#tired as fuck its 5am

[b-sailor]

a nightly stroll through manta maria

#splatoon #coroika #army #b-sailor #i like to think this is one of blue's favorite maps.. he loves nautical things #he will point out the structures and name them and tell you their history and purpose #also i forgot i chantged the skintone i used for army after these pics so hes a lil whiter now... shudders.... erm guys a #am i seeing a ghost uhhh quivers nervously #its just that with this one. under specific lighting his ink color blends in too muhc with his skin and it bothered me a little... ahhh #tired as fuck its 5am

[herd-reject-arts]

Life goal achieved: Medical sterilization 🤪

#not vc sorry #my face #still a little fucked up on that anesthesia. feeling drunk. very tired. #had to drive all the way to Nashville. for some reason that's the only place in the state that does free tubals now.. #but its done and I'm back and my sister is a total G for driving me there at 5am and just getting back like 30 minutes ago

[analogboii]

lmfao I just saw someone who looks like law at my apartment complex??? lmfaooooo I was driving to leave for work and I just suddenly see someone in a black and yellow hoodie like he wore in sabaody and even hat a hat that kinda looks like the one he wears? it was like white and gray. not to mention his stature, hairstyle, and facial hair matched?? fucking wild. did a double take for sure like what the fuck lmfaoooo

#its also like 5am so i could just be tired #but he also wore his exact clothes almost #like the hoodie was the same except no jolly rodger obviously #fucking wild #one piece #trafalgar law

[cryptic-michael]

Okey finally after saying up til 5am, crying over cowboy hats and lack of western things, and laughing about funny pins and staring at 80s men.....

It is upone us....

The Southern Michael edits....with and without cowboy hat, with southern vibes and bluebonnets behind him, for he is a proud Texan who would have Bluebonnet things.

@misslavenderlady since it's her fic that created southern Micheal!!!! He was hard to work on but I love him!!!

There's all sorts here, I added a moon since he joked about "Nearly called moonbeam or moonchild" there's some lip balm in a tin I'm sure he takes his lips serious and also tin=pocket sized. Cowboy boots near him, gutair picks, a drawing of a Hare(popular wild animal here and all over I'm sure)

And of course, the blue bonnets behind him.

There's a version with the cowboy hat but I wasn't sure about it....

#lave come get your morning juice honey i worked hard harvesitng and sqeazing theses oranges for this juice #i worked HARD #i put soonmuch effort into this its ridiculous #i need sleep sooo bsdly #its 5am fuck me... #the lost boys #the lost boys michael #southern michael #edits #lost boys edit #heading for naptime now night night #the funny thing is i didnt even sleep in today....i should have been tired hours ago..

[toytulini]

god my executive dysfunction is so fucking Bad lately

#toy txt post #so many tasks and dont want to Do anything and like on the one hand Theyre Not That Hard it wont take THAT long i have plenty of time #on the other hand #it will take like 5fucking hrs and if it doesnt i will find a way to make take 5fucking hours and all this and i still havent eaten #enough for breakfast but like??? what am i supposed to waste energy on actually cooking something? #man i love eggs but i think maybe id actually struggle if i had chickens not cos id get tired of eating eggs but cos #all the low effort ways to consume eggs gross me out and the ways i like are not THAT high effort but its too high effort to be #an everyday thing for me :( #okay i have gotta stop thinking about the State Of Things. and figure out a nutrient dense thing to eat for breakfast thats quick and easy #and that i actually like to eat. but also i maybe want coffee so i should not have a clif bar. augh #IT IS 3PM. FUCK. I FUCKING WOKE UP AT LIKE 9!!!!! AND TOOK MY MEDS EARLY AND I STILL END UP NOT DOING FUCKING ANYTHING AT ALL TIL 3PM #i hate this i need to like #fully reset. i need to go to bed at idk. 9pm and wake up at like 5am and get dressed and go out fucking early i hate this!!!!! #i hate !!!! not fucking functioning!!!!!! aaaaaaaaaaa!!!!!!!!! #i need a therapist or smth but like one that will find a way to word shit so that it doesnt piss me off and make me want to pettily not do #things that would maybe help #agh #i have been trying to get better about #doing my physical therapy at least

