#the depression sleep hits hard

[kuipersorbit]

did someone say bee and puppycat on netflix???

#im so fucking excited you dont even know #this is the first time ive drawn in weeks #so sorry if its messy #the depression sleep hits hard #bee and puppycat #bee and puppycat fanart #bee and puppycat season 2 #bee and puppycat on netflix #bee and puppycat fans rise up #i would tag spoilers but the show is only an hour long and came out 3 years ago #sooo #orbits art

[frozenfrogz]

I'm still here.

#this has been on my mind ever since i watched this scene #they ruin me but also complete me #ive got post-heartstopper s2 depression #its hitting hard #the forehead kiss made me cry more then i already was crying #i need to sleep #heartstopper season 2 #heartstopper #heartstopper s2 #heartstopper series #nick heartstopper #charlie heartstopper #nick nelson #charlie spring #narlie #charlie and nick #nick and charlie #nick x charlie #charlie x nick

[guiltye]

thank you to all who have been patient with me! i just recovered from being terribly sick (i was down bad) and holidays, and personal issues, but i feel much better and i feel good enough to be back full swing. i appreciate you all endlessly and will be reaching back out over the next several days <3

#ooc. #usually me being sick doesn't get me that bad but? i was a mess. #couldn't sleep and felt like crap so the sleep deprivation hit the depression HARD. #but i feel much better; i am back in the office; i am getting my routine back <3 #blows u all a kiss.

[silkflovvers]

I drew Jaye for the Arknights 4th anniversary card event but posted it on my not NSFW accounts, so if you find it, congrats!! It's just black, yellow and gray. Not too crazy? But yeah. I drew something nice after having a really bad art and self confidence drop so I feel like boasting that I drew something... Even if I'm not posting it here ...

#txt #ak #ough depression hitting hard this january.... #grandpa has fallen twice and has a terrible bruise on like. half his face #my art skills come and go on a day to day basis #i cant sleep properly #3 of my dads coworkers have covid #and my depression keeps spiking at least once every two to three days #can i get a break its my birth month for goodness sake

[ms-softgoods]

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#definitely feeling the post concert depression now #it's been hitting hard ever since we landed #so i hope tumblr lets me upload the rest of my decent pics/videos/gifs this weekend #before louis does his first australia show and people forget about asia again #but i also need sleep because fuck i am so close to passing out

[theirloveisgross]

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#Decluttered my room a bit #Gotta work a full shift tomorrow before continuing with the living room and actually cleaning the floors and shit #And then a concert lol #Why do I do everything last minute #Anyway... She'll be annoyed #I know it but like... When depression hits its so hard to do anything #It's not that bad... I just keep a lot of stuff #Whatever. It'll be nice to pay half rent next month #Excited for the show tomorrow #Local boy who opened for sun room 2 years ago #He's so good #His name is 'young friend' #Okay... I'm sleeping now #I'll dream with Zaynie singing right now because I have the audio to support my dreams thankssssss

[eosofspades]

okay so maybe it was just me being ahead of the curve or whatever but like. did anyone else have their ultimate misery / severe depression era during middle school instead of high school?

#mine #mental illness #it is FOUR AM i should NOT BE thinking about this but oh my god #i read something and i just realized that it wasnt just depression i had a full-fucking-blown psychological BREAK when i was 11 #and i need to be up in four hours but now im too pissed to sleep like oh my god i had a FULL PSYCHOLOGICAL BREAK and #STILL none of the adults in my life even noticed i was SAD?? FUCKING HELLO?????? #anyway rant in the tags but also im genuinely asking did this hit anyone else in middle school/ages 11-13 instead of high school #bc all the stuff i see is about how miserable and mentally ill kids in high school are and im absolutely not discounting that #but like. high school was SO MUCH BETTER for me it was fucking PARADISE compared to how deeply fucking hurting i was #throughout all of middle school. like i would relive all my high school years ten times over before i even ONCE had to feel how i felt #from the ages of 11 - 13. high school was FUN for me and i was still very mentally ill going into 9th grade!! #like. okay you know the adhd principle of executive dysfunction where the idea is that DOING the task is easier than STARTING the task #and the analogy that goes like. imagine you had to struggle for hours climbing up the gravel mountain to get to the construction site #so when you finally get there youre like oh thank fuck time to lay some bricks i could do this all DAY #and the guy who drove up the mountain to the work site is all angry and is like man stop bragging about how EASY laying bricks is for you #man its hard work!!!!! and youre like. not as hard as climbing up the damn gravel mountain dude #and whenever i hear people talking about how high school is the worst. i think of that. #yeah man high school is hard. not as hard as suffering through the crushing misery of being 11 though.

