#when the cycles are cycling...

[nativehueofresolution]

the sopranos (1999) / interview with the vampire (2022)

#when the cycles are cycling... #iwtv #the sopranos #interview with the vampire #rue royale family #kaitlin speaks #this is kind of an oversimplification of lestat and gabrielle's deal but true overall to how he feels i think.

[biggest-gaudiest-patronuses]

going through my old journals as part of therapy homework and i'm reading a section written in the emotional wreckage of a full-on breakdown when i get hit with this line:

There is never a satisfying answer to ‘Why didn’t they love me?’

like wow babe. good fucking point

#like you were on the ground biting the carpet and dry sobbing while you wrote that and still. good fucking point #not a shitpost #cptsd #and it's true. there's never a satisfying answer #the truth is i know why i wasn't loved #i analyzed my parent's traumas and abuse to death. i understand why i alienated and was alienated from my siblings #i know why my mom was too overwhelmed to be capable of nurturing #i know why my dad vanished into addiction and avoidance #the details of our cycles of trauma and cptsd and family history i have a phd in all of it #i understood perfectly. i spent years studying and now i knew the answer #and guess what? IT WAS NOT SATISFYING!!! #because they still didn't love me! and i still couldn't change that! #it was still a completely unsatisfying state of affairs! #so like. when the people who are supposed to love you...don't. #when the people who are supposed to take care of you...fail to #you can look for answers and reasons and explanations #but that's not actually going to FIX your situation. #and it's probably not within your ability TO fix the situation. (and definitely not your job) #because you don't need answers--you need a new situation #*inserts Just Walk Out. You Can Leave!!! (Running Skeleton) Meme* #and yes. walking out isn't always possible. #but for you i hope it will be one day soon. and i hope you build the courage to take that leap. #stepping away from the people who failed to love you...it feels like being untethered but also like being lighter than air #new and scary. immensely relieving. the future opens up. empty but empty like a canvas. blindingly bright until your eyes adjust #like climbing out of a pit you called home and for the first time realizing how bright the light of day can truly be #when you aren't just getting glimpses from the bottom of a hole

[chikkenhawke]

enraptured by the shape of this beast 🐣

get stickers etc -> here

#bg3 #baldur's gate 3 #owlbear #owlbear cub #dnd #dungeons and dragons #chicken scribbles #sorry for catfishing with bg3 art i still havent played the game kjasdjkads #i love his expression it reminds me of the face my dog pulls when she gets her picture taken 😭😭 #doing a run cycle for his animation and these were some studies :^)

[nothatsmi]

I don't know what I miss more, having free time to draw or these fellas

The raven cycle!!!!

Oh I love these guys. Everything about these books, I want to draw them soooo much more (I probably will)!!

Guys I'm back-

It has been a nightmare lately this is the only thing I managed to draw in weeks? Finals and uni stuff that's taking all of my time and energy, slowly turning me into a cafeinated slug (worst part is caffeine doesn't even have an effect on me? I only drink coffee for the TASTE can you imagine). Anyway the rush won't be over until end of January but hopefully I'll be able to ignore the stress and draw anyway :)

#maggie stiefvater #the raven cycle #trc #the raven boys #gansey #ronan lynch #noah czerny #blue sargent #adam parrish #and they were all in love with each other #i lack words to express the amount off feelings i get when thinking about them #i wish i could go on silly quests to look for welsh kings in magic dream forests #i wish i could draw them more #i wish i could draw more #... #anyway feel free to print this shit as a bookmark if you want

[bubblesbinxs]

it’s currently 2am where i am so technically 4th of april.. Happy 2 Years ISWM !!!!!!!

#it’s not the Smoothest running cycle by all means but!!!! wanted to do a little something to celebrate:> #i don’t think i was there to celebrate its first year so here i am not messing it up this time>:) #what is college hw when you want to make an hommage to one of the biggest person who’s inspired you overall amarite fellas? #thank you mark for all the great stuff you put… it pushes me to want to tell my stories too #:) #drawing #my art #digital art #markiplier #fanart #animation #wilford warfstache #wilford motherloving warfstache #murderiplier #actor mark #engineer mark #iswm #in space with markiplier

[proxycrit]

Me thinking about honses.

(Are they gods? Or unfortunate magical experimentations? When did the world blink, and they’ve grown— but not old, nor wise?

At least they’re sisters, and they have each other.

At least.

At least.)

Anyways here’s my doodles for a possible luna and celestia! They’re ancient alicorns, ascended during a great war that would later shape equestria as a primarily pony continent. (The modern alicorns are made with love. The ancient alicorns are made with desperation. Nightmare Moon and Daybreaker are not accidents.)

