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8bit-mau5 · 1 year
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I am so sick and I feel SO narsty... but honestly what makes me happiest is drawing other people’s OCs- I just never give myself the chance to do it as much as I want to. So I’d love to show my appreciation for this community and the new (and old) friends made here by taking doodle requests.
I have plenty new brush packs I need to test out anyhow and can’t find the motivation to draw my OWN characters tbh. SO!! Reblog this with one (1) of your trolls and I’ll draw em [: 
ESPECIALLY if we’re mutuals. If you think this isn’t about you, you’re wrong Your troll. Hand them over.
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inklingofadream · 3 years
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Ink’s 2020 Fics
If you’re reading this post, you’re either a) a beloved follower of this blog, here on tumblr on new year’s eve as we wave this shockingly calamitous year into the sunset, or b) someone who’s seen one of my posts and clicked through to my blog, bc this is my new pinned post. Welcome!
According to my AO3 stats, I have posted 93,925 words of fic this year! So I’m gonna round it all up! Descriptions don’t match those on AO3, they’re somewhere between summary and stream of consciousness liner notes. check the links for full content warnings, pairings, etc
Of the fics I wrote this year, all were for The Magnus Archives with one exception. So because this is my post we’re starting with the exception! Also it ups the chances of someone seeing this v niche fic.
Love, love love- 1.2K, complete- Have YOU ever read Kurt Vonnegut’s seminal 1963 satire Cat’s Cradle for a college class and thought “gee, the narrator and Philip Castle’s first meeting would make a hilarious story in a first words soulmate au!” Look no further, because that’s exactly what this is! Also if you had that thought independently and organically dm me, i think we’re soulmates.
TMA fic (in chronological order by date of first posting)
Ache- 800, complete- y’know the period where Jon’s in his coma and Martin’s started working with Peter Lukas? That means Basira and Melanie are the only people in the Archives for a few months, and they’re both rlly messed up and traumatized. What my book presupposes is: what if they were angsty lesbians about it?
Magnus Drabbles- 19.5K, wip but with self contained chapters- a 100 word drabble for every episode of tma! including the q&as and such! except when i don’t have anything interesting to say, or i have a lot of thoughts and i wrote multiples. will be finished someday. Features some of your iconic faves, like the pioneer wife whose hubby wants her to eat him!
Fiance- 400, complete- Evan Lukas/Naomi Herne is my favorite rarepair. Herein, I took the line about her proposing and ran with it! Originally MAG 13′s Magnus Drabble, but it got too long.
she’s got you- 800, complete- Kind of a sequel to Ache. But doesn’t share continuity, just the concept of Basira/Melanie when there’s no one else around. This is Daisy’s pining perspective post-Buried. The beginning of my irrepressible urge to title tma fic after country music, even though it’s the least british thing i could possibly attach to this british podcast.
Excavation- 1.4K, complete- Jon and Daisy come out of the coffin and Daisy is like “:) best friends now! also i’m traumatized and touch-starved, so i don’t want you to stop touching me but i’ll make an exception so long as you stay in my line of sight :)” and Jon is like “:( I am a monster and she wants me to stay close so she can keep an eye on me :(” Jon gets a bit of a clue though, and then there’s platonic cuddling and showering and bed sharing :) I will never let go of the fanon illogical Archives Shower.
Till Things Are Brighter- 26K, wip- First Daisy time travel fic of many. My magnum opus, this bastard’s gonna be so long when it’s done. Daisy time travels and ends up back in 2011. Updates Tuesdays (what Tuesday will it come back from holiday break? idk, maybe the 12th, maybe the 19th. the muses will decide) Coming soon: Daisy, Gerry Keay, Naomi Herne, and Evan Lukas become a best friends squad; Annabelle Cane continues to freak Daisy out by matchmaking; Jon finally appears and there’s a 75% chance he will immediately be whumped (the other 25% is he gets a chapter or two of screentime and then gets whumped)
daisy time travels and jon suffers au- 53K, 3 works, complete- how the hell is this so long?! Daisy time travels and arrives mid-making-Jon-dig-his-own-grave. Then she forgets that context in the face of being Delighted to have her dead friends back and ends up kidnapping him into living with her. That was the whole original concept, but then people were really nice and kept giving me ideas, so it got sequels in which Jon gets rescued from Daisy, moves in with Martin, and comes to a mostly healthy friendship with Daisy. whump heavy
Reminder- 1K, complete- Oops! No one told Jon there were other Leitners out there until immediately pre-MAG4 and now he’s freaking out! Prompt fic for Rye 💖
horror molded to the shape you chose- 1.3K, complete- arguably my year’s most underappreciated fic. Contains multiple passages of my favorite prose I’ve written this year, but also bad ending/whump/body horror, so it ain’t for everyone:
Long-fingered and well-manicured; familiar; a squeeze of paternal affection that had flustered him as a young researcher, settled the anxious insufficiencies of the newly-promoted employee, pressed frustrated dread into the ill-informed Archivist, now endowed with the weighty sense of ownership they had never been allowed to express before. A voice as soft as their palms, too close to his ear. “It’s so good to see you arrived safely at last. Was the journey very difficult?”
