#ultimate self insert kuro fantasy:

[bitter-rabbitholes]

yknow the nice thing about the welcome to phantomive's ova was that us, or the lady assassin stand in for the audience, seemed to change her mind because of lizzy.

(...i know it was mostly sebastian threatening her the whole time but!)

like our evil mafia family puts lizzy down for being tricked by our fake identity and actually respecting us :(

and the camera keeps focusing on lizzy and how nice she is to throw a surprise birthday for her new friend and go to such lengths.

and in the end, our assassin lady gets one last look at Lizzy and Paula sleeping defenselessly and that's when she discards her knife. and its adorable that lizzy reformed an assassin by being such a sweetheart.

#ultimate self insert kuro fantasy: #lizzys your best friend and you become ciels mommy 🥰🥰🥰 #i mean #fair #the fandom does want that #kuro #kuroshitsuji season 2 #elizabeth midford

[grellrot]

7, 19 and 20 (and hugs you tightly :3)

{ Meme }; Accepting

7. how public is your muse about their gender / sexuality / romantic attraction? 

[She’s very public about her gender. It’s largely unconscious at this point, but every other word out of her mouth is like ‘friendly reminder I’m a woman’ because she knows certain things about her appearance suggest otherwise. It’s kind of a self-comfort thing as well. She validates herself because not many other people do.

Her openness about being attracted to men is the same—see Victorian theory that attraction to men is what makes your psyche female. It’s also the thing she was most conscious of hiding during her human life and it’s very therapeutic to not have to hide it anymore.

Though she is bisexual, she has more hangups about being attracted to women for the inverse reasons, so she’s not as aggressively upfront about it. Still, it’s not like she denies it when it comes up.

 19. what’s your muse’s relationship with the current state of their body? 

In a word: bad. She’s mentally present in her body as little as possible. You could argue she copes better than she used to, in that she’s more aware now of what makes her more comfortable and what sets off her dysphoria, but (a) she still has nothing like a healthy relationship with her body; and (b) she often dissociates so hard that she forgets she isn’t actually cis female and ends up accidentally triggering herself, rip.

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20. what are your muse’s feelings towards the culture of romance and sexuality as it pertains to their identity?

WELL. Reapers have their own weird cross-cultural, cross-generational, cross-dimensional environment, and I might differ from the fandom a bit here in that I don’t think it’s necessarily LGBT-friendly so much as it’s just… apathetic. Nobody cares about your personal life so long as you get your job done. Of course there are more resources available to educate yourself on your downtime if you have the initiative, but Grelle’s a 119-year-old boomer and dissociated and dumb and doesn’t do that, so I hc she’s still most affected by human culture, much as she denies association with it.

She was raised Georgian, and though she doesn’t remember much of her human life (or any of her life tbh) it had a lasting effect on her worldview.  And obviously the setting of Kuro is Victorian. Grelle’s insecure in her identity as a woman so in one sense she tries to conform to every possible standard of womanhood she’s presented with. She talks about wanting to be a good lil traditional submissive housewife [insert “Kill in Heaven” here], buuut she’s also a bloody psychopath with some very Gothic fantasies [insert “Shinkou” here]. Medieval courtly love made a comeback in popular literature (Scott, Tennyson, etc.) and so she dabbles in playing the role of the noble lady-love as well. This may be another reason why she struggles with her attraction to women: she doesn’t have an archetypal feminine part to play, and since she doesn’t actually care about other people, playing roles is the only way she can have relationships.

Nowadays Victorians get painted as the Ultimate Prudes, and tbf there was certainly a good deal of prudery, but I think it’s more like… with English culture generally, and with 1800s people generally, and most of all with English 1800s people, they don’t necessarily care what you do so much as what you talk about publicly. The focus is always on keeping up appearances. And Grelle gets a kick out of playing with that. She makes a great deal of very thinly veiled innuendoes, but if you call her out for being sexual, she’s like “Me? A good Victorian woman? Talk about the naughty? I would never :3c”

I’m reeling off topic again so to sum up, her attitude towards Victorian womanhood and sexuality is kinda simultaneously conformity and parody? And I couldn’t tell you which is ‘real’ and which is an ‘act’ because Grelle is an act, really.]

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