#the confidence to just demand that

[strawberrysamara]

"Kaidan Alenko is boring" WRONG. Kaidan Alenko is one of THEE characters of all time. He's Canadian, he's Schrodinger's man of colour, he's DOWN to fuck and still didn't manage to figure out that he's bisexual until his thirties, he killed a man as a teenager and almost caused a diplomatic meltdown bc of it, his tits are bigger than yours, he's constantly getting migraines, he has autism but doesn't know it AND he glows. What more could you want

#samara speaks #mass effect #kaidan alenko #now if you'll excuse me it's date night. i need to go fall down several floors through a fish tank and have him come pick me up. #also like. as much as he is under control in comparison to some of the other squadmates he's still got his personal problems 4 u 2 fix #it's just that his problem is that society demands that biotics be perfect to be accepted; otherwise they're seen as threats #part of his arc with shepard is (imo) learning to have more confidence in himself and his abilities and to listen more to his emotions

[daily-hanamura]

#persona 4 #p4 #persona 4 golden #p4g #hanamura yosuke #souyo #this scene revealed so much of their relationship in one go #yosuke has already long been established as yu's confidant at this point but this moment really drove it home! #yosuke anticipates each of yu's behaviour #but even though he disagrees with it he doesn't judge yu for it #even going so far as to help yu hide it from the rest of the team #its debatable whether thats necessarily a good thing #but it demonstrates yosuke's unwavering loyalty to yu while also making clear his disappointment #and of course yosuke has much to feel sad and disappointment over - one the one hand it felt like yu didnt trust him/them enough #he phrased it as a matter of “you should trust us more” as opposed to “you should trust ME more” because talking about trust in the singula #would hit too close to home and risk making too many demands of yu. demands that yosuke didnt feel he was allowed to make #afterall why would yu trust him but not the others? but the team is made up of other more reliable people than he was #and bringing up the team gives yosuke a defensive cover #so as usual it's part of yosuke's self doubt creeping in #but theres also honesty here - yosuke wasnt here to accost him or be angry at him; he really showed up just to make sure that yu was safe #and once hes confirmed it yosuke falls back to his usual habits of cracking a joke to lighten the mood #to end the conversation on a joke feels like its as much a service for yu as it is for himself #we know yosuke tends to joke to make the people around him feel better and i think in this instance he was also trying to cheer yu up #whether it was to make up for yosuke approaching him or to alleviate any guilt yu might feel #or even to manage whatever it was that adachi might have said to yu (which yosuke undoubtedly picked up on) #yosuke doesn't let his disagreement with yu get in the way of supporting his partner #to some extent i also wonder if this loyalty was also coloured by their previous interaction with namatame and Yosuke's anger #it's been less than a week since that incident after all and i think theres this contradiction for yosuke #and i think there was probably a contradiction in Yosuke's heart in that moment: he doesn't trust himself to make good judgements #but as much as he'd rather take yu's lead in this instance he also feels like his leader was wrong here

[ganondoodle]

i really like tumblr bc despite its reputation i get way less annoying people being clowns on my posts on tiwtter i can mention literally anything i dont like about totk and you bet theres some guy that either gets really salty about me not worshipping the game like a god that can do no wrong or straight up get mad about what they IMAGINED i said

#ganondoodles talks #thankfully its not many #but still more than here #and yes i block people over that bc i dont need a clown spamming my notifications #“sounds like you just want more content” #HUH #they added TWO more map layers but me saying they could have left the shrines or titans models in the game is asking for too much more??? #the shrines/titans where ALREADY IN THERE just leave them in there and slap a green moss texture on it #me saying hey wouldnt this be cool to do with the titans after they stop funtioning is demanding more content #but ah yes id love colelcting even mroe than a thousand krog seed or hundreds of mayoi signa or 15 copies of the same vaguely dif link oufi #i dont need to have 500 options of items to glue to my arrows #making me scroll endlessly to find the item i need #im fine with 5 actually #soemtimes less is more #i want to bite some people #and i wish i had the confidence some of these have #just going on other peoples posts and loudly blaring in their face of what they think you said but 100% didnt #at least have the courtesy of making your own post to complain isntead of yelling it in my face #what do you think it will do? #lol #anyway #thanks for being much more bearable tumblr #ily <3

[impossibledial]

i’m so intrigued by dannyclara despite not shipping them. i think that relationship is an interesting addition to clara’s character arc and i’m still trying to to figure out it’s purpose.