[chryzure]

sitting here, twiddling my thumbs. azure might be some form of aplatonic as well.

#memorie.txt #aspec in all categories i guess!!! #mostly because. i was rlly trying to figure out what his deal is #because he’s Friendly with ppl (or polite) but generally doesn’t pursue deeper friendships #because he doesn’t rlly feel the need to?? he’s jst fine as is thanks… he has his wife and his 21 seaslug free daughters at home.. #hmm. jst feels weird when trying to assign him friends. he would NOT enjoy that!!!! #there’s literally no drive or enjoyment derived from (most?) friendships. he’s jst enduring #i think conni surpassed that by hitting azure’s cheat code totally on accident (photography/chess/chrysi) #and now he and conni are linked for life #and chrysi jst is the most perfect companion for azure ever #so she gets to be his. jst his. like it’s romantic but it’s also so much More than that. they once shared a body. they once shared a SOUL. #it’s too simple to describe as romantic… #anyway. this doesn’t count when azure perceives someone as an adoptive child because he loves kids #but at the end of the day azure jst likes keeping friendly acquaintances #. this is no surprise to anyone but im slowly figuring out labels for all my charas #and assigning them all different mental conditions too. chrysi’s bipolar and has ocd (obvious). jacks has bpd like crazy. #azure’s… hmm. defs low empathy and depression and probably autism #but most of my characters do. chrysi’s ocd might stem from autism i jst need to Consider this.. #anywayyy. thoughts. #i am Going to sleep. i cried vv hard and ate chocolate and thought abt azure so im all good for the night ithink

[dockaspbrak]

I don't think i feel ashamed of anything as much or often as i do insomnia....weird. Annoying. Nothing wrong with it i wish i felt less ashamed

#stupid brain doesnt know when to shut off #i always vividly walk thru the fear i felt as a teen when my dad woule be getting up for work at 5 am #and the series of chores hed go thru before deciding if i was gonna pretend to be asleep or not in case he came to make sure i was up #and often he didnt id just be waiting for him to scamper bc #im so easily hurt by even simple #barbs or even prodding about lack of sleep #my dad going oh still up? with disappointment is like 100 f grades #i cant even remember his insult. just an immediate deep guilt and shame and disappointment #sometimes he'd even laugh and jokenw me (rare but treasured) but still the shame #hm #i probably need to be in therapy rn #depression snd unemployment hitting hard!!!!!! gotta get a fuckin job asap

[shattered-sparks]

Why is there no undo button? I did not ask for to become sams Lunar thanks. I would like to go back

#context - Kinnie/Irl of Lunar #Depression hitting hard #I need sleep

[opens-up-4-nobody]

