#that feels so goddamn uncomfortable

[crabussy]

I love being part of a system <- guy who hates being part of a system <- guy who loves being part of a system <- guy who hates being part of a system <- guy who loves being part of a system <- guy who

#osdd #did #system #HAVING A TIME EVERYONE #listen I fucking love my headmates but i fucking hate the constant confusion of identity and feeling like everyone can’t live a full life #and I love the wonderful conversations we have and the comfort of having the ability to leave any situation to someone better suited to it #but I hate not being able to walk away from fights or having a lack of privacy #and I hate how the others get so uncomfortable about looking in mirrors or seeing the body etc i’m really upset for them #but I love FEELING the joy radiate off sunny when someone mentions her to me and I love hearing jasper and phoebe bicker like siblings #and I love playing goddamn board games with these bitches #like man I wish I didn’t have goddamn trauma and dissociations and confusion and discomfort #but this is how I exist- how WE exist and I have a right to love how we experience the world #that’s enough tags haere ra motherfuckers #robin shut up challenge #syscourse blogs dni #please and thank you!!

[lollytea]

What would be your headcanon for how jealous would play out in a huntlow relationship cause they seem to healthy to do the whole make jealous thing, also I love your blog it’s a god send.

Neither Hunter nor Willow are especially prone to jealousy. Everybody gets jealous now and again so they both probably experience it occasionally but not to the extent that it affects their relationship.

Gotta remember that when Hunter first met Willow, she was very popular and well liked at Hexside, something he must have noticed before he even started developing a crush on her. His initial impression of her was a cool powerful witch that tons of people admired. So he's certainly not thrown off when that admiration from others starts making an appearance in a romantic sense.

It does not bother him. Not one bit. Because in his opinion, it's perfectly understandable. Like. What's he supposed to do? Confront them and demand they not have a big stupid crush on her? She's Willow fucking Park. It's a no-brainer. If somebody asked that of him a few months ago, he would be at a complete loss on how to go about it. He'd probably be more offended if somebody their age mentioned that they didn't have any interest in her whatsoever.

I like to believe that, while Hunter will probably still grapple with a lot of self-doubt post-series, his relationships are what he's most emotionally certain about. He doesn't question if the people who love him actually love him and that includes Willow. Huge growth from him. He's very secure in the fact that she's not going to suddenly meet somebody else and lose all interest in him. He knows he gets more love and attention from Willow than anyone else who's into her. So he's chill with half of Hexside fawning over her to their collective heart's content.

It's shit like

"I saw you flirting with Willow Park in the hallway. Aren't you worried her boyfriend is gonna get mad?"

"Dude I was talking to her boyfriend at lunch and he was giving me advice on how to impress her."

Willow on the other hand, is not an extremely jealous person but I like to believe that something about another person expressing an interest in Hunter tugs out a slightly petty and immature side of her. Emphasis on slightly.

It's the same side of her that was eager to crash the Owl House into Blight Manor just to show Amity that their moonlight conjuring was better than hers. It's the same side of her that used to just sit there and silently seethe at her desk when Boscha and her friends would snatch her pens and hairclips and snacks without any consideration for the fact that they were hers and you can't just take her stuff.

Of course, Willow has matured a lot since then. She's in a better place mentally. She's tons more confident and understands that, as Captain of the Flyer Derby team, its almost impossible to bully her anymore.

She's not threatened when people flirt with Hunter. She trusts him. She's just astounded at the audacity. Because surely, you are not trying to snatch Captain Willow Park's boyfriend right from under her nose, right? You can't be that dumb, right?

Willow is excellent at hiding it. Her actions are subtle. But if this is ever happening, she just wanders over, friendly as ever, though suddenly a lot more affectionate with Hunter than she tends to publicly be. Getting a little clingier is all she does to establish that flirting with him just simply isn't going to fly. And it usually stops after that.

So yeah. It definitely irks her a bit. But she never really lets jealousy consume her.

