#that they still won't give back

[theghostofashton]

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#i promise after this i'll be done but god i am so tired #of hearing about the queen of turning on the tv and seeing coverage about her it's inescapable and im not even british god #and it's like. #so many of these takes basically imply colonization was good bc us poc are subhuman for being happy she's dead lmfao #like........sorry but i'm not gonna sit here and grieve for a woman who benefitted from the mass murder and brutalization of my people #something my grandparents were all alive to witness and be affected by #i'm not going to be sad about this while watching these royals parade around wearing crowns made up of jewels they stole #that they still won't give back #they stole everything from us left our countries a damn mess and have the audacity to shame us for not mourning them #i will say also it is hilarious how many people praise her for being so strong and powerful as a ruler and a woman #but when someone criticizes her it flips to 'she was just a sweet old lady figurehead w no real power' #like........which is it #is she a sweet old grandma with no power or a powerful ruler who did all those bad things #you can't have it both ways lmfao #women gaining equal rights and power means they also get to face criticism for their terrible actions #it really is funny how white women will always weaponize victimhood when it's convenient like how very unfeminist of you lmfao #anyway yeah im done im just exhausted im not ready for this bs #delete later

[marypsue]

Keep seeing that post where OP starts like 'Thinking about...grieving the undead' and then adds on about like. Real life situations where people have not died but have left your life and you would have reason to grieve them.

All respect, that's an important concept, but that is not what I am thinking about when I read 'grieving the undead'.

#your brother is a vampire. he's sitting across the table from you chatting with your mother about her day #and he's dead and he's gone and he's never coming back. #he laughs the same and he talks the same but his arm is cold when he grabs you in a headlock and your dog won't be in the same room with hi #he'll still hang around watching TV with you and give you wedgies and make stupid jokes #but you can't tell him about the bullies at school anymore because this thing with your brother's face will just find them and kill them. #and not even stupid fucking Jason deserves what the monster in your dead brother's skin would do to him. #your brother is dead and lost and right there in arm's reach and gone forever with no hope of ever getting him back. #i'm sure there are corollaries to be written about like ghosts and zombies but this is the one i'm personally hung up on recently

[batcatsle]

the story of humanoid typhoon and the punisher

here we are on this platform too, heh

#never getting over them #vashwood #vash the stampede ur my everything #wolfwood give me my heart back #trigun #trimax #guys #i need a break but they won't let me go because i still keep drawing them and this work is just a distraction from what i prepared

[sidereon-spaceace]

torn between wanting to make all my ocs Specialest Little Guys and overpowered VS. the fact I just finished watching all three extended editions of Lord of the Rings and am deeply moved by the struggles and worth of the common man

#ramblings #the end of Return of the King gave me many OC Thoughts and now you're going to hear them #might veto the whole 'Funney Big Weapon Guy is also psychic' thing for Sid Sibyl #won't fully un-magic him just cuz i made it a common thing in the setting but like. i might still nerf him a little in that aspect #his whole schtick is that he is aggressively Just A Guy #he's very persistent. won't come back from a job until he found the last crate that fell off the merchant's wagon or whatever #very good at sword-fighting. cuz he trains and spars a lot and eats like a furnace to keep up his strength #his 'high pain tolerance' is something im self-inserting where i won't notice injuries until later. a bit oblivious. just keeps on truckin #an altogether formidable combo but. he is so much Just A Guy #no super strength no immunities no super-charged magic. not even a cursed weapon to give him a leg up #he finally visits his home again and it's confusing why it's not the same as he remembers it- #-when he should have much more in common with old neighbors and vendors at the market than with his cosmically superpowered friends #old sights and sounds and some friends that give him a warm welcome-back but... it's not the same. it's not home. not anymore #from the moment he chose his path he could never go back home #and I feel like the tragedy of that would be undercut if i gave him something like future-vision or a magical sword

[swinging-stars-from-satellites]

haven't you ever felt like you couldn't get enough of a person? like you'd open a door inside their chest and nestle into it if you could but you have to settle for burying your face in their neck? haven't you ever felt that kind of love in a nonsexual way? that kind of yearning? does it have to be about sex? can't it just be about love?

