#that first paragraph sounded /very/ bitter and I promise that wasn't the intent I'm just thinking

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You know what bothers me so much

How people are always spouting out "honesty" "speak your truth" "be real," when in actuality they don't genuinely want the truth. They want the sugar-coated truth. They listen to what they want to hear and close their ears to the rest, they listen to what benefits them or makes their life easier, not the reverse.

The truth is we all have lows, we all have truths that aren't so pretty, but we're not meant to share them. We're meant to act like yeah things are an itty bitty not good but you can't have rainbows without storms hehe there's sunshine just over the horizon I saw a post that said such and such and now I have a new outlook on life

Sometimes there is only rain. Sometimes there isn't a cure. Sometimes pain is meant to be felt and not in a poetic way. Sometimes certain things are dark and they'll always be, even if they lessen to the corner of our vision. I think there is such a thing as toxic positivity, not allowing people to feel certain things and sure as hell not share them.

We live in a mixed bag of a world, there are good things, there are things breathtakingly beautiful about life and existence, but there are also wretched things, things we as a society try our best to ignore, that is until it hits us personally. Then what?

We read inspirational quotes until we can't stomach them anymore. We pray to our god, acting like there's some sense, some purpose to pain, acting like it'll all go away. We all feel pain, we all fall into these pits we can't figure out how to escape, so what's so wrong about talking about them?

Every sad thing needs a happy disclaimer. For who? Not the person in pain.

The truth is we need each other. None of us truly have an answer to explain why life can be painful, in big or in small ways, why we're here, where we're going, and we need each other to survive it.

We don't need each other to explain our pain or our grief, to try and find a resolution, we simply need someone to share in it. To carry some of the pain for us, so that we can do the same for them when they need it.

We worry about burdening each other with our problems, but wouldn't we want our friends to "burden us" when they needed help?

I wish we could need each other without reservations.

I wish we could speak honestly about pain even when there's no sunshine gleaming through it.

#hngnnngngngng #I have a lot of sunday existential crises #thinking too much 🙃 yet again #thoughts #emotions #sadness #that first paragraph sounded /very/ bitter and I promise that wasn't the intent I'm just thinking #here I am about to write a happy disclaimer for this post too fuck