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#ay. looking forward to the future when im back in therapy #like i dont feel terrible rn. i dont exactly kno how to describe it. i feel like ive been tossed up onto the shore of a desert island #after a big storm. like im still lying facedown in the sand bc i dont kno what to do when i stand up #i guess im just still sitting in the desolation of 2yrs of burnout and i kno that things need to change but i dont kno #quite how to manage it. bc the thing abt me is that i have ambiguous handwave undiagnosed obsessive compulsive behaviors #and its like every. everything i do is. like its structure to the extreme. i have to do these things because. because why? idk just because #so im like ok i have to change things so i adjust to the change and the structure just becomes rigid again. the cage changes shape but the #volume stays the same. and its hard bc i cant run rn so its like i cant expell my frustration and its a compulsion i cant fulfill and its #constantly in my head. im also just tired. ive been sleeping more than usual and idk y. like i dont feel that depressed but i guess i do #feel bored and pointless bc im just doing computer stuff rn. and i also just feel like my brain is cloudy #like learning is a thing i like to do but im not allowed to spend time reading papers bc i have to draw bc thats the structure #but i want to learn abt those specific topics and i just feel like my brain is full of holes #like its a very specific feeling. like back after i 1st finished my masters i was taking carbon measuments bc thats #like the most useful thing for me to do in tbus lab but it destroys my brain and then my boss was training me in some culture isolation #stuff that i liked a lot and was more aligned with my interests but i hit this wall where my Brain was like ur not allowed to do that #anymore so i make the choice to let the project go and just do what was useful. idk y i did that but i do it all thr time. idk its just hard #when like everything feels so boring and bleak all the time but with this little glimmers of specialness that im not allowed to reach for #ugh. its just the hormones. bc it's becoming very clear i have high and low moods associated with hormone shifts. and the obsessive #compulsive behaviors. those r just ambient but at time exacerbated by the shifts #unrelated #also participating in trivia stuff triggers me feeling dumb lmao but idk i dont usually memorize facts. i usually go for vibes and like what #do u build with what youve learned. like who gives a fuck if u kno a set of facts if u dont do anything with that info #but thats just me being defensive bc i have a foggy brain full of holes

[itsjustjake13]

"Don't let the darkness fool you. All lights turned off can be turned on."

- Call Your Mom, Noah Kahan

#noah kahan #call your mom #hitting hard #depression #anxiety #i need sleep

[dirt-mccracken]

Part if me is feeling really helpless about life and a bigger part of me is like "hey buddy we are suffering right now because we haven't seen any of our friends in nearly 2 months, we have been spending our free time studying war crimes, we also were literally couldn't eat without gwtting nauseous for like 2 days this week so we may be a bit malnourished" and while providing all these explanations there is. Very little being done to solve this in an effective manner.

#good news is the social isolation thing will improve Tomorrow #+ I'm going to seattle for a friend's birthday soon as well so that'll be good #+ a friend is coming down for my birthday as well so like the worst of it is behind me there #and like. at least I'm trying to take vitamins and take better care of my teeth? and other things? #like it hit me hard last week how deep I'd fallen into Really obvious depression symptoms since moving #it was finally the absolute annihilation of my sleep schedule and regulation that made it actually click #and now I'm like. trying. but there's so much to do. #i know baby steps is the only way but ugh ugh #personal

[yuan4i]

i will defend leona kingscholar with my life istg

#⁺◟✿ rambles #no because i was like him before #im not sure if i still am #but his: why try when no one’s going to care mentality hits hard bro #BRO ISNT LAZY HES DEPRESSED ‼️ #like let the bro be man :( so what if he just sleeps all day #like existing is already a really difficult thing to do #so kudos for him for being alive #I COULD SPEND HOURS RAMBLING ABOUT HIM HELP #OKAY GOOD NIGHT

[weenhands]

i physically cannot bring myself to do anything lately like it's so bad

#lately eating has been way harder. i Cannot for the life of me do school it is so hard goddammit #i cant get out of bed i just sleep until the afternoon #making plans with robin is much more harder #i know im sick but i think its just ever since i realized. Alot of stuff from my past. which just hit me like a truck #ive been really sad and depressed just mourning and grieving all of that all over again #and ive been heavily journaling about it so it. makes sense ig #the gag is that i dont deserve anyone i ruin everything i shouldve tried to jump in front of that moving car at age 15 #but it wouldnt matter becaue by that time the damage was already done <3 im literally not meant to be here

[logicallyphan]

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#((Sorry for being so MIA yesterday the anxiety and depression HIT HARD)) #I am on an anti depressant and a mood stabilizer and some days that doesn’t help #I legit just slept all day and im probably gonna sleep again all day today #I’m just so sad and anxious lmao fuck #personal #will probs delete later