#mlp #mlp redesign #critdraws #hey remember when I said I’m not a mlp artist #IM STILL NOT. #BUT LIKE #FUNNY HORSE SISTERS CAUGHT UP IN THE CYCLE OF VIOLENCE AND NEEDING MORTAL INTERVENTION TO BREAK FREE…. #celestia mlp #luna mlp #nightmare moon #mlp luna #mlp celestia #alicorn #alicorn redesign #mlp world building #luna #celestia #myart #mlp gen 4 #character sheet #art #MY SHORT CELESTIA PROPOGANDA COMES FORTH #Rest your Weary Hooves in our New Found Home

[archivebottles]

Happy birthday to the most special girl in the universe!! Wanted to try something ambitious and ended up with the biggest comic I've done to date

#signalis #ariane yeong #elster #overestimating elsters ability to paint so ignore how it looks probably way better than she could have done ok? #myart #i have nothing cool to say here i am so tired. i baked a cake from scratch lol and that took so much out of me... #im old.. #im like cycling(hah) thru three diff elster designs bear with me here #elster seems like the type of person to be really good at gifts..kinda feel like u gotta be when ur on the same ship for um like. 15 years

[daeyumi]

✨⭐️ Essence of Divinity 🌟✨💫

[Cycle of the Stars au]

#zelda #zelda au #loz au #legend of zelda au #legend of zelda #link #au link #zelda fanart #daeyumi art #cycle of the stars #cycle of the stars au #i was v happy with this piece tbh #it’s actually supposed to be one piece in a small series that i wanted to draw featuring the link zelda & ganondorf of my au #but i only have this one finished lol #tho i do still want to make this a series so there’s a good chance that i’ll still draw the others #well tbh one of the reasons i never drew the other pieces yet is bc i hadn’t finished zelda or ganondorf’s designs when i drew this one #but that’s not a problem anymore

[smokestarrules]

eight-episode seasons becoming the norm, shows being cancelled after their first or second season altogether, corporations not spending a single dollar to promote their renewed shows, corporations deciding to renew based on how many people binge it over and over and over again... this is the slow, choking death of media literacy. 

#and that's not even TOUCHING the homophobia. I'm not calm enough to talk about that shit right now #warrior nun #also. because people are being annoying in the tags and replies. the death of media literacy as in: #showrunners aren't told in enough time that their show is going to be canceled so they either end with a cliffhanger or have to wrap #everything up in the next season so the writing is rushed #and when the writing is rushed then the morals will be skewed and people will misconstrue them even more and talk badly about the show and #then another show like it will get canceled. it's a vicious cycle #smokey speaks #1k #10k

[broresteia]

the gangsey

#the raven cycle #trc #doodles #i think of them every fall… #gave noah more baggy clothes a la the 90s when i assume he died?? idk it’s been years since ive read it…

[nosnexus]

Same forest, same path, same brave little girl and Death.

#dimension 20 #d20 #neverafter #neverafter spoilers #ylfa snorgelsson #my art #ITS ABOUT CYCLES #EMILY HAS TAKEN ME OUT WITH EVERY YLFA SCENE #Fuck I was crying the whole time... #If I had another week I'd clean this up nicer #maybe I can return to it when I have some better color skill #BUT ITS DONE AND I'M SATISFIED

[brookheimer]

shiv was not being altruistic nor intellectually self-interested when she voted against kendall. that was pure raw visceral desperation to maintain some semblance of dignity that she felt kendall being ceo would shred her of. sometimes people do not act in other people’s best interests or their own best interests. sometimes people do the wrong thing for the wrong reasons just because it feels like the right, the only, thing to do. shiv could not let kendall be ceo. she just couldn’t. not because she wanted to sacrifice herself to “stop the cycle,” not because she made a calculation and decided tom was her best interest — because the thought of kendall being ceo and acting like That the rest of their lives when shiv earned that job, she fucking earned it, that was too much to fucking bear. watching him sit in dad’s chair, conduct that vote, grin with entitlement and cockiness and certainty — seeing that elicited a visceral painful all-consuming sensation not dissimilar to overwhelming nausea that, summed up in two words, would simply be: fuck. no. she couldn’t live with that. she just couldn’t. it’s not kind. it’s not smart. it’s just human. painfully, destructively human. because sometimes, that’s all there is to it. not just for shiv, but for everyone. god knows roman and kendall have had those same feelings, made those same self-destructing yet necessary-feeling decisions throughout the show. why does it have to be different for shiv? why can’t she be painfully destructively human, prone to impulsive ill-conceived viscerally felt actions, like everyone else? why are we incapable of allotting her the same nuance and humanity (the good and the bad), the same trauma-informed self-destructive life-ruining hamartias, as we do her brothers? why can’t we fit a whole woman in our heads?

