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percyjacksonfan3 · 3 years

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The Last Olympian Thoughts

So because I have absolutely 0 self-control or restraint when it comes to this series and its characters, and for The Last Olympian in particular, I could not put TLO down. Because of this I figured I couldn’t do the usual photo reaction posts I have been so far, because the spam would just be ridiculous, so I am stealing the idea from @yourstrulytaaay to do a masterpost instead. (Adding a Read More cause this got ridiculously long)

Fun fact, TLO came out right after i finished reading the series for the first time so it's the first PJO book i bought and my only hard cover one for the og series. I checked the year and turns out it was published 2009, which means i was actually 9 when i read the series for the first time. I realize this is not really a fun fact but i thought i was older when I first read the series so it's blowing my mind a little ‘cause now I’m 21 and everything hits different and i still have so much love for this series and the characters Okay onto book thoughts: - i was right that this book is gonna destroy me, the first line alone made me so excited and nostalgic it's ridiculous - I love Rachel and Percy sm tbh. Her being a bit of peace and normalcy in his life without always reminding Percy of who and what he is is so good for him. Just a little escape

- of course by the end of the book that's not the case any more but by the end he's lived his prophecy so he doesn't need it as badly, plus he and Annabeth are solid again - Percy saying Annabeth has been hard to be around lately... Ouch my heart. Luke really is the last thing that keeps them from being together and Percy is so jealous and Annabeth so torn and in pain, i feel so bad for them both

- Beckendorf 🥺🥺 - the telkhine with the Lil Demon lunchbox!! I forgot about him. Percy: 'i left him alive, partly because his lunchbox was cool' is one of my absolute favourite lines tbh - Paul taking Percy crabbing and being imperative in helping Percy kill the giant crab 💖 Paul Blofis is important and deserves the world, okay? - aw Percy, you can't save every demigod bb

- 'i had to fight him eventually. Why not now?... What difference would a week make?' Oh Percy you have no idea - real talk tho, the fact Kronos possessed Luke's body would also mess me tf up. Percy keeps forgetting it's not Luke anymore and yeah, that would be so so hard and confusing af, like what another smart little mind game for Kronos to pull on top of everything else - the fact Percy fights Kronos before getting the Achilles Curse and actually doesn't die within seconds is... Astounding. He kicks him in the chest! And yeah Kronos is weaker and still adjusting to Luke's body, but Percy is having trouble fighting Luke cause they used to be friends - Percy breaks Kronos' time magic!! Like?! Boy is POWERFUL.

- OUCH - honestly Luke, Thalia and Annabeth's family breaking the way it did... Don't talk to me. Poor Annabeth, Luke betrayed them, Thalia joined the Hunters because of Luke's betrayal so she's pretty much AWOL all the time and then Luke dies. Like Rick wtf, my heart can't take it? -Percy and Tyson having each others backs when talking to Poseidon in the underwater palace is the brother-brother relationship we love to see - Percy trying to stick a sand dollar in the vending machines at school 🤦🏻‍♀🤦🏻‍♀ - the whole underwater interaction at Poseidon's palace? Perfection. Awkward family drama and all - Connor falling out of the tree when he sees Percy because he's so excited 😂😂

- 😭💖

- k, ik Clarisse isn't perfect but tbh if i was a child of Ares whose father was disrespected and hated by my fellow campers (ares deserves it but still) and that disrespect trickled down to how the other campers treated ME (which if Percy is reliable here, it obviously does) then i would also be irritated at being used for muscle and nothing else? And just expected to fight with the people who act as if they'd rather not have Ares kids around the rest of the time. Like Clarisse isn't totally wrong - Percy reading the prophecy, seeing he's meant to die and just being like 'i do not see it' and refusing to outright think about it makes me so sad for him - (but it taints every action after and he's super reckless afterwards bc of it- including finally breaking and accepting the Achilles Curse) - (also him taking this as the last straw and finally beginning to show Annabeth how he really feels, cause fuck it, he's dying anyway) - Give me more info about Rachel's backstory and family Rick!! - how did i forget Percy willingly eats chocolates that taste like cardboard because 'i didnt have anything against cardboard' like sir? Ik Silena didn't want them but still? - 'she'd always been cute, but she was starting to be seriously beautiful' STOP, MY HEART CAN'T TAKE IT - Percy staring at Annabeth and forgetting what they're talking about cause hes so distracted 👌🏻

