gods & monsters: four
series masterlist | pairing: satoru gojo x fem!reader
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series summary. you’ve been a high-end escort for ten months and are already one of the best. you follow the strict rules of your agency and have had fun ruining a few men within those limits. Gojo Satoru is your newest and highest paying client, but he’s fickle and unpredictable. all you want is to do your job, survive, indulge in luxuries, and maybe plan some revenge.
summary. You’re unexpectedly out of commission from work at a time where you’re in need of money and a distraction for an upcoming anniversary. Grief that you keep hidden begins to slowly build as you try to make the best of your time off. word count: 7k
tags. descriptions of violence towards reader, alcohol consumption, misogyny, mentioned murder, brief mention of past SA, smoking, drug usage, yakuza mentions, Naoya
notes. This fic is just vibes but feedback, rbs, and likes are always appreciated! * 200k won is around $200, 300 million yen is around $2 million, and 2k yen is about $20! * Kabukicho is Tokyo’s Red Light District and Nishinari is a slum in Osaka.
song rec. fake happy / paramore
The first thing that you did upon receiving Gojo’s additional money was to make an international call to Shiu. He’s been in South Korea for some time, but you had no idea what he was going to do upon returning to Tokyo. When your call finally picked up, he was quick to tell you that he was considering taking a job with a syndicate in Harajuku, and that you should give him his deposit ASAP if you wanted his services.
“I’m not giving you special treatment just for being Toji’s girl.” is all he said before hanging up and dropping his location.
What you had on Shiu’s location was what he sent you. You had a feeling he didn’t believe that you’d actually fly to South Korea to ensure his services, yet there you were booking the next flight to Seoul. Once there, he told you where he’d be. He was in Yeongdeungpo and “going to have dinner in a pojangmacha”, which made no sense to you.
Perhaps it was stupid of you to impulsivley fly to a foreign country alone without any knowledge of the culture or language, but you were desperate. Your date and tip from Gojo gave you enough money to hire Shiu and you weren’t going to lose that possibility. Your desperation led you there.
Once you arrived in the country and managed to check into a hotel to leave your things, you found yourself in front of Shiu after several months.
Not only was he surprised at you sitting in front of him suddenly, but his eyebrows raised at your appearance. It would’ve been hilarious if the cigarette that was dangling from his lip fell to the ground, but it remained on him.
A pojangmacha was apparently a tent restaurant, and this one was tucked in a hidden back alley street. Every plastic table was filled and the buzz of chatter was welcoming compared to the cold and rainy silence you had been experiencing on the way. It was packed and a cozy escape from the weather, with the patrons all relaxed and either drinking or smoking cigarettes as they ate.
“L/N—you’re—”
“I got mugged.”
Your explanation and deadpan expression didn’t abate his surprise, it made it grow if anything. So, you explained to him why you had a cut lip, bloody knuckles, and a bruised left eye that was halfway shut. As well as drenched from walking in the rain.
When the man had approached you in the empty alley, he looked around as if lost. The language barrier should’ve been your first priority in the country, but you didn’t think to even consider it. So, you were now sure that the man spoke bullshit with the intention of finding out whether you spoke Korean or not. Like an idiot, you noticed his gestures and falsely assumed he was looking for directions.
He took you by surprise when he lunged and began to grab at you. Your mind went into overdrive, going to the worst possible scenario, adrenaline pumping through you at the mere thought of being assaulted again. He had the advantage of striking first, so you didn’t have a chance to take out your knife. Even so, you fought him pretty well for a few minutes until he finally gained momentum and threw you against the alley wall. When you finally blinked out the dots in your eyesight and bit through the pain up your spine, you saw the man holding your wallet and throwing out your ID.
If all he wanted was to rob you, you wouldn’t continue fighting him as long as he went away. All you had in there to meet Shiu was around 200,000 won and your ID, everything else was in a safe at the hotel. With your money and vintage LV wallet in hand, the man gazed down at you and took a step forward. By then you were able to take out your knife which was enough for him to skip whatever else he planned and ran off. Your phone was off to the side and thankfully still worked. So, all was well honestly. The wallet meant nothing to you, it was a gift from your client, Takeo, and you knew not to carry too much cash.
You dressed in plain clothes, a blank hoodie and dark pants, to not draw attention to the fact you’re clearly unfamiliar. It was only after the incident that you realized that your mistake was how you were walking while continuously looking up and down at your phone on the Maps app. The rain was just a bonus, really.
You told Shiu all this, minus the part where you thought you’d get sexually assaulted again.
He paused in taking the last swig of his drink when you asked to bum a cigarette off him, considering he had seen you pluck them out of Toji’s mouth to throw out more than once, but he said nothing and gave it to you. Smoking your cigarette made your lips hurt and face feel like it was throbbing. Shiu called over to the woman and spoke while making a drinking motion. All you understood was budae-jjigae and soju. Once served, he poured you a drink that you readily shot back.
You hadn’t expected Shiu to buy you drinks and dinner. He said he knew you weren’t like Toji and weren’t fishing for a free meal, which made you laugh (Shiu didn’t find that part about Toji to be as cute as you did). The budae-jjigae was an unexpected comfort while catching up with Toji’s old middleman in the rain.
By the time you finished your meal, it was time to bring up your whole reason for rushing to Seoul; Shiu’s deposit money. It was ready to be taken out in cash back in Tokyo, but you just needed him to accept you as a client.
Shiu flicked his cigarette away and blew the last of his smoke near your face. “I had a feeling you’d get the money, actually. You were the responsible one,” he muttered, taking out his phone. “So I’ve already got something for you.” he stated, taking another shot of soju that you poured for him.
Tadashi Okazaki was the middleman for that last hit. About nineteen years old now. Criminal record was limited to two counts of driving without a license and one of those times resulted in a little girl's death. He was freshly out of juvie just a few months before Toji accepted the hit.
In terms of the shady underground, he wasn’t very impressive. If anything, it was completely odd that someone like him would have the resources or be involved in what was a risky hit. Which is one of the things that felt off to you (and Shiu) about the whole thing afterward.
Especially considering that once Toji’s death was relayed back to Kusakabe (a man who owed Toji a favor), Shiu, and then you, the middleman was nowhere to be found. Shiu guessed that Tadashi ran off with the money that was meant to physically prove to Toji that the hit was legit. Tadashi did so impulsively and most likely wouldn’t dare to attempt to leave the country, which works in Shiu’s favor. Tracking someone in hiding for almost a year with the intention of getting information wouldn’t come cheap considering what goes into it. Shiu made sure that you knew this, that the costs go farther than the deposit you’re paying for.