#subtweetimg basically an entire culture but listen uhhh yeah I feel this. I would like to burrow into the two people I love most #and yet I always hold back bc I'm afraid they won't want that #so uhhh yeah #Lu rambles #what I wouldn't give to hug my brother or SIL. or to REALLY hug my one friend who still is here. yeah

[monty-glasses-roxy]

Hold on something's just hit me.

If everyone in the Plex were to believe that Gregory dropped Cassie at the end of Ruin to keep himself from being found, whether he did it or not, wouldn't that make Roxy to one most able to understand him?

As Mimic's guard dog, surely she would know the lengths you have to go through to keep that fucker trapped. A whole team of Raceway construction workers went straight to their deaths down there. Roxy won't let the Raceway be repaired and re-opened in order to keep people safe. She's probably been able to see Mimic and its victims through the floor this entire time, she knows what it can do and what it's done, even if she doesn't know the full extent of it.

She's willing to sacrifice her Raceway and Salon to keep people from finding Mimic. Her pride and joys, basically her whole reason for being built in the first place. They're not worth the risk to her.

Whether Gregory sacrificed Cassie to keep Mimic trapped or not, surely Roxy would realise some sort of similarity. She may think doing that to Cassie was too far, she may think he's a monster for even considering it and she may feel as though nothing could justify what he did... But there's a part of her that gets it. The absolute terror that comes at the slightest possibility that Mimic could escape. She gets that sacrifices have to made, fuck she's made those sacrifices herself. She would never have sacrificed someone for this, that's why she ran headfirst at Mimic instead of just sealing the exits again, but there could be that tiny little part of her that feels the need to constantly to remind her that Gregory was trying to do the same thing she was.

The key difference here, is that if Gregory had done it, it would fall in line with almost everything else we've seen him do. The sacrifices he makes, are of other people, and not himself. He sacrificed Roxy, Chica and Monty to upgrade Freddy for his safety and possibly the safety of Vanessa. If he also dropped Cassie, then he's once again sacrificing someone else for the sake of his own safety. Not like he has that much else to lose, but I'm drawing comparisons here.

Roxy on the other hand, sacrifices herself. She sacrificed her Raceway and her Salon for the benefit of both herself and others. Unlike Gregory finding himself in a hopeless situation and hurting others to get out of it, Roxy was given this job (probably) and chose to give up what little she has in the world to keep the situation from happening. Even when Cassie deactivates her and ends up face to face with Mimic, Roxy jumps straight at it to buy her time to escape which could have easily killed her.

So now you have Roxy, who unfortunately does understand Gregory's choice to drop Cassie (if she believes he did it which yeah she probably does) but has absolutely no sympathy for him. She couldn't care less about him. There's potentially a fearful little voice in her head that she's the same as Gregory that fuels her anger towards him even more. She hasn't ever sacrificed someone else to keep the Mimic at bay and she's been doing it for fuck knows how long, what gives Gregory a free pass? Maybe if he hadn't stolen her fucking eyes she would have been able to stop the whole thing from getting that far anyway!

I'm not saying this to frame Gregory as a villain or anything. I don't think he dropped Cassie and I still think it was entirely Freddy's fault for what happened to the others in SB. I just think this is interesting from a character stand point. The one person that could understand the choices they've made to keep Mimic from escaping is each other, but they're both too hateful of each other for it to affect anything... If they were ever to settle their differences, I think it would have to start here. The only common ground they share, is the one thing no one else does.

