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bisluthq · 2 months

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I think people also don't know or ignore how creative writing works. As someone who writes poetry as a way to get my feelings out, I'll be the first to tell you artists or creative people in general are all a bit crazy, a bit dramatic. Like we have big feelings and can be a bit dramatic about them. The feeling a song conveys doesn't have to be a super long drawn feeling ykim? Sometimes things aren't good in that moment and a song is a portrait of that moment that we need it to framed.

I wrote so many poems full on ugly crying and it makes you feel so much better after you get that feeling out. And after you get that out of you, you're able to think clearer and actually be like you know what maybe things aren't as bad as they seemed when I wrote this. You know what, I actually think if we do this or that this could be fixed.

Obviously I don't know their situation, but unlike swifties who think Taylor was held at gunpoint to make her stay more than a year absolutely unhappy, I think that whatever was going on she ended up by thinking they could still solve the situation. And for a while they probably did. If the problem was lack of attention or him being away from work, it seems like in 2022 they actually tried to spend more time together. He was just doing promo and not really being away for a long time.

And then for whatever reason things crashed again. Either because the og issues were just swept under the rug and not solved or something new came up

is it lack of understanding the creative process or a lack of life experience? I mean the former often strikes me as true with Swifties insisting all songs are play by plays and hyperrealistic and like almost form a storyline. They don’t lol even where they are truthful like I can all but guarantee when Taylor agreed to go out with lmfao Hiddles she wasn’t thinking he’s her getaway car - that’s how she came to think about it when it crashed and burned as fast as it did but like obviously that wasn’t her starting point?? Because she’s not insane?? But like that’s how she thought about it on reflection lol. Or taking songs like IWYW or Wildest Dreams or Stay Stay Stay or half of folkmore which she’s said are fantasies and/or very clearly are fantasies and plainly not believing her. That’s a lack of understanding the creative process.

a lot of how Swifties talk about her relationships - and especially this one with Joe - speaks to me to a lack of life experience (not meaning this negatively necessarily). My friend who set me up (in a roundabout way) with my bf is very regularly very miserable with her partner. In part because he doesn’t want to get married anymore. In part because he’s bad at communication. In part because they have different things that they enjoy tbh. In part because he makes decisions without talking to her. In part because he doesn’t get like set crew schedules and gets very annoyed with how her work life is structured. In part because he gets quite jealous idk. She tells me this stuff regularly but they stay together and they do have plenty of fun together - I’ve seen them having fun together with my own eyeballs and also she tells me tbh like they are clearly not happy every day but they’re also clearly not about to break up rn (my bf and I love both of them but we do think they will eventually) and idk guys lots of people are in similar situations? I’ve been in situations I stayed in because it didn’t suck every day? Every divorcing couple ever has stayed in stuff past the point of knowing it’s fucked? Like idk that’s part of life???? People don’t break up one morning just because like they realized yesterday they felt shit because there’s a good chance that morning you make coffee together and have a laugh about something and you just… stay. And you hope tomorrow is good again. And then when it isn’t and maybe it sucks then eh you hope for tomorrow all over again.

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antiloreolympus · 3 years

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10 Anti LO Asks

1. ok but thats also i think i dont get? because without the series or character names, what of any of the promo images or banner or anything else give away it's supposed to be a greek mythology story? they just look like people with weird anatomy who are colored like highlighters. at the very least some iconography should be on them, but there's not? like even percy jackson stuff makes sure to give him a trident and have water flowing around him.

2. rachel made three times where persephone could have made the choice to be with hades willingly and didnt do it each time. first time she was drugged and put into his car, where he phsyically handles her unconscious body and puts her in his bed (ew). second is her working for him, which was hera forcing it. third was her going to the underworld not because she wanted to, but because she was hiding from the law/apollo and he found her. where exactly is her agency in all of this?

3. LO seems like the fast food of webtoons. because there's no room to speculate or theorize, you just read an episode and move on, the bright colors distract that it's a rushed and lazy product over something with high quality and effort, the characters are flat and boring, and the plot has no substance. it's meant to be consumed in a rapid binge, because if not you realize what low-effort and what little you're actually getting from it when you slow down and actually think about it.

4. i mean rachel does have some logic to her fancasting, the problem is it seems the only people of color are either demonized for being hypersexual (aphrodite, eros until he's with psyche) or are literally r//pists who are out to harm her white-fa casted persephone (apollo), so yeah, there is logic there, it's just pointing to rachel being (hopefully unintentionally) racist

5. It pisses me so much that I work over time (using references and looking at paintings and reading history for ideas for interesting character motifs) so that any of the ancient greek characters I draw look cool and authentically greek, and yet fucking Rachel Smythe, who can't even be bothered to do more than 5 seconds of research to learn that not all ancient greek outfits were shitty, minimalist off white and eggshell, gets to be revered as an artistic revolutionary. It pisses me off so. Fucking. Much. Not just for me, but for everyone else like me who absolutely ADORES greek mythology and wants to draw accurate portrayals of these characters! To whoever is reading this, stop. Stop rn and go read Sleep and His Brother Death (a comic on webtoons), go play Hades (the video game), go read The Song of Achilles (a book by Madeline Miller). Those are beautiful pieces of fiction about Greek mythology that deserve your attention more then Rachel and her shitty pink highlighter self inserts.

And a sidenote, I know that this is kinda like a modern AU for the gods. I am aware. Does not change that fact that anytime any character is drawn in ancient greek fashion it's always the SAME. SHITTY. CHITON. Maybe with a.cape or a scarf, but for the most part? It's just the same stupid, off white chiton.

6. oh, i thought you guys were joking persephone is now stuck with red eyes. is that seriously what look we're stuck with now? does rachel know it looks really ugly?

7. i feel like the lineart less style actually hurts LO in a way. way too often you can look at a panel and it becomes really murky where something starts and ends, and it looks even worse on a phone screen, because on an even smaller screen the images look even more compressed, making it even harder to tell stuff apart. this wouldnt be as bad if the comic took back up its more high contrast look from the begging, but now it's all one flat shade and im not sure why.

8. im really confused over the marketing of LO, tbh. like the ads are all hxp focused, but the series name implies its not about them, but focusing on the 12 olympians, but then the synopsis is general mythology and at the very end randomly mentions its about persephone? but then you read it and nots sure whether its a teen romance, a comedy, a serious drama, and can't stay straight with its messaging and timeline? and persephone is not there for a chunk of time. like whats actually going on?? 😭

9. Chapter 173 is like 50% filler. It gives more questions that answers, and not just from the reporters. Like the reporter stuff was mostly filler, and the Persphone and Hades stuff was like yeah we know dont need to drag this on.

