#thsi is so insane to me

[youjustwaitsunshine]

entranced by whatever that rindt-marko-vettel web is. helmut marko and jochen rindt were best friends and raced together. sebastian vettel reminds helmut marko of jochen rindt. sebastian vettel is a great fan of jochen rindt. did seb become a rindt fan because marko told him stories of him. is marko obsessed with seb because he reminds him of his friend. i have so many questions. there's a story about rindt and marko driving to the german gp at the nürburgring and sleeping next to the track to get woken up by von trips and hill practicing in their ferraris the next morning and rindt looked at them and said to marko that that was what he wanted to do too, become a racing driver. cut to sebastian getting interviewed as a child saying "i would like to- no, i want to become an f1 driver"

#i refuse to acknowledge ecclestone #bc he was also a friend of rindt and they played backgammon together like he played backgammon with seb #but anyways what ive read about rindt he was a sweet kid and a rowdy teen and a ruthless racer #thsi is so insane to me #like marko was never soft on seb #but when he congratulated seb after his first ferrari win that was something he wouldn't have done for most other ex rb drivers #i need to understand PLEASE #helmut marko mention

[starjunkyard]

Good god ep18 s6. House dealing (god-awfully .Full disclosure. The episode opens with house drinking himself half to death with zero regard for himself to the point of unintentionally breaking into his neighbours house and passing out there) with wilson getting back together with his ex-wife while the patient of the episode grapples with his possibly reciprocated love for the woman he loves but cannot Have because she's engaged to be wed with his friend.......... Thirteen egging the patient on to tell her how he really feels but he genuinely Cant Bring Himself To because "my friend's a great guy . He's rich, smart, and he'll treat her well. Me-- I'd do everything I could for her. But it wouldn't be much. And she... she deserves the best." And the episode ends with house resignedly throwing away the sealed envelope that held all the dirt he hired lucas to get on wilson's ex wife to try and break them upOhhhhhhhh oh. OHHHHHHHHHHHHH Ouhhhhhhh. Ouhhhhh the acknowledgement that house would do everything & anything & more for wilson Give .all of himself To Wilson and it still wouldn't be enough because house is House. Because even at his best-- house would still be house and because of that house would never be able to give wilson what he wants What he Needs. Wilson doesn't. Need the misanthropic bastard he's been in love with for 20 years who bites and spits at any threat or sign of emotional intimacy or vulnerability. What wilson. Needs is a woman . A wife and two kids and a white picket fence because that's all wilson is

Its the foundation of his entire self that would bring everything else down with it if it were to crumble. The face that wilson has spent his entire Life honing and sculpting and perfecting to present as the Perfect Hardworking American Man and Son. The perfect husband and treasured son with his own big shiny department and a stainless-white doctor's coat and the Exact Man a woman would Need

What is wilson. who is he What is left of him if he is not needed by a woman; not needed nor wanted any longer by the world he's lived his entire life by to please. What is James Wilson if not what everyone else expects him to be

House is the antithesis to all of that. A man rough and abrasive as sandpaper who makes wilson selfish makes him emotional and stupid. Who encourages wilson to lash out and fight and get angry and stand up for himself and be the exact opposite of what he's worked his entire life to be. Instead of accepting and taking wilson's painstakingly pedantically constructed facade at face value House fucking. Crashes through the walls with a bulldozer. Snatches the mask right off of wilson's face and dangles it over his head goading wilson to go ahead; try and get it back

Wilson is so deathly terrified at the idea of breaking out of the norms he himself has walled himself into-- he can't Bear to think of any other future for himself that is anything other than wholly and completely unnoticeable average monotonous unextraordinary

and House is the exact opposite of unnoticeable average monotonous unextraordinary. House is the apple of Eden that rests on the other side of wilson's pristine-white picket fence. The object of Wilson's every true desire that simultaneously threatens to doom and tear down everything wilson regards protects worships as the one untouchable unquestionable unchangeable truth of his life

House loses before it even starts. No one can compete with that; not even house. By nature, house can never be what wilson needs. What wilson truly desires or wants or needs is another subject entirely, something im genuinely not sure wilson could even grapple with, let alone come to terms with canonically. I fully believe wilson and house are the loves of each other's lives but house will never be what wilson "needs" or "wants" no matter what he does or changes about himself. They love each other more than anything and they want each other and they cant live without each other but House-- intrensically, by nature-- cannot be what Wilson wants.