Elias Hunt UK: Now Hiring- 1K, complete- prompt fic for peachyindeed, Melanie desperately wants a murder partner, missing scenes from S3
Coffee Date- 1.2K, complete- Daisy and Jon go out on a Regular Human Outing. Then Daisy both causes and talks him down from a panic attack. Gotta have that platonic touching bumping up against Jon’s issues with touch :3
hold you closer- 8K, complete- Flesh!Martin slowly falls into lovingly holding Jon captive (look I have a theme). Title is because while I was writing and editing it I had “Bubblegum Bitch” by Marina and the Diamonds stuck in my head, but only the lines “so hold me closer/and kiss me ha-ard!/I’m GON-na pop your bubblegum he-ART!”
Take Care- 1K, complete- cut scene from hold you closer edited so it’s unrelated to Flesh!Martin. So now it’s just a vague au where Basira’s working with Peter instead of Martin and Jmart are Being Honest With Their Feelings. Received one of my favorite reviews, from AO3 user takethebreadsticksandRUN:
Wow! What A Well-Written Ending To The Magnus Archives, A Podcast Distributed By Rusty Quill And Licensed Under A Creative Commons 4.0 Non-Commercial Share-Alike International License! It's So Strange That Jonny And Alex Decided To Let You Write The Ending Of All Seasons, But I'm Not Complaining! They Lived Happily Ever After And Never Ended The World! Nope! 
After- 1K, complete- Jon! Goes! To! Therapy! featuring my funky lil headcanon for the world where tma doesn’t end tragically, everyone not named Jonah Magnus makes it out alive, and the world goes back to normal except for everyone remembers the apocalypse happening and people who died there or from their injuries w/out Fear Vibes keeping em alive are still dead, so the whole world’s dealing with mega trauma, but not even the same trauma for everyone. and featuring a funky lil OC who thinks the other therapists Jon shopped around to who said they wouldn’t take him on bc of the whole starting the apocalypse thing are dicks.
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dream-girls-evil · 4 years
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Honestly the fandom response to the cast’s recent Instagram activity has been super disappointing. Half are trying to guilt trip Michelle for not posting something sooner and Miranda for not posting anything yet, and the other half are calling Skye’s post an attack. Neither of these attitudes are helpful!
Skye has always been passionate about racial issues and they affect her very personally. Maybe making an instagram post about it before talking to her castmates personally wasn’t the best decision, but how dare anyone blame her for being upset and pretend that they’ve never felt helpless and angry and desperately grasped at the one tangible target they can find. It might not make it constructive, but it’s sure as hell understandable. Especially when she’s only voicing the questions a lot of us are thinking about right now. Why haven’t our faves posted anything? Why haven’t they been perfect role models? And these aren’t just people she looks up to—they’re her friends. But she rethought and took advice and reached out to everyone personally instead. Please let that be that.
As for Michelle, what is up with people commenting “finally” on her post?? And now apparently talking about how harassing her “worked” to make her respond?? What the fuck??? This has only been going on for three days. Skye only made her post 24 hours ago, and Michelle doesn’t even follow her so she likely hasn’t seen it! We know this woman makes an effort to stay unplugged unless she’s posting something, which happens maybe once a week. Aside from the fact that posting something three days into this is a perfectly reasonable timeline, we have no idea how much she even knew what was going on before checking in on social media today. Cut it out. Thank her for using her platform to speak out and then move on to actually checking out the link and seeing what YOU can do.