#semi unrelated to the point im making #but i imagine hunter DID used to get quite jealous before he and willow started dating #but he was jealous of gus luz and amity and even the goddamn palismen #because gus was special to willow in a way that she often gave him cuddles and smooched his little face #which made hunter shift uncomfortably in his seat for reasons he could not fully understand yet #and amity frequently got to braid willows hair and they were always holding hands and linking arms etc #and luz just found it SO easy to walk up and cup willows face and squish her chubby cheeks and squeeze her tight #and of course willow would coo and fawn over the palismen constantly #and hunter whos still figuring out what his feelings for willow even ARE and goes mentally buckwild every time she touches him #oh hes ready to fucking COLLAPSE every time he witnesses these little moments #she doesnt know him AS well as she knows the others #so theres still a little distance to the affection she gives him #and that drives him INSANE

[storm-of-feathers]

not to tmi but I hate how antibiotics cause yeast infections. like i get why i get the science but girl please can I just take some antibiotics and not start growing vagina mushrooms.

#this is super common too so i dont understand why doctors always fail to warn you #i mean *i* know bc ive been on antibiotics before and this is always how i react #but goddamn. i am extremely aware when im not warned #''well maybe some doctors feel uncomfortable with vaginas-'' then they shouldnt be doctors. like straight up.

[wantbytaemin]

i had SUCH a good time at the concert genuinely it was such a good show the band were really good but ofc there was an annoying man when i was getting drinks he was at the bar and kept calling me honey like CONSTANTLY and borderline aggressively so i told him that’s not my name. and i was getting drinks for me and some of my girls too and this guy was like ‘no i’m paying’ to the bartender and the bartender wouldn’t take my money even when i insisted OOOOH girls when i tell you the feeling i got from this bartender guy listening to this random FUCKING man over ME (the person ordering). i looked him dead in the eye and asked “who ordered? me or him?” and he was like “ok ok sorry” and lifted his hands like in a surrender motion and took my money finally. dude it is SO fucking DIRE being a woman

#obviously i didn’t look lesbian enough first of all secondly the absolutely powerless feeling of these two men just deciding i wouldn’t get #to pay for my drinks ohohohooo you got a fucking thing coming your way because i will DIE before i let a man buy me something #don’t you daaaaare look at me and feel like you’re entitled to even a goddamned glance. don’t you DARE #anyway.. other than that it was so much fun !!! 💞💞💞 #and it was a bit of a win moment bc my friend saw the guy was like uncomfortably close to me and she came over (<3) and heard the whole #exchange so she retold it to the other girls and ofc made me look super badass and cool LMAO which i wasn’t going for but im glad it #translated that way hehe 🫶🏻

[starrynightsforever]

One of my professors emailed me specifically this afternoon to inform me that I had written and turned in “the best SOAP/progress note he’s ever read in his time at this medical school.” Normal to want, possible to achieve, etc. except I didn’t want this at all, and I guess it actually was possible because I in fact achieved it.

#there’s nothing that makes me more uncomfortable than feeling like a try hard #which is insane because oh my god I try so very very hard all the fucking time #and also on the other hand #fuck yeah it better be the best goddamn note you’ve ever read for how long I spent writing it #personal

[bxnyi]

Fuck.

#fuck we should be asleep #but I can't go to bed with all these goddamn thoughts. #I'm so pissed #I'm not scared; just upset #obscureart #nsft #vent #fuck #I hate it here. All the emotions I feel and know i shouldn't be listening to #I can't even cry. The tears are there but won't come. I'm just numb and tired #abuse #tw trauma #the words I marked out? I'd be appreciative if you did not try to decipher them. If you must know- #they are my full name and other words I was uncomfortable with sharing #I feel like a monster at the moment #I miss my host; I haven't been able to leave the observation room and visit him for days now #I suspect it has to do with being at the house with no school. How will we survive when school ends...? #Yes; I am ranting to avoid things #truly; what a sad persecutor I am. Being apathetic and still being tramuatized and having a need to cry #vin #from vin #tw blood #tw physical abuse #tw emotional abuse #caps #trauma holder #persecutor #no id