#Looks around #What was that you guys #Did you guys hear that... #Its not this serious it realy genuinly isnt except It Is. It genuinely is to me #Tch........ Baka normies like you.... U would never get the shit that im on 😏🤏... (<- Insane) #SOMEONE SEDATE ME #Theyre so. I cant believe what they put in this show dawg i feel crazy #Explicitly implying that hilson are in love and soulmates numerous times acknowledged by actors producers and the show itself #It makes my head hurt like how do i even deal with thuis #Im so tiredgoodnight. I hate this show #Fuck thsi worl d #johan being crazy about yaoi md #house md #hilson #gregory house #james wilson #character analysis #relationship analysis

[philzokman]

watched fleabag for the first time ive been staring at my wall for the last 10 minutes

#ITS HOSENUAKLJLFHDAJCM #GFJKHK #]SAFUJDOASILKF #straightup might make me read straight fanfiction for the first time in like 6 years #fjaknc anf #THE FUCKING #I LOVE YOU / ITLL PASS #THE CONFESSIONAL SCENE #IM HOLDING MY HEAD IN MY HANDS IM GOING INSANE #fleabag #i genuinely havent cried that hard since like dead poets society thsi si so fucked up #andrew sctot my beloved

[fayehartz]

random pip doodles :3

#south park #sp pip #not gknna tag too much bc ehhh #also the phighting obsession is going insane.. so ermm i have these little pips to keep me sane #<<i rlly wanna drww phighting art grgrggr i must draw hyperlaser......... #ok thsi isnt a good time to talk about phighting. goodnjgh ^_^

[basofy]

i hate that the horrifying context makes it hard sometimes to enjoy the sillier parts of this conversation cuz

FUCK YOU MEAN FLESHY PARTS SAY BREASTS!!!!!!!!!! SAY BOOBS!!!!!!!!!!! YOU VIRGIN

#i always live in shock from the fact that this convo is as equally frightening as it is absurd #THEYRE BOTH SO STUPID I HATE IT #HI IM GARTH THE SNOBBY ARTIST WHO IS ONLY SNOBBY WHEN I THINK OF MYSELF AS ABOVE SOMEONE ELSE AND IM GAY AS HELL I DRAW HOT MUSCLY MEN!! #AND JACKS DUMBASS EXPRESISONS HERE DONT HELP WHY DOES HE POG #i love them both they give me a headache i hate them #lisa rpg #ive been freaking out about thsi dialogue for like 10 minutes i dont understand why #sorry all my screnshots are green #note from next day i woke up but i also thibk by fleshy parts he just means everything that is weighty like #boibs and ass and the mass all over the body #he like fat girls confirmed........ #BUT STILL FLESHY PARTS IS TOO FUNNY TO SAY HE SPEAKS LIKE ME #i need to make a post about all my insane thoughts about this thibg eveb if no one reads it #lisa ramblings

[mothslimes]

i say all my art is personal because if it wasn't, then there was a process behind it, and that process can be analyzed and criticized. if it's just me, then you can't criticize it, because criticizing me is rude

#mik talks #^^^^AND I NEED TO CUT THAT SHIT OUT! #i am so obsessed with making insanely personal art i never stepped back and asked myself why even #i guess thsi si why. im scared of seeing flaws in my art but it comes naturally to see flaws in myself. when the art has flaws #its more comforting to just accept it reflects a flaw in me rathr than a flaw in how i work. something that can be criticized #mostly though. i like the thought that its all inside of me. that the world can not influence me. that i am who i am and my art is all me #^^^^ stupid tbh #i guess i have yet to actually meet. irl. an artist whose opinion i value. just because i dont value most artists i meet irl as people #because they dont treat me like a person for being mentally slow and stupid. #but i guess i dont have to value someone as a person to value them as an artist #much to think about #honestly theres like only a handful of people i value as human beings and the number decreases every day because i am scared #i am scared of being betrayed and disappointed. and i am scared of unpredictability. in my heart i truly am a different species than others #and i dont say this in a tumblr therian way but in a way where i feel like theres no way i will ever relate to any other human being beyond #surface level. i dont want to be like other people i want to be invincible and have my experience on a higher untouchable ground

[francarieq]

hi erm

i liked your picrew on that picrew chain ..

i l ike you ...

bye-bye ..

