#this has been bothering me for weeks now

[swashbucklery]

Elora’s secret Tir Asleen name being Brunnhilde implies the existence of Fantasy Norse Mythology in this essay I will -

#this has been bothering me for weeks now #i have no solution i just needed to say it #also it pleases me to think that like #on the other side of the mountains is fantasy norway #and somewhere fantasy eivor is chopping wood to impress fantasy randvi #like what the fuck is a sorcerer #a;slkdfjs;al #elora danan: princess princess ever after #willow: medium powerful magic once adjusted for inflation #memery

[spaciebabie]

shoutout 2 this person in my class who i can tell wants 2 talk 2 me really bad but instead of doing that whenever she has the chance she'll talk 2 whoever else is around and ignore me entirely unless im mentioned by name

#bruh lmao #so awkward. say something you dingus lol #ik you wanna talk 2 me so bite the bullet already #gyatt #spacie spoinks #literally. she was having a conversation with my partner for the project im doing. and like #heres the thing #if im not invited into conversation i usually dont participate #im like a vampire like that #and so like. after they're done conversating she'll just kind of. stand there. this has happened twice now #like dude sdkfjshlkdfj #im not upset by this behavior i have very awful social patterns as well and have been thru this (i am autistic) #am i gonna hafta say something. lol #probably #''hey bro whats up with you. i dont mean like how are you doing. i mean like. whats wrong with you.'' #cant say that its not funny when you say it irl only when the ppl you're talking with know you're not being mean 😭 #also like. this person has been staring at me lol #which like. makes me flustered so whenever she's around i panic and my face fucking turns red its god awful #for awhile it made uhh. my paranoia get really bad im ngl!! #its already bad when it comes 2 being around strangers but this like made it REALLY bad for a few weeks #im more calm now tho. rational brain won over and im chillin #i gotta work up the courage 2 say something b4 the semester is over or this is gonna bother me for the rest of my life sfkjsdhflkjs #i dont wanna put her on the spot #the only time i see her is when im in class #and . doing that interaction in front of ppl. i dont wanna embarrass her ksjfskjd

[derpinette]

SPERG YOUR HEART OUT

#EVERYONE #NOW !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! #& FOREVER #i love it when my friends &/or mutuals post about their interest & Passions i will like your posts but really i Loved them. #i deleted some tags because they might be interpreted as weird(er than usual) but 0_0 i am ♯Passionate about ♯Passion (for fashion - Bratz) #still kind of feel like a worthless human being but i secured another hangout in like a week so yayyy ^_^ #I GET TO BOTHER SOMEONE TOO NOW i just wish people did that to me too why am i like always the one raving #literally have to beg my friend to give me updates on her things even if i normally hate it even i go out of my way to look for things #for us to discuss -_- GIRL please i am for real not just faking for politeness who do you think i am I WANT TO KNOW #so effin excited OMG i have like so much to say & the greatest thing is that this girl has no knowledge at all about my Thing #so i can explain from the very beginning You literally have no idea how much i practiced the conversation in my head #ever since she told me & she said she wanted me to go on & talk about it more i have been Devising My Plan #OMG YAYYYY ^_^_^_^_^_^ AIMU SO HEPI AAARRRGHHHHHGSJDJSHSJDHSHSG #& OFC i had to plug it in the first time i met her in person i just could not help myself there was an NF on that day & i told her i wanted #to catch it i had to go in the end for a different reason & BTW it was such a whiplash the show itself was so fun but the winner... 0_0 NO. #next i will ask her about berserk & maybe even read it so we can talk about it because she really likes it #i dropped it when i was 14 because the laptop i was using to read it was complete crap Just like mine is RN #like a section of my keyboard is completely dead T_T so i have to use the on-screen one...