But Gregory didn't even fucking do it so I bet that goes well lmao

#fnaf security breach #roxanne wolf #fnaf gregory #fnaf ruin dlc #I'm just thinking here #if Gregory DID do it that would be a fun direction to take this #Roxy so fiercly protective of Cassie and so angry and hurt by Gregory but god fucking damn it she GETS it and she's MAD about it #if he didn't then like. she won't believe him anyway #can you IMAGINE that though?? #roxy and gregory end up talking somehow. it's angry its painful and it blows up #they're both crying they were both on the same side that whole time and had just gone about it differently but so similarly #and fucking HELL they both get it. #Mimic scared the shit out of BOTH of them and they were both willing to do whatever it took to stop it #Cassie was Gregory's FRIEND and he felt he had no choice. she was all he had to give whether he liked it or not #Roxy had more to give but her attraction is her life. She was built for the Raceway everything about her and her identity ties back to that #and she felt she had no choice either. #in a way I suppose they both gave their hearts to Mimic. the things that make them who they are were the only things that would do #Gregory's closest and possibly ONLY friend. the only true connection he still has in the outside world. #and Roxy's entire life's purpose as the Pizzaplex's resident racer and hairstylist. the identity she was born into was too risky to keep. #they destroyed huge parts of themselves with their own two hands for the greater good and they did it alone. #what else could they have done? #if they ever came to an understanding about this they wouldn't be able to tell anyone #how can Roxy emphasise with Cassie's would be murderer? #how can Gregory emphasise with someone that would be Freddy's murderer if she didn't think it'd upset Cassie? #I don't think either would sympathise with each other... but I don't think they'd need to #someone else that gets it even a little bit is probably all they want #they stil hate each other after all! they just understand each other more than they might be comfortable with #anyway I'm fucking shattered goodnight lads

[popponn]

i'm this close to opening discussion whether (is it possible that) kaiser is a playboy or not

#poponing #seeing how he enjoys feeling superior? this seems highly possible esp in a modelling au etc #BUT this guy also hits me like someone who is married into his job and if the other person doesn't give me the feeling of sueriority #for him in his field then he won't bother (i.e. how he acts @ yoichi & @ others at the beginning aka rizzlord kaiser vs default fridge guy) #kaiser (also sae) where is your back story ln chapter im begging here #okay lets stop here before i go off to some weird tangents. now back to rl business. will prob del later #babblings #also adding another note kaiser does seems to kinda focus on something or someone then appear disinterested in others #also will he even bother making someone feel special?? im asking really at this point im going off on semi baseless assumption #that fragile self image is making me scratching my head #but you know ness—magic and then kaiser—blue yellow—glass (chain) kinda like a fairytale (cinderella) ok off topic #....okay not gonna del this. this is my personal note #ugh but anyway playboy kaiser...? he really is confusing for me to write now because his facades are so different #and that cold guy part is STILL a facade. what are u kaiser #now back to rl fr

[stainedglassthreads]

I just. Love how delighted Toriel is that Kris has a friend, and doesn't really care who said friend is. In Chapter 1, the second Kris says that they're hanging out with a friend, Toriel's tune changes immediately and she says Kris can continue hanging out with said friend as long as they please. In Chapter 2, when she meets Susie, she doesn't get judgmental in any way, and all their interactions are just really cute. Baking together, punning together, letting her stay over...

Like, with how Toriel is characterized in Deltarune compared to Undertale, I feel like a lot of people make her...meaner, I guess. They take how she acts around Asgore, and use that to inform how she'd act in other situations. But she doesn't think Susie is a bad influence on Kris at all, she's really happy to welcome Susie into the house and meet her! It's adorable! So I don't think she's quite as strict and judgmental as some assume, or if she is, her desire for Kris to be happy overrides her 'knows what's best for you' tendencies. She's clearly not fully aware of Kris' situation, but is aware enough to be concerned, and to let some things (like waking them up, letting them wander Hometown after school, or devouring an entire pie) slide if it means they're safe and happy.

...On the flip side. It's also kinda sad. Kris isn't really hated by anyone in Hometown, but between being the only human, the situation their parents are in, Asriel(who they're closest with) moving away, the emptiness of their room and how they sometimes lock themself in the bathroom for lengths of time, the way Berdly, MK, and Snowdrake talk about them at various points...it's not so hard to understand why Toriel's so happy and relieved that there's someone outside herself and Asriel Kris has a positive relationship with. They used to be friends with Noelle, and they seem on pretty good terms with Catti, but I don't think they're quite friends right now. So it's also somewhat sad. Susie is probably Kris' first friend in a very long time. But maybe Noelle and Berdly can also become genuine friends, too.

