'm sorry if-'' ''No. You're perfect the way you are, Sangie, you're never gonna apologize for your body, you're beautiful, I promise,'' you assured him before he could say any more. He nodded and then took his sweater off. To your surprise he was more muscly than you'd expect. ''You look like a greek God, Yeosang, I swear. Except your cock is much bigger,'' you smirked.

He blushed again, to which you laughed soundly. ''Y/N, don't embarrass me!'' Yeosang whined. ''I'm sorry angel, I'll make you feel good now.'' You took off your top, revealing your black lacy bra before you took his cock into your hand. You gently slid your tongue over the tip of his dick while looking Yeosang in the eyes. He whimpered softly and bit his lip, full of anticipation. ''Don't worry about lasting long baby,'' you commented before you took him into your mouth.

Your lips parted beautifully around his cock and he grunted at the sight of it. Bobbing your hair up and down, you coated his long shaft with saliva. You hollowed your cheeks and sucked while your hands fondled his balls. ''Y/N, oh God,'' he moaned out, leaning back a little. One of his hands ran through your hair and by the heavy twitching of his dick you knew he would definitely not last long. But considering he was a virgin and new to all this pleasure you did not mind at all, in fact, you were proud you're able to get him off so quickly.

In a matter of seconds his moans grew louder and he burst, spilling himself into your mouth. You let go of his cock and swallowed his cum with a smirk as you watched him regain his breath. ''God, You are amazing Y/N,'' he smiled. You grinned and got up, undressing yourself until you were naked in front of him.

''Take a good look if you want, Sangie,'' you said as he admired your bare body. ''You're beautiful,'' he smiled, and you knew it was genuine. ''Do you wanna touch me?'' you asked. Yeosang looked nervous and he looked down. ''I don't know how to do all that...''

You caressed his cheek softly and he looked back at you again. ''Honey, I can teach you all that. Let me ride you first, hm? We've got time,'' you assured him. Yeosang nodded and laid against your pillows. ''Like this?'' he asked. You nodded and took a condom from your drawer, rolling it down his shaft. ''Perfect, babe.''

Yeosang put his hands on your hips when you positioned yourself on top of him. ''Are you ready, Yeosang?'' ''Yes, I am... I want you,'' he breathed out, his hands running up to your breasts, cupping them gently. You smiled at the sweet boy, knowing you were about to take his virginity and teach him about all the kinds of pleasure you could bring each other.

You let yourself sink down on his cock, moaning at the stretch of him inside you. ''Look at that baby, you fit so well, such a pretty cock for me to ride, for me to fuck,'' you moaned when you started rolling your hips. Yeosang moaned and threw his head back, overwhelmed with the pleasure of being inside your wet cunt. Even with the condom on he felt like he got swallowed in by your warmth, like electricity in his body. You fucked yourself on his cock, bouncing up and down just the way you liked it.

''How's that baby? How does that feel?'' you panted out. He just nodded eagerly as he whimpered, overwhelmed with pleasure. The sound of your skin slapping together was like music to your ears. ''You know what you can do baby?'' His eyes met yours when you took one of his hands and pressed his fingers on your exposed clit. You cleaned back slightly to give him a clearer view of your pussy.

''Rub here, circle it,'' you told him, and Yeosang quickly obeyed. He rubbed your clit in circles and switched from slow to fast from time to time as you kept moving up and down his cock. ''Oh that's it baby, so good for me, such a good boy!'' ''Fuck, Y/N, I t-think I'm coming again! I'm gonna come!'' ''Come for me, Sangie, rub my clit fast and we'll come together, hm? Harder baby, yes that's it, that's it! Fuck you're such a good boy, I'm coming with you baby, right there, right there!''

With only a single movement you felt an orgasm wash over you and you moaned out his name. Yeosang whimpered and twitched inside you as your pussy clenched down on him. He spilled his cum into the condom and panted out your name. ''Fuck,'' he cursed. He looked so beautiful, all fucked out you swore he did look like a Greek God.