[tovaicas]

I literally can't believe you do not get a one-on-one section or conversation with estinien until the VERY END OF THE GODDAMN EXPAC

#saint.txt #spoilers #major spoilers #estinienposting #YOU KNOW? THE NEWEST GUY HERE WE KNOW THE LEAST? #WHO'S CHARACTER DEVELOPMENT HAPPENED OFFSCREEN? #DEVELOPMENT THAT HAS COMPLETELY CHANGED HIM AS A PERSON SO WE CAN'T COAST OFF HIS HW CHARACTERIZATION? #WHO NEEDED THE MOST HELP BC OF HIS INHERITED WRITING PROBLEMS FROM HW? #(yes I know they wrote a short story abt him. my rule is that I am fairly harsh on important character details and lore that is not #communicated in the primary medium. ie. if I have to go somewhere else to learn core character lore it should be in-game.) #but no. he's just here to be vr.tra's hype man. and I like vr.tra but goddamn. #like no wonder he feels like a side character just tacked onto the scions bc he's consistently treated as one by both them and the narrativ #and nothing is ever really done with that bc it COULD be a genuine conversation on the insularity of the scions and their work #and his perspective as an outsider with a completely different background and history and experiences could be a genuinely interesting #addition to the group dynamic as a shakeup but no!!! he's just here to be funny bc man stupid and nothing else happens!!! #he could comment on how genuinely uncomfortable his joining was (where he was basically press-ganged into it) and how he's been treated #re: the failure to keep him in the loop and the rough way he slots into the group dynamic and the pure fact that he is an outsider #to a years-long established group of friends and unintentionally or otherwise treated as an intruder / obviously doesn't feel comfortable #hanging out with his colleagues bc he passes up every opportunity to do so and how his position here is still 'mercenary' #and not 'friend and ally' AND how he's one of the few ppl here who can genuinely connect w/ the wol re: the lightwarden thing #sorry I'm ranting again but this man's writing is all over the goddamn place and I really do not get the sense that his promotion #to main character status was like. planned out in advance. bc nothing is really done with it other than hey vr.tra here's your dude.

[sassygwaine]

white queers whose only exposure to religion is through christianity shut the fuck up about religion challenge

#we have to stop doing this #it takes a lot of work and uncomfortable fucking truths #queerness and religion are not mutually exclusive and the sooner you learn that the less likely you are to be an overt asshole #calling what is happening to trans people a genocide is correct #calling it the holocaust is NOT #i understand the sensitivity to this phrasing however #direct comparisons to the holocaust are not needed or wanted and indeed only incite fear and anger #also it’s not mincing words it’s listening to fucking jewish people about their experiences #and understanding different people will have different perspectives and you cannot #CANNOT #hop on to a jewish person’s post and spew vitriol at them just because you’re scared #you can be angry and scared lord knows i am #but what we’re not going to do is minimize demonize or discard jewish individuals and their experiences #similar feeling to some person hopping on a post about how it sucks when parents say they’ll abort if they have a special needs kid #to cry about the stress of raising a special needs kid #fuck out here with that make your own goddamn post if it’s so important to you

[charonte-simi]

My supervisor lost so many fucking points today because he felt the need to point out how red my face gets when I'm overheated/embarrassed. I'm not even self conscious about it anymore I'm just fucking pissed that he felt the need to go "look at how red your face is!" like a right prick

#why the fuck do so many people feel the need to point out when someone is blushing? #i dont understand it #it makes me so goddamn uncomfortable and angry #you could literally just not fucking say anything about it and move on #like what the fuck do you expect me to do about my overactive facial blood vessels?? #its not like im doing it on purpose #fuck you #simi speaks

[somelazyassartist]

What do I have to do to never see graphic novel Taako ever again (/nbh)