“I can pay for it,” you sighed, wincing at the pain in your body and face. In the moment, you had felt no pain when you fought that man, but it all came crashing once your adrenaline from fighting faded. “I just want to know who called that hit. I know you do too.”
“Sure, but I wasn’t willing to put my own time and effort into it.”
“Weren’t you friends?”
“No. We just worked together, that’s all.” he said around another cigarette.
That wasn’t something you could believe. You knew Shiu checked up on Toji for some time after his wife died, to make sure the new grief stricken father had kept his young son alive. He was the reason that Megumi loved korean food, kimchi especially. Toji apparently blended whatever food he was given to Megumi alongside bottled milk. That was a little more than just “working together” to you.
You didn’t choose Shiu Kong for this job just because of his previous connections to Toji. As he’s said, he wouldn’t have done so on his own. He was mainly a middleman to all sorts of people and groups, none of them law abiding citizens. A neutral player. You also knew that he used to be a detective in Busan, so you were more interested in his skills and potential resources. He rarely accepted jobs as an investigator, but when he did it’d be for a larger sum than the commission he took as a middleman.
He didn’t understand why you were so intent on this, you knew that. You honestly didn’t either, but chasing to the idea of getting closure was all you had now. The life you imagined yourself having a year ago was gone.
“You’re still working at the—“
“Yeah, I am.”
Shiu stayed quiet for a few seconds, just gazing at you. He scratched at his forehead with his knuckle. “And you’re sure you want to prioritize this? Over 300 million isn't petty change to owe.”
You were aware of how much money you owed with every call and client you took on.
The next night, you landed back in Tokyo somewhat full from the complementary food. Being robbed of 20,000 yen left you with no choice but to eat as little convenience store food as you could before boarding. Thankfully, the convenience stores were well, convenient, and cheap snacks were enough to keep you going.
When you had booked the flight to South Korea, you did so with the intention of bringing back souvenirs. Especially for Megumi. You hadn’t brought much money with you, and the 200,000 won was meant to be the money for your food so. You put up with the nausea from eating only a few snacks to make sure you kept your promise.
Megumi’s cute grumpy face and company would’ve uplifted you, and you hated when you couldn’t see him too often. Too bad you’d have to wait until your injuries healed to give the souvenirs to Ren and the kids. Ren was a responsible straight edge woman, she’d probably skip a heartbeat if she knew what you did.
As you waited for the train to take you back to Shibuya, your phone buzzed. Your work phone.
Gojo $atoru 凸( ̄ヘ ̄)
Sayuri!!! ( ̄▽ ̄)ノ
Click this! Promise it’s not a joke.
You clicked it and were met with a video of a stupid prank song. There were others around so you held in your groan, embarrassed that you fell for something so stupid in public. Cheeks heated in mortification, you pointedly ignored the people around you, side eyeing you. The last time you were sent a stupid prank video was in highschool! Gojo was still a client, so you responded accordingly. No matter how cute you found it.
YOU: (・_・ヾ?
There wasn’t much else you could say besides that, actually. Three dots appeared, so you waited.
hahahaha bet you looked stupid clicking that ♡( ◡‿◡)
anyway, I had ijichi make this playlist for you. Isn’t your lord and savior satoru so generous?
This time, the link sent you to Spotify. To a playlist named “why i’m the best” under a generated username. It was all New Music! You felt a pang of sympathy for Ijichi at having to go along with Gojo’s ridiculous demands. Gojo himself couldn’t be bothered to do it, and dumped it onto his driver. The whole thing was unexpected though, and you weren’t sure how to feel about it. Even if he wasn’t currently paying you, best to fake your infatuation.
YOU: Tell Ijichi that I apologize and that I’m very grateful to him.
Thanks for thinking of me, Gojo❤️I’ll listen to it and we’ll see if you deserve to be my lord, kay?
You listened to the playlist on the train ride home and reported back to Gojo that you loved it. Fluffing him up came easy to you. Once again, you were surprised that he still bothered with you considering how your last night ended, but thankful. Now more than ever did you need his business.
Days later, you eagerly agreed to help Yuki fix something that was wrong with her motorcycle. Since your appearance was the main aspect of your job, you were out of commission until the bruising and cuts went away. Makeup and sunnies worked with getting around the city for errands, but not if you’re being looked at up close. Thankfully, Mei was the one who dealt with cancelling any dates you had scheduled. One less thing to worry about.
As much as the unexpected time off from work was stressing you out, you decided to make the best of it. Even if it meant commuting for almost an hour on the train to help out Yuki. This brief setback came at the worst time not just for financial reasons, but because the anniversary was coming around. Already. A year has passed. You were desperate to distract yourself from the knowledge that you’ve lived an entire year without your love.
It’s been almost a year since you’ve felt like who you used to be.
The main reason Yuki always asked you to accompany her was because the man who owned the motorcycle shop in Ueno still gave you the discounts he gave Toji (she also didn’t grow up with money, so she’d never say goodbye to potential discounts). Her and Utahime were vaguely aware of the anniversary based on when you began working for Mei Mei, so you knew that had something to do with it.
You appreciated that she gave you a reason to leave the house, otherwise you’d be left alone with your thoughts and nothing to do. Yoga, reading, movies, or running haven’t helped the way it has been. Things were going fine with Yuki until you got back from Ueno and you took off your sunnies.
“Whoa, what happened Y/N?! You okay?”
“I got mugged in South Korea.” you groaned from your spot on the ground. You were sitting against the backstreet wall by Yuki’s apartment, watching as she worked on her bike. Being a dutiful assistant and handing her anything she needed, such as tools or another beer as you sipped on yours.
You said nothing else, so Yuki didn’t ask any more past that. As long as you reassured her you were okay past getting robbed, she let it go. Maybe you’d tell her with Utahime if it came up again, just to get it out of the way.
They knew that you had lost your boyfriend, as they mentored you while you were absolutely destroyed and stricken with grief, but they knew nothing about his identity. You owed those two so much for guiding you in the unnerving occupation that is being a sex worker, so you’d tell them everything someday.
You personally enjoyed hearing your loved ones talk about their passions, so you listened quietly and ate your homemade onigiri as Yuki talked you through what she was doing. The knowledge you had on motorcycles was brief and you didn’t really understand much of it, but it was enough to have conversations with your friend about it. Anything you knew, you had learned from Toji by doing the exact same thing you were currently doing with her.
