#well several people are excluded on account of being either a minor or someone my sister has kissed

[homoerotisch]

going on tour next week w the orchestra and i desperately need to make out with at least three people

#not necessarily from the orchestra but not excluding it #well several people are excluded on account of being either a minor or someone my sister has kissed

[briek58454521]

Cancel Culture?...

Okay.

I’ve seen this shit going around for a while. I feel obligated to correct the record.

In the wake of multiple Breadtube users being eviscerated by the public in the last year, I’d like to talk... about “cANceL cULTurE”.

But first, some back-round. I’ll be brief.

Over a year ago, Youtuber Lily Orchard’s video about Steven Universe blew up the internet, invoking praise from many facets of online culture, as well as a sizable backlash, as any video criticizing Steven Universe will invariably do. In an attempt at a response, Breadtuber Sarah Z uploaded a video titled “Bad Media Criticism”, which around 17 minutes in, talked about said video.

The response was filled with, let’s face it, lies and actual bad faith criticisms towards the content, misinformation, omission of context in important bits, and general shoddiness in action (yes, I’m biased. Reality is biased, sometimes). Criticism was swift to arrive, and the video provoked Lily herself to respond. And in the face of the factual corrections, and legitimate criticisms... Sarah doubled down, and in her infamous Twit-Longer, decided to continue to assure herself and others that her criticism was valid because regardless of whatever Lily actually said, it was still bad faith criticism.

A short while after that, fellow Breadtuber Lindsay Ellis uploaded a video discussing Black Ariel, claiming that the decision to make Ariel black was entirely a decision made because of “Woke Branding” to make more money off of people and continue raking in more and more cash, citing HBomberGuy’s “WOKE BRANDS” video essay. Many commented that this was rather racist, considering that Cartoon Network is just as much of a greedy bastard corporation as Disney was, yet, denounced criticism of Steven Universe, a show of Cartoon Network’s body of work, because “support minority voices”, with the same people commenting that this looked rather selective.

Lindsay doubled down on the criticism, and would continue defending it and publicly shitting the bed as more shitstorms (PLURAL) would erupt (lol).

After THAT, Breadtuber CONTRAPOINTS/ NATALIE WYNN would publish many videos that kept pissing of trans and non-binary viewers with a fuck-load of back handed remarks and general derogatory comments about them, as well as getting pissy that people ask for her gender and pronouns in public safe-spaces. In “The Aesthetic”, Natalie had a character playing the role of the people who make the CORRECT claim that gender is eternal and that you are what you say you are, and ANOTHER who was a truscum who would repeat the arguments that “kinda hypothetical” and, “kinda a weak argument”. This would create a backlash, and Natalie would respond with a thread that, contained a lotta shit, but also contained THIS BULLSHIT. Straight from the horses mouth, fam.

“I’m sure this is not the experience of many NBs. I’ll leave it to them to articulate what NB existence looks like in a binary world. I do not and cannot speak for them. But surely(sic) an account that begins and ends with “I’m not a man because I don’t identify as one” is pretty weak”

Later, after deleting the thread and getting more shit for it, she would upload an absurd non-apology video called “Pro-nouns”, where she would dress up like a fucking clown-ass Oompa-Loompa who just escaped from Wonka’s Chocolate Factory, and make several dumb-ass claims and a fuck-ton of truscum arguments, including stating that she “wants to be a convert” to “believe” NBs, and that she would listen and respect NB people’s beliefs “so long as those beliefs are valid” After more backlash to that happened, she would continue this trend, platforming actual truscum like Buck Angel, selling anti-semetic reptilian agenda merchandise, and hosted a Patreon stream where she just... basically shat on everyone. She shat on people like HBomberGuy, for performativity in regards to the meme “Donkey Kong said Trans Rights” (yes, she is that desperate. She will accuse people who raise 340,000 fucking dollars of performativity and virtue-signaling), stated that older trans people would be considered truscum, and even that most of her friends were truscum.

The one thing that was consistent in these stories was the insistence that the criticism was just an attempt at Cancel Culture.

Cancel Culture is essentially the point where in an attempt to either exclude, harass, or target others for political views, religion, ethnicity, race, sexuality, gender, etc., people will devolve into many forms of online harassment and abuse of the media outlets, among other things, in order to silence the target, or deter the target from making an argument. It can even happen just because people don’t like someone.