#read tags #doctor who #doctor who meta #clara oswald #clara oswald meta #danny pink #twelfth doctor #discussion #tagging pinkswald but let it be known i don’t ship them. #i think they were cute for what they were though. #it’s hard for me to view their relationship without being blinded by twelveclara but i’m trying. #my reason for not shipping them is due to clara’s treatment of him which i feel people don’t bring up often enough. #the only thing danny ever asked of clara was to stop lying. #twelveclaras tend to act as if he was possessive or territorial or demanding but he wasn’t. #he wasn’t insanely jealous in the caretaker. twelve was. he just wanted to know what was going on. #even in motoe he checked in to ask clara if she’s really sure she wants to stop travelling. she had no need to lie. #in the flatline script he says ‘if you’re back with the doctor it’s okay. you don’t have to lie to me.’ #yet time and time again clara does. #clara may have loved danny but there was no trust. #she continually broke his trust. she never felt like she could confide him. #despite this i still view clara as a fundamentally selfless character. #i now think this is why she was willing to die to be with him dark water. she felt that was the least she could to make up for her lies. #i hesitate referring to it as a punishment because being with danny could never be that for her but i do think it was because of guilt. #it’s that lack of trust that makes her hang up in a sense.

[jrueships]

If Alpey and Jaba got ice cream together, which flavours do you think they’d choose? 🤔🍨🍨

From the way Jabari acts, some people would mistake him to be a pretty boring guy when it comes to tastes in food. He's a creature of comfort who, if uncomfortable, will battle and yell with all the ferocity of a territorial lemming to regain it. However, some people tend to oversee that comfort and luxury can come hand in hand. Jabari is not the man who will play it safe, he will squint at the ice cream's menu and carefully select one of the most obscure options ever after conducting some serious research either beforehand or during the process. This research includes asking the employees what they think of the dessert. Even if there's a line of hungry kids and their late to work parents waiting behind him, Jabari will hush the ground so he can calculate All the options to come to a stable conclusion that Yes, this Is, in fact, The Best choice of item to spend my money on. He probably likes combinations, like an upside down banana split or something odd like that. If he's buying ice cream at a place that's stabilized itself by making good ice cream, it can't just be any ice cream he can just buy at a store then. It has to be THEIR SPECIAL ice cream. He's here for luxury and specifics, whatever the ice cream store says they can do the best, like, actually do in terms of making it, sprucing it up with syrups and fruits, and decorating it all nice and different, mixing it, etc, he'll buy it. I feel like he'd be one of those people that buys those really fancy overloaded ice cream shakes where there's like syrup or crumbs decorating the outside of the cup like sugar on an alcoholic beverage and there's a brownie bar on top for extra extra appearance appeal.

Meanwhile, alpey just wants some Dondurma, which is a Turkish ice cream notable for its hard texture and melt resistance, so he brings his own special knife and fork sets, one for him, one for jaba so they can cut into their ice cream bricks :] !! He's fond of the sweeter flavors, but they can't be artifical. ... sadly, there is no delicious Dondurma, and the ice cream just melts and slips between the slits of his special fork with much despair and pity. His ice cream lacks the sweetness and realness he desires, and they have no honey !!!! It's not stretchy or chewy at all! the texture is almost nothing !!!

It's okay, though, because Jabari orders him something special off the menu, an ornate mixture of various fruits and syrups and decorative pizzazz that they both end up using their forks to eat it. The creature of luxury cannot stand to see his fellow critter in need lack his own creaturely comforts. Before Jabari orders Alpey a new unique ice cream, he coaxes (demands) alpey to try a spoo-forkful of the carefully considered dessert of Jabari's choosing. Once he can tell Alpey likes Jabari's ice cream more than the simple and safe one he chose, Jabari buys Alpey something similar but with more sweetness. Cue another hour long research session that makes the poor teenagers groan as they watch their line grow longer and longer behind the happy couple(?) clinging onto their weird little forks instead of spoons.