AAUAHA THSI IS SO ADORABL WOWOAHH!! TYSM SPOOKZ UR THE COOLEST EVER 🚀💥 I love the purple smsm!! THIS IS ACTUALLY SO ON POINT WHAT🗣️🗣️ ILYSM SPOOKZ GRAHAH💥💥🥹

#ILYSM SPOOKZ!! APUSHJ THSI IS SO COOL!> #HELP I DON;T KNOW IF I SHOUOD BE SCARED OR SHOCKED #THIS ACTUALLY ALMOST LOOKS LIKE ME WHAT?!? #<- except for the piercing i actually didn’t notice i had the piercing until i already posted it😢😢 #lil ol me does nlt have a piercing guys x> #ALL THAT ASIDE GRAGHS THSI IS SO COOL I LOVE IT #i’m going to explode thsi is so insane /pos!! #cool art #!giftz #keepz!! #spookz u are amazing cool kind amazing nice cool so ice so coo #ur art is to die for !!! #i swear i’ll repay u for being so cool #<- check inbox later???? #i swear i’m workin on the biggest gifts for u production’s just been slow😢😢

[patchesjam]

I forgot my earphones so had to buy 30 euro new ones (cheapest they had) and then immediately left the case on the plane and now can't recharge them I'm killing myself I literally just paid 30 euros for a 4 hour listening party

#i hate adhd so much I seriously think I've wasted so much fucking money and stupid shot like thsi #it's just constant misplacing of stuff arghhwgs it drives me insane

[brookheimer]

hi! i started following you when i found your veep posts after i finished the show! I've been enjoying your posts discussing the shiv pregnancy plotline and i love all of your analysis posts! ❤️ i'm also REALLY hoping they don't pull an amy plotline on this, but i don't think they will. and this message below got really long, i'm sorry!

i think shiv's plotline is also a new way to look at femininity and womanhood through her eyes. she's considering if it will hold her back professionally, and also how people may see it as an excuse to treat her differently or fragile bc of it -at least that's how i took the fall scene and her conversation with tom on the steps. it does seem like she might be trying to prove something to her mom. she also mentions their mom the most (maybe the same/more than roman does?) and their conversation last season in italy wrecked me, personally.

i don't always agree with shiv, but at those exact points it's just like the aspect and pain of how she's seen or treated differently bc she's a woman is emphasized and it stabs right through me. like, i get it. i can truly understand what it feels like, and they portray that perspective perfectly.

awww oh my god hi !!! so glad to have another veep expat onboard here there are disconcertingly few of us. and yes i completely nd totally agree -- i'm - gulp - maybe looking forward to the pregnancy plotline possibly?? like, do i trust succession to do it well? not entirely. but do i trust it more than any other show currently airing that i can think of? ummm yeah probably. i am also a known Complicated Female Character Aficionado and while i have always liked shiv a lot, for some reason i never quite resonated with her the way i have some other female characters -- not entirely sure why that is, maybe it's the wealth, but maybe it's the lack of focus on her inner life in prev seasons. not that she isn't complicated or interesting, but that a lot of what we know about her really only relates to her relationships with men and how she exists around them -- which is obviously an incredibly huge aspect of her character and the lives of women generally (i fuckin know it is for me), but we haven't seen much of who she is outside of that. and even if she's literally nothing outside of that, i still want to see and explore it, because that's character depth too (she's so wrapped up in roy-style masculinity that she literally doesn't know who she is outside of it etc).

to me, the most interesting shiv scenes have largely been the ones she shares with other women -- with gerri, with her lawyer friend, with the woman she talked out of coming forward about cruises, with fucking caroline?? like, there are just a lot of Career Women Who Shove Down Femininity To Exist In Masculine Worlds in television these days, and i just want to see some more interiority with shiv, because i know it's there, we get hints of it and it plays across snook's face in every scene. i'm not saying i want to be explicitly told every aspect of her life -- god, no, that would be an entirely different show -- but that i want some like focus on her, not her relationship with tom or logan or kendall or roman but something with the purpose of developing her. more than any other character on the show i feel like i just know so little about her life before, beyond, outside of waystar royco. and if there isn't stuff beyond that, then i want to see that too! i just think there is so much that could be done with shiv that hasn't been quite covered already (it is an ensemble show, after all) and i'm really hoping this plotline will kind of fill that void. maybe it won't, maybe it'll suck, but maybe it will be the deep dive into shiv i've been waiting for. praying and praying and praying succession does for shiv what i so desperately wanted veep to do for amy brookheimer fr <3