#THAT FUCKER MAKES ME SO GODDAMN UNCOMFORTABLE I CAN'T STAND HIS FACE #I HAVE SO MANY TAGS BLOCKED TO TRY TO AVOID HIM BUT I STILL SEE HIM CONSTANTLY #NOT THE FAULT OF ANYONE HERE AND I GUESS IT'S UNAVOIDABLE WITHOUT LEAVING THE FANBASE ALTOGETHER #BUT HE MAKES MY FUCKING SKIN CRAWL I CAN'T STAND LOOKING AT HIM #ESPECIALLY AFTER GETTING 'THE ADVENTURE ZINE' AND HOW CAREY USED TO DRAW TAAKO #LIKE. THEIR OLD DESIGN FOR TAAKO WAS BORING BUT THE GN VERSION IS SO MUCH WORSE NOW #BECAUSE SHE LIKE. ACTIVELY CHOSE TO GIVE HIM VISUAL TRAITS THAT ARE VERY SIMILAR TO CERTAIN ANTISEMITIC CARICATURES #(WHETHER SHE KNEW THEY WERE TRAITS OF THOSE CARICATURES OR NOT DOESN'T REALLY CHANGE THE FINAL PRODUCT) #ESPECIALLY SEEING THAT SHE USED TO DRAW TAAKO IN A COMPLETELY NORMAL WAY #AND THE LOOKS PAIRED WITH HOW THEY CHANGED HIM TO BE SO MUCH CRUELLER AND GREEDIER IN THE GRAPHIC NOVEL.... #LIKE. CAN YOU UNDERSTAND WHY HE GIVES ME THE FUCKING CREEPS #I CAN'T STAND LOOKING AT HIM I ONLY EVER ACTIVELY LOOK AT HIM WHEN DIRECTLY TALKING ABOUT HIM #I DON'T EVEN DISPLAY MY COPIES OF THE BOOKS. I ACTIVELY COVER THEM UP BECAUSE I CAN'T STAND LOOKING AT HIM #OUGHGHGGGHHHHH AGAIN THIS ISN'T DIRECTED AT ANYONE IN PARTICULAR #HE JUST MAKES ME FEEL SICK TO LOOK AT AND I SEE HIM CONSTANTLY DESPITE HAVING EVERY TAG I CAN THINK OF BLOCKED #(EXCLUDING TAGS THAT INVOLVE THE ORIGINAL SERIES. IT'S SPECIFICALLY THE GN THAT BOTHERS ME) #(I DON'T WANT TO BE LEFT OUT OF THE PODCAST'S FANDOM BECAUSE I LOVE THE ORIGINAL) #(BUT THE GRAPHIC NOVELS OFTEN DON'T GET TAGGED WITH SEPARATE TAGS SO IT'S HARD TO FILTER OUT JUST THE COMICS) #(AGAIN LIKE. THIS MIGHT BE JUST ME AND I'M NOT TRYING TO VAGUE ANYONE BUT JUST. UGHGHHGHHGHHHHH HE MAKES ME SO UNCOMFORTABLE) #vent

[keebwee]

"youre aroace?" "you're single?" "you must be so sad and lonely" im literally thriving. society when people are happy being who they are and not being in a relationship

#i see so much shit about relationships that is just so. uncomfortable and unpleasing to me #the only good relationship i had was basically platonic (HI BELLA) and the one before that was shit #turns out im aroace and goddamn its so nice not feeling like youre a failure for not being in a relationship #aroace and proud baby #ALSO IT IS SO FUNNY TO TURN PEOPLE DOWN #i unfortunately get a lot of people who confess to me. or just act all flirty with me. and its hilarious to shoot em down #there's this one guy and im just WAITING for him to confess so i can tell him 'what? wh no absolutely no way dawg. no' #brcause i hate his transphobic ass #HOW CAN YOU HAVE A CRUSH #ON A TRANS BOY #WHEN YOU ARE A GAY AND TRANSPHOBIC BOY #he also dated my friend who is a trans girl #but the guy claims he's 'fully gay' #you are dating a girl #if you dont see her as a girl fuck you #because this guy like. expresses his dislike towards women being attractive #i fucking hate him OHHH MY GOD

