#tf am i doing w my life

[0livliv]

well I guess I'm simping for cells now

*jumps off window*

WE NEED MORE FANARTS OF HIM HE DESERVES IT AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

#hataraku saibou #fanart #hataraku saibou black #aa2153 #digital art #cells at work black #cells at work #tf am i doing w my life

[clooverhoover]

#uquiz #fr sitting over here getting read by a goddamn stupid (affectionate) uquiz #tf am i doing w my life

[ducktollers]

got a sortof interview for a research assistant job tomorrow and sooooooooo scareds :D

#delete later #sortof bc its basically already mine since my mom works there and said the current assistant sucks so bad theyll take Anyone with a degree #and theyre desperate #and its super casual and low intensity but still stressed tf out #bc i havent done anything non routine since december and my anxiety has gotten soooo bad and im soooo bad at talking to people #and ik the antidote is doing things again which is why am i doing this but. scary #and time is moving too fast and im so lost and i hate my stupid fuckass grocery store job and idk what to dew w my life rn #cannot stop reminiscing abt the life unlived and the time lost and while i do that i am not living anf losing time #😃😃😃😃😃😃 #cannot stop thinking abt how my school life is simply over and i missed it i wasted it its Over 😀 no more chances #didnt make ONE friend in 5 years of university didnt join anything didnt do anything except mentally deteriorate #uni is supposed to be the source of so much life and experience. and yooo i missed it 😂yooooo omg its too late for me 😂😂😂 #i rememebr before crossing the stage at high school graduation i was like. rn im in the part of my life before graduation #and in a minute suddenly im gonna be in the after #and then i realized recently. im in The After of university. the moment passed and i missed it #there is no more chances theres no more ‘next semester ill make friends’ theres no more Anything it is Over #time keeps going so fast and yallll i cant go back lol 😂😂😂 brooo wtf nobody told me u can never go back 😂 #dawg i havent felt alive even once since leaving high school 😂 yo i peaked at age 17 😂 yo jm about to turn 23 and my last memory is being 19 #yooooo whered the time go 😂😂😂😂 brooo where does it keep going lol come back wait up im runnin out of time 😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂 #x

[tirfpikachu]

broooo not my ex making posts abt how hard it is to come to terms with being conventionally attractive while having low self-esteem issues and how wild it is to get compliments randomly on their appearance when they go out and how they're worried that their new transmasc boytoy is only into them bc they're hot -_- i'm tired... meanwhile i'm just seen as a gremlin now that i'm not hyperfem... they truly have the biggest issues in the world lol

also they were like "omg turns out i'm not ace i just needed a bf lol" and i'm like yeah. i know. you've been lusting after male characters for years. you were horny as fuck just not for me bc i didn't transition. you only made moves on me when you were bored, lonely or drunk. i always asked if that was the case and you were like no baby it's just your insecurities i don't need you to transition uwu. for 5 years. my trust issues are thru the roof now yayyyyy /dies

#lay text #i'm being mean and petty ugh #my heart kinda hurts but talking w my counsellor abt it helped #it rly helps to have a neutral third party to vent to #also i still think my ex is a good person i don't actually hate them i love them as a friend. but i do hate what they did to me #i hate that they went along w us dating bc they're too much of a doormat. i hate that they thought abt breaking up w me for years #but never told me bc they were worried i wouldn't survive without them financially or emotionally #feels so fucking infantilizing #now i'm so much better off without them despite being broke #that was my first and only real relationship my first time my first everything. i'm so embarrassed wtf i was RIGHT i was right all along #i was right it wasn't just insecurities they straight up never wanted me they wanted future transitioned male-passing me #it was all lies!!! from the get-go!!! meanwhile i did so much romantic bullshit and i was wearing rose colored glasses!!!! #and i was a big dyke. being with a woman who identified as a woman would've made me 2000x happier anyway. we could've just stayed roommates #i'm so bitter guys. i feel so jaded but i'm trying not to be :/ #and now they have so much luck in their love life #and i'm just a lonely gremlin dyke who only attracts polyam/casual girls who only want me on the side #where tf is my love story :'( i've been trying SOOO FUCKING HARD to gain my ex's affection for 5 freaking years i was the most loveydovey g #i deserve a love story i think i've really earned it by now!!!!! #so much love to give #now they have it so easy wtf. feels unfair ngl. i'm happy for them obviously they deserve happiness too. but i am still bitter >:/ #trying to process these feels instead of repressing them for once. i have a tendency to bottle up angst bc i think i'm bad for being mad #but nope those r healthy emotions!!! i can work thru this #it just sucks #if you read all of this bs i give you a cookie 🍪 <3