For Sarah, this took the form of accusing the people criticizing Steven Universe of having a dishonest double-standard, because if a straight, white, cis-dude made it, no one would be saying shit about it. Even though the show is historically praised by WHITE progressives, and criticized by EVERYONE else.

For Lindsay, it was that the people making this claim were just fooled by the “Woke Brand” train.

For Natalie, it was “the Left is eating itself”.

I would like to say this right now. The only time I actually saw Cancel Culture in action was during the shitstorm that erupted with VivziePop and her pilots for Hazbin Hotel, and Helluva Boss came out and everyone was looking for a bunch of shit to bring up about Vivzie personally, her apparent “transphobia”, “homophobia” as understood by Steven Universe fans, and generally just a bunch of bullshit that Rebecca Sugar got away with when she pulled the same shenanigans.

That is Cancel Culture.

And the only reason I can see for it was just because Vivzie (to my knowledge, at least) isn’t a member of the LGBT community. (Those same people would respond to her stating that she plans on having Alistor, the Radio Demon, be ace with “Hey, did you hear something?”, btw)

(EDIT: I initially stated, as shown above, that Vivzie wasn’t a LGBT community member. She is. She’s bi. Apologies for getttin that bit wrong. I’d also like to mention that she’s Latin as well, but is also shit-talked for apparently being too white to be Latin. 

So......yeah. Can’t begin to imagine why all of those mentioned weren’t given the same treatment.... Was there any doubt when Lindsay said she was Native?......)

And that wasn’t the case with any of the aforementioned. Natalie wasn’t “cancelled” until she kept shitting on people for the fiftieth (hyperbolicly fiftieth) time. Sarah was never cancelled. She got away with slander, and was quickly forgiven just because she’s a leftist. Lindsay is getting away with excusing away, and flat out DEFENDING PEDOPHILIA, AND IS STILL POSTING. She ain’t cancelled.

Cancel Culture may happen sometimes, genuinely, like with Vivzie, but those are the exceptions that prove the rule. It’s mostly just “this person said I sound completely contrary to what I believe, it must be (insert cause)”

It’s Lily’s fault, it’s a dishonest double-standard, it’s the radicals, it’s Woke Brand brain-washing, it’s “bAd faITh cRitISIsm”, blah, blah, blah, blah, blah...

Let me tell you something. In Sarah’s case, not all criticism is because there’s a dishonest double-standard. And even if it were, that doesn’t make doing something horrible because of your identity the right thing to do. Because NO ONE should be putting in the most racist, bigoted, and frankly gross and disgusting shit in their work, regardless of whether you’re white, black, gay, lesbian, trans, NB, Gen Z, Boomer, etc. Like the human zoo, the Amethyst-Garnet fusion, Bismuth, the Pearl-Rose dynamic, the Nazi woobification, and the blatant disregard for the very people the show claims to be an ally too.

See also, the N-Word.

Despite the belief that white people can’t say it while black people CAN, black people don’t use it in a conversation formally, and can’t really use it ANYWAY because it’s still a fucking slur. And if you say it in public, there will be consequences, whether it be social repercussions, or legal action. And people have been saying it less and less as a result of this attitude becoming more present.

In regards to Lindsay, we know, bitch. We fucking know. We know that Disney wants our money like crazy. We know that this could be just another woke branding thing. We know that brands aren’t our friends, we know, we know, we know, we know. We know, Lindsay, we know. But, don;t chat shit about it if you aren’t going to criticize Cartoon Network for Steven Universe, Amazon for selling Pride merch, and Target for Pride clothes. Because then we know that you’re being very selective about what you’re labeling as “woke branding”.

In regards to Natalie, SHUT THE FUCK UP. SHUT THE FUCK UP. That is literally all you have to do. Just SHUT. THE FUCK. UP. And accept that you aren’t as woke as you like to think you are. The left isn’t eating it’s own by disowning shitty people. It’s doing itself a favor for it.

Remember R. Kelly? Everyone said that black people were just turning on each other when actual, legitimate evidence came forward, showing that he;s a FUCKING PEDOPHILE. And that attitude would continue for almost three decades before someone FINALLY said, “No, this man is dangerous, lock him up”. You know the phrase “A few bad apples?” People only say that, and just ignore the rest when defending shitty people on the Left, mostly because they don’t want to disown them. The phrase, however is ACTUALLY “A few bad apples SPOIL THE BUNCH”. If you don’t weed out the bad ones, they’ll spoil the tree.