[peniscat]

i know that jesse armstrong is more than capable of knowing when to end a series but the way it was announced that season 4 is going to be the last one kind of made me feel like the whole process behind it is a bit sketchy. they only revealed that s4 is the last one only a month before the premiere, even after posting teaser trailers that never even hinted at the season being the last, and even the cast got the news only during the table read for the final episode. the promotion of season 4 has been disappointing especially when compared to season three. while the actors are not the ones writing the show, most of them have been very clear that they could have seen the show go on for another season and their disappointment over the show ending has been clear as day. while an ambiguous ending will be a very fitting end to succession and i am not against it, i am definitely wondering if the decision to finish with season 4 was something that developed during the filming process instead of it being a clear guideline throughout the creative process of season 4.

#succession #idk my biggest complaint is not telling the actors. like i get it that it might have impacted their performance but still #it is their job and definitely a big and meaningful project for all of them. and if they got to know only in january or something??? #at that point there was already teaser trailers coming out and basically no hints of the season being last. ofc i don't know what goes on #behind the scenes but personally i am a bit annoyed sdjhfdsf #i just keep remembering that one quote from jesse where he said that they're gonna keep going as long as it keeps being fun. huh. #maybe i'm just bitter because my favorite show is ending. but i am not a fan of how this season being last has been handled #but i am glad that at least the reviewers think the season is great and i am incredibly excited to see what happens!!! i just wish the #annoucement had given everyone more time to come to terms with the ending #also this has been bothering me for weeks now and i wanted to get this out of my system before the premiere. please enjoy

[darehearts]

burn out from rl is so real for me that i feel like i am not doing enough to return the kindness,  the appreciation,  the overall thoughtfulness of my mutuals.  i really wanna do more and show more of how much i care about you all,  but lately i find myself so depleted after work and in general and like...  i'm just staring into the void most days.  i hope you all know ily 🤧

#this has been bothering me for 2 weeks now AKJSHKJSRUEHFD #just thinking about the days when i had the bandwidth to even do #silly events and things for other people. i wish i could be that person #again. anyway dont mind me this is such a first world problem lmao #tbd #vent tw

[mixed-up-metaphors]

the duality of tea parties (fe:3h)

i'll...i'll let this speak for itself.

in my experience, sometimes tea parties in fe:3h play out like this

and then sometimes they play out like this

#look this has been stored in my brain for like the past two weeks. now you must suffer with me #art trashpost #fire emblem: three houses #fe:3h #ferdinand von aegir #byleth eisner #caspar von bergliez #all of them perpetually either say the most random but light-hearted stuff or point-blank list all their problems during tea parties #and all the while a glitter sparkle filter covers the entire screen. leaves me in shambles every time #yes i used the wrong pencil color in the first two doodles #and at this point i cant be bothered to fix it.

[wendytestabrat]

no one:

me: i’m bored i’m moving to colorado now

#the cold never bothered me anyway #they never see it coming what i do next #i’m a perfect all-american bitch #shall i quote some more song lyrics? #ive been here for like 3 weeks now but i was waiting for the right time to tell ya’ll #my californian ass has never seen so many mountains with snow in my entire life #NEW YEAR NEW STATE

[eugeniedanglars]

[The negative reaction to "Beard After Hours"] echoes a common complaint about the show, that certain arcs are picked up and dropped, that the show meanders too much. To me, it felt like an example of what Ted Lasso dares do that most television doesn't, take precious time to do something weird and tonal (and hang a giant glowy moon in the sky). This episode also established what I think is the best way to watch the show, treating it more like an album than an episode-by-episode drama. Themes flow in and flow out. We get a strange storyline and then never see it again. But it’s the ideas that the show is introducing, the way those ideas pair with each other, that make it an interesting show to watch.

Really enjoyed this analysis of the show and thought it hit the nail on the head regarding a lot of the criticism of this season.