- hmm yeah... For some strange reason.... - i forgot how Percy totally bombs this convo bw them and now want to cry 😭 Annabeth is trying to talk about what's important and Percy, you sweet oblivious man, you're shooting her down without even realizing - love that they're both on the same wavelength tho. Percy two lines before, hmm it's cool to date ppl from other cabins, wonder why im thinking that around Annabeth, my best friend in the world, and then Annabeth a beat later, hmm, let me bring up Silena and Beckendorf and how it's important to be with the people you love when you have the chance, no way Percy will miss this huge hint right? - they're the best - k i honestly forgot Percy full on physically intimidates Leneus like that - luke telling his mom if he ran away the monsters wouldnt get her..i can just imagine luke crying when he says good bye before running away because he thinks it's his fault his mom is like that and he cant take care of and protect her anymore because it's too hard - uh oh now i have angsty pre-lightning thief luke fic inspo... Him, Thalia and Annabeth on the run... The ANGST - Rick holds absolutely nothing back in this book and i am in pain - HESTIA!! 💖💖🥰 - actual loml - i love that Rick titled this book after her and that he wrote such a great series about the importance of family (biological, found or otherwise) and home, and that he said actually Hestia is the most important bc shes the most humble and keeps the peace and knows when to fight and when to yield and you protect what you love, which is your home - i just... Adore Hestia - Grover! Missed you babes - Hades is so so horrible to Nico, always comparing him to Bianca :/ - but i do love Hades, Persephone and Demeter together they make me laugh - oh god the River Styx - Achilles 🥺 - Annabeth being Percy's lifeline is, and continues to be, A Lot™ - 'my name was Percy Jackson. I reached up and took Annabeth's hand.' LOL Why am i crying? - Like the fact there is no Percy without Annabeth, and that remembering her literally reminded him of who he is in his very soul... It's fine im fine - i won't even get into the parallels of her being his lifeline now and then later when Hera takes his memories but leaves the memory of Annabeth for Percy to fight to get back to (anyone who wants to yell about it with me... Feel free to message) - badass Percy is my fav Percy tbh - him defeating Hades?? Like? Hades is arguably the most powerful god, okay - i feel bad for Nico but if i was Percy I'd do the exact same, Nico, sorry man but this is a high stakes time crunch deal and Nico is literally the only hope of persuading Hades and distracted by his own internal stuff - flashbacks to Luke, Thalia and Annabeth hurt, ow - George and Martha are the best - damn i forgot Hermes full on nearly kills Percy here, yikes - Luke stop cockblocking Percabeth challenge

