#this is why I can't finish anything

[peony-pearl]

uh oh new plot brainrot

Iroh returns home in a curious condition with his new addition, a blessing from the spirits crafted from his own heart, just before Azulon names Ozai as next in line for the throne.

With this event unfolding, Azulon can’t argue Iroh’s birthright; he is both baffled and so proud that his son has been chosen by the spirits themselves to herald such a future Fire Lord, a child to potentially wrap up the war and guide the world the way Sozin dreamed. Iroh and Zion’s status rises above mere royalty and becomes something akin to divinity, the true rulers of the Fire Nation and beyond. With Iroh’s place in the succession of Fire Lords quickly returned without hesitation, word of the man who conquered Ba Sing Se being granted a new child from the Spirit World is cause for grave concern through what remains of the other nations. Are they truly doomed to live in the shadow of the Fire Nation? Or will the Avatar rise up again to save them?

#this is why I can't finish anything #because I can't stop changing things #atla au #atla oc #Iroh #Zion #my art

[of-the-nightsky]

My True Enemy

Based on every time I try to write or draw anything.

You write a few sentences, but it's too late.

His eyes are on you.

Those big round ones, somewhere between yellow and green.

He makes an activation noise as, in the corner of your eye, he stands onto two legs, paws on your chair.

Suddenly, before you can even stop to give him what he desires, what he yearns for, he stretches out a single leg and you feel the claws.

Oh those claws...

They touch your arm gently, but you feel the sharpness of them, like the tips of deadly blades.

You pet and scratch his head, purrs erupt from him.

Looks like you won't be writing for a while. He needs your attention right now and no amount of fighting it will stop him.

You spend the next fifteen minuets playing with him until he stops. You still have no idea if this is what he wanted... but he at least seems satisfied.

Maybe he thought you were sad?

Things to think about when you try to imagine a life without a cat to bother you with their undying need for love and attention.

You decide you prefer this over the silence and being left alone, as much as you miss it.

He is your dopamine factory and you'll be damned to not give into his desires and wishes for a few hours if needed.

#cats #my writing #kitty #the neediest kitty I swear #this fluffer cannot be disobeyed #I would know #I tried #this is why I can't finish anything #I'm sorry lol

[slingbats]

bloody mess

#blood #gotham #oswald cobblepot #curryart #this is a little........................... mm? #i don't actually know how to paint blood i've never actually done it before #it was difficult to make it transparent with his skintone #that's what I felt like anyway. it was hard to find references that explained why light works the way it does w/ an example of it On Skin #i found one that explained it in a way that was useful but... the original resource has long since been deleted #all that's left of it is the preview #anyway this isn't based on anything specific I just wanted him to bite someone #to be honest I've been looking at this for so long I can't tell if it's odd looking because... #I did something wrong or because he has odd features? maybe hsi eyes are too big i don't know #maybe they're too close together? maybe he's cross-eyed? #i think it will simply have to be finished and i can live with that

[captaindamianos]

guess who added another wip to the roster instead of finishing one of the existing ones

#captive prince #my art #lamen #laurent of vere #damianos of akielos #damen of akielos #i mean lamen and charls ofc #no but for real #what am i doing wrong #why can't i finish anything #((it's the anxiety most likely)) #i haven't posted anything in so long i'm nervous again

[icewindandboringhorror]