#ted lasso #i read the album analogy and immediately had to share because yes!! that's exactly it!! it's an album!! #that's why it's never bothered me when themes/storylines from one episode aren't directly addressed in the next #because i know they'll come back when and if they're necessary! the story and themes aren't linear! #also i think this person is spot-on in their analysis of the first two seasons #as someone who came into the show the same week 'headspace' aired this show has never been about the power of positivity to me #and the first two seasons (especially s2) did have a lot of the same flaws s3 is now getting eviscerated for #idk what show other people are watching but to me ted lasso remains ted lasso

[a-walking-fandom-reference]

it can be really frustrating being a chronically ill person and living with an ableist non-chronically ill person when they have an injury or are sick because it’s hard to have sympathy and in turn compassion for them when they never seem to have the same for you

#is this word does this make sense #basically my mom’s leg has been bothering her this week and my dad has the flu or something idk #and it’s just like they see me and my sister as lazy because we are disabled but as soon as they have an issue we need to be there to help #them even though they don’t want to help us because if your in pain all the time shouldn’t you be used to it by now and you don’t #complain about it constantly so it can’t be that bad just deal with it #(even though i was taught early on to not voice my pain because it was annoying to my parents) #like for some reason they kinda still think it’s a choice but when they are ill it’s way worse because they didn’t choose this #idk it’s just FRUSTRATING #and my mom like doesn’t ask for help she just loudly complains and then is like why aren’t you helping me LIKE JUST ASK OMG #rey actually speaks

[skunkg1rll]

🦨💭

#even if idk what's going on #it FEELS like i've lost him as a friend. even if he said that like oh you're my friend or whatever. it doesnt feel like it #we havent talked as often lately (not my choice........) anyway and now .. bruh this last week has been AWFUL. #now idek if and how we will talk. like i feel like he doesnt want me annoying him. so i cant even use sending pics of my cat or asking him #random things as an excuse to talk because like... i feel awkward #i've gone from feeling 90% comfortable with him to like 10% lmaoooo #i just feel like he is bothered by me and that i annoy him and i feel stupid and awkward talking to him #so like.....now when idek if we are friends or how we talk #i cant suddenly be like hiiiiii the rain reminded me of you hiihihihihi #not talking to him even a little makes me miserable #but he isnt replying and i dont know what is going on with any of it with him and me so idk #also :// #i cant help but freak out bc of him not following me anymore bc that means that there will be MORE distance between us #i will become even less and less present in his life and world. he will start forgetting me more and more. he will realize that the world #without me is better!!!! he will spend more time andbe more attentive towards everyone else and realize that not having me close is much #better. and that his life is happier and better without me close by T-T plus it's... #i cant lie... it makes me jealous that he had favorite blogs and mutuals who arent me 😭😭 #and all of them are better than me in every aspect...... 😭 #this will only make the gap between us bigger and he will forget about me!!!!!!!! 🥲 #little by little he is reducing the amount of me in his life and since it'll be better he'll keep going until im out of it completely #im gonna die just thinking about it bc i know i know that i dont bringANYTHING good into ppl's lives and im just lucky that it lasts at all

[skrunksthatwunk]

found out that rascal's owner took him again while i was out, and he's probably not gonna be back since the semester's almost over. i don't even know if his owner's coming back next semester, if i'll ever see him again. if he'll ever see me again. why do they wait until im not around to do this? why do they never let me say goodbye to him?

