#the UPKEEP. is THERE.

[sergle]

Why is black a High Commitment Color?

That's something I'd award to literally anything lighter than your original color, which requires you to remove your skin, uh, I mean, bleach your hair first.

#NO BC if you bleach your hair and you don't like it for some reason #then the newly lightened hair will take very easily to whatever dye you put over it #if you wanna hit it with some brown dye or a bright color or whatever. it'll cover the blonde just fine #if you DYE YOUR HAIR BLACK... and you don't want it to be black anymore #you can't just put another color on top. it's BLACK. you don't Cover Up black. you have to bleach it #in order to have any other color show up #it's really impossible to GET black dye OUT of the hair #and both of these are different from what I do w my hair #where most of the time I'm using a color deposit but not a developer or anything that strips the hair first #and red dye also washes out / fades quickly #Also have you ever met someone with naturally light eyebrows and light eyelashes who dyed their hair black? #the UPKEEP. is THERE. #sergle answers #which is why I can't just do it On Impulse w/o thinking about it. bc it would STAY WITH ME for a long time #until I either bleached my hair or grew out my hair

[suiheisen]

rattling the bars of my cage screaming for bread

#i love him an extra special amount in this #my crazed little suzie homemaker #my dungeon ecosystem upkeeping babygirl #also both hiroshi naka and prozd’s delivery… excellent #senshi #dungeon meshi #anime #autoplay warning

[inkskinned]

before you know about women, you hear that you do not need to love the man, just that you need to love him through his manhood. which is to say you have seen the future painted in lamb's blood over your eyes - how your mother shoots you a look about your father's inability to cook right. how your aunt holds her wineglass and says i'm gonna kill em. men, right! how your best friend bickers with her boyfriend, how she says i can't help it. i come back to him.

you learn: men are gonna cheat. men aren't going to listen when you're talking, because you're nagging. men think emotions are stupid. they think your life is vapid and your hobbies are embarrassing. men will slam things, but that's because men are allowed to be angry. if you get loud, you're hysterical. if a man gets loud - well, men are animals, men are dogs, men can't control their hands or their eyes or their bodies. they're going to make a snide comment about you in the locker room, about your body, about how you're so fucking annoying. you're going to give him kids, and he will give you the money for the kids, and you're going to be running the house 24/7 - but he gets to relax after a long day, because his job is stressful. the man is on stage, and is a comedian, and says "women!"

and you are supposed to love that. you are supposed to love men through how horrible they are to you - because that's what women do. that's what good women do. wife material. your father even told you once - it'll make sense when you're older. it was like staring down a very lonely tunnel.

it feels like something's caught in your throat, but it's all you know, so. it's okay that you see sex as a necessary tool, a sort of okay-enough ritual to keep him happy, even though he doesn't seem to care about happiness as-applied-to you. it is relationship upkeep. it is kissing him and smiling even though he didn't brush his teeth. it is getting on your knees and looking up and holding back a sigh because he barely holds you as you panic through the night. it's not like the sex is bad and you do like feeling wanted. and besides! he's a man! like... they're another species. you'll never be able to actually communicate, right. he isn't listening.

you just don't get it. you don't feel that sense of i'm gonna climb him like a tree. mostly it just feels fucking exhausting. you play the part perfectly. you smile and nod and are "effortlessly" charming. and it's fine! it's alright! you even love him, if you're looking. you could have good life, and a good family, and perfectly happy.

in the late night you google: am i broken. you google i'm not attracted to my husband. you google i get turned on by books but not by him. you google how to get better in bed.

the first time he yells at you, it almost feels like blankness. like - of course this is happening. this is always how it was going to end up. men get angry, and they yell, and you sit there in silence.

you mention it to your friend - just the once - while you're drunk. she shrugs and says it's like that with me too, i just try to forget and move on. men are always gonna hear what they want to. pick your battles and say sorry even though he's in the wrong. you play solitaire online for a month. you go to your therapist appointment and preach about how you're both so in love.

after all, you have a future to want. nobody lied about it - how many instagram posts say marriage is hard. say real love takes work. say we fight like cats and dogs but the best part is that we always make up. how many of your friends say happy anniversary to the best and worst thing to ever happen to me. if you really loved him - loved yourself too - you'd accept that men are just different from you.

the first time she kisses you, it's on a dare at a party. something large and terrifying whips through your body. you wake up sweating from dreams where her mouth is encrusted with pearls and you pick them off one by one with your teeth. fuck. you sit at the computer and your almost-finished game of sim city. you think about your potential perfect life and your potential future family. you google am i gay quiz with your little hands shaking.

you delete each letter slowly. you don't need to love him. you just need to keep going.