My questions are WHAT ARE THE RED EYES? Is it when she’s mad? Horny? Sad? Happy? I feel like the red eyes just show up whenever RS wants to draw them

Flying? I feel like Persphone has always been flying like it wasn’t a bug moment at all. She flew home when Minthe and Hades kissed. But apperently Demeter didn’t know? I guess I don’t remember her flying in the mortal realm but her flying didn’t seem like a big moment, none of the other characters seemed surprised by it.

“Answer mine first!” When i got to that line I reread some of it just to find where the question was. That line normally matters when you’ve already asked the question not if you haven’t gotten there yet. Like of course Demeter is gonna be worried and ask a million questions.

I know the pomegranate pin is gonna be important but I felt the focus on it was a little too much, like an excuse not to cover more this chapter. Because honestly it felt like 5 minutes of the plot was covered in this chapter.

10. So uh, whats up with Hades weird ass comments... Like "Persephone you look beautiful and if someone says otherwise they can go play on the highway" ???

Because Persephone looking good during a murder trial is clearly the most important thing here.

Also, Perse's response to the reporter who asked her about her friendship with Hades. I mean, on one hand Persephone is right, her "friendship" (or whatever it is they have going on) is nobodies business but her own - but at the same time, its kinda also the underworld denizens right to know in the sense that their future leadership could be affected so they might want to know whats going on if their getting a new co-ruler / Queen that they will be subjects of. They probably will want to know who Persephone is, should she and Hades get married because it's very likely that when (cause lets be real its a 'when' not 'if' they get married) they do get married that Persephone will inherit half the title.

So, eh?

#anti lo #anti lore olympus #lore olympus critical #lo critical

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berrymeter · 3 years

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heyyy perth it’s tt anon i saw u tell everyone to listen to onf’s music so i listened to onf’s music!! and bro... actually amazing. onf are making some of the best and most interesting kpop rn. don’t get me wrong oneus is also making some of the best kpop rn but their songs are simply also uninteresting <3 but onf... sukhumvit swimming is ofc top tier and i also really like my genesis, why and ugly dance (yeah why wasn’t in ur recs and u thought ugly dance sounded like an nct reject YEAH I KNOW we seem to have different music tastes lmao) the dreamer/realist connections were fun to listen to although i feel like the ~ending song swap~ was smoother in the dreamer than in the realist. and a lot of their voices.. i think emkay and etion and jayus? all have this high, airy, bit nasal voice whichhh isn’t really my thing but on the other hand HYOJIN’s voice.. the hyoice.. underrated and deserves more hype forever. and they do so many little interesting compositional/instrumental choices like electric guitar or sax or weird synths or chromatic scales! so even if the song itself is p mainstream there’s enough there to keep u guessing. which is just cool!

TT ANON GOOD TASTE CONFIRMED YET AGAIN!!!!! i didn't think anybody would listen to that post tbh AKSJSJDJ i just expect ppl to be annoyed by me & blacklist onf 😭 but as usual u deliver... i feel trusted... and cared for like u just placed a blanket on top of me after i fell asleep on the couch 💕💕💕 (i haven't slept in almost 24 hrs don't mind the comparisons... and i swear i tried to sleep for 10 hours just now... very boring)

and hey why was in my recs i said listen to the title tracks 😔 i only removed her from my faves playlist recently bc i didn't wanna get tired of it bc it's so good but it'd been there for a year KSJSNSJJS. it's just a solid song and i like it better than we must love on most days (onf performing wml with yooa on rtk kind of... not ruined it but... eh. she didn't sing, only danced, but STILL...). i think my big problem with ugly dance is not only that the song is a bit messy (that would be fine on its own) but that it was pretty much... marketed as a followup to beautiful beautiful in some way? i mean it's a repackage and onf have been doing those storyline mvs since we must love (and maaaybe complete? i forgot the mv i just know the song makes me cry like a baby and the choreo is fun), and since beautiful beautiful, which fucking bangs, was connected to why (& possibly sukswim but look i'm still trying to work out what that mv means KAJZNWJSJ) i expected ugly dance to follow... but no it was just a dance mv in a completely different tone 😔 and i still think my genesis should've been the title track had they followed up from bb but they didn't so... ksjxsmdnsj

yeah it is smoother in the dreamer but i feel like it works well with the songs? like oh fuck thinking about it made me tear up i have a problem KAJDNSNS but like i was gonna say i feel like the realist is (obviously) thematically darker than the dreamer so the abrupt cut into something lighter makes sense imo, like the way you don't remember when you fall asleep - you're thinking (if you're like me i think about oc storylines while i fall asleep) and then suddenly you're in your dreams (if you're like me i remember my dreams very often). meanwhile the dreamer would be more like, an attempt at convincing yourself things are good, and at the end the reality slowly creeps up on you while they keep saying "let's dream"... and i legit teared up while typing all of that help 😭😭 i'm just Passionate about music KAJSNSNSKS but this is ridiculous. but yeah that's how i feel about those songs without going too much into the lyrics and i feel like the way both transitions were done really fits each song!

HYOJIN'S VOICEEE YES HE'S SO FULL AND POWERFUL. i have a post out there where i described all four of their voices with flavours bc it's the easiest way for me to describe high voices and hyojin was a fruit like a peach or passionfruit iirc meanwhile etion was the taste of pistachios/almond milk i think? emkay is sweet like candy but not sour candy or something super gummy, more akin to cotton candy if anything (or those very industrial drinks) so even when he sings loud he sounds soft. something that also applies to taemin btw, he isn't sweet in that same way at all but even when he's loud he just doesn't sound as powerful as key or jinki, and that's the same thing with hyojin and other onf vocalists - he's the powerhouse! jayus... i might've compared his voice to something light like vanilla... i'll look for the post. but yeah if u like hyojin's voice i recommend checking out even of day's performance of you were beautiful guest starring hyojin he sounds beautiful (i link it bc i personally struggle to find it on youtube idk why??), and of course onf's everybody cover on rtk... it did Not please everyone but that's quite literally what got me into them. my favourite shinee title track? with hyojin's vocals? (we ignore wyatt) ofc i was gonna like it.....

also this talk of voices reminds me i forgot to recommend secret triangle :/ so loud for no reason near the end but top 10 songs i listen for jayus' airy tone KWJDMSJSJ. but tbh i can't really pick a favourite vocalist in onf they're all really good at what they're doing... my beloveds... their songs truly are Mainstream But Good these days (ugly dance is still a bit of a letdown but it's on my faves playlist for now so... we'll see how long this lasts) but what i also really like with them are the mvs. they're very cinematic a lot of the time especially why that doesn't even have a single dance shot i still don't know what the choreo is LMAO... umm so yeah this was onf promo hour i guess sorry mutuals i'll tag this long post 😭😭

#asks #tt anon #long post #i just get passionate about music it is how it is

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ship-trek · 3 years

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Welcome! A little bit about myself, my f/os, and my dni below! I’m also happy to do short requests, and the rules for that are below too.

Also, if my anons/asks/dms are ever off, don't hesitate to let me know! It's probably on accident.