The same goes for Miranda. I know we’re all confused because she liked Skye’s post and still hasn’t said anything. It is confusing. But it’s still important to remember that we don’t know what she’s doing privately, or how much she’s actually been keeping up with what’s going on. She’s a woman in her 50s home with her family. How much time is she really spending on social media? And how much of what’s happening has reached the Australian news? I hope like all of us that she will say something or has reached out to Skye privately, but let’s please hold off on the judgement for now and not be rude if/when she does post. And Miranda is a very empathetic person. It’s likely going to take her time to process everything and figure out how best to respond.
Now, don’t get me wrong: being aware and critical of how people with social influence respond to important and sensitive topics is good. I encourage those discussions to happen. I have been part of those discussions and asking a lot of these questions. BUT the conversations I’ve been part of have all been calm and respectful and acknowledged that these people are human and we don’t know what they’re doing privately or dealing with personally, so I urge you all to keep that in mind.
Another thing to remember is that yes, while it is great to see people using their platforms for good, while we all want to expect that they will do so and get disappointed when they don’t none of that actually makes it their responsibility to do so. They may be running large accounts, but they are just people. There is a lot of information to sift through and a lot of fear and pain to deal with. Social media takes the back burner sometimes while we are checking in on loved ones or trying to explain what’s happening to our children or just trying to work through our own feelings of helplessness and figure out what we can do. Everyone copes in different ways and in different amounts of time. I know we are all looking to others, hoping for some guidance, but they’re in the same place we are. Please don’t hold them to unrealistic standards.
Also, I’ve lost like five followers since I started posting all this stuff, so if there are any others who aren’t pleased with my recent content, kindly take this as your invitation to get the fuck off my blog. This is my largest social media platform, and I will use it for whatever I think is important.
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flying-elliska · 4 years
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Ok I caught up with wtfock s3 because well, it felt weird to leave unfinished (except a few clips i just didn’t want to watch, like the attack one). here’s what worked and didn’t for me (i’m pretty critical so don’t read if that sort of thing upsets you or you’re not in the mood) because i still think having this story remade so often is an unprecendented storytelling experiment worth thinking about even when it doesn’t entirely work (and i think argumented criticism is good, but if you post hate about the actors/fans etc you really suck tbh) : 
- to start with positives : like many said, the acting was pretty damn good. overall wtfock has a really solid cast. the willems have succeeded in creating an onscreen queer intimacy that feels very believable, no holds barred and no awkwardness, and they have to be commended for that. there’s a lot of chemistry and tension at first between them, which then turns into something very soft and sweet and puppy-love-like. it was nice seeing Robbe evolve and the sweet bean energy that emanates from how the actor plays him is very very powerful. i also loved the warmth of the flatshare, and as a Dutchie I just adored the Sinterklaas bits, it was so funny and i loved the found family vibes. warmth is just something they do really well, esp with the last clips, perfume shopping, playing board games, the party at the end. They use the Christmassy vibes really well. the cinematography has its moments too, contrasts between warm and cold, the episode at the beach is gorgeous, the sequence in the tunnel, the light on their faces when they are in that classroom surrounded by drawings. wtfock as a whole is also good at creating some very lovable secondary characters, be it Milan, Yasmina, Noor, or especially king Senne. So, I do understand that there are things to love about this remake, which is probably why my disappointment feels so strong. I really wanted to care about these characters in their journey. 
- on to the controversial : i don’t necessarily fault them for wanting to show a more prononced aspect of homophobia. i think the debate about this often lacks nuance. on one hand, this is the sixth remake, and homophobia is something that is still often prevalent, and having one remake show that out of six is not in itself a problem. on the other, yes, happy fluffy stories are important, but sometimes people who have gone through stuff like this also need to see their experiences represented. the power of skam is that it shows difficult experiences BUT ALSO a happy ending. that can be very healing, i think, compared to other stories which focus only on the drama. the trouble is, i don’t think they dealt with it very well, or put any effort into processing the consequences of these harrowing things. and if you don’t, it feels cheap.