- i love!! Percy's love for New York!! So much!! - Percy leaving to live in New Rome in HoO is a lie and this is all the proof i need for why - the fact the entire last half of the book is the battle and aftermath... Such great buildup and pacing. All the tricks and twists and battles in this War of Manhattan? I would not take out a thing, Rick, you legend - of course then the final battle in hoo with the gods is what? Two pages? Ugh, don’t talk to me about my hatred for BoO and HoO - 'no detours you two' is still the cutest thing!!! - THE HUNTERS!! Thalia i missed you - good job Percy, you finally spent your sand dollar - Minotaur!! - 'dont i get a kiss for luck? Its kind of a tradition right?' Percy finds out he's gonna die and is out of fucks to give and honestly I support him - also Michael just standing beside these two while they're flirting like umm 👀 👀 while a monster army marches towards them, nbd - Annabeth taking Ethan's knife meant for Percy!!! Cause she just knows his weak spot without him even telling her! They literally invented love - Feral Percy is so scary omg, i love how well Rick incorporates the Achilles Curse in this novel, with the whole heightened weaknesses and stuff ans the parallels to Achilles arrogance being what killed him and Percy's loyalty, fierceness and protective instinct being his own heightened weakness - the fact that Percy is the one who inadvertantly kills Michael Yew tho, I'll never recover from that - the fact Hades offers Maria di Angelo a golden palace by the Styx like how Poseidon offers Sally a palace under the sea tho. Let's talk about that parallel - the entire talk with Prometheus is so so good - not me picturing young Luke hiding in the closet to get away from his mom when she has an 'episode' -i love callbacks in stories and all of the callbacks to the rest of the series in this book make me very happy (medusa, minotaur, the underworld, Rainbow!! My baby!!, Daedalus and more) - Percy summoning a wholeass hurricane against Hyperion - the Party Ponies! They're so chaotic, i love it - Dionysus! 😁 I can't help it, i love him - Percy absolutely losing it when he sees Sally and Paul asleep in the car 🥺 - Rachel telling Percy he's not the hero screws with him so much :( poor bb - although i really really love how Rick wrote this, it's so refreshing to not have one chosen one save the world, but a combination of people - the drakon, Silena and Clarisse make me cry - the Patrochilles references, im not okay - Annabeth giving up on Luke after hearing what he did to Silena and Percy telling her that doesn't make him happy 😭 that whole interaction makes my heart ache - Percy giving Hestia Pandora's pithos 🥺 - and Hades, Nico and the others coming for a final attack is so badass, i love it - listen im glad the og trio were the ones to confront Luke on Olympus but the fact Thalia got so close and then pinned by a statue of HERA makes me so sad. Ik her and Luke were finished and she coped by cutting him off completely and giving up all hope but i would pay money to know what they would have said to each other to say goodbye - Ethan 🥺 - Poseidon joining the fight against Typhon is so cool, such a great scene - 'PEANUT BUTTER!' - Annabeth you brilliant badass you - RIP Luke, you werent great but you werent the worst either - the gods just rolling up seconds too late, wondering wtf happened in Olympus and who the dead body is - the chapter where the Olympians meet and give out rewards is one of my absolute favourites (again i am incensed we didn't get anything like this in HoO) - will Percy turning down immortality ever not make me scream in glee? No? Alright then - Annabeth being relieved like Percy was relieved at the end of Titan's Curse tho - oh Hermes :/ - its so hard reading all this and knowing what comes in HoO... Like it's such a cathartic, earned and mostly happy and peaceful ending and then HoO comes along and undermines it all - aww Rick let Paul see Olympus somehow pls, he deserves it, he killed a dracanae - (i would also love to see it) - Percy being more upset Rachel took his pegasus than her going to Camp and possibly dying, lol, priorities dude - i honestly think that Rick had other ideas for the second Great Prophecy and how things would go down in BoO, cause the prophecy like... Barely applies to BoO, Doors of Death are in book four, and explabations of it is all so unclear when Rick is usually pretty good with that stuff - PERCABETH - lol Percy complaining about privacy when he and Annabeth are caught kissing literally in the middle of the very open and public dining pavilion, okay - BEST UNDERWATER KISS OF ALL TIME - that's it and im a glass case of emotion - very happy to say that this series remains my favourite of all time 💖

If anyone ever wants to come gush about anything Riordanverse related feel free, because as you can see I have a lot of thoughts about it all

#lau rereads pjo #the last olympian is my favourite book for a REASON #honestly every line is killer #so much subtext to read into #the dialogue #the relationships are dialed up to 11 #every character is so on point #the battle strategies too? are just so interesting?#I just adore it #Tay don't read any of this yet cause it's all spoilers #alright I'm gonna go write fic to express these feelings now #tlo #the last olympian #pjo #pjato #percy jackson

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thy-shroom-anon · 6 years

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Sincerely Three x Reader HC: Catching you singing

I decided to do this realizing I fucking love Headcannons but want some of my own. Like, my own specific takes on it. I’ll take requests if you have any. Dirty too cause I legit have zero filter;;

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Connor:

•Now Connor wasn’t sure what to expect lol

•He had known you for a year and knew how obsessed you were with musicals

•He knew since he met you that year ago

•Heathers this, Hamilton that

•"Did you see what so and so posted today!?“

• It drove him insane

•But like, he was a good boyfriend so he found it adorable when you go on a tangent

• One day he asked if you ever thought of musical theater?