Most of this bullshit would have been solved easily if ANY of the aforementioned had looked at their behavior, ACTUALLY apologized, expressed due diligence, and STOPPED FUCKING DOING THE SHIT.

The only reason people get away with this is because A LOT OF PEOPLE ON THE INTERNET HAVE FUCKING TERRIBLE PRIORITIES.

People take more offense to someone shutting down an opinion rather than someone being a scumbag.

People jut decided not to care about Sarah’s lies ENTIRELY because “It’s Lily”.

People defended Lindsay entirely because “Fuck Disney”.

People defended Natalie because “The Left is eating itself, we need to support minority voices”.

Because the myth of Leftist-Cancel Culture is just an excuse to not have to change. To not commit. To not put in effort. To not expand time to bettering yourself or the environment around you. To jerk off to how woke you are while criticizing others who tell challenge that. To wax poetic because it’s good for your ego.

It’s not just them. It’s many of their fans, and hundreds of thousands, if not, millions of people on the internet. And by far, their worst deeds aren’t that they inadvertently or otherwise attract Nazis, keep sucking off incels, truscum, TERFs, pedophiles, and other facets of human garbage while disemboweling others for far, FAR lesser crimes on the basis that they aren’t woke or nice enough for their liking, or EVEN the harassment that they’ve engaged in, caused, and instigated.

It’s that they’ve convinced themselves that by doing all of the above, that they are in any way superior to the people they cry foul against. The people who call them out on their bullshit when it arises. The people who raise $340,000 for their OWN people while the most they’ve done is play dress up and recycle Eddie Murphy’s shtick for the 500th time. The people who are part of the very minority voices they claim to support yet disregard on the basis that they said some mean words, or argued in bad faith, or just have a personal grudge against the people that they criticize. The people of color who FLAT OUT know better than them, yet, who they write off at every possible opportunity as just believing that companies care, or that Disney is good, or even just write ‘em off as having the wrong priorities or being stupid, as if they are in any way super clever and superior for coming to a conclusion that many more talented, creative, intelligent, and just frankly BETTER people came to years ago. 

They are MORE PERFORMATIVE, more ENTITLED, more ARROGANT, more IGNORANT, more UNAWARE, more BIASED, more SELFISH, and more SELF-INDULGENT than a good 98% of the people they criticize.

They hate these people so much...because they hate looking in mirrors.

And Leftist Cancel Culture is just a manifestation of that psychological projection. Simple as.

If you skipped to the end, fuck you. No TL: DRs in this neck of ‘da fuckin woods

#wokebrands #lindsayellis #lily orchard #contrapoints #cancel culture #entitled brats #entitled people #lgbtq #vivziepop #projection #steven universe #r. kelly #n-word #bad faith #breadtube #sarah z #briek (not that one)

[wineanddinosaur]

What It’s Like to Be a Black Man Working in the Wine Industry

Do you ever wonder what it might feel like to be a Black man working in wine, an overwhelmingly white- and male-dominated industry? You may not see me — or people who look like me — very often. Black professionals make up just 2 percent of the drinks industry, despite accounting for more than 13 percent of the U.S. population. So I’m here to tell you: Even though I stand out, I often feel invisible.

During my past seven years working as a sales representative for a major distributor, I’ve had plenty of great experiences. But, I’ve also missed out on trips, tastings, and supplier-related events that have been available to my white colleagues. When I think of a quote that encapsulates my experience, one from American novelist James Baldwin comes close: “I can’t trust what you say because I see what you do.” By this, I mean it has been nearly impossible for me to be taken seriously, to excel, and to gain recognition. It is hard for me to believe the wine industry truly wants diversity when I rarely see people of color in leadership roles.

The disparities between my experience and that of my coworkers largely comes down to the wine industry’s lack of inclusion. You have to be in the room to be recognized. Think back to the tastings you’ve attended, to the wineries you’ve visited. How many Black men were there? Probably none. Writer J’Nai Gaither recently shed light on the casual racism found in Napa tasting rooms, but BIPOC professionals have to endure racism and bias throughout the industry, including the off-premise environment that I work in.

BIASES AMONG CONSUMERS — AND PROFESSIONALS

As a sales rep, before Covid hit, I’d typically spend part of every week preplanning the most effective way to visit my accounts, to discuss sales with each store or department manager. A lot of decisions for promotional programs and brands displays happen on a corporate level, but my relationships with these local managers increases the opportunity for items “not on plan” to still be featured somewhere in the store.