(Shameless self promo here)

I also have a Carrd! It's very ugly but has a more detailed f/o list as well as some information on my s/is.

If I’ve reblogged something from you and used the wrong pronouns, please let me know and I’ll correct it. I am comically bad with names and pronouns - it’s not an act of malice, it’s an act of dumbassery, I promise.

Right now, both the carrd and this list are out of date. Expect a revamp soon eventually

About me:

I’m going by Kestrel right now, but that’s a pseudonym (both for privacy’s sake and for Gender reasons) so that may change. I’m over 18 but under 21, nonbinary (???), and I use they/them pronouns. You can call me Kes as a nickname if you’d like.

All interaction comes from my main blog.

Although I've been self shipping for a long time, I’m very new to the self shipping community, so I’d love to make some friends! I don’t know how active I’ll be, though, on account of very low spoons and a busy schedule.

I am incredibly forgetful and wildly inconsistent on tagging, though I do try to tag consistently for major triggers. If I’ve missed something or you need something specific tagged, let me know! No trigger is too weird to tag for.

I do sometimes go on anon, with and without linking this blog, but I never send hate.

My f/os, interests, and tags:

My romantic f/o is Kira Nerys (Star Trek: Deep Space 9), tag tbd.

(I have only seen season one so far so no spoilers please, and for anyone who isn’t familiar with Star Trek, she’s a Bajoran (alien species) and follows their naming conventions. Kira is her family name, Nerys is her given name. Her formal title is Major Kira, but I usually call her Nerys.)

My platonic f/os are:

Callie (Nothing Special), tag tbd,

Declan (Nothing Special), tag tbd,

Radish (Nothing Special), tag is "you're my favorite salad",

Fred, Daphne, Velma, Shaggy and Scooby (Scooby Doo), tag is “if it weren’t for you meddling kids”,

Spock (Star Trek: The Original Series), tag is “thrah t’nash-veh eh thrah t’du”,

Uhura (Star Trek: The Original Series), tag tbd,

Worf (Star Trek: The Next Generation), tag tbd,

Tasha Yar (Star Trek: The Next Generation), tag is "my space sister in arms",

and Julian Bashir (Star Trek: Deep Space 9), tag tbd,

though sometimes the other characters from those shows make appearances.

(Side note about Tasha: yes, I know what happened to her in canon. Some of my interactions with her choose to acknowledge this and some of them do not. This is a massive continuity error and I am okay with that. The tag for posts that ignore canon is "canon: i pretend i do not see it" and the tag for posts that are canon compliant is tbd.)

My familial f/o is Bones (Star Trek: The Original Series), tag is "my grumpy space dad".

If you can’t tell, I’m into Star Trek! I’m also into Minecraft, Scooby-doo, and Dungeons and Dragons, and I’m getting into Legend of Zelda and a3!. I’m also into a lot of webcomics!

I should be totally fine sharing both romantic and platonic f/os, but I do get a little jealous sometimes (I'm working on it), so I ask that people with Nerys as a romantic f/o don't gush about her directly to me. I also may take a little longer to respond to asks/messages/etc about Spock, though you can still send them! But regardless of what f/os we do or don't share, you're welcome to interact.

I also block all Spamton-related tags. You’re welcome to follow if you ship with him but if I don’t interact with your Spamton-related posts, that’s why! It’s nothing personal, I promise.

Tags are a work in progress, and until I figure them out everything will be tagged as “[character] tag tbd”

Other tags of note:

“kes cries” - vent posts

“kestrel go to bed challenge” - posts that seem like a good idea at 2:30 am

“kes speaks” - exactly what it sounds like

“kes goes on anon” - reblogs of anonymous asks I sent

“kestrel’s sideblog struggles” - things that should be a reply, but this is a sideblog so I have to reblog them instead

Do Not Interact:

If you are racist, sexist, homophobic, transphobic, a nazi, alt-right, pedophile etc.

If you’re a terf, swerf, acephobe, biphobe, panphobe, or exclusionist, or you don’t think non-binary people exist

If you are a NSFW-focused account or do not tag your nsfw.

If you’re a sfw kink-based blog (e.g. agere as a coping mechanism is welcome, agere as kink is not, even if both blogs are sfw)

If you’re just here to spread hate or start discourse (it isn’t going to work)

If you age down s/i characters or age up minor characters to ship yourself romantically with them

Just generally think about who you’re speaking to and use common sense.

If you ship something I don’t want to be exposed to, I’m going to block you. This is nothing personal, I’m just looking out for my mental health. If you don’t want to see the content I’m creating, I invite you to do the same.

Requests:

Thanks for making it this far! (Or maybe you just scrolled all the way down to the end and didn’t read any of it. Either way, I’m glad you’re here!)

I make no guarantees of quality or timelines, but I’m happy to write short letters or imagines (think a paragraph or two, unless I get really inspired) for you and your f/os!

Rules:

One ask at a time, please. Wait for me to get to yours before asking for another one.

Be patient! Having the spoons to research and write for a new character is a rarity for me. These may take a long time. You have been warned.

I will write for villains, but I won’t write things that condone their morally wrong actions.

I will not write anything NSFW.

I won't write romantic letters for Spock or Nerys (sorry!)

I reserve the right to refuse any request for any reason. Hopefully this never comes up.

What to send in your ask:

Please specify the character and the source material, and be as specific as you can. If you have any headcanons about them, please add those too. Any information that helps me get to know your f/o better will help my writing to be more in character!

Please include whether this is a romantic, familial, or platonic f/o!

Please specify whether you want an imagine or a letter. If you want an imagine, a prompt would be great. If you want a letter, I’d appreciate some notes on the tone you want the letter to be in.

If you send the ask anonymously and want me to @ your self shipping blog, let me know and include the blog!

As I said, I make no promises of quality or timeliness. Remember, your f/os love you very much!

#intro #please don’t reblog #personal #kes speaks #request rules #self ship #long post

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popculturebuffet · 4 years

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Quack Pack Episode 22 Review: Snow Place to Hide

So as some of you may know, I do weekly reviews of Ducktales ever since the season started. But quite obviously, that only comes once a week and on top of that we have only two weeks left of episodes before a break and given the last few episodes have stoked my wanting to watch other Disney Afternoon shows, after i’ve taken way too long to get around to watching more of them again despite having D+ for almost 6 months now, i’ve decided to branch out into other shows. If you have an episode of a show, animated or otherwise, on D+ you want me to review, just shoot me a message and for three bucks, i’ll review it asap. Yes I snuck a promo in there but in my defense.. shut up. More babbling under the cut.

