#what a good man always to the point

[abrahamvanhelsings]

listen i don't think edward little was actually a bad first lieutenant. when we see him in the first episode he's calm and confident. he does not say much but he's amiable enough. crozier likes him, and i don't think crozier would like anyone he doesn't think capable in some way. generally he's dependable and knows what he's doing. however unfortunately for edward he has these qualities because he has a major case of eldest daughter syndrome, which means he both wants to please his mum (crozier) and has an overdeveloped sense of responsibility for his younger siblings (crew), so when they get stuck in the ice and crozier starts going (more) alcoholic, he enables his mum bc he doesn't want to disappoint her even if he doesn't agree with her, and he has to pick up the tasks and care for his siblings she's not doing, but he can't let his siblings know about their mum's situation because they'll get worried and restless. and like a true eldest daughter he has to bear the brunt of mummy's anger for being a disappointment but he also doesn't want to seek refuge with the man she divorced (fitzjames) because that feels like a betrayal. also while this is going on there is a giant bear who hunts his siblings for sport so they're dying left and right and also a changeling master manipulator who's making his siblings mad at their mum and who wants to fuck said mum before eating her like some sort of praying mantis. anyway i think i would start being miserable and anxious too.

#joke post but i do feel like the whole 'edward little's bad lieutenanting' goes a little overboard sometimes #he's always in the worst position ever for a man whose sense of duty to captain and crew is at the core of his being #generally everything he does he does bc he thinks it's for the good of the crew. #but the crew is 24/7 in mortal peril so he's anxious 24/7 as well #under normal circumstances he'd know what to do. but these aren't normal 1st lieutenant circumstances. he's not equipped for it #and anyway i do need to point out. that edward is anxious abt everything and he makes wrong choices sometimes even with good intentions #but the first thing crozier did when he got miserable and anxious was stop trying and instead hope to drink himself to death. so. you know. #edward little #the terror #jopson is the favoured younger sibling in this scenario btw #inb4 someone comes into the tags like 'wouldn't jfj be the mum' not in this metaphor

[cobaltfluff]

so i started playing persona 4

where are the QoL features

#persona series #art tag #ACK I FORGOR TO COLOUR THE BITS BEHIND HAIR nvm #i have no idea how to tag this!! #i fear what original p3 might have been like #i feel like a fake gamer man #like how did you guys do that #i feel like i would have given up if it was the first one i played #i am too stupid!! #im glad i have played through 5 and 3re #i am somewhat used to the flow of the game and the ability names #otherwise i would be STRUGGLING for my LIFE i tell you #like to be fair i dont think it's a huge world #BUT LIKE PLEASE IM LOST IN MY OWN HOUSE #also these protags are basically my OCs at this point #i borrow their canon personalities #and reshape them into something i like more hehehehe #edit: im crying im getting lowkey flamed on tweeter dot com #i just meant it as in joker spent a lot of time in tokyo!! one year changes a man!! #I KNOW inaba is small!! but QoL additions are always good!! #i get the appeal!! that you use your brain!! #you spend enough time to know the place!! but it's called QoL features not NECESSARY features!! #im cryin the boys ate just bantering #you can even read it as yu being like LOL you're a city boy now huh?? hahaha #now i really am fighting for my life and mental

[dootznbootz]

I'm going feral again with a silly headcanon.

I just had that post on how Odysseus made Puzzles for himself and Penelope and I have another idea and I'm just really excited to share it lksdjf

I basically plan to have this man in love with Penelope within 10 mins (I HAVE A PLAN! It sounds crazy but I think it'll work. Plus these two are reckless and young when married. His first crush and he's not handling it well.)

This is them. Or at the very least Penelope is definitely playing it off very nonchalantly and is kind of messing around at first, thinking that the "trickster" is "not being genuine" when he's never been more genuine in his life. She can see right through all his lies and bullshit and basically forces him to be vulnerable, something he loves yet is TERRIFIED of. Especially as she "unmasked" him so quickly (and tricked HIM.😉 Won't say how. no spoilers yet) and so effortlessly and he's just a MESS. Athena isn't helping and just watches them both fumble around, even when Odysseus is asking for some guidance, Athena just smiles and is all like "I'm the Goddess of Wisdom, not of Love. Figure it out yourself." (PENELOPE IS JUST AS MUCH OF A BLORBO TO HER AS ODYSSEUS IS, YOU COWARDS!)

