#to just pretend it doesnt matter at all

[the-last-dillpickle]

Im struggling with how to exactly word this, but I think something that's bugged me about trek Captain/crew-member ships is how unseriously that aspect is considered. As in, the ethics and consequences are almost always under explored and under discussed. I think it's fine to write a Spirk fic where they're happily and openly married while being Captain and First Officer. But realistically? One of them would have to transfer and that would probably be whoever is lower ranked. There might be an investigation even into how the relationship came to be. There is so much power imbalance in a relationship where one of you can order the other one onto a suicide mission. I don't care if the other is CMO and can order the captain on medical leave. The relationship wouldn't be allowed so long as one is in a position of direct authority over the other. What if they get into a fight and now there's petty interpersonal drama interfering with workload assignments? What if the partner gets preferential treat, or the opposite--treated more severely in order to prove a point about the relationship not interfering with work, or just as a straight up point of controlling the other? You can't count on people to simply be professional bcuz they might not even be consciously aware that they're treating their partner any differently. It's just something I'd like to see considered more often, especially in fics--how to keep your relationship from interfering in your work, the threat of Starfleet Command finding out, and the consequences when it does.

#i know ive seen at least one sprk fic like this #which is good. i hope there are others like it. but this post isnt really about sprk lol #i just think its a little bit unfair to the characters bcuz they are sf officers first and foremost #this would be a HUGE hurdle to them #something about it feels. dishonest to the characters almost #to just pretend it doesnt matter at all

[finewhateveritsgojoverig]

in less than a year and a half the italian government has: worsened the living conditions for immigrants (which were dire already) with new "reception centers" that is really just a fancy word for a place that is worse than a jail; continued to let hundreds of people die at sea or deport them back to libya; cut the funds for public healthcare and education; favored the gentrification of historical city centers; suppressed and silenced protests for palestine all around the country; called for the arrest of peace activists; turned a blind eye on the inhumane conditions of an italian antifascist activist detained in hungary; called for a daspo to all singers (lmao???) who express their dissent (or literally anything even vaguely political that doesnt align with their ideology) on live, PUBLIC state tv; put forward their plan to leave the south in utter subservience to the north and made the police beat up the southern mayors and governors who protested against it; made the police beat up the students and activists who protested outside RAI (state tv) buildings in several cities against its shameless censorship of those that speak up about palestine, as well as its continued support of the zionist narrative through which the news are filtered; done absolutely nothing to mitigate the embarrassingly high percentage of deaths in the workplace or the even more absurdly high percentage of femicide.

and now they're trying to pass a law that criminalizes any critique of israel by lumping up antisemitism and antizionism in the same category so that if you even dare say hey maybe we should stop killing palestinians you could be legally prosecuted.

but they opened a few parks so i guess they also did good things

#im so tired and angry and i wish i could articulate just how much #but there arent enough words in the english vocabulary #they dont even pretend anymore #its all out in the open for everyone to see. and it doesnt matter how many people protest. and A LOT of people are protesting #they just beat them down and pretend like its not happening #italy tag

[oceanwithouthermoon]

unpopular opinion for this area of tumblr, beware+also abuse talk warning

admittedly, all the super casual bashing of saikis dad makes me really uncomfortable, like i dont totally disagree but i wish we didnt just all do it in the middle of other completely innocent headcanoning 😭 its never tagged or warned..

my personal opinions on kuniharu are not as extreme as some are on here, like i think he sucks but i dont think hes a genuinely bad person, he was just thrown into a situation he didnt know how to handle.. he reminds me of those parents who prepare to have a baby and get pregnant on purpose, but then the baby has a disability and suddenly, everything changes.. because they didnt prepare for this unlikely scenario, but it happened anyway, and now they have to figure out where to go from here.. kurumi and kuniharu BOTH made mistakes and didnt handle their genius/psychic kids in ways they shouldve, but its because they werent prepared for it