Sitting in some alley back in Kabukicho and reading interior design magazines while Toji worked on his bike. Looking at your boyfriend’s big arms flex in his black tank while he worked with tools was a treat of its own. Sometimes Megumi would be with you two, and his little arms would flail around whenever his father would pick him up and place him on the seat. Poor baby was always scared he’d fall off, and Toji only made it worse by pretending he’d lose grip on Megumi.
Toji absolutely loved motorcycles and cars; how they’re made, how they run, how to take them apart, and how to put them back together. He had told you it began when he picked up selling parts on the black market, and he said it so offhand at the beginning of your relationship like he did with everything else. Thankfully Yuki was aware of your subdued mood and how you kept getting lost in your thoughts, so you two did what you loved doing: talking shit about your clients.
Speaking of, while she was telling you about her date with a man who tried educating her on her own job, you received a text.
Gojo $atoru 凸( ̄ヘ ̄)
[image]
Guess where? :3
It was a selfie of Gojo giving you a peace sign while wearing Minnie Mouse ears and Mickey shaped sunglasses, with the two faces of what looked like young girls beside him blurred out. One was blonde and the other a brunette, each making cute symbols.
You’d been texting Gojo since that first message when you got back to Japan. He talked about anything and everything (mainly himself), and you played along like you cared. He’d been annoyed that he was going to miss his trip to Disneyland due to his board of directors pushing back a meeting, but looks like he made it.
YOU: You made it! ヽ(>∀<☆)ノ
Are you having a single mom moment, Minnie? Is there a Mickey somewhere?
Yuki immediately recognized your work text tone, and she knew you weren’t taking calls. You did the most for your clients, but this was something else entirely when you weren’t able to work.
“Who's that?” she asked with a raised brow, taking a sip of her beer.
“Uh, Gojo Satoru.”
You didn’t expect your friend to almost choke on her drink. Yuki coughed for a few seconds before bursting out into laughter. She hunched over with a hand on her stomach. “Y/N, you sure you two didn’t fuck? Bet his dick is big, huh? Aimi said it was,” she said in between laughs, trying to catch her breath. “Don’t let Utahime hear you’re texting her literal worst nightmare on your off time!”
Ding! You two both glanced down at your work phone.
“Oh my f—is that him?” Yuki huffed, holding back more laughter. She looked crazy waving her wrench around like that.
While it’s true it’s unlike you to text with clients when you’re not able to take calls, this was different!
Single mom? Think you mean milf, babe
He’s in a looong line getting us sea salt icecream, just cause the girls want to take a pic hehheh
Wait
Call me a milf (¬‿¬)
“I told you we didn’t have sex!” you groaned, covering your heated face. “I’m securing money here, okay? I didn’t hear you orUtahime complain when his money paid for Hokkaido.”
“Touché.”
You’ve been trying to speed up your healing process from 3 weeks to 2 with various remedies. It wasn’t necessarily that you were itching to get back to work, more like itching to make money. Being out of work for 2 weeks came at the worst time considering you had just hired Shiu, so you went back to your roots: living off convenience store food.
Sukuna texted you when he returned from Hong Kong, but was immediately sent to Kyoto to deal with “work”. Once he was back, it was Uraume who arranged the meeting. You were picked up by an unexpected car considering Sukuna’s status: a black Toyota sedan.
Uraume looked as clean cut as the first time you met them, save for their bloody knuckles holding onto the steering wheel. As you buckled in, you noticed a cracked and bloody phone in the console. Sukuna’s assistant gave no explanation and began to drive, so you decided to mind your business. Like Sukuna, it seemed Uraume listened to metal and punk. Ding!
Gojo $atoru 凸( ̄ヘ ̄)
The movie sucked.
they just used that hot actor for promos
he didn’t show up until the very end!
but cute girl with a shotgun saved the movie. Don’t recommend (; ̄Д ̄)
You chuckled at his text.
YOU: Thanks for saving me ¥2000 ❤
Only reason i was planning to watch was for that guy
I can’t look at that actress the same after that lame sex movie
Gojo responded as you were still typing the rest.
no. you HAVE to see it so we can make fun of it!!!
Hold on
Cha-chiiiiing. Gojo sent you ¥2000 with a note that said: terrible movie on me ❤. Cute.
“Where does Sukuna live?” you asked, one you noticed you were going farther than you thought. Texting Gojo was distracting you, not that Uraume seemed to mind as they were nodding along to the fast drums.
“Denenchofu.”
Ota? Sukuna definitely moved up from the 1R he lived in with his brothers back home. You had maybe a handful of clients who owned homes in Tokyo, especially in such an affluent neighborhood.
“Does his uh—Kenjaku live with him?”
“No, Ryomen lives outside of Tokyo. It’s only Sukuna and Yuuji. He doesn’t care for displays of wealth. It’s about privacy,” they murmured, pulling out a cigarette from their jacket with one hand. They struggled to take out their lighter while driving so you reached out to light it with yours. “Thanks. We’ve got politicians on our payroll who live in the area, so they look the other way if they happen to see anything.”
You nodded in understanding and said nothing more the rest of the ride there. Denenchofu was as affluent as you’ve heard, with several two or three story houses spaced out in ways that were uncommon for most of Tokyo. The streets were quiet with few people walking, and most houses were hidden by gates. As you pulled up to Sukuna’s house, your eyebrows raised at a parked Rolls Royce.
When the door opened, you were met with Sukuna’s broad chest in your face. His button up was halfway undone, revealing colorful inked skin. You lowered your glasses slightly, allowing your eyes to rake over each intricate design you could make out, making you realize the whole yakuza heir thing was actually real. This was Sukuna now, and he wore it well.
“Is this your first time seeing a man’s skin or what?” he sneered, pulling on his cigar before blowing smoke in your face. You coughed at the strong scent invading your senses and causing your eyes to sting, which only made Sukuna laugh.
Uraume walked up beside you, bowing to Sukuna. You whipped towards them when you heard the familiar sounds of a press check, before putting their gun away. A gun you did not see whatsoever on the ride there. “It’s done,” they grinned. “Too easy. You would’ve hated it.”
Sukuna laughed, familiar and throaty. “Where is he?”
“The trunk, sir.” Uraume replied, handing him the cracked phone.