''You've been so perfect, little scientist boy,'' you grinned as you got off his cock. ''Ah, don't call me that, aren't I a man now?'' he laughed cutely. You grinned and shook your head. ''No. Virginity doesn't determine your manliness baby, don't worry about that. You're all man.'' ''Well... This man really enjoyed it... Thank you for doing this for me.'' ''Well thank you for letting me and giving me a good time too. What about a second round of getting physical right away?'' ''Y/N. That's a horrible pun but I'll take it.''

#kpop #ateez #smut #shinestarhwaa #yeosang #kang yeosang #yeosang x reader

[saltedsolenoid]

FINISHED THAT PRETENTIOUS UQUIZ!!! feel free to take it and post your results!!!

#uquiz #wow i think i might actually tag this one! #quiz #online quiz #uquizzes #i don't know what else to tag this as :(

[chalkodareal]

who woulda guessed. everytime i get enough tmbg drawings i put all the good ones in a tumblr post. if not already obvious

#tmbg #they might be giants #john linnell #john flansburgh #danny weinkauf #dan miller #marty beller #MB actually in 3 of these.....wow! #i think i should post my shitty ones in another post maybe #chalko drawing tag

[pangyham]

been thinking about the liyue gang and how id draw their physical builds so here are some thoughts i had for xy cy and gm in particular

- xingqiu, unsurprisingly, would be quite lanky. i like to think he has broad-ish shoulders, like a thin athlete's build? hes a long boy to me haha, long face, neck, limbs, fingers etc, so naturally hes stands (comparatively) tall at 5'6" or 5'7"

i like to think hes most physically attractive one and has that handsome princely and boyish charm to him because it adds a lot to his fuckass duality LOL

- chongyun is a lot like xiao imo! short stature but with muscular arms. he seems nimble and flexible because of his normal attack animations (which bears a lot of similarities to xiao's actually! this + the fact that chongyun's normal attacks create gusts of wind further reinforces my hc that xiao trains him). sometimes i watch high energy choreography vids on youtube and some dancers look incredibly light on their feet, almost like their body is inherently bouncy? and i imagine chongyun to have that agility to him. chongyun has a delicate face and aura and i let that bleed into my hcs for his fighting style and physical capabilities hahaha. hes kind of like a cat who's deceptively strong. as for height.. just a few inches taller than xiao, so perceptibly short at 5'4"

- ga ming my new beloved. pretty much similar to chongyun but more muscular and stronger just because he wields his claymore with ease. theres a noticeable weight different between cy and his claymore the way he lugs it up after he swings (or even other claymore users like razor who, on his last hit, bounces from impact). meanwhile ga ming literally slams his to the ground LOL. i love his movements though hes very swift and expressive and radiant.. if cy has delicate movements then ga ming's is fierce and (charmingly!) assertive

ga ming is wonderfully charismatic though, i know hes not well known in liyue harbor yet, but he seems like the type to gain a reputation from his friendliness. how could no one adore him hahaha. 5'5" for height! just between xy and xq

#tangy talks genshin #chongyun gets analyzed most my bad #this was super fun though #while thoughtful ; genshin chara designs will always look distinctly gacha and flashy so a lot of the designs kinda blur together in my hea #this is why i really like looking into their animations particuarly their normal attacks #i think it conveys their personalities really well! it's always something to look forward to when new characters release #i gravitate towards swords polearms and claymores most though because i like the act of swinging and slashing hah. it also requires a lot o #body movement and reflects a lot of irl martial arts fencing and other combat techniques #sword users are always really fun to watch because theyre inherently graceful hahah. i will admit it gets kinda repetitive #i think my favorite NA animation has to be albedo's.. very simple clean and refined. he stands elegantly and puts his arm behind his back o #his 2nd attack which ive been transfixed by since be first came out in 2020 LOL. i love albebo #wow these tags are long as hell #but anyway i actually have more thoughts on xq's physical appearance but its just me rambling about how i think hes funny as fuck #im a proponent of dashingly pretty princely xingqiu not necessarily because i want to bestow upon him desirable traits #but because i think its funny knowing hes just a bit of a loser under all that #hes well known (mr worldwide one might say) and the heir to a prestigious guild and chivalrous talented and prolific #but he writes self insert novels hates carrots had bad handwriting sings really bad #hes just a teenage boy #as always i will 100% have more to say about chongyun but ill save that for another post #ga ming on the other hand.. i dont have anything substantial to say but hes super fun to think about #hes such a likable character #wow these tags are LONG as fuck ill stop now.