#very surprised to see so many ‘shiv stopped the cycle on purpose blah blah blah’ takes like that didn’t even cross my mind as a motivation #of hers #it wasn’t calculated — i mean kendall winning would be to her benefit in terms of power and respect. that would be best for her #it wasn’t just jealousy or anything either; it wasn’t a coherent thought or plan #it was just I Can’t Fucking Do This #i can’t sit there while he smiles like that when he sits in dad’s chair and hisses that’s fucking right under his breath when someone votes #his way. not when that job was fucking MINE. it was MINE. i can’t- i can’t fucking do it #it’s about preservation of emotional dignity #it’s about self-respect #it’s ironic though because there are few things more undignified and less respected than being a quiet betrayed trophy wife to a weak ceo #husband who earned his position even less than kendall #but she’s not thinking clearly. she’s not Thinking. she just acted because there was this visceral need to act #succession #succession spoilers #shiv roy #100 #500 #casey shut the fuck up about shiv roy #1000

[biggest-gaudiest-patronuses]

HAPPY APRIL 1st, i wrote a fic about the suez canal fiasco bc it's still the funniest thing that's ever happened. synopsis is "grumpy gods from different mythologies argue over whose job it is to unstick the goddamn boat"

#you cannot. you cannot imagine. your imagination cannot ENCAPSULATE #the immense BREADTH of my disappointment when the Ever Given got unstuck on March 29th #just DAYS SHORT OF APRIL FOOL'S DAY #can you imagine. can you flipping. ENVISION. what that human experience would have been like? #to wake up April 1st and see the entire news cycle saying the boat has been unstuck and having to fact check the hell out of it??? #and spending ALL DAY WONDERING????? #because you THINK you know. you're almost CERTAIN you know......but WHAT IF????????? #that's the timeline i belonged in i was ROBBED

[withdenim]

Terrified by how this is gonna play out. Dragon/oni imagery in ninjago has famously always ended well for the characters involved.

#update to my sora design also #when are we gonna find out what arins horns are for I’m losing my mind #weird thing to put on a character design in a show like ninjago without a reason #ESPECIALLY because they’re Lloyd’s kids if you know what I mean #it’s a cycle it’s always a cycle #oni and dragon have FSM. FSM is forced to choose between them #FSM has wu and Garmadon. wu and Garmadon are oni and dragon #oni and dragon (wu and Garmadon) make Lloyd (next in line. sole heir.) choose between them #Lloyd gets two students/kids (Arin and sora) they have oni and dragon imagery #what’s going on here. what is this. it has to mean something #ninjago #dragons rising #my art #ninjago dragons rising #lego ninjago #Arin ninjago #sora ninjago #Arin dragons rising #sora dragons rising

[romanfucker]

when Logan chooses to skip Connor's wedding for business but if he'd been at the wedding he would've gotten better medical care and potentially lived

#girls when the cycle.......... #succession spoilers #succession #logan roy #c.txt

[lgbtlunaverse]

the wangxian + a-yuan "dads with an adopted son" thing is fine and enjoyable in fanfics honestly but I think we as a fandom are really not utilizing the idea of all of them in unconventional familial structures enough. Like, canonically it wasn't so much that wwx was a-yuan's guardian as that a-yuan was being raised collectively by the wens and wwx was adopted INTO the larger wen family. And lwj got attached to him through that. A-yuan just has these very attached weird uncles/older cousin figures that aren't related to him by blood at all but keep sticking around.

Just think of a modern AU with a lot less death where lwj does as he does in canon and keeps showering a-yuan in gifts as much as he can and when wwx is like "aiyah lan zhan you're gonna spoil him. Not everyone is as rich as you! What's his family supposed to say if they can't buy him all the stuff you do?" lwj just goes "Hm". And from then on out every year once a-yuan's birthday is near the extended Wen family members (well. the ones that are invited that is. No one wants wen chao at a birthday party) wakes up to a wechat payment from lwj.

Random wen cousin number 6 texts granny like

cousin 6: i just got 400 yuan????

granny: oh that's just wangji

cousin 6: i've never met this guy in my life???

granny: he wants you to buy a-yuan a nice birthday present!

cousin 6: how does he know my bank account???

#mdzs #lan wangji #wei wuxian #wen yuan #lan sizhui #granny wen #wangxian #i just don't think we're thinking enough about wangxian as nonconventional family to a-yuan enough #lwj leaving early on chinese new year's eve to go to a party over at the wens??? hilarious #wen siblings move in with granny to care for her and help with a-yuan. wwx crashes at their place for months #eventually lwj is there more days than not. the white wash cycle is like 70% his clothes #granny sleeps in the room next to wwx's and once wangxian happens #she sometimes very pointedly goes well!! i'm gonna go to the park!! for about an hour! which means I WON'T BE HERE. *wink* #as always when talking about underrated dynamics i am not hating on anyone for writing what they want. merely exploring concepts i enjoy