#there’s a plan for me to move out by September 30th and I just . orz

[lordsardine]

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#me: I’m going to go to bed :) #me: *starts thinking about how moving out will be terrifying and this is it I’ll never live at home again* #me: *feels like puking* #:/ #miscellaneous #I said I’d start looking for apartments today to my mom and I just feel awful #there’s a plan for me to move out by September 30th and I just . orz #the prospect of not knowing anyone at all in the city makes me want to puke #I was considering getting an apartment to myself but the thought of crushing loneliness makes me . #it’s been almost 2 years since Frankfurt but I’m fucking terrified #the fact that I can’t move back home . or like I can but I shoudnt. drives me to tears #idk. ugh #delete later just needed to vent #there’s things I miss about living on my own and I miss dc #Frankfurt fucked me up . and the fact I won’t know anyone 😔 #I can do activities . man it’s just . me being asexual and aromantic makes me terrified for the future #idk if anything this rambling is telling my brain is that I need to have roommates for my own mental sanity #just hearing other people is a necessity #*rubs my face* #all this fear started bubbling up the other night when I was really happy and content and my brain was like #’you won’t be in the fall’ #ugh anyway #will research apparments tomorrow ... trying to find places that have roommates #moving all my stuff away from home forever still makes me sad . if I had a long term partner I was moving in with I’d feel differently #but I don’t... but I also won’t find one by living at home in my comfort zone #hngngnn okay. feeling a tiny better