#i think im mostly just trying to point out how people pretend kuniharu is the devil and kurumi is a saint #but did kurumi ever defend her kid? no.. she treated him in a similar way.. #shes a great mom imo but she really isnt much better than him and if youre gonna bash him you kinda have to bash her too #and do you think she ever told kusuke off when she emotionally abused her other son and called him a monster? no #she didnt #and eventually kusuke turned to physical abuse #because she never tried to tell him it was wrong #and yk what #i dont really think kusuke is a bad person either #i think he learned all of his crappy coping mechanisms from their parents #but he took it way further #nobody else hurt kusuo like kusuke did #physical abuse is never excusable but both kuniharu and kusuke think kusuo is above that kind of thing #they think he's invincible so it doesnt matter #which obviously isnt true but thats kinda also what he WANTS them to think.. so.. #so all three of them kind of suck but its because their situation sucks #lmk if u disagree cuz i think we should hear each other out #saiki k #tdlosk #kusuo saiki #the disastrous life of saiki k. #kuniharu saiki #kurumi saiki #kusuke saiki #meows post

[lesbianwithchainsaws]

I am thinking I might actually use they/them and it/its pronouns along with she/her?? ???? ?????

#i mentioned something like this a little while ago already but got kinda nervous and then pretended it just didnt happen lmao #idk why i get anxious about this stuff. it literally doesnt matter at all #especially on this website #idk i get overly nervous about everything but yeah i think that could fit. at least for now #im worried that I'll change my mind in the future and will feel bad about it tbh #but for now its fine? i think #okay fuck it I'll just do it #who cares what gender or pronouns i have (<- i care. i am an easily scared being) #okay fuck it #im having a whole ass conversation with myself here just trying not to overly worry about things that dont matter again

[calkale]

not to bring this up AGAIN but i cant believe they did that to ilsa

#watching fallout and im trying to pretend mi7 doesnt exist but 😬😬😬😬 #literally how do you ruin a character that badly #shes my fav mi character and one of my favourite female characters in general cause shes written so well #and then that happened 🙄 #obviously mcq doesn’t deserve the hate he got for it but also i hope he knows what he did was shitty #it doesnt make sense story wise #its a horrible ending for her character #and its even worse if she comes back in the next movie thats awful writing no matter what #AND he just replaced her with some generic female character who had to be saved countless times throughout the movie 😐 #not to mention the way he and tom talked about ilsa and how much work they put into her character in rogue nation and fallout #I DONT GET IT WHY THROW THAT ALL AWAY #im so upset #mi #ilsa faust

[silviakundera]

I just love those Story of Kunning Palace novel snippets where Jiang Xuening gets to display that ruthless determination isn't something she left in the past life. Nooooo don't plot insurrection with XW noooooo you're too sexyyyyy

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Xie Wei had already read the secret letter, and asked her calmly, "Tomorrow I will leave for the border, can you go with me?"

Jiang Xuening looked at him. "What are you going to do, sir?"

Xie Wei narrowed his eyes and said, "If you don't know what to do, why did you come today?"

Jiang Xuening didn't speak.

Xie Wei said, "The Eldest Princess is not dead. When the war starts next spring, she will become a hostage, which will put the dynasty in a dilemma. The court's money and supplies are just beginning to move, and preparations are still urgent. They will never go to war in advance to save someone. You want to welcome the princess back, or welcome back the princess's coffin, it's all in this thought."

Although it was indeed expected, when Xie Wei said these words, Jiang Xuening still felt her heart tremble, and there was a feeling of being caught in the torrent——

Is there any way to welcome back the princess instead of her coffin?

She was full of emotions, closed her eyes, and clenched her hands tightly.

Xie Wei suddenly laughed. "Scared?"

Jiang Xuening gritted her teeth. "How could that be!"

Xie Wei was the big winner in the end, and now that Yan Lin is full of wings, even if he raises an attack in advance, there may not be no chance of winning! What's more, how could she just watch the princess be given to death?

She promised.

Hold that piece of homeland and welcome her back to the homeland!

Only…

Jiang Xuening slowly opened her eyes. "I promised the princess that I will not miss the appointment. But sir, have you really thought it through?"

Xie Wei's smile faded, he looked back at her, and said slowly, "I will not break my promise."

I don't lose faith in people either.

When Jiang Xuening heard these words, she was a bit dazed, because she didn't know who Xie Wei had made any promises to. Until a picture emerged from the vague memory, together with the voice that was almost forgotten by her in the past, it rang in her ears.

"When will the iron hooves of the Central Plains break through the Yanmen Gate and bring Her Highness back?"

"Soon, soon."

