#what what does that even mean they didnt explain it

[chainreh]

finished Nirvana initiative Feeling Oh So Normal

#nirvana initiative spoilers #tbh i was kinda right that this game didn't feel as mind fucky overall as the first game #mostly bc i kinda guessed some of the twists i suppose #like the identity of the masked woman and tearer and stuff #but that doesnt mean it was bad ofc i had a blast and was still surprised by a lot of things #also imo he's peaked with mindfucky stuff with the 999 plot twist . that still makes me lose my mind to this day #also im glad this game had a lotta 999 stuff thats my favourite in the ze escape series ncjdjcjdjx #shoma is still my favourite new character<3 but mizuki is my fav too ofc #also (me after finishing ryuki's route) is ryuki gay? #theyre like really vague about it and then at the end were like him and Tama are in love btw<3 weird bc thats like his eye but ok #like maybe the confession of love was platonic im all for telling ur friends you love them #but tama constantly made gay jokes about him 😭also we have a very Intimate relationship #what what does that even mean they didnt explain it #whatever ill never get answers #anyway i really enjoyed it and would recommend it to anyone who needs their brain melting/enjoys a good murder mystery #idk if i like it more. i think i like the characters more in this one but ill need to sit on it a while to say overall #also ni definitely wasnt as gorey as the first game. you never get to see the cut half of the corpses #also the somniuns were a lot easier. also a bit more hand holdly at times #but i think thats probably bc people complained about the solutions being random or whatever #i actually really appreciated the randomness bc it was actually pretty cool especially on how trauma patients process things #but also i appreciate not having to repeat the somniums a billion times😭 #i still have nightmares about boss saito's somnium 😭i had to look up a guide for it in the end #anyway. ive added far too many tags. its 5am goodnight

[danielnelsen]

im enjoying flowcharts rn so here's a diagram of all the main quests (and a very few side quests) in all three games, coloured by year.

#i might put more side quests in later but.. no guarantee #there's also a better version of this where i didnt separate it all by year; just the colours #but whatever idk #dragon age #dragon age origins #dragon age 2 #dragon age inquisition #dragon age meta #(kinda?? not really idk. what does meta even mean at this point.) #personal #da #dao #da2 #dai #sorry the image description doesnt explain the actual diagram. i.......feel like that's understandable

[ravenmoodle]

Why do people feel the need to tell me the things I like are gross?

#rats. pigeons. hairless cats #they are NOT gross you guys are just mean!!!! #theyre just here existing and youre judging them for things they cant control!!! #told a coworker i want a pet pigeon really bad #“gross! pigeons are nasty trash birds!” i didnt ask!!! and what others options do they have!? #oh im sorry. should they go back to their natural habitat??? EUROPE!? We bought them here!!! #explaining how hairless cats have to be washed sometimes cause their skin gets oily #“eww! thats so gross!” LITERALLY YOUR SKIN GETS OILY YOU FUCK. that happens when you have skin!! #>:[ so tired of it. #even if you dont like something why do you have to tell me.. someone who does- why its so gross and i shouldnt like it #ravens squawk

[beomgyutruther]

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#snapped at my mom because im stressed about my preboard results and then i apologized and explained that i was rly stressed and accidentally #lashed out and she started saying that im always rude to her and taking my stress out on her ??? and that i never do this to my dad #and then she said i never talk to her about anything even though she's the only one who does everything for me yet i still dont talk to her #and well. maybe if she didnt tell my brother 'if u do this u will end up like ur sister in the future. u dont want to fail in life right ? #then dont do this' (nearly exact words) when she was scolding him . i mean maybe then i would actually want to talk to her #and it sucks because i cant rly talk to anyone irl about this because i still feel scared that they'll like. judge my mom #because i still love her a lot and dont want people to think badly about her #but its getting harder ! to exist here ! and the fact that i am constantly used as an example of what my brother should NOT be #especially when i work this hard partly because i want to be someone my brother can look up to #and to have that come from my own mother . it's really hurtful and makes me feel like nothing i ever do will be enough for her #not to mention the fact that i have come out to her 4 times and she still constantly asks me if it's just a phase #<- i thought that part was getting better but apparently not #but i've stopped expecting anything from anyone in that respect so it doesn't really come as a surprise lmao #anyway rant over i just needed to get that off my chest because i really dont know how long i can keep crying and then forcing my voice #to be normal so that no one asks what happened because wow it is taking a toll on me! who knew #do noooot perceive this