I build and maintain case displays that sometimes exceed 30 to 60 cases. At every account, I interact with customers — or at least that’s my goal. Anytime I’m on the floor, I greet customers and inquire if they need any assistance finding wine or any recommendations. I want nothing more than to help them find a great wine for their specific need. Yet I usually hear, “No I’m OK.” I wish I could say that customers decline the help of white men I’m often working alongside, but that’s not the case: I’ve found many customers to be prejudiced. They want help, but not from me, as if a Black man is incapable of having wine knowledge.

One method I’ve implemented is to follow up after the customer has declined my help. In whatever area of the shop they’re standing longest in, I’ll recommend a bottle nearby. More frequently than not, the customer will purchase a wine I’ve suggested, or they’ll finally engage to tell me what type of wine they’re seeking. It’s an exercise in frustration, though. I have to try so hard just to be heard by the customer, to give them a recommendation.

On the flip side, when I am the customer, be it at a restaurant or a fine wine shop, wine professionals show their overt or unconscious biases toward me almost immediately. If I ask a question about a white wine, I’ll be escorted to the sweet wine section, or to the bargain whites.

But no — I’m looking for the grower Champagne, that indigenous Italian wine from Puglia, or the excellent Bordeaux blanc-inspired wine from Australia. In order to be taken seriously, I have to prove myself, pulling out obscure producer names and regional information before a retailer will engage with me, and that’s just disappointing. The wine industry is full of intelligent people who can do better than relying on racially motivated stereotypes.

As a colleague, let me say to other wine professionals: It’s time to let go of your tired prejudices. Black men don’t just drink sweet wines, or cheap wines. Speaking from my experience facilitating wine tasting events, Black men do drink a broad range of wines. We are hungry to explore the world of wine; we just need wine professionals who are willing to take the time to explain it, in the same way that’s afforded to white customers.

BEING THE ONLY BLACK MAN IN THE ROOM

Over the years, I can easily count how many supplier-led or company-related events I’ve been invited to — it’s not many. While my white coworkers get invited to countless winery visits and industry events, I rarely do. And when I have been included, I’m often the only Black man present. One winemaker interaction last year was particularly eye-opening.

One day, I showed up at one of my retail accounts, and my coworkers had, unbeknownst to me, scheduled a winemaker visit. It was not standard protocol for me to be unaware of the visit, but I played along and was happy to interact with the winemaker, expressing my passion for her wine in our brief discussion. She invited me to dinner that evening, along with coworkers who had already been invited.

When I arrived at the dinner, my coworkers were conciliatory, acknowledging the mistake: “Vince, I’m so sorry. I did not know that they were going to your account today.” Looking around the table, everyone present was either a white woman or a white man, and somehow they all got invitations in advance. But inevitably that’s always the case — I’m a last-minute addition, if anyone invites me at all. This lack of inclusivity has discouraged me in so many ways.

I think back to the first time I ever saw a Black man taken seriously in the wine industry. It was DLynn Proctor in the “Somm” film. That was huge for me. Representation matters immensely and if you never see someone who looks like you making moves in places you could never imagine it makes it more difficult to garner interest in any field; the wine industry is no different.

In tired moments, I wonder why I pour my energy into an industry where gatekeepers often fail to recognize BIPOC and give us a seat at the table. But then my passion for wine takes over. I love wine and I know that I have a greater purpose being present in the industry than absent. My work in wine will help the next generation of Black men see that space exists for them here.

GAINING ACCESS TO OPPORTUNITIES

My BIPOC colleagues and I have largely been excluded from industry-funded wine events and regional wine trips. When I finally landed my first successful industry-related tour to the Napa Valley in 2019, that felt amazing. But it took nearly six years of inquiries to make it happen. Would it have taken a white wine professional half that time to be asked?

That’s the question at the root of several new non-profit organizations designed to help the industry advance on racial equity, including Black Wine Professionals, Wine Unify, and The Roots Fund. If a wine brand wants to hire or invite BIPOC talent, there’s no longer an excuse to say, “I don’t know any Black wine professionals.” Just go to the Black Wine Professionals website for a directory. To hire a wine intern from a diverse background, connect with The Roots Fund, which helps facilitate that job placement. For minorities looking to find a mentor locally, head to Wine Unify’s website to apply.