#how could that be #YES tell him baby #it is actually THE most jiang xuening thing to do #that she hitched her wagon to the winning side #thats just how my girl rolls #story of kunning palace #cnovel #ofc after this scene in the novel #XW completely salts his game #and pretends not to care #because he is a self-protective dumb ass #who doesnt know how to love (yet) #hmmmm the problem with the drama cutting out the 2 year separation #is that the protagonist used that time to raise money #and bank rolling this matter gives her a more equal standing #i mean yes they are putting all their careful plans at risk #to save the princess #they arent really benefiting from this side quest #and truly its For The Love of This One Girl™ #because she is changing hearts and minds #but regardless JX is bringing the money to get this shit done #she isnt just a damsel following along #she propels the climax like XW does #hand in hand

[malikselfindulgence]

Sorry for the uptick in system stuff Im lowkey struggling and need to see system positivity posts or I'll explode

#malik's rambles #okay i know my ass is gonna vent in tags rn so . tw for that !! #iwill never shut up i missed tumblr tags so much wow #itsnot their fault and like . like i dont want to blame them . but its so isolating being and living this way #ill always be grateful for them and I know its just my brain trying to cope and like !! its not their fault but this sucks so bad like wow #also doesnt help that besides how scared I am and how I just . wanna be normal . I feel like I sound insane to other people #it constantly feels like everyone is laughing at us and is just playing along with our “roleplay thing” because they dont wanna bother #and like !! im trying really really hard to be positive about it and just live as well as I can . all of us are !! but it makes me feel like #ridiculous . it feels like everyone'll laugh and think we're playing pretend. which shouldnt matter people will always be assholes !! #I dunno aough im rantingso hard rn . and masa2 wont share which is fine but imscared and worried and scared and aauahhggggggggg #ik the point of the disorder is to hide memories from me so i can function but like . man this suckss9 bad #okay enough of this . Imgonna watch monsters inc i love monsters inc

[slutdge]

somehow while ive been going through the unbearable torment nexus ive still been able to keep up with my album-a-day-for-a-year thing so far

#like yeah brother i wish i was dead right now but im not. somehow i havent killed myself so i keep checking out albums #but i dont wanna undermine that im in unbearable pain rn lmao #my therapist said that wasnt good for me to pretend #im very much still in a torturous life and i feel helpless cause i dont think i can ever escape #but at least ive had the motivation to keep up one thing yknow #or im just crazy and psychotic and this made no sense whatever im going back to my suffering hibernation now #at the very least being honest cant hurt even if it doesnt help all that much but im really at the lowest ive ever been my dudes #ive never been lower than this #im failing at all the aspirations of a healthy person but at least im keeping up on the album thing #i know that maybe doesnt seem significant to other people #but when the only thing i can do when i get off work so i dont die of starvation is get in bed #but i still make an effort to hold myself to this commitment #thats at least a tiny bit of light im trying to put in my life no matter how hard i just wanna lay down and die all the time

[abdlstuck]

he’s way too fucking cool for this!!

#abdlstuck #abdlstuck 2 #yeah its like 2 in the morning #this was going to be a very lazy sketch but then i was like oh lets add just a little bit of color #now the whole fucking thing is shaded GIRL HELP #dirk doesnt always let roxy help but when he does he tries so fucking hard to pretend he doesnt like it #its hard to let go and give the reins to someone else #but if theres anybody he would trust with that control it'd be roxy #letting her help is a big step on its own but it'd take a long time for dirk to be in a place where he can let himself just enjoy things #whether its a matter of feeling like he deserves to be happy or feels like letting go is a weakness it'll still be a struggle #i have a lot of feelings and thoughts about this and i could go on forever about the dirkroxy friend dynamic and the kink guilt complex but #if i start that we'll be here all night so just know i have many thoughts on this

[communistmeme]

I hate you LinkedIn I hate you "work-life balance" I hate you girlboss culture I hate you productivity I hate you 40 hour work week I hate you "how to prevent burnout" classes I hate you I hate you I hate you

#personal posting #the capitalism disillusionment is high today #i wish i could say something more meaningful but im just full of rage and dissatisfaction #i love the job i do and i think it's important #but corporate american culture is so disgusting #girly im not gonna be able to align my values to my work #my values include things that capitalism doesnt allow for! #i just hate it all!!!! #and im tired of pretending i even WANT to thrive in this system #i dont want to make a million dollars #i want the world to be a better place #i dont want to be a high performing executive #i want to do things that matter #and actually doing things that matter means getting paid like shit and treated like shit because youre at the bottom of the food chain #AAAAAAAAAAA #sometimes life feels like a constant nightmare with only brief reprieves where i can engage in love and truly living