•Or anything singing related

•You would just flush and shake your head

•"My voice is too shitty for that.”

•He disagreed with you and said it’s the cutest thing

•He hadn’t really actually heard you sing

•Only times is when you two were screeching sings badly on purpose

•Mostly shitty screamo

•One day, he was coming to surprise you with a MCR vinyl

•He knew you wanted it for awhile and had been dying to get it

•You had a knack for collecting those things •Anyways! He knocked on the door and your mom came out

•"She is upstairs. You can go right in ahead.“

•So he nods and walks up the stairs.

•Now you were unaware of his presence, still twirling in your room, Seventeen in the background, singing it as you danced with a imaginary JD as you were Veronica

•Unbeknownst to you, he was right outside your door listening

•He’s like, "Who is this? My girlfriend?”

•He had forgotten what he was doing as he listened to you sing Veronica’s part of the duet.

•When it had finished he had already opened the door and was watching you as you flopped on your bed, sighing with a huge smile. You fucking L O V E D musicals

•He cleared his throat and you shot up with a shocked expression while heat rose to your cheeks

•He just chuckled and tossed the Vinyl at your feet next to you on the bed

•You looked at it, smiling widely as you grabbed it with both hands. You were fucking e s t a t i c

•He sat down next to you and pecked your lips as you bounced with happiness

•You thanked him repeatedly as you tired to hold back from squeezing it and breaking it

•Oof, back to the HC

•He wrapped his arms around you and hugged you.

•You hugged him back with such a force you could have broken him

•It was such a sweet moment

•Untill he whispered in your ear, “You have to sing to me sometime.”

•You smacked him so hard as he chuckled. He fucking eavesdropped on you!!???

•Now he constantly asks you to sing a duet with him even though he is shit at it.

•He just loves hearing your voice

Evan:

•Evan knew how good your voice was.

•You would quietly sing around him when you would cuddle and you thought he was asleep

•They were always such sweet loves songs that you thought fit him and yours relationship so well

•He would fluster so much at this but you could never see

•One day, you and him were at a park on a picnic date. Under the trees, Ofc

•He had a particularly bad day and was under stress so it was slightly last minute

•You knew these things made him happier

•So out of the blue when you were watching the sun set, he popped up with the question;

•"W-will you sing to me. Like-like you do when you thi-think I’m asleep.“

•You blush feeling embarrassed he knew that you sang to him when he was asleep.

•You squirm uncomfortable from the new found fact

•He quickly frowns and shakes his hand.

•"I-I’m sorry! You do-don’t have to. It’s just…. you voice is… really nice.”

•You sit in the silence for a bit before giving a small smile and taking a deep breath.

•It started very quietly

•You were singing I’ll Cover You Reprise in of course, a slightly faster pace and in a way where you can actually hit the notes.

•He slowly looked up to meet your face as he heard your voice

•It slowly rose in volume as you gained confidence. Your eyes were closed in fear of watching him watch you sing

•He softly smiled as he took in everything he loved about your voice. He slowly rocked in his seat as he listened.

•You finally finished and had a blush on your cheeks as you met his gaze

•You melted at how soft his gaze was as his face was slightly red.

•He wrapped his arms around you in a hug, knocking over your drink.

•He noticed and panicked as he apologized for, “Destroyingyourblanketohgodohmygoodnessimsorry!”

•You just snorted and said it was okay.

•after that day, whenever he was sad he would have you sing to him

•Sometimes he would join in. And god was his voice beautiful

Jared:

•He didnt know your capabilities though he knew you sang.

•He just never knew how amazing it was when you really tried to hit all the notes. Most times with him you would just sing, not caring how bad or good you were cause it was fun to be ironic with Jared

•When he found out he was so surprised

•You had been minding your own business

•You were listening to your music while cleaning your room and smiling softly as you shook your hips to the beat of What Is this Feeling

•He just like, “What??”

