#what does a healthy frienship look like? is there meant to be a GOAL here? is a healthy frienship supposed to serve a PURPOSE?

[hopefullyababe]

i have no clue if im doing any of this right.

#daphnes talking again #LIKE BESTIES. WHAT IS A FRIENDSHIP SUPPOSED TO LOOK LIKE. #how much informantion is like. too much information. and how much leaning is too much leaning? #like? i dont want to bog anyone down. but i dont mind it when people tell me about their struggles. is that an uneven balance? #people seem so uncomfortable when i try to talk about MY shit tho. ukno? maybe i just made a rep for myself being optimistic #shits been. kinda rough. and i cant make it feel better and i feel like i cant talk to anyone. #or like. i guess i can. but when then? now ive just spread my shit and i STILL feel like garbage. i dont need advice so why would i. ukno. #share. #ugh. im being such an asshole. im sorry :( #i just feel generally like garbage. #anyway. i dont. really know whats supposed to be a healthy friendship. i like supporting people but i dont really know where the line is #supposed to be. where are you supposed to draw your boundries? how much leaning is too much leaning? #im so bad at finding the balence btwn being overbearing and being absent. like. jesus i had no idea i was my mother until i started having #friends. this is so fucking difficult for no reason. #i love havibg friends. i just don't know whats healthy and what isnt. what are the patterns youre supposed to look for? #what does a healthy frienship look like? is there meant to be a GOAL here? is a healthy frienship supposed to serve a PURPOSE? #is there a singular right answer? #or is there a whole bunch of archetypes i can base things off of? are there friendship catagories? #what are the traits of a toxic friendship? and further: is it possible to fix one? #I GENUINELT DONT KNOW. are there friendship experts? are there people who know about these things? #what is someone meant to gain from a frienship? is there a gain? or is it simply a 'this makes me less lonely' type of thing? #what sorts of things am i MEANT to be talking about with friends? am i meant to talk about myself more? am i meant to listen to them more? #GOD. GOD /FUCKING/ DAMMIT. #SOMEONE GIVE ME A FUCKING LIST TO CHECK OFF. #hi sorry i should tag this actually #negative vibes