#i think jabari and alpey are a strange mix of picky and also ill eat whatever x likes #jabari wants high quality recommendations #hes open to options... but they have to be Good #and you have to be reliable or confident when offering them or else he'll shake his head and close down on you for even trying #when clearly #youre not ready to help his precise culinary demands #alpey is more like.. i eat what i like and what i dont like.. i dont eat <3 #i feel like he likes sweets and chewy texture #but if it's too chewy that it becomes a chore to eat #he stops and puts away the rest as leftovers #meanwhile jabari buys with the purpose of not having any leftovers #he wants something that will clean his plate at the end #he'll only take desserts so he can try to replicate the recipe at home since he loves it so much #alpey is too lazy for that #bro just wants ice cream 😭 #but it also needs to be ice cream he likes !!! #he likes the ice cream his family would have! #... he does not have that here #it's ok tho bcs jabari is very interested in learning new things especially in food and sports so maybe #one day he'll surprise alpey with some jaba made alpey ice cream #!!! #ted asks #HOW CUTE! I LOVED THIS ASK! I LOVE THE GUNSMITH PROPAGANDA SPREADING!!! IT'S SO CUTE #alpey #jaba #theyre so puppykitten love to me

[littlegalerion]

As a homesteader, I can say 100% Halsin needs some serious help. He is all about "nature has a balance, where all are cared for", meanwhile here I am, having to pull two drakes off one lady duck because, by nature, both will attempt to breed her as roughly as possible, even if it ends up injuring/killing her.

Also, by nature, my chickens have a strict pecking order. A good few get bullied as they are the lowest in the order. I attempted to introduce some young ladies to my less than a foot tall Sebright Rooster, and he was brutal with the bullying. I had to pull them out, he was so bad.

Nature is not a beautiful, idealistic lifestyle. It is survival of the fittest.

Perhaps Halsin needs to seriously rethink civilizations' role in nature. That we, as people of all races, differ from animals in that we can choose to rise above our basic desires and urges if we so choose. Chaotic change is normal among the wilds, but we can actually bring good change, despite however much evil is in the world.

That is our role.

#halsin #the more and more i reread dialogue with him the more he shouldnt have been an archmage #heres the thing- EA Halsin felt like an ArchMage #even when he talked about his previous failings he still sounded somewhat confident in what he had to do #i dont know if they changed this but in EA it was implied he killed isobel or however you spell her name #sad elf dilf's daughter that loves nightsong that person #it was implied he killed her out of self defense and had awful for it #and that he took more responsibily for the shdow curse because her death was the last straw that broke her father #it wasnt just thaniel that tied him to breaking the curse #it was wanting to put a grieving father out of his misery #misery halsin had directly caused #I LOVED THAT #btw HE WAS ALREADY AN ARCHDRUID THEN #or it was implied #he represented the druids at least at the time #i hate to say it but everyday I worry that we ruined the character by our demands #this doesnt feel like the same guy from EA #also...hes against the city's behavior yet if you slaughtered the grove he forgives you no problem #'you reacted accordinf to your nature' yes halsin #as are all the people tryibg to survive in the city #also...350 ISNT OLD FOR A WOOD ELF #hes legit maybe just hitting his 30s #elves are considered CHILDREN until 100 years old #i am forever haunted by the quote the devs once said #'we always saw him as an old wizened archdruid' #what did we do to our bear man? #what did we DO?! #bg3 spoilers #baldurs gate 3 spoilers #bg3

[starredforlife]

sorry I’m just actually sick to death of being told I’m intimidating . I know it’s scary when a woman talks without apologizing for herself constantly but maybe uhhhhh grow up!!!

#I’m not Scary on purpose literally I don’t fucking. growl at people #I don’t glare at them or be mean #can I be condescending? sure. it’s something I’m working on. #but how is it that I get demonized for this and straight men get way with it fucking constantly. and it’s an accepted and sometimes beloved #part of them #if one more fucking person tells me I’m intimidating bc I speak clearly and ask questions I’m going to lose my fucking mind #star’s thoughts #sorry this is a culmination of a bunch of shit lol #just bc I’m not scared of you doesn’t mean you need to be scared of me 😭😭😭😭😭 pleaseeee #part of me is thinking I’ve just been experiencing like intense lesbophobia or smthn at this point bc what the fuck #do I do that offends people off the bat. #but then I remember how I Am and rumors are true I border on the line of arrogance I dance on the showboat I flirt harshly with confidence #I think I have an issue where people have to earn my respect in conversation #and that is rightfully intimidating. probably some kind of protective tactic #I command it but also I demand you Show Up upfront and I can see how that’s like. anxiety inducing #I’m shifting to try and offer that respect upfront instead and hopefully that’ll make people feel less on edge #this has been like. a mini diary. sorry lol

[loudmound]

this excerpt from a doom eternal review is at the core of what i think made 2016's storytelling several steps above what eternal was trying to do and why i'm so pissed off at how disastrously they flew off the rails.