[crimeronan]

side effect of having my hydroxychloroquine work really well is that i'm forgetting what it felt like to be Really Horrifically Sick. both because of the emotional distance and because of my general memory issues. the memory issues are a LOT worse concerning Times When I Was Horrifically Sick.

so i'm actually pretty grateful to my past self for the amount of time i spent oversharing here. if i scroll back like seven months in my autoimmune tag i can find posts of me essentially going "eh, i'm sleeping for 22 hours a day but i don't really care anymore bc i've accepted i'm gonna die" and "life sux. can't breathe or think or feel my chest but that's constant so i don't wanna go to the ER about it AGAIN" and "docs took 14 vials of blood 4 x-rays several lung images several lung tests and an EKG before i even left the hospital today. even tho they havent gotten my test results back yet" and i'm like god Damn.

I REALLY LIVED LIKE THIS????????

#if you have ever been the favorite favored patient at an american hospital. you know. #presumably triage is similar in other countries too i just know the american experience is very tied up in. cost benefit analysis #you have to be in BAD shape to be taken seriously at american hospitals. even the good ones. (especially the good ones??) #if you're waiting in the ER for four hours bc of triage it sucks. if you wait for 60 seconds because of triage uh. #You Are In Deep Trouble. You Are In Much Deeper Trouble Than An Annoying Waiting Room #WOW i was so fucking sick. i'm just. flabbergasted. #like i know intellectually that these things happened and have vague memories of all the testing processes and stuff #but i don't Feel it anymore. those things happened to a different person. please god let me have hydroxychloroquine forever #do you guys remember me being sick?? i think some of you actually might remember it better than i do which is. WEIRD. #anyway. back to fic editing now #autoimmune tag

[calissarowan]

Some Thoughts About Sibylla’s Cave

Hi! I just wanted to talk about something that nags at me in Winx. (Warning: I might go on a bit.)

When the wizards surrender to the Winx, they take them to Sibylla, and we see them in the next episode, with Duman’s condition having worsened. Badly. He’s feverish, moaning, and seems to be delirious. And yet…Sibylla has him lying on what is basically a slab of stone. I mean, look!

His head is not even supported! So not only does he have some kind of mystery disease, he now probably has neck problems. And back pain. And if he wasn’t running a fever, he’d probably be freezing. Could Sibylla not spring for a bed? Or at least a pillow? Something? He looks so uncomfortable, and I feel so bad for him, because he’s already so sick! I wish Sibylla had tried to make him comfortable.

And now onto part two…

Here’s the cave the wizards are in. We can see some interesting stuff…uncomfortable stone bed, tree that seems to be growing underground (maybe it’s just roots), stone seat thing… You know what we can’t spot? Anywhere for the other wizards to sleep. Now, maybe they have their own rooms. Maybe this is the Duman cave. Maybe when it’s time to go to sleep the other wizards go to their own caves, with their own ridiculously uncomfortable stone beds. But…I really can’t see that being the case. It feels like this is the cave the wizards are staying in. In which case…where do they sleep? Are there beds hidden out of shot? Or do they have to sleep on the floor? Which would probably be even more uncomfortable than Duman’s stone ‘bed’. And would make me think a bit less of Sibylla.