Your eyes widened as you turned back to the black car, shuddering at the realization you had just been in the same car as a dead man. The plain car made sense to you now. The nonchalance between Sukuna and his assistant spoke on how little they thought about this person's death. It made you feel gross and itching to shower. Uraume smirked at your grimace. You ignored Sukuna’s mocking laugh as you cautiously entered his home.
The interior is what you’d expect from Sukuna. A mixture of traditional with monochromatic colors. His genkan wasn’t even a genkan, more like a small room with a wall with hidden shoe space. As you went up the stairs and past what looked like a gym, Sukuna led you to a large living room. It seemed like all the doorways were accommodated to his impressive height and build.
The living room was spacious and had floor to ceiling windows, giving you a clear look at an outdoor deck. You sat on the white L couch and set your phone down on the coffee table, feeling your stomach grumble. There was a bottle of wine and two glasses, one already full, as well as three boxes of pizza. Sukuna told you to help yourself while he turned on the phone and smoked his cigar. You took your sunnies out and were just about to relieve your hunger when Sukuna stopped you.
“You lose a fight or something? Can’t fight with those nails, I bet.”
You glanced down at your manicured nails. They needed to be done before you went back to work. “Screw you, I can fight just fine,” you grumbled. “I got mugged like an idiot.”
“Where?”
“Seoul.”
Sukuna looked up from the phone at this, large thumb still hovering over the cracked screen. You wondered who the dead man was and why his phone was important. Then again, better to not get too into this aspect of his life. “The hell were you doing there?”
“Business? I guess. Before I get to that, tell me what’s up with you being the heir to what—a syndicate?”
Sukuna didn’t answer you. It looked like he was ignoring you, choosing to blow rings of smoke and focus on that instead. “Fine. I need you to keep your mouth shut about this, so I’ll tell you. Got it?” he warned.
“Yeah, yeah,” you rolled your eyes, pouring wine for yourself. He had the good stuff, and you currently couldn’t even afford any more cheap beer.
“Listen, you little bitch,” Sukuna seethed, eyes narrowed in irritation. “Don’t think—”
“I am listening, you’re just saying a whole lot of nothing.” you cut him off, beaming at this unamused face.
Scarlet eyes glared at you, and your heart unexpectedly twisted at the nostalgia. The man in front of you may have vanished from your life suddenly, but he was still a major part of memories you held close to your heart. He was your first kiss, he taught you how to fight properly, he encouraged you to stand up for yourself, and he briefly opened his home to you when you had nowhere to go. You had missed Itadori Sukuna.
“Of course I’ve got you,” you reassured with a fond smile. Then, teasingly, “What’s hiding knives to a whole fake identity?”
You startled at Sukuna’s large palm tapping your cheek a little too roughly. Your highschool sweetheart.
“As long as you know your place, princess.”
You had met Sukuna when you were fifteen and he was seventeen. He was two years older than you, but you both ran in the same circle and saw each other often in and out of school. After your parents ran off when you had started middle school, your older cousin took you in. She was still young, so you had more freedom as she was either working or with her own friends.
Sukuna was in a similar situation after his parents and grandfather died, except it was his older brother Choso who took care of them and worked multiple physically exhausting jobs. Your highschool years were spent staying out late, going to shows, sneaking into bars, trying to get adults to buy you and your friends alcohol, getting into fights (because of Sukuna), and some petty theft. Sukuna was there with you through it all, along with your mutual friends and group of people you hung out with. He was much worse, doing whatever he wanted regardless of how others felt about it.
He had given you knives or drugs to hide in your school bag more than once if there were rumors the boy's things would be inspected. If he got into fights with a guy, and his girlfriend was there, the girl always lunged at you in some weird ‘by association’ type of way. Doing stupid shit was fun, especially when petty delinquency was looked over in Nishinari by cops. It was all amongst yourselves, and any loud and rowdy shows you attended were held in abandoned industrial buildings, far from the older homeless people. Theft was limited to big corporate stores on trips to Tokyo and away from Nishinari. Your fake IDs never hurt anyone.
Like you, Sukuna’s family was often running low on money and barely making it by. It didn’t surprise you when your boyfriend started taking up unconventional side jobs, such as selling drugs to rich kids in Tokyo and doing petty tasks for a local syndicate. You knew Choso had problems with the implications and risks, as you had heard them fighting about it once while you carried Yuuji out of the apartment. In the end, Sukuna’s older brother let it go as long as he was smart about it. And he was, for the most part. Yet you knew that towards the end he was beginning to do more than dealing.
Then, during your senior year, Choso was killed suddenly. He’d been stabbed repeatedly, one of a handful of casualties near one of his jobs. It was clearly a yakuza related incident, and wasn’t too looked into. You had barely seen Sukuna the days following it, and when you did he was absolutely livid and broken. The most you saw of him was when he finally came home and kicked you out after you took care of Yuuji. Like you, he had assumed that Choso was targeted because of Sukuna’s affiliation with the local syndicate. He was overcome with guilt over the very thing his brother warned him about. He wouldn’t have cared if his actions came back to hurt him, but Choso was innocent. He was a young adult trying to provide for his younger brothers, his entire world.
Once Sukuna found out who was involved, he immediately left Nishinari with Yuuji and without a word to you. He was out for blood, and didn’t let you even speak; he simply told you over the phone before hanging up abruptly and never answered it again. There wouldn’t have been a point in trying to stop Sukuna anyway, when the only person he listened to was dead. It wasn’t until almost two years later that he called you to apologize and you two left it at that, going about your separate ways.
Turns out, Sukuna’s fake backstory was partially true. As head of their syndicate, Kenjaku was expected to produce an heir, and his wife did have trouble conceiving a child. At the time, it was earlier than Kenjaku had even wanted an heir, and he wasn’t keen on having someone next in line so soon. As was common in their lifestyle, he had affairs, and Choso was the product of his night spent with Kaori, just before she met Jin Itadori. Kaori begged him to let her keep her baby, and insisted that she’d never ask anything of him or speak of the child’s father. She was powerless and Kenjaku made sure that she knew that trying to speak out wouldn’t be dealt with through the law. Kaori never did, but Choso’s father kept tabs on him throughout the years.
Choso was still Kenjaku’s first born son, no matter what. So when word of his death finally came back to him, he set out to find out who did it. It led him to Sukuna, who was slowly and single-handedly getting his way to the culprit. Once the two came into contact, Kenjaku gave Sukuna his resources to end it. While the syndicate responsible was a newer one and nothing compared to Kenjaku’s organization, they still gave Sukuna some trouble.