boy in silly sitting positions compilation

#cats #I especially like the last one where he just has one single paw poking out of that box for some reason lol #I still have costumes to post and like a billion other things.... grr... constantly failing at staying active on social media aughh #I think because currently my Main Focus is on trying to get my game done and stuff.. which basically just means sitting and writing all day #so there's not much to post about. Though I know the Good At Social Media thing to do would be to post about the #writing and share progress and talk about the game and characters or whatever to try to build interest or something but that is SOOO weird #to me.. I could maybe get it if it was like a tiny tiny discord groupchat of playtesters with like 5 people in #it.. But something about talking openly about things before they happen is weird to me?? Like presumptuous feeling or something #''oooo guess whats gonna happen LATER!!!'' like.. how do you know.. what if it doesnt. what if you dont finish it. what if its not the way #you think it's going to be. what if something changes. etc. Like I literally avoid movie trailers and game trailers for the same reason ghj #Even if it's not ME doing it it just feels... weird.. Maybe it has to do with my OCD and how I just don't like talking about ''future'' #things in Certain Terms. Like if I was going to say ''Oh yeah sure. come over to my house in a few months''. I would have to follow it up #with like ''HOPEFULLY you can come over to my house in a few months'' or 'They'll come over in a few months MOST LIKELY''. Because just #stating that something will happen matter of factly takes for granted like.. what if somehting horrible happens and I DONT have a house #in a few months? or what if something bad happens to me. or to the person coming over? I can't ever DEFINITELY say with 100% certainty #that one could ACTUALLY come to my house in a few months. anything could change. So I have to allot for that in my phrasing. hbjjkn #There are a lot of situations where you're expected to just Assume Things but for some reason that bothers me. My brain literally does not #even Assume the most basic things.. like how do *I* know that just because it's someones birthday that they want to be wished a happy #birthday? what if they dont? everyone is different and has different preferences. I should check with them first. or wait until they public #ly announce that theyre accepting birthday wishes. I have to allot for all 5034859069 rare possibilities at any given time and never take #anything for certain. etc. ghjbjhbh.... ANYWAY.. I have been feeling a bit sick lately as usual.. but still slowly making progress on some #things. Moslty I need to edit costume photos. make sculptures. and work on the game. Going back reading some of the old writing from like #2018 and suprisingly I don't have to change that much of it? In fact I like it mostly. so that's good. I would be very interested if I were #playing the game myself. Though that doesnt mean much since my tastes are so niche lol.. #Still really want to clear some of my million tumblr drafts as well... alas and aughh and ooughh and so on and so forth. Between all of my #evil appointments other such things...why cant I have one billion dollar to retire into relaxed hermit artist life of no stressors.. bleas

[itstheheebiejeebies]

Me: I need to get stuff made for the upcoming weeks of the rewatch

Also Me: makes shit completely unrelated to the rewatch over and over again

#on the upside I have so many things to post #on the downside I already did have so many things to post #i have shit i made back in january just chilling in my fucking drafts #i was making vintage photo edits of mota week to week and was gonna post them all when it finished #and then i went on a massive icon making spree #and i still havent finished posting all of those #and now we're on the rewatch #and luztoye week is during the last week of the rewatch too #and i don't have anything for that yet #instead im making a bazillion edits related to mitski songs #and other unrelated things like i just finished a set of wallpapers of the maps from the pacific #and I've still got other ideas unrelated to the rewatch to make too #I've got 49 fucking drafts rn #i need to be posting older stuff between rewatch stuff #but i can't next week bc ive got 5 things for next week #if you've read through all of these congrats send me an ask with something you want to see and I'll make that too #because why not or I can dedicate one of the things i've already made to you your choice #thank you #dana rambles

[todayisafridaynight]

no ones ever gonna understand how much i love daigo doin this stupid shit after dissolving the tojo

#snap chats #is this a gaiden spoiler. its been like five months catch up you nerds #ANYWAYYYYY NOO I LOVE HIM ....... this whole bit is like four seconds long but i love it so much #i just reminded myself i should probably make gaiden/y8 videos for daigo.. i'll make it a JP/ENG comp or somethn.. one day #not soon tho like its barely anything since he's not in those games Long At All but still. im lazy 💀 #excuse me while i gush about daigo for twenty minutes now because hehee HE'S SO CUTE I CAN'T GET OVER IT #this is literally the middle aged equivalent of going yippee like YOU CAN TELL HE'S SO RELIEVED IT'S SO CUTE #got the energy of a student with crippling anxiety after they somehow get through giving a presentation without throwing up #AND his lil smile ......... thank you gaiden you made me wanna eat drywall with daigo's sad puppy dog eyes about kiryu #and then immediately made up for it a minute later #sorry i keep scrolling up to look at him and i love him so much. what if i threw up #i dont like using babygirl lightly but this is actually the most Babygirl frame of him ever ive decided #thats my boy .... i love my boy so much ..... he's so cute ... come so far in life congratulations king ..... ily ... #him lookin up at the sky for a minute just to breathe i know he thankin god for the fact he somehow isnt dead yet #im gonna ignore the fact all of this was for naught so i dont bash my head against a wall anyway stan daigo #im gonna be sick i love him so much #if i redraw this later shut up. i love him... #this is why i try not to look at cutscenes anymore cause when i do i feel my brain being put in a microwave and start to melt #its not my fault i love my guys so much .... ok bye i have work to do .... #and then when i finish that work i can go back to loving my guys YAAAAAY !!!!!!!