Also, are the wizards actually allowed to leave that cave? (This is putting aside the ‘they have their own rooms’ theory). We see them come to the throne room (is it a throne room? It has a throne. And it’s a room. Or a cave, I guess. So, throne cave), but they’re flanked by Rustic Fairies, who are presumably acting as guards. So maybe the wizards are limited to that cave. Does that mean they’re technically Sibylla’s prisoners? Or are they her guests? Or just the people she has to keep alive long enough for Morgana to calm down and agree to an unfair trial? (Being judged by the people who have spent the past weeks trying to kill you is in no way, shape or form an impartial court. Not even if Morgana says she’ll judge the wizards ‘in all fairness’. She’s biased. Very, very biased. She would not get put on the jury if the wizards were being tried in an actual court of law.)

Oh, and, final thought:

Where is Gantlos? Seriously, where? The Winx have shown up to explain about the supposed ‘fair trial’ they just fought Nebula to get; shouldn’t Gantlos be there for that? He’s probably just out of the shot, but it’s weird he isn’t shown.

Going off the idea that the wizards are allowed to leave that cave, I’m headcanoning that Gantlos wasn’t there because seeing Duman in that state just hurt too much, and he didn’t want the Winx to witness him barely managing to not fall apart, so he’s in another bit of the cave desperately trying to keep it together. Or having a breakdown. Possibly having a breakdown. Ogron and Anagan will fill him in on the situation later.

#winx club #wizards of the black circle #winx duman #winx gantlos #Didn’t actually plan on about half of that post #I did say I might go on a bit #Sibylla really needs to go to IKEA #Seriously #that bed can’t be comfortable! #Honestly #even if the other wizards do have their own rooms #Gantlos would willingly sleep on the floor in Duman’s room #No way would he leave him alone when he’s so sick #If the Rustic Fairies had an issue with that then good luck moving him #Just thought up the explanation for where Gantlos was #May write a one-shot of that now #What do you think? #Would anyone read that? #Wow #These tags kinda need their own post #They’re really long #Winx sibylla #Forgot to add Sibylla to the tags

[luxsea]

i heard karlachs monologue was rlly good but holy shit i genuinely dont think i'll be the same after that

#olive.txt #bg3 spoilers #spoilers in tags !! #samantha seriously deserves an award that was soul wrenching #i think back in interviews where they talked abt karlachs trauma and how she reverts into a scared child #the whole encounter w gortash was very much that #and he speaks down to her and calls her a brat #imagine saying ''what do you know about the greater good'' TO THE LIVING EMBODIMENT OF GOOD #he doesnt care what he did to her at all but she does care!! he betrayed her and stole her future and there is no closure! #well i felt pretty satisfied i casted a dancing scroll on him and let karlach go to town *youre gonna go far kid plays in the distance* #her pain and anger is so understandable no one deserves this especially not her #the delivery of ''my heart. it was mine. and they took it'' is so incredibly natural and heartbreaking. this scene gave me actual heartburn #shes seemed pretty confident abt dying but i guess in her own words courage isnt fearlessness :( #ugh the part where she just wants you to tell her everything will be alright and that you can save her!!! so cruel larian! #for a character that lost their heart she sure as hell didnt lose her soul </3 #''THANKS FOR LISTENING. FOR EXISTING. LOVE YOU.'' #yeah was not prepared for what im guessing is the romantic version of her scene back at camp #idk why i thought they wouldnt address it but wow when she asks if youll stay w her when its her time to go. im in shambles #might take back some of my opinions abt her endings. its still cruel she doesnt get a Happy ending but its being handled rlly well so far

[chenziee]

Somebody pay me a full salary to just sleep, write fics, play games, play with my cat, vacation, and sleep

#yes i said sleep twice i am very tired thank you #i wanna sleep for a month but i CAN'T #gotta be a tiny gear in the money making machine #i have a 6am shift tomorrow i might actually die #at least i am down to one burning deadline instead of like five #this weekend was insane rip #i even blew a check in for the first time ever because my brain failed to compute the date and time correctly #so i thougth i had till sunday when it was supposed to be saturday #i'm almost caught up on this last burning project tho i just need to read one last bit and then i can get to figuring out what to do with i #katie thinks she's relevant #every time i type this tag up i think to myslef 'i should make a new ramble tag this one screams depression wow' #what can i say i made it at my lowest ahaha #but i can't thnk if anything funny to use instead avaserbv #plus what if people have the tag muted :( i don't want to mess anyone's dash up by suddenly changing it :/ #okay i'll shut up now and go to sleep i'm sleep deprivation rambling

[braisedhoney]

So you said a while ago underfell was your favorite au before. Is that still true or?