#warm up #writeblr #this is also about being ace btw #my identity has slowly shifted over time and maybe if everyone is REAL cool i'll talk bout it #bc it's complicated and nuanced. but this is like #trying to warn u that if you find it “relationship upkeep” to have sex with ur partner #and don't actually enjoy it or seek it for urself. u might just not be attracted to them. #which is fine ! ace ppl can be perfectly happy in any relationship they feel good in! #but also i wasn't as straight as i had expected! #> the first time i saw dick i was like. huh. oh okay that's fine i guess #> the first time i saw pussy i was like. WAIT ACTUALLY HANG ON I GET IT #i just assumed sex wasn't all it was cracked up to be ya know #but also like. btw? this IS NOT saying ''u might be gay not ace'' #bc tbh i'm grey ace/demisexual #it's saying u might not be into ur partner. explore urself & ur feelings. turn inward. #TAKE THIS IN THE MANNER IT WAS MEANT> GENTLE AND KIND #AND NOT IN A WEIRD INTERNET WAY PLEASE #bc the truth is that there ARE ppl who are gay who assume that they just ''don't like'' sex #and ace ppl who might need a different partner w/different needs #and i would have REALLY needed to hear ''check in w/urself about if u actually like sex'' #WAY EARILIER in my life. but nobody said anything bc they assume if ur having sex. u like it. #not just the actual act of sex. not once ur turned on. do you ACTUALLY like it. or is it a burden? #even if ur gay. check w/urself. maybe ur more ace than u realized. in which case. ADDITIONAL FLAG BB #i love collecting my flags. i'm at like 354 at this point #but also btw this is about how toxic relationships are SO normalized that u can be in one #and have everyone around u being like ''THATS JUST MEN LOL''

[canisalbus]

Kyara

#own art #own characters #CanisAlbus #art #artists on tumblr #Rakshasa #anthro #dogs #canine #animals #cw nudity #artistic nudity #really mild but still #little bit of tummy little bit of thigh #he's not naturally blue #extensive fur dyeing is a form of body modding #if you have the time and means to upkeep it

[prettyghoul]

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hooray kindness NO NEGATIVITY DO NOT EVEN TRY IT

#watcher entertainment #steven lim #shane madej #ryan bergara #watcher #im running to the grocery store soon but will upkeep this as best i can. #might have other people help

[uncanny-tranny]

I think it's so relatable to see trans women and transfem and generally people who no longer have a testosterone-dominant system describing what it was like to have a testosterone-dominant system. I find that often, when they talk about being angry, depressed, irate, or just irritable, I relate because that was me before I went on testosterone. I was so fucking angry and irate and genuinely unpleasant to exist around because I didn't have testosterone.

See, I think instead of estrogen or testosterone being the "bad, angry" hormone, it's more like... of course trans people who need hormones are going to be unpleasant before getting hormones - both your body and your brain require that you have a certain level of hormone balance. Of course somebody like me was fucking furious all the time, the brain does weird shit when its needs aren't fulfilled!

This isn't about criticizing any one group of trans people, rather, I encourage people to remember that ascribing inherent qualities to certain traits (e.g., saying "estrogen is such a horrible hormone!") isn't necessarily good. It's absolutely fine to talk about personal experiences with pre-transition, I do that all the time! The only issue is bioessentializing hormones, in essence, ascribing inherentness to traits we often share.