(Art by isei-silva right here on tumblr! Their post! )

I won't go into huge details. I WILL write this fic someday and I need to leave SOME things a surprise. But KNOW this man will be pulling out all the stops trying to impress her and tries to show all the things he's good at and one will be his "puzzle making".

He'll bring a puzzle to her TRYING to talk all "suave" (he'll be semi-tongue tied. Something that he's not used to and is annoyed that he can't seem to think around her)

It'll probably have a little gift inside and he'll be chatting away about how he worked hard to make it and that there's a trick to it and blah blah blah

Penelope: Oh! There's (some sort of treat or gift) inside!

Odysseus: Wait, you solved it already?

Penelope,🤨: Yes. All you have to do is this.

Odysseus, falling (more like sprinting at this point) further in love but also mad his plan to woo her didn't work: Well... Yeah. That's a gift for you.

He's trying SOOOO hard but he has to stop "showboating" to genuinely impress her. Man has to be fucking vulnerable for her to be impressed by him because she already can read his "tells" on when he's pulling something. No more "tricks". Be yourself, you fucking idiot >:D

#uygfidhsojhf I revealed a LOT already but I just??? I really love writing this man being a fucking mess and not knowing what to do #for once in his life. The man who “always has a plan” now DOESN'T know what to do and he's all feelings right now. #And Penelope has no time for tricks (unless she's the one pulling one). They've both met their match (in practically everything. Likeminded #remember?) and they're both excited and scared because #I'm a trickster. He/She is just like me. I desperately want this to be real but I know how good I am at tricking people. What if this is a #lie?“ BOTH have to stop ”tricking“ in order to truly bond. And then I get into the nitty gritty >:D #Like how Odysseus has to be vulnerable and sob about their bed to get her to believe it's him. They did the same in their youth. #It's a PATTERN for them at this point. #I love making this man simp and her realizing that this “trickster” IS genuine. This man actually loves her and that there's no “game”. #then it's HER turn to be a mess >:D #odypen #Mad rambles #shot by odysseus #my headcanons #Hi. I'm vibrating from excitement and I don't know what to do.

[qcomicsy]

Going insane about how silly comics for young men from the sixties are on point on criticizing biased journalism. Stan Lee, Stan Lee I wanna sit down and have a chat with him. It's such a good critique. Such a good critique.

#JJJ it's not even a particularly bad person. He's just tied to his own old ways. Afraid of change. Glued on the money. Obssessed with the #need to be right. Spider-Man HAS to be bad for him. It HAS to be something wrong with him. Anything daring the status quo is. #Anything too new. Too controversial. It's better if evil. It's juicy. It's what the people want. The people need to find someone to hate! #Who's better than someone who never argues back? Who is dangerous at a certain point. Damn. So good. So good. #Novela. Action (kind of) and political commentary. #Stan Lee have been serving since 1963 and I never noticed before ooh. I was blissed ignorant. #Partially because Spider-Man the movie was so good in portraying that #JJJ from Spider-Man 1-3 you will always be famous #q talks comics #q go insane #q rambles #q rants #Spider-Man tag

[anxiously-sidequesting]

Sorry to be posting twice in one day but now I wanna talk about Sybil's last line of dialogue at the end of Wallaru. Bro says "The Spiral will always need its Scion." In terms of new villains always arising, new worlds to explore, etc.

Now of course in the real world this means something totally different than in narrative; for us it means yay Wizard101 will continue and it's not ending and shit and thats good!!! But in universe, I believe that fact would have brought different feelings. Like sadness. Or anger. Or maybe just numbness.