Also who’s your favorite character from whatever au you like?

damn, you were around for that? :'D

yeah, underfell used to be my favorite! i think it was smth about being really edgy as a kid, or maybe it was because red was my favorite color. idk man, even now i gotta admit those designs slap really hard.

i'm not really sure if i have a favorite au now though. i do have some ideas for underfell that i like, but i think i see the appeal of most aus bc i just like making new scenarios.

i like the big three a lot (classic, fell, swap). sans is my favorite in classic (predictable i know) if you're not counting gaster, since he isn't technically a canon character. i like both fell paps and fell sans equally, and swap paps is cool. i'd be buddies with that guy.

(i also really like asgore in undertale. the tragedy of the grief-stricken ruler who kills even though it's against his nature for the freedom of his people but also because he's long past convinced he's in too deep is really compelling to me, and by proxy i'm interested in the theoretical stories of all the fallen humans including frisk. also the whole thing with their broken family and chara and—

—whoops the ask is about aus not canon lmao, sorry!)

#ney's chatter (ask answers) #captain talks about undertale #i have trouble putting my thoughts about characters into words sometimes but #i really do just enjoy delving into ideas and character motivations #so any version of a character i end up liking might end up with a kind of interpretative spin #i do like to stick closer to canon stuff because i like working off something that has solid bones #(pun not intended) #but with aus it gets more flexible so there's room for messing around ig #i think part of why a version of the skelebros ends up being a fan favorite is because of how they tend to get the focus in content though! #which isn't necessarily a bad thing—just a personal observation #i've always liked sans though because it kind of felt like he was the only Real character. the one who saw you. #that's probably why a lot of people liked him actually #we all know i'm a sucker for media that really includes the player on a meta or emotional level #and some of that honestly might have started with undertale #it holds you accountable in a way; you know? through sans’ judgement and flowey’s color commentary #i think flowey stuck with me in a different way though—him being alone in the underground maybe forever not by force but by choice is... #kinda haunting still. #so maybe add him onto that list. poor kid. #... wow there's a whole other post in the tags here isn't there #my bad lol

[pepperpixel]

“And I dance dance dance, and I dance dance dance”

Mutant strawberry cat girl from space that I drew to escape from my life problems... Also featuring an ancient meme that popped into my head while I was drawing her. Cuz it felt fitting lol, Considering she is a cat girl.

#doodles #original #original art #cat girl #strawberry #artists on tumblr #is that still a tag ppl use?? #i remember I used it like years ago for original art but I haven’t in a while #figure i might as well tho #mutant strawberry cat girl.. or mutant watermelon cat girl? #or mutant strawberry AND kiwi…. hmmm decisions decisions #I was thinking strawberry since the start so that’s what I’m going w but. the other ones are fitting too! #anyway…. life is hell! #life’s been hell for the past 2 years and it’s STILL hell! WOW! #life isn’t a rollercoaster it’s a bottomless plummet into the abyss actually! I’ve realized! #so yeah. house burned down. which u all kno. #but. as of a couple days ago. both of my grandparents. who I’ve lived w for over half of my life #are now dead #so. yeah. life’s happening. life’s happening. life. is happening #maybe next time a horrible catastrophe happens I can be the one who dies. so I won’t have to exist anymore. #maybe #GHGHG IM BEING RLLY NEGATIVE I HAVE A THERAPIST I PROMISE #I’ll get thru it just… ghghghg #god #it’s still fucked tho #completely and utterly fucked… #Srry the tags of this post and content of the art are very fucking different #I tried drawing sad dramatic vent art and I just. couldn’t #it made me feel worse almost #only thing hands could get out was cute cat girl.. idk why..