#deltarune #deltarune analysis #toriel #kris dreemurr #the issue with asgore seems to mostly be that he won't respect her boundaries #rather than actually trying to atone for whatever mistake her made or give her space #he rushes into 'trying to make her feel the way she used to' back when they were first married #i've discussed it before but it bears repeating i think #because it's an interesting piece of dr!asgore's character #and an interesting difference between him and ut asgore #ut asgore was so beaten-down and depressed that even when he daydreams about adopting frisk with toriel #he immediately realizes he can't ever really return to those times with asriel and chara. they're dead now #dr!asgore thinks there's still hope to get those times back. he hasn't hit rock bottom...but he's also kinda in denial #he is in a better place than ut!asgore but dealing with it much worse by refusing to move on

[isoldetristan]

heartbreak high season 2 in april babyyy get ready for the malakaiamerie renaissance 🩷🩷🩷🩷🩷

#malakaiamerie #malamerie #amekai #malakai and amerie #malakai x amerie #and i am still THE #malakai and amerie's second chance romance #truther #so amerie haters better back off i literally won't give you weirdos any peace #amerie defense squad #malakai mitchell #amerie wadia #heartbreak high #heartbreak high season 2

[artist-rat]

a quick silfur pic... (i miss her) (*my telekinesis throws everything across the room*)

#dragon age #da:o #warden surana #oc: silfur surana #still tagging as da but tbh i've been considering snatching her back and putting her back into dnd someday #i've started her playthru at least 3 times trying to write fic at the same time but idk??? the freedom of dnd.......... #i wont it.......... #(and i've anyway been very consumed by d&d lately) #(and i'll Perish if i won't give her a proper story eventually)

[swampthingking]

oh! oh </3 oh!! okay!

#he KNEW that apologizing in the nest was futile but when he thought riko was back he STILL APOLOGIZED #HE DIDNT EVEN KNOW WHO WAS TOUCHING HIM BUT HE WAS ALREADY APOLOGIZING #his genuine confusion makes me SO SAD #he’s been through so much but he's still like. so...innocent #his “normal” is so fucked up. he can’t even fathom how wrong the things that happened to him were #he knows firsthand that apologizing does nothing to break his fall and he's like... “is this a trick?” #like “what do you mean you’re not going to beat the shit out of me after i accidentally hit laila in a triggered state?” #“what do you mean there are ways to solve problems without violence?” #and him saying “i can't promise it won’t happen again” (lashing out when triggered) #as in: when it happens again i am expecting to be punished #as in: i will apologize if that's what you want. if that means you won't hit me. if it pleases you. #as in: but when it happens again-do what you must. i will deserve it. #he’s been hurt so often so badly that protecting himself is second nature #he has never been around safe people #his first instinct is fight or flight #his body is protecting him before his brain can catch up #and he obviously does not want to hurt them #but its so fucking HEARTBREAKING because he KNOWS he won't be able to control it when fight or flight kicks in #and if they are going to be around him it is inevitable he will resort to violence. it is all he knows. #but he still cares enough to prepare them for that reality #like. “i can't promise i won't hurt you again” and “i don't mean to” and “punish me as you see fit” #he's giving them permission to HURT HIM for protecting himself #tsc spoilers #tsc #the sunshine court #all for the game #aftg #jean moreau #the foxhole court #tfc

[capn-twitchery]

sighs longingly and stares out to sea..........i miss the second sacristan

why did i get attached to an npc who said zero words and appeared for 10% of a single storyline.........how could this happen to me

#fbg i was gonna do the first oc canon ship i've ever done in my entire life #i maybe still will if i can think of anything but i got Nothing yet #i wish i had a Smidge of dialogue to go off of. a thought process. a written note. i have nothing. how could fbg do this to me #how could you hand me a character that vibes wise is 100% for me. and setting wise is 1000% for me also #and give me nothing to build on. fbg why would you hurt me specifically #I KNOW HE WON'T COME BACK EITHER..........EVOLUTION IS DONE #i miss him. and his 1000 hands #fredspeaks #why can't my brain latch onto a character who i can do things with. wtf

[panharmonium]

something about how yamato’s immediate and instinctive first reaction is to call out for itachi when all twelve of these coffins (including the ones containing asuma and hayate) open up at exactly the same time is really hitting me in a certain way right now