Like if you think about it. The implications. The Wizard will never, CAN never rest. It's an ongoing, neverending thing of always being needed. It's You and ONLY You. There will never NOT be evil. If not GF Spider, then the Schism. If not the Schism, then the Old One. If not the Old One, then someone else. Someone or Something will always come up as a Threat that only the Scion (for some reason. Gods exists here) is expected and able to defeat. When Sybil said that I was legit terrified because gotdamn I can't retire???? I will Always be The Legend who Always saves the day???

Like even setting aside the social consequences of this (the whole people suspecting us/fearing us Thing) imagine what that does to your emotional and mental health. Fuck even physical health. Going through all that strenuous trauma and exercise and magical ordeals and shit???? The pressure of knowing it's the universe at stake, not just you or the world? I actually would have died just in arc 2 personally how the fuck are we supposed to carry this. For the REST. OF OUR LIVES. FOR HOWEVER LONG WE LIVE

✨ Anyways here's hoping the Schism Soldier is arc 5's new big baddie haha #enemiestolovers101 😘✌️💕💕💕

#im not good with words ir explaining things but i still wanted to talk about That. what sybil said #thats fucking rough man. thats fucking rough #ALWAYS???? the spiral will ALWAYS need its scion??? the fuck you mean. whats this ALWAYS business #mr krabs voice: whats this WE stuff!? #i just need a picture of malorn and the wizard getting drunk as fuck on a tuesday together looking beaten and bitter. beaten and bitter. #idk if the wizard is like quasi-immortal now or what. how long do we live actually #are we like gonna outlive dyvim. mellori and the bat??? will we be alive for centuries and STILL defending the spiral??? hello?????????????? #so like what happens if and when. we die. is the universe just fucked then? #what is the point of the council of light. gf spider and gm raven. BARTLEBY. if none of them do shit #they could literally do anything they wanted to but its US that has to be superman. okay #id actually go crazy i would actually just Become the joker guys. guys i would fucking lose it #wizard101 #w101 #wiz101 #text posts #wallaru spoilers #wizard101 spoilers #can you guys tell i just want the soldier to come back

[introspectivememories]

shanks' need/desire to protect his friends and family from anything and everything vs buggy's gigantic inferiority complex that makes him take any act of protection/love as someone looking down on him, FIGHT

#buggy could trip and shanks could catch him bc god forbid buggy hurts his knees #and instead of saying thank you buggy just goes: what? you think i can't handle hitting my knees? you think im too weak? #what this man needs is the world's most patient therapist #and on the other end i think shanks' desire to protect his friends and family does come off as condescending smtimes #and like all of his emotions are dialed up to a 100 when it comes to buggy #and so at a certain point it does come off as possessive and off-putting and i think that's why buggy chafes at it so much #bc buggy barely belongs to himself as is and i don't think he could handle all of shanks' desire #like buggy already thinks he's weak and cowardly. less than in every sense and then on top of that to have shanks protect him?? #it would ruin him i think #and like of course shanks doesn't understand!!! what is there to understand when you've always been good at everything? #he loves his people and he loves buggy especially so and he wants to take care of them!! all the power he has is just a tool he uses to kee #them safe. and i do think there is a voice in shanks' head that says 'just take buggy. he can't resist anyway. you could keep him safe by #your side. he'd never be in danger at your side. just take him' but shanks knows that's one step too far and so he never does it. #anyway the occupy way too much of my brain space these days #one piece #buggy the clown #op buggy #buggy one piece #akagami no shanks #op shanks #shanks one piece #shuggy #shanks x buggy

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

didn't know laughingstock was a thing for the longest time but I have never been more quickly on board with a ship in my LIFE

...

(get it? on board? ship? im so funny)

yeeHAW welcome aboard the SS.Laughingstock, it's in a constant state of nearly sinking but not quite! there are no lifeboats!