- on to my main gripe : the writing. previsible, i know. but to me, essential. and this is not about them ‘changing things’ - i like when remakes change stuff, when they do it well. the thing is, i have been burned too many times before. and when i sense that the writing is being wack, it makes it automatically much harder for me to invest emotionally in the characters. and simply put there were signs early on that made me distrust the writers. for starters, the first two episodes gave me a feeling that they didn’t have their priorities in order. the POV-immersion and depth is one of the most powerful aspects of skam, and it was lost. too many early clips felt out of Robbe’s perspective, and when it was him it was about Noor ; a few clips to show his discomfort were on point, but there were too many of them, and there were repetitive, losing time on what isn’t really an essential part of Robbe’s journey. and while they were spending time on clips that felt like misery flavored filler, they decided several times to condense original clips focused on Isak and Even, together ; like their first meeting and then their first hangout, or later in the series OHN and the minute by minute talk. and i think their story suffered from that. i think because they don’t have a real discussion early on, the buildup of their relationship feels mostly based on physical attraction. and while it certainly is a thing that happens, it just isn’t my fave love story thing. i missed the sweet pining from afar and tension that makes later drama believable. it felt like they brought the drama comparatively too fast without enough character work to make it worthwhile. Also there is just too much time spent on Zoenne drama, and their breakup seems like it foreshadows the dreaded s4 love triangle, which, yikes. the focus is all over the place, the rythm felt incoherent. 
- what’s more, they decided to introduce pretty grave elements of plot, like Robbe using slurs against Sander, the homophobic attack, the suicidal urges on both their sides, Sander kissing Britt while he was still saying I love you to Robbe in the morning, without either proper build up or resolution. It made it all feel cheap, jarring, and unearned, especially when they didn’t put trigger warnings or made jokes about it on insta or waited forever to give news about the characters being ok. it felt like drama for the sake of drama, and definitely not written with a vulnerable audience of queer teens in mind. and at the same time, when it came to the ‘big scenes’ of their relationship, like the first kiss or the universes talk or sander’s episode, it felt more or less lifted from OG without a lot of effort made to adapt it to them. i actually quit live watching/blogging after the first kiss scene, because of how similar it was, and how uninspired it felt, and lukewarm. it felt like a lack of imagination. when it came to OHN, the scene in itself was lovely, but the weird time gap, random timing and people seemingly doing nothing after a suicidal Sander disappeared, sort of broke it for me.  In the OG the combo of buildup, longing, realisation, fear, release works so well in a sequence, and splitting it over time really diluted it, to me. Similarly the quickly thrown out ‘life is now’ at the ending felt sort of out of nowhere, while in OG it was such a lovely bookend, him apologizing to Eva and reflecting on his growth. The symbolism, which ties everything so beautifully together in themes of rebirth, salvation, baptism, union, faith, deciding your own narrative in OG, here feels inconsistent. There is an attempt I see, something about wasteland vs. warmth/family, but it’s often absent of main clips. It’s nowhere near as coherent as it could be. 
- all of this builds up to the main problem for me, of the season. which is, i didn’t really get into Robbe and Sander’s relationship. Or their individual arcs for that matter. When it comes to Robbe, I guess he just isn’t my type of character. I feel like he is missing the fire of an Isak. A lot of the time he just felt too passive, like he let other characters make his decisions. I was waiting for him to stand up for himself more than he did. And there are too many scenes of another character doing his coming out for him. And then Sander ; I have to say I don’t understand all the love his character gets. Maybe because that’s because he sort of gives me Dutch fuckboi vibes...but there were several times he just came accross as a flat out asshole. I found him intriguing in his intro clip, chaotic and charming, but that never really went where i expected it to. i didn’t get his passion, what drew him to art. the symbolism around his character - basically Bowie, and drawing Robbe, and Chernobyl (which is a bit tasteless imho, turning a tragedy like that into a cutesy romantic thing), feels ...disjointed, and shallow to me. Like I never really got into it. And maybe some people did and noticed deeper links but to me, I got stuck at the surface. I saw a lot of interesting theories with what was going on with him but in the end they just copied OG. And I’m sad to say, but he ended up feeling like a manic pixie dream boy cliché to me, and i just didn’t understand what drew them to each other so strongly. Yes, Robbe is caring and Sander is in need of care, but that feels like a very reductive reproduction of OG. Beyond that...i don’t know. Certain complexities of the OG i loved  just...were sanded away, like Isak being ignorant about MI and learning compassion. This just...didn’t feel like it had the same depth, and often felt like soapy teenage drama, leaning too hard and too lazily on the actors’ chemistry. i like my romances wordy and solidly enmeshed in character development, and this was not it. It never felt like they had a real conversation about things, esp after the drama. 
