Series: Yami no Matsuei
Artist: Matsushita Youko
Publication: Hana to Yume #8 (04/2000)
Details: Spring-Summer Postcard Calendar (July)
Source: Scanned from my personal collection
HEARTBREAK. PART ONE
he says i'm prettier when i'm quiet
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I tried to change
Closed my mouth more
Tried to be softer, prettier
Less... awake
Fasted for 60 days
Wore white
Abstained from mirrors
Abstained from sex
Slowly did not speak another word
And that time my hair I grew past my ankles
I slept on a mat on the floor
I swallowed a sword
I levitated
Into the basement
Confessed my sins
And was baptized in a river
Got on my knees and said, "Amen"
And said, "I mean"
I whipped my own back
And asked for dominion at your feet
I threw myself into a volcano
I drank the blood and drank the wine
I sat alone in begged and bent at the waist for God
I crossed myself and thought
I saw the devil
I grew thickened skin on my feet
I bathed in bleach
And plugged my menses with the pages from the holy book
But still inside me coiled deep was the need to know
Are you cheating?
Are you cheating on me?
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tagging the usual music favs: @jiminsproof @thvinyl @jimin-gaon @visionsofgideontheninth @spicyclematis @kimchokejin @jihopesjoint @monismochi plus @kimtaegis for the amy macdonald of it all 💜 and also you, dear reader. MWAH
saw someone make a tiktok about Gale & Tav using “something stupid” frank sinatra song as if Gale is the one saying “and then I go and spoil it all by saying somethin’ stupid like I love you” and this is going to be all I think about for the next 3-5 business days thank you
can we actually take a moment and remember swan upon leda? can we actually shut the fuck up and sit the fuck down and think about our lord and savior swan upon leda because i'm tired of doing it alone every single day guys