•He is like, falling more for you everyday

•Like Goddamn make this girl stop before she breaks me

•He was so caught up in your voice he forgot why he was there

•He got Mario Kart for the Nintendo switch and was gonna play it with you

•He burst into your room screeching “LOATHING!” Cause he has no boundaries and was gonna ruin a perfect moment

•You had screamed so fucking loud you were sure that everyone in the neighborhood heard you

•You growled at him and smacked him upside the head

•He just said, “Hey. At least I didn’t tease you about how amazing your voice is.”

•You just scowled and crossed your arms.

•He out his hands up in defense before showing you the game.

•You screeched equally as loud as the scream with excitement as you snatched the game tackling him in a hug almost knocking him over

•He laughed as he struggled to breath as you squeezed him

•"okay, okay. Your literally killing me.“

•You let go and thank him once more for the game.

•You two go downstairs and play the game for several hours till your mom finally says to shut the fuck up and sleep.

•Gotta love moms

•He goes home and you go to bed

•Aftermath: He will occasionally call you and tell you to sing to him. You just groan and oblige as he persuades you

•He totally hasn’t recorded you without you knowing?But who am I to tell?

•He had somehow convinced you to go into theater and it is one of the many best things the nerd has done for you cause you absolutely LOVE it!

•You thank him every day since for it.

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This was my first one so cut me some slack

#dear evan hansen #Connor Murphy #Jared Kleinmen #Evan Hansen #Headcannons #Sincerley Three #Reader insert #Gender neutral #Singing #Musicals #Dear Evan Hansen Imagins #Imagins #Dear Evan Hansen Headcannons #HC

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vee-blackwell · 7 years

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i got a bout of depression that hit tonight from not being distracted enough to avoid getting in my own head and i think i had too many bad thoughts about who i am VS family acceptance

my queer things, my interest things, my (lack of) set goals.

it hurt a lot to try and explain transgender things to my gramma while watching I Am Jazz, when talking about nonbinary people using “they/them” pronouns, she essentially said that if you dont use he/him or she/her then you have no gender “so you’re just nothing” which was just too close to home (literally) for me to hear as someone who doesnt feel anywhere close to any definition of gender, and am definitely not enough % to feel comfortable going on the male side of the binary.

that’s the hard part of that. it seems like it would be easier to tell her i’m bisexual or something (another term that doesnt really match me, but explaining asexuality or the differences between pansexual and bisexual self-identities is another thing thats hard to do with an 86 year old woman). but then what if it changes how she asks me about anyone i hang out with or makes weird assumptions about my relationships?

but at the same time, in watching this show with her, where she’s trying her best to be open-minded and learn about transgender people via watching I Am Jazz, she starts asking me to explain things in the show. not in a negative way, again, shes trying to understand which is more than i could hope for other 80+ year old grandparents. but then she asks me how i know so much about transgender people and issues they face when its things she doesnt expect people i know in real life, close to me, to have dealt with yet. and i have to play the “Educated Ally” instead of the “Depressed, Closeted Transperson” and hope she doesnt go from asking about my friends that are out to wondering about me. because it just makes me fearful of being in another time period of living in an abusive and unsupportive / negligent household where i never feel safe and im constantly arguing with my family. and i dont need that, or even to feel like im risking getting to that point again

i at least want to feel like i wouldnt be kicked out of the house and become homeless, or stop getting money from my family if i came out at all... but how many other transpeople had the same thoughts and were totally wrong? my mom who watched some of the show with us today almost immediately misgendered one of the transgirls on the show, talking about how **she (i dont want to misgender even by quoting my mom) clearly didnt have hormone blockers as long as Jazz because **her voice had changed. and it’s like, alright, she uses a feminine name, looks like any other normal high school girl, and has been working to try and get her voice to pass better, and it’s still so easy for ignorant people like my mom to pick up on that one thing they feel doesn’t fit right and just misgender someone immediately. and it’s worrisome. because i know how easy it is for “the average adult” around my mom’s age to miss the point entirely on how someone works to transition and making their own personal choices

