#then not hold back or be scared of exaggarating bc these ppl do not believe a word i say anyway so might as well be honest

[silenthillbunni]

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#ughhhh i do not look forward to (hopefully) going to the doctor's tmrw.. #people are SO rude. it's just so unpleasant for me to interact with ppl #the receptionist is always so rude nd makes me wanna just cry and run home skksks #the doctor is always sitting like this 😐 not even listening #and then visibly restrain themselves from rolling their eyes when i remotly express anything hurting #oof my gav comment to get from doctors is 'that shouldnt rlly be a problem. that shouldnt hurt so much' stfu nd live in my body bitch #anyway yeah i just hateeeee it #it's not enough that im struggling w my health nd fel anxious nd low energy. theyre all rude nd make me wanna cry #so yeah really not looking forward to it #but i have to make myself go bc i just cannot function with this pain. im even missing school :(( and i dont sleep so #even if they're rude and dont help me i will still have it recorded in my journals which is always a good thing #blergh i wish i didnt have to do this #i wish i was like all my healthy peers :((( whatever it is what it is and life fkn sucks byeee #i will cry and try to force myself to sleep even for just an hour or so #then call at 8am #then not hold back or be scared of exaggarating bc these ppl do not believe a word i say anyway so might as well be honest #then get ready for the appt a few hours after. if i get one... i rlly hope so. #then chill and sleep as much as i can to prepare myself for class on thursday