[doodlebloo]

Do you guys ever think about how (as far as we know) c!Tubbo arguably made the right choice by deciding to never open up to c!Ranboo... Because c!Ranboo (when Enderwalking) retains all his memories and works alongside c!Dream anyway. So although c!Tubbo doesn't know it, his paranoia is actually keeping him safe, because the less info c!Ranboo knows the less he has the ability to tell c!Dream... Not that c!Ranboo necessarily would, but it sucks that like... c!Tubbo probably beats himself up for not wanting to share anything with his sweet and loyal husband, not even knowing that sharing the wrong stray detail about c!Tommy could have caused something disastrous. Like c!Tubbo was right to be a closed book and that shit hurts to think about!!!

#i need Ranboo to explain cRanboo so bad. #one of the only things i care about anymore. pls just tell me why a version of cRanboo with all his memories WHICH BTW #HIS MEMORIES WOULD INCLUDE THE DISC FINALE. Why that version of cRanboo would willingly help cDream. #Even IF cDream went ''oh i wasnt really gonna kill Tubbo it was staged also its good that New Lmanberg was exploded by me'' #and even IF cRanboo wasnt told why the prison tnt needed to be set off & therefore didnt know hed be hurting cTommy #how could he work with someone who he knows has hurt cTubbo like that. If he genuinely cared. #and i think about that a LOT a lot bc like. We see all these glimpses of cRanboo just... not listening to what cTubbo is saying. #the warning about cWilbur in ho16 is a good example but also just about history and Lmanberg in general... cRanboo sort of gives off the #vibe that he thinks he knows better than cTubbo does. That he thinks he knows what cTubbo needs and what's best for him #but also that he like... idk i just have thought about it a lot and worryingly i think he could become similar to c!Technoblade eventually. #Not in the ''violence is the only universal language'' way but in the way of like ''as soon as someone doesnt agree w my ideals and feels #differently than I do they have lost my respect and protection until they Prove themself and Earn it back'' type deal. not NOW i dont think #cRanboo is like that NOW but... Everyone always says ''cRanboo grow a backbone'' but he DID... While enderwalking. #ew!Ranboo is him with a backbone and apparently the him with a backbone does not care if he hurts his loved ones. #like cRanboo is part of the problem of people brushing aside cTubbo's grief and pain like it doesnt matter. cRanboo helping cDream has the #same energy as cJack trying to kill cTommy. this sort of ''he'll get over it'' mentality about cTubbo that assumes that just because he HAS #in the past been able to ''bounce back'' from indescribable loss that means things dont bother him or he can do it easily #so like. i do believe cRanboo isnt unsalvageable. i think the parts of him WE see are very much just misguided and not intentionally #hurtful. but sometimes i think abt Ranboo saying he was gonna make it so no one could be an apologist for cRanboo and I think like #what Memory does ew!Ranboo regaun that suddenly makes it fine for him to hurt his loved ones? for ''Dream Is The Reason'' to completely #disappear for him? is cDream offering him something he cant refuse or god forbid does ew!Ranboo just AGREE with him? #that to me is like. Once i know that i can be at peace. thats like one of the only things I'll be genuinely upset if it isnt explained #bc when i tell you it has been haunting me for like a year. #ok sorry for the rant and sorry boobers if i messed up some lore details lol #doodle.txt

[kohakhearts]