So with Daisy a coming and me starving for Daisy Duck Content, and Disney Plus for SOME REASON STILL NOT HAVING HOUSE OF MOUSE DESPITE HAVING NO REASON NOT TO HAVE IT ON THERE AND HAVING BEEN AROUND 6 MONTHS, YOU ASSHOLES, I was left with a handful of choices to both watch casually and review. I’m not really intrested in the Disney Junior shows, though they aren’t bad, especially roadster racers, just not my speed. And while I DO fully intend to watch legend of the three cablleros, i’ve put it off too long and i’ve heard it’s excellent, it’s not a place to go for Daisy when, by all acccounts and what i’ve seen of the show, that version of her is godawful and not really approraite to celebrate the character going into her big debut. Hence, Quack Pack. I’d been meaning to revisit the show anyway, having seen two episodes that weren’t half bad years ago and despite it’s obvious flaws, being curious about the good in it. For the uninitated Quack Pack was disney’s second Duck show for the Disney Afternoon and followed Donald and teen versions of the boys on various misadventures. Along for the ride are Daisy, anchorwoman for globetrotting news program “what in the world?” and her coanchor and Donald’s Boss , as Donald’s the duo’s cameraman, Kent Powers, a smug egotistical human with weird hair. Yup I said human. One of Quack Pack’s more infamous traits was having humans instead of dog faces (the dog like humanoids carl barks used since he coudln’t use humans himself when he didn’t want to use a duck), which is a choice i’m just.. eh about. I don’t LIKE IT but it dosen’t ruin the show for me and the ducks blend well enough with them, I just question why disney did it when they turned down Goof Troop’s request to do the same, which again worked out for the best. As a result of this weird choice the series is less of a direct sequel to Ducktales and more of a spritual sequel: it’s still barksian in it’s own way, just instead of focusing on scrooge, like the earlier comics in Barks catalogue it focuses on Donald, and thus bounces between slice of life shenanigans and globe trotting adventure, sort of like how the collection of barks stories I bought recently that’s donald centric starts with the all-time classic old castle’s secret about the family visting castle mcduck to find a hidden foruturne, and then segues into a comedy plot about donald trying to put the boys in chimp suits for a society party because he’s kind of an asshole in the old stories and these stories were kinda weird. I”ll probably talk about some of them at some point. The problem though is that not only are the boys the focus instead of donald and daisy, but that the boys are insufferable here. They speak like otto rocket and act like zack morris, trying to scheme their way out of work and speaking like they just walked out of a commerical for Whale Cancer.

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F-Yeah. the point is, the three of htem just aren’t likeable or intresting, and it also hurts their paired up with Donald, who as usual is. It’s probably why I remember this ep so fondly: it’s mostly donald focused with the boys off to the side and taking slapstick vengance on a deserving target. But that’s quack pack in a nutshell: a wasted opprotunity that got overhyped as bad and whose good title got used for one of Ducktales 2016′s best episodes which classily didn’t take any real pot shots at it and even snuck kent in as one of the humans trying to murder them. So with all of that out of the way, what’s this episode actually about? Well basically donald, after flying into a jealous rage over what he thought was her sweet talking another guy behind his back but was really just her cuddling her igauna, which sounds dirty for some reason but is entirely wholesome, is chastized by daisy for being a jealous twit. Daisy herself is jetting off for the weekend to a nearbye ski resort to get an interview with action star Jean Claude.. basically a combination of Jean CLaude Van Damme (the accent and onlyt hat) and Steven Segal (his apperance and skeeziness). Sadly the character isn’t wearing a kimiono the entire episode for accuracy, but he’s also not trying to sexually harass daisy for favors like the real steven segal would. No joke there he’s just a creep and deserves to be called out on it. Also the show missed a massive opproutnity to have him be a seagull named “Steven Seagull”. Just saying. See Kent, being an ass, is trying to scoop daisy on it and get an interview himself, so Daisy’s trying to beat him. Donald says he trusts her but well.. then he starts hallunicnating. Everyone, i’d like you to meet the green eyed monster of jealousy.

Why yes, that is a sizeable wolf in a green zoot suit representing Donald’s jealousy and insecurity. Why is it a wolf an not ana ctual monster? Why is donald halluicnating? Does he need thereapy.. I can only answer the last one which is yes. The rest I have nothing but I am here for it. And the wolf is one of the best parts of the episode: if this was just donald getting jealous over daisy, he’d be as much of a dick as his nephews are in this series, but the green eyed monster is a neat representation of the ugly feelings we all feel at one time or another. He sounds intellegent, clever... like he’s saying the right things... donald’s inner voice goading him on even though he knows deep down daisy wouldn’t cheat and he shoudln’t be doing what he’s doing.. which in this case is, as the wolf’s suggestion, taking the boys on a ski trip despite hating sking to find out if hsi fears are unfounded or not. And while what donald’s doing is a MASSIVE dick move... the episode TREATS it as this,a s him being irrational and insecure.. so it’s a lot easier to deal with. Plus as is standard for comedies he keeps running into scenarios that look like Daisy’s having a good time or in romantic situations with kent by concidence, even though again he should know better. But that’s why donald is who he is: a relatable angry asshat whose just like you and me: because like us we all sometimes sink to our lower instincts despite knowing we shouldn’t. We slip and stumble. Does it make donald following her around okay? nope. But it dosen’t make him unsympahetic either, and he does learn his lesson and suffer plenty of slapstick for it. But that’s the basic setup,donald follows daisy around while his new wolfy pal eggs him on. Meanwhile the boys get cut off sking by kent, calling him “Lime Slime”, real clever guys, and only agree to help donald get kent away from daisy, in reality Daisy is merley sticking so close to keep kent from running off.. and that’s not an overreaction, kent hilarious trys to sneak off the second he’s out of her sight every time and is so inepet at his job Daisy wants to stick around to make sure he dosen’t cost them the interview, which he probably would honestly. It’s good comedic timing and that coupled with the slapstick and the wolf whose damn funny and reminds me , along with daisy in her ski outfit that yes I am bi bi bi till the day I die. It’s not bad. Wait what were we talking about? oh right the boys.. they mess with kent a bit, it’s okay, it keeps them out of the main plot. Eventually things esclate as Daisy does find Jean Claude who unlike kent, whose unitrested in Daisy and is a sleazy dope for other reasons, very intrested in Daisy who rebuffs him.. and donald witnsess it and realizes he was a dickhead and a skunk, with helpful visual cue for the latter if sadly not the former. Donald of course ends up crashing into their table and Daisy realizes what was going on, and the boys quickly cover for him as entering the weekends ski race. Because of course there’s a race to end this this was the 90′s and goof troop had already done this so Quack Pack had to do the same. But we get a somewhat charming moment as Daisy admits she knows donald was just covering by agreeing with the boys, and that what he did was NOT okay.. but she gets why. And to me, at least, I get it was less him not trusting her and more him .. simply thinking he’s not good neough. As seen above the wolf appears during the race to goad him again, but I think he’s less afraid of her genuinely not loving him and more afraid she’ll see he’s not good enough, he his, and leave him. But ..s he won’t. This si daisy at her best, willing to put donald in his place for being a dickhead, but still having genuine chemstiry with him and understanding the dope. It’s why I prefer this daisy to one who treats him like garbage without letting him explain (Cabs) or cheats on him constantly with Gladstone because he has money even though he’s a massive selfish dick and donald’s a decent if flawed guy. (the comics depending on the writer). Admitley Id on’t think she should be as forgiving as she is, but whatever. Donald gets injured during the race,learns his lesson.. and for real this time as the monster, himself banged up, tries to goad donald on when donald’s handsome doctor shows up but donald instead does the old bit with hospital beds where he has the thing collapse on the guy. That’s also whyi ‘m not too hard on him: again he gets punished, but in addition he LEARNS from it and realizes he was a moron and is genuinely sorry. Overall the episode is pretty good. The bits with the boys are incidentaly and likely there only so their actresses can get a pay day, not that i’m against that, Pamela Aldon has mouths to feed and at least one of her daughters had to be born by then, but otherwise it’s an enjoyable throwback to the older shorts that showcases donald and daisy at their best and has an intresting and well designed, if werdly named, side character. While I joked about the weird choice of green eyed monster, I still loved the character as his smooth talking, flashy design, and great use of metaphor meant he was a delight and i’d love to see the design show up int he reboot for something else. Overall not a bad time for 20 something minutes and far better than i’d of expected of quack pack in the past. Who knows maybe the rest won’t be so bad.. MAYBE. Until next time , courage.

