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letsyesnomaybe · 3 years

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Never Gonna Wanna Let Me Go | Part 4

Zayn Malik is one of the highest paid escorts in London. He’s good at his job, he knows this. But it’s not his chosen field, it’s easy money so he can have a chance to pursue his chosen field without becoming homeless. His employer Caroline has many rules to keep him safe but Zayn only has one‘Don’t Get Attached’. Of course, there was always going to be one, the guy who would come in to the picture and make Zayn’s easy job almost impossible.

Liam Payne. Twenty Six. Made his money by inheriting his father’s music business after he passed away. Quite well known so expect publicity. Wants a pretty face on his arm to cover the events he has to attend while in town on business. Make sure he knows if he wants extra he has to pay. You’ve got your usual expenses on your card, don’t go overboard like last time. I mean it, Malik! Your share for the weekend will go in your account on Monday when you’ve done your job.

Love you babes, stay safe, C x

Part 1, 2 & 3 (also on ao3)

The suns barely rising on the next day when Zayn wakes up. He doesn’t know why he’s awake because he usually sleeps until the sun’s either disappeared again or at least made it’s appearance for a while.

“Morning.” Liam grumbles when Zayn blinks open his eyes.

Their faces are so close together that Zayn feels like he’s going cross eyed trying to look in Liam’s.

“Morning.” He echoes and grins when he moves and Liam’s morning wood rubs against his thigh.

“I’m far too tired to do anything about it.” Liam decides.

“I could do something about it?” Zayn suggest, letting his hand move from where it’s curled up to Liam’s chest to beneath the covers.

He barely gets a hand around him before Liam moves, jolting forward to capture Zayn’s lips in the first kiss of the morning.

“Are you clean?” Liam asks after the kiss had got sloppy and they were both grinding against each other to get some kind of friction.

“I get tested before every client.” Zayn answers.

“I got tested last month,” Liam tells him. “Do you trust me?”

“I--” He pauses because he knows it’s one of Lin’s biggest rules ‘Always use protection’ she’d even underlined it three times and almost broke the pen when she’d added the full stop. “Yeah, yeah I do.”

Liam smiles and leans back to kiss him again and he slides his hand down the length of Zayn’s body before push him to roll over.

The prep is slow and drawn out like Liam’s loving the way it makes Zayn squirm with want. When they finally fuck, it’s at the same pace. It’s morning sex that Zayn’s never experienced because he’s never been with someone who was soft with him (almost loving) and knows exactly what he wants.

It’s not until he’s in the bath and admiring Liam singing to himself while he’s showering that he realises how completely fucked he is. He runs the pad of his fingers across his smiling lips, only to have them widen. He takes them back and sinks under the water, thinking if he drowns himself then he won’t have to deal with the inevitable heartache that will come when he parts from Liam tomorrow.

“Zayn?” Liam calls, voice muffled by the water.

Zayn sits up quickly, coughing on the water that travels up his nose and attempting to wipe the bubbles off his face.

“Everything okay?” Liam asks as he sits on the edge of the bath.

“Washing my hair.” Zayn lies.

Liam nods, even though his face shows he clearly sees straight through Zayn’s lie.

“So, what have we got planned for today?” Zayn asks.

“I’ve got meetings until the afternoon,” Liam replies and reaches out to wipe a bubble from Zayn’s eyebrow. “The car will take you wherever you want to go but come back by at least one.”

“That’s six hours.” Zayn points out because . “What did you wake me up for I could have slept until then?”

“I think you’ll find you woke me up.” Liam defends with a lovely grin.

“I could offer an alternative to those meetings?” Zayn suggest, fiddling with the knot in Liam’s towel.

“As lovely as that offer is,” Liam says and the way he looks at Zayn makes him shiver. “And it is a lovely offer. I really can’t miss these meetings.”

“I’m too knackered to do anything.” Zayn complains.

“Then go back to bed.” Liam says amused.

“I can’t,” Zayn huffs. “You’ve woken me up now.”

“You’ve very dramatic this morning.” Liam observes and runs his fingers through Zayn’s wet hair.

“We were up earlier than the sun,” Zayn points out. “It’s okay to be dramatic before the sun has woken up.”

“I didn’t know that was the rule.” Liam admits.

“Well now you do,” Zayn tells him. “It should be illegal to get up before the sun, Liam. It’s the whole reason it exists.”

Liam smiles and shakes his head like Zayn’s the most absurd person he’s ever met before getting up from the bath and leaving the room.

Zayn soaks in the bath a little longer and when he finally gets out, it’s to find that Liam’s already dressed ready for work.

“What you doing?” He asks when his eyes catch Zayn leaning on the bathroom door.

“Admiring the view.” Zayn says and lets the ‘while I still can’ echo in his mind.

“Isn’t that supposed to be my line?” Liam replies as he comes over to where Zayn is stood, holding out his phone. “Put your number in?”

Zayn takes the phone and puts in his number without asking why. Another one of Caroline’s rules broken, as easy as that.

“Now if you’re not here when I get back I won’t have to interrogate my driver to find out where you are.” Liam explains as Zayn hands him back the phone.

“Or you think I’ll send you dirty pictures while you’re in meetings.” Zayn jokes.

“A man can only hope.” Liam replies with a cheeky smile.

Zayn brushes past him to get to where his suitcase is laid out, simply to stop himself from pinching Liam’s cheek.

“Where are you gonna go?” Liam asks as he picks up his watch to put on his wrist.

“Probably go and bug Harry at work.” Zayn replies noncommittal as he rummages through his suitcase for clean underwear.

“I’ll try not to be long, okay?” He offers as he comes over to where Zayn is now attempting to wriggle in to a pair of fresh boxers.

“Be as long as you want,” Zayn tells him. “I get the leftover muffins if I stay at the cafe until after the lunch break.”

“I won’t be that long.” Liam promises and leans in to brush his lips over Zayn’s cheek.

It’s not for show because they’re the only people in the room. It’s not natural either because Liam freezes where he’s about to pull away, when Zayn doesn’t say anything.

“Yeah, um, I’ll see you later.” Zayn offers dumbly.

Liam hums and finally moves away from him to pick up his wallet and phone from the bed side table.

“I’ll see you in a few hours, Zayn.” Liam says as he heads for the door.

“I’ll be here waiting for you, Liam.” Zayn replies as he had that first morning.

Liam doesn’t freeze up this time, instead he shoots Zayn a wink before disappearing out of the room.

Zayn falls on to the bed and screams in to the mattress, wondering what hell kind of mess he’s got himself in to.

***

‘This meeting is sooo boring that someone actually fell asleep lol x’

Zayn snorts at the photo of a man who’s clearly sat opposite Liam in some kind of board meeting and is fast asleep, his head resting down on his chest and eyes closed.

“Are you sexting?” Emily asks, attempting to look at Zayn’s phone over his shoulder.

There’s a mixture of weird and wonderful people who work at the cafe with Harry. But Emily has to be one of Zayn’s favourite. The best way to explain her is as a cat in human form. She’s sarcastic, hates most people but adores the ones she likes and can disappear for days at a time without a word. She’s also got the worlds best hair, it’s dark purple on top and the shaved sides are dyed green.

“Is it a new part of the service?” Emily pushes, dodging back and forth as Zayn attempts to hide his phone from her. “You sext them to make sure they get their moneys worth even when they’re not with you.”

“You’re a foul human being.” Jodie says from where she’s cleaning the cutlery from the breakfast run. She’s their little book worm, from her dark brown hair (that’s always tied back in a plait) to her thick framed glasses.

“It could be true for all you know,” Emily argues. “Then Zayn’s the foul one.”

Zayn tugs his arm back when Emily goes for the phone and promptly knocks the tub full of sugars off the counter he’s sat on.

“What’s going on?” Harry demands, poking his head in from the back.

“Zayn’s bored so he made a mess.” Emily tattles.

“You can’t stay if you’re gonna be trouble, Z.” Harry says with a stressed sigh.

“Sorry, man.” Zayn apologises as he picks up the sugars.

Emily’s grinning when he stretches back up to put the pot back on the counter.

“Bitch.” Zayn hisses at her.

“Woof.” Emily replies with her wicked grin not moving.

Zayn’s about to say something else but his phone buzzes in his hand so he backs away from the counter and drops in to the closest booth instead.

‘What are you doinnn? x’

Zayn knows he’s supposed to text some bullshit like ‘Thinking of you’ or ‘Missing you’. Caroline once attempted for them to have a call service and he’d actually been pretty good. But he knows he’s only got one more day with Liam and he’s going to indulge a little. Even if it means he doesn’t get paid by Monday, it would be worth it.

‘Bugging the people that work with H but it’s gettin kind of boring. Probs gonna join that bloke in the lad of nod if I stay here any longer x’

He only manages to lift his eyes up from the phone and see tower of sugars that Emily was now building, promptly fall, before the phone buzzes in his hand again.

‘What else could you do to entertain yourself? x’

Zayn grins as he texts back. ‘You x’

“I know that smile.” Harry says and Zayn hadn’t even realised he was back in the room.

Zayn looks up to see him now stood next to Emily, with a frown creating wrinkles in his forehead.

“You’re really a man who should smile,” Emily decides as she brushes her thumb across Harry’s forehead. “These age you a ton.”

“You say the nicest things.” Harry scoffs while keeping his eyes trained on his best friend. “Are you smiling like that because of Liam?”

“I’m not smiling like anything.” Zayn says as his phone buzzes in his hand and he has to bite down on his lip.

‘I’ve got one more meeting but hopeee this keeps u goin xxx’

There’s a picture attached that Liam had clearly taken in a bathroom. He’s stood in front of a mirror, with the hand not holding the phone is pulling up his shirt while his dick hangs limp from where his trousers are unzipped like he’d moved away from the urinals in order to take the photo.

“Fuck.” Zee complains out loud.

This time Emily doesn’t give him chance, she snatches the phone from his hand before he can react.

“Oh my.” She says followed by a squeal. “That’s quite a man, Malik.”

“Give me my phone back.” Zee demands.

Emily doesn’t, she hands the phone straight to Harry who looks down at it and then to Zayn with wide eyes.

“It’s my job!” Zee defends.

Harry stares at him for a really long time but eventually hands the phone back over with a shrug.

“I’m just doing my job.” Zayn says again, as he looks back down at the phone.

‘Sorry if that was too much...’ Liam had text back, obviously worrying when Zayn hadn’t sent the quick reply to his picture like he had been to his text for the rest of the day.

“You dickhead,” Zayn scolds. “You proper fucked it.”

“Don’t blame her,” Harry snaps back. “You’re the one breaking the rules, Z. What would Caroline say.”

“She’d say I’m really fucking good at my job.” Zayn tells him and gets up from the booth. “Excuse me.”

“The mirror on the right at the back is best for photos like that!” Emily shouts after him and then giggles manically when she throws him the finger.

Zayn walks in to the gents bathroom and heads towards the mirror because Emily is a bitch but she does make good suggestions sometimes but before he even has chance to get himself situated for a photo, his phone blows up with Liam’s name.

“Hey,” He answers quickly. “I was about to return the favour.”

“W-what?” Liam asks confused. “I thought you were done with me, I thought I’d taken it to far--”

“Liam, calm down.” Zayn soothes. “I was sat the middle of a bakery with Harry’s very intrusive staff, I needed a good excuse to get away and I needed to get away after that photo, fuck. How can you be that hot?”

Liam lets out a long stressed breath.

“I was honestly about to return the favour.” Zee assures him.

“Where are you?” Liam asks him.

“In the bathroom at H’s bakery,” Zee answers. “Why? Are you back?”

“No,” Liam replies. “I’ll be another hour yet but I thought, uh, I’ve got like a fifteen minute break.”

“Okay..” Zayn starts quietly.

“Get in one of the stalls, yeah?” Liam suggests. “Warm yourself up, I’ll call you back when I’ve found somewhere to go.”

“Okay.” Zee agrees slowly because the thought of what they’re about to do turns him on, let alone the act itself.

Liam’s mouth is absolutely filthy, is what he finds out five minutes later when he manages to make Zayn come using only words.

“Still got ten minutes to spare,” Zayn pants, as he attempts to come down from his high. “Could do that twice more, if you like.”

Liam lets out a lovely laugh. “If you can get some of those muffins, I’ll meet you back at the hotel for six.”

“Sure.” Zayn agrees easily.

“Goodbye, Zayn.” Liam says.

“Yeah, bye.” Zayn replies and hangs up the phone.

It takes him a few minutes to get his thoughts straight and then clean up the mess he’d made before finally returning to

***

Harry hadn’t pushed him when he’d left the bakery just before closing, he’d handed over a bag full of fresh muffins, told him to be careful and sent him on his way.

The girl on reception gives him curious eyes as he swings the bag back and forth as he waits in front of the lifts but he doesn’t care, he feels happy, for the first time in a long time and even though he knows he’s not following his best friends orders (or his bosses) he’s going to indulge himself for as long as he can.

Liam’s not there when he gets in the hotel room so he puts the muffins in the fridge keep them fresh and moves towards the bathroom to also freshen himself up.

It’s a little more than an hour for Liam to walk through the hotel room door and he looks very upset as he greets Zayn in the living area of the suite.

“I need a cigarette.” He states simply and heads to the balcony.

Zayn hovers because he couldn’t quite read from that one sentence if Liam wanted him to follow or not.

Liam returns to the room, only a few minutes later, a strong smell of smoke following him in.

“What do we have to do tonight?” Zayn wonders as he sits on the edge of the couch.

Liam undoes the top few buttons on his shirt and starts on undoing the ones on his wrists before speaking. “What do you want to do tonight?”

“I think you forgot you’re paying me, babe.” Zayn reminds him.

“I am,” Liam agrees. “Do you smoke anything stronger than nicotine?”

“I don’t usually on a job,” Zayn admits. “Not exactly a professional thing to do, can’t, like, it’ll halt the performance, if you know what I mean.”

Liam barks a laugh and it brings a smile to Zayn’s lips because he’d looked so upset since the moment he’d entered the room and it made him feel a little proud that he could be the one to bring the younger lad back to himself, after what looked like to be a horrible day.

“We could fuck first?” Zayn suggests. “Then smoke?”

“That’s an amazing suggestion.” Liam agrees.

Before Zayn can open his mouth to ask when they should get started, the younger lad stalks across the room to attach their lips.

It’s an hour of fucking and cleaning off the aftermath before they find themselves on the balcony with Liam sat on the balcony wall (much to Zayn’s dismay) while Zayn sits on a chair opposite, his feet kicked up to rest beside Liam, as a tin of Liam’s ‘not nicotine’ sits in his lap.

“Can I ask you something?” Liam asks, tracing the nail of his finger down Zayn’s calf, making him shiver.

Zayn pauses where he’s focused on not overloading the spliff. “Same rules as before.”

Liam nods in agreement.

“Shoot.” Zayn tells him and returns his focus to making the spliff, in case it’s something he can’t handle.

“If you had a way out of this,” Liam starts and he waits and Zayn know he’s not going to finish until he looks at him.

He’s been here before. He’s acted too hard and had guys fall in love with him overnight. These guys are rich, willing to offer him the world and in return he wouldn’t have to do much, other than continue the act for the rest of his life. Which Zayn sometimes thinks is an easy price to pay for a comfortable life. But there’s something that always stops him, a part of his conscious that won’t let him agree.

Zayn finally looks up at Liam and offers him an assured smile.

“You wouldn’t take it,” Liam answers himself. “I could offer you all the money in the world and you wouldn’t take it.”

Zayn shrugs and returns his attention to the task at hand. “I make my own way in this world, it’s unconventional, sure, but it’s mine.”

“What would you do?” Liam asks, fingers now wrapped tightly around Zayn’s ankle. “If you won the lottery tomorrow, what would you do?”

“Buy my mum and my sisters a house,” Zayn decides, without having to really think about it. “Get them off that shitty estate and to a nice area, give my little sister Safaa a better upbringing than I ever could have dreamed of.”

Liam nods in understanding. “What about for yourself?”

“Might buy a studio,” Zayn says with a shrug as he licks the end of the paper to seal it shut. “I wouldn’t need to sell my art if I was rich so would probably paint what I want, without worrying what other people think.”

“Not caring what other people think, sounds good.” Liam decides

Zayn hums and puts the spliff between his lips before lighting it.

“What happens tomorrow?” Liam asks, as he watches him take the first drag.

Zayn takes another two drags before holding the joint out to the younger lad.

“I’m supposed to get on a plane to LA and forget about you?” Liam guesses, as he brings the join to his own lips.

“You don’t have to forget about me,” Zayn assures him. “I’m still going to exist in the world.”

“But after tomorrow, I won’t be paying you anymore so I won’t be able to see you anymore.” Liam points out.

Zayn takes the joint back from him when he offers it and brings it to his lips without answering because he doesn’t know what to say, the thought of going back to his tiny flat with Harry tomorrow and never seeing this beautiful boy’s face again, makes his chest hurt. But admitting that would be breaking the only rule he holds for himself when it comes to this job and he can’t bring himself to do it.

“If I cancel my flight tomorrow,” Liam starts, after they’d let a silence hang in the air for a few minutes. “Could I see you again?”

“Without the contract?” Zayn asks.

Liam nods his head, looking hopeful.

“What we do?” Zayn wonders.

“We could stay here?” Liam suggests. “Or we could go somewhere, I could take you somewhere, let me take you somewhere.”

Zayn takes a few more drags before holding the joint out. “Where?”

“My dad has a cabin in Scotland,” Liam tells him, ignoring the joint completely now. “Let’s go there?”

“For how long?” Zayn asks, bringing the joint back to his lips.

“However long we can.” Liam states.

Zayn would like to blame the small weed he’d put in to his system for how easy it is for him to say ‘yes’ but he knows he would be lying because as he stares at those innocent brown eyes he convinces himself they could make this work, he convinces himself that there is a chance Liam had managed to return his feelings in three short days, he convinces himself that this won’t end how he and Louis had with pain and sorrow for him and seemingly the fairy-tale ending for the other party involved.

When he says ‘yes’ he breaks the final rule and with that broken, there’s no turning back, even if he wanted to.

#i started writing this four years ago #and found the end of it in my drafts #so in all my wisdom have decided to finish it off #lol do people even read ziam anymore #lol #ziam fic #ziam #liam payne #zayn malik #writing #fic #ngwlmg

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what-ever-happened-to-chip · 3 years

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The Adventures of Squall

Squall's observations. Hmm. I don't know what Rinoa wants me to do. I guess I'll ask Eli for his notes and just give them to her. *knock knock* "Cheerio good boy, may I help you with anything?" "Do you have notes on that thing Christian was talking about?" "Ahh you've came to the right residence, just let me....hold on just a moment..." He began digging through piles of loose paper, flipping through notebooks, all whilst mumbling to himself. "Alas! Here is one of my more rudimentary charts, but it shall accomplish what you're intial questions preface." It was hard to concentrate, he was talking very fast and using a lot of words that I didn't know. Akio says because of my ASD I sometimes get what he calls "verbal dyslexia" and it's hard for me to comprehend what other people are saying, especially if they talk different from me. I'll have to concentrate very hard if I don't want Rinoa mad at me again. "But see this is where it gets confusing, we have many great forces here, coincidence? Doubtfully so, but these overlapping characteristics I believe have come here for a reason. Many of our members, including myself, have had interactions with Christos, Christian you call him, and I can't imagine why he would let so many familar faces corner him in the same scenario, unless of course he had a plan for each individual. See, I believe..." He pulled out a chair for me that I sat in. I took out my notebook so I could remember what to tell Rinoa. "If you look here on this chart.." he pulled out a large beige canvas with several pictures pinned to it, threads of twine connecting different ones. "First you see here that Christos comes to my noble world and plants himself as Cyrus, the destroyer of worlds. He taints Noah and I am his right hand man. He tells me a great many things, we can go into later. Do realize this isn't in chronilogical order, I have no way of telling yet the timeline of all our respective worlds. "Next he plants himself as an alien, "Jenova" he calls it on Gaia and and infects the whole planet. The only one to save it was Aerith who possesses extrodainary spiritual powers. She was the last chance tho and aside from her sacrifice Geostigma went on beyond her time..." "His next target, alas, Thomas. A young, troubled boy whom Christian fictionalized a companion for. An alter ego of sorts and made thomas believe it was himself. I believe he might have been weak and needed a human body to recover on. At some point Christian went to Aiden and found him by the Sanguis River, which is the border between our world and ubi requiescit dolor or "where sorrow rests. I haven't been able to spot where he showed up in Harry's world, but I do know he was there at some point. He likely was only a death eater of no great importance. Same with Roxas, Christian probably took the form of a nobody, which of course begs the question...." It was really hard for me to take notes as fast as he talked. I was really tryign to spell words better to get in the habit of it. Reading was easy for me, but writing made me nervous. I'll just get the names and maybe i'll remember. "can one become a nobody without having a form first? Perhaps that's it. He was a formed human on one planet and when he was almost destroyed at some theroetical part, he latched onto Thomas but only came back as a nobody which of course is an allusion. Details, details, but where were we? Oh yes, next on his infamous walk through time was of course Aangs world where he brought the powers of darkness to a seemingly balanced world, probably dating back to around...." I needed to yawn, but it seemed rude. I wonder how he knew all of this. He seemed confused himself. Maybe I should talk to some other people. Rinoa will be mad if I only talk to him. I should have gotten more information earlier.

“And of course Akio’s unfortunate fate with him, presenting himself as illusions to drive the man mad I’m sure. I do believe he could do that, his evil seems endless.” He paused and looked around at all his charts and papers. this will be a good time to excuse myself. "I have to use the restroom, excuse me" He didn't seem to notice me leave, he kept talking and looking at his papers. While I was walking I saw Harry with a plastic cup pressed up to a door. As I walked closer to him he dropped the cup and ran. I went to the kitchen. "Hey Zack" He was drinking really fast out of a big water bottle. Some of it was spilling on his black shirt. "Heya buddy, I broke 20 in 80, my new personal best. Gotta love the summer time." "What?" "Oh 20 miles in an hour and 20, a 4 minute average." "...." "So do you know anything about why we had to go to Camp A and Camp B?" "Ulquiorra seemed pretty on edge, everyone getting riled up like that. Maybe it's time for the old man to retire!" "What about the dark world place?" "I don't know much about that, but I tell you I sure don't know want to get to know it better if you know what I mean. Anyways bud, lactic acid builds on stiff muscles, gotta do my cool down." He then clapped me a little hard on the back, it was sort of uncomfortable, then left the room. I continued walking around looking for someone else to talk to. Rikku is on the couch watching a cartoon called the Powerpuff Girls. She is flossing on the couch? Why isn't she in the bathroom. I'll wait until she's done. I'll wait around the corner so she doesn't know I saw her doing it. After about 70 second she dropped the floss on the ground. There was a garbage can right on the table, but I guess she didn't see it.

"Hey" "Uhhh hey..." Her eyes never left the screen. "Do you know anything about the dark spirit place Christian was talking about?" "Hmmm, there was this one story Buddy used to tell us to scare us, it seems like the same thing and i don't know with all this world collide bs i wouldn't surprised if it's the same. "Do you know the story?" "I don't know ask Buddy, i'm busy." "..." Okay I wonder where Buddy is. I heard a basketball hit the basket outside. Sometimes we play basketball together. "Yo, yo, yo man 3 on 3, pussy slayers vs bitch playas." "AW SHIT" "wooof woof woof" "Which ones which?" asked Aang. "My brutha you knows yous a slaya!" on that they bumped their fists together. "I guess that means i'm with you guys" Tifa said and smiled. That means I'm on Adam's and Riku's team. I played basketball up to 21 points. My team lost. I'm good at making baskets, but not as much at passing and working with my team. "Aight, aight, how bout a smoke break and then maybe we'll give ya'll a rematch." As they all began to disperse, I walked up to Buddy. "Rikku said you could tell me a story about the dark place." "Rikku tol you that?" "Yes. The one you use to tell her." He looked both ways and then straight at me. "I don know nuthin about no story." "Okay, sorry." I guess I better ask someone else. I was getting tired. I should have done this earlier, but I see Rinoa tomorrow. I think it would be a good idea to ask Thomas. I'll see if he's in his room. *knock knock* He opened the door slow, but wide and stared at me. "Can you tell me anything about the dark place." He looked surprised and happy. Akio tells me sometimes people's facial expressions don't always show what they mean, but it's a good indicator if I'm confused. I think he wants me to come in. He was sitting in his computer chair and he had clothes folded on his bed so I don't want to sit there and get them dirty. "I find it rather odd you're the one asking me this question. Eli wasn't surprising one bit, but it's not like he'd listen if I did tell him anything." "So you don't know anything?" "Don't know anything? Yeah right. I know everything that I need to. And ultimately however this goes, there's nothing left for me to lose." "...." "I must admit it does get rather boring having to hold back such genius in my mind. Feigning ignorance on all matters that go on here just to be able to thrive. This truly is the best case scenario for me and I know i'm not alone." He was frowning now. I didn't say anything so I know he probably isn't mad at me. I've learned that most people just keep talking if you say nothing. It helps a lot because I usually have nothing to say. "Are you looking for the nitty gritty, the gory details, or simple how're you're involved?" "Rinoa wanted to me to ask people about it. She thinks we're being lied to." "HAH. Just now she thinks she's been lied to?? Foolish girl." "Rinoa is smart." "Perhaps she is, all the same it's all clouded by her ego." "....." "So rinoa wants to know about the dark world they've after all this time brought up. You have to know though, Simon wouldn't have brought it up if there wasn't some gain to him, some strategic reason for his timing. He's a puppet master, he probably knew you would be here talking to me. It's all going just to his plan.....or perhaps he thought I would kick you out and that would keep him advantageous. But he knew that i'd knew that he was planning that." I was getting pretty confused. "Who's Simon?"

He frowned at me. "He's Christian." "Okay." "That's right "Christian" has had many names, many forms. He's wormed his way into many of lives and took everything they had with them. A leech. Of course a leech needs to eat too." I had been in his room almost 15 minutes. It was probably time to talk to someone else. "The dark world, purgatory, the eternal space, the fog, every world has a different name for it. Some are ignorant, but most know that not everyone gets the "good death". It's origin is beyond me, but I know what it is now. And I know he wants to go there. He's looking for something. Or maybe he's helping someone else." "I have to go now." "Then go, i'm not keeping you if that's what you thought" Thomas sneered at me. "..." *door shuts* As I left Thomas's room, Zidane came in really quickly from the front door. He looked really skinny these days. He pulled off his knapsack and begin looking for something deep within it. I don't know why he still uses his old knapsack, a good messenger bag would look a lot nicer and be a lot less stressful on his shoulders. "OKAY DADDY'S HOME, who wants to party???" As people began pouring into the dining room, they gathered around as he poured a large bag of cocaine out onto the clean glass table top. I remembered when I went fishing the other day how when I dropped bread crumbs in little fish would swarm to all try and get the food at once. It reminded me of that. I used to do cocaine sometimes with Irvine and his friends, but Akio says that it might make my OCD and ASD worse. I didn't want to mess with it, I had already had a stressful day. That's good enough for now. I'll just go to bed and maybe in the morning someone will talk about it and I won't have to ask. I did my bedtime rituals in the normal order, brush teeth, clean face, comb hair, change out of all clothes into two pairs of fresh underwear, socks, and pajamas. It was nice tonight I could turn off the air conditioner. I rested my head on the pillow. The cocaine was making everyone rowdy and I could hear it. Great I could hear Aiden yelling from his room that was right next to mine, on the side my bed was pushed against. I've asked Garnet multiple times if he could switch rooms, but she says no one wants his room cause it smells like blood and has a bunch of holes in the walls. And I was definitely not going to switch my room, everyone was right in it, it didn't need to change. I don't want to spy on people, but last time I said I wouldn't do what Rinoa wanted she threatened to not talk to me for a month. Instead, she talked, or more so bitched, the entire month at me, never letting me have some peace and quiet. I don't want that again.

I took out my nightly form to see how I’’m doing and filled it out.

Anxiety: 8/10

Mood: 6/10

Insomnia: 2/10

OCD: 7/10

Triggers: Talking to people, missing lunch because no one would leave the kitchen, having to ask questions, shoe lace breaking and not having a replacement.

Medication issues: None

Overall: 6/10

He kept yelling, but I could hear another voice too. He often talked to himself so at least when someone else was there, it was only half yelling. I really didn’t want to do it, but I felt Rinoa demanding me why I didn’t. I didn’t like lying to her.

I remembered Harry earlier. I poured my water cup out and pressed my ear against the bottom of it. "Denny if that's the case, what do you have to lose?" "EVERYTHING. DON'T YOU GET IT!!! I've been waiting too long for you to FUCK things up." "Well I do admire your dilligence Denny, you truly never give up." "I will never give up, I will never stop until things are right." "Being when you have Jenn back?" "NO SHIT. All you are is a pawn. There is no other reason you're here." "The life of a king or the life of a pawn, really only is affected by perspective. I take my place with pride and am grateful for whatever else life I get to cherish." "I've waited long enough, i'll wait forever, but I sure as fuck don't want to." "Aside from your said goals, I am curious, did J really return from there?" "Fuck if I know. It has nothing to do with me." "There feels as if there is things you aren't telling me Denny." "WELL HOW THE FUCK DID IT GO LAST TIME I DID." "Please.....I want to help." "As long as Christian holds up his end of the deal, I won't need to use you. And he has the same goal." "I get the feeling you two are not alone in your quest. Are there others?" "Yeah but they're not important really. Just gotta an eye on them." "Even more useless than I?" "No one could be more useless than you." "Ahh how appropriate I and Lana are spending our time in this waiting room together, both readily discardable part of the larger schemes of the world. I've never felt quite so zen before." "haha maybe they should bring Liza around and see how well you two get along." "I believe they would get along splendidly. they like the same music, both androgenous yet stunningly feminine, thrill seeking." "Ur forgetting one thing, cock makes bitches crazy, look at Jenn and Yuna. They'd be the best friends in the world if Yuna hadn't sucked my dick." "And by Jenn, you mean that girl masaqurading as your girlfriend?" "Watch it fucker." "I'm only stating your sentiment seems strangely misplaced seeing Yuna is in real danger whereas "Jenn" is only what you make her to be" "I don't think anything has to happen to her, but if it does she knew what she was getting into." "Yes, but that was a long time ago. A long time before now I would have sacrificed myself for your well being, do you think things are the same now?" ".......what do you mean..? but you....just said...WHAT THE FUCK DO YOU MEAN??????!!!!!!!" "I was only teasing Denny, of course I'm here at your service, seeing of course you are the sole reason I am here. I don't think it's wise to betray our gods." "Heh yeah right, I'm your fucking god." "Indeed I am in religious awe." "heh yeah sure. So fucker whatchu got in the briefcase." "Zidane went and filled my reservoirs, I'm back in business" "Hook it up bitch." "I wouldn't have it any other way." After that they started talking quieter in a way that didn't bother me, Finally I can go to sleep.

#cheeseskittles #squall

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sincerlypadfoot · 4 years

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PadFoot (1)

Warning - Abuse, Smut (I am terrible at explaining so it won't be too explicit unless requested) and Underage drinking (Don't drink if your underage please)

Word Count 2706

“Look Prongs, there she is, just sitting all along, every day, the same darn tree, reading the same book, alone,” Sirius Black said standing on top of a hill, looking down at the brunette headed girl.

“She's always alone Pad, I don't know what to tell you, I’ve never heard her speak a word, even in the common room, she sits alone reading her books by the fire,” James Potter said standing up. “It's getting late, I’m heading back,” He said patting Sirius on the back and walking away. He sat there watching the girl, watching her move the hair out of her face and flip ever page.

“Really,” I said to herself as I read the last chapter of her book disappointed. “You weren’t supposed to kiss the girl,” I said shaking her head.

“Woof!” I heard in front of me, looking over her book to see a black fluffy dog sitting in front of her.

“Shoo!” I said shover my hands at the dog but he didn't budge, he just sat there with his tongue out smiling. “Oh come here, what's your name?” I said giving in to the dog's charm and putting my arm out for the dog to sit beside me. “Padfoot huh,” I said lifting his collar up and looking at the name.

Hours passed and it was dark now, I was still sitting with the dog, talking to him and telling him about myself. “Everyone thinks I’m weird that I don't talk but its really because I’m scared, I say the wrong thing at my house and the punishments are never good for me, so I just don’t talk unless spoken to, which doesn't get me far,” I told the dog as I leaned back against the tree knowing I had to go soon. “you should go, I have to sneak into the school and god knows what’ll happen to you if you get caught let alone me,” I said kissing the top of Padfoot's head and gathering my things.

Padfoot ran ahead of me, disappearing to my sights, something in me felt sorrowful for what I said to the dog, he probably didn't need to hear about all my problems but he did and was grateful when he got to leave.

“Student out of bed?” I heard as soon as I entered the school, ms Norris was in front of me but I covered my face and booked it back to the Gryffindor Common room.

“Hello, coming back late now are we,” Sirius Black said all sweaty sitting on the couch. I walked right passed him. “I know your secret,” He said making me stop.

“You don't know anything about me now, do you even know my name,” I spat at him, if I ever said something like that at my house I wouldn't even see the light of day for a week.

“Your name is y/n y/l/n,” He said and I was surprised. “You’re in the same year as me, I know that you're the smartest girl in this school but you haven't spoken a word for 6 years until now,” Sirius said stepping towards me. “Enlighten me please, I’m your friend,” He said triggering something in me.

“I don't have friends, no one is my friend,” I said walking away up to my room, my bedroom, having to not share with anyone. Which tonight felt different, tonight was the first night that I had spoken to someone in this school who wasn't a teacher, who was claiming to be my friend, who knew my name.

A week went by and Sirius grey eyes just pierced the back of my neck whenever I was around, I avoided him like a fly to a hand, whenever he tried talking to me, I just walked away, disappearing, but that damn dog, Padfoot, ever night at that tree he would just sit there, as I read my book and didn't run away when I told him stuff.

“Sirius Black, what can I say about him,” I said to the dog who was laying on my lap. “I don't know why he tries so hard to be my friend, the last friend I even had got me in so much trouble that I almost died on my parent's hands,” I said angrily closing my book in frustration. “And I don't wanna tell him that, because he doesn't need to know that, I just don't want friends is all, their no good and they just end up hurting me,”

Padfoot got up from my lap, licked my hand and ran away out of sight, my cue to sneak back into the common room before the fat lady and Ms. Norris could rat me out for being out, and of course, when I walked in, Sirius Black, sitting on the couch reading a book.

“I find the ending to this book bad, he wasn't supposed to kiss the girl, she stabbed him in the chest, almost killing him and betrayed him but he still kissed her, out of love,” Sirius said showing me the cover of the book, the same book I had finished reading a couple days ago.

“Did you go into my room?” I asked trying to take the book out of his hands but he snatched it faster away then I could grab it.

“No, actually I got it from the library cause I like to read,” He said smirking at me with a devilish smirk. “Can I take you out? One date at Hogsmeade, I don’t bite,” He asked.

“Why?” Is all I could come up with, never had I been asked out, or been talked to by anyone in this school. “One drink, something good, something that will just make me feel better about you taking me out,” I said to him, his smirk became bigger.

“Goodnight y/n, I’ll see you for our date tomorrow, twelve o’clock,” He shouted up at me as I entered my room and collapsed at my door and just smiled. A date with Sirius Black.

“You look nice,” I said to Sirius walking down to the common room, he was dressed in a black shirt and shorts to match. “I’m ready to go,” I said as he just looked at me.

“You look very nice,” He said putting his hand out for me to grab. “We’re gonna go get some butterbeer, I’ll tell you a little about me, you tell me a little about you then we can go somewhere because just for you a took some of my fire whisky stash out just for this moment,” Sirius said smiling at me, his eyes were grey, reminding me of the dog, That damn dog I pour my heart out to every night.

“Is this some sort of bet with your friends, you try getting the quiet girl to the bed and win the best fuck boy prize?” I asked catching his attention, he turned around and looked at me.

“Did something do that to you cause I could kill them,” Sirius said getting angry but it just made me laugh.

“No, but from what I’ve heard you bring girls after girls in your bed so I was wondering if I was one of those girls because I don't wanna be one of those girls who go have a one night stand with the Sirius Black,” I told him, he just signed in relief.

“No your not one of those girls, I just wanna take you out on a date, show you how you should be treated by a guy, and if you wanna have a second date and this one goes well then maybe it’ll be a nice thing to have,” He said making my heart melt.

“Wow, I didn't think you were capable of saying something so nice to something,” I said joking around as he opened the door to the three broomsticks. “Two butterbeer please,” I said to the working and sitting down at a booth.

“Look at you, all talkative didn't know it took one conversation to get you to speak,” Sirius said joking around and grabbing our two butterbeers from the waitress. “So tell me about yourself, your family?” Sirius asked already know about her family life.

“I don't wanna talk about family, but I have three brothers, all older, one goes to this school but you wouldn't know him,” I said chugging some of the butterbeer. “What about you?” I asked.

“Ran away from home, living at my best friends because I have different beliefs then my parents, but it's okay,” Sirius said smiling and drinking his butterbeer.

“You might not understand but I get it, I didn't run away from home but I have different beliefs then my parents too, they’re just not to nice with what I think,” I told him shrugging my shoulders.

“Come on, let's go somewhere else,” Sirius said drinking the rest of his drink and so did I. “I do wanna get to know you, I think your a nice girl and that you should be treated with respect,” He said rubbing his head on the back of his neck.

“So where exactly are we going? I asked as we walked back into Hogwarts, Sirius now had a map in hand.

“A secret place, where we can’t get caught drinking illegal, stole fire whisky,” He said nervously laughing. “And if we do get caught, which we won't, I have a plan for that too,” He said smiling. “In here,” Sirius said opening a door, leading down.

“I can't go down there,” I said backing away from the door. “I can Sirius, shes gonna hurt me,” I closed my eyes, my heart was beating.

“No one's gonna hurt you, I promise, I won't let a soul harm you, come on,” He said putting his hand out and reaching out for mine. “She's not gonna hurt you, I’ll protect you if she does,” He whispered in my ear, making my open my eyes and looking at him. We walked down the stairs, the door closing behind us makes me jump but Sirius put his arms around me. “Look, it's okay, the lights are on, no ones down here but you and I,” He said and I uncovered my eyes, it was a rec room. “Don’t tell anyone about this, James, Peter and Remus are my best friends and they don’t even know about this,” He said sitting down on a sofa.

“So what do you do down here Sirius?” I asked looking around, he really made this his home, posters were on the wall, a nice bed made, a pool table around and a sofa in front of a t.v

“The room of requirement, this is mine, have you heard about the door that pops up when you need it?” He asked and I nodded my head, touching all the things around. “All the Christmas breaks I didn't go home, I spent here telling my friends that I went home,” He said handing me a blanket.

“Thanks,” I said to him sitting down on a bed, the sheets her soft velvet and the blankets were as soft as dog fur. “So,” I said tapping my feet against the bed frame, unable to touch the floor cause I was too short.

“Here,” Sirius said handing me a bottle, he moved to the other side of the bed holding the fire whisky in his hand, “It's not as bad as you think,” He said as I took a drink and the beverage desperately burnt the back of my throat making my cough.

“That was good, you have a whole stash? I asked rubbing my throat. “Can you not tell anyone what I said when I was coming down here, me being scared?” I asked before he could answer my other question.

“Whatever happens in this room, stays in this room, you can tell me anything you know,” Sirius said taking a huge swig of his drink. “I promise what you tell me, won't tell another soul,” He said putting his pinky out, we interlocked pinkies.

“At home, if I said something wrong, spoke out, defied what my parents believed in or even looked the wrong way at them, I would be sent to the basement, magic was helpless down there, they would set spiders loose, huge ones and the noises they would set up were just horrendous,” I said stopping and holding back my tears. “They never hit me, until I said I was gonna leave and never come back, then my mom hit me in the face, I haven't talked to her since,” I said now crying.

“Its okay y/n, it's okay, they won't hurt you again, not when I’m here with you,” Sirius said wrapping his arms around me and this was the time where I felt safe, where I trusted something not to hurt me, where I could tell someone the truth and they would believe me.

“Sirius,” I whispered as he poked his head up and looked at me. “You have really nice eyes,” I said and that was the end of the conversation, we crashed our lips into each other, his hands around my waist and mine in his hair, running down his curls. I pushed Sirus over, crawling on top of him not breaking the kiss we shared. Until we needed to break to breathe.

“Huh didn't know you were the ruff type,” Sirius said making me blush, my face went pink but he cupped it. “It's okay, I like it,” He whispered connecting our lips again, this time putting his cold hands in my shirt, I rubbed the sides of his ribs, down to his waist. His mouth tasted like a combination of the fire whisky we just drank and chocolate, nice sweet chocolate.

I tugged at his shirt a bit, slowly dropping it off of him, breaking the kiss for a second, his hands fumbled in my shirt, raising me up and undoing my bra. “Are you sure about this?” Sirius asked looking at me, his lips swollen with my lips probably looking the same.

“As long as you don’t sneak away at night,” I whispered putting my hand on his face and smiling. Sirius dropped my shirt off, undoing my bra and covering me with a blanket.

“Don’t worry, you’re stuck with me,” Sirius whispered in my ear sliding my pants off with another hand as he kissed my neck, I let out a small moan, making Sirius bite a bit harder, my hands flew to his back and my feet curling up. “Are you sure now?” Sirius asked one more time making sure I was really okay with it.

“Okay now you’re being a tease,” I whispered putting my hands on my pants and undoing them. “What better time then now,” I said to him pushing my pants down to my feet.

“God your hot,” Sirius said kissing my lips and undoing is pants at the same time, I could feel his pants slide down my cold legs and hit my feet, his dick was rubbing against my vagina. Sirius's hands were cold making my flinch a bit as he slipped his hands under my underwear, rubbing my clit making my head tilt back and Sirius’ lips attack the exposed part of my neck, one hand was in my underwear playing around well the other pulled his boxers down taking my underwear with them.

“That was amazing,” I said dropping off of Sirius and landing on the other side of the bed. “Sirius?” I asked looking over at him.

“I think that was the best sex I’d ever had,” He said on his back looking up at the roof. “So that second date?” He asked turning his body to face me.

“I think I might have to agree on that second date now,” I said leaning over his face and kissing him. “Maybe more dates if that one good too,” I snickered making Sirius wrap his arms around me.

“Your very talkative you know,” He said making me giggle as he slid his hands down. “Very very talkative,” He seductive said rolling me over and turning a smile on his face.

#sirius x y/n #sirius black #siriusblack x reader #sirius #sirius imagine #sirius black x you #Siriusxyou #HarryPotter

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The definition of Stress is “a physiological or biological response to a stressor such as an environmental condition. Stress is the body’s way of reacting to a condition such as a threat, challenge or physical and psychological barrier”.

We sometimes have to have uncomfortable conversations with dog owners, because as much as we love all dogs, sometimes our environment just isn’t suited to all dogs. FACT!! This doesn’t mean you are a bad dog owner, or you have a bad dog, it just means we are the wrong choice for your dogs needs.

Some people may choose to continue to work with your dog, take your money, and allow your dog to be uncomfortable and or become “stressed”, because they need the business or most likely, they are not noticing the subtle signs that your dog is unhappy, but we don’t work like that, and if your dog is not comfortable here, we will likely discuss this with you and come up with a plan to ensure everyone is happy, both humans and dogs.

Stress can present in many ways with dogs, and this post isn’t about how it is presented but why it is presented, because if you can understand why, then that may help you understand why we don’t want to cause any extra stress for your dog.

We may tell you that your dog is excessively humping, displaying aggressive behaviours, excessively barking, becoming nervous, or simply not wanting to be here. Your dog isn’t being naughty, they are usually stressed by our very over stimulated environment and asking us for help.

I am a biologist, and I am a geek, and I work with 60 dogs a day so let’s talk dog biology.

The Central Nervous System (CNS) and Peripheral Nervous System (PNS) are responsible for all of a dog’s bodily functions.

The Peripheral Nervous System controls the Autonomic Nervous System (ANS), which is responsible for all involuntary responses by your dog. Involuntary responses being the functions that your dog does not have to think about before doing them.

The ANS never stops functioning, but it will adjust what it does dependant on the situation presented. It increases functions or regulates functions but it never stops functioning, unless due to ill health.

To confuse matters, the ANS splits into 2 divisions:

The Sympathetic Division which is stimuli responsive, and controls Critical Survival Responses, think “Fight or Flight," activates stress responses, and your dog does not have any control over what he does, during this type of response. He is being driven by survival. A dog who is threatened or in a stressful situation may react out of character, for example, a dog who is injured may bite you or your vet, this isn’t unusual and this is not a display of aggression or a naughty behaviour, it is a survival response.

Then there is the Parasympathetic Division of the ANS which is responsible for the regulation of every day functions, Heart Rate, Respiration, Hormone Production and Rest and Digest to name a few. Through hormone regulation, the Parasympathetic Nervous System will “normalise” the body after a stressful event. This is how dogs stabilise and return to a normal behaviour, and move on from a stressful situation, and return to a “normal” biological state.

Examples of isolated stressful events, which are usually quickly overcome are the occasional trips to the vet, once yearly fireworks night, loud noises whilst building works maybe taking place or after an accident or injury. These short-term stressors for most dogs can be upsetting at the time of incident, and can cause a dog to present with anxiety and unwanted behaviour, however the stress should quickly dissipate and the body should “normalise” when the Parasympathetic Nervous System recognises the issue and kicks in.

Important to note here is that it can take up to 72 hours, for hormone levels to normalise and this would be subject to NO further stressors taking place. A dog will usually remember such an incident, and will learn in the example of becoming injured or frightened not to put himself in that danger again, he should however not continue to be “stressed," over a one off event.

In cases of continued stressful events, it is much more complex, and difficult to understand, and much more important to treat and take professional advice on, either from a qualified canine behaviour therapist, or your vet.

When we think of dogs who are “Stressed”, “Anxious”, “Reactive”, “Naughty”, “Out of Control” (all terms we hear on a daily basis at Woof Walkies, from clients), we actually need to look at what is happening, on a molecular level, before we can figure out how to treat the situation here, and decide if our environment is suitable for the dog.

Dogs are not born nervous, anxious or stressed. They develop these conditions over a long period of time, following prolonged and repeated release of stress hormones.

As discussed above, in the event of a one off stressor, stress hormones will be released, but then the body will return to normal, usually within 72 hours. The dog will continue to act in a stable, and normalised biological state. If however, a stress trigger is on repeat, for prolonged periods of time, every individual stressful event that takes 72 hours to recover from, builds up, and that 72 hour recovery period, is never met. The dog never achieves a “normal” biological state.

Here is one example of how a dog may become clinically “stressed”. A young puppy in a “normal” biological state with no cares in the world, is taken for a walk to the park. He is on his lead, with nowhere to escape to, and is run at by an over zealous, over friendly, large dog, who knocks him to the floor and jumps all over him, being overly playful. The big, scary, dog is removed from the situation, and pup is physically unharmed, but is left shaken and scared, but his mum looks after him and takes him home to safety.

The puppy is then taken for his walk the following day, and he is again on the lead, and another dog is walking towards him, the other dog isn’t too happy around other dogs but his mum really wants to see the puppy. Sadly, the unhappy dog, lunges at the puppy and really scares him, pup drops to the floor, and the unhappy dog barks really loud at the puppy. Both mums want to chat about the puppy and both dogs continue to be in a “stressed” state. Once again, the puppy finally gets home after his second ordeal, although remember he is already still in a “stressed state," from yesterday, and now has to deal with this on top.

What is even worse is, the neighbours who live next door to the pup have 3 noisy and over playful dogs, and they keep barking over the garden wall at the pup, causing him to be a bit nervous for the rest of the evening. Pup knows they are in the garden, all the time, so every time he goes out into his back yard, he is also becoming stressed by the neighbours dogs, even though, they haven’t hurt him in anyway. All he wants to do is learn to toilet safely.

At this point, pups mum knows he is a bit anxious, he is a bit fearful and timid, but it’s ok, she is sending him to daycare tomorrow and on Thursday and Friday too, whilst she goes to work all day. She can’t wait, as her little pup, will learn to love dogs……won’t he……?!?!

STOP: Puppy has had 3 really traumatic events happen, all associated with dogs, in the last 48 hours, biologically, pup isn’t going to recover from this until Saturday, and that is based on him having no more stress in between. Sending him to daycare is only going to heighten his stress and make him even more fearful of dogs. Unfortunately, we don’t know about the previous events because his mum didn’t tell us, and so we do everything we can to encourage pup to be sociable and probably cause him even more stress, without even knowing it.

After 4 weeks of the pup being continually stressed, and being subjected to more and more stress, including the neighbours dogs continuing to cause the pup to feel uncomfortable, and the pup coming to daycare 3 days a week, we need to look at what biological state the puppy is now in.

The pup has now been subjected to “long term stress”, and the repeated release of Adrenaline, Cortisol and Norepinephrine, mean that the pup is probably presenting with obvious stress signals, such as separation anxiety, reactivity towards dogs, being destructive at home, especially when he hears the neighbours dogs, seemingly unwilling to go for walks, being nervous and unsettled at daycare, excessive barking, humping, excessive grooming, over stimulated behaviour, and loss of appetite, amongst many more symptoms.

As the pup gets older, and continues to stay in this unstable state, and his stress hormones are always active, he is unable to normalise, and he develops behavioural issues, which puts his physical health also at risk. Whilst a dog is stressed, he will likely be in “fight or flight” mode constantly. Dogs when in this survival mode, will have a depressed digestion capacity, and will suffer with a decreased appetite, they are constantly on survival alert and ready to run away, and for that, they do not want a belly full of food, which would slow them down.

The dog is now not eating very well, is quite lethargic, which is probably due to the reduced intake of calories, is losing weight or unable to maintain his ideal weight, he has less energy and will be a lot more susceptible to ill health and autoimmune issues. So now, the dog is showing behavioural issues, not wanting to exercise, not wanting to eat, and appears depressed and dog reactive.

Mum is doing everything to help her pup. Changing his food to see if he’ll eat better, but this gives him a bad belly, which makes him feel poorly, and stressed…….She walks him in new places to see if he prefers it there, but this is an unfamiliar and even more scary place, which makes him stressed. She takes him to puppy training where he will learn to “behave," but this is just more stress. She even tries a new doggy day care, because we say he is unhappy here. BUT this is just new people, new routine, new dogs, he doesn’t even want to be with dogs……..And they have no reference to how pup used to be in his “normal” state…………and so enter the ladder of aggression. This is a separate article, but can you see how this story will unfold…...

If we suggest that your dog is “stressed” at Woof Walkies, it is usually an indication that we believe your dogs welfare is at risk. It is not a cop out by us, and it is not us giving up on a difficult dog. We are really just looking out for their best interests.

Not all stress in dogs stems from other dogs, in-fact it is quite unusual here, most dogs blooming love it, but there will usually be something that you should be able to pin point, which is causing your dog to be “stressed”.

How the dog presents with stress will be dependant on your dog as an individual, but learn what is “normal dog behaviour," attend them canine behaviour and communication classes, not obedience classes, behaviour classes. Your dog doesn’t need to be forced to sit, stay and wait right now, he needs to learn to trust you.

Learn about canine body language, speak to your vet, and more importantly, listen to your dog. They are usually trying really hard to tell you they are not happy, trust them! Don’t let them climb that ladder of aggression because they have no other choice.

Apologies for the dodgy diagrams, they were my starting point, but they maybe a bit more useful for those people who are visual learners.

Any questions ask.

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survivor-mesopotamia · 4 years

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Ep. #3 - "I'm just throwing stuff at things that I don't even know exists" (Isabelle)

I'm pretty nervous for this immunity challenge. Given that its a flash game roulette, I fully expect the other returnee tribe to get the highest score, so we have to strategize our point values for each game. I decided to play winterbells since no one else wanted to, but we need to put the lowest value there because I know there's no chance I will win it with people like Monty and Johnny who could end up playing it. If we strategize the points right, we could stay safe as well. I really don't want to vote anyone from our tribe off.

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praying jj is the cheater

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i was gonna make a real confessional, but ill save it for tomorrow. i'd just like to say i literally look like a CRAZY person scoring 2 billion in winterbells and not thinking it was enough when the other scores were 300k and 2 million. i gtg

YES We've won our third immunity challenge and it feels pretty good. I will say that right now I do feel kinda stagnant because you know we have yet to go to tribal council but yet at the same time I don't want to go. Honestly I've been loving the tribe Michael is truely the only one I question like their whole demanor becuase they felt almost like they where constantly trying to hand off their part of the challenge to literally anyone else but also with Collin mostly because he seems to be coming off kinda................forced is probably the best word for it. Well I don't know till next time ttyl

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C7: https://youtu.be/fCmPRxLuFv8 C8: https://youtu.be/HH8tYuHGDFg

Going into tribal tonight SUCKS. I don't want any of us 6 going, but it has to be done. So far the discussion seems to be all about voting Chrissa out. My personal opinion on it is indifferent. Our conversations were pretty short and I was usually the one to initiate it. I feel more bonded with the other players on my tribe. I discussed it with Julian and it looks like that's the plan in execution at the moment. We have an alliance with JJ and I'm not sure if JJ knows yet because he hasn't said anything yet. As for Will, who I consider a really close ally, he had the same thoughts. Basically there's a lot of as long as it isn't me mindsets because it's a really difficult vote. Megan approached me about making a chat with us three together which is pretty interesting. It looks as though I'm in two chats now. One with JJ and Julian and another with Megan and Will. I'd like to think that's a good sign but the only good sign in a game is when the person who everyone said was going home goes home, so fingers crossed.

https://soundcloud.com/collin-vodicka-771937060/enlil-tribe-sucks

So once again, the Enki tribe has slayed the immunity challenges, however, I am one of the weaker people when playing comps. I am predicting a tribe swap next round though, but I'm also prepping for the possibility we have to go to tribal. I have made a really strong bond with Zach, and I am extremely close with Grace. I have started to get to know Adam, and I think Collin likes the "Team Grocery Store" thing we have going on since we are both baggers at grocery stores. I'm not that close with Michael or Cameron, so I wouldn't mind if one of them left if we had to vote someone out. But as of now, I am continuing to serve as a mentor to these new players and trying to give the full truth to them so that I have good relationships with them going forward. Also, last night I discovered a youtube link in the Idol System page of the Tumblr blog. It showed dancing crabs and the URL says "Step One." I did notice however that there were 140 views already when i found it the first time. So I assume someone already knows about the video on my tribe and has figured it out already. But it still does not hurt to try to get an idol. It at least gives me closure and gives me something to do while I let these newbies overplay the game like Zach is. Concerning the future of this game, if there is a tribe swap, I need to figure out how to get in good with these returnees. The newbie players are in a minority, however I am familiar with Megan Julian and JJ. I don't know anyone on the An tribe, but I guess thats the fun in getting to know people. I just have to be as nice as possible and try not to come off as a douche to them because they have played this game before. I haven't. The last thing I want is for people to think I am an entitled asshole. I want to stay civil and let people want to work with me instead of me forcing myself onto them. Finally I have a legit confessional LMFAO

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We won immunity! I was worried for a moment my score wouldn't be good enough cause I hurt my hand a couple days ago so I had to take lots of breaks to ice it. And i mean it was close...between first and second. Like damnnnn they got 0 points. That really has to be a hit to their tribe morale. But speaking of tribe morale, I really feel connected to my tribe. I've had a good time just talking to everyone. I think the person I've talked to the least is Abby but even then I really like her. I think there's a really good chance we swap after tonight's tribal, even though Johnny thinks it'll happen at 16. If we do swap, the person I want most on my tribe is Benji. Obviously since he's been gone from the community for ages, there's nothing linking us together so obviously like playing Malaysia with Isabelle, hosting Johnny in Flops, and hosting Lazio with Monty, not to mention the amount of seasons he hosted me in Pacific Islands (RIP). He's also very personable so I think he could gain us new allies. P.S. Prayer circle for Chrissa and Eric tonight, if I can swap with either one of them that would be a MIRACLE

me in my mesopotamia application: i dont want to end up in a ride-or-die pair. i always get fucked over and do worse than the person im aligned close with. benji: also if i didnt make it clear already you're my #1 in this game and the only way id write your name down is to win like im not going on call with the other tribemates and comparing notes i feel like im a lot more reserved around the others this was the first alliance i made and im sticking to it! me: you're my #1 too! no way i could write your name down either just in case that was not clear oifjeoijrf history repeats itself, baby! honestly its too early to tell if ill meet the same fate as i have in the past with my close 2s/3s (shoutout ash, sara, nick w + christine), but here we are. god as i sent that message i knew immediately it's gonna bite me in the butt later on. like i wasn't lying, i do really trust benji more than anyone else in this game BUT I NEED TO PLAY FOR ME this time! woof.

so i don't wanna talk to my host chat because drew is gonna not be proud of me and that's not okay I knew it from last night and today no one talking to me it's gonna be me no one ever wants me at merge so it's fine I could fight for it but JJ has given up so i guess that's it.

Things are... still good! We continue to do well enough in challenges that all strategic talk has been pretty much confined to agreeing to stay united and get everyone in the tribe as far as we can. It’s been surprisingly relaxed so far.

RIP Chrissa she didn't deserve this

from chrissa's boot ep https://youtu.be/02a8QiaQG8M

Chrissa voted out 5-1

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fmlfpl · 4 years

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Lineup Lamentations - GW32+

Our Transfers, Captains, and Starting 11s for the week!

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WALSH

TRANSFERS:

OUT: Richarlison and Vardy

IN (for -4 points hit): Pulisic and Kane

Sticking with the pod shout of Kane but went Puli over Dilv after some more introspection and consultation.

Chasing the explosive player here with Puli and while obviously I'm concerned over his minutes and security of start, he looks on song so hoping that he maintains this hot form and keeps it going. He's always had great underlying stats whenever he's played which is nice.

Feels a little bit bad binning Rich after the one blank but he was anonymous and has some rough fixtures up ahead. If he and Everton looked good and battered Norwich as I expected them to then I would probably not have binned him but they didn't so I am.

Kane I don't feel like I need to say much more about. Taking the plunge off the back of one performance we'll see how he goes. Hopefully O’Connell is still dead..and I am definitely worried that if he returns and they have their old back five back...that they suddenly revert to type and keep it tight against Spurs. Hopefully he's not back and they still look like utter shite as they have done in each and every 90 so far come next week.

GK:

de Gea (bha)

DDG goes again.

At this point, looking at their fixtures and how they're grooving, I'd be kinda surprised in any game that they concede in. Brighton will probably give them a tough game but they are far, far, far away from being a competent attacking outfit.

DEF:

Maguire (bha)

Slab makes up the double here and he looks like a steady hold for the rest of the season.

Doherty, Saiss, and Boly (avl)

As with last gameweek, triple Wolves D goes again with the Dock, Saiss, and Boly.

Two days off going to Villa seems ok to me...Villa been tight and parked so far so as long as Wolves don't get hit on the counter they should be okay for the clean. They're going to concede one of these days...but hopefully it is not tomorrow.

MID:

Pulisic (whu)

New friend Pulisic goes to Wet Spam in a nice fixture but, again, with FA Cup this weekend who knows if he'll be in the XI or not.

Either way, I'm not going to sweat the team sheet and as long as he is playing well when he is in he should come back with some points to show.

Fernandes (bha)

Bruno is still really involved and Brighton feel like a really good shout for a pen with all their donk fucks at the back. Still really like Bruno a lot as an FPL asset - a lot a lot - and is the kind of player where it feels unusual when he blanks.

Salah and Mane (mci)

Rounding out the midfield are the Livp guys Mo and Mane. Newly minted champs going to take on old champs and I've no clue what to make of this one. Will just run the lads out and see how it goes.

FWD:

Calvert-Lewin (LEI)

DCL retains his spot and it's been nothing but fun since nabbing him off the restart with a blank and then captain blank straight away.

Still really like the look of him and although Leicester are a parked bus wank factory team I still back him regardless of fixture. Stats still been fine, points should come.

Kane (shu)

Alongside is Kane. Kane is back, welcome back Harold, old friend.

CAP:

Kane (shu)

Kane obv.

As discussed on the pod the days off here matter a lot to me and while Sheffu will undoubtedly look better with Egan and Hendo back in as long as JOC is still out they have still been being got at.

Everything was funneling through and to Kane, and long may that continue.

Hopefully he's able to find the game and not get boxed out against 3 CBs and come home with some points. Even though there have only been two gameweeks since the restart I have 270 minutes of captaincy blanks. Woof. Good luck Harold.

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ALON

TRANSFERS:

OUT: N/A

IN: N/A

Saving here feels... ok? It feels passive but in actuality my team is in fine shape nothing urgent and my “bad” picks have good fixtures so I’m holding and looking to make some big moves in the coming weeks.

Sensible or whatever...

GK:

Ederson (LIV)

Feels so annoying that I planned to have Leno for last GW where Arsenal cleaned and then this GW Arsecast are home to Norwich when Eddy is probably gonna get fucked by Liverpool :)... Oh well this is fine.

Hopefully after this GW City can rack up the cleans as I suspect they will do.

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Alexander-Arnold (mci)

Undroppable supreme being.

Maguire (bha)

Agree with what Walsh said above. Defense has been great all season and they should just breeze through this stretch without much trouble to be honest.

Doherty (avl)

Don’t really need to say shit about Dock he’s great, he’s a great pick, we all own him, we all want him to score, he might score a goal this week, Vlila are bad, and yeah.

MID:

Son (shu)

Worried about Son in this new role as expressed on the pod.

That said SHU are a bottom five team in the division and hopefully Spurs run riot on their tired shitty asses for Son’s sake and for Walsh’s Kane cap sake. Up the potato farmers.

Martial and Fernandes (bha)

Tony Two Gloves was the sex machine we’ve been waiting for for like 5 years last GW and it felt so so so good. Love him and feel great about shouting him hard on the pods leading up to GW30+ and rolling into the period with him. Go on Tony.

Bruno will keep ticking and todding although it does seem a little bit to me like he needs pens to really be consistent which I obviously hate.

Traore (avl)

Rolling with Adama over Saka I duno. He’s an actual cyborg machine unit so maybe rest is just not required for him and he’ll keep ticking his assists. Love the dude and he’s being getting it done for me thus far.

FWD:

Aubameyang (NOR)

Don’t talk to me don’t even look at me.

I don’t know what to say about Auba and if he blanks home Norwich well fuck me right up my ass maybe I’ll never ever own him again if he fucks us again this week. Could be a thing for me. Hope he starts... but rest in FA Cup and/or in prem seems likely.

Jimenez (avl)

The human clock - he just keeps ticking.

Calvert-Lewin (LEI)

Also going DCL over Saka mostly for assurance of starts/minutes but ya know also Saka is a better IRL player then a FPL prospect it seems like early doors.

DCL still has goals in him and maybe Leicester will give Everton a little space to counter? Either that or it’s going to be the most boring game of the week because neither team are gonna throw punches and it’s just going to be middle third fuckery and meaningless possession... Who knows?

CAP:

Martial (bha)

Brighton’s not close to being one of the worst defensive teams in the league but they’re also not good at all.

It became a simple choice for me talking and thinking it through over the last 24ish hours as I’m seeing a lot of United predicted lineups for FA Cup and they’re thinking Ole is gonna make a TON of changes up to around 9 changes (and truthfully they’re deep as fuck with a backup 11 they would still likely beat Norwich with ease imo).

Also Tony’s in the best form of his actual career and life and with Bruno and Paul play-making in front of their defense I just love the look of United right now and scoring goals and Tony is at the center of everything.

He’s on fire let’s go with it. Aubz minutes are not assured and Arsenal are kind of bad and here we go Tone. Tone time.

#lineup lamentations

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