#well and i slept in bed for one day

[nwarrior777]

having shut downs for two days in a row, decided to feel my feeling through jpegs

so yeah here is Astarion struggling after being captured (and saved) from cazador or smth, everything i knew is still random cutscenes with him recomended by youtube, but i love him anyway

(why is he fat - because)

#autistic headcanon #autism headcanon #pls give me a little validation and hugs #i have all of this #accept from steps reading #which i had in childhood #well and i slept in bed for one day #not 3 #but yeah #non verbal is something new #not very cool to be in that mod #but surprisingly charging #i suppose i should accept that i am autistic now i guess #but no thoughts i need to sleep it's night here #i want to tag the game and character so hard but i am sure i will get some hate for making him fat

[thegeminisage]

perpetual chicken and egg question are you not writing fanfiction because you're depressed or are you depressed because you're not writing fanfiction. write fanfiction and find out today

#personal #liz loves writing #i think it's the former i think it's seasonal it's got to be seasonal!!!!!!!! #but i wrote 1k of envesseled yesterday and like #it wasn't even a good 1k if i'm being honest like it was a bad set of words #but i felt SO much better. i didn't even get mad when i got into bed to find my cat had puked on the bedspread #having to remake my entire bed when im ready to sleep normally turns me into number one grouch and i didnt care #slept well got up at a reasonable hour and everything #the effect is starting to wear off which means i need to write another 1000 words but I Dont Wanna. must be seasonal. #man remember when i was banging out 2 an 3 thousand every day easily? i miss that. #anyway maybe it's the weather here...it's been like 70+ for 3 days now thanks climate change

[mustangs-flames]

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#hey guys just an update #i am really not doing well #had some massive anxiety and panic attacks and haven't slept properly in over 3 days #my brain has latched onto the idea that i am hurting people - loved ones and strangers alike - and i can't move past it #I've started medication but i don't know what to do. i feel miserable and sad and can't even get out of bed #i haven't stopped shaking for days now #i don't know what's going to happen with htb au currently #my anxiety has decided that that is what is hurting people for some reason and i am scared of even going near it right now #i just. i don't know what to do. please if my work has ever hurt you i am so sorry. i really am. #sorry

[pansyfemme]

any of my mutuals wanna come over and hold eachother in silence for about six hours

#im not feeling well today #its one of those days where the weather is so bad it looks like evening all day long #its so humid all the windows are fogged up and the power keeps going out im so tireddddd but my bed is so uncomfy #i just came back from a weeklong vacation and slept in a normal bed and forgot i have the worst bed ever #i sleep on a futon fold out couch and it is like sleeping on a board im ngl

[introvert-celeste]

On a lighter note, here's some recent pictures of my kitty girls being sleepy and precious 💕

#my cats #trixie (tuxedo) has rarely slept on my bed since we got Pepper (tortie) but she's been sleeping on it incessantly the last couple of days #it's ever since i changed my sheets the most recent time #my comforter is already covered in cat hair but i don't care she's my cat again :3 #and Pepper is the sweetest little baby in existence #i think Ruby (calico) has become her surrogate mommy #pepper loves spending time with her and ruby tolerates her at the very least #(she's the only one of our cats who has had kittens albeit years ago so it makes some sense) #i love my kitty girls #i love the kitty boys as well but they're a little less cute lol

[whatareyoudoingwithamaserati]

Recovery coma save me……. save me recovery coma

#WHAT THE FUCK IS UP GUESS WHO JUST SLEPT THIRTEEN HOURS #was in bed longer but hey! slepe is what matters! #love chronic fatigue. you have one bad week and whoops yeah you’re asleep all day. sucks to suck! #it was fun thoigh I haven’t slept that well in ages #blaming the insomnia #cats.txt

[ereborne]