#ducktales #quack pack #donald duck #daisy duck #donsy #the green eyed monster of jealousy #green eyed monster #kent powers #steven segal #huey duck #louie duck #dewey duck #the disney afternoon #whale cancer #90s #sealab 2021

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kokichihasfleas · 4 years

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Why komahina is the best ship

Don’t mind me this is just my #1 otp and I love them so much

First of all, we all known komaeda is canonically in love with hinata. The creators confirmed it, it’s in his character book, and not just that, they put them together in every promo art. Remember the valentines art where komaeda made hinata little chocolates ?? And the valentines cakes ?? Even the creators are like hell yeah gay rights

No but in all seriousness, it’s confirmed that Komaeda fell in love with hinata because he was the first person to actually talk to him and show any interest in getting to know him. Which, is really sad considering how low his standards are, but sweet. Komaeda follows him around for the rest of the game, and he mentions that hinata is the only person who he honestly cares about. When hinata starts to act more cold towards him (when komaeda goes a lil nuts) he says how hurt he is that hinata doesn’t like him, but that he’s not “giving up hope yet”

During the chapter 3 despair disease arch where my guy has the liars disease, he tells hinata that he can’t stand being in the same room as him, and that he wants him to go away because he hates looking at his face. Hinata is legit just a dumbass and doesn’t think about it, but that was him saying that he loves being around him and loves looking at his face 🥺 so many people just miss that part when they playthrough and I’m like ?? They said he has the liars disease like at least 20 times how did you forget

In the Japanese version of danganronpa, during komaeda’s famous 5th free time event where he tells hinata he’s in love with him, he literally says “Hinata kun, aishieteru” which not only means “hey I’m in love with you”, it’s literally such a strong and dramatic way to say I love you that most married couples in japan don’t even go that far. He literally says it like it’s the most genuine thing on earth. Also, komaeda states in his free time events that his #1 dream on earth is to be loved by another person. So he’s probably really excited to finally find someone who he actually considers an option for that and it breaks my heart

Now, my favorite piece of komahina in the game is still the fact that Komaeda, who is the most unstable, black and white, hope and despair feeling character on god’s green earth, DOES have a despair sprite, but uses it a total of 0 times in the actual game. Not when his classmates die, not when he’s dying, not when he finds out they’re all remnants, nope none of those. When is the one time he uses the despair sprite ??? in fucking island mode when he goes on a date with hinata, and he’s afraid Hinata will hate him if he doesn’t find something interesting to talk about.

HONEY

Island mode is so iconic because it’s also where komaeda calls his and hinata’s room their “love nest”, and he also says he’s totally fine with stripping and having Hinata see him ass naked

And the thing that GETS me right in the heart everytime is that he’s in love w izuru AND hinata before he even knows theyre the same people 🥺 in the anime it’s pretty blatant, the most obvious part being izuru shooting him in the heart and him blushing and smiling about it but like you know whatever

And they balance each other out WELL. Hinata is my favorite danganronpa protagonist bc he puts up with 0 shit. He loves his friends, but he shuts down the bs so fast. Naegi is a sweet heart, but he has no spine, and shuichi is so damn depressed he don’t know what’s going on. Hinata is really logical in his thinking and can crush anxious thoughts really well. Komaeda ?? IS an anxious thought. He never shuts up about being worthless or ugly or a loser, and hinata would be so quick to shut that down and validate him and probably make him feel really special 🥺 and komaeda could help hinata not feel so bad about himself in a different way, bc hinata does have a few issues obvi. He feels dumb bc he doesn’t have a talent, and even though komaeda is pissy about it in chapter four, he ultimately doesn’t care. That’s the thing komaeda cares most about on earth, but for hinata, he’s like eh I guess it’s not THAT important.

And like...I just love them so much 🥺in Danganronpa 3 hope arc they got to live happy ever after but I want m o r e I want them to move into their love nest and be happy

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cutegirlmayra · 6 years

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Sonamy Week Promo- Theme - Superheroes (August 3rd)

With special permission to promote the upcoming themes, here’s something to inspire you!

Prompt:

The tingles spread throughout her body.

She stared with sparkling excitement in her eyes up to the screens where the three heroes fought the evil mustached man.

She wondered if they could make it as her fists scrunched together even tighter. Her heart raced with each of their movements, trying to track them on the screen.

“He’s gonna die.”

Amy glared back at a kid the same age as her.

“Nuh-uh!” She cried back, looking to the blue one. She pointed very proudly to her favorite, “Heroes don’t die! Especially not my Sonic!”

“Your Sonic?” The boy looked confused, before mocking her and shaking his head. “Hey guys, get this! This girly has a crush on some loser!”

In that instance, before little Amy could say anything back, a large explosion went off and Amy’s attention was once again glued to the most important thing in her life.

First a red one, then a yellow, each descended from the explosion and looked out towards where they had escaped from…

But where was her hero?

Where was Sonic?

Her feet inched closer towards each other. Her nerves flooded tears to the back of her eyes, ready… just in case the worst was to befall…

“Heh, told ya he was-“

Then Sonic burst through the explosion’s ending flames, and in his arms, was a few flickies he released. Eggman was slung over his shoulder and back, looking like a pouched prize before Sonic dropped him off and let him roll to his back, coughing smoke out for a second.

He dusted his hands off as the flickies rejoiced with thanks and flew off. He waved and looked surprised to see a camera.

Amy waited… she knew what was coming next, and her whole body was ready to cheer.