#isnt it good? isnt it peak??? isnt it simply The Absolute Fucking Most??? #its one of those pairings where it doesnt occur to ya #until someone points it out and then its like oh. OH!!!! #godddddd theyre so good for each other #i think i once saw it referred to as a 'green flag ship' which... yeah!! #listen i love my unhealthy / disastrous fictional pairings but man. it feels good to enjoy something just so.... Good yk yk #like damn. what a healthy relationship. what a couple'a goofballs in love. waow #rambles from the bog #oh also i have to say the obligatory 'WE GOT ANOTHER ONE!!!' #my power grows.... #if you want more laughingstock #then uh krasytoonz posts a lot of em!! their stuff is like... my main outside source for the fluffy fruits #and theres uhhhhh #well fuck me i cant remember rn but! sometimes! something new appears in the ship tag(s)!!! #tis rare but! always enjoyable!

[cool-island-songs]

I feel like people never really pay attention to the fact that Tweek never said they should date for the town. Tweek said he wanted to fix things for CRAIG. Which opens up a new angst potential where Craig thinks it's not fake dating, but pity dating.

oHhohHHOHHH??? i'm ngl anon... that's a spicy meatbol

ok let's flesh this one out a bit. craig finds that everyone naturally sympathizes with tweek during the whole t x c debacle... he's a really good actor after all, and people like him and don't call him a dick to his face

craig who thought he was the cool guy realizing tweek is actually the naturally affable one. girls like him, kids like him, puppies like him, classy mfs like tolkien like him. what does craig have. his guinea pig?? cLYDE??? craig convincing himself tweek is taking pity on him, lending him his social shine like craig thought he had been doing for tweek all those times (remember when they were metro together? ;-;)

then when tweek walks out on him over the franchise plan, it just confirms what craig's always known: tweek would move on some day. sure, he says it's about ethics in video game journalism superhero movie franchising, but craig knows better. he thinks he's so much better than craig, doesn't he? so morally perfect even though he's probably holding stupid mysterion's hand now instead

well, whatever. tweek's lame anyway. craig doesn't care about him. craig doesn't care about anyone!! he's just gonna say a bunch of cool, definitely genuinely really apathetic guy stuff like:

u kno.. to show how much he doesn't need tweek or miss him everyday or anything

#ur honor this man's posturing #craig tucker #asks #tweek tweak #sp creek #good work op gonna be thinking abt angsty 10 year old craig tucker for a while now #it's always tweek thinking it isn't real! what if tweek doesn't care?? #what if tweek is just happy to have someone around who listens and is kind to him??? #what if craig is the one who needs to know it's real oh god he can't live without tweek at this point oh god this is scary

[life-winners-liveblog]

dl! Scott really be acting so big despite the fact that he's the version of Scott with the least amount of kills on it's series

Like even the softest version of you that placed 10th got more kills then you buddy, and i mean your only kill is only by technicality because you only killed yourself

****

#/Your point? He still came 10th he was killed by Tango out of all people/ #/and all his grief over Jimmy was an emotionally charged didaster.. why did he think marrying someone in a death game would work out/ #/And the winner Scott? Last life me? Martyn litterally exploded himself with a crystal on accident and Ren got attacked by every mob ever/ #/Limited Life me naively made no plans in case of betrayal and got blindsided by Martyn just at the end ruining what had been a good game/ #/I died on my own will... At my own hand and on my own terms which is more then any of the other mes can say/ #/Killed by an angry firey man... Killed by literal smiting... Killed by a traitor in fire... I chose my death and that will always be true/ #asks #trafficblr

[eclipsedsuns]

genuinely twelve’s “am i a good man?” arc is the most important story in all of television to me

#understanding the twelfth doctor and his relationship with ethics & morality is essential to understanding *me* #‘​am i a good man?’ ‘i think you try to be and i think that’s probably the point.’ ‘always try to be nice but never fail to be kind’ #‘i do what i do because it’s right! because it’s decent! and above all it’s kind. it’s just that.’ #‘hate is always foolish and love is always wise' #it’s all about his belief that he needs to fit into certain boxes to be ‘good’ #he needs to follow certain rules he needs to believe certain ‘truths’ etc #and as he grows he learns to make his own rules and discover his own truths about what it means to be Good #and he decides that the best thing you can be— the most important thing you can be— is kind #without hope without witness without reward #shut up carley #twelveposting #doctor who

[taikanyohou]

“Because Sung Ho was the only one sitting on his left side ...” HIS MAN 2 (2023). Jun Sung + Sung Ho in Episode 5.