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im just queer and tired and fearful. my mind screaming at me “do SOMEthing” every time i wake up is like the echo of a broken record player that’s playing somewhere i can barely hear it. so i do something. i get a food. i grab a game. i grab my phone for games. i grab a video, or a game tutorial, or ANOTHER computer game, or i go on social media sites. and i do all these empty “SOMEthings” to mute the bad thoughts like the ones above. the ones that both overwhelm me into submission and also make me numb to any emotions.

i get bored of the phone game, the magickarp jump cooldown timers are all that’s left.

i get bored of harvest moon, after realizing that i was 1 floor away from the bottom of the mines last time i get frustrated. do i go back for it again and make the long boring trek, or do i go back to grinding cooking recipes so i can finally make that god damn tempura meal? each day passes as quickly or as stagnantly as i please thanks to my emulator. freeze time and do my daily farm chores, use the inventory item dupe glitch to keep stocked every gift item i need to give everyone, show everyone on the local islands my pets for bonus friendship points, unfreeze time so that the one fisherman character will finally show up to talk to and i give him his daily gift and show him my dog, i go fishing with frozen or unfrozen time as i choose. the day is done. time for the next one.

i get bored of the computer games that both tantalize me into playing them because i love them and want the mental stimulation, yet the other screens beckon to me stronger, and i sit on the 3 blue hellsites, toggling between them in mixed intervals.

i get bored of neopets, because it is after midnight and its the 3rd day in the row i forgot to do my dailies. god DAMMIT i’m never going to get trudy’s shitty 30 day bonus spin for those 100k neopoints if i keep this up. i go onto the help boards, and bump up the lottery board. copy and paste my old post, add the moneybag emoticon and congrats the winners. short list gives the UNs. long list gets generalized. the regular group of lottery players and bumpers congratulate and recognize each other, making the odd chat message about their lives. this is as far as i chat on the neoboards now because i have no social energy otherwise to talk to other neopets friends about how life is still depressing, and trying to speak around the child filters and character limits.

i go to my mom’s room, its hard to predict if she’ll be home at 5 pm or 8 pm or 11 pm or gone to her shitty boyfriend’s house. it had been GTA V. then crash bandicoot warped (ps3 port). and now skyrim with the DLC. i play it as i spend my life, there are markers telling me where i should go for quests to progress, yet i wander aimless around the world finding something more interesting to explore until i finally remember what i meant to do. my mom comes home, and i ask if she wants me to get out so she can sleep. she says its fine, and leaves the lamp on shining on her bed. it becomes after midnight, my gramma scolds me for staying in there when my mom is sleeping. while i agree, my hyperfocus is hard to break, and it still takes me more time than it should to simply save and quit in the middle of my doing nothing of importance in the game that i play for the middle of my doing nothing of important in my life.

i eat wherever i spend my activity. TV tray by my bed at all times now, my propel bottle sways like a top heavy asshole everytime its moved. the tissue box takes up space for food, but everytime i move it on my bed its either in the way or not close enough to use when i need it. my nose is still almost ready to bleed from the dry summer air. im still dehydrated because i lack the ability to remember to drink the juice, milk, or propel bottles within arms reach.

it’s 3 am, or probably later. i ask joey if it’s time to sleep. i take my melatonin, we both brush our teeth and say goodnight. am i lying to him again this night, and apologizing and saying i’ll do it for real? this could happen twice before the guilt takes over and i either cave and do it for real, or stay awake focused on my daily nothingness distractions.

on the days its 5 am or later, my mom wakes for work. we talk about the cat. we always talk about the cat. sometimes she says her work is shit and that shes in pain. things that are obvious. she leaves for work and says goodnight to me in the hopes i go to sleep soon.

i sleep. around 11 am to 1 pm is around the time i get woken for my medications. anxiety, depression, birth control pill (1 daily for 3 weeks at a time). i have to eat and drink with it, so its something simple. on bad days i fall back asleep for over an hour. like a sloth, i drag the tray of food to me, resting the plate or bowl on my bed to eat as i stay laying down. sitting up means i feel more obligated to stay awake after this. i finish the food, drink, and my pills, and shove the tray back against my closet, and lie back down in bed forcing myself to sleep.