The resources exist for companies to recognize, hire, and recruit BIPOC talent. Now it’s time for the wineries, suppliers, distributors, sales teams, and management staff throughout this industry to step up and mandate actionable change. That means business models that require a diverse staff throughout the organization, including upper management. It means creating scorecards to publicly rate or rank companies each year on their DIP (diversity improvement progress), and to hold them accountable.

In an ideal world, companies will have minorities at the table at all levels within their businesses. Wineries will have BIPOC professionals working in the tasting room areas without being subjected to stereotypes or prejudices. Black wine professionals will be compensated equally to their white counterparts. Each of these environments will also be LGBTQIA+ -friendly as well, with regular staff trainings on unconscious biases. And Black men, like me, will no longer feel invisible.

The article What It’s Like to Be a Black Man Working in the Wine Industry appeared first on VinePair.

source https://vinepair.com/articles/black-man-wine-industry/

[awed-frog]

that comment about what you think about soldiers' motivation is, in my opinion and despite your intention for it not to be, pretty offensive and shows a harmful stereotypical perception. even without immediate threat to their countries, people often sign up for military service just because they want to protect and make a contribution to a safer world. let's say UN blue helmets. would you say most police officers are just hungry for authority and do the job to beat up people?

Hi there - thank you for coming to talk to me about this instead of just assuming I’m a dick or sending me abuse or whatever - I appreciated it a lot. I understand that you’re upset - to be fair, this is a sensitive and complex issue, very close and personal for some people, and where we live and how we grew up is likely to have a huge impact on what we think about it. So, yeah - it was perhaps unkind of me to bring it up in two lines in the middle of an SPN meta. It’s definitely an important debate, though, and an issue which deserves to be discussed, so let’s see if I can make my opinion a little clearer.

First of all, I should say that I’m privileged enough to live in a ‘normal’ country. I’ve never been afraid of the police - quite the opposite - and I recognize both policemen and soldiers do an important job which is necessary to a democratic society. I also know their working conditions are often difficult, if not downright awful, and I appreciate their work as I do that of all civil servants. In fact, that’s why I distanced myself from far left groups years and years ago: their hatred and contempt for cops was starting to grate on my nerves, and the fact some of my ‘friends’ would make plans to isolate policemen during demonstrations in order to beat them up made me nauseous. As Italian artist Pier Paolo Pasolini wrote back in the day, policemen are first and foremost working people who often come from an underprivileged background, so a class war against them makes no sense at all (you can find the poem here in the original Italian and more about the historical context, in English, here).

That said, it’s an open secret that the police tends to attract, and recruit, mostly a specific type of person. In many countries there is an endemic problem because policemen are inevitably revealed to be far right sympathizers, or are otherwise prejudiced against minorities. 

(One part of the world which is very close to my heart is Northern Ireland, and today, April 5th, 2017, the region has again vowed to do better and recruit more Catholics into the force. Their numbers are now up to 31%, but it’s still not good enough, and it’s a situation likely to foment or create problems down the line, as all parties are well aware.)

Italy saw one of its biggest scandal almost twenty years ago, when during the demonstrations against the G8 summit taking place in Genoa, about a hundred students were illegally detained, humiliated, beaten and threatened with rape and torture (61 of them had to be treated for mild to serious injuries). More than a hundred policemen were indicted and had to withstand trial, but despite the abundance of incriminating material, none of them was ever punished (English Wikipedia account of the facts). That was by no means an isolated incident. Only one month ago, what should have been a successful example of international cooperation (the neutralization of Anis Amri, the man who’d carried out the deadly Christmas market attack in Berlin) was marred by the revelation that both Italian policemen who’d stopped and killed Anis Amri had a Facebook profile choke-full of Nazi and fascist imagery (English article). There was much embarrassed mumbling on the part of both governments, and some clamour further down - even Breitbart did a piece about it - but ultimately Germany decided against an award for the two policemen, because their political affiliations were perceived to trump their work and efforts to counter terrorism.

(Being on the force, like many other jobs, is usually something that runs in the family, and this is problematic for all those European countries which were still, until few decades ago, military dictatorships. Portugal, Spain, Italy, Greece, not to mention the Balkans and Eastern Europe - there is where you see the biggest problems in regard to who, exactly, chooses to be a policeman and why. In Greece, for instance, the cop who shot a 15-year-old student and unwittingly started the 2008 riots was the direct descendant of a family who’d enthusiastically collaborated with the Nazis in WW2; and the Greek far right movement Golden Dawn has deep links with both the police and the army.) 