#naruto #team ro #a true equal #* #something about how it's preceded by naruto calling out for nagato #because naruto isn't calling out for nagato as an enemy now but as a friend #something about how this filler arc is supposed to take place directly AFTER the five kage summit #aka after 'madara' tells kakashi and yamato the truth about the uchiha massacre #something about how even if kakashi and yamato aren't sure yet whether 'madara' was just lying to destabilize the leaf at the outset of war #still. the minute yamato sees itachi. it's like this #and then kabuto whisks itachi's casket away before yamato can get to him #before yamato can ask 'is it true is that true is that what happened to you' #like. i am constantly thinking about this. i am constantly thinking about how urgent itachi becomes in S14 #when naruto says that kakashi and yamato heard 'madara's' story too but don't yet have any proof that it's true #(''then PLEASE naruto; you MUSTN'T tell anyone about this! you cannot let the uchiha clan's name be tarnished!'') #and i'm thinking about how itachi reacts like this because he KNOWS kakashi and yamato won't cover this up the way he wants them to #if they ever got the proof they were looking for (which naruto now has; in the form of itachi's confirmation of what happened) #they would never sit back and let this go #so itachi begs naruto NOT to tell them; not to give them what they need in order to clear his name #because he knows they would do it #he was their comrade. and he knows that kakashi's people - anbu or otherwise - never leave a comrade behind #(this is coincidentally reason 983745 why the naruto ending is TERRIBLE and shockingly inconsistent with the rest of the story but) #(i have already talked about that enough.) #(the only thing i'm interested in talking about here is how much kakashi and yamato care) #(and how clearly itachi recognizes that) #(so much so that he does everything in his power to make sure they never have enough information to help him) #(both before his defection and after his death.)

[jaybren]

I Believe...Steddie

I normally don't mind angst (though I avoid drama fics in general). Miscommunication is the biggest trope in romance, so I'm all for it, but for some reason Steve x Eddie fics / drabbles where Eddie still thinks of Steve as Steve THE KING Harrington always sit weirdly for me. Sometimes, if the Upside Down didn't happen (AUs in general) or pre-UD setting, maybe -- sure, then that could work. But close to canon fics where Eddie lives and Steve legit confesses to him? Always just -- strikes me as wrong.

Finally realized why -- it's literally the antithesis of canon Eddie. Canon! Eddie is quick to acknowledge Steve has changed. He literally runs up to him in the Upside Down while a bunch of madness is happening and where he has every right to be consumed by his own shit-tastic situation, but instead, he's telling Steve how he is a great guy and has changed.

Can Eddie be bitchy and prejudice? Yes.

Does Eddie have grudges against jocks / the popular crowd? Yes.

But he also goes full on bowing gentlemen for cheerleaders (going out of his way to help Chrissy and make her smile) and he's quick to acknowledge Steve's not that same popular AH anymore.

With Steve's bitchiness not aimed at him, Eddie would be eating his Honeycomb and snickering when old habits popped back up, and maybe he'd feel conflicted about jocky Steve, complaining about going to games or something until somebody smacked some sense into him. Totally believe tension and disbelief about one liking the other or some bias about things, but I just can't see Steve proclaiming his love or whatever and Eddie assuming it is a trap or trick or prank or something.

Maybe he'd think Steve was confused. Maybe he'd assume they were doomed, but I can't see him blaming Steve for that or blowing up their relationship IF Eddie accepted the confession and they started dating. Eddie's way more down on himself.

If someone can explain how it makes sense, please do. I'd love to enjoy all Steddie tropes, and that one seems popular lately, but where my brain sees so many problems with them getting to the confession point or even a number of big arguments that could happen afterward due to outside aspects, those two strike me as highly tactile, highly clingy romantics who would be convinced they were the height of discrete while practically fused, constantly touching and being snide little judgy dudes together.