[aquanutart]

an upside-down truth / a fallen star

#the dragon prince #tdp #aaravos #gif #aquanutart #hi i would like to thank everyone who said on my last pic 'i am reblogging this for the puffballs' #as well as 'your tags have murdered me' etc #truly made the whole experience worthwhile. i still can't tell if anyone got the joke but i no longer care #next in our series of 'it's 2022 why don't you make a brush' i should really make a star brush #instead of sitting there going dot dot dot dot dot dot dot dot dot dot dot ... #even traditional art has a shortcut method for this (it's called putting masking tape on everything and then: splatter) #(advisable to do this first before drawing anything else...) #the good thing is it doesn't actually take a long time to do the dot dot dots it's just kind of repetitive #and you get bored and start writing about it in your tags and then it takes longer because you're not working #i listened to the ff8 soundtrack while making this #i had actually planned to listen to the triple triad music the entire time but #it turned out i couldn't take it for several hours #even though i quickly realized my mistake i ended up having triple triad stuck in my head the whole time anyway. i did this to myself #anyway i was determined to finish this before season 4 dropped #because i also had the idea three years ago and i need to post it before the new season possibly makes it obsolete #threw a wrench into my own schedule by deciding at the last minute that i needed to animate it and i don't know how to animate #then tdp kind of also threw a wrench by releasing the first episode a week early but it's okay i'm still basically in time #i'd personally like it if aaravos were someone who warps and twists the truth and/or has a warped perspective rather than outright lying #i'm convinced there's a meaning to the upside-down star arcana and maybe rotating the key of aaravos can unlock something ?? #saying this suddenly gave me flashbacks to the rotation keys in skyward sword rofl what if he's being held in prison #by his own startouch marking being upside-down because it's out of alignment with the universe or something #TWO MORE DAYS let's GO i've been waiting three years to have my theories blown apart

[one-bunny-a-day]

28/05/2023

#daily bunny #148 #standalone bunny #I can't explain why but I feel like this bun's autistic #I didn't intend them to be I just looked at them when I finished the art and went #ah #you've got the 'tism #they're also #so stanced #ready for anything !!

[soppsop]

i just rememberd adhd meds exist and now im upset because i could have that if it wasn't for that freakin neurologyst we went to see that told us it was impossible that i could have adhd because i have good grades in school. literally the ONLY question he asked me and immediately said it was impossible. we spent like 5 minutes there. he could've at least... explained something???? anything?????? and now i'd feel bad about asking my parents to see another neurologist because that costs a lot of money :((

#now im just unable to concentrate on anything and feeling very worthless #ok gonna start rambling here a bit #vent? -> #i'm just not good at anything except drawing. everything is hard and i don't think i'm capable of getting a job and contributing to society #in any way except drawing. my self worth is being held almost entirely by my ability to draw. #but i'm also incredibly slow and unproductive and it's so hard sitting down and starting a drawing and finishing that drawing #drawing is the thing that makes me feel alive and feel good about myself so when i can't draw i just feel really awful #i just wish i could concentrate and work and be productive man. why do i have so much stuff going on in my brain. why is everything so hard #sadge 😔😔 #ok gonna try to draw i hope something cool comes out or i'm throwing my computer out the window and playing videogames #oh also another neurologist once told me depression can't be caused by school #i'm pretty sure it can but idk im not a doctor #what is up with these neurologists man #i know it's gonna get better tho. life might suck but i *am* a teenager and it's only gonna go up from here. #im still learning about myself and stuff. also no school next year that's gonna be awesome #don't wanna end on a sad note bc life is good actually #and i'm fucking amazing at drawing