With Kenjaku’s foot soldiers, Sukuna stormed their base and massacred the entire group. It had been an absolute bloodbath done with any weapon imaginable except firearms. You remember hearing about the violent incident on the news, and never once thought Sukuna had caused it. At that point in time, Kenjaku was ready to have an heir and offered it to Sukuna. After all he had done and the time spent, Sukuna was hungry for more power and securing a better life for Yuuji. The fabricated backstory that Sukuna had told you at the soiree was easily paid for. He readily accepted his new role, as long as Yuuji was mostly kept from it and had the chance to live a somewhat normal life.
The wine and pizza was long gone by the time he finished, and Sukuna groaned that he never wants to speak so much again. Uraume came back with perfectly rolled blunts for each of you to end the night with.
Towards the two week mark, you decided to go back to work even if there was still some bruising on your eye. It was completely hidden by makeup at that point, and only visible under close scrutiny. So you only took Takeo’s call for a night at a bar/restaurant on the rooftop of a five star hotel in Kyoto. Like always, you had sex upon meeting and got ready in the bathroom before going out into the suite to change in front of him. His obsession with watching you change into clothes he picked out for you would always be weird.
Takeo was initially upset with you for having accepted your last date with Gojo. Throughout the past year, as Takeo became a loyal and consistent client, he greedily thought that his familiarity and extra gifts meant he was entitled to you keeping an entire day open for him. You’ve kept Saturday’s, one of the busiest days for everyone at the agency, open just for the possibility of Takeo calling for you. He wanted the exclusivity and faithfulness of an arrangement, of being your sugar daddy, without the actual commitment. The financial and contractual commitment on his part.
As much as you hated putting off such a busy day for him, you didn’t mind after a while. More like, you simply dealt with it. Keeping a consistent client was better than taking on a new one. Yet, you became restless the closer you had gotten to reaching your goal for Shiu’s deposit. It’s what led you to accept Gojo’s call for your date at that after party.
Maybe that’s why the insufferable heir paid almost 100,000 an hour and tipped. To ensure that his escorts prioritize him over others. His looks and sense of humor were just a bonus. Not only was it a power move against his escorts, but to other clients. And it worked, as Takeo was bitterly grumbling shit about Gojo and attempting to warn you. You used his insecurity to your advantage, playing up how Gojo’s power and influence had scared you into accepting his call. You were the stupid, naive, pretty little sex worker afraid of the scary rich heir. Takeo bought it like the savior fucker he was.
By the time you had finished having sex, your makeup had come off enough for the bruising to not just be seen as a trick of the dim lights. Your client was quick to drill you on whether that reckless and arrogant brat had been the one to hurt you, which made you force a smile down.
“I—I got mugged in a scary neighborhood,” you sniffled, covering your eyes with shaky hands. “I felt so bad because he took the wallet that y-you—” you hiccuped. “That you bought just for me. It was so scary, I’m sorry!”
Being naked and still under him post coital really sold the whole “vulnerable and scared” act you were going for. Also the fact that you were able to force tears into your eyes by the time Takeo removed your hands from your face to cup your cheeks.
fake it till you make it!
It worked out in your favor, all things considered. Not only did Takeo stop throwing jabs at you for taking another call over his, but he wanted to spoil you. Meaning that he decided to have your dinner brought to the room as well as a bottle of champagne. Sitting on his lap as you two ate dinner, sipping on champagne in your silk bathrobes wasn’t too bad. While you still had to freshen up your face for him in the bathroom, you didn’t have to make yourself impossibly flawless with several products.
Despite being an affluent lawyer, Takeo didn’t insist that you report the crime or your stolen wallet. He’d rather baby you and spoil you with more gifts in order to “keep you quiet”. You’d predicted it and even counted that he’d ask for details, considering that you’d have to lie if he pressed for information. You were his dirty little secret, one of the handful of escorts that he keeps on rotation behind his wife’s back. His favorite, but still meant to be kept hidden from the people in his life.
Your clients notoriously shame the very services they’re paying you for, and it’s only fair that you use that prejudice in your favor. Gojo’s texts have stopped, but he asked to see you soon. There’s that.
Two days later, you’re sitting in front of Naoya Zenin at a five star restaurant in Ginza. He’s currently ignoring you while he types away at his phone, and behind him you can see the waitress eyeing your table. Naoya had dismissed her with a flick of the wrist, not bothering to look her in the eye. Being with this guy reminded you of when you first began working as an escort. Taking any calls that came your way, no matter how terrible.
Naoya was one of the agency’s most difficult clients, and he didn’t make up for it with higher pay like Gojo did.
It begins with your attire. The Zenin sent you the clothes he wanted you to wear on your date, and allowed you to keep it. The gesture may sound sweet on paper, but Naoya straight up tells all the girls they probably don’t own any modest designer clothing. Also he finds returning or borrowing clothes tacky, which means you’ll be able to sell the clothes you’re currently wearing. Yet for a guy who insists on women being modest, he’s notorious for skipping out on STI screens and pays the girls under the table to fuck. He doesn’t hide the fact that he gets off on asserting power over sex workers who need money.
You may not be one of the girls who he pays under the table to please him, but you do so in other ways, as gross as it is. You’ve learned that if he presents you with his arm when you exit the car, you’re meant to take it and quietly walk by his side. If he doesn’t, it’s cue for you to walk precisely behind him. A few steps behind, not side by side.
Don’t speak unless spoken to. Always look at him when he’s speaking to you and when you’re speaking to him. Don’t talk to “the help”. You’d think that someone who can’t go a night without snorting coke would be more relaxed. Yet, you do all of this flawlessly. He appreciates the way you sit, the small bites and sips you take (no matter how hungry you are), and how attentive you are.
All you have to do is be what he thinks is a respectable woman. As disgusting as it was. Listen while he talks about himself, mainly talking shit about his family. This dinner is for him to take the edge off (by going to the bathroom 4 times to snort coke) before an event he doesn’t want to attend. His younger cousin Mai was just signed into a global modeling agency, and had to attend an art auction for appearances. The Zenin didn’t allow the women of the family to take up dates like the men did, so Naoya had to accompany her.
“At least that bitch is doing something with herself,” Naoya snorted, arm in arm with you as you two walked out of the restaurant. He ignored every staff member who bowed to him. “Her looks are all she’s good for, so she’s smart for once in using it. Just like you.”