[itheume]

i walk out of paint tool sai shaking and rattling and gripping my tablet pen before walking Right back in there

#arting #( ' wow kam what a weird hour to post it's 3 in the morning ' i gotta paint four things by one o clock this afternoon #let's get it crew !! #might post all of them as i finish them actually because i didnt post anything this weekend i dont think #named it children of the atom but i have to pretend the entire time that i dont know what f/llout is #like yeah ;) the words children of the atom mean Nothing to me it's chill it's fine ) #( mmmm #unsure of how to tag this because the figure is definitely Nude but nothing is really ;; identifiable #like mmmmmmm mmm you can scroll past this in public definitely esp because it's so clearly Art but like #hm #i won't tag it for now ;;; ;; but i might come back and do so later if someone in the reblogs tags it like that ;; if i get any reblogs ) #( oH i should actually definitely tag #scopophobia // #ok. alright )

[cobwebinthecorner]

the button is right there guys

i called you over because it's literally impossible to do this on my own

for fuck's sake, someone press it

#kirby #kirby and the amazing mirror #amazing mirror's ai SUCKS #fun fact when i was in high school i had an idea for a comic taking place some time after the end of amazing mirror #i did nothing with it though because i can't draw for shit and can't write believable character dialogue or stories #i'd probably be better at dialogue now if i tried it again but the stories might still be crap #and i still can't draw for shit #but now that i'm thinking about it i could probably go with pixel art and sprites #i'd have to attempt making some new sets/backgrounds in a similar style on my own but it could work #and if i keep it to like 4 to 6 panels max i wouldn't have to worry about coming up with complex stories #i could focus on comedy and jokes #maybe make some one panel jokes like The Far Side since I've always loved and felt kinda inspired by that comic #okay wow i think i'm actually gonna finally try to make that idea something real #who knew that 15 minutes of writing tags for a post could affect my creative motivation so much #posts fully endorsed by cobweb

[memesomething]

when i share my energy with you it is because i want to share my energy with you, not because i keep a running list of debts to strangers on the internet. if you write for me and attach 'but now you 'owe' me something, i am entitled to something, this is a contractual obligation' to it please simply do not write for me, it will save us both some time, i always at all times intend to write in response for anything that i receive but i also always at all times am prioritising my health and happiness over entertaining strangers. thanks

#this might read like one so i'll tag it #vague cw #but it's actually not nothing has happened there is nobody who has asked Like This recently it's just #i have seen some ... general rpc vibes around it on my dash #and i'm chillin' over here drinking tea thinking. wow i hope everyone's ok

[zeawesomebirdie]

Nine days and about a million words of superbat fic later, I think we're finally back to our regularly scheduled program here on the ZeAwesomeBirdie blog! :)

#vent post #not actually a vent lmao but thats the tag #(wow i havent used those tags in a *while* i had to go back and check what they were) #but im at that stage of quote unquote recovery where while i *do* still feel like ive been hit by a truck #(several trucks. actually.) #i am very well aware i do *not* have the capability to do much else *besides* read #even though im getting antsy #im waiting for one of my parents to get the various b@tman movies ive requested from the library for me #because i am low key still testing positive (and im not actually 100% on this but i think i might have/end up with long covid) #so im still under quarantine for the foreseeable future #but this is fine cause like #i promised myself id finish my current season of gunsmoke before i got too invested in any new TV/movies #since its so rare for me to do TV/movies in the first place #so thats what we'll be doing today! #at least until my fixation grabs me in a chokehold and forces me back to fic (affectionate) #id actually really like to be writing because heaven knows my writer's brain *never* shuts up #but actually this is the first time ive been too sick to write in.... literal years #i wasnt even too sick to write when i was bleeding to death yknow? #but im too antsy for fic. so. #finishing Gunsmoke it is #lucky for me Chester is such a pretty guy 👀 #anyway yeah we're back to our regularly scheduled programming here now :) #ill make a pinned post if (when) i do another liveblog once i get the movies #love yall hope yall are having a good timezone! #also fuck my brainfog for making a typo in my own url ??????? #like bro #(this is a huge part of why i cant currently write lmao)