#ok so fun fact i accidentally ended up writing out like five more paragraphs of thoughts bc this is literally my Pet Issue i'm sorry yall #i will probably be posting that next as a separate thing LOL #so sorry for not shutting up about thsi everyone. but to be fair. you are literally asking ME the girl notoriously obsessed with narratives #about female characters who struggle with being perceived as female forced to reconcile with their gender and their relationship with it #and the fact that maybe they do desire 'feminine' things (like family/love/etc aka basic aspects of human life we have inexplicably dubbed #feminine and turned into like Death Pits for 'strong women') esp when thru especially humiliatingly 'feminine' (again - perceived as fem- #inine bc pregnancy isn't just feminine blah blah blah but the roys and their ilk sure fucking see it as such) experiences like pregnancy #you're asking ME to not be insane about a shiv roy pregnancy plotline? that could literally heal the world from the disaster of veep s7??? #be so for real rn #LOL #but yes thank u for the ask hard hard hard agree <3 that convo w caroline fucking destroyed me bro #asks #succession #shiv roy #succession spoilers #honeybunchcalum #casey shut the fuck up about shiv roy

[justinefrischmanngf]

i have not been sleeping well and i do think it's doing bad things to me because the thoughts i am having are not reasonable or helpful

#driving myself insane thinking about my own mediocrity #which is just not really necessary.................... #like okay so what if i am deeply mediocre that is not the worst thing in the world to be #ditto with being immensely boring like OKAY SO WHAT . maybe i am boring maybe i am mediocre it literally doesn't matter #and i can't be that fucking boring because people talk to me so like . i must have something going for me #anyway i think it must be the lack of sleep bc these r thoughts i have outgrown . i'm over it . if i am mediocre and boring then i am #i am trying my best to get better at things and be kind and learn lots and maybe one day that will result in me not being #mediocre and boring but like . if in the meantime i am then in the meantime i am ! #basically everyone pls manifest that i get a good sleep tonight bc i don't want to be doing thsi

[miiraclemusical]

an interaction that’ll better happen if ii s2 and s3 collab

*cabby rolls up to suitcase, stares at her and hands her a file reading “local therapists near you”*

suitcase: ..how do you have my address..?

*cabby ignores what suitcase said and looks into her eyes*

cabby: keep this file, you need this more than anybody here.

*cabby then rolls away climatically, while suitcase silently freaks out in the background after having a random woman inadvertently tell her that she needs to go to therapy, and has her address*

#i am so deranged ignore me #i have like 20 scenes planned out if ii and tpot collab too #i will post those soonnn #this makes no sense at all but i love thsi #inanimate insanity #ii cabby #biggest cabby defender ever

[gayemoji]

im going to kill a certain vicadin addict so bad. not before i give him some actual unrequited love first. i love him but he is so stupid.

#house s3 #abt wilson ratting & getting the deal & house spiralling until he wants the deal but bc spiralled he got the deal vetoed #stupid !! hes so stupid and its not even his fault !! im not even mad at him im mad at a fictional cop !! for good fucking reason !! #holy shit this show is ridiculous #cuddy may have had custody over the wilson-cuddy braincell thsi week but clearly wilson was behinf the wheel so its all worthless #WHO RATS ON THEIR FRIEND TO THE MEDICAL MALPRACTICE CASE #its actually insane he even got THAT GOOD OF A FUCKING DEAL out of RATTING ON FORGING PRESCRIPTIONS #IM KILLING A CERTAIN ONCOLOGIST house is still braindead stupid for being too stubborn to take the deal #and i think every1 but cuddy and cameron should be thrown in jail #ACTUALLY the whole gang can stay theyre flAwed but house and wilson are beyond saving those gay boys need the chair #WHY CANT THEY JUST ADMIT THEY CARE ABOUT EACHOTHER W I T H O U T BETRAYING THE OTHER HOW ARE THEY B O T H TSUNDERE #the way he walks out on house just oding on his floor is also so insane to me . #something something 'i would die for you' is obviously lying bullshit #'i would leave you to die thats how much i fucking care about you you IDIOT' is actually real AND THEN HE TRIES TO TAKE THE FUCKING DEAL #i am so upset #my guys are going to kill eachother out of sheer love and its only fucking season three. #i am in for a world of hurt 🫡 #house md #live #m #rambling #t

[merriclo]

Krknfndnjenenfjdjs why are you so nice 😭😭😭 the tags on like everything I post tbat you reblog I just—I just—sobbing jfnfjfjrejr thank you, ur like 50% of the reason I still have Tumblr <333

I-?/‘HANSMFKWL

YPURE THE NICE ONE WTFANDNFOS

the reason i compliment ur posts so much is bc they rlly do deserve to be complimented !!! i love seeing everything you post it’s all so lovely.