He curled his lips into an infamous smirk that drew her breath to a mild still.

He threw up his hand into a thumbs up, matching how her fists came up to cover her blushing muzzle.

Then… a sly wink.

The crowd around her burst into cheers, and she herself sounded out the loudest.

“I’m gonna marry you, Sonic!!!” she cried out, jumping for joy and springing her arms up, out and wide.

The boy and his gang of no-do-gooders tsked.

He walked up and put a hand to her shoulder, stopping her cheers. “Marry? Haha! You couldn’t even meet the dude!” he pushed her towards the wall as she stumbled, her feet coming up a bit behind her.

Her hands braced the wall to diffuse the impact, before she turned around with offense in her eyes. There was now a fire from all the energy around her, and her mind wasn’t thinking very kind thoughts…

“What’s your problem!? Jealous?” she turned back around as his friends called out ‘oohs’ and challenged their friend to fight her back.

“What’s to be jealous of? If you do marry him, at least he’s thinning out the ugly runts for us.” He looked back at his friends who laughed or seemed to have to loop the sentence in their minds before getting the joke.

Amy’s face flushed as her once innocent enthusiasm turned into bitter rampage.

Her shoulders hunched up, her teeth bore fierce walls against the growls that were swallowed in her throat.

“What’s that? Can’t take the truth?” The boy turned back, smirking.

His smirk… was nothing like her hero’s.

He was just a stupid kid!

“You’ll never be what Sonic is!” she cried out, letting her chin stick out as she let the full width of her mouth elongate the sentence out. Her body lurched forward and she summoned her hammer. “Just watch! I’ll be a super hero too and make him respect me!”

“You don’t even have our respect!” the boy spat back.

“…I will.”

Her demeanor suddenly became very scary.

She smiled a wicked grin and gripped both hands to her hammer, lowering her eyelids as the boys suddenly hushed up and took a step back.

“W-wh-what’s with this atmosphere… all of a sudden..?”

It was only a matter of seconds.

A few grunts and some hard PIKO hits, and the boys were scurrying out from among the crowd, crying or looking terrified. Some called for mommy and some just stated she was crazy.

It wasn’t long before Amy started her own career of crime fighting…

Not long after getting a reputation, Sonic and the gang arrived to see Eggman trying to recruit young and stupid teens to his causes. Making empty promises that would ensure their swift sign up to slavery—I mean—Employment.

Amy was the first on the scene, taking out his robots, and showing off a great deal of combat strength.

Immediately, the Sonic gang looked to each other, and thought her skills would be an asset to the team.

But Sonic hesitated.

“What do you mean, she’s too aggressive?”

“All I’m saying is we should scout her out. Feel what her motives are. After all, you can’t just sign someone up for the business.” Sonic had recently taken out the rest of Eggman’s forces and driven him off the city, but Tails and Knuckles still wanted to recruit the young hero.

“Hey, if she can deal out her hits as well as she did those robots—” Knuckles unfolded his arms and tried to make a plea in her case, but Sonic continued to relax back on the side of the building they were hanging out on.

“And what? Find out that she can’t hold them back?”

The two suddenly stopped their persistence and looked to one another.

“You want to test her morals?”

“Exactly. You can’t be a hero if you’re just throwing punches without good reason.”

“We mostly fight robots. There’s no need to-“

“There might come a day where there is, Tails.” Sonic got up, cracking his knuckles and smirking. “I’m gonna find out what her motives are. See if she has any class. If I find she’s worth the venture, I’ll offer her a place on the team right on the spot!”

Knuckles smirked, “A friendly test of one’s righteous causes, eh..? I’m in!” he punched his fists together, as Tails twirled his twin namesake’s skyward and looked up.

“She’s mostly known for protecting the weaker guy… If we set something up to test what she’ll do, we’ll have to make sure she can’t recognize it’s a test.” He was very logical in his thinking, but Sonic wasn’t thinking of a set-up…

“Oh no. We’re not playing any of those mind games.”

Tails looked confused, “Then… how do we know if she’s good or not?”

Knuckles looked off towards a pile of robots that scrap-heapers were still trying to clean up.

“I’ve got an epiphany!” he smiled.

The two looked down from the building at the place he was staring at, and both smiled as if getting the same thought.

Amy Rose was a small-town hero waiting for her chance to properly introduce herself to Sonic and his gang.

Mostly Sonic.

She had trained and challenged every mediocre bad guy that came bounding around the corners of her metropolitan home.

They never stood a chance to her Piko Piko Hammer, but the second Eggman showed up, she knew Sonic would be hot on his trails, and had seen him in action for the first time with her own eyes…

Now… she was finally going to impress her hero.

She put her hands together and took a deep breath.

“Okay…” she summoned her hammer.

“HELLLPP!!!”

Amy looked down to see a strangely clothed child rushing away from a robot chasing after him.

“I thought we said no mind games?!” Tails whispered back through his disguise, turning to Knuckles, crammed inside the husk of the robot.

“Shut up and say your line!” he swiped the mangled arm, but it fell off and he freaked out, having his eyes go white with the illusion breaking and quickly pulling it back up before the red of his arm could show through.

Amy, from so far up near an apartment complex’s rows of thin, steel stairs off the sides of the building, couldn’t see the malfunction in disguise and quickly went to the scene.

When she was just about to make her move, Sonic spin dashed into Knuckles, causing him to fall over as he saluted to Tails to head off.

“Woah! It’s Sonic!” Tails faked admiration like a fanboy, and then waved him off before heading away. “Thanks, Super cool, Superhero, Super Sir!”

Sonic sweat dropped, freezing in mid-motion to show his awkward reaction to Tails overacting his improv.

‘A little much there buddy…’

Amy held her breath again…

Her feet inched closer.

Her fists covered her muzzle.

She waited for it… the signature flare she loved so much.

Turning his head, he prepped himself before firing off a smirk, a flick of his nose, a finger wag that transformed into a thumbs up.

But where was..?

Then he winked.

“Awwhhaa-haa-haa..” she melted at the sight of it being so real in front of her. Immediately she strode out, “Sonic!”

He turned, having already seen her coming, and smiled. “Well, if it isn’t Amy Rose.” He held himself confidently over the robot, as Knuckles angrily wondered when he’d finally get off of him.

She stopped a bit in her tracks and stared up at him in amazement. “You… You know my name?”

“Sure do.” He held a kind tone and then stepped over Knuckles, having a faint ‘OFFPH!’ come from within the metallic hide. “I’ve heard a lot about the beauty of the city, but even more so about a young hedgehog who takes after a certain well-renowned hero we all know and love so much.” He lifted a hand up to explain before striding over to her.

His eyes had her fixated and she gulped, not even having enough seconds to prep herself—that is, mess with her dress and bangs—before he was standing directly in front of her.