Song of the Day: January 16

"Coast of Carolina" by Jimmy Buffett

#song of the day #when I said my schedule would be back to normal today apparently what I meant was my sleep schedule would be obliterated today! #it snowed and I wanted to sleep in and so I reset my alarm but then my phone didn't get plugged back in and it died! #I slept through all my work day and woke up feeling quite refreshed to find several politely displeased messages from my boss #unfortunate! #I did sleep incredibly well though. better than I have in maybe a year #anyway my kitchen is clean again finally and my plants probably will not die and I have done quite a lot of frantic report-building for wor #and I'm going to sleep again now to nap for a few hours so I can be awake for real worktime tomorrow and apologize! unfortunate!!!! #love this song though. very soothing to croon. baked lovely brownies to this song while fretting tonight and it did help #edit: I'm awake and I've written out my apologies and Jo is here and purring so so loud #and I woke up with a different Jimmy Buffett song stuck in my head #Coast of Carolina is the one I was humming when I went to bed #but I've woken up with 'The Wino and I Know' which is also a fabulous song and which also did play as I made my sadness brownies #'just like a fool when those sweet goodies cool / I eat til I eat way too much #cause I'm livin on things that excite me / be they pastry or lobsters or love #I'm just tryin to get by / bein quiet and shy / in a world full of pushin and shovin #and the wino and I know / the pain of back bustin / like a farmer knows the pain / of his pickup truck rustin #strange situation / wild occupation / livin my life like a song' #a later edit: my lovely apology message has been left on read. unfortunate!!!!!!!! I do keep laughing though

[b4kuch1n]

current round of ink comm finished! I am on a train! this will not be the last time

#bakuspeech #this is to say: probably wont be able to get to that third round of the month dangit sorry lads #I'll open for that again in august probably... cause july is art fight #and fic time as well. I wanna get on at least starting the next chapter of burnished house while on this trip #either there are two puppies in the catering car of this train or the engine makes some real interesting noises #theres also a guy who came into our compartment (we got two beds in a six-bed one. its an overnight train) and just #slept on the bottom bunk for the night. I went to sleep at like 3 and he was there. woke up at 8 and he wasnt there anymore #trains are Very cool. anyways next week I will be away from most things and close to specific things #so uh. might be hard to get ahold of me be warned! thats it babeyy #have a good day! a train is a kind of dragon

[v-v-void]

Why does the universe put the people I care about the most so far out of reach?

#the past week has been one of the best all year. #and now.. #well.. the space in my bed where she slept #feels more empty than ever before #hunters first day of school is tomorrow #I'm gonna cry so fricken much #i wish you were here

[widevibratobitch]

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#vent post uwu havent seen those in a while have we <33 #looks like a depressive episode again #aw shucks #:/ #laid in bed all day. did absolutely nothing. slept for 18 hours. #havent washed my hair since saturday. havent taken my thyroid meds in three days so idk that may have sth to do with this too ig #my flat is a total mess and im ignoring all uni groupchats (uni itself as well) and non-groupchats too. #only pretending im Normal to my best friend even tho she explicitly asked me to tell her when im feeling Bad and she does reach out to me #with her problems but i just cant bring myself to talk to her about mine #also i miss my ed so badly i need it back desperately. and i mean DESPERATELY. #anyway. something is seriously seriously wrong with me rn. like fr. #and i still haven't found the earring kms #had a bit of a ✨strongly suicidal✨ moment yesterday like it really made me go Wowwwwww girl hold yer horses cause yeah. #we havent seen that one in a while either #(no matter what my evil poll tags might have said lmao). anyway. absolutely horrible last two days. #and i once again feel like the worst and most useless and most disgusting person in the world. #my body is trash and there's nothing in this world that i hate more than it. i wish it would just. evaporate. whatever. #i hate it with a passion. peace and love.

[ronanlynchbf]

"all this foreshadowing abt declan dying and then he didn't even die" well personally i think declan got murdered dead by mstief in greywaren so. actually 2 me he did die. Badly.