[spaciebabie]

I saw your most recent post and want to ask about ALL your OCS. Tell me all you know. :3

okay well you could describe nebulous as a calm ocean surface. no storms on the horizon, just clear blue skies all around not a cloud in the sky. should you go beneath the surface there's still not much in the water. its clear, its blue, as unpolluted as you can get and still if you swim deeper its true that the water is clear but you may begin to worry for the lack of any sort of animal or plant life you've seen thus far.

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diving deeper the water begins to blacken and the sun is but a blip above your head. you've traveled far too deep and should probably resurface, but your curiosity eats at your mind and you continue to dive. soon the sun is gone and before you the earth is cracked open with magma and ash spewing out of large vents on the ocean floor. and still you feel you havent found what you're looking for.

a glimpse of something that might be a creature piques your interest further and ignoring the warning signs sounding off in your head you leave the safety of your ship to be swallowed by the sea. instantly, you're not prepared for the pressure exerted on your very fragile body. the surprise makes you gasp and mineral rich water fills your lungs. the water all around and within you now seems to embrace you in the kindest hug death could give. agony, regret, anger, sadness, they all swirl in your mind as you go silent into that good night. never to see the surface again

nebulous is the kind of person that once you get to know her and all of her flaws she swallows you whole and engulfs you in her misery. she might compare herself to a bright burning star, and it is true to the extent that she will burn you if you get too close.

it doesnt really matter what you mean 2 her. she only has one goal. trying 2 reach out and help her, help her heal and move on, will only end in tragedy. she cant think beyond the confines of her past and is stuck in an endless loop of drowning in her own misery and anger

#spacie splains #two talk #oc: nebulous empress #oc stuff #you: tell me abt your ocs! me: rambles on in a convoluted metaphor all ta tell you that She Sucks #thinking abt her a lot #shes like so. fucked up #shes at the bottom of the ocean. but she feels like she's up in the sky amongst the stars #she doesnt realize what she's doing is wrong or that there's something wrong with her #or maybe she does #maybe she just wants 2 ignore it #if she ignores it she can just pretend that everything is okay #like she usually does #i dunno shes just like. #walking despair in a pretty pink dress #she just hasta get this done. it doesnt matter if a few get hurt if so many others can be saved #it doesnt matter she tells herself. it doesnt matter. #did you know? nebulous is very suicidal!! #two is gonna seem like a very happy go lucky story at first and start getting worse around when nebbie shows up #she has 37 mental illnesses i love her sm #girlboss yaasss slay! #I FEEL CRINGE POSTING THIS CRINGE IS THE MIND KILLER I AM STRONG I AM BIG STRONG SPACIE #I MAKE POSTS ABT WANTING 2 FUCK THAT OLD MAN THIS IS SO MUCH TAMER BY COMPARISON

[effervescentdragon]

i honestly think people either willfully forget or they never knew in their silly headcanons about sebastian vettel as grid dad (🤮) or whatever, that this man won four fucking championship with red bull. we all know what tin can team is like. multi 21 is just one of the numerous war crimes he commited during his racing, this is a man who does not deal well with not winning at all, who is mean, and a crybaby about it, and is just in his core a bastard incredibly hungry for the win. and that part of someones personality is a core part, and it isnt something that goes away. its just something that he misdirected bcs it was either turn your attention elsewhere and find something other to consume you or combust from the inside

#i am so fucking sick of people being stupid about seb istg and apparently im going off #you can all pretend that his character development in the shitty aston is his defining feature #but it really. really isnt #it was just a product of adapt or perish #if he won with ferrari (and dont get me started abt that fuckery) yall would have fucking hated him #he literally couldnt stand the thought of racing for a subpar team for more than a couple of years. thats why hes retired #he cant divorce racing from winning #and when hes not winning. well. hes not gonna be racing either #so fuck off with your save the bees seb as the only part of him that matters #his character development was brought on by losing #which doesnt mean it isnt good. it just means that you cant disregard all else that he is #ANYWAYS #apparently i had some things to say #i aint putting this in the main tag fuck it #effervescentdragonrants #hallo weltmeister :)

[jigokuhana]

havent completely caught up with one piece, but i just wanna say yamato is a man until he himself says otherwise.

transphobes just mad they’re hot for a pretty dude w/ big tits.