- i think this is the first remake that made me actually angry for reasons not related to problematic cast shit, and so i’m trying to analyze that emotion. for me it comes down to too much drama, too heavy handed. Too much of the boy squad being shitty to Robbe, too much Noor, too much filler clips without any deeper meaning, too much things distracting from getting to know the main characters and going into their issues in depth. They changed stuff, but didn’t have the guts to actually follow through. They broke the mold but only in ways that ended up feeling shallow and unconsequential. Like I would have loved seeing Robbe go to therapy ! see his mom ! Zoe and Robbe go to the police together ! Sander have a complicated home situation ! or doing a Bowie related art installation to express his feelings of alienation ! seeing more of the underground graffiti scene ! or just...something, idk. And them also removing the faith-related themes also felt disappointing. and the ohn clip taking place in the place where sander draws feels very....basic to me, even if it was pretty. very ‘oh he’s an artist, here is his safe place’....hm, okay. I didn’t like that they made Britt into such a villain, I didn’t like how the boy squad showed no care for Robbe whatsoever for weeks until the plot said it was time for them to be redeemed in a way that felt too jarring, and I didn’t like that they made Moyo so horrible but redeemed him so easily. I actually thought they would show that it’s okay to separate yourself from friends who are that bigoted, because it just shows they are not willing to care for people. And him suddenly saying those sweet and mature things felt too out of characters and a ahah ‘gotcha’ rather than depth . I didn’t like that Robbe, too, was made so virulent by his internalized homophobia but got over it so quickly. I think what disappointed me most, in the end, was that I kept picking up potential and the show kept doing absolutely nothing with it, or confirming my fears, and it made me feel stupid and out of tune with whatever they were doing. And it’s, to me, symptomatic in modern storytelling of a trend to privilege shocks and twists over inner coherence and build up. And it makes for...Very underwhelming stuff, in the end. 
- all in all, i think this remake illustrates why s3 of OG is not as easy to remake as it sounds. it’s very intricate machinery, with a pitch perfect rhythm (and an extremely passionate nitpicky fanbase lmao). and if you don’t get all the parts of why it’s so great, you’re going to lose a lot of it. (and all the remakes ended losing up stuff in translation ; more or less compensated by inventivity and charm of their own.) so many mainstream press articles praise the real time/social media format and the ‘real talk about teen issues’ which, yeah, is part of the success, but doesn’t explain the devotion on its own. there’s the way the story uses real time to build up a storytelling rythm that feels organic and makes sense as if it was part of the lives of the viewer. There’s foreshadowing and aftershocks. Wtfock often feels like they wrote the clip numbers on darts and randomly threw them at a week planner. If an episode of a regular series ends on a cliffhanger, we can be thrilled and frustrated and put it aside for next week. but if you end an episode with a character shown to be suicidal, or you don’t show them being okay after a beating, for hours or days, that’s the emotion you leave your viewers with, because skam is a continuous experience. and remakes who pile on drama moments without respite (looking at you too skamfr s4) don’t get how tiring and disengaging this can be, in this format. skam worked so well because of how benevolent it was, on the whole. and also, cheeky, with that ‘don’t take it too seriously’ deflating humor. grumpy isak in ‘hate me now’ mode getting bumped into. this lightness and comedy often feels missing here. also my god the social media is absolutely terrible. plus...there is too much filler. honestly, them having more time, on the whole...ended up being a bad thing. Plus Wtfock feels like it has so much more unadressed plot points, like...why did Sander change his mind exactly and kiss Britt again ? How did Robbe’s mom react ? Who did the attack ? What is happening w Senne now ? etc. And it feels like they just missed the fact that OG, however subtly, did adress those things. 
- now, don’t get me wrong, i’m happy it’s popular in Belgium. On the whole it’s still a beautiful story of love and acceptance. and that people found something in it that spoke to them. but as a remake, it’s probably one of the most disappointing yet, to me. and i sort of...don’t get the hype. and i don’t want to be too ‘oh cute boys kissing’ cynical about it. but i think this illustrates why in the end, this is also very subjective. there are probably things i missed because i didn’t feel the need to examine it in depth or do the extra emotional work that comes with being a devoted fan of something. and some of their choices made me angry, and i’m not forgiving when it comes to these things. i still wish them success for s4 and whatever else, but i don’t think i will watch live, at least unless it gets really rave reviews about their treatment of Yasmina’s season. i mean they got s2 right, who knows? 