#like sorry 2 to say it but also not sorry the declan i know would never do to matthew what he did in gw.. #like obviously he has done some shit stuff to matthew (and ronan as well. this to mean ronan did shit stuff irt matthew as well not declan #did shit stuff to ronan. though he very much did and vice versa but like not the point here.) BUT i know he would NEVER strip matthew of his #autonomy like that and NEVER for so long. like i didn't write declan lynch as a character but also i know he wouldn't do that. that's his #baby brother........and i know he feels like matthew robbed him of his youth and his life and whoever he would've grown up to be but HE JUST #WOULD NEVER....i know this....like sorry but that is the most awful fucked up shit to do ever in the entire world. someone depends on you #and looks up to you and trusts you and you take away the thing that keeps them awake??? i'd even say the thing that essentially keeps them #ALIVE bc without a sweetmetal dreams aren't really alive they're just sleeping for eternity which is a kind of death. LIKE...... #that just baffles me so much u just have to be soooooo uncaring to do that....like if he just did it in the moment of anger - snatched that #pendant off matthew's neck so he fell asleep and declan wouldn't have to deal with him anymore and then immediately afterwards was like. #what have i done this is so fucked up to do to someone. and put the pendant back on matthew. and apologized prefusely for it. that would #have still not been fine but in bouts of anger ppl do stupid desperate things that negatively affect others and it would've been #considerably less fucked up than it is now. like declan kept that pendant away for UP TO TWO DAYS. he drove the whole way back put ronan #somewhere safe carried matthew out of the car and into the house carried him upstairs into the bedroom and put him in bed went back #downstairs went outside locked the car went back into the house ate showered slept woke up ate breakfast again go through the whole day and #NOT ONCE did he think to himself oh this thing i'm doing is genuinely horrible i can't just take away someone's like. awareness. like that #& went to go 'wake' matthew????? NOT ONCE????? ARE YOU BEING SERIOUS???? NOT ONCE IN THOSE ONE AND A HALF OR TWO OR POSSIBLY MORE DAYS??? #also just the whole. turning into his father thing. HARD NO. u mean the same declan who hated his father for very right reasons and hated #what he did to the entire lynch family both while he was alive and after he died the same declan that hated all the trading and buying and #selling dream things business and just that underground market in general (that btw. put the family he had left in life-threatening danger.) #the same declan who hated his father for dreaming a more perfect and loving unconditionally copy of his actual mother (rightfully so.) went #on 2 go into the exact business he always hated w/ a fiery passion?? ur also telling me he invited his father's killer to his wedding? fake. #trc #greywaren #<- needs its own tag bc i'm not putting it in the same category as call down the hawk my beloved call down the hawk. #anyway. that entire essay in the tags can be summarized w/: who declan ended up as & his entire arc is SO shit i hate it sm peace n love 🙏 #as i've said before. me: mom can we have declan lynch? mom: no we have declan lynch @ home. declan lynch @ home: declan lynch in greywaren. #<<<<< full experience of reading gw. 2 me. ARGHHHH AOUGH THE POTENTIAL IT HAD THE POTENTIAL IT WASTED... IT'S ACTUALLY SO SAD....

[sunsoak]

I’m already experiencing the classic nonprofit conundrum of loving my job but HATING the bureaucratic, out-of-touch but thinks they’re so smart administration

#when administration comes in on Monday morning and is literally ANGRILY SNAPPING at the kids to get out of bed by 7:45 #because It’s Policy that they need to be Out Of The Dorms By 7:45 #THEYRE HOMELESS TEENAGERS BRO #LET THEM FUCKING SLEEP AS LONG AS THEY POSSIBLY CAN #they have to get up early EVERY SINGLE DAY #and then they yell at them for sleeping during the day because ITS POLICY to not sleep in the day program #WHO FUCKING CARES!!!!! TEENAGERS NEED SLEEP MORE THAN ANY OF US DO!!!!! #YOU get to sleep in at least two days of the week #THEY have to be out of here by 8 am every single day. how is that fair? really how is that fair?? #it’s not preparing them for the Real World because guess what in the real world you actually can sleep in sometimes #and then have the gall to be like well I was homeless once or I’ve been thru this kind of thing and I did this and that so why can’t they #like Jesus Christ. you preach empathy and understanding and support but it’s literally all talk #in the real world you can take a nap on your couch and no one is going to yell at you #one time they literally CALLED THE COPS on a kid who slept past 8 because it’s ‘trespassing’ to be in the shelter past 8 #like holy shit there is nothing more fucking RIDICULOUS than that. I have made my judgment and I’m sticking to it y’all are evil

[catboy-kakashi]

Noticing a pattern in your behavior that may be a sign of something much larger but instead of trying to analyze that you just quickly put the lid back on the oil fire and walk away