#not only am i ur agent i’m ur designated hype man #post anything and i will eat it up in SECONDS #my mutual in spirit #ur like. oh jeez ok. gonna get sappy here for a moment #ur the first friend i made on thsi app and the first person i felt genuinely happy interacting with jakakdkak #so hearing that i’m a huge reason as to why ur still on tumblr is insane bc. it’s the exact same way with me ahanfjjcksn #thanks for being so sweet <3

[gurorori]

naw naw i think im rite. im jus da worst guy ever i don think i ever seen someone have this much jealousy in em

#i get jealous of every1 arnd me especially da moment a friend or sm1 iknow mentions someone else in q positive light #it goes thru da roof n imso tired. i think this id da worst case of jealousy i realy realy known idk wat 2 do #i kno im possessive n i kno im insane but i cant live like this like naw wonder no1 want me. n like 99% of ppl - i cant have em #n dats fine. so i shud get over itttttttt #thr way thsi isn abt even. a singulwr personw. im sucu a mewss i shud jus go #vent #mika caws

[eldritch-thrumming]

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#on this stupid fucking trip to Europe and I’m being asked to give up my private room #which is in my contract!!!!! #and share a room with three STUDENTS!!!!!! who are a full decade younger than me!!!!!!! #because one of the male students has a sinus infection and needs the space to rest literally die then!!!!!!!! #and of course I’m being asked because I’m literally getting paid nothing but have gotten thsi stupid free trip that I didn’t even #want… not to sound majorly ungrateful but I can’t speak the language I have literally no money and I want to fuckin die!!!! I’m exhausted #and threw up the first night here and can’t get my sleep schedule right #and these kids are going CLUBBING I am 30 years old I have no business sleeping in a room w 20 year olds #seriously #so fuckin pissed actually #and I can’t say no because I’m w one of my committee members who controls the fate of my dissertation #I’m actually abt to cry I’m so frustrated #and I obviously sound super ungrateful but I’m not a traveler #my adhd is going insane I can’t do any of my rituals I can’t have any of my special foods I hate it here and I want to fuckin die!!!!!!

[cruelsister-moved2]

had such a good day today feeling very healed but then on my way to the station there were these 7th day adventists preaching and handing out books and leaflets so obviously i took them because im curious but its crazy it was actually just like that tone deaf comment about antisemitism for catholics ... the leaflet was just very like theres secret catholics running every world government and doing satanic rituals and theres a shadow government based in the vatican city that secretly pulls all the strings of the world and they had big posters with like the pope superimposed on a background of hellfire and illuminati symbols and so on well you get the picture. but they actually didnt mention jewish or lgbt people in their booklet at all so i was like maybe this is awesome like the catholics can take the heat for once..... 

#but i just dont get it because i was like barely able to follow #with my farely decent background understanding of like the kinds of things these people believe #so if you had like no idea about xtianity at all #youd just be like what in the world does any of this mean #but if you did have an idea youd most likely find some of it to be blasphemous i think #so im not sure who they are successfully recruiting because i feel it was quite offputting to everyone really #i need to post pics of the booklet because its insane its like blurry clipart of the world ending #and then some guys insane rambling #and then its liek check out thsi website for more #and itll be like a written link to a wikipedia page #it made me kind of sad really because it seemed like #well just kind of like a seriously mentally ill person whos terrified the world is about to end and really trying to save me because they #are actually worried for everyones safety...obviously not defending their actions but it wa slike wow this is really sad #theyre spending their whole saturday every saturday standing on the streets probably being treated really badly by most people dfhgiudhgf #the guy who gave me the book was very young and really friendly even though i was obviously like taking pictures of their weird stand #and i just felt so sad for him idk id just had such a lovely day and then itwas like this reminder of everything people in these groups #are deprived of idkkk #i feel kindof sad now