[sickmachete]

whyyy am i up

#forced myself up for a long day on basically no sleep after pullin an allnighter #and was soo. tired by 7pm #well #now its 5am. the next day #i didnt sleep. #why the actual hell #is my insomnia so stubborn like fuck offf #i cannot keep doing this shit 😭 #txt #imf so tiredd #im so DUMB #ffhfbvhvbh #feel like every personal post i make is just about how im yet again not sleeping skjdhfdghdjska

[sludgeguzzler]

look i really dont mind having a pre t body with its little biological quirks but i have a limit and the limit is waking up at 4am with immense pain and a puddle of blood on my bed

#im probably most likely overhyping what t will do to my body but i cant wait till my periods stop #if they dont stop i will fr go after some way of stopping them im not kidding there is literally nothing good that i get from having them #its just. its just pain and blood and a constant reminder of how Woman i have to be. it makes me sad #like. all the good cramp medicine is like WOMAN PILL FOR YOUR SCHEDULED GIRL MOMENT OF THE MONTH [picture of a woman] #[venus symbol] [flowers] #and all pads come with th same thing too. like i get that its technically not harming anyone but please man cmon #my mood gets all janged up i cant think straight in the worst ways possible im always having breakdowns during them #and i have to deal with genuinely unbearable pain! and! a heavy flow! because my moms ovaries! are the most fucked ovaries ever! #hhg the only good thing i can think of is that if there was a death metal band of trans guys the lyrics theyd write would be sick #[hi this is me telling you im about to get a little gross so if stuff like this grosses you out uh. yeah] #like the gruesome symbolism of periods is pretty damn cool if im honest. i dunno #i genuinely really like the movements on normalizing periods and how they are not something to be ashamed of and happen with a lot of ppl #but. but. #it puts a lot of emphasis on how its a Woman thing when a lot of women (cis or otherwise) dont have them #and it excludes all the other non woman people who have them #re personal opinion but i think our image of periods really shouldnt be flowery beautiful woman moment that passes by in a blink. #i think we should talk about how it hurts and how it will suck a little too hard for some people and that #periods not always mean a symbol of feminity and fertility and other stuff (its 5am im tires) to everyone #like to me periods are misery and oain and dysphoria but i have a cis friend who sees her periods as symbols of her womanhood abd #*and like. shes not wrong but im also not wrong either #idk my head hurts and i wanna go bacm to sleep so bye #sg.txt

[kohakhearts]

so two weeks ago my kneecap spontaneously dislocated. no one really knows whats up with that. i get raised eyebrows and “but what did you do”s every time someone sees my splinted leg and asks what happened. so the orthopedist says this stays on for six weeks. then, you can do physiotherapy and we’ll hope this never happens again.

ok, great. so the good news is i CAN put weight on it. the doctor in the hospital gives me a pair of crutches, smiles at me like it’s not 6am and i haven’t been sitting in the er all night, says Just In Case. that’s great too.

the bad news?

i live on the third floor of a building with no elevator.

the building i work in has three floors and one elevator on the opposite side from where we’re located, which can only be accessed with a special key anyway. oh, and there’s construction going on this summer - so actually, the elevator isn’t even going to be accessible. plus, it doesn’t go to the third floor anyway, which is where my classroom is, at the end of the hallway.

that’s fine, though. i take public transit to and from work every day. at least the metro stations have elevators, right? well…14 out of about 70 stations in the city have them. i’m lucky that my local one does - the station i transfer at for work doesn’t have one to the platform i have to transfer to. the one i leave work from has three flights of stairs from the platform to the terminal.

so, keeping in mind i have to go up and down the stairs at work by the whims of my children and supervisors, and the staff room where i have to eat my lunch is on a different floor than my classroom, i’m averaging 20+ flights of stairs every single day. and cannot bend one of my knees, which is at the end of each day about as swollen as it was the day i dislocated it. my doctor prescribed me a month’s worth of naproxen, which my pharmacist was shocked by. she said, usually you only need this for a week. until the swelling goes down.

but the swelling is managed with some ice here and there anyway. so i’ll live. what really hurts is when i’m on the bus - because my commute to work involves two busses and two trains each way - and people trip over my leg because they just aren’t paying attention. i am at the mercy of kind strangers who notice and stand protectively over my leg, when i am lucky enough that upon boarding a bustling bus someone even gives me their seat. otherwise, i’m forced to stand on one leg to avoid putting too much force on my injured one each time we hit a bump.