#i didnt really get to process it bc i found out when i was hanging w a friend but. im processing it now #sigh.. i dont know. i dont know. #at the end of the day he is and has always been someone else's cat. i can't control what she does with him #no matter what i think of it. she can always take him away. but every time it happens im just. im tired yknow? #it's worth it to me to have him around. i love him dearly and i want him to be in a home where he's actually cared for (which i have done my #best to provide) but he's just. not mine. and every time it happens i back up and think man. im such a sucker. #i don't think people manipulate me often. not in an ongoing way i mean. i don't think ppl see me as valuable enough to most of the time. #but damn. she really found my weak spots didn't she. free petcare courtesy of one chump who can't live without animals around. sigh #he deserves stability but he deserves love more. this weird shared custody thing is better for him i think. and frankly i also love him. #im not the priority here but my feelings are like. there. him being taken away without even telling me first hurts. i'd like to be able to #say goodbye to him. im not saying he has to stay or this has to go on but couldn't they just.. consider my feelings a bit more? #just bc you're fine with dropping your cat off somewhere for weeks not knowing when you'll see him again and not visiting doesn't mean i am #and i kind of feel like my roommate is part of this. after all it's not like his owner can just break into our room and take him #and if im always out when they do it there's a chance roomie's just shipping him off whenever she gets sick of him. #she's done it before. even after she agreed so vehemently with me about never wanting him to go back to such treatment and stuff early on. #she's been spraying him for little reason lately too. and i mean i get being a little more cautious with some things bc her neck's broken #but she's really fixated on how much he smells and bites and stuff and talks about how if i wasn't around she'd consider eating him #and then other times she's like that's my pookie. i don't get it. like yeah i tell rascal to fuck off sometimes bc he hurts me but it's not #like a hateful thing. i dont resent him for it i'm just annoyed sometimes bc he's maiming me a little. he's my baby. how could i loathe him? #so it makes me think that roomie might be blaming his transfers on his owner bc she doesn't want me to judge her #and like. this is her room too. it's not her fault she's more bothered by the smell than me. if she doesn't want to be bitten and clawed all #the time i can sympathize. i don't wanna force her to house him. but i wish she'd just be honest with me i guess #like. what if his owner decides to give him away without telling me? i'd take him in in a heartbeat. even though i know it's a bad idea. #but i'm worried he'll fall out of my reach completely. and at the very least I'd like to be able to say goodbye first. that's all.

[pegasusdrawnchariots]

the eternal question: is scheduling w friends as an adult That Hard or am I just bad at it

#4 different people have left me on read today; 1 cancelled our plans 4 hours before we were due to meet #I've been sitting home alone for 2 days going insane. looking forward to One (1) coffee date & that fell through #idk why I'm taking it so hard this time I'm usually fine!! but I find myself wishing I didn't have the day off I wish I did have work :( #like it's tiring yeah but it beats sitting here not knowing what to do w myself #& I'm working all weekend & only leaving the house to see the doctor. oh joy #I've been productive ironing writing fixing the car. that's not the problem #I had 4 social plans this month. that's it #that's like seeing each friend once a month!! I can't keep this up!! #is this the norm for adulthood? :( #& on one level I don't want to bother people or be clingy #but on another level I'm baffled that they don't get lonely too #the news has not shut up abt the Loneliness Epidemic since 2021 #but if it's true why do so many people take so long to reply when I reach out? if they reply at all #I'm not going anywhere w this. idk #just one of those days #everything so fuck everybody suck :( #boomers got it right w the whole showing up unannounced at people's houses for a social call with a pound cake #now I have to go through 5 layers of bureaucratic bullshit to see a friend #assuming they don't cancel the day of ofc (((((: #I just wanna be like hello knock knock I am here. tell me abt yr life today & listen to mine & eat this cake #& the worst is when people are like 'I'm cancelling bc I'm tired xx' #OK A) u knew we had these plans for two weeks #but B) I'm tired too! I still love u ur still my friend! let us be tired together! #'I won't be social today I'm tired' my love we could watch movies in silence we could knit we could ball yr socks. idc #'I have to do the big shop today sorry' so do I!!! let us do the groceries together!!! #every time I've pushed someone to come out when they felt depressed or to let me accompany them when they were doing chores #they were like u know what I'm so glad u did this. thank u. this is way better than how I had planned this night to go #& I'm like any time!! I love u!! #& then it just happens all over again next time oh sorry I'm cancelling I'm busy I'm tired #like did u forget what a nice time we had last time? what changed? :(

[foolshoujo]

i think i'll eventually add this as a disclaimer on my pinned under the read more with the other general quick disclaimers but i do not under any circumstances default my mina/ko as related to anyone elses portrayal of the mc. considering how much i put into my portrayal i have done the same to the mc, minat/o, as well in relation to her. my canonical min/ato to my min/ako is written by me on my sideblog, @foolshonen. that is the default in all cases, that's her twin brother. however i'm happy to plot & establish sibling dynamics w/ other MCs that use the same naming convention as i do. basically the aris/ato name. this means i will not be accepting plotting for sibling dynamics with those who use yuki ma/koto or shio/mi sa/kuya, as i will never change my min/ako's name. my portrayal of mina/ko is not & never will be known as kot/one.