i feel like yeah i mean, gary is essentially a palaeontologist, but he has this like, Thing established early in the narrative about Bonds between pokemon and humans - emphasized in his eevee evolving into umbreon, of course, but this part of his character is…interesting, because we’re given hints that kind of go against the idea that in the indigo league he’s not as emotionally attached to his pokemon as, say, ash (a nod to his character inspiration in blue, obviously, who professor oak says can’t win because he doesnt love his pokemon enough or whatever. similarly in the anime prof oak is the one to point out the difference in ash’s and gary’s styles of raising pokemon, that ash values friendship and gary values strategy, which……..aren’t really mutually exclusive and ash shows us this too but whatever. my point is gary has lines and actions prior to that exchange that are kinda contrary to what prof oak says there). anyway i just woke up from a pretty intense nap to say that i think we all should lean into gary being more anthropological in his pokemon research compared to goh in particular who is a lot more scientific and whose character arc kinda functions around learning to accept that humans and pokemon can and do have mutually beneficial relationships, something he rejected initially under the assumption that pokemon can’t learn to help themselves if humans are always rushing in to do the hard stuff for them. like in a way they have a common goal of research yes but i think this is an interesting disconnect that would be fun to explore because its a big area of potential conflict that the anime doesnt show us because they have so many OTHER conflicts that make them good foils to each other And by the time they meet this isnt something goh is grappling with nearly as much as he was in the beginning. but i feel like later in his life it’s something he believed so deeply for so long maybe it could affect his research. i dont know how to coherently put this into words - that nap really drained my brain power, which was already low anyway - but i am so interested in the idea that a cold, detached view of science is antithetical to the study of it. and like who better to prove that to you then the guy who pisses you off so bad you stop being cold and detached about things without even realizing it

#taylor.txt #does this make sense? probably not #sorry i just feel ljke. ash and the ivysaur was a classic ash moment obviously but did gary not have that same dynamic with the shieldon #narratively it seems this is something gary had to Learn and didnt just Do like ash did but i think indigo league gary cared more than the #anime wants us to think. maybe he wouldnt have done it for wild pokemon but surely for his own? #maybe i just wish gary had come around earlier than he did because it wouldve made for an interesting dynamic with mr my first pokemons #gonna be mew compared to a more adjusted goh with more realistic expectations about what it means to raise pokemon #im not explaining this well i dont even know what the point is. I JUST THINK THERES SOMETHING HERE IDK WHAT #taylor watches anipoke

[reikunrei]

tell me why it seems like 90% of byler shippers are the most smug, insufferable people i’ve ever had the displeasure of seeing on my dash. like can y’all be normal people LMAO

i’ve been following a smattering of general st fandom accounts that also post a lot about them for less than a week and i’m already like “damn i gotta fuckin go”

you’re telling me i survived 2013-2015 superwholock and free! shipping wars and i’m just right back in it in the year of our lord 2023? get a life LOL

#me seeing the 17th punching-down nickname for mileven: im seriously at my fucking limit #I DONT EVEN LIKE ONE SHIP MORE THAN THE OTHER #WHO GIVE A SHIT!!! BE NNORMAL!!! #saw a post today that was like 'ppl who ship mileven should be scared #bc the st social accounts didnt even post anything abt them for vday teehee mileven shippers are so delusional' #and i rolled my eyes so hard they almost popped out of my head #this shit does not matter! why are u being so mean to these 14 year old characters LOL #mileven and byler are both good! why are you pitting 2 bad bitches against each other! #when will ppl learn that it's more fun to analyze all ships wwith a neutral-positive pov #rather than trying to explain how the analysis makes YOUR ship better #like seriously go get a hobby that makes you happy #rather than wasting time trying to convince ppl they shouldnt ship smthn bc you dont like it #'oh but el makes mike feel inferior so it's a bad duo' bro what #like i see where youre coming from but he's allso 14 #and has the potential to llearn to not feel that way bc el loves him #not my l key sticking every time i use it #anyway. yeah. it's annoying #time to go back to only following cool chill gifmakers #just. i dont think i'll ever understand the desire to focus only on ships #is it valid to analyze media and come away with intricate thoughts on rellationships? yes of course #but god. i just want general discussions about solo charas and the show as a whole #stranger things is a story about LOVE and not about ROMANCE #my aro/ace tendencies are flaring up :zany emoji: #i say things #ANYWAY. I HAVE TO. SHUT UP LOL

[theygender]

You know... part of the reason I had a hard time coming to terms with being a lesbian growing up was because I didn't want to be like my mom. I had been through a lot of trauma that was directly related to her choice in women, and there's definitely something to be said for the difficulties that that caused me, but that's not what this post is about