[not-heavenly]

just realized the reason it seemed more fun as a kid when men taught was because they didn’t have the primary voice and so it didnt seem like they were talking down to us

#On mothers day when they had a separate thing for all the sisters and the brethren taught everything #Dont know if this feeling was a universal experience #But like especially being a 11 yr old being taught the same lesson that was prepared for 5 yr olds slightly tweaked for SR primary #Exmo #Was i just too self aware as a kid? #Probably #but like esp when i was younger the way adults (especially the women!!) talked to me (With the Primary voice!!!) made me so aware- #That im just a child to them #But i always struggled with that so maybe its just the way i interpreted it and its not inherent in the church #But i stay blaming everything on the church. Its a hobby #Merry if you read all this im going to explain the primary voice to to one day #Everything about primary makes me want to abolish the mormon church more #Like ive never seen a prog/mo advocating for the protection of kids (in general) #Their liberal enough that they wouldn’t be saying “protect kids from |gbtq” but also if they were to advocate for kids as a minority group— #in the same way leftists do then they would have to actually deconstruct their worldview #I dont think you can actually be a mormon leftist #Like that would be SO funny to see someone try to be actually. #But no; liberalism that creates no real change while saving face suits prog/mos so fucking well its gross. Hmm might do a rant post on that #Ok wow these tags got a bit long

[crimeronan]

i should probably clarify for the sake of being sensitive re my tags on the vid i just reblogged: some people do in fact get sad enough to kill themselves when they get caught doing bad things. i could be wrong in my assumption that somerton absolutely did not do that. i also don't really care whether he did or not because it's so unbelievably tacky to open an apology with "i don't want to make this a sob story, i was just so sad i tried to kill myself and everyone who has a parasocial relationship with me needs to feel bad/guilty/worried on my behalf, and everyone who doesn't have a parasocial relationship with me needs to feel bad/guilty/worried if they wanted to hold me accountable for anything. but i'm so sorry for making this a sob story! it's not like this is a prerecorded video that i have full editing control of or anything"

like.... i don't care if you actually were in the hospital or not. you chose to open your apology video with the most blatant and pathetic kind of emotional manipulation possible & i don't care for it. it's literally no one's problem except yours and your loved ones' if you were in the hospital. it's no one else's responsibility. certainly not the responsibility of the people you wronged.

people doing this shit brings out my lowest-empathy tendencies because it gets to my high-empathy friends and i've known too many people held hostage by their partners/friends/parents threatening suicide over the years, so whenever i see people being like "oh, he really does seem upset, though" i'm like.

listen. i know he looks sad in the video. i know he's saying he wants to be dead.

You Don't Have To Fuckin' Believe Him.

#it's all part of the grift it's all part of manipulating your audience for money. #whether he's actually been in the hospital or not. it shouldn't be part of his public statement afterward! #it's just. whenever i see someone crying really sadly and wetly to make people console them about something they did wrong #so they don't actually have to change their behavior or reflect on themselves or in this case.... stop making money... #i'm like oh alright. pushes up sleeves. are you trying to do this to people i care about? #because if you are then i am going to step between you. and i am going to be So Fucking Scary. #I Will Be So Scary. I Don't Have Many Berserk Buttons But This Is In Fact One #suicide #james somerton #i don't think most people here even give a fuck about whether he's suicidal it's just i know those tags might read like #'i think every suicidal person in the world is manipulating people for attention' or whatever #and that is not the vibe. james somerton who emotionally manipulates 83727749 youtube subscribers is an outlier- #i gotta go to bed. what a headache of a man. wow. #youtube drama