[alwaysneedyforsir]

back to bad habits (staying absurdly late at practice)

#like ok yes it was productive! #but it’s also almost ten pm and i’m only leaving now #ya girl’s still got to get home and finish her homework and try to get to bed at a reasonable hour #who knows tho i may stay up n bake cookies #honestly who needs sleep bffr #i am *killing* it rn on no sleep #promise!! #tired n hungry n fuckin beat up #the bruises i have on my body rn are ridiculous #plus somehow fuckin scratches?? #anyway my body’s fallin tf apart rn hehe oops #who wants to kiss my bruises better?? #taking applications rn #apply within w your qualifications n an essay of why you should be considered as an applicant #perks of the job include hugs n kisses whenever you want n probably when you don’t want #you also get a free use fuck toy who needs your attention on her all the fuckin time or she withers away n dies #n lots of flowers n books n chocolate too!! #honestly what’s a girl gotta do to get some flowers #good god idk how to shut tf up #whatever it’s not like i know how to shut up in real life anyway so #honestly if anyone’s read this far lmk bc that deserves a fuckin prize #(we can negotiate details of said prize if you don’t like my initial offer hehe) #me #my thoughts

[bunnihearted]

🍽️😔🎻

#soo blah blah need to vent again abt my health issue situation 💀 #yuh so like im so sick nd tired of whats going on. nd not being able to just eat whatever i feel like whenever #it's emotionall draining tbh. im always thinking abt what i could maybe try nd im always like ohh gotta make sure the portion is small etc #it's annoying me sm bc i can def feel the effects of me not getting the right nd enough nutrients nd vitamins etc etc #i get dizzy nd my vision is hazy sometimes. nd im like forgetful bc the other the when i walked home i kept getting lost nd had to walk back #nd forth several times nd i was like ?!?!? what?! i've lived here for 25yrs nd now i just cannot for the life of me rmbr the way #also i am so weak in my body. like carrying even a small amound or books nd groceries nd walking for 30min makes me exhausted #my legs are actually shaking when i get back home nd every step feels like im walking in cement #plus i just wanna be able to go to the gym nd build muscle. but if i dont get enough protein in me i cant build muscles T-T #what else... yeah also i do miss food bc of comfort. like my coffee + chcolate everyday makes me genuinely happy lmao #but i just want the food situation to be normal bc even w veggies im like oh no that is too gas building that is too hard to digest etc etc #it's mentally gruelling to not know how tf to get all the important nutrients!! i def have several deficiences lmao :(( #im so over it. but theres nothing i can do. i wish i could just not think abt it 24/7 tho #also. im the thinnest i've ever been BUT. i am constantly bloated so i look fkn pregnant. so i cant even enjoy looking the skinnier

[ria-starstruck]

life is strange but you can never save arcadia bay

ocs are roxanne and petra, 2 girls raised in a cult in their actual universe/story + subjects of a couple WIP animatics i have atm

#hold on dont text. sense of me mudflow just came on #hold tf up that should go in my sol lune webcomic playlist wtf am i doing #ok normal again i can continue w the taggghhhhhhold on dont text. spanish sahara foals just came on (the cycle continues) #sunblood #briars_ocs #my_ocs #life is strange #art #man i remember watching a playthrough of lis and just being absolutely shattered after i could Not handle it #it was like. Yowch!! #and ofc spanish sahara. Yowch!! #kinda wanna rewatch that last scene again now lmao #anyway its funny cause actual petra n roxanne are sooo ill suited to max + chloe roles not only bc their personalities + aesthetics r so #different (roxanne im drawin preppy n petra im trying to goth/punk kinda) #but also theyre just . theyre not normal enough! theyre too fuckin much of freaks! theyre too weird to live in an arcadia bay!!! #theyre too selfish to fill max and chloe's shoes! sacrifice roxanne or arcadia bay is never a choice for petra. only sacrifