#why am i. crying? its not a bad cry (?)

[darkxsoulzyx]

Guys the animation memes lied to me guys 😔😔😔😔 /j /lh

#darkzyx #gaming time #rain world #slug dark #ITS FUN BUT SO SCARY #I SCREAMED WHEN I GOT MAULED BY A LIZARD #THIS GAME IS SO SCARY BUT SO FUN BUT SO SCARY #ME CLUTCHING TO EVERY STICK LIKE MY LIFE FUCKING DEPENDS ON IT #WHY AM I SO BAD AT PLATFORMING #WHERE AM I SUPPOSED TO GOOOO #CRYING

[skunkes]

(trying to be) happy to be here

#a doodley #1st pic is from last yr #im an easy crier and lately its bc i hate the way my life is going but then i think abt how one day ill be dead and i wont be able to #draw anymore or look at birds anymore or eat things i like anymore and it also sends me into insane crying hysterics #i want to live so bad.... but idk... i shld make the best of what i have. and try to cope with what i have (hence the images) #bc like idk. i want to leave so bad but my parents will be gone someday too so why am i in a rush to not see em...idk. #i dont knowwwwwww chimp image #copium. i have to find anything to be excited about. trying. #sorry its those nefarious 3 am thots -_-

[ladykyriaa]

NONE OF YOU. UNDERSTAND. how insane this shot makes ME FEEL

THIS IS A VERY PROBABLE 16-17 YO MARINETTE. And she's in highschool. And this is HER AFTER HAWKMOTH'S FUCKING DEFEAT.

SHE IS RELAXED. ENJOYING LIFE. THRIVING (with a few secrets here and there but ehhhh we'll cross that bridge when we get to it) AND SHE HAS A FUCKING BOYFRIEND

#miraculous ladybug #AHHHHHHHHHHHHH #DO YOU UNDERSTAND HOW FERAL I AM FEELING OVER THISSS. DO YOUU??????? #OH MY GOD #OH OWKWJKSJSKXWKSMW #WHY THE FUCK WOULD THEY EVEN SHARE THIS NOW WHEN ITS SUPPOSED TO COME OUT AT THE Q4 OF 2024 #THEYRE GRYING TO KILL ME IM GONNA ROT 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 #ml spoilers #a bit #AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH #im gonna cry so so bad

[leon-on-the-froggy-chair]

WHY DID THEY MAKE LUIS SO ATTRACTIVE

#WAS IT JUST TO PERSONALLY ATTACK ME WITH THE FACT I CANNOT KISS HIS STUPID FACE #WORDS DONT EXPRESS HOW BAD I NEED THAT FICTIONAL MAN ITS UNGODLY #i am literally crying right now bc i looked at him and hes so fucking pretty and cute and handsome and HAGWWHSJ3KKSKW why #capcom why did you do this to me

[ganondoodle]

a wild assortement of comic wip screenshots and a random doodle that i posted to twitter but not here

(this doodle here is of Raal (aka demise before he became a deity) but whatever happens here isnt anything 'canon', i just randomly doodled him to try a loosen up my painting style bc when i work on the comic i tend to concentrate too much of rendering it perfectly and i dont like that)

#ganondoodles #doodles #art #i am so very tired #too tired for tags #btw i do love and read every ask i get but damn i just dont have the energy to reply to most #and i feel so guilty #i wish i could make a warning show up when someone wants to send me an ask #that just says -yo i love and cherish and reread all asks but unfortunately have zero energy to reply but chances are it made me cry- #given the asks isnt mean spirited or straight up bots #which my impsoter brain sometimes still tries to make me think #like either woo look at all those people LYING to your face #but i have grown alot since those days and now its mostly just #so look what a nice and lovely absolutely beautiful ask this person send you and you disrespectful fool are not answering it shame upon you #thats most likely why i have been getting less and less and man i feel so bad #like when its asks about drawing advice i either dont know what to say bc i dont have any idea what im doing eihter #or bc i plan a giant response with a big ass illustrated tutorial even tho i know i neither got the time or energy for it #but still cant answer then bc wait you wanted to make a tutorial you cant answer it just like that #and when its a super nice compliment about my art i just #dont know how to express my gratitude and silently reread it time and time again never answering it bc then it would be gone from the inbox #;__; #alright falling asleep brain better not have written sth i will regret reading tomorrow #i think this is the longest tags i put on a completely unrelated post of mine #if you have read all these tags send me an ask only containing the name of your fav fruit and i will make you a little pixel sprite of it

[kindheartedgummybears]

you wanna know what??

I am

TIRED

of overmasculinized werewolves!!!!

I WANNA SEE A

WEREWOLF

WALKING AROUND IN A CVNTY LITTLE OUTFIT!!! WALKING THE STREETS!!!! DISEMBOWELING CREATURES!!!!

I WANNA SEE WEREWOLVES COVERED IN BLOOD AND GORE WHILE WEARING A SHORT SKIRT AND CROPTOP WITH HELLO KITTY ON IT!!!!

I WANNA SEE A WEREWOLF WALKING AROUND IN COTTAGE AND FAIRY AND PRINCESS CORE OUTFITS!!!!!! WITH A DEAD MANGLED RABBIT IN ITS MOUTH!!!!

AND MAKE THE WEREWOLF

D I S G U S T I N G ! ! !

#i am TIRED of seeing all these manly man werewolves that are all copy and paste white boys #I am TIRED of seeing all these woman werewolves being butch and masculine(also mostly white) or submissive!!! #I WANNA SEE SOME PLUS-SIZE WEREWOLVES I WANNA SEE SOME BLACK ASIAN LATINO MIDDLE EASTERN NON WHITE WEREWOLVES!!!!! THAT ARNT F3TIZIED!!!!! #I WANNA SEE A G I R L WEREWOLF THATS INTO “G I R L Y” THINGS!!!!! LET THE WEREWOLF BE A SLVT!!!!! #LET THE WEREWOLF BE IN THE TRADITIONAL CLOTHING OF ITS CULTURE!!!! #AND RIP AND TEAR AND MAUL AND CRY IN THE MORNING AFTER DOING ALL OF IT!!!! RAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! #no but fr can we werewolf fans like. actually sit down and reflect on the inherent misogyny of werewolves??? ESPECIALLY IN MEDIA #like. almost EVERY. SINGLE. WEREWOLF. in movies and shows and stuff are always a buff white man with anger and trust issues #and on the rare occasion that there *is* a woman werewolf shes always either over masculine or “weaker” than the “stronger alpha male” were #olf and only seen as a mate. AND shes always “calmer” and “maternal” and “calms the alpha male down🥺🥺”.AND she never has an actually good #werewolf form its always either wolf tail and ears or full wolf. or if it *is* actually a decent werewolf her transformation is offscreen. #like whyyyyyyyyyyyyy are people so scared to make women go ape shit?????? werewolves are NOT pretty creatures!!!! STOP MAKING THEM PRETTY!! #(lmao jk we know why they're so scared hashtag male gaze) #like yes. werewolves ARE pretty but not in the “dog show 30k$ poodle” kind of way i see some people making them(not that that's bad tho) #AND ALSO LIKE. ARE WE JUST GOING TO PRETEND WEREWOLVES LITERALLY WEREN'T MADE FOR WOMEN AND MINORITIES??? #like. once a month someone turns into a raging bloodthirsty unstoppable beast driven by the moon and instincts with an insatiable hunger an #need to hide away from people due to them wanting to kill you or fearing you simply because you're a werewolf. they don't know you. they ju #t see you as a creature that might hurt them. constantly being hunted down to be killed simply for existing. #WHAT PART OF THAT SCREAMS: “ah yes. White man.” #IK theres going be people(men and pick mes) that see this post and think “this bitch is overreacting” and tbh idc.the girls who get it get #the girls who dont dont. #anyways shout out to Ginger Snaps trick or treat and every other piece of media or fan piece with disgusting non-f3tiszied woman/poc werewo #i love yall #*smooch smooch* #Werewolves #Werewolf #Lycanthrope #Lycanthropy #Werewolf AU #Yeah. Im tagging that too. I see yall.

[needylittlegirl]

theres a 99% chance we’re gonna move so i have to start packing little things now cause it makes the transition easier but i hate it i dont want to

#i know i sound like am immature little kid just pouting and stomping my foot #but i’ve had to move every two years since i was like 14 for so many different reasons #each place ive moved to just got increasingly worse so i think i have the right to pout like a 14 yr old girl #but its just dumb #if i start taking stuff down now itll make it easier to leave cause it wont feel like my space by then #its what ive always done #if i pack weeks ahead of time it just feels like im leaving a hotel or something #but right nows the hard part #im not even over my childhood home/s #i cant talk about those without crying and its been 20 years #i’d just like to stay in one place for awhile #we wont be going far cause me and my sister both have jobs right here but #its still different #im tired of seeing my stuff in boxes im tired of not feeling safe in my own space #it all just makes me so unstable cause i cant plant my roots anywhere #idk maybe its stupid #if everything goes according to plan #we’ll probably be moving a little after memorial day #and all i want to do is lock my door and refuse to let anyone do anything #im still just that little girl that was leaving her childhood bedroom and moving hours away #tbd #i didnt even get to skate today cause its raining #whatever im gonna get in bed and watch movies til i can go to sleep #if ive been bad at responding to msgs or not posting as much . this is why 👍 #any sort of change like this makes me isolate myself like crazyy

[frecklystars]

feels really awful not drawing my red energon necklace on me anymore. it also feels awful when I do draw it though, like i used to feel rly happy bc it's a reminder of how loved TF made me feel but now it's just a reminder that i've lost it and i'm! always! scared i'll never get that back! i keep trying to imagine starlight would want me to wear it but its so fucking hard to imagine him being kind towards me when i have months of trauma and abuse that have convinced me the exact opposite. that's why im making so much fanart instead of self ship. thats why i still only doodled one (1) ship art w/ ken and i'm facing away from the camera bc i cannot stand to draw myself with or without the necklace. i hate thinking about it i hate lingering over that empty area. i hate missing him. i fucking hate missing him. im not supposed to miss any of those characters like this. this was never supposed to happen to me. i didn't deserve ANY of that shit my abuser put me through. i just want everything taken away from me to finally be mine again

#been drawing myself wearing barbie's locket or ken's chain #just to fill that empty space because idk what else to do!!!! #i tried drawing the red energon necklace while im holding hands w/ six #and it felt so fucking Bad it was like oh. why would i wear that if it's never gonna feel better again #would stsc even want me to wear it anymore. does he even still love me #i keep trying to imagine that he misses me and hes just waiting for me to come back #sitting in our meadow holding the necklace for me stargazing and wondering if im ok #but TF being a literal fucking trigger makes it SO FUCKING HARD to think of fluffy scenarios #when someone spent months telling me how abusive they would all be and how vile they are #i love barbie. i love ken. i love six. i love sebastian. but it is absolutely fucking nothing compared to what i had w/ starscream #and im. nevergonna get it back am i #the pain is so tremendous and when i lose barbie/ken/six/etc etc idk what im gonna do #i felt so good watching the barbie movie today i watched it TWICE since its the last day in theaters #and then on the way home a starkeri song came on shuffle #and i fucking lost it i had to pull over bc i started crying so hard #what the fuck is wrong with me!!!!!!!! #vent

[baeshijima]

i fucking hate this gane

throws up tears

#sophie’s idle chatter #i just finished chapter 5 meaning the end of season one and its safe to say this game has destroyed me in a million different ways #some of which being my emotions and my bank #what the fuck was the entirety of chap 5….. lunar games i cannot do this u have actually made me cry so much why did u have to make the #writing so so good and all the characters so compelling in their own way 😭 #im abt to start chap 6 where we can unlock yuye and jihans routes from this chap onwards #sighs im not emotionally ready for this bc seeing glimpses of the bad ending illustrations in the archive makes me wanna jump out my window #and then after i unlock all their routes theres still season 2 thats locked… #hwal and eunhan…. throwing up …….. shitting tears …… banging my fists against the wall ….. punching air ……. #fuck #at least this game is the kind with ads to replenish bc im used to these kinds of games #stares at lord of heroes and all their reward ads 🧍‍♀️ #anyway my bank is always open for this game rven if it forces me through emotional trauma #baek jihan my beloved…. my love…… my life…… ourgh #AND SUYEON WAILS I LOVE U #man the devs have me in a chokehold for their amazing lore and writing… #anyway its 2 am and my eyes are puffy and my nose is stuffy and i should sleep but what is sleep when u have been emotionally damaged 🫡

[sleepinginmygrave]

m going to die during my harp class omg omg someone save me.... i'm so so scared rn and my teacher is not even mean or bad wtf

#i'm the most emotional person on this planet (i hate it sm) #and i could (i already did) cry if i'm spoken to badly #like i literally cried bc my teacher said ''yeah i can see you didn't practiced enough you must start to work it's not very serious'' #it wasn't even that bad and i CRIED #in front of my TEACHER #god #urghhhhh #why am i like this #anyway wish me luck pretty please #its in 2 mins now #i'll update later #well i did had exams this week so maybe i could use it as an excuse #ONE MINUTE #moi #harpist rambles

[boxwinebaddie]

i made ravenstan on picrew hehe

OHHHHH MY GOD I'M OBSESSED!!!!!!!!!

the EYE BEAUTY MARK HELLLLOOOOOOOOO!!! YOU GENIUS!!!! ok the tiny braid is so cute i love my life the bi boy PEACE SIGN!!!! also okay the nECK TATTOO???????? I AM HAVING MANY THOTS ABT IT!

like...thats...very interestin...management only put a ravenstan ban on piercings...Tattoos however...very interesting indeed.

-uncle nina, thinking many thots abt neck tattoo ravenstan

#THIS IS SOOOOO CUTE #I AM INLUV #the eyeliner is also so real BIBLICALLY ACCURATE #the fact that u did a dark hair and a blonde version #OBSESSED #but uh...i may march his lil ass tiny pants ass down to the tattoo parlor bc i am lowkey obsessed w the neck tattoo #also i think it would give jerseykyle brain damage which he is too smart anyways so tbh its just a service to everyone #which thank u for ur service my friend #and thank u for ur service ravenstan like why enlist in the army when you SERVE!!! EVERY!!! DAY!!!! BITCH!!! #im screaming anyways its that time of the night for me sorry for being batshit but uh this is so fkn cool #i love piccrew so bad #i should make everyone at some point #ALSO WHOEVER SENT THAT ASK ABT DESCRIPTIONS OF ALL THE CHARS #i am going to work on it soon also god bless u bc i love describing the characters in excruiciating detail #when i tell u writing char descriptions is my favorite thing ever #u can always ask me for those and i will be so crazy #like down to what their shirts say what their noses are shaped like what they smell like...i am crazy #anyways when i die pls bury me with this piccrew i mean that #THE SMIRK THE EAR PIERCINGS THE LEATHER JACKET im gonna start crying lol uncle nina pls stop crying challenge but this is a work of art

[witchspeka]

Hello this is a call for help by which i mean does anybody have any good ekurei fics??? Most of what I found on ao3 was either in a foreign language or weird porn and I'm losing hope seeing as there are around 400 fics total

#ultimately maybe idk where to look for stuff #screaming crying throwing up but in a bad way #i dont even care if its with the security guard at this point bro just ANYTHING decent #ive only ever read fics that were reccomended by somebody else and this is the first time i venture into the mp100 ao3 tag and. hooo boy #IK IK i should add more specific tags prolly my searches are always pretty general its why i find the weird shit so easily #but i dont recall it being this bad for other fandoms. tried going through recent and there was so much re¡mob like fking hell #ITS 100 FICS BEHIND SERIREI NO WAYYYYYY #also ekurei is barely 100 above incest.... this is the wrong timeline jfc #neighbours are also being obnoxious and i cannot sleep this night is AWFUL #mp100 #mob psycho 100 #ekurei #ekubo #arataka reigen #mp100 dimple #send help i am in NEED #cine te a intrebat

[elegyofthemoon]

also to anyone who plays honkai, does anyone have other translations of the game? aside from the official?

i feel like i talked about this with a friend, but the translations just. don't line up with what's being said a lot of the time and it's slightly driving me insane x - x

#like!!! i can understand bits and pieces but its not enough to understand whats fully being said #but i just know that some of the things being said do not line up with the subtitles and i want to gnaw on something when it happens #idk.... #cuz like this one line in ch 11 ex where himekos in kianas flashbacks (i am crying) #himeko asks kiana whats on her mind and she says something like 'tell mama what youre thinking about' #but she doesnt!!! say that in the official dub!!!!! she just says 'tell your teacher' !!!!!!!! WHY #it is very cute though how much kiana looks to st freya cast as her family its so ; - ; i feel so bad #also the voiceacting is absolutely killing it in ch 11 ex its amaziiiing #like!! kiana was saying she was angry towards fu hua but not because of betrayal and more because she realizes she was helpless towards fat #YOU CAN HEAR THAT IN HOW SAD AND JUST ABSOLUTELY DEJECTED KIANA SOUNDS..... its amaziiiiing i love it #at least to me ! #it was weird when i saw kiana get angry at fu hua because while she did look angry #her voice kinda sounds otherwise #but anyways #snow plays hi3 #just asking !! because im sure theres probably bounds of translations!! but i just dont know whats like. A Good Trusted One #so i trust. whoever plays honkai aPPARENTLY THERES A FEW OF YOU HIIIIII!!!!!! #im shaking all your hands im sorry im kind of new and probably like absolutely blissfully ignorant but i am shaking your hands #i wish there was a way to keep tabs of who Does bc then i can annoy cOUGHS #kidding! i wouldnt lmao

[oceanwithouthermoon]

tired of being called boring cuz i hate toxic ships </33 im sorry i get triggered easily by stuff like that brah, the most toxic my ships r allowed to get before i get triggered is a lil possessiveness and a hint of unhealthy codependency 🤭 beyond that, i literally get sick to my stomach lmao..

do what u want but anyone whose never been abused before does NOT get the right to call ME boring for not liking abusive ships..

#i just think too many people equate them not liking something as it being inherently bad.. why dont we all just shut up.. lmao #do ur thing tbh like if u enjoy reading it and dont condone abuse irl then go ahead #i just will not participate and thats okay bro like we dont all have to like the same things #be an individual bro like we dont all have to have the same likes and dislikes #why do i have to read comments on all my fav fics about how theyre tired of things being 'too fluffy' LEMME ENJOY MY LOVELY FLUFF #if i get a comment like that on one of MY fics it is literally over i will die #anyway.. #okay this is a little fib cuz i am also a huge fan of the cannibalism as a metaphor for love thing. um.. let me have this LMAO. #romanticizing cheating is something i just cant stand though ngl #honestly i dont know why i like toxic codependency and CANNIBALISM but having an affair is where i draw the line.. #i think consent is my issue like i need there to be consent or its over and i cry and throw up from reading it lmfao #i like toxicity when its because they love each other TOO much.. THATS IT.. NO MORE CHEATING NO MORE ONE SIDED ABUSE NO MORE #i will continue to enjoy my super healthy fluffy protective ships 5ever #meows post #fanfic #ao3