“I was just wondering when I’d get to meet the lovely rising-star of the generation.” He tilted his head down and folded his arms, sticking a leg slightly out to balance and still holding himself with high prestige.

Amy stumbled on her name, before finally shaking her head, “O-O-Oh no! I meant, I’m Amy Rose and I’m a huge fan!”

“I can see that. The Newspapers leave no stone unturned.” He winked.

She fawned again.

“Is all he doing is talking?” Tails peered from around the corner, tossing his getup and unclothing himself from the disguise as he did so. “Geez… it’s like all he wanted to do was flirt with her.” He looked awkwardly afraid that he was right, but his eyelids lowered to annoyance. “Humph.” He fanned out the clothes and put them into a neat pile by the side of the alleyway. “I never took Sonic for a Casanova... Yet, here we are…” He muttered out, clearly frustrated at Sonic’s apparent ruse. Though Sonic’s intentions were clearly not so… Tails wondered how ‘not so’ they really were…

“So why do you do it? Why do you fight?” Sonic got right down to business, tugging on his gloves to keep his attention elsewhere.

He didn’t want her thinking he was interested… not just yet.

“O-Oh… T-…To get closer to-“ she stopped herself suddenly. She looked down at the ground.

His ear twitched and he looked back to her. ‘…Did she really only do this to get close to her idol?’ he looked a bit disappointed, and thought this was all for naught.

Before he could bail out and reject her, she suddenly took a breath and quickly spoke out.

“I wanted to make what was unfair… fair again.”

He stopped from his momentary retreat.

His head turned slightly back to her, wanting to hear what she had to say.

“There’s too much ‘justice’ in a world of unjust men.” She held a hand to her heart, “Sometimes… it’s so inspiring to see someone stand up for the little guy… like you do. When you saved all those critters from becoming energy-food for robotic takeovers! Or-or..! That one time! When you fought that robotic double-ganger and even tried to save him from that lava!” she began to grow excited, and her passion moved Sonic to turning around and fully back to her.

“I just knew there was a thing as true justice! Because I saw you extend mercy… not just once, but countless of times! You weren’t holding yourself over men, like some judges do… you were… equal and knew you weren’t any better… But what made you better was that you had the courage and strength to do the right thing! More than anything! That attracted me to doing the same thing in my life!” She became more bolder and stepped up.

Her sudden shift of character allured him to fixate his eyes upon her shining expression, the look of pure hope and admiration in her eyes…

Her voice was sweet… “Heh, thanks for the flattery, kid.” He closed his eyes and tilted his head down, rubbing his nose. “It takes a lot for someone to commit to doing the right thing like that.”

“I don’t just do it for myself.”

He looked up again, once again taken back slightly by her boldness.

“I do it… to serve others.”

He found himself staring at what seemed like his younger self… his ideals and dreams… before smirking and nodding to her.

“I must admit, I’m impressed.” He walked back towards her. “Usually,… these hero wannabes just want the fame and glory… no redeemable qualities about ‘helping others’ unless it’s all talk and no real heart.” He stopped, toe to toe with her, before tending his hand.

“Wanna prove it?”

She looked at the outstretched hand.

Suddenly, Knuckles was tried of just laying down and doing nothing!

He rose up with fierce anger at Sonic ignoring him.

He pretended to charge up a laser, even making a sound effect.

Sonic thought it silly, turning around to him but Amy seemed to believe it and jump towards him.

“Look out!” she fell on top of him.

“Quick! We can take him!”

“W-wait! Hold on!” Sonic’s hand was immediately taken, but so… was his surprised heart…

She hoisted him up with a powerful swing of her arm as their hands stayed gripped together. “Spin me around! Like you do with Tails!”

“O-o-okay..!” Still stunned by her forwardness, he spun her around like a flicked coin, or looking like a spinning top as their blurred images formed a similar blue and pink pattern to one.

They bashed against the metallic coverup, but Knuckles held his ground and fought against the grinding sensation coming from her hammer.

“Nn…nnnrrrg…nnrraaAAHHH!!!” he flung them back, as Amy skidded on the ground and launched Sonic at him.

“Now! Spin dash!”

Sonic smirked from within his ball, seeing her passion wasn’t all just talk, but she was truly ‘throwing herself’ into the fray.

He took down Knuckles with multiple pummels. “And stay down… don’t mess this up for me, buddy.” He whispered down to the metallic carcass, stars in Knuckles’s knocked out eyes.

He raced back to Amy, but she leaped into his arms, surprising him and his heart once again.

His eyes grew wide as Amy celebrated.

“We did it!” she moved her head to look directly up at him.

The world seemed to glimmer and glow as she gave him a genuine smile.

“My dream came true! I was able to help you!”

Immediately, Sonic was taken off by her over-eager imaginations to go out on a ‘first’ date with him. Dragging him stupefied as she showed him around her beloved city, introducing him to the sights and delicious tastes of her city’s proudest creation- The Chilidog Dog.

Was it because he was with her? Or was it the amazing food?

Either way, Sonic had never felt so powerlessly helpless before.

He didn’t quite like it. It was too strange for him. And he couldn’t just pull away…

Tails and Knuckles would watch silently from afar, eating the delectable chilidogs, and just contently keeping tabs from far off.

“You think he’s going to invite her to join the crew again?” Tails said with a stuffed mouth, sauce sprayed across the sides of his face.

“…Eh, he looks kinda jaw-struck.” Knuckles formed a frown to the side of his face, pouting almost at how utterly exhausted and mesmerized Sonic was acting.

Tails knew he meant awestruck.

“…Mwaybwe hwe’s swmittwen.” Tails commented as he shoved the last piece of the bun into his mouth, chewing.

“…Smitten? By that pink thing?” Knuckles turned to Tails, raising an eyebrow. “You think he’s in to tough girls?”

Tails swallowed, wiping his face with his arm. “Or sweet, endearingly passionate girls who domineer his every move.” He wagged his feet off the side of the building they surveyed the interactions on. “Either way, I think he’s just surprised he impacted someone’s life so much, you know?” He turned back to Knuckles, “I was kidding about the smitten part.” He sweat dropped, seeing Knuckles squint his eyes as if trying to see something he couldn’t from the two…

“Yeah… smitten…” Knuckles didn’t hear a word he said.

“…Knuckles…” Tails looked annoyed he was being ignored, before Knuckles swung a fist out and started shouting.

“OH YEAH!? Well if he thinks he can swing a girlfriend by on MY TEAM. Why I outta…”

“Sonic and I made the team.” Tails side-commented, looking at him but turning his face away before smiling down at Sonic. “I hope he doesn’t see her like that. It could be problematic… but either way, I’m just glad someone’s able to entertain him for so long.” He mused, before yawning. "Well… he’ll find us when he’s had his fill of this… New Girl. Let’s just find somewhere to sleep, okay?”

“Wait till I get my gloved, mitteny little hands on that-!”