My point is, when I was a kid the idea of anyone ever thinking that I was like my mother made me angry, and that combined with the internalized lesbophobia that I developed made me especially sick at the idea of anyone ever thinking that I was a lesbian. Even worse, I felt like the homophobes in our family expected me to become a lesbian because of their bigoted ideas that gay parents "corrupt" children. I didn't want to be a lesbian because I didn't want to prove them right and I didn't want to be compared to my mother, so I fought hard against ever being interpreted that way

But now, as someone who's reconnecting with my mom on my own terms and finding out that she's changed for the better? As someone who's secure in their identity as a lesbian and grateful for the opportunities that I've had to engage with the LGBT community throughout my life? As someone who loves my mother in spite of her flaws and recognizes the struggles she faced growing up in the 1970s as the first out LGBT person in a homophobic southern family? I'm proud to be as openly gay as I am and I will not be apologetic for it

I WILL look as queer as possible at our family reunions. I WILL make you respect my girlfriend's pronouns. I WILL speak openly and honestly about the woman I love. I WILL be who I am with no compromises. And I will not engage with you if you don't accept this

My mom had to spend way too many years trying to conform to heteronormative standards for her family's acceptance. She had to hide who she was throughout her childhood, and she had to go through conversion therapy when she was outed. Even as an adult she wasn't able to present the way she wanted or speak openly about her partners. She was the first out lesbian in a family full of southern conservative christians, and she had to live through the hell that her family created for her all alone

...But I am the second out lesbian in a family that supports me for who I am. And I'm the first out nonbinary person in a family that supports me for who I am. And I openly and proudly love all the trans people in my life, who are also fully supported by my family. And there's nothing any of my conservative relatives can do about that. I'm accepted by the family that matters, and I have to be afforded the same respect as everyone else at family gatherings. The homophobes no longer have the power in this situation. I get to be who I am, and if they don't like it they have to leave. They spent decades making my mom's identity a problem for her, and now I'm going to make my identity everyone else's problem. Get with the program or die fucking mad

#i really am proud of how much my mom has grown as a person #and im happy that we have supportive family members now too #my grandma. my great grandma. my grandpas wife #my great grandma was the only one who accepted my mom as a kid and shes always been sweet #when i was in high school i had a huge crush / sort of fling with a girl named tori and i guess my mom talked to her about it #my great grandma said she had heard i had a 'good friend' named tori and when i confirmed she told me how wonderful she thought that was #and that she thought we should go to college and get a nice apartment together after we graduated #i didnt even realize that she /knew/ that i was interested in girls before then but that conversation was so sweet #my nana took some time to adjust to trans issues but once she understands she does a great job of being supportive #she accepted my previous best friend (who i called my brother and my mom called her son) as her grandson #and after my mom explained it to her she always got his pronouns right #my mom has had to explain my girlfriends pronouns to her as well but now she makes sure to use the right pronouns for her too #my grandpa is probably the most conservative person in our family. BUT his wife is extremely sweet #her only reaction to my trans girlfriend was to say that one day the three of us should all get together and have a girls day #and whats he going to say about my girlfriend when his wife is being so supportive of her? #what is ANYONE in our family going to say about me or my mom or my girlfriend when all three of the family matriarchs are supportive of us? #you dont come into nanas house and be mean to her grandkids. you dont act like a dick in front of grandma betty #no one can talk shit about my mom for being a lesbian anymore when im there being an even BIGGER dyke and theyre required to be nice to me #and if any of my cousins ever come out theyll be safe now too #i painted myself into a big enough target that every other target would look tiny in comparison #and now that my grandmas have said that no ones allowed to shoot at me everyone has to put down their guns #and im pretty fucking proud of that tbh #thank you for paving the way for me mom. i know you went through a lot #ill take over from here #rambling

[firelordhotman]

friendly reminder that even if youre open about something on your blog, even if you think its so obviously right in your about/description/pinned/whatever, most of the people who will interact with you are not even looking that far at your blog. they dont know your name or your pronouns or your disabilities or your interests or your credentials or whatever you think is just *so obvious* that they *must* be intentionally ignoring it just to hurt you. ESPECIALLY not if theyre a random stranger who youve never interacted with once before, has never interacted with you once before either, and has absolutely zero reason to care about you. its not a personal attack, its just a fact. this is literally the internet