(three times since my injury i have been the only person to offer my seat to another person with limited mobility on the bus, which every time the person in question has denied while everyone else’s eyes remain down and mouths remain shut.)

and lets not forget - i live in a city where everything is built atop huge fucking hills. at the top of one is the hospital. just below that, my university’s campus and student clinic.

am i just complaining for the sake of complaining? a little bit. but mostly i am thinking about how the inaccessibility around me is actively making it more difficult for me to heal from what is, spontaneity aside, a fairly common injury. i can’t quit my job. i need to attend my appointments. were it not june, i’d have to go to class. i am incredibly lucky to have friends who are willing to help with groceries and laundry, which would be particularly difficult for me due to the number of stairs i’d have to climb with my hands full, but if i didn’t - those are not things i could stop doing for myself and expect to survive for six weeks either, especially when i’m working 40 hours a week with 2+ hours of commuting a day.

anyway. maybe there’s not a lot the average person can do to help people with limited mobility. but giving up your seat on the bus is a pretty good first step and always has been.

#taylor.txt #life update for anyone even remotely interested #gee taylor why arent you writing anything. gestures rapidly. I AM SO FUCKING TIRED #i have to wake up around 5am every day to get to work on time cause i have a walking speed debuff of like 200% #500% on stairs If we’re being honest. god nerfed me for the summer which is SAD because my brain got nerfed for 2 full years and now this #dont take my tone to be indicative of anything though. in many respects im actually doing great and thriving #my real issues are The Brain Disorder which unfortunately i cant do much more than cope with until the end of summer #when im done work and i take my cat to the kitty dentist and put myself an extra few thousand in debt because her old owner couldnt be assed #to take her to the vet once in a while i guess. i dont know. guys my life is such a mess. dont even get me started on gallstones #(still waiting to get an mri done at the stupid hospital on the big fucking hill. but whatever right. ITS ONLY BEEN A MONTH) #but yeah im doing great and i mean that genuinsly like im not being sarcastic in spite of it all

[stuck-in-the-ghost-zone]

i love christmas in theory but its scary to me how little i remenber to do things

#im blaming it partially on work bc im so fucking tired when i get home but holy shit #ive had to write myslef multiple to do lists all over my apartment and i STILL dont remember to do things until last minute #what is happening to meeeee #i havent been sleeping well either like. consistently. for the last week and a half at LEAST #and im afraid to take melatonin bc it makes me sleep through my alarm sometimes and i cant risk thattttt #on my nightmare arc . in my memory loss era. its concerning but also. shrug emoji ! #ill be in the car like . i have to do x and x and x after work and then i get home and i KNOW i had those thoughts #but i cannot for the LIFE of me remember what they were. and then its 10pm and i need to go to bed because i wake up at 5am #and i dont actually fall asleep until 1am because of the mental illness so ive been running on 4 hrs of sleep for the last two weeks #im in pain theres so kuch stuff that needs done and i cant remember any of it

[heybobbygirl]

I envy people like my dad that can sleep for 10+ hours. Like bro my body forces me awake after 7 and if I wake up after 5 it’s practically impossible for me to get back to sleep. I recharge too fast and then I get sleepy again 2 hours before I can go to bed and wake up at the same time I got up that morning it is a STRUGGLE

#my body is so fucking stupid #its just like #hmmm hey guys you know what would be a great idea #if we made it so this bitch gets a full night’s worth of rest in 7 hours #and then gets tired after 15 #so she’s stuck either staying up until midnight or waking up at 5am everyday #genius right #bobble says shit on the internet again

[the-kipsabian]

insomnia and sadness cant get me if i stay up and write fic instead of going to bed, right fellas

#hello its 5am my eyes are a fucking mess but at least im writing #i dont know about quality but im pouring some feelings onto my screen and have been the past two hours now cause fuck sleep i guess #like said i cant feel sad and tired in my bed if i never go there hahaaa genius #anyways i dont know when this will see the light of day. its kinda cute but will probably require a lot of editing considering the time rn #its almost done tho. i promise i'll go to bed soon. idk about sleep but at least im gonna be in bed. yay #night is an absolute mess on main

[storm-of-feathers]

there was no spider and I was hallucinating the movement

#god my brain is bad #my brother in head you are my brain #your singular job is to keep me alive and safe and calm and you're so shit at that #i originally put a :( on this post bc :( that i had this issue at 5am holy shit im tired #but then i thought oh maybe a :) bc thank christity fuck there is no spider #i guess its a solid :| #a nice :| accompanied by I Am Going To Throw Up #and if i See movement im going to scream again #anyways. goodnight post rb incoming