#his man 2 #asianlgbtqdramas #asiandramanet #asiandramasource #dailyasiandramas #kdramadaily #kdramasource #kdramaedit #* #faiza gifs #tw flashing #JRIHFIEUHVR THIS WAS SUCHA /BOLD MOVE/ BY JUNSUNG YALL .................. #god sungho just looks FROZEN on the spot I HONESTLY WANNA KNOW whats going thru his mind in that last gif .... #is it another 'oh?? he said it out loud in front of everyone he really is so serious about me?' moment?????? like in ep 2??? #he just looks so ..... not sad. its not sad. but just v .......... subdued??? like. yeah. an Oh this is Big. BIG. #but also GOD LOOK AT HOW HAPPY JUNSUNG IS IN THAT 3RD GIF HES BOUNCING! MY BABY :(( #AND MINSUNG BESTIE I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU! his and junsung's conversations are ALWAYS just SO NICE theyre SUCH good friends! #and minsung OBVIOUSLY knew from well early on who junsung liked bc of the cookies bet they made too! #and yet he still points out everyone of the boys on junsung's left #and yet seunwoo KNEW EXACTLY who junsung was talking about like !!! THE DRAMA!

[uncanny-tranny]

Look, if you've encountered a disabled person's life or living standards and you personally don't like it, the least you can do is not saying "I'm so grateful I don't like like that" or worse "I'm so glad I'm not you"

It is actually incredibly simple to simultaneously not center yourself and the way you aren't disabled or the way your disabilities don't impact your life like others and to not shame and humiliate others. It's sometimes okay to keep comments like that inside your mind, where it won't hurt that person.

#disability #disability advocacy #ableism #ableism tw #especially applies to disabled people who physically cannot clean or mentally ill people #like at a certain point you don't choose to live in a certain way. especially if it is a situation you do not like. #like for instance a depressed person often might get so unwell they don't take care of ANYTHING... #...and when you want to quite literally die... it's hard to be clean and tidy and presentable #but like that's just a wild example that obviously never happens (sarcasm) #i'm just so fucking tired of seeing this shit and seeing the people saying that shit facing no challenge... #...because i think a lot of people agree with the general idea of 'if i wouldn't live like you... #...'maybe your life isn't worth living (because i have deemed it so)' and like. holy shit man it's bleak and depressing #i understand the impulse to judge and that is neither good nor bad. what IS bad is doing THAT shit #if you're judging somebody that isn't always a terrible response. but if you're kicking somebody while they're down that... #...says something about you i think

[thedevotionaltour]

even for period typical ableism it still drives me nuts for karen to go oh poor matt how can he deal and get around as if he hasn't been blind most of his life at this point and living on his own by himself as an adult for his entire adult life after college and has also lived in the city his whole life like girl use your damn brain he can get around by himself just fine. good god. like take five seconds to use your brain. literally adult man who lives by himself if nothing else that should tell you he is fine and when he needs assistance has the knowledge and ability to go get it you act as if he can't even walk on the sidewalk by himself. he literally shows up to work by himself. it drives me up the wall sometimes how she sees proof of him functioning fine independently literally witnesses it on the daily and still thinks these things. like again foggy isn't great either bc again the period typical ableism (and just general ableism in the world outside of this period as this is a common attitude of viewing disabled people as helpless and unable to function even if they are people who do live independently (and im not touching on people who do need extra support and caretaking in this context. as this post is about these characters in the context of a story. so im talking about what we see there instead of any truly meaningful nuanced way) but the writing here is like. Particularly this way due to the time) he has a modicum more of understanding that matt is literally a capable grown adult man. literally told karen matt is a big boy who can handle himself and then karen went b-b-but you forget he's blind as if foggy hasn't known him for years of his life and is his best friend like PLEASE SEE HIM AS AN ADULT. I AM GOING TO GO INSANE. PLEASE RESPECT HIM IF YOU LOVE HIM SO DEARLY. AND EVEN IF YOU DIDN'T. JUST RESPECT HIM AS A PERSON!!!!!!