it becomes anywhere from 3 pm to 5 pm, on bad days its 6 and later. i lay in bed after waking up maybe two or three other times from sweating, or tossing and turning with bad dreams or being awake enough that i could get up, but unmotivated or too depressed to get up and have to be awake for that much more time. i crawl to the computer first, turning off my nightly music and going online on steam. just so whoever cares knows im awake. i go adjust the thermostat as both i need as well as what wont freeze my gramma to death (or at least to complaining for hours). i say that i dont know what i want for food. she offers a suggestion, and i say sure. i return to my room until food is brought to me, and i grab juice or milk to have with my meal. it probably gets cold if it was meant to be eaten hot.

i get a food. i grab a game. i grab my phone for games. i grab a video, or a game tutorial, or ANOTHER computer game, or i go on social media sites. and i do all these empty “SOMEthings” to mute the bad thoughts like the ones above. the ones that both overwhelm me into submission and also make me numb to any emotions. the pattern repeats.

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this has been Vee Life Simulator. sorry. no refunds.

#vee's pathetic little life #i'm too tired to tag much #it's just depression talk so #you know. avoid it if you want #long post #text heavy

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mdd3k1 · 7 years

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Quit Smoking with eCigarettes

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Quit Smoking with eCigarettes

Quitting smoking… but Quit Smoking With eCigarettes? Here is my story on how I did it…

It’s one of the hardest things to do. I began smoking when I was 17. Believe it or not, my first cigarette was offered to me by my stepdad. Don’t get me wrong, I had attempted to smoke a little bit but never really got into it. When I was 17, I was drinking a beer (if you know my addiction story, this was the time where it all began), and he offered a smoke. Man, that nicotine was so soothing.

But when I hit around 26, I began to notice a lot of health issues. Sure, some of it was due to the bad diet, too, but I could start to see in my eyes that I was aging. I knew that this was too young. I had to do something about it. So I vowed to start with quitting smoking.

This wasn’t my first attempt to quit. I tried the nicotine patches at the age of 19. They didn’t do anything. I bought the gum at age 20 and that didn’t help much either. No matter what, it just didn’t cut it. I realized that it was more the mental addiction of having something between your fingers and the feeling of relief after each puff that made me want to continue smoking.

So from age 20-26 I continued to smoke. I was never a heavy smoker. I only smoked 8-10 cigarettes a day. I never understood how someone could really smoke more than that because you really only needed a cigarette after waking, after each meal, and before bed. Those are the times you crave them most, unless stressed. Now obviously, if you also know my story, you know that I was hooked on quite a bit of drugs. On heavy drug days, my smoking spiked up a bit, but on average, it never really peaked past 10 a day.

Still, by age 26, I knew that something had to give. I was already beginning to research supplements and organic food. I knew that smoking had to give. Even though I began to notice occasional health warnings, I still couldn’t cut out the smoking. So by age 27, I began to take supplements and improve my health by creeping organic food in my diet. Still, the smoking was too hard. Occasionally, I would have a drink, too, and I would always have to have that cigarette!

By age 28 I was starting to see a lot of people smoking the eCigarettes. I figured I might as well give it a shot because there was a place down the street that opened up near me that sold the nicotine flavored juice. At this point, I was playing a lot of basketball with a good friend of mine and the smoking was holding me back a little bit when it came to the endurance. I hopped online and did some research and came across a company called Blu. They sold the flavor, the eCig charger and battery, etc, all together in a single package and then you just bought the juice online. I figured that this was perfect because they looked like a regular cigarette! My brain would still consider me smoking a cigarette because the size was the same, the way I held it would be the same, and the smoke would still be inhaled and exhaled like a normal cigarette, too!

Needless to say, it helped a ton! Especially at the beginning. I smoked and felt much better smoking them instead of a regular cigarette. No matter what people say, I dont think it was in my mind, I really felt better smoking the eCig instead of a cigarette.

By age 29, I had eliminated cigarettes completely and was 100 percent smoking eCigarettes. I eventually moved away from the Blu and tried to smoke one of the ones where you press the button on the side (shown below) with the battery underneath.