#stormy shouts #the review is called 'doom eternal is a dizzying catastrophe' if you want to read it for yourself #eternal's narrative suffers not only in part due to the crunch the devs were under #but also a severe lack of confidence in those that took up the helm of writing—because they don't consider themselves writers! #they don't understand what makes a story good #they just threw all the cool shit they liked at a wall and hoped that would be acceptable #and obviously... it wasn't #it's a story that refuses to take itself seriously while also demanding that you as the audience take it seriously #own your fucking ridiculousness and be earnest goddammit. campy shlock is not inherently a bloated fuckshow

[bhaalsdeepbat]

Apparently cooking up a hellspawn one shot 🙏

#im obsessed with them #and the dynamic of the immortal falling in love with the mortal whose time is coming dangerously close to an end #her finding the strength to keep fighting to hold onto her future with him just a little longer #astarion finding the strength to accompany her to hell with confidence #bc he isnt going to spend his first moments of freedom mourning the woman he loves #when he could be spending that time with her making do with impossible odds like #they've faced the impossible before multiple times together already #and now she isnt alone and he will make damn well sure she never is #and like karlach MELTING to his love language #she's starved for touch and he is all romantic touch and just #he's that cat that took a minute to warm up but then became a lap cat and now demands lap time at all times #and karlach is just #she needs to be loved in a way that respects that she never wants to experience that profound loneliness again #bc it was 10 years of not being able to trust anyone #and the only friend being someone whose friendship came at the cost of karlach suffering in some way #anyways now im thinking about wyll and how these three would be a hilarious polycule #astarion is their princess

[ojirocardigansniper]

ouguhhh just read the summary and article from this post about alexandre baril's work on suicidism (oppression of the suicidal) and the opening paragraph of the conclusion in the full article. thoughts. rotating

i was thinking about the. thick white gloves. while reading. remembered that one post about how csa being horrifically taboo to talk about compounds survivors' trauma and shame and went Maybe something similar re: suicidality and suicide... the suffering multiplied by the silence, the risk of dismissal or instant change in perception in anyone you tell... and even in 'mental health' spaces the perception that suicide as a topic is dangerous to talk about- that it could be triggering instantly and automatically- is like. i think there's some paternalism there and there's some shamefear and there's some oversimplification and there's the fact that it plays well into the existing well-taught impulse to avoid the discomforting. but like. this post also about how getting through suicidality is maybe only possible by considering the option thoroughly. i am just thinking. idk. yall know me yall know i think about this topic a lot

#chat #as someone who HAS mostly recovered from passive suicidality- mostly recognizes its suicidal intrusive thoughts as demands for life change- #im def one of the people who can be susceptible to recovery-only mindsets when like assisting or relating to suicidal people. so i need thi #me and one of our stranger sysmates (maze-body) were reading the article together and it kept standing against my reflexive questions + #discomforts because it understands suicidality as both an experiencer (in a weird way) and an already-dead thing; it could confidently- #dismiss my concerns as both fixable and less relevant than the experience and autonomy of the suicidal party. #its whole thing is being- not anti-recovery but like. unrecovered and incurable. which is a perspective we need to remember and have spoken #no matter how much harm reduction + barrier lowering + healing we go through. it as a frank eternality will still remain+need recognition. #its a weirdass way of coping with the inevitability of pain and suffering while not giving up on our locus of control but we're doing it ig #and i think theres a lot there you can relate 2 chronic/passive suicidality- just a companion no matter how much you make life worth living #whatever. anyway #suicide / #in case anyone has. tag blocking but not content blocking fsr

[lurking-latinist]

I want fanart of Seward comforting Arthur while he cries on my desk by the end of the day

#dracula daily #this isn’t intended to be a literal demand to be clear #just an expression of how confident I am that I WILL see such fanart

[emkini]

Me trying to be polite: Hey I want you to do this thing with me. but like only if you want to. you don’t have to. I’d like you to but it’s your call. Did I mention you don’t have to 

My friends: I’m getting the feeling you don’t actually want me to do the thing with you

#most people I talk to are not nearly as weird about this as I am #people will just straight up demand I do things with them?? #and usually I'm not offended but I'm just like. in awe of the confidence #nevermind em

[repurposedmeatlocker]

I find it extremely discouraging how a lot of the time art uploaded to be seen online becomes influenced under the constraints of monetary gain and attention.

It feels like value is placed more on what would be most successful within a wide-reaching audience rather than actual care and intention put behind the work one does.

