#when I get stressed lately?

[thievinghippo]

Oops. It’s January 22nd and I nano’d

#hippo talks writing #in my defense #when I get stressed lately? #all I do is write #there are definitely worse things

[reineydraws]

wanted: marine hunter takanome mihawk

#shanks: oh i want him alright #dracule mihawk #takanome mihawk #one piece #one piece fanart #op fanart #i accidentally went way extra on this than i intended to 💀 i got bored waiting for my brother + my phone was charging #it was just supposed to be a b&w sketch with his eyes yellow or red but it got out of hand when i was like 'maybe i'll do skin for funsies' #ah well. im really starting to get into painting with this one brush. one day i'll merge it with the style i use more #cuz rn i tend to break out the painting only when i wamt smth a liiiiittle👌 more realistic. #i stress that 'little' bc calling my style 'realistic' in any sort of way feels inaccurate lol #i digress #i love imagining marine hunter mihawk being some teenage punk between the ages of 17 and 23 #idk when he became a warlord but if he had this epithet even before roger's death that would put him in mid-to-late teens #since at roger's execution he was 19 amd already had yoru #so it's kinda funny to imagine the marines being hunted by some teenager with dramatic sideburns and an even more dramatic sword #last post of the year! :) #i had no chill this month. pls dont expect anything on my blog again till march lol. #(im half-serious; im going on vacation for all of february and i have some prior pieces i need to focus on in jan haha. we'll see tho!)

[fumifooms]

Here to share Hien thoughts today.

One thing that defines her is that she’s very capable. She’s the highest ranking in the squad after Maizuru so her confidence is in part because she does have that senior coworker &/ leader authority to her, confidence which is very much earned.

If I had to dig deeper at her beyond just what we’re shown I’d go with the angle that… She was born into the Nakamoto household and being a ninja servant, she grew up there, she doesn’t know anything else beyond the job, and it’s a job she does well, traines to get there. She’s here to do her work and she’s content with her life being how it is, not that she knows anything else. I don’t think she’d be self-aware about it all? Both because this really is pretty normal for Wa and it’s her normal, and because, while she doesn’t fold her spine or care for things like cosmetics, she does mold her attitude to be both capable and respectable. Her home, the Nakamoto household, is simultaneously a professional setting, it’s a 24/7 thing.

She’s critical of others, including her superiors and she doesn’t shy from it. Everyone shittalks Toshiro’s father regardless, but she also gets reprimanded by Maizuru for seeing Toshiro as vaguely unreliable, again likely influenced by their history as childhood friends, sasses Maizuru when she goes off into an anecdote again, etc. Even as a kid with Toshiro, doubtlessly after starting her ninja training already considering that Toshiro started his at ~5yo, she told him it was unbecoming of him to cry. She’s the one both with the job and the will to keep others in check, like when it comes to Izutsumi not doing her tasks, etc etc.

Her childhood friend relationship with Toshiro only grew more professional with time, to her surprise but seems to be more about the thought of it rather than it affecting her emotionally. With the way her extra comic lays it out, it seems she expected to become Toshiro’s mistress because of history repeating itself, in a "it is what it is" way more than anything, which is in line with the reading that she’s more go-with-the-flow and "anything that I’m tasked with I’ll accomplish, as a matter of course". She’s not really social, and keeps herself ready to act at beck and call. She’s not uptight but she’s hard-working. So yeah like, taking pride in your skills but also keeping your identity mostly molded for efficiency. She doesn’t really think about it all, she just is and she’s fine with things as they are, going from one task to the next.

