it is both the most joyful thing i’ve ever encountered and it is also lonely. watching the world change around me is strange and a multifaceted experience. i am on high alert while i drive for others who are distracted while they drive. people come up to us all the time to look at and say hi to my daughter - their eyes and voices softening as they approach. i get angry when i see influencers using their children as props or failing to protect their privacy and childhood. i long for connection with other women for myself and for my daughter, so that she (we) can witness women in communion with one another. i miss friendship. i miss who i was before motherhood, but i don’t wish to be her anymore - i love who i am more now. i could stare into my daughter’s eyes for hours (and sometimes do) as she watches the world around her. seeing my husband hold his daughter cracks my heart open more and more each time it happens. i feel more connected to my own mother since becoming one.
mothers and children feel mostly forgotten. or maybe taken for granted. i wish i knew this for the mothers i knew before becoming a mother myself. i feel angry for not checking in on them more. i want to apologize to all of them, to cry for the loneliness they maybe felt, to hear how they feel in their bodies after they’ve been split open, to look them in the eye and do my best to really see them.
it is so much. it is the best thing in my life. my daughter and my husband — my tiny family — is my greatest joy.
This was a crack idea that snowballed into something that I actually really enjoyed. Featuring some designs by @crazyfanatic97, @arandommfer, @astrolotte, @spacejvnky and @yukkue.
The ones you really shouldn't have killed. Like man murdering these Kids was the worst decision you ever made
Design stuff undercut
For those who are wondering these are all of the golden Freddy kids From most of the fnaf universes. I should also tell you that these are my designs for everybody! They look very different in Canon...
At the top is Cassidy and The golden Freddy kid from the movie. I gave them similar ghost designs because they have similar Ways of acting
The black kid with the paper face is Michael Brooks from the silver eyes trology. I've changed his design a lot so he Would be distinct from the others and for fun. His face is made out of paper since his real face got caved in.
The robot in the trench coat is Andrew from the fright books. In Canon he wears an alligator mask but I found that boring so I took a lot more inspiration from the stitch wraith when designing him.
And of course front and center is everyone's favorite little ghost boy Evan!