[cutemeat]

Gets Romantic rlly gets to me cuz its like... just visual evidence thru and thru of Glenn falling back in love with the show and specifically getting excited abt Macden being written n shown more overtly than it has been in the past.. again just cuz i know he was so stubborn n hesitant abt Mac coming out in s12 n what that would mean for Mac and Dennis n how that attitude reflected n culminated in DDL... but then Gets Romantic is like the total opposite of DDL... n i love it so much for that reason.

#i still hate havin to be like 'no its not a shipping thing litrlly its just written into the show n has been forever' #but i am once again. sayin it. #i love them. i lov their relationship #i lov how macden embodies the current feelings Rob/Glenn have for this show they developed together #i just. man. man #i love it #Gets Romantic was just... FUN!! i love dumb fun. but its still Sunny its still thought out n fucking Good #its like 'no sunny isnt a romcom. macden's relationship is not wholesome fun.. n it wont be. but they love each other in the way they do n #we respect that.' n it like. goddamn. #its like 'look at how the audience is so fine w two men sharing a bed if theres zero sexual/romantic tension n all a joke.. but how tense n #uncomfortable ppl get when its two men in a bed who genuinely have that romantic/sexual tension' #its like. fucking. GOOD #just the macden bed shot in general its so 'we made this bed n we know that n we are laying in it ok' #mwah #macden #Gets Romantic #i need a tag 4 her

[psqqa]

the greatest tragedy of my existence is that i didn’t make it to italy before i developed this hazelnut allergy

the greatest joy of my existence, however, is that There’s Always Pistachio

#pistachio my beloved #hazelnut my forbidden beloved #i think of it as my personal divine comedy #italy is such a civilized goddamn country #you walk into a grocery store BOOM pistachio chocolate pistachio butter actual pistachios etc #last night i had ricotta-spinach ravioli with some kind of cheese sauce and BOOM pistachios! #tonight i had a delicious pistachio cannolino #i’ll definitely be finding a way to buy a fuckton more of those judgment be damned #so all in all i’m not feeling the pangs of Hazelnut Yearning too terribly #but i do wish i could partake #(i probably will have some tiny hazelnut something around the end of my trip #as a treat #my allergy’s pretty mild #it won’t kill me #just be uncomfortably tingly and maybe also give me heart palpitations if the hazelnut content is high enough #one tiny little hazelnut chocolate will be fine)

[myownprivatcidaho]

thoseve yall who were here a year ago might remember that a year ago He was liking tweets like "idk how people can cheat when im in love im obsessed😍" and "the honeymoon stage rlly doesnt die if youre with the right person🥰" and he was liking stuff like that up till recently now shit like this is in his likes something is BROKEN in him

#i feel bad. i dont even mean it in a conceited way but i cant help but feel like a bit of this is my fault #hes so bright eyed and ambitious that the idea of him losing any of that idealism is nothing short of a goddamned tragedy im sorry #yes this is the guy who lead me on (unintentionally???) and flirted with me for a year despite seeing TWO people during that time #the latter of which became his girlfriend (who i told Everything to ...) #and like. he never apologized he never explained what was going on or why he acted like a fucking simp for a year #but basically we're not talking now and we're on bad terms and angry at each other #(me because. well yall were there for that . hes angry because i ratted his flirty ass out ) #god that all stings so bad i havent talked about the details of what happened to anyone...... #but yeah i just. even still after all this time i hope he stays bright eyed. the idea that he wouldnt is heartbreaking in and of itself. #that one crush situation lol #idk if theyre still together. it was early novembet i reached out to his gf and laid the whole thing out for her #& she said theyd 'take it from here' (??????) and was uncomfortable with me and him communicating with the knowledge that THAT ALL happened #even while they were together. i told her i could respect that (even though i wanted to ask her who the FUCK she thought she was. anyways) #and then i reached out to him one last time to clarify i wasnt dredging it up for retaliation or to break them up but bc she genuinely #deserved to know. then he sorta said fuck my feelings and then reiterated what his gf said that we shouldnt be talking anymore #its been radio silence since then from bothve them. if they did break up id feel bad (cause how COULDNT i?) but if they didnt. #that means the only factor that changed here was. well. his 'relationship'/chances of a relationship/flirtationship/friendship with me. #i dunno. im not gonna act like i have all the facts and im not gonna act like he hasnt screwed me over #but getting back to my main point. imagine knowing him and watching him lose his idealism. try not being heartbroken over that.

