#i cant suddenly be like hiiiiii the rain reminded me of you hiihihihihi

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#even if idk what's going on #it FEELS like i've lost him as a friend. even if he said that like oh you're my friend or whatever. it doesnt feel like it #we havent talked as often lately (not my choice........) anyway and now .. bruh this last week has been AWFUL. #now idek if and how we will talk. like i feel like he doesnt want me annoying him. so i cant even use sending pics of my cat or asking him #random things as an excuse to talk because like... i feel awkward #i've gone from feeling 90% comfortable with him to like 10% lmaoooo #i just feel like he is bothered by me and that i annoy him and i feel stupid and awkward talking to him #so like.....now when idek if we are friends or how we talk #i cant suddenly be like hiiiiii the rain reminded me of you hiihihihihi #not talking to him even a little makes me miserable #but he isnt replying and i dont know what is going on with any of it with him and me so idk #also :// #i cant help but freak out bc of him not following me anymore bc that means that there will be MORE distance between us #i will become even less and less present in his life and world. he will start forgetting me more and more. he will realize that the world #without me is better!!!! he will spend more time andbe more attentive towards everyone else and realize that not having me close is much #better. and that his life is happier and better without me close by T-T plus it's... #i cant lie... it makes me jealous that he had favorite blogs and mutuals who arent me 😭😭 #and all of them are better than me in every aspect...... 😭 #this will only make the gap between us bigger and he will forget about me!!!!!!!! 🥲 #little by little he is reducing the amount of me in his life and since it'll be better he'll keep going until im out of it completely #im gonna die just thinking about it bc i know i know that i dont bringANYTHING good into ppl's lives and im just lucky that it lasts at all