#the fact that everyone uses male pronouns for him should be enough #but noooooo #its all ‘oh shes just pretending to be oden so shes pretending to be a man’ w/ these idiots #especially in youtube comments holy shit #like sorry guys ur just transphobic #in the end it doesnt fucking matter what the context is #respect yamato’s right to wanna use male prounouns until he says otherwise!!!’ #op #one piece #yamato op

[seithr]

rl chatterin in tags, dont worry about it just feel like talking about recent stuff. for those who dont care look at this birdthang i won on xiv then. my silly big bird..

#i dont owe explanation to anyone yeah i kno but i was going through something kinda rough the last little while and wanted to disappear #idk if it was at all noticeable but i feel like acknowledging it is healthier than feeling embarassed pretending i was Totally Fine. #alas im back and im... still just gona post on as normal. i can enjoy my Own Circle Of Enjoyment because im allowed to enjoy parts of life #even if i felt like utter death it doesnt mean i have to drag myself back to it once im finally crawling out. #it doesn't mean it didn't happen. doesn't mean it didn't hurt. but i dont have to reopen the wounds to prove something yknow. #i want to be alright and I will take these. when i feel i want to be happy i should not deny the pleasure of messaging friends #or little joys of any kind no matter how 'insignificant it is' next to my real stresses. you have to have something you smile about #and when you're ready to again why try and put it off? anyways. no idea if this makes sense. im tired but good i think. #i have to give myself little hype up shounen talks about joys and loves and life sometimes. its just gonna happen. #armour clanking #however i AM allowed to feel a little shy talking and being honest again so this is scheduled . hello. gootbye. ya boy hanging on 👍 #possibly employed boy at last even. probably contributed to getting better was that hope. ok no more sharing for real GOODNIGHT (MORNING)

[paalove]

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#conceding that bl isnt *worse* than other genres while still insisting that your favourite show isnt a bl isnt the slick move certain rbers- #-think it is lol #try to distance yourself from the rest of us all you like: only friends is a bl #i repeat: lmao and additionally die mad about it #JUST BC YOU PRETEND NOT TO BE TALKING ABOUT IT AS A MATTER OF QUALITY DOESNT MEAN YOURE SLICK #the superiority complex can be seen from space. anyway obnoxious reblog HIDDEN

[biblicalhorror]

You ever had a friendship where like you kind of faded out of each other's lives for a period of time and then re-bonded without ever really addressing the distance so now every time one of you mentions something you never told the other one during The Dark Time you both just have to be like "yeah, this massive thing that happened to me that we didn't talk about at the time but I totally wanted to tell you about but it felt like I couldn't talk to you but I'm also not gonna say it was your fault because I don't want to drive you away again but I know and you know exactly what it is we're not talking about"

#like. i dont blame her for what happened #she was going through a lot of bullshit and i was getting into my current relationship with our mutual friend #and the mutual friend in question it turns out had rejected her like a month and a half before asking me out #so like. things were weird and i dont blame her for not wanting to make a whole thing out of it #and i also get how it would be hard to see me like that with someone you had interest in #but also from my perspective at the time i started dating a boy i liked and my best friend just decided she couldnt be around me anymore #and even though i now have the full context and it doesnt hurt as badly theres still a part of me carrying resentment over it #ive stopped pretending this is relatable content and now im just using the tags on this post as my diary #like on the one hand i know this friendship is worth it because we're stronger than ever now #and shes gotten so much better about vulnerability and admitting i matter to her and communicating in general #but on the other hand it just keeps feeling like theres this elephant in the room that neither one of us has any idea how to address #and like i dont even know if it would be better if we did address it #like 'hey btw i know you had a crush on my now bf and tried to kiss him one time and then didnt tell me when he shrugged you off' #'i also know how much you tried to pretend it didnt hurt you but you distanced yourself from half your friends to avoid having to face it' #'and at the time it was rly frustrating because you acted like me being happy in a healthy relationship was a personal inconvenience to u' #'but i understand now and i forgive you and im glad you came back around eventually because i love you and i missed you' #or can all of those things just remain unsaid and understood