#i have some. problems. when it comes to food #i wouldnt call it like a disorder by any means #i feel like that would be trivializing what people with EDs go through #but uh. well i have been at someone else’s house petsitting and i’ve barely eaten anything besides the bag of veggie chips i brought #and im starting to think. maybe. i need to assess my issues with feeling like im allowed to eat or take food thats offered to me #without being explicitly handed the food and being told its for me #haha uhhhh. haha. anyway. i think i’ll cope with this by projecting onto fictional characters and then never self reflecting #​ camtankerous is whining #like they straight up SAID ‘theres leftover in the fridge! feel free to eat those!’ #but because they said that and not ‘thats for you!’ my brain says ‘theyll eat that if i dont. i should leave it for them. its not for me’ #like idk. like i dont DESERVE to eat someone elses leftovers??? thats so fucking SAD. that makes me sound like a stray dog or something #i havent had coffee for several days either bc asking how their coffee machine worked felt like admitting i was planning on taking #their coffee and like. maybe im not allowed to have coffee! thats THEIR fancy coffee #i newrly slept on the fucking couch instead of one of the TWO guest beds they told me i could use. whats wrong with me #negative #vent #sorry i just. ive been really stressed out the last few days and i needed to get this out #i straight up dont know where this behavior comes from. its not like my parents were abusive or didnt let me have food?? #its like im afraid to let myself enjoy things. who the fuck do i think is going to come and take it away or yell at me. #HAHA wow thats a wall of text huh. i should probably go to therapy! #if youre still reading this do not look upon my wretched form. i dont want you to think less of me for this

[bunnyb34r]

Lmao I guess I slept through a tornado warning alert on my phone, the tornado sirens, and the high winds last night

For once it was Mom who was awake while I slept through a tornado warning!!

One time she had come home from an overnight shift and was trying to sleep and the sirens were going off so I tried to wake her and she said and I quote "let me sleep. If I die, I die."

I get it now bc I'm sure I'd have said the same had she tried to wake my ass up 😅

#she was like 'i was so close to just throwing myself on top of you if i couldnt wake you (like if the tornado DID hit)' which i get!! i #remember resigning to just huddle close to her on her bed and just kept silently praying until the storm passed #weird how the roles reversed sgdgdgdgdggd when i hit deep sleep and someone tries to wake me im apparently such a bitch #like one time i slept over my aunts house and she tried to wake me and i allegedly growled at her GSGSGSGSG I have no fucking recollection #of her even trying to wake me.. and another time my mom woke me up and allegedly i was talking to her sgsgdgdgd basically saying leave me #be aggsgs again i didnt remember her even trying to wake me up at ALL the next day #this also isnt the first tornado warning ive slept through agsgsgsgsgs i remember in 6th grade everyone was talking ab the #tornado sirens going off and how scared they were and i was like when??? yeah i slept through them and my parents (if they hadnt slept #through it as well) didn't wake me sgdgdgdg #marquilla

[lolacouldnotcareless]

really shouldn’t listen to 1am!lola, they don’t know shit and are lacking sleep

#the thing is. i’m an introvert who spends most of their awake time alone #i’ve slept alone in my own room since i was. 6-7? bc i couldn’t fall asleep with any kind of light on #and my sisters still needed a nightlight #so like for the vast majority of my life i’ve slept alone #then we got dogs but even then i was sleeping in a bunk bed with a desk underneath it so i slept alone until we moved out #and i changed of bed #then my dog slept with me then the cats #my dog is no more and our current dogs can’t walk up the stairs #and tonight the cats have decided to sleep in the laundry #so i’m really alone-alone #and. i never sleep as well as when i have someone else with me #particularly someone whose sleep i care about #i’ll turn off the light at a reasonable hour and stop using my phone #and it’s so so so much easier for me to fall asleep with someone else in the room #on one hand bc by taking care of their sleep i don’t fall in my usual bad habits #on the other bc i feel more relaxed with someone else at that moment #like. i can spend the entire day by myself whatever #but damn do i wish sometimes that i didn’t have to be alone trying to asleep #personal

[elnotwoods]

when you’re sick enough to not have the attention span to watch the girlies be cute and gay on a date, you know it’s time to take the meds and hit the hay…

#like can’t i get one thing or myself? #i slept an hour and a half today… which is like just slightly less than i get these days #i am finally on Christmas break #sick #but got to see my friend and may have made my sickness worse because i went outside #and now i wanted to catch up with gap and watch the new ep but i can’t even do that #fuck this #might as well go to bed at 10pm like a normal person instead of 7:30am #el rambles #el watches gap the series #or at least fucking tries to