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fairycosmos · 7 years
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tw - self harm i'm sorry!! but i just fucking relapsed and i hate everything!! i nearly was 1 month clean and by thinking of (him) i just broke down and cried so much and the blade was in my drawer,, so stupid!! i just feel so empty and lost right now. i don't know what to do.. but i'm really really sorry if this message hurt you in any way!!
hey, it’s okay. you’re okay. you don’t have anything to be sorry for, i mean it. just take a deep breath, think of something simple like the stars or the treetops or the rain for a few minutes. listen to me, relapses happen. they’re a part of learning how to manage the urge to self harm in general, but they don’t have to spiral and they don’t have to get worse. right now, all you need to do is clean the cuts properly and then flush the blade down the toilet. do it before you can talk yourself out of it, because believe me - your mind is going to try and do just that. but you have to know that you’re so much stronger than the negative thoughts and you don’t have to listen to them. they’re not true and they’re not based in real fact. i get that it sounds like bullshit, but it’s seriously not not. you are in control of what you do next, so make sure it’s a step in the right direction. make the conscious decision to do the right thing and then follow through with it, despite what the urges are telling you to do. you made it an entire month without hurting yourself, and that achievement isn’t going to suddenly mean nothing just because you slipped up, you know? it’s proof that you’re capable of moving past this, it’s a reason for you to believe in yourself. i know it’s hard, but try to take this experience and actually turn it into something that can help you. the next time you feel like self harming, remember the way you’re feeling right now. remember that it doesn’t solve anything, remember that it just makes you feel even worse. remember that you don’t need it. 
i want you to know that no person is worth hurting yourself over. i want you to know that you deserve so much more than what you’ve been through/what you’re going through. i want you to know that even though this all feels so heavy and permanent, it’s not going to last forever and that you ARE going to get through it. but i think learning to really believe all of that won’t just happen overnight. recovery and getting better is a process more than anything else, and it’s okay for it to take time. it’s alright to mess up sometimes, as long as you learn from it. that’s the main thing. you can’t expect yourself to never make mistakes, because fucking up is the most natural and inevitable thing in the world, and you don’t need to punish yourself for it. you don’t need to hurt yourself on the outside to show that you’re hurting on the inside, okay? there are so many alternatives, there are so many ways to get past this and to learn to manage the negative thoughts/feelings in a healthier way. you really do have more options than your brain is leading you to believe, even if it doesn’t feel that way.
idk if you’ve ever spoken to a doctor or a therapist about it, but if it’s an option i’d really recommend it. obviously, you don’t have to make any decisions right now, it’s just something for you to consider. i honestly believe that you’re fully capable of never self harming again, but it could really help to have somebody to talk to so you can analyze why you felt the need to do it in the first place. confronting it is the main way of overcoming it. and these professionals are literally trained to deal with this sort of situation, they can show you different coping techniques and they can make a real difference in your life if you allow them to. you won’t have to talk about anything you don’t want to talk about right away, and they’ll let you take it all at your own pace. cause the fact is, a lot of people out there want you to be okay and a lot of people out there will help you if you just find the courage to ask. look, i know the idea of it is pretty scary and weird, but it’s okay to be afraid. it’s what you do when you’re afraid that counts. so you need to try to put your own mental health before that fear, alright? i promise you won’t regret it. so yeah, just think about getting in touch with  a counselor or a therapist if you’re able to. it won’t be as bad as you’re expecting it to be.
i’m going to leave a few links that might help, please check them out if you have the time. let yourself cry it out a little more if you need to, then wash your face, have a glass of water and clean the cuts. then like i said before, flush the blade and give yourself some time to just breathe again. if you don’t want to be alone, call a family member or a friend and chat to them. if not, let your mind latch onto something else (read a book, watch a comfort movie, listen to your fave song etc.) so that the negative thoughts don’t feel as prominent. you’re going to be okay. this one incident doesn’t have to mean anything unless you say it does. you hold more power than you think you do, and you are in control of where you go from here. i just hope you’re able to find it in you to look out for yourself and to make your mental health a real priority. keep taking it day by day, you’re doing just fine. i’m always here if you need a friend or someone to talk to, just message me.
https://www.rcpsych.ac.uk/PDF/Self-Harm%20Distractions%20and%20Alternatives%20FINAL.pdf
https://www.healthyplace.com/blogs/speakingoutaboutselfinjury/2015/06/what-do-you-do-when-you-relapse-from-self-harm/
http://www.teenhelp.org/forums/f12-self-harm/t9418-alternatives-self-harm/
https://www.healthyplace.com/abuse/self-injury/how-to-stop-self-harm-self-injury-behaviors/
http://www.adolescentselfinjuryfoundation.com/page11
https://themighty.com/2015/11/why-ive-stopped-self-harming/
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