[stinkrascal]

i hate my upstairs neighbors actually. why do they feel the need to host a wwe wrestling match directly above my bedroom every day at 2pm

#i know its my fault i went to bed at 5am and im now miserably trying to catch up on my sleep #but literally Why do they feel the need to jump around so much???? bro pick a spot and sit what the fuck stop STOMPING #im so tired and im the lightest sleeper ever so every movement they make i hear it and immediately wake up >:( #when our lease is up in march we’re gonna move into a townhouse/maybe a trailer so it’s quieter #and i’m so excited about that. i hate having upstairs neighbors #in other news! we put in our application for a cat at a local shelter yesterday 🥺 #his name is little turkey! (that’s not the name we’re giving him since we already have one picked out but the shelter named him that lol) #he’s a little grey cat and he looks so silly and loving 🥺🥺 i really hope they accept our application #i want a cat sooooooo bad #when we finally have our little furry friend i will cry so hard you guys 😭 this is all i’ve wanted for so long #a few days ago i was crying to my boyfriend about how i have no friends lol and then i was like #but if we got a cat at least they could be my friend 😭😭 #i think i accidentally hastened the process of finding and adopting a cat bc i cried about it. which yk no complaints here #i need a friend :( especially a little fuzzy friend :(((( #everyone say ty to mister stinkrascal for feeling bad for me and gifting me a cat lol #(he’s wanted one for a really long time too so it’s all good! we both love cats) #(i just think it’s funny that we’d kinda been sitting on it for a few weeks but then i cried and he immediately sent applications lol)

[stranger-awakening]

bro why is that shitty billionaire determined to ruin everything that makes twitter cool and unique

#like i don't go to twitter for essays part of the fun is seeing people use the 240 character limit to enhance a joke #what the fuck is a 4000 character limit im so fucking tired #sorry for this post btw its before 5am and every week i wake up to a new shitty update lmao #jess rants about life

[yuri-cosmos]

dude i was so fucking tired last night but im not taking any of that back he is in fact a soggy cardboard man

#mcyt #yes this is about double life #solidaritygaming #double life smp #dude have i ever mentioned how fucking stupid i am when im tired? its either unhinged or bullying hours between 1am and 5am #for instance #the other day i had a vague memory of stsying in isle of man when i was nine #so i did the natural thing of finding the exsct building on google earth #and the next night #i remembered florida the year before #so i found the exact house #based on walmart and mcdonalds locations #so theres that ig

[dragons-and-yellow-roses]

My boss: Alright, Monday will be your first shift alone as a shift lead!

Me: Cool! Is it the shift I'm familiar with and have worked as long as I've been here?

Boss: Nope!

Me: ... Okay, but will I at least be working with people I've worked with before, or even met?

Boss: Not at all!

Me: Alright. So uh... Are you going to tell me what the duties are for this shift?

Boss: No! You can learn on the job!

Me: So... How do you expect me to effectively run this shift?

Boss: Figure it out! But just so you know, if you mess anything up then I will express my extreme disappointment the next day.

#there are three main shifts where i work #5am-1pm which is the opening shift. its worked by one person. awhile ago he made me do this shift without telling me the opening duties #but i figured it out #then theres 7am-3pm which is when i normally work #and last theres 3pm-11pm #the closing shift. ive never worked it before #but its my first shift as a solo shift lead. and ill be leading people that ive never met before #im sure we're all happy about this situation #im going to have to entirely follow their lead and ill be open about that at least #i am not happy with my boss for putting me in this situation #and he swotched my schedule without checking with me #now i work 3-11 twice a week. i hate it #i am just so tired man and i dont have time or patience for this #i need to start another job hunt but also... i have good pay. i dont usually mind the environment. im good at it #ugh. kinda hate it tho ngl. i kind of want to get some shift lead experience because then i can put that on my resume #and maybe thatll gelp me get some better jobs in the future? #im so tired and i dont want to be here. i dont know anyone. i dont know what im doing. i hate working late shifts #my internal schedule is going to be so fucked. two days off. three days working 7am-3pm. two days working 3pm-11pm #fuck this fuck this fuck this #i used to work 1pm-9pm so i know late shifts suck for me. but who cares. #anyway gonna go die on my first 3-11 #on the bright side. two of my friends (both named Josh) are going on their first date today. im gonna get all the tea after my shift #so theres something to look forward to