this isn't a response to anyone( considering the influx of mcs our widdle rpc is getting & the names of varying nature ), it's just been something that has bothering me for a while. mostly because i've gotten tons of anons before refusing to call my portrayal by her actual name. so i'm basically putting my foot down.

ultimately a sibling dynamic shouldn't be the standard for those approaching with MCs to plot with me, as that is a fanon concept vs a/tlus' who has canonically said that the MC & FeMC are the same person. && while i sub to the fanon bc i love twins & i love the idea of the MCs being twins, it's also never going to bother me seeing them as the same or two unrelated people/person(s). i AM happy to plot about this dynamic with people, as i do love to have sibling interactions & im capable of workin to build a combined world with my m/inako & someone elses min/ato, but i have plenty of verses to accommodate interactions & if things between my mi/nako are not plotting compatible but it's still chill, i do have my multi sideblog where i rp other characters within the series at @sociallinked so this isn't a fancy way to say no to folks about writing with me. basically again me just finally addressing something that's been bothering me since last year.

ok hi ilu go hydrate.

#( ooc; farllee opens his yap. ) #im hydrating so u should too ok #i was mulling over the best way to address this for like two weeks now tbqh esp since it's been like #something that has bothered me since the old blog n the nonsense there #im not here to force ship romantically platonically or familially on ANYONE n this is me basically finally havin a proper #post about this subject n clearing the air n easing my mind !

[madigoround]

✌🏻

#so for my job I have to go to a lot of crime scenes and talk with witnesses blah blah blah a lot of the time it’s in an unsafe area and I #I always try to do my job in a safe way managing the different factors like timing but I always get the work done #so much so that last week I was asked to go canvas an area I had already been to to canvas five other times for a murder and had seen drug #deals and robbery and fights and all that go on while I was there #and I brought up that it wasn’t a good time for us to be there we weren’t safe at that time and I was told I needed to suck it up and do #what was needed for the case #flash forward to a few minutes ago my supervisor came to talk to me about another case #for a murder that I had previously talked about being upset about because I had walked by the place it happened 20 minutes before the murder #and was told that it doesn’t bother anyone else and basically to suck it up #so for this case the attorney had gone to my supervisor and told him that she thinks I’m ineffective at my job and she believes I’m afraid #to go out on the scene for investigative work because I’m a white girl #and my supervisor came to tell me that he’s going to be working with me on my cases for the time being to go out into the field and locate #witnesses and so on to show her that it doesn’t bother me and I’m not afraid #which like honestly all around this is fucking ridiculous I have done this job for nearly two years I have gone to the #site of multiple murders I have gone to witnesses addresses #I have been inside victims homes to talk with them all of this all alone #and honestly that attorney is a fucking bitch who has humiliated me for having feelings about cases before so it’s infuriating but hardly #surprising but the fact that my supervisor thought this was a legit enough concern to now go with me on my cases and go through all the #steps I’ve done and everything I just feel so disrespected and not valued #last week I took last minute leave because the cases were bothering me too much and everyone was telling me I needed to get over it and it #doesn’t bother them which like sorry but I feel like having to see someone’s brains on the pavement is upsetting #and it feels like I’m being edged out because I have human feelings about our cases #even though I have done this work and done it well for two years #I’m just really sad and angry about it

[zemnarihah]

my best friend has been very distant w me lately and i asked today if she wanted to hang out and she said she probably couldn't bc it's her brothers birthday but she would let me know if she could and i have her location and i just looked and she's at her boyfriends house rn....