#i think it's particularly maddening bc we have seen characters be able to understand civillian matt is like. more than just Blind Man. #i am always highly aware of period typical writing and can remember the context etc etc but sometimes. #sometimes it truly. truly does drive me up the wall. especially when other characters have been capable of not being That Level #of infantalizing. again foggy still isn't much better in a lot of respects he is just as capable of and has been as infantilizing #and insulting as karen has been. for sure. on multiple occassions. no questions asked. but i dont think he does it to the extent karen does #as in we dont see it on page just as much. it's just a bit less. so we see karen focus on it far more. to an almost exaggerated extent #part of that is the romance plot of ohhh i cannot possibly love a blind man while foggy is matt;s best friend of many years #so of course it will be in the way of the stan lee and old romance comics schools of writing that this goes down and is written like this. #of course we see her focus on it a touch more in a different way bc she's still getting to know matt and hasnt witnessed him #for about like a decade(? they met in undergrad right?) function on his own the way foggy has. but jesus christ man. good god. #at a certain point even with the period time context it does just still leave a bad taste. at certain points it becomes less eye roll #and far more maddening and hard to push down. bc it is gross. no matter what time period it is. #again. both of them are pretty disrespectful towards matt about it at this point even if mostly in their inner monologues or dialogues #with each other and not super to matt's face about it every time. but still. sometimes karen drives me far more crazy about it than foggy. #becase at least foggy can in fact recognize every now and then. matt is a perfectly capable grown man who can function and thrive. #and is someone who lives independently but also can know how to get assistance when needed. #while karen at this point has never really once given matt the benefit of that assumption despite witnessing his capabilities. #because even with his act of trying to fit the image ppl have of him. he still functions within that! and shows he can do things! #and ask for help when he needs it! even within his act of making himself smaller and quieter for others. #he's still like. adult man who lives his life. and does stuff on his own time. #i cant really speak about matt on any more deeper level than that in regards to his disabilities. i am not disabled. #i only speak as a reader and someone watching what these characters do and have proven to be able to do and how they act. #so i can only talk about karen and foggy's behaviors and attitudes in that regard. #and also as a person with like. basic understanding of other ppl living their lives. that all ppl live their own damn lives however it is #like most ppl on planet earth. #i apologize if any of my wording here is bad or if i dont talk on it well as none of this in the real world stuff is my lived experience #and you are free to go hey. incorrect. think about that or word that differently. #ok i promise im done now it's just. EUGH. UGH!!!!! #static.soundz

[m-kyunie]

taking EVERYTHING in me not to reread the second exorcist arc & instead just dream of a perfect world where Alma stays w Kanda

#alma karma #dgm #d.gray man #lotus motif bc if i dont convery that theyre dating whats te point of drawing anyting #THEY WLDVE LOOKED SO GOOD IN TEH NEW UNIFORMS TOOOOO #anyws. Alma always scrabbling around the moment their assigned a mission looking for Kanda to demand a goodbye kiss #knowing Kanda is gonna reject them bc he hates PDA #just imagine Alma peering over a balcony n waving his enitre arm going 'Yuuuuu!!! up heree!!!' as Kanda is walking out to train or smtg #n Kanda looking up. making eye contact. and walking away #n Allen seeing a dismayed Alma n motioning them 2 jump down #catching Alma w Crown Clown sighh #Alma thanking Allen n running away w a kiss on the cheek #n Allen is left flustered bc he has the biggest crush #n Lavi appearing outta nowhere teasing Allen 4 not confessing yet. cries. Allen is intimadted plus Alma obvi is dating Kanda #Lavi knowing theyre polyam n hinting at Allen to go for it anyws #UGH MY MIND IS SO BIG BUT MY HANDS SO WEAK #sometimes if i imagine hard enoug i pretend its a doujin in my head

[zannolin]

(re-ish)watching ncis in 2023 is like came for the murder and crime solving, stayed for the absolutely unhinged tiva plotline