[strangesickness]

losers playing ttrpgs... losers playing ttrpgs save me...

mike is running a multi-year homebrew ttrpg campaign that is basically just a combination of any rulebook the losers can get their hands on + anything they come up with. i know it to be true. the campaign started as a call of cuthulu campaign but it is now a terrifying mix of call of cuthulu, dungeons & dragons, and cyberpunk with elements from a dozen other games including star wars: the roleplaying game, warhammer, harnmaster and somehow alma mater(??? idk how. but i know this happened). richie was like. "mike man, i love you forever, you're great at this. but why don't i have magic powers?" and he pointed at ben's collection of d&d rulebooks he'd been browsing through and he sounded so earnest and excited that mike knew in that moment he was going to sacrifice the integrity of his cool mystery campaign so richie could cast vicious mockery (99% sure vicious mockery didn't exist yet... don't quote me on that but it doesn't matter because the idea of richie using it constantly is hilarious)

they've all been playing the same characters for years and they keep convincing mike to add more stuff so they're all like super powerful and mike keeps having to come up with more and more powerful enemies.

mike's dice collection is so so so cool he has so many dice, and whenever he introduces a new important character he goes out and gets dice that fit their theme and it is such a moneysink but it's worth it because ooooh pretty dice

after four occasions where the losers decided to adopt a random npc mike hadn't planned anything for, mike has started planning every single npc out down to the specifics of their childhood education. he has endless character sheets hanging out in his room with characters he's created that populate his game world.

okay hanbrough agenda time: bill is the most oblivious guy in the entire world. i know this. (he is the guy who looks at brokeback mountain and goes "what do you mean it was gay? why can't men be friends anymore?" this is based on that one passage at the beginning of the book where he goes on one of those "why can't the curtains just be blue because they're fucking blue" rants lol. he does not know what media literacy is. to me) and mike is. increasingly frustrated and feels like he's losing his mind. he is like head in hands because he asked bill to go to prom with him and bill was like "yeah sure man! sounds great, you're my bestie forever!", and he has no idea what to do, because how is this man this dense, so he just starts having all of his NPCs fall head over heels for bill's character and flirt like madmen. it is painful for everyone involved. except bill. who still has no idea what is going on. that is a very unfortunate month.

mike and ben hang out a lot and ben helps mike brainstorm for the campaign so ben has all this insider knowledge and mike will just look at him before something insane happens in the campaign. they'll like make eye contact and ben will be like holy shit holy shit holy shit :0 and mike just drops some insane new lore. it's very special to me.

#i know it might be like. why isn't ben or bill GM? they're the writers! #but like. idk it just fits. watching mike in it chapter 2 gave me so much unhinged GM energy #that man can spin a TALE. i know it. i also know he can improvise like crazy #they finish a session and he's like. btw guys everything after like the first hour was improvised i hope it didn't feel to awkward #and the losers are like... wdym you didn't perfectly plan all of that????? #bill could not run a campaign to save his life. he does not know what chekhov's gun is. he does not know what nuance is. #he would be trying to run a campaign and the losers would do ANYTHING even slightly off the hyperspecific plan he made #and he'd start trying to railroad everyone and everyones just getting increasingly stressed #basically it would be a bad time #that man can't do improv i know it in my heart #ben on the other hand is a massive ttrpg nerd and has run multiple one shots with the losers #he's not big into long campaigns like mike is but he loves coming up with new campaign ideas #he also collects ttrpg rulebooks and is always looking for weird ones to try out with his friends <3 #they all have so much fun doing character creation with ben too. it's great. #i'm not done with this btw. i have so much more to say #i love ttrpgs and a party is the highest level of friendship. this is true #my high school best friends were literally just my d&d party #and cyberpunk (the ttrpg) is how i made friends in college lol #posts afflicted with a strange sickness #it stephen king #it 2019 #it 2017 #mike hanlon #bill denbrough #ben hanscom #hanbrough #richie tozier

[antisocialxconstruct]