But something happened at the age of 29. I was able to smoke the eCig in my cubicle at work because the fact that eCig really don’t give off an odor and if you blow them at the ground then it disintegrates into the air before anywhere really notices. Due to being able to smoke it at work in my cubicle, I was noticed that I was smoking it more than if I was smoking cigarettes!

Soon after, my Grandma, who had raised me most of my life, passed away. She never liked me smoking. I knew that I had to do something to quit for good – in a sense, for her. A month before she passed away, I had finally joined a gym to commit to working out full time and I used this as an opportunity to phase out the eCigarette. I told myself that I really need to quit before I turn 30 years old. That it would be the biggest 30th birthday present that I could give myself. I had spent my entire 20’s smoking something and I knew that needed to come to an end.

So what I did is I decided that the best way to quit was to eliminate times of the day where i would normally hit it. Like stated before, I first needed to cut out the smoking at work. Then i needed to cut out the times of the day where I needed it most. (After meals, upon waking, before sleeping). So I did just that…

I eliminated smoking it at work by keeping it OUT of arm distance. I told myself that if I needed to hit it, I would have to get it out of my bag. This helps more than you know.

I then eliminated it before the gym and after the gym. I was running heavily and that was justification enough that if I smoked it before or after those times then my running would be tampered with, and running was becoming my new drug of choice.

Then, I stopped hitting it before going to bed. Why need it before bed? There was no reason and it didn’t impact me falling asleep. No need, so I dropped it.

Now, I just needed to tackle after meals and upon waking. I would only smoke it in the car on the way to work, not at home when getting ready. So I just simply told myself that I didnt need it in the car and that if I wanted to smoke it, I could always smoke it at work. Now this part was important – the times where I did still smoke it (on the way to work in the morning and after meals), I would usually take 3-5 hits of it. I told myself that since these were the toughest parts of the day to drop, I would start by hitting less.

On the way to work, i started just taking a single hit, and a BIG ONE! It was enough.

Same thing after meals. I would just take 1-2 hits after each meal, and that was good enough for me!

Before I knew it, after doing this for a couple months, I found myself not even thinking about it anymore. After eating, I simply didn’t think about it. If i did remember, then I would go ahead and hit it as normal. Same thing in the morning. In fact, there was a few days I totally forgot about it and left it at home!

Before I knew it, just a month before my 30th birthday, it was over. I simply didn’t need it anymore. I would go days without thinking about it and would still occasionally take a hit, but my body and mind no longer needed the nicotine. I also attribute this to the fact that I was working out heavily at the time, and I believe that running became my new addiction. But there is no question that eCigarettes helped me quit and gave me the avenue to quit. After all, do you think I would have been able to do the same thing with the same routines with an actual cigarette versus an eCig? Probably not.

What a 30th birthday present I gave myself!

And you can do it, too!

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Quitting smoking… but Quit Smoking With eCigarettes? Here is my story on how I did it…

I eliminated smoking it at work by keeping it OUT of arm distance. I told myself that if I needed to hit it, I would have to get it out of my bag. This helps more than you know.

Then, I stopped hitting it before going to bed. Why need it before bed? There was no reason and it didn’t impact me falling asleep. No need, so I dropped it.

On the way to work, i started just taking a single hit, and a BIG ONE! It was enough.

Same thing after meals. I would just take 1-2 hits after each meal, and that was good enough for me!

What a 30th birthday present I gave myself!

And you can do it, too!

Questions? Let me know!

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Quit Smoking with eCigarettes

Quitting smoking… but Quit Smoking With eCigarettes? Here is my story on how I did it…

I eliminated smoking it at work by keeping it OUT of arm distance. I told myself that if I needed to hit it, I would have to get it out of my bag. This helps more than you know.

Then, I stopped hitting it before going to bed. Why need it before bed? There was no reason and it didn’t impact me falling asleep. No need, so I dropped it.

On the way to work, i started just taking a single hit, and a BIG ONE! It was enough.

Same thing after meals. I would just take 1-2 hits after each meal, and that was good enough for me!

What a 30th birthday present I gave myself!

And you can do it, too!

Questions? Let me know!

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