[ganondoodle]

sorry about that last rambling post, i didnt mean to sound like its worse than it may be, but i got no ... lense to view it through but my own, and the main reason i wrote it out anyway was bc i needed to get it out (even if posting it might be not the greatest idea) .. and bc it kinda showcases, i think, how my stories kinda write themselves, involuntarily in a way? its not like im not putting in any effort- but its like .. i cant STOP it always keeps going and even the dumbest idea stays in some form, its very hard to get everything in place bc theres so much going on all the while i am very slow at making anything, writing or drawing anything, especially anythign coherent is very hard bc not only do i get constantly distracted, i get distracted by my own thoughts suddendly skipping to a certain scene and me having to go throguh imagining in detail NO MATTER how many times i have done it before for the same scene that i already decided on how it goes, when theres a new idea it can take over my entire day bc i cant let go of it-

not trying to sound either like im the only that has that sort of problem, but i think its a big part as of why i start tso many projects without being able to finish them, or even start them bc i constantly have to fight my own thoughts from derailing into another daydream session, thinking of too much too fast than i can ever draw or even write about and not knowing what is worthwhile and what isnt (im telling you i have no idea what is good and what isnt, idk why but for all i know all things i do could be trash, or they all could be bad, maybe the one i thinnk is decent is actually worse than the things i deem not good enough and once i start to think no this isnt good enough i stop having fun making or thinking it bc im trying to do better

honestly its kind of impressive that i can get anything out at all, not to pat myself on the back there but even if i hate how long it takes me, considering how much im having to work just to start working on something at all, the fact that i could post stuff coherent enough for some people to understand AND LIKE is something i should be a little more proud of

#ganondoodles talks #personal #sorry today is a bit of a brain fart day #got a headache and have wasted the entire time until now (5pm) with watching old analysis videos i have watched 5 times already #and crying over undertales music #how much could i get done if i didnt have to deal with thought trains going 200 above speed limit #also didnt mean to sound mean to people who like the things i deem cringy #BC I DONT KNOW WHAT IM TALKIGN ABOUT 90% OF THE TIME #I DONT KNOW IF ITS GOOD maybe it is #my judgement of my own stuff is pretty random #.... maybe thats why i can work with fanstuff that adheres to lore better #bc it sets limits for me #it gives me options of rails to derail onto without falling straight into the woods #idk if that made sense either #... i need to start drinking more #(and i guess by calling some of my stuff cringe bc i am entirely unsure of its quality im trying to make myself smaller than i am) #(so if it turns out to be actually bad- im more safe from ridicule since LOOK I AM SELF AWARE) #and there i go letting my thoughts spin further #maybe ill delete both of these posts tomorrow when i realize how dumb this is to say in the first place

[freebooter4ever]

guess who officially is going as a v*i*p with jeff and The Legend to the conference at the end of the month? ;____;

#I might cry #Between this and meeting everybody on monday and the gallery yesterday and then the event next week #Im just half terrified i will wake up and its all a dream #Journal shit #I genuinely consider The Legend to be a friend too #You know when someone is just a natural storyteller that they are just interesting to talk to no matter what they are talking about? #And he's got that sly sense of humor and big easy smile #And he's always wearing a hat always #Thats why he notices my hats and i think why he started remembering me 🤣 it took a few meetings #I am VERY GLAD he doesnt remember the first time he met me i got his autograph and i was shaking so bad i could barely talk #We were hanging out at lghtb*x and a woman came up and was all shy and nervous and wanted a photograph #And i was sympathetic with her but he was all oh dont be nervous im nobody #and i was laughing and told him that i was the same way before i got to know him better #and that was how i found out he had no memory of that first meeting 🤣🤣🤣 good!!!