I think it’d be neat to look at her relationship with her parents… They’re both servants at the Nakamotos’, so while maybe busy like Maizuru was at times while raising Toshiro but still taking the time to cook for him (which, parents that prioritize work over her would make sense with how she became how she is), I wonder what their relationship was like, how much time they spent together, how Hien feels like towards them… I assume they’re a part in molding what her definition of normal is, after all if they are longstanding servants of the Nakamotos she has that much less reason to question such a life. But like… Have they ever had hard-hitting discussions, or is she pretty distant even with them? Did they push her into working harder, or were more hands-off? Does Hien maybe want to earn recognition by being capable? Hien has a younger sister that she gets along "so-so" with…

Hien’s younger sister seems to smile more, be more social and a bit nonchalant, such and such. Could be a point of tension that points to the "so-so", that they’re dissimilar/Hien thinks she doesn’t behave right or takes things too lightly, that she’s "unreliable" maybe. Or it could also point to some difference in how they grew up… Like oh I bet there could be tasty angst with mertocracy and siblings favoritism with her family thrown in there… Having to earn the love, earn your keep, earn your spot in the hierarchy (in work and family both)

To me she shines best as a foil, like to Beni, but like. She’s got neat stuff going on If you’re wondering where I took half of what I referenced from I recommend looking at my masterpost on the Nakamoto party, info and extras are compiled

#Dungeon meshi #delicious in dungeon #Hien #Meta #character analysis #fumi rambles #Working on a lot of different things on top of my actual work so things r slower than i’d like lately… Have this Discord ramble as apology #Meanwhile Beni’s attitude is very subservient and submissive. It’s interesting how little and how much difference they have simultaneously #On that front. Like you can’t really say Hien isn’t like a bodyguard ornament in the bg even if she shows more personality #Hienbeni fic will get finished one day I prommy #We’ve never seen Hien stressed which I think is a feat. Teach me your ways (probably repression) #Hien girlboss compilation #Ok Hien sister jealousy plot where she doesn’t know where the anger is coming from so she assumes it’s out of principle bc h slacks off #Hienbeni repressed anger power couple truly #So hmmm 3w2 enneagram Hien…? Beni I was thinking either 8w9 or 6w5… Maybe smth that becomes an 8 when stressed #You have to be pretty ballsy to specialize in explosives

[jascurka]

Suzuki "what do you plan to do with that filthy cat?" Toichiro

Me and @rxraltzna were talking about Toichiro ending up liking the kitty and silly shenanigans involving them. The name is Tabby!

#mp100 #mob psycho 100 #suzuki toichiro #toichiro tag #my art #sorry i keep drawing silly comics very late at night...for stress relief ): #i am pretty sure I had a mp100 themed dream last night with toichiro somewhere in it because I drew this at like 2 am #i think this is the moment when toichiro becomes just my oc #he is merely a barbie doll to me. Im putting him in a situation. a cat situation. i love him so. you don't get it... #im only getting started on the cat comics

[daily-hanamura]

#p4 #p4g #persona 4 #persona 4 golden #hanamura yosuke #yosuke hanamura #so its canon then that yosuke tends to forget to take of himself when he gets busy/stressed/etc then :) #yosuke's already a lanky ass like my guy stop making people worry about you!!! #also i like juxtaposing this against his group cafe date like of wanting to date someone he can look after because its both #bro you cant even take care of yourself #but also yosuke understanding himself enough that to be cared for is to be loved #anyway this is why you should always always have lunch with yosuke and feed him thanks for coming to my ted talk #OK BUT I also love that it's something that yu noticed about yosuke too because its so closely related to how he does. you know. #feed his friends food as a metaphor for love and all that and how yosuke hasnt had much attention (from him) lately #ok jk I'll stop being delulu but also really. #i feel a lot of Feelings about how yosuke and chie are the later members to awaken their 3rd tier #for meta reasons obviously it's also the fact that after maxing out yosuke's slink there arent as many opportunities to hang out #and there are so many good fics of that i slurp it all up #but for yosuke to point it out makes me so. SO. #anyway one final note is also yes i commented about how yosuke wasnt really doing a great job looking after himself but #i also think about his later comment that when people are relying on him it makes him want to do his best for others #and how he says he will always be there for his partner #and it makes me interpret all of that as yosuke being very roundabout in saying that he wants the two of them to look after each other #he's good with his queue