You said nothing, because you knew he wasn’t looking for a response. You simply continued walking, looking up at him while he looked ahead.
“What’s not smart is how you’re picking and choosing where to have morals,” he laughed. Like Gojo, he found it stupid how you refused to have sex with clients who haven’t screened. Naoya was more aggressive about it, but maybe he was voicing the thoughts Gojo probably had. “Those stupid rules are for us, not you. Girls like you should be thankful a man even wants to be seen with you.”
You wrenched your arm from his, trying to control your temper. His car hadn’t been brought back by the valet, but you were ready to walk back to the agency.
“You—”
“What’s this?”
Shit colored eyes came into your eyesight as Naoya crowded you. He was leaning down into your face with a hand grabbing onto your elbow to keep you close. His curious tone made no sense until you realized that away from the restaurant’s dim lights, and under the bright city lights, he could see the traces of your injuries.
You winced when his thumb suddenly pressed into the last remnants of your bruised eye. Just under the corner, a small red-yellow mark. You flinched in surprise, not pain, but Naoya breathed out in awe as if you had.
“Pretty,” he muttered. “You look good like this.”
You threw up your fancy dinner in the agency bathroom, regretting taking the call and hating that you did so out of desperation. It all came down to your rash decision in going somewhere where you were easy prey. Yet, you couldn’t regret getting Shiu to bring you a step closer in figuring out what happened to Toji.
You just wanted change so you could go home and cry yourself to sleep. The ache that had been building the past few weeks was about to burst, you felt it in the tears that were already running down your face as you showered and changed. The tightness in your chest as you took the train home. The anniversary was tomorrow.
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Tagged by @ongreenergrasses, thank you!
1. How many works do you have on AO3?
Way over 300! Tho it feels like it's been at 300sth so long by now, it'll be weird to look at once it hits 400 :D
Btw, funny how this tag meme asks for so much stuff that can be looked up by just... looking at my Ao3... without asking for any commentary by me? Lol
Anyhow, rest under the readmore bc this is 20 questions and Long!
Personal post - do not reblog
2. What’s your total AO3 word count?
995596 - just a few more ficlets or 1 longer fic, and I've got a Million! Hey, maybe I should try to write one with... 4404? (I'd need to ask a calculator xD) words exactly... not rly a hardship with how many drabble exercises (exact wordcounts, 100 is the most used, I also do 200, 500, longest was 10000 exactly lol) I've already done... we'll see!
Over 400k for this year alone, and over half of that is my actual writing (not translations etc), I'm so proud! Last year I only barely hit 200k and that included a lot of translating work
3. What are your top 5 fics by kudos?
Again, one could look this up in my works filtered - sorted by kudos? But all three of my incubus!jaskier witcher series are in it, part 2 of the series is highest with 1091 kudos, then a Venom halloween oneshot, and 'Belonging', a fluffy snake-crowley piece from my ineffable spouses series (yes, sth with under 1k words - 666 to be exact - is in the top 5... my poor longfics lol)
4. Do you respond to comments? Why or why not?
...I try to? But atm I have 202 unanswered (and I always click 'mark read' on replies so these are all comments on my own fic) even tho I told myself I'd not let it get past 200, and now I'm doing a tag meme instead of replying to anything so ummmm
Edit: 203 unread now
But I do love love love all the comments I get! And while atm it's still semi-manageable, if it ever gets to the point where I really can't manage to reply to everyone cause it's too much, i'd rly take that as a compliment lol :D I'd still try to reply to the longer and/or more thought through comments tho :)
5. What’s the fic you’ve written with the angstiest ending?
*thinks* I have an MCD fic? But not only is that very much a case of ~posting a draft version that's barely in complete sentences insgead of taking the time to turn it into a real longfic~, I also just killed off the mlm couple I only semi care about and left the wlw couple with a happy/hopeful (rly don't remember) ending, so... hm idk whether that counts for angsty ending
Apart from that... I dunno, I just prefer my babies to be happy and fluffy? *.* i remember a mirror milippa in the mirrorverse one where in the end Michael is worried about lying to Philippa about her identity... there are some angsty TOG and Gomens ones but I think they end happy-ish (my memory is. Bad. but looking through my 'angst' tag I just saw a lot of h/c and 'angst with a happy ending')
6. What’s the fic you’ve written with the happiest ending?
They're all happy???!?
7. Do you write crossovers? If so what’s the craziest one you’ve written?
Ahahahahahhahahaahaha
Check this out
I need you to know that all the works in that collection take part in the same universe (or rather, multiverse), and are alltogether just scratching the surface of my gigantic headcanon multiverse that I've been building in my mind since I was like 10
Actual crossovers other than that I don't remember writing
8. Have you ever received hate on a fic?
Yeh but I only remember clicking 'delete comment', as it should be
Recently I've just gotten a bunch of 'you Need to continue this' and 'omg why isn't there more' or 'this shouldn't end' type comments, not hate, probably not meant maliciously, but So Annoying (maybe espesh bc I don't want to just hit delete on these, but I also don't want to pretend it's fine, but I also don't have the energy for a fight, and trying to explain why that behaviour is entitled and annoying and that I write what I want to write and nice comments should praise what I actually have written, and hoping that they understand and don't get mad is... hard.)
9. Do you write smut? If so what kind?
Check out my rated E and rated M in my works
Mostly femslash lately, but I did also write other smut in the past
Most is a bit dominant/submissive play, but I do also like good fluffy smut with feelings! Best in combo, really :D
10. Have you ever had a fic stolen?
Not in the sense of pretending someone else wrote it (that i know of), but posted to other sites without my permission - writing 'don't repost to other sites' etc did Not help, they even copied those tags lol, so I just let it be, choosing my battles wisely etcetc, I'd prefer for my fic not to be cross-posted by others bc then I can't edit or otherwise influence the fic anymore and don't see everyone's reactions to it, but as long as it's not someone pretending they wrote it, I only semi care, not enough to fight it tbh
PSA: I Only post fics to Ao3 (and WIPs/prompt fills to tumblr&discord at times), if you see them somewhere else that's Not Me and you'd do me a favour by checking them out on ao3 and kudosing&commenting there instead :)
11. Have you ever had a fic translated?
Yup, one to Russian a while back, a floreleine (Gunpowder Milkshake) one to Korean just today actually, and I translated a bunch to German myself
12. Have you ever co-written a fic before?
I made a TOG fic together with @cinnamonplums, well mostly I wrote and she made the art :D
Trying to remember whether I ever actually co-wrote anything... don't think so?