#steddie #Steve x Eddie #Eddie Munson #Stranger Things #Only way Eddie doesn't see how Steve's changed is if the Upside Down doesn't exist but then Steve might not have changed #the second Steve asks him out Eddie is 100% in #won't accept anything different #Eddie is a drama king but he's the the sort to be clingy and pushy and cause problems by being too tactile and obvious in a homophobic town #which is why I 100% believe fics where Eddie and Steve fight over Steve refusing to come out or leave Hawkins #Despite also 100% believing Eddie would understand #frankly I fall for all the tropes EXCEPT Eddie not believing (in a canon compliant Upside Down having universe)that Steve has changed #where are my double date fics with Eddie and Steve taking out two girls only to get dumped because they spent more time chatting themselves #What about the fics where Eddie sets Steve up with a metalhead girl only for Steve to be like 'wow I'm super into this' #but then he realizes partway through he is 100% imaging she's Eddie #Or Steve setting up Eddie on a double date only to have a 'oh no I fucked up' moment as he realizes halfway through that he loves Eddie #Steve: Cool Eddie might score (*and it was at that moment he realizes he fucked up) I don't want Eddie to score #Give me hooking up duo who 'just like making out' and 'just aren't ready to get back out there yet' who feel pressured to do so #and they end up throwing hands over it and banging #Eddie: So...that happened. | Steve: Do you think Dustin was right? | Eddie: No way that butthead is right. | Steve: But what if he is? #Eddie: Obviously we can't tell him. | Steve: But we can still make out right? | Eddie: Fuck yeah #Give me dumb bets between guys friends inspired by Steve trying to relate to Eddie like he used to Tommy

[dearmrsawyer]

sawyer was sick over the weekend so we got some blood tests done and it turns out she is diabetic, she stayed at the vet a couple of nights, it was really strange to be alone in my room those nights. i spend more time with her than anybody. then we were supposed to pick her up thursday morning and they said to come in the evening instead because her glucose was v low. the vet asked me to find a glucose sensor to bring with me that evening, it was a public holiday so i had to find a pharmacy that was actually open. when we went to get her we waited 90 minutes and the sensor was being weird so they said come back later. finally brought her back home at 11pm and the sensor still wasn't working, had to go buy another sensor and bring her back this morning to switch them out, had to leave her there for a few hours so they could switch them and make sure the new one worked, then come back in the afternoon. i've had like no sleep at all this week, its a miracle i kept my eyes open to get training to give her insulin. she's so much better since she came home, even though she's not stabilised yet she very clearly feels heaps better ❤ it was such a relief to have her sleeping on my bed again last night. i was still up all night because i felt like i needed to keep an eye on her because i didn't have the monitor. we'll be in and out a lot over the next couple of weeks while they fine tune her dosage and monitor her levels.

#i want to know when i get a break #had planed to use this week to catch up on the prof development course i enrolled in months ago that started the day before nonna passed #i hoped it would be a chance to really apply my mind to something because i feel like my brain is utterly degenerated #after the time i took off this week for this i won't be able to do any of it before it closes i'll just have to download the modules #and read them in my own time without doing any activities/participating in discussions #have to keep canceling my dental check up because things keep coming up #i've also spent the last few weeks trying to link my online tax account to my government services account but it says all my info is wrong #no matter what i give them #what do i need to do #my life updates are so miserable. i delete so many of the posts i start because they just depress me #i deleted two earlier this week #feel like i need to get something out so i keep coming back to try #i still haven't asked hr about whether we have that counselling service thing because i keep forgetting bc i always have so much to catch u #on #i'll try to remember to do it next week #tp

[fluffypotatey]

I like that fic a lot not only cause it's my ship, but because I've never seen that hanahaki type before. Usually the feelings are mutual, and it could be solved by communication (or the person just dies rip). Never seen hanahaki where it's factually right and not just based on what the victim thinks

yeah those are rare ones. mostly, i think, because people like a happy ending (and i am no different tbh), but those are the original concepts of what Hanahali represented: a love one-sided and fatal not just to your emotional wellbeing but your own life as a whole.

#tbh i myself am struggling with how i'll end my hanahaki hangster fic #bc yeah i love happy endings #angst with a happy ending is a tag i search for all the time when it comes to hanahaki #but writing it? idk maybe i do want it to end in tragedy or maybe i'm not ready to give that ending yet #past!shadowpeach and hanahaki has some kind of grace to it bc even if macky died before lmk he'll still come back #but then the question becomes: #is the love still there? is it still the same as before? or has it rottened like his corpse body? #or has it flourished in defiance of his rotting body? #also swk is 7x immortal so his hanahaki condition is simply chronic. he won't die. he'll have be inconvenienced #but will that be enough for him to spill his guts? #asks #shadowpeach #hanahaki