[raveartts]

turt

#raveartts #wings of fire #wof #turtle wof #dragon art #kinda art blocked lately but at least dragons are easy enough to draw #i'd love to draw some warrior cats stuff too but like...cats hard #oh well at least i'm drawing SOMETHING #i promised myself i'd do proper art fundamentals practice this year #but so far it's been absolutely pathetic #i'm barely even drawing in the past month #though i shouldn't be hard on myself about it i suppose #i've been stressed and busy and mentally unwell and dying #and i don't HAVE to draw....i just feel obligated to because it's all i'm good at and don't have other reliable hobbies i enjoy #perhaps once school is finished i can draw more #though by then i might be having to move out and work full time and i think i'll just die when that happens #so i'll just never get better at art i guess and i'll just pretend i'm totallyyyyy okay with being subpar forever and ever #lack of perfection DEFINITELY doesn't bother me :))))) not one bit #anyways i have to go to work soon.... #at least my chores are done. perhaps i'll promise myself i'll do some gestures tonight since i'm not busy

[smalltimidbean]

I finally finished Bugsnax

#I know Grumpus Bean has a unique tag but I don't remember what it is and I think I was gonna change their last name #so new tag time #OC: Bean (grumpus) #that'll do for now #but yes I am like three years late #mainly bc my old pc lagged to all hell and then I never redownloaded it on my new one until like yesterday #well I actually had to repurchase it for steam bc I was not gonna get that epic games launcher just for bugsnax but no big #although for some reason the game still lags but only when I am in snaxburg so the last quest was extra stressful! fighting a hoard at 2fps #I did know what was gonna happen bc I'd watched the ending #but still! it's a different experience to actually play than just watching someone who is also talking over most of it #and they didn't do most of the sidequests nor any of the DLC (tho I watched it before the DLC so they could not have ljksdgfkj) #so that was all new to me!!! #there's so many fuckin quests but I did them all!!! #except like two of them and catching that fast little coffee bastard #I will probably return to do that but for now I have to draw or I will explode #we will return to PT things but don't mind if I have snax on the brain for a bit #I have some funny moments I want to draw

[spotsupstuff]

Cap's got a new voice claim! feat. a tiny bit of Sparrows n her's unchanged vc because 1. it's cute to hear them together and 2. I snorted. The vibes are so different

[songs: So Familiar by Jean Castel and Driving Myself Home by Rose Betts]

#rw #oc tag #oc: caper of euros #oc: three sparrows #philosophy sessions au #ramble time. kai ninyago as Capie of Rossie wasn't Bad but i've been working on him lately- like looking into his faults their causes their #-evolution and what role he's supposed to play beyond Row's death (esp. in Preacher's life (Euros manages to be terrifying for the kid)) #n i came to the conclusion that he didn't sound Sharp enough. and bratty but like in a teenager boy band kind of way. oh he'd hate that- #-kinda music </3 fuckin european posh kid #the ''tragedy'' of 'Ros on here is that back when i was answerin questions with the chars 'Ros n 'Row were constantly together and that- #-didn't allow them to really show who they are because they bring out the best in each other. Sparrows is braver with him having her back- #-and he's not a rude fucker (one of the reasons i turned off asks is cuz i figured they weren't actually helpful. only stressed me out n- #-as result the world/character building became lackluster) #Euros is still a silly guy who's scared to hurt someone/thing physically! (his inspos are kai ninyago s0kka and kuzc0 so) #but ill be damned if i let any of my characters be *just* a silly guy that is fucking obnoxious #each of these fuckers is a psychological experiment. also sick shit: new 'Ros vc is french apparently :) #he can sing Zephyr songs in Her Tongue™... get it anime chin boy get that multilinguality

[cadaverousdecay]

i’m so overwhelmed by things that shouldn’t be overwhelming...

#among them‚ i’ve fallen behind on drscula dauly for the first time this year and it’s stressing me out cuz i really really wanted to keep up #this year that was the one goal i had for the year is keep up with it. last year i fell way behind when my brother died and it was so hard #catching up and the entry on the 30th was a little longer than they’ve been recently and i’ve been busy and also slipping back into depressi #on real bad and i’m just not in the mood for it and i feel like it’s just gonna snowball #and this is such a non issue. it’s a book. that i’ve read before. but still it’s just stressing me out. among other things #like library books that are overdue and i haven’t finished or journal entries i want to write or a letter i’ve been wanting so badly to writ #e and a short story idea that i wanted to write down but is escaping me and fucking. tumblr notifications #these are non issues!!! but it feels like there’s a timer for the world to end again all the same. #ugh #and i should be able to focus on one thing and get it done! these things shouldn’t be hard! they’re even meant to be enjoyable! but i can’t #get myself to do anything lately #and on top of all that i’m not able to fall asleep even with my sleep meds. #what even ever‚‚‚ #anyway sorry for the rant i’m basically fine

[sapphicsnzs]

playing my most favorite game: is it allergies or am i getting sick?