13. What’s your all time favorite ship?
Don't make me choose!!!
Atm Milippa is OTP bc I'm busy writing them for @discoveryfemslashfortnight (this is not a post to reblog for the fortnight), but I'm also still rly into Floreleine, Bering&Wells and Andromaquynh and Andronilynh, and I read a lot of Mirandy lately
All-time favs I'm not rly active in atm but will always be dear to me are the ineffable spouses, clintcoulson, heistwives, gosh so many more I'll stop here tho xD
14. What’s a WIP that you want to finish but don’t think you ever will?
A Heistwives Kinda Job immediately comes to mind
I also rly want to finish at least one cohesive original-ish storyline for the lverse that I already linked for the crossover question above, but I just have so much backstory (it's been over 10 years!!!) and it's... hard...
And everything else that's still WIP and untouched for more than a few months will probably have the same fate lol
Also have a few that haven't even seen the light of day at all, most recent a Mirandy ~what if Andy had been pregnant when Miranda hired her and how would it change the entire storyline~ bit - I wrote it in bulletpoints in one go as quickly as I could, I know I had the finished product in my mind, I don't remember anything now and don't feel like going through the bulletpoints painstakenly filling in the blanks
15. What are your writing strengths?
Writing one-shots quickly in one go
16. What are your writing weaknesses?
Forgetting everything about a fic if I leave it in a draft for a second too long
17. What are your thoughts on writing dialogue in other languages in a fic?
There are many ways to go about it, and I think they all work (depending on the fic and the length and relevance of the dialogue)
I tend to leave single sentences as is, and for longer and important sequences use cursive and 'they said in xylanguage'.
18. What was the first fandom you wrote for?
The Hobbit apparently? I remember thinking that fic was so long lol, it's 3k
19. What’s a fandom/ship you haven’t written for yet but want to?
Kat/Ana from Reef Break, they have Such Shippable Chemistry, and it would totally fit Kat's player personality to bang both siblings (she's canonically friends with benefits with Ana's half-brother)... but the ship has one (1!) fic on Ao3 *cries*
20. What’s your favorite fic you’ve written?
TOG Andromaquynh longfic In Your Stead has had the title since last year and probably for a while to come! I loved the story idea so much I really worked with several drafts and only! worked on that fic until it was finished so I wouldn't get distracted & forget about it, and the result was wonderful.
Tagging, if you want to do it, @sarah-fiers @purlturtle @cookie-sheet-toboggan @ussjellyfish @onaperduamedee @startrekgeorgiouery @rosalie-starfall @lonely-night @banashee @xvnot15 and everyone else who sees this
Questions to copy:
1. How many works do you have on AO3? 2. What’s your total AO3 word count? 3. What are your top 5 fics by kudos? 4. Do you respond to comments? Why or why not? 5. What’s the fic you’ve written with the angstiest ending? 6. What’s the fic you’ve written with the happiest ending? 7. Do you write crossovers? If so what’s the craziest one you’ve written? 8. Have you ever received hate on a fic? 9. Do you write smut? If so what kind? 10. Have you ever had a fic stolen? 11. Have you ever had a fic translated? 12. Have you ever co-written a fic before? 13. What’s your all time favorite ship? 14. What’s a WIP that you want to finish but don’t think you ever will? 15. What are your writing strengths? 16. What are your writing weaknesses? 17. What are your thoughts on writing dialogue in other languages in a fic? 18. What was the first fandom you wrote for? 19. What’s a fandom/ship you haven’t written for yet but want to? 20. What’s your favorite fic you’ve written?
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how did you get into writing fic? i'd love to start but idk even where to begin! I loved adats so I was wondering do you have any advice?
Oh my goodness! I am so flattered you’ve asked me this. Yes, I can absolutely help. I’ll throw a bunch of rambling under the cut.
I started writing fic probably when I was... sixteen years old? A lot of my early works were oneshots. I couldn’t figure out how to do anything plot heavy for the life of me, so I just stuck to AUs or whatever I felt like. I wasn’t in any particular fandom -- I really wrote whatever I had ideas for. I remember I tried once to do a plot-heavy story and I received a review absolutely ripping it to shreds. Like, it was so cruel I cried lol. I ended up deleting the fic. Years later, I get what they were trying to say (basically, more substance, less style), but at the time it cut to the quick. Really, it was only when I was in my twenties that I started writing work that was longer and/or better.
The fandom that helped me actually write plot heavy work was a historical-based fandom. As I’m a historian, it was perfect. I got to use my research skills and knowledge to create works that, above all, aimed to feel authentic. I mainly read historical fiction, so I was familiar with how that genre worked. Miraculously, people loved my work. I think I wrote about ~200k in the period of a year? These were several short stories (20-40k) and a few oneshot filler fics. While I was part of this fandom I also helped organise a Big Bang which was a lot of hard work but was extremely rewarding. Along with that, I interacted mainly with other fic writers, so I spent a lot of time chatting to people about ideas and encouraging other writers, and it just created a lovely medley where no concept was impossible or any line of dialogue too difficult. We supported each other and it was truly like a little commune. I gradually stepped away from the fandom mainly because it was just a part of my life at a very specific time, and almost as soon as that time was over, my love for that story/ship faded, but I firmly believe I figured out a lot of how/what I do now purely through that experience.
Regarding ADATS
With ADATS, it stemmed entirely from wanting to “explain” three months in canon (at the end of season three). I was interested in the idea of season four setting up Will/Mike in canon, and I wanted to test the source material to see if I could draw from what already existed to create something authentic. I began with that simple idea: what happened from July to October in 1985? Then I thought about the major themes I wanted to hit -- family, friendship, coming of age, sexuality -- and I nested them around the bigger concept: how do I get Mike from being ostensibly straight to realising he is gay? That meant thinking of two steps: Mike discovering his attraction to guys; Mike discovering his attraction to Will. Those two concepts were separate “arcs” that needed addressing in different ways. Balance was key to weaving them together and making the reader feel like they knew what was coming (and that they felt smart for putting the pieces together) without just rushing through and going “now kiss!” That’s partly why ADATS needs a sequel, lol: because it’s not finished!
Writing process
The first thing I do when I start to get an idea is I write it down. Sounds obvious. But when you have a killer line of dialogue come to you in the shower and you think “I’ll remember that” -- reader, you will not remember it. You gotta get it down ASAP! I do that the whole way through, as generally I’ll be thinking of scenes I’m stuck on and then it’ll just come to me and I’ll quickly jot it down.