#zanna talks #ncis you beautiful mess of a show #like yeah it's blatantly nationalistic and Very post9/11 and us military propaganda #it likes to be misogynistic and xenophobic and try to play it as a joke #sometimes gibbs will do things that make me feel ill #and also it looooves praising cops and idolizing the maverick mentality and villifying defense lawyers #um point being it's got a lot of flaws and if i hadn't associated it with childhood nostalgia i'm not sure i could have made it far enough #in my rewatch to hit the point where it actually feels worth it past being a good distraction when i feel bad #like the point where you watch tony really start to grow and the plotlines get better and the relationships deepen etc #but man when it hits it hits #wild to watch it as an adult and realize actually the tiva stuff was there all along with effort put in and it wasnt just me making it up #75% of the time theyre just sniping at each other and being annoying coworkers but sometimes they give u a glimpse #not just of how good thye are as a dynamic but just the mcrt in general? #tony burning the letter from jeanne and trying to let go after realizing his team is like his family?? #them being the ones to get ziva out of somalia and not her shitty bio dad and sticking up for her when she wants out??? #them always believing in each other when they get framed ?? thanksgiving together?? #coworkers as family is highly unrealistic in this day and age and maybe just in general but im willing to allow it bc man. they care. #sorry this got. away from me. what was i even talking about #ncis

[dishsaop]

does anyone have recommendations for fictional media that has like. actual lesbians in it. not like supergirl Two White Skinny Girls, One Blonde and One Brunette Kiss media, or "its implied lesbianism!!!" but just regular fucking lesbians

#i say lesbians but i guess i mean sapphic #im just like. tired of gnawing #and of men also. sorry men in my life i love you but on god if i have to pretend one more man is butch just to get #content that isnt m/m or m/f im going to turn into a horse and run into the wilderness until im saved from the glue factory by a plucky #young woman except instead of letting her have her formative summer where she trains me and bonds w me and wins a competition w me #im going to commit horse suicide in front of her & change her life forever. just because im so tired of bland CW-marketable women kissing & #digging for scraps in a refuse bin while brushing aside 7002993829292929939292929399394 gay and het romances #m text #i will also take nonfictional lesbians if its like a story #not to be whiny on main but one of the hardest hurdles i had to jump wasnt realizing i was a lesbian. i came out to myself and to friends a #lesbian multiple times. but i would always walk it back when a friend would express doubt or a male friend would ask me out #bc i dont and especially then didnt know very many lesbians in person. and so i had to turn to examples #and all i fucking had were fictional women who liked men. or fictional lesbians who were so cleaned and sanitized and prettified #(you all know what i mean right. the 2 skinny white girls one blonde one brunette. im not crazy right) #and i would be like. i dont feel things when i look at these fictional lesbians so i guess i belong back here #(this is also bc my gender ended up being fuckier than i realized but shhhhh) #I WAS GOING SOMEWHERE WITH THESE TAGS but theyre too long and im lost. #anyway the point is if people werent so fucking weird abt fictional or onscreen lesbians maybe thered be a lot more people comfortable bein #out as lesbian #like sorry but this awful ouroboros of 'all lesbians onscreen have to be cute and sanitized' meaning that people write and believe wlw has #to be cute and pure and sanitized (OR a 'badge of honor' bc good for u u doodled two women together or had it as a background in ur fic) #meaning that therefore all portrayals of lesbianism continue to be like this. is just #and im also gonna be honest theres probably a lot of good sapphic media im just in the wrong circles to have stumbled into lol. so #yknow. personal viewer bias here #but i still like swing wildly between overly brandishing my dykeness as a badge to feel like im proving im lesbian #and like. backing up under a blanket bc i dont wanna be weird or annoying or freak people out #but if people just Saw Normal Ass Lesbians. aough. #im going to watch revolutionary girl utena one of these days even if i struggled w the writing style the first few episodes #I JUST WANNA SEE AN OLD BUTCH ONSCREEN GET SOME PUSSY. #like it also doesnt help im mostly femme4butch so seeing 2 femmes on screen is like. okay cool so what. but only femmes are 'marketable'