#i am TIRED. yes this is a vaguepost idc #utter stranger shows up in my notifs DEMANDING i explain a simple little joke tag about me and my loved ones experiences #as if i owe them the slightest ounce of attention in my day #and then when i do explain my & my loved ones lived experiences. they get mad & say im using THEIR personal experiences as a weapon #like. i dont have the slightest clue what your personal experiences are! i dont even know your name!! and i dont want to nor do i have to!! #i dont mean this rudely. but factually: you are not important enough to me to care even a little bit about your experiences #i dont bring up suicide or addiction or any shit like that because its Your experience. bc i have no fucking idea what your experience is #i talk about those things because its MY EXPERIENCE. that IM TALKING ABOUT. in the tags of a post that doesnt belong to either of us no les #this is probably the last thing im gonna post abt this bc i know youre still up my ass looking at everything i post rn #but to finish off. i was never even making a Point about anything in the tag. i wasnt starting discourse about anything. #it was just an Acknowledgement of a shared experience that me and many of my loved ones have. whether u like it or not #like literally i dngaf if YOU personally wouldnt describe your experience that way. We do describe it that way! We can be different #i just made a silly little tag for my friends to see. and YOU decided that you were entitled to both hear my life story and blatantly #misinterpret everything i say about it. like literal 'how dare you say we piss on the poor' type shit #like. saying 'x can cause y' does not mean im saying 'y is literally x' fucking OBVIOUSLY. god #i didnt fucking ask for this! YOU DID!! YOURE the one who DEMANDED it of me unprompted #& clearly must have just gone looking thru the tags of posts for ppl to beef with lollllll #i mean cmon. you didnt follow me i didnt follow you and that wasnt even your post. theres no other explanation lmao its p obvious #anyway i hope u find a better hobby or at least a more fun and fulfilling way to use this website. sincerely #at least get some better critical thinking skills before picking stupid arguments with random strangers online #but hey! play stupid games win stupid prizes<3 right?? #also one final note: to hear someone talking about the lived experiences of them and their real life loved ones and go 'hmm. sounds fake'. #its just giving Friendless. its giving 'how could anyone make fun art without doing crazy drugs!!'. #its giving 'Wait yall have friends irl? i thought it was just a joke'. its fucking hilarious and im gonna think about it forever #thank u for a lifetime supply of laughs godspeed

[landofgay]

*screaming at the top of my lungs in a chill sexy way*

#alright FINE maybe im autistic #i took this quiz very seriously and didnt let myself exaggerate my symptoms and i still ended up with this so #i mean. it does explain a lot. like a Lot. #but also UGH not ANOTHER THING #giggling at the idea of my one friend with ocd and autism who just point blank said to me 'you dont have ocd or autism' like #cool so u are a doctor? a mental health professional of some kind? no? ok then fuck off LMAO #anyways I definitely definitely have ocd. and i almost certainly have some kind of asd! #idk if ill ever get diagnosed for anything tho #like anxiety depression are mostly diagnosed.... the adhd is kindaaaa diagnosed but not professionally i guess #how does a person even go about getting professional diagnosis. what does that involve. do u get a lil diploma at the end that says #'i am mentally ill' #and u can frame it and show it to people as proof #like how does it work #im not trying to get meds or therapy or anything i just. want some things diagnosed

[hongjoongpresent]