#snz blog #snz kink #snzblr #self obs #like i’ve been sneezy and my sinuses hurt but i think it’s just allergies??? #or at least i thought till today when my throat started hurting but that could also be post nasal drip which i get really bad with allergies #i really hope it’s just allergies but i’ve been so stressed lately and haven’t been sleeping or eating so i wouldn’t be surprised if it’snot #anyways hope you all are having a great allergy season this far🫠

[crows--den]

The ssum really is just "That tamagotchi is a whole ass man"

#The ssum #it's cute! #def more like a mysme themed idler tho. #you get a chat at the turn of each of your routine segments so you get one when you wake one at lunch one at dinner and one before bed #which is sorta nice it's not like mysme that you HAVE to check throughout the day #I'm assuming there won't be any real plot because like. 200 days of chat?? how you gonna do a plot in that? #no real good or bad ends i assume. #but my tamagotchi boys eyes changed color so!! #v exciting developments. #I like it so far tho man it makes me miss mysme #the fun of staying up way too late for absolutely no reason and the low key stress of the apartment bomb plot the first time through #I'm absolutely going to try not to compare them too much because they're obviously separate titles and universes but #the comparison is an easy one to make.

[lunarharp]

lil extras for the free day

#witch hat tag #orufrey #orufreyweek2023 #gotta put these silly things here now 🤦‍♂️ cause the remaining prompt to catch up is not a happy one so it should go somewhere else.. #didnt end up doing anything that pushed my limits after all..but that's ok. since i've felt pretty depressed lately this week was my treat #i def feel like i get less likes & RTs overall on twt recently even tho my followers increase. are ppl sick of my stuff ?? :') #but i myself feel pretty ok about my art atm...so i guess it's fine. my fics have never gotten the hits/kudos i've ever hoped for #so i've accepted that this is how it is for me. i see LOTS of ppl stress about that kinda stuff and i don't wanna be like that.. #i'll just keep on keeping on. creating has been pretty satisfying lately when im NOT depressed abt other stuff #and i do get fulfilling comments <3

[cathalbravecog]

So I gave in and done it - Drew my Minecraft sona / skin, Larimar with Cathal since the two have some design similarities both being CRT TV inspired TV head robots... Let's just say yeah, there's perhaps a few reasons why I got so attached to Cathal like this, yeah?

#toontown #toontown corporate clash #minecraft #oc art #cathalposting #multislacker #guz art #doodles #u know ive gotten confident when i post even my goofy stuff on the main tag.... lets hope that doesnt get to my head now before i force #myself back into hidey hide again. but hey means im generally having a good time here but i miss my hidden feel a bit . i gotta be less #normaler #mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm i ame having secound thoughts but eh screw it.. main tag it is #rips fur out #RAH ! #'coz my art been getting quite a bit of traction lately and i rlly dont want it gettin into my head bc its not been stressing me out for #once but with this other problems can arise whoops i mean . ... flashbacks to my bugsnax era #ERM YEAH THAT #GGrrh.... ive been so proud of the art ive been doing lately so i wanna main tag it but i just kinda..... #wish to keep it low again......... have da same feelie feel yknow #i have an interesting way of talking here i just realized. its ok it adds to my swag . ok ramble over *drops mic* *struts out* *stumbles #over and falls on my face* *dies on impact* #i maye remove hte tags later but who Knows

[averlym]

,,, little lemmings in line...