And if we’re talking about soldiers, all these problems are magnified times a million. Again, I’m lucky enough not to see soldiers all that often, but I’m always wary of them (and I give them a very wide berth whenever I’m abroad) because it’s inevitably groups of loud young men with big weapons, and that’s rarely a safe combination. Here is where you see it again: in theory, being a soldier can be a noble calling (and let’s not mention, because this is not what we’re talking about, those who have no choice but to serve, either because of draconian conscription laws or because they’re too poor and uneducated to have any other choice), but be around career soldiers long enough and a pattern begins to emerge. I was never in the army myself, but I have friends from several countries who served, both in regular armies and in peace-keeping missions, or even combat, and the picture they paint is pretty bleak. According to them, even in the most mundane settings (such as basic training), a Lord of the Flies escalation can occur at any moment, because this is what happens when you stuff twenty young men together and force them to obey pointless orders all day long and punish the whole unit whenever something’s wrong. Hazing is common, and victims never speak up (when they do, they are generally mocked by their superiors and told to man up). Women in uniform are routinely excluded, made fun of, humiliated or (far) worse. The same goes for gay people and minorities. And, again, this is the situation in relaxed, normal circumstances - in peace time, and in your own country. These are simply things that happen out of boredom and a vague desire to establish your alpha status over someone else. When it comes to war, well, I havent yet heard of any army that hasn’t committed horrific crimes against civilians - but, again, this is not what we’re discussing now. Let’s just say that when it comes to the US army, the only force to have training bases in the entire world (and maybe the time has finally come to reconsider that), freak accidents and crimes are pretty common - and normally go unpunished. And I’m not talking about what happens in combat - that would be a whole other discussion - I’m talking about stupid, mindless, violent things some men do when they’re left to their own devices in a military setting. In Okinawa, local people are fed up by the problems caused by American soldiers - stuff including low-level crime, but also rapes and murder. And up in the Italian mountains, the memories of what happened in 1998 are still fresh - it took years to even understand how the events had unfolded, but as far as we know, the pilots of a military plane which had taken off from a nearby American base had simply ignored regulations to have fun - they’d been flying way too low, and, as a result, their plane cut the cable supporting a gondola from an aerial tramway, causing it to crash to the ground. Twenty people were killed, and yet every single soldier involved was acquitted.

So, well, I’m not saying that all soldiers are idiots, Nazi sympathizers or psychos (I never understood this new tumblr thing, by the way - the ‘not all men’ meme, because no, not all men: 90% of the men in my life, for instance, are decent, normal persons, and not part of the problem in any way). Not at all. What I’m saying is, we tend to gravitate towards specific jobs according to our likes, dislikes and general personality - and, in my experience, people who wish to be soldiers are people I don’t have much in common with; and, yes, very often they’re testosteronic young men who just want to dick around with weapons and tanks and, if at all possible, have some ‘fun’, possibly by beating each other up. After all, if you truly want to serve your country, there are many (less exciting and assault rifles-related) ways to do so. Teachers and nurses and garbage collectors and cleaning personnel, just off the top of my head, do far more for their countries than some kid in uniform will ever do (again - I’m thinking about my country here, which is not at war with anyone) and yet you never hear anyone thanking them for their service, or whatever. On the contrary - these professions are often lowly paid and not recognized by society at all. Maybe the world would change for the better if we stopped having so much respect for soldiers and we started thinking that other careers - such as taking care of the elderly, for instance - were a far more honourable choice for young men.

(On how our personalities lead us to specific jobs and how those jobs in turn shape our personalities, I can highly recommend these articles about the link between engineering and terrorism - fascinating stuff, and also scary af. You can read about it here and here.)

#ask #not sure how to tag this #random political opinions? #i'm using 'policeman' as a generic term btw #i'm never sure of how widespread #genderless nouns are in english #anyway #i hope this does a better job #to explain what i think #thanks for reaching out :)

[hanzi83]

Maybe the Last Blog Wasn’t My Last Blog Maybe it is this One

I know the last blog I wrote I was worried this might be the end of me. I feel like they have tried to prompt me into going insane, especially over the last month since they know I have not written, even in my personal journal, to get the plethora of thoughts off my chest, but I have used periscope to connect and try to meet different characters who have been interesting. There is an assortment of entertainment there, whether it is sex workers trying to get people to go to their premium snap chat or discussions about politics, religion, or just jokers roasting each other. It has been cool, and kind of frustrating. I find it fascinating since my name on there is the spoof name of the late Dusty Rhodes, Dusty Loads, so there are actually people on there that don’t know me as Hanzi or Imran Khan, they know me as Dusty. I have procrastinated from writing down my thoughts and frustrations and even testing this out to see if different people in my life are monitoring this and I say a bunch of vile shit to see how much people are actually monitoring me and also some thoughts are genuine jokes and genuine feelings at the time naturally, but it just felt weird that I have not written anything, and it feels like I am programmed not to even care anymore about it.