#trans #transgender #lgbt #lgbtq #ftm #mtf #nonbinary #this is not to discourage people from expressing negative things about their being pre-transition - again that's not what i mean #i talk very negatively about my experiences being pre-transition because it WAS negative. i suffered every day pre-transition... #...but i still look at people going in the direction i ran away from like a man on fire and i find peace in it... #...because that means my experiences weren't horrible for *everyone*. there is something worth it to other folks... #...so i feel as though i have less personal responsibility for Upkeeping Order or whatever... #...somebody has HAPPILY taken over my shifts and i have perhaps taken theirs with similar enthusiasm... #...and that doesn't mean any of it is Inherently Bad

[rrrick]

#imagine the upkeep

[felidaeng]

unova is so cool

#pokemon #rival kieran #trainer hilbert #meepmorps #paldea #unova #hilbert #kieran #pokemon sv #pokemon bw #probably goes without saying but >not canon to the hilbertverse #though there is a high chance kieran knows how n is since the latter assists with terarium upkeep postcanon sometimes

[aliencatart]

having himerita thoughts and missing them everyday of my life

#super sentai #ohsama sentai kingohger #kingohger #himeno ran #rita kanisuka #himerita #ritahime #my art #first one is based on that one lesbian makeup photo #i remembered it and immediately thought of them and needed to get it out of my system #i also think that despite being a monarch rita probably doesn't/have other's upkeep their own bedroom much like their study #cramped messy dark with even more moffun plushes taking over the bed #so it must be jarring for them whenever they wake up in himeno's bright fancy and clean room #oh and sidenote When is toei going to finally sell that moffun hoodie i Need it

[thotsfortherapy]

so much of self care really is just dragging yourself kicking and screaming through the things that are good for you because eventually, eventually, it'll make you feel better

#cy says stuff #and i HATE it #self care #anyways. made myself go to yoga. made myself have a wrap. i did not ask to have a physical form and yet here i am #SMH my sim is so much upkeep

[otaku553]

Learning how to draw him,

#hsr yanqing #honkai star rail #need more content for him. more character development #give me this guy talking with Dan heng and or his own mentor and gaining more insight on the extent of a long life and what can be achieved #I want him to take a break and rest because he’ll have Multiple lifetimes to achieve his goal #I want to see him geeking out over swords and their upkeep and maintenance! #I want him to start questioning his own ambitions after realizing how much violence his talent lends itself to

[sojutrait]

family affair

#ts4 #s #they dont get a tag yet. i need to upkeep their mysterious aura.

[dyke-pollinator]

Come sit in my lap babe I'll teach you how to untap, upkeep, draw.

#maintaining board state is important #dont forget your upkeep triggers #thats right you can stack them however you want #this is about magical the gathering #the magic is the gay sex we had along the way

[orangerosebush]

Artemis will disassemble and clean a fountain pen with the same level of intensity as Butler disassembling and cleaning one of his guns.

#artemis fowl #Artemis will just automatically include the upkeep of Butler's his mother's Juliet's and Holly's fountain pens in the upkeep of his own #Holly and Juliet tend not to use their pens often (which they have because Artemis gifted them pens) so Artemis will help whenever they vis #visit. Then with Butler it is largely due to the man not having the habit of building 'frivolous' rituals of care into his day so Artemis w #will care for the pens as Butler does (at the end of it all) adore the devices #with Angeline I feel Artemis is just so wholly dedicated to that kind of small act of care when it comes to his mother #(thinking of him composing a unique ringtone for her calls) #I think Fowl Sr is more of a ballpoint pen or a pencil fellow and Artemis will sometimes include his father in the hobby by cleaning #and repairing pens in his father's study while the man works (so he will have the experience of being included through the upkeep) #Tim does appreciate when Artemis shows off some of the special/exclusive inks he purchases #he finds the beauty of the ink a much more accessible aspect of the hobby #that diane ackerman quote about crying in a museum while looking at a piece of yellow sulfur and thinking about how lucky we are to live on #a planet of a natural yellow that is so marvelously yellow #Artemis will do ink tests (when you get a new ink and experiment with it on good quality paper) when his father is in the room for this rea #reason

[gideoncav]

Today’s griddle cooking session

#the locked tomb #gideon the ninth #tlt #griddlehark #the locked tomb fanart #gideon nav #nonagesimitis #tlt fanart #my canon Gideon doesn’t have a fade cause now that I’ve had one holy shit #one word #UPKEEP #AU GID WOULD #sometimes I have to remind myself that she’s 18

[chrisrin]

TAVROS :D !!!

#homestuck #gemstuck #hs #tavros nitram #chris doodles #i love him sooo much i love him so much i adore him sm #his cracked gem has essentially made it impossible for his legs to properly form #so he wears the limb enhancers #i like to imagine when he ends up getting with everyone dirk (as a bismuth) helps upkeep them #dirk appreciates doing work on objects made to help people rather than to harm them