#we have it bc we're roomates so we started sharing locations when we first moved in like in case someone doesn't come home at night or smth #she recently told me that she wants to move out bc she has always wanted to live alone and she can finally afford it. and i asked her #directly like is there an issue because she is so non confrontational so she has never ever mentioned me doing anything that bothers her #and i said please tell me if there's something wrong because it would really suck if there was and i never got a chance to fix it because #you never told me. and she said no it has nothing to do with that i really just feel like it's time for me to live on my own. and a couple #days ago she was like okay i'm next in line for my apartment i'll probably move out in april. and i try to get her to hang out still and #she always has something else going on and i swear every night this week she's been at her boyfriends. #and if i see her around our apartment and try to make conversation at all she's so like short about it and barely responds like will only #give one word answers. i feel like it kind of started when i started dating e but i realized that i was spending less time with her and i #didn't want to be the girl that loses all my friends bc of a boyfriend so i started specifically reaching out to hang out with her and she #says no most of the time and never asks me. like i don't know what else i can do. #i'm like maybe it's bc of her boyfriend? bc they've been on again off again for a long time and previously when they were together it was #really distant with her like i barely saw her EVER. and they were mostly broken up for the past couple years and have been together i think #for a while again... but she knows i don't approve of that relationship and so she would like not say when they were talking again. so maybe #since lately they've been hanging out or dating or WHATEVER she doesn't fucking tell me what's going on with him. maybe that's why. #i literally like try to think of ways it could be my fault and maybe i'm being crazy but i cannot even think to blame myself for more than a #fleeting second bc i'm like. i have ASKED HER directly if there is an issue or something i do that bothers her and she says no. so even if #i'm somehow pissing her off would i ever know to change anything?? i just feel so frustrated bc it's like she's an entirely different person #to me. like this is not the person i know. and i don't know what else i could possibly do like i feel like we need to sit down and have a #conversation about it but what good does that do if she just acts like nothing is wrong. but i don't want to lose my friend i have such a #hard time making friends. i've known her since i was 14 like i can't imagine my life without her. we were the only two in our whole friend #group in high school to get out of the church i still love those other girls but we have so little in common now.

[izzymalec]

hey besties!! i've finally caved and starting today (saturday, 15. july) i'll slowly but surely (more surely than slowly) post things from other media as well 💔

everything will be tagged w the media name + the #not sh (that geniuely nobody has blacklisted but it's for me), if there are any triggers etc pls let me know so i can tag accordingly!!

this also means that my sideblog @deemacs will no longer be active bc anything that would've gone on here will now be on main

also this itty bitty change will be accompanied by tiny little changes in my (v faithful) icon and header (these aren't actually related, it's just good timing honestly)

thank u for reading and happy tumbling!!! 🩷🩷🩷

#txt #saskia talks #not sh #i'm mainly changing my icon bc i got a new laptop a whole back and i'm so so bothered by how the skin colour looks on there #and i'm bothered by how the legs disappear in the purple in the header #and how the colours of the icon and header don't match #so it's mainly those things changed i'm taking the opportunity #bc i kind of identify w those things on here so they're staying akdjsksj #the multifandom change is bc i'm more on here again and idk now i kinda want to enjoy it fully on the blog i love the most?? #and not just sideline that enjoyment if that makes sense #like the shadowhunters content will he tagged the same it's still the main thing #but i want to have the full fun with the rest as well #and idk i'm just not feeling the side blog life for other fandoms anymore #i first wanted to do this on august 6 bc that would have been my 11 year anniversary on this webiste #but i don't want to wait also it's ridiculous bc it's not actually a big event or anything lmao #but yeah!! now the second week of may isn't as special anymore (kidding it still is the most special week of all) #+ explanation for the change: i just feel like this blog has become more personal to me again (?) (due to being more on here probably) #and it just feels right to make it more personal with current interest as well #shadowhunters is so deep in my heart tho i'm not getting rid of that #but i want to share other things as well idk i'm probably repeating myself nvm good night #not good night i drafted this at like midnight few days back but meant to post it much earlier today but uh here we are!! #new icon and header drop in like an hour ig i gotta go cook & eat and watch wwdits