Wow dear doctor im coming for soul sure is a show

#the implications?? #he got reborn but he can still see him which means HE STILL HAS HIS HEART. ??!?? does that mean it's like literally the exact same body #except he didn't actually get the heart implant? he just had it already when he was born? is that the implication? #cuz reincarnated prakan would not be able to get the heart implant obviously. since he didn't know sanya when he was alive #but he can still see him which implies he has his heart. which then doesn't really make much sense #to be fair the whole reincarnation thing doesn't really get explained #is there a queue?? cuz its 20 years since he died but hes only a child now so he clearly didnt reincarnate immediately #but if he looks the same does that mean every person just gets reborn the same way over and over again #except it can't be the exact same every time. because some people become soul reapers sonot everyone gets reincarnated chronologically #because like. this version of prakan will lead a slightly different life by not knowing alive in the hospital sanya as a child #since. hes dead #bro im confused this is confusing #I also want to know how the underworld works. it's just a forest? #is it just where Death is and where soul reapers go sometimes to vibe or be punished #like what else IS there #must say the way the underworld sends warnings is really funny. just red pieces of paper with WARNING! on it. 10/10 brilliant #which brings me to my next question. is anyone working in the underworld? is it just Death does he keep an eye on every single soul #reaper in the world all hy himself? #how many soul reapers are there? are there even soul reapers all over the world or is it just thailand? if so does Death speak other #languages? or am I looking way too much into things that nobody even thought about? prolly the last thing. #also it seems you become a soul reaper by choice only and if not then you get reborn #is it not.. better to be reborn. or #or maybe being a soul reaper just fucks so hard people choose to be for funsies #I mean I'd do it for the swag black outfit alone to be honest. that shit's gender as hell #but like..... idk idk #I NEED to know more. #im obsessed

[myownprivatcidaho]

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#personal #ok putting this in the tags cuz its just all over thw place but. few things abt my brother and stranger things #for starters im re/watching it with my brother this summer cause he LOVES it and doesnt rlly have access to online streaming #even though i think the show sucks shit now its. honestly sth i really appreciate because hes autistic and that show is HUGE to him #like he really really cares ab it #and this all isnt. like universal statements on what the show means to all autistic ppl i just Need to talk ab what it means to him #hes only seen s1 so far but its like. it makes me wanna CRY i didnt even think ab it until he started talking a lot ab it after he saw it #cause like. a story about a girl whos different and grew up closed off from others and feels separated from others and is bullied for it #but shes not a joke in the story shes POWERFUL and finds people who LOVE her. #so sth he does is he assigns people irl to characters in movies and shows he likes. so ever since seeing s1 hes said hes like el #and theres a person who puts a lot of effort into being gentle with him & making him feel loved and accepted & he says that person is mike #its like!!!! yeah being pessimistic ab the show onlineis easy #but idk how to explain how Huge it is to watch him grow up feeling set apart and crying because he feels like nobody wants to be his friend #and just to see him LOVE this show and LOVE watching el onscreen being celebrated for who she is as a person. like thats Huge for him #and its huge to SEE secondhand like jesus man #but yeah i just needed to put that somewhere. i love him very much #but yeag we're gonna start watching soon. this moderately shifts topical directions #but basically ive been thinking ab it a lot because the new season is out and i want to watch it w him before i leave #but im SO worried ab showing him s4 if this is bad im gonna feel SO bad ab showing it to him #and theres sth about what that says ab how the shows gone thats SO pathetic im yelling. #anyways. thats not a jab on my brother im just saying i hope the duffers DONT fuck this up cause goddamn #but yeag

[readymades2002]

im just like spongebob (employee of the month)

#trying to make a positive out of this <3 (guy who is handling this genuinely insanely and i mean that in the truest sense of the word) #i dont want it i keep telling people that and they keep reacting like im unwell or like its coming from a place of insecurity </3 #i know what im capable of at my job! i dont need that validated! i do not care that much about my work unfortunately! #maybe ill be proud of it one day but as it is this feels like a fluke of offering to help the right people and pity #bc it IS a popularity contest and i dont want to win that. to be honest i dont know these people well and they do NOT know me #getting it just feels like a testament to how im killing myself for a job i hate because im too cowardly to leave #or to even just care a little less. ive tried to explain this to a few people and it has gone over like a sack full of concrete #which is even WORSE because i KNOW how intensely some of them want employee of the month and i was trying to #avoid telling them about it at all because i dont want it!!! they can have it!!! they dont need to hear what i feel about it (insulted) #because you would not believe this but telling someone who desperately wants employee of the month #that you don't want to receive it because it feels like a slap in the face does NOT GET RECEIVED WELL!!!!! #i dont wanna manage other peoples feelings about it im having enough trouble managing my own!! #i had to get called to a team huddle and lose time i couldnt afford to lose in my department that is still drowning incidentally #to be put on the spot and congratulated by people who dont know me and were confused by how miserable i looked #it was like a fucking nightmare!! i had to run out back and scream for a bit and cried so hard i strained my back #could barely stand for the rest of the day not that it mattered because i had no choice if i didnt want to completely fall behind #employee of the month. fuck. i never wanted to be recognized in the first place but if it feels like this then why would i want it!!!!