Tails just sighed and dragged Knuckles by the scruff of the back of his neck, pulling him away from the two.

#sonamy week #sonamyweek #sonamy #sonicxamy #sonic au #amy rose #cutegirlmayra #sonamy prompt

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zoebechtle-blog · 6 years

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Unlikely Chapter 14

It never occurred to me that Niall had a key to his bathroom. When he opened the door and found me curled in a ball on the side of the bathtub, crying my eyes out, he pulled me up and into his arms. I buried my head in his chest, ugly crying. I didn’t want him to touch me, but it was also the only thing I wanted. My face was streaked with makeup and I smelled like vomit. I tried to fight him off so I could at least straighten myself up, trying to gather my wits, but he took control, turning on the shower and getting me out of my clothes and then shedding his own. He pulled me in and sat on the bench, pulling me onto his lap. The whole time he was whispering words that weren’t even registering. My brain just keep shouting at me that he was done, that it was all over. My abrasive personality (my father’s word for it) had chased yet another person out of my life. He ended up washing my hair and body, and basically carrying me out of the shower stall, drying me off, and laid me down in the bed. I was wrecked physically and emotionally. He left for a few minutes and brought back a bottle of whiskey and two glasses. We both swallowed a shot and stared at one another. I was naked with just his duvet wrapped me around me and he was in a pair of shorts. I was pretty sure I’d just cried more than I had in the last five years of my life combined. He looked distraught, moving his feet and picking at his hands. I wanted to talk, I wanted to yell, but I didn’t even know how to start. So I opted to just crawl over and lie my wet head on his shoulder.

“Z…” I waited on him to continue, lifting my head which suddenly felt too heavy to hold up. I laid it on his pillow, looking at him from the side.

“Goddamn it, you’re beautiful.” He said it reverently, leaning down to touch my cheek. It was two thirty. He would be leaving for the airport in five and a half hours. There was so much between us now, and I didn’t know how to fix it. Was it even mine to fix?

“I’m...I’m sorry, baby.” He kept caressing my face, his voice almost a whisper. “I fucked up. Didn’t mean to smother you. I’ve never done this before. Thought we were supposed to be together like that all the time, that’s what a girl wants. I shoulda asked you.I freaked out when you left the other day. I had no idea what was going on and I thought you were just done with me. ”

Where the hell were all these tears coming from? Fuck them. “I held it in and didn’t tell you when I started getting annoyed. I blew up and overreacted.”

“And I was hurt. So pissed. I lashed out at you. Calling Kimmy was the stupidest thing I’ve ever done. Shoulda just left the plans like they were.” He hung his head.

“If this is going to work, and previous to Sunday I think we were both pretty gung-ho on making it work…”

“You don’t want to anymore?” Sheer panic crossed his face, his lips parting.

“I do. I mean, I’m pretty sure. But fuck, these last two days have sucked. We have to be better and talk about shit. But we’re still on the learning curve. We have to figure it out together.” He nodded at me, his eyes wide and unblinking. “And you can’t goddamn run away from me.”

“If I could stay, I would.” He bent his forehead and pressed it to mine.

I hated to beat a dead horse, but… “Five weeks?”

He had the good sense to look miserable when he nodded. “One of the Nashville guys is only available that last week, and they’ve spread out some of the studio time. The gaps aren’t enough to really make it home.” He started biting his fingers again.

“You’re going to miss my birthday,” I whispered.

“Oh my god. Zo.” I could see him trying to do the math in his head (carry the one, June has 30 days…). “Fuck. July 29th. FUCK.”

“Nashville?”

“Baby girl, I’m so sorry. I’ll fly you in and we can go away for the weekend. We can find someplace quiet that won’t require you to be near bugs.” Points, he did know my phobia.

I shook my head. “We always have a big party. Go to Brighton the weekend before and stay at Aaron’s grandparents’ beach house. Paulie has named it Zoepalooza. Ruth always comes and makes me banana cake. I’ve never had the heart to tell her I hate bananas.” I gave Niall a wry smile, basically telling him I wouldn’t be coming to America for my birthday. I have my own thing, and him not being there was going to hurt.

He buried his face in my neck. “I will make this up to you, even if it takes me twenty years. I’ll buy ya whatever you want.”

“Sounds like you can’t get me the only thing I want.” I wasn’t trying to be an asshole (well, just a little). Being with him was what I wanted.

“You’re still going to visit your family for your mom’s birthday, aren’t you?”

“Yeah. In two weeks. But I fly into St. Louis Friday morning and leave Sunday night. Dr. Summit has that conference in Glasgow the week after.” He sighed.

We laid quietly for a moment. “So…” He let out a shaky breath.

“Yes?”

“If I sign with, um...an American label? Like Capitol?”

“That’s what you want, right?”

“Yeah, I mean, it uh...makes the most sense. And the idea that they even want me, Z. That was Sinatra’s label, yeah? But I’ll be in L.A. more now.”

Another thing I wasn’t aware of. I leaned away. Not running. Just processing. How much is more time? “I didn’t know that.”

He nodded. “I wasn’t sure, and I didn’t know that they really wanted to come after me this hard. You think we can do this? Your life is here.”

“Isn’t yours?” I was confused - his friends and his home were here. I was here.

“Yeah. But if I’m in L.A. part of the time, then tours, and promos...Zo, that’s a lot of time I’m not in London. Like two years ago I only spent 59 nights here over the course of the year. All the time I’ve been here now has kinda been a fluke.”

Well this would have been helpful knowledge to have had at the beginning of March. “I think I’m too far gone to do anything but try to figure it out, eh?” I felt a sort of deflated but peaceful. I rolled into his shoulder and buried my head, biting on my inner cheeks to not cry. He ran his fingers up and down my arms, singing “Unsteady” by X-Ambassadors, then “Gale Song” by The Lumineers softly. Eventually, our mouths found one another’s and the desperate kisses began. We made love with tears in our eyes until Deo knocked on the door to tell him it was time to leave for the airport. Willie drove us to City Airport, Niall and I cuddled in the back of Range Rover. When we got there, we stood apart from the boys, our heads bent together, making promises to talk every day, to facetime, and telling one another how in love we were. I knew it was all true and despite my sadness, I felt relief. Deep down, I knew we’d be okay. The text he sent from the lounge of him holding a teddy bear with a shirt that said, “I Left My Heart In London” made me smile. He was flawed and clueless about matters of the heart, but he was mine. I needed to get over the demons in my brain and my stubbornness, but I was his. We had to learn how to do this together and it was going to hurt. But it was also going to be the best experience of my life. I knew it. Willie took me home afterward, stopping to buy me a peppermint milkshake. He didn’t let my tears scare him and he gave me a long hug outside of my flat.

“You survived it, Z. The first fight. I told you, he was going to take patience. I’m glad you’re giving him the chance. You two are meant to be.”

I hugged him again and thanked him. For everything.

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