It has been tough over the last several weeks because recently there was a tape of  Howard Stern that was leaked out of him implanting his 2013 revolution plan, where it is him having a poorly spelled power point presentation, where he asks his underpaid staff to book A List guests since they are becoming more irrelevant, and people have pinpointed that I am kind of vindicated because he does encourage his staff to create fake twitter accounts to bombard celebrities to get them on the show, and even though he has vehemently denied ever knowing how to use troll accounts or would even direct people to do that kind of thing,  it proves the opposite of what he claimed, even though it did not prove that he has trolls to harass the whack pack so it keeps them in line, so no I have not been vindicated. I am not doing the summary justice, there are plethora of podcasts and forums that have dissected this a lot better than I have. My main point of bringing this to light on this blog, is that since more shadiness has been leaked out, the trolls have been acting a lot more aggressive, and are claiming there is footage of me being gay or me beating up a gay couple, or even spreading more vicious lies about me, and continuously making more accounts and get completely triggered because I bring on black guests onto my periscope.

It becomes so frustrating because I try to meet new people, and since I focus on the guests more, it angers these trolls because I am not paying attention to the comments as much so they amplified their trolling to a next level. I am sure these people have a way of fucking with technology to frame me for something, because the people harassing me are high level types of people who have teams to fuck with people, and it has been proven in the past with how these gang stalkers have tried to find ways to destroy a person’s psyche.

First of all this leak to me, feels like something purposely leaked because Stern knows he is the villain now, and the psyche out moment of this is, it was meant to make it seem like he is going to become a PC guy like it was the sell out moment, when his entire career has been a sellout moment, but it was just over 20 years ago he probably had the same kind of meeting to organize how to make it seem like they are edgy and normalize the negative shit he did in the culture, so either it represents that he still is a right wing guy who had a meeting on how he is going more PC, which would make his right wing fan base hate him more, because when the meeting had a point where he said he wants more gay guests, and has on the screen “Homophobic audience” and how to convert them, I mean it was his show who for decades normalized treating gay people like they were giant perverts and call people the F word all the time. I wonder where your audience would become homophobic from, and it is gross generalization and then asking your gay employee to get a trans guest, or blaming your staff for the hallway design like they are responsible for that. It felt like he was positioning this as if they don’t succeed they will be fired or demoted, and considering how many people were let go since that meeting, I can safely assume that they did not complete their tasks.

I personally believe this was meant to come out and that he knew his career is at its end so now he has to embrace being the villain, even know the starting phase of it is that he has gone more corporate and correlate it with him being a liberal, even though he is not a liberal. I mean he could actually be a real liberal, but the presentation he is putting on right now is supposed to be a neoliberal and he will be exposed as being right wing because he and his ilk have to be the bad guys and phonies now, and it seems like the way of the storyline is, that having people who were leaning right before suddenly becoming “liberal” and then people thinking  that this is where they sold out, so you isolate your right leaning fan base, and then the liberal ones will turn on you when they find out what your past is and when it is convenient to get mad at that then they will. I still suspend he will be exposed as a Trump advocate, but anything I have said on here I cannot confirm in any way because it is just merely speculation from a guy who has brain worms.

It feels like the more that comes out though, the more the trolls will try to fuck with me, and try to get me to declare happiness like the Hanzi83 sub reddit got shut down and people asking me if I got it shut down, other than posting on reddit’s facebook page that this page is dedicated to harass me, I don’t think it was my doing and I personally think they shut it down on its own and wanted me to gloat about it, and then they wanted me to gloat about Howard’s leaks, and as humorous as this shit sounded to me, I know this is not a victory for me. Trust me, there is no victory for me in this. I have lost everything.