[not-souleaterpost]

Spirited away Spoilers

Level 99 media literacy is understanding that Chichiro knew that her parents werent among the pigs at the end, not because some memorisation or trick or whatever, but because her charachter development from whinny brat into self confident hardworking brat made her realise her parents were never "pigs" (in the prejorative sense)

#spirited away #media literacy #ending explained #like if it was something else it would kinda be a meh moment #also not saying that the parents are perfect or even particularly good but the point of maturing and growing is to still understand them and #not be resentful of them #ofcourse I dont mean extreme cases where parents are like child abusers or just actually horrible but you know what I mean #like they literally just took a hike without magical thinking Chihiro does seem like a spoiled kid being difficult and not some psychic lol #and even if she saw the evil her parents didnt its about forgivness and fixing stuff #like the whole movie was about japan selling out its future for fools gold but how the next gen can recover and reclaim whats lost #idk we had movie night and my brother threw a tantrum while watching an old kursawa movie #like literally took his phone out ten minutes in like some anti-young gen meme lol #I wonder if he is more simmilar to the giant baby in the movie for that or me for ranting about something miniscule and private in tumblr #guess we all know #and if not #yeah...sorry

[crvstybowlofcereal]

God I am such a fucking teenager

Why does having my dad in the room instantly kill my vibe? Even if he hasn't done anything yet it just makes me want to stop.

#idk i think this time it makes sense because he walked in pissing me off #dont get mad at me for trying to help #dont get in the fucking way of something you asked me to do #and dont interrupt me when i try to explain what you did was counterproductive #every concersation we have turns into a small argument. #little things he does piss me off all the time. especially if he knows we all dislike it. #he does them because he doesnt understand “why its such a big deal” #i cant even get into specifics without getting heated and the individual things arent even that bad on paper #but we got in a huge fight a few years ago and at least on my end things wont ever be the same as they were #this turned into a vent and i didnt mean for it to. sorry.

[thelostboys87]

instagram recommending me a reel for a peach frosé recipe what the fuck literally most felixcore cocktail of all time. literally just frozen peaches and rosé blended together. me when i said i'd be productive but now i'm falling down a peach flavoured cocktail rabbit hole

#this is good actually bc whenever i need to write cocktails (which is basically my alcoholic drink of choice in stories LOL theyre more fun) #i look up what was popular in the 80s and some of them have such weird names #like no im not writing about felix drinking a Fuzzy Navel even if it does have peach liqueur in it #or a Buttery Nipple #felix's favourite cocktails are sex on the beach and kamikaze btw. if you care. #googling cocktails is SOOOO fun i just think its a much more fun way for specificity and tastes if ur characters are drinking #anyway this is good because i can have more cocktail options besides fucking Buttery Nipple and Woo Woo #you didnt hear it from me but this will be useful for my Lover Boy Era Felix project #aka felix was a pov character in lover boy but then i cut that out but i still have all the plotlines and arcs #that i was gonna write but wouldnt work from beau's pov #so i gotta write something for lover boy felix. idk what yet. but its like the lover boy scraps if you will! #maybe i'll centre it around different peach flavoured cocktails because hes sooo silly and whimsical in the lb era #sorry alcohol in fiction is sooooo fun like #in real life im more of a drinks every few months and gets really silly with it when i do #but in fiction its just SOOOO much more fun idk how to explain it. writing alcohol and being drunk feels like doing it for the first time #obviously always promoting being responsible w drinking wrt to what i share but #i just love making my characters get silly #i love seeing how they behave when their brain is not working. intoxication is sooo fun as a means to challenge characterisation #felix and dorothy in the beginning of RR trying to figure out how to be Friends as adults and realising they can just get drunk together #like yeah dont do that in the long term probably but who cares you're 21 and it helps the plot get silly with your twin #dorothy's like i can excuse when my brother drinks himself into oblivion because it makes him fun and makes him want to break into the #bitchy neighbours apartment with me (real rr scene btw) #but i draw the line at him doing cocaine #me when i infodump in the tags to the point where its not even about the original post