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#I didn't want to go off in the notes of that last rb but it actually is such good advice #and basically solved the main issue I was having with GC's plot which was like... #Maksim would probably have a SIGNIFICANTLY easier time getting away from Alabast if he would just. change his fucking name. #so I was like okay. Well he's not an idiot so why doesn't he do that? and the answer is he's sentimental :/ #outwardly he insists that he has no emotional attachment to his life or family in Russia but also all these years later #he's still going by a derivative of the surname he was born with (Maksimov) because he can't let go of that last little tether #and if you dig REALLY deep it's about abandonment issues and the fact he's good at walling people off but not fully cutting them out #so he has all these elaborate plans and makes peace with the inevitability of having to run if (when) they catch up with him #because he can't--WON'T--do the one thing that would stop that from happening #and I think the contrast with Ilya who has absolutely no ties to anyone or anything and was doing Just Fine hiding from their past #and the fact that they're only forced to reckon with it because they get caught in the crossfire of /Maksim's/ conflict #is so so delicious. or it would be. if I finished writing it :')

[louis-ii-reyes-strand]

Thank you @cold-blooded-jelly-doughnut @carlos-in-glasses @birdclowns @bonheur-cafe for the tags today. You all really hit it out the park with the snippets today!! Thank you for continuing to share, it makes my day 🖤

Carlos and Ana were silent as they watched Jeremy make his way through the crowd of their cousins up to the deck where they were sitting. He had a puzzled sort of expression on his face as he shot glances over his shoulder to where he left his son playing with TK in the grass.  “Your boyfriend asked me if I could tell him his horoscope for the day,” Jeremy said. “I thought you said he’d never met Luisa before?”  Ana burst out laughing, though she quickly tried to cover it up with a cough and wide, innocent eyes as her husband frowned at her.  Carlos shook his head, trying to conceal a love-sick grin at the thought of TK fitting in so seamlessly with his family that he picked up on inside jokes he hadn’t been told about. “He hasn’t.” 

tagging @lightningboltreader @reyesstrand @heartstringsduet @lemonlyman-dotcom @welcometololaland but no pressure if you're not wanting to share 🫶🏻 (if you've already posted and i've missed it please let me know!!)

#fic: tangled roots #tarlos fic #kit writes #this fic hit the 15k mark yesterday and there's still so much i want to write for it #to the extent that i am slightly overwhelmed by it but i refuse to cut anything until it's 'finished' #anyway all that is to say please bare with me i don't think this is gonna be done anytime soon #also also in my mind Ana and Jer live half way between Austin and Houston #and Jer works for NASA while Ana teaches English Lit at a community college #which is why the horoscope joke is funny #also also also is it bare or bear? i never know and i can't keep googling it

[dymeon1]

Shou

#my art #touhou #illustration #shou toramaru #kind of redesign #here I start realizing how hard it is to START and CONTINUE doing thing rather than FINISH #plus kind of upset by my drawing pipeline #hence why I didn't post anything #real life beats me hard #I have lost most of my family bc they can't accept how I want to live #mother treating me like anyone but her son makes me depressed #this family tie mattered to me more than losing material shit

[yesokayiknow]

cannot believe that in 2007 the eighth doctor adventures writers just decided to put toxic yuri in their show. they did that for me

#not me going insane over 2 minor recurring villains #but literally what the fuck is going on with the headhunter and karen #what if an amoral assassin and a normal office worker decided to become partners on a whim & now they time travel and commit crimes together #like what????? #the headhunter could not give less of a shit about other people and doesn't think karen is useful at all and yet just keeps her around #and karen's like yeah she hates my guts and also she makes me kill people. it's a laugh though can't complain #and i'm just meant to be normal about that?????? huh??????? #also the way they both just flirt with lucie every time they see her is so funny #karen's like hey babe!!!! how are you!!!! do you want to join us!!!! while holding a knife to lucie's neck shdjshs #while the headhunter's like ah lucie miller the thorn in my side [saves her life] this means nothing [saves her life] you disgust me [saves- #doctor who #big finish #i've finished s3!!!! whoop!!!! #my thoughts are why does lucie miller keep getting turned evil and can it keep happening bc it's hot. who said that #my only issue with this format is that it's very adventure based. which yeah it's called the 8th doctor adventures #but i wish there was more breathing room for lucie. the doctor keeps being all sad (fair his life is awful) but lucie's going Through It #and never gets a chance to really process anything #also the retroactive continuity errors make me laugh #'i'm 900 years old' no the fuck you're not! you still have the time war yet buddy! #i like to think they're just signs of 8's swiss cheese memory #i hope there's books set in this era. i'm sure nobody will be able to tell me bc they gave up 20 tags ago agdkhsjshsjs