The next thing -- or what I do in the meantime -- is start structuring. I plan. I try to plan a lot. Sometimes it’s okay to write “and something happens here to get them here”, because you’ll figure it out later, but for the most part I’ve discovered that planning is like gold and you can’t get enough of it. I break my work up into generally 3-4 parts/sections, and I treat each section like a mini story. So each part needs a conflict and resolution, and it needs to flow into the next section. You need to have a feeling of things evolving and maturing. Once I’ve planned those little bits, I start thinking about the bigger plot arc and how I can drop in hints along the way. I’m probably not a subtle or skilled enough writer to yet pull off that sort of gasping twist you get in really excellent books, but I’m trying to get there. It’s hard, is what I’m trying to say, but that’s okay, because we’re all learning.
Then I generally do aesthetic stuff. Sounds stupid, probably. But nothing helps me get more into a mood than doing a Pinterest board or -- most of all -- making a Spotify mix. I start thinking about the vibe and the general atmosphere, and then I almost exclusively listen to that mix when I’m working. Sort of like muscle memory? Just to get the creative juices associated with that particular selection of songs.
Another thing I’ll do along with plot structure is character structure. This is a biggie. I mean, a story is nothing without characters. So I’ll just jot down a bunch of bullet points of characters and particular aspects that I want to highlight or remember. I hate continuity errors in fiction. Like, if someone says they work on Maple Street but later in the fic they’re working on Pine Street. I hate that. So I keep note of specific things that my main character might notice at repeated points in the story (colours, places, smells, names, sounds -- so they’re all consistent even as the narrative evolves). That’s another thing -- your characters’ motivations. Not everyone is going to be a huge player, but they all do serve a purpose. The most important character is obviously your main character. I personally think it’s important to let your M.C. be an arse at times. They’re going to be mean, they’re going to misinterpret things or fly off the handle... just let ‘em. Let them be wretched humans, and then bring them back and make them realise what they’ve done. Let them learn! I love consequences in fiction, lol.
At the same time, I’ll probably start writing. We’ve already written down some snippets of neat dialogue or descriptions, but now we should start the actual process. For me, I used to start at the beginning. Usually this was the most fleshed out anyway: I’ll have a clear idea of the beginning and the end, but nothing in the middle. These days, if I have a scene in mind that I can’t forget, I’ll just write it. It will possibly get scrapped or rewritten, but that’s okay, because at least you’ve got it down and now you can devote your brain power to something useful (like figuring out what the middle is supposed to be). I’ll have half a dozen of totally out of context scenes just littered in my Word document that I’ll add to as I go along. Eventually, though, you’re going to start writing properly, and that’s when you write your opening scene.
Opening scenes: super important. Every time I write a scene I think: what is the point of this? What do I want the reader to learn or takeaway? Sometimes you do have filler scenes, but they also serve a different purpose (perhaps to establish a group dynamic or to explore/describe a character’s surroundings). Mainly, though, every scene should push something forward in some way, whether it’s character development or a plot point. So, with an opening scene, I always think you have to establish: where you are; who you are; what they are doing; where they’ve come from (in a philosophical and practical sense); and where they’re going (ditto). That doesn’t have to happen in the first paragraph -- that would be silly. But if you sprinkle that information in over time it’ll gradually build up a picture of your character and that way the reader can get an idea of who they are. You basically need to give a snapshot of what your story is about. This also goes back to the character creator stuff: where they are at the start should be different to where they end up. How that happens is, of course, because of plot, and because you’ve structured everything to the nth degree, we’ve got a very clear progression of that character’s growth (/s easier said than done lol).
General advice
Write down everything: every idea, a bit of dialogue, a description, whatever. Write it down. Doesn’t have to be neat. Just has to be on paper. You can’t remember everything, so if you’re spending time trying to hold those things in your head, it’s taking up space for new ideas to come along.
Structure, plan, structure, plan. Sometimes it’s boring and I hate it. Other times, when I’ve not written in a few days and I open the Word doc and think wtf is this supposed to be, I am very grateful for Past Me for leaving such detailed notes. Seriously, it helps so much. Oneshots don’t really need planning, in my experience. You just get those out there. But multi-chaptered stories really do, even ones that “just” focus on a relationship.
Whatever you want to write, commit to it. Space goblins invade Hawkins? Do it. Eleven and Max find themselves in a cult akin to Midsommar (2019) and must escape? Yes. Just... whatever you want to do, remember that you’re writing it for you. Write what most interests you, what makes you when you reread it go AHHHHH I LOVE THIS!! Because that makes it a thousand times easier to actually get on with the writing when you enjoy what you’re doing.
Write a lot. Every day, if you can, or at least at designated times. Occasionally I have a very specific headspace/vibe I have to be in, but sometimes it just hits me and I’ll say to my partner “I need to write now” and just disappear, lol. The more you write the more you write. It’s so, so, so true. Cannot emphasise this enough. When I wrote that ~200k in twelve months? It was because I literally wrote every. day. Or near enough. Remember that some days you’ll write 200 words, and other days you’ll write 20k (this happened to me with ADATS -- part of the reason I finished it so quickly was because I had sprints of writing 10k+ at a time that only happened because I was in the rhythm of it). Write, write, write. Who cares if it’s crap! No one will see it until you are ready. In the meantime, just write!
Probably last of all (although I could go on and on) is connect with other writers. If you’re struggling to start, sometimes just talking about it can help a huge amount. I hope it goes without saying that you can message me whenever you want, anon or not, and I will talk to you. We can talk about ideas or I can beta stuff, whatever you want! Find like-minded people and talk to them about what you want to do. Another thing this helps is in advertising your work when you do publish. I see a lot of first time fic writers get super down because they publish their magnum opus on AO3 but no one comments. Honestly, it’s because no one knows you’ve published! You don’t have to be tooting your own horn every which way, but just actively talking about your work and even collaborating with other content creators with get you hyped and other people too (and the input and encouragement other fandom members give is just... out of this world. Anon messages helped me finish ADATS when I was really worried I wouldn’t [that’s the truth]. Seriously, support is everything). When you have people excited about your work, you get excited. It’s really as simple as that.
I could go on but this is already horrendously long. I hope even a bit of this helps! If you want to chat or have any more questions, just hit me up any time.
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