[cherry-shipping]

goddamn i gotta figure out what the hell my horrortale self insert does in the underground. i know everything about their life before that and HOW they get there but i have no idea what the fuck they do once theyre actually DOWN there

also i ran out of tags im saying this here as an addition so you know why they just sorta end abruptly. lol. everyone say thank you to my habit of talking in the tags cause i dont want people to see the shit i say

#cherry chats #i wrote down all their rich lore i dont think i ever posted it and i doubt i ever will #not cause i dont wanna in fact its the opposite but itd basically be a huge trauma dump and theres not a person on earth whod wana hear that #and i also wouldnt wanna subject anyone to that cause its not really their problem lol #not that i mind talking about it or whatever. but still itd put whoever this theoretical person im tellin it to in an uncomfortable position #so eh ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ bottom line is evil shit hospital -> escapes and is chased up the mountain -> jumps down a big hole lawl #but anyway i have no idea what the fuck they do once theyre down there #i mightve said this already but theyre really resilient towards the conditions down there? theyve never eaten real food and they dont feel #hunger (arfid yo 👍) so if you tried to give them proper food theyd be like. i dont know what to do with this ? #and theyre used to the cold cause of how shit that goddamn hospital was so even when theyre going through snowdin barefoot theyre like. #ok this is fine ^_^ #theyre also used to physical pain and also theyre on 800 different messed up meds so if they get hurt that hardly bothers them #its like. a numb sort of pain. like the phantom pains you get when you get injured or killed in a dream #they also think sans is really funny even when he tries to get under their skin with morbid humor #their whole existence is basically morbid so theyre just like hehehe ^_^ your funny #BUT NONE OF THAT EXPLAINS WHAT THE HELL THEY DO IN THE UNDERGROUND!!!!!!!!! #i guess for starters theres no way theyd ever wanna go BACK to the surface so jot that down #i guess. maybe since they wouldnt have access to the medication and drugs theyre always on theyd change? #i think theyd go from a foggy detached empty dissociative state to being actually AWARE for once #after theyve been there for a little while maybe theyd even start. brace yourselves. FEEL things #like uh. emotions. and stuff like that #so instead of an empty miserable shell theyd be able to experience excitement or curiosity. or the human emotion called friendship #do they……… live with sans and papyrus? thatd make the most sense i guess #also thats the only place theyd be safe from being eaten alive lol #i guess they could live with toriel? maybe they go back to the ruins after theyve escaped #but then they couldnt hang out with sans and papyrus as much. and thats lame #maybe they live with the skelebros under the guise of being some sort of weird. pet or something #ummm. nah……. thats weird #ok so i guess i dont know what the hell my self insert does in the underground only how they change when they grt there. whatever #its not like im a WRITER. i dont know all this stuff what do you thinj i am omniscient????

[zlobonessa]

ngl the fact that we are never ever getting extras about sin archbishops really makes me feral

#like.... it could be so fun goddamn it #i mean personally i need 500k+ sidequel with witch cult amd The Worst Work Ethics Ever #but i would be content with at least Some crumbs of content beyond that one sirius and regulus extra #i do like that extra btw #regulus really is in one step from directly quoting “i am feel uncomfortable when we are not about me” #which is very babygirl of him but that's besides the point