[valasania-the-pale]

do you have any galadriel brainrot rattling around that you want to share? I'm especially fascinated by any/all galadriel & maglor ideas either in the third age, or otherwise...chiefly bc of your portrayal of them in "the final verse" is so interesting ...Or just, brainrot in general? Always love hearing your takes on things <3 <3 <3

Always.

If I'm focusing on her relationship with Maglor however, I think it may be funny to share that I don't think Galadriel likes Maglor much at all, but rather pities him. He is, arguably, the most wretched elf alive by the end of things, and a decent reflection of what she could have been had she made different, probably tempting choices in her life. Maglor chose something over goodness (whether that was family, pride, loyalty, or whatever, it kind of depends on your reading of him, but whatever it was, he prioritized that thing over being a decent person), while Galadriel was faced with the choice of her ambition and pride over goodness - and in her case, where it mattered, she chose right. She knows how that temptation can feel, however, and I would imagine that Maglor (and Maedhros, back when he was around) were and are very personal cautionary examples of where personal desire can lead when not tempered by wisdom and care.

You know, I like to think that it would be Galadriel to drag Maglor back to Valinor? Not because she likes him, or because she thinks he deserves it, but because my picture of Galadriel is someone who has seen so many loose ends left untied, between Morgoth's escape, the Valar leaving Middle Earth and its people in the lurch of Morgoth's hatred and warring, and the aftermath of the War of Wrath (e.g. Sauron was left unaccounted for, enabling all of the sorrow to come). Leaving Maglor behind means that the story isn't done, the elves will never fully leave, he'll just fade away into a vague sea-voice, an unending, quavering note, held past the point of breaking, never finished. I think that, where Elrond would honor Maglor's grief and choice, Galadriel would be just unimpressed and impatient with it all. "No, we're not doing this again, get on the damn boat. Mourn in Lorien if you must, but I'll be damned again before I leave you here."

I think it also stems from the idea that, by the end of the third age, I think Galadriel is tired of almost everything, tired enough that old grudges - however deserved - are just not worth clinging to. He's done awful things, but depending on how you read her, hasn't Galadriel also? She's either a bit player in the Silmarillion or she abandoned her family entirely - for someone so skilled, and who later (in her fading years) demonstrates such will and power, it implies a personal history of just generally keeping her hands off. And if she was hands-on, then she failed like everyone else. She's connected to everything intimately, so no matter the reading, there's pain and failure there. Maglor has obviously done more, but understanding doesn't come from equivalence, it comes from kinship.

And, I think the last reason she'd do it, is because Galadriel almost certainly knew Nerdanel. After having to endure Celebrian's situation, after Luthien's departure (and presumably the grief that caused Melian), and now having to face telling Celebrian that she'll never see Arwen again, I don't think Galadriel would just accept Maglor's self-imposed exile knowing it would harm Nerdanel as well. It would be one last, unnecessary tragedy to pile onto an exorbitant pile (and, in my headcanons of Galadriel's history, I like to imagine that she and Nerdanel had a connection of friendship for various reasons). There's a whole sub-narrative about mothers having to just accept the loss of their daughters in the Silmarillion (Earwen joins the list, and Anaire, and--), and if Galadriel has shown anything, it's that she strongly defies convention.

#Thanks for the ask! #Bottom line is that I don't think any of Galadriel's actual actions #regarding Maglor #have much of anything to do with his character #(in fact I would imagine that she still loathes him and thinks he's a wretch) #but what he represents and what his loss would represent are the actual important part #if Maglor can't sail - why should she be allowed? #Even if *I* think she's earned it #it's the principle of the thing #and I don't think she's see it the same way #how many of her kin sailed and left her behind? #Repeating that with Maglor makes her just one more elf who gave up #and the whole point of 'The Last Verse' was that Galadriel finishes the job