I think this explains why a lot of art, even by really skilled artists I admire, sometimes end up becoming empty and overly similar to each other.

#btw I am not talking about artists taking commissions or being paid for their work in any way #stuff like that is very important especially if you are doing that work fulltime #it is extremely fair to judge commission/paid pieces under a different eye than personal work and projects by the artist #also this isn't to police what ppl enjoy to draw #really draw whatever you want! it affects no one! #this is just a trend I am noticing though with a lot of people and it doesn't sit well with my morals and beliefs on art ig #I hear a lot from fellow classmates on how they intent to curate their accounts etc #and idk maybe it is just me not being confident about my work turnaround and public presentation #but making work with the only intention to look good and copy what other people do feels so souless #kind of like how everyone applying to certain art schools try to keep the same art style associated with that place #I really do think sites like twitter instagram and maybe even artstation kind of enforces that #correct me if I am wrong #personally I don't really have that same anxiety or pressure on here though #idk tumblr feels a lot less demanding or scrutinizing to post stuff onto especially unpolished stuff #sorry for the rant I will def talk about this again sometime #squack

[ivyandink]

From the diary of Louise DuBois–

Dear diary,

It has been weeks since my last entry, and I can hardly recall what has happened in that time. I remember being so tired. So cold. For days.

I thought surely I was dying. Louis kept me on bed rest after that. I am only now starting to feel like myself again, and when I ask my husband what on earth happened to me, he simply goes pale and doesn’t speak. It must’ve been something horrible. I do not prod.

I am simply glad to still be here.

Gratefully, Louise

#yall this was a CLOSE CALL #wasnt even a dice roll just random chance from adeepindigos mod :~) #i was SO close to letting her die??? bc like?? realism??? but holy cow i couldnt lose her not yet 😭 #thankfully louis was super confident and DEMANDED grim let her live and it worked lmao #who would narrate if she died!!!!! #ts4 decades challenge #sims 4 decades challenge #dubois decades

[rainbow-burst]

I being so fucking normal about this fit on him rn I'm beingsofuckingnormal I'm beingsofuckin nor-

#you have no idea how fucking long I've been drooling crying begging and just screaming for them to do a Lost boy kill count #like I just watched the podcast maybe like a week ago and I'm just like rocking back and forth on my bed like they're going to post a video #<--real soon #and oh my God I watched the video of the kill count in there's so many things I wish they talked about on there but I'm grateful to get it #they did talk about the sequels and.....ekkkk... I mean it's only based off of high demand so let's hope to God no one talks about it #or send any emails for them I mean if they talk about the remake that's fine I haven't really seen that one I know Sebastian stan is in it #oh my God I feel like I'm about to be so fucking annoying about the movie again I think I'm going to just start posting random shit about it #also lately I've been more happy to be posting and drawing again than usual #so I might be back on doodling and drawing random shit or actually I've been having more confidence in myself to start posting doodles #why do I bring that up because oh I don't know...wink wonk 🤫🤫🤫🤫🤫🤫🤗🤗 😉😉😉😉😜😜😜 #my laptop kind of sucks now so I'm going to buy a new one probably this month or next month so I'll be drawing and posting doodles #I'm also thinking about posting some of my recent sketches I have in my notebook but don't expect any Picasso or Vince Van Gogh for me #I know I'm good but like I'm not that good lol im jking kinda sorta maybe not relaly okay yeaj am BUT!!! #I feel like I'm back on my drawing shit again and if I don't finish your drawing I'll just still post it because why the fuck not I'm young #let's fuck around and have some fun why not huh #man I can't believe I'm actually really rambling here but yeah I'm happy to say that I'm going to be back on my stupid shit ❤️ #kill count

[paranormalinstigator]

as someone who firmly believes in the paranormal because i have had paranormal experiences, i think shane madej is hilarious. i don't think he's stupid for not believing; i just think he's a fascinating individual because he's seen and heard more believable evidence than probably anybody, and he's still like "hm. nahhh. anyway!"

#also his hubris is kinda hot tbh #the level of Confidence with which he will walk into a building and demand the ghosts brutally murder him #and then just completely fearlessly walk through the most terrifying looking buildings i've ever seen #wild #he's a real wacky guy and i Love That about him #(do i think every place they've been is haunted? no. do i think a lot of them look creepy as hell? YES) #(would i do what he does even if i was pretty sure a place wasn't haunted? absolutely not. he's insane)