#adamandi #needed this. idk. shameless fluff. i. sjdhdjfhfhfhfhf viewing this doodle just makes me happy ok #something silly. i feel like lately i've been a lot more earnest on this blog and it's nice!! #the imagery that the lyrics evoke.... goes so hard actually. consider this maybe an outtake of the last 'where can i run' thingy #yes i get the whole lemmings off a cliff thing but also i think taking it at face value would be cute therefore this #since basically they refer to the rest of the students as lemmings.. he's human in this one i guess. #quincent thoughts. many many. but also i have been maybe avoiding engaging with quincy on a more intense level? until i am in a better #mental state to do so. because the whole academic perfection and self harm is a Thing i would like to engage with Properly without spirals #yay on me for being healthy about media! not normal and never normal. but healthy is good i guess #... hm. family is being iffy lately because you're supposed to have good acads And not stressed but i refuse to feel guilty anymore. #after this period i'll go bonkers over him and in the meantime unfortunately they won't feature as much in the content.. :< #anyways. fun fact about lemmings is that it's not necessarily a derogatory blindly leaping to deaths thing when it comes to the actual ones #like that's the phrasing and connotation right. but apparently it's more of they leap off cliff into water below or smth to migrate and onl #the rare few die (skill issue??um) and apparently the whole association was propagated by some documentary wildlife drama thing that kind o #.... hastened the chasing of the poor things off the cliff and filmed it. a bit messed up. and like i guess what a nice metaphor for the #academic context here? or a different one at least. where only a few die so they keep doing it but also for the Average lemming following #following the system is not inherently bad.. maybe i'm projecting. #anyways peep the tiny character shorthands now.. ambrose has the jacket/ bea has the hat and gloves with strings: portia has the bow on hea #quincy has the bowtie and glasses /(beatrix also has glasses. i forgot about those until i was drawing quincy's.) #'avvy why are they standing up' you ask? because four legs looked weird with ambrose's jacket. 'why did you give lemmings glasses?' ummmmm #i guess recognisability? don't look too much into it #outtakes of this include vincent standing in a circle of lemmings. it's badly drawn and frankly hilarious because they're all tiny and #below the knee. #'avvy these don't look like realistic lemmings' you are very right. i am sorry. i looked for a crowd of lemmings on google images and all i #found were political cartoons... i Can draw animals technically i swear #anyways! emotional support adamandi doodle out. going to start work now! #oh i forgot to tag the characters... hm... i guess i'll leave out the lemmings.. #? #vincent aurelius lin #.

[dragons-and-yellow-roses]

Me, while manically cleaning my room at 3:27am: I should make several large, life-changing, irreversible decisions.

#so ive been in a bad mental state lately #because of many things. but the biggest being (yes i know ive complained about this in multiple other posts) #that my best friend and my ex gf were fucking. without even asking or telling me. i got no heads up. just figured it out on my own #which sucked and now im not speaking to either of them #and when i first found out i was in a bad place physically too #i had a terrible ear infection that was so fucking painful #and i realized i could concentrate on both things. so i focused on healing #and then i remembered ny family is coming to visit for Christmas #and thats a lot to deal with. so now im focusing on cleaning the apartment. specifically my bedroom #so im manically cleaning at 3:30am while angry and stressed and trying not to focus on this thing that makes me really upset #and in the middle of cleaning ill suddenly think 'should i quit my summer camp job?' or 'should i move states again?' #its not good. but i havent acted on anything #AND in the middle of cleaning i found all of my meds #i havent been taking them for months. but i decided im gonna start taking them again #i have a few refills left but then ill have to find a psychiatrist. i dont want to. but its definitely for the best #im trying to get my life back on track and build and better it #but then something hits me and completely derails everything and makes everything so hard #so anyway im gonna go do some more cleaning and try not to make life-altering decisions. and maybe build a desk #btw i have to get up at 9am to take out my puppy. and at 11:35 i have to get ready for work. again its 3:30am #and im full of manic energy #tomorrow is going to be very bad but at least I'll have a semi-clean room

[w1lmuttart]

Life is stressful, have a portrait 🕺✨

#haven't been able to do a lot of art lately :/ #currently working on a class project at uni and hhhhh it's stressing me out lmao #also the recent topic of a i is making me bummed out #when you're one of the few artists in your design class so a majority of your classmates don't get why it's a problem :')))) #i am fine. i think. idk I'll manage #on a less depressing note i am pretty happy w the background for this one #art #digitalart #digital art