I have lost my friendships and relationships. I have been excluded and used by everyone because I can’t get over how much systemic power people in my life have been given and have had to report back to the powers that be what my mind frame is like etc and this chase for fame has done so much harm, because I want to use it for good and try to be more responsible but since that is seen as nerd SJW bullshit, people gravitate towards the counter culture and see that as edgy, and the more I speak out on the white supremacist system, and how much ignorance I bought into, it has triggered these trolls and they insist I hate on white people, because I might have ignorant people on my scope who might be black, and if people do say something ignorant, I try to have a discussion because I want to gage it if it is harmful or is it just someone talking shit and how can we get them to see how they can evolve, and yes I will admit I try to give people of color the benefit of the doubt and maybe I might be harsher on white people, but these same white people I am harsher on are the ones always dropping the N word or the F word all the fucking time, and spew right wing shit and then act like they are victims. Maybe because as a person of color I used to think ignorantly and people in my life did not give up on me but would try to get me to evolve and I would even push back because I bought into counter culture, I think sometimes depending on the propaganda people take in, and how much minorities go through, I feel like there is hope to change their mind and see something more in a evolved way. That also goes for white people, but some of these people who show up on my social media are always trying to showcase what kind of assholes they are and instill paranoia and try to prompt me to threaten them so I can get banned.

It is clear these social media sites answer to people who are more powerful so they allow the constant harassment and name calling against me but if I dare fight back and say something fucked up, then I can get suspended because people are upset with me and mad they could not use me further, so now their crews will now try to report me for anything slight thing. I should get off social media, but it feels like the only place I can make some human connection has been on watching other people’s periscope because people in my life have moved on to better things and I will never get over all the shit I missed and how much secrecy and infighting there has been, and it feels I will never be close with them ever again. I am sure I will not be friends with these people on periscope for long but it does feel good momentarily to actually have good conversation with people, even if they don’t agree with me. I have met some very beautiful woman on there as well and it has been cool to chat with some of them, and of course some of the worst kinds of Trump people are on there, and I even try to gage how far they have gone down the right wing rabbit hole and maybe there is saving them to some extent but I don’t think there is, some of these people from 4chan think it is in their right to be racist and call people the n word, and when there is someone who woman who you think is cool, aligning with someone like that, it is kind of disturbing to me. They will make it seem like “You can’t handle other people’s opinion” when it is not even that, you don’t think those people’s opinion hasn’t been the norm for so many fucking decades? I love how these people think their view is some new profound way of thinking like they are standing up to it all, while people who have

 genuine concern about social issues are the ones who are snowflakes.

So it feels like these people are angered and threatened about that. I found the harassment go up even more because I was not against ANTIFA and presented that there could be agent provocateurs in the mix to make the group look bad, and the fact that these right wing types have in them to use the same talking points and then move the goalposts and then continue to pathologically lie and have no shame about it, and make it seem like you are the one who supports radicalization while being pro cop and pro military and justify why people are locked up or bombed, and that is not seen as radical whatsoever, but for someone like me, who is irrelevant and can’t let go of his 15 minutes of fame, these people are still pissed I dare try to get on my periscope to talk about stuff and hate that they were not able to get me to kill myself.

It feels like since I have even suggested that if Howard is really a Trump supporter, maybe he might be tied into the Epstein shit, but it feels like this Epstein shit is designed more to get at Trump’s enemies, even though people know they have been associated in the past etc, so this new notion to deny Trump has any involvement with Epstein is really scary too, because the more evident it seems to become Trump is evil, it feels like his supporters and the trolls won’t care. The paid trolls will never stop with me and every day I feel closer to wanting to end it because of how much they hack my shit and make it known they are watching me and even hint they are driving to my house to do something to me, I have no idea when these people will strike down, but I feel I need to write this blog and since I am out of practice of writing down any thoughts, I know this blog was not the best one, but I had to have a last one if this is truly the end for me.

You know with SummerSlam festivities happening and how much I am not included in any plans I know around that time, I will irrationally lose my mind and act like a fucking pussy having a fucking powwow about it and then declaring I am not going to watch, and maybe I shouldn’t. The company is corrupt but the people who work there I am fans of and even the alternatives to the WWE are not 100 percent pure and have their own shadiness and at what point do I keep giving into this shit, but then everything else I use or watch has been dipped in evil, so what the fuck am I supposed to do? This is fucking frustrating and I wish I was never born in this poisonous world. I just know how my manic meltdown patterns and I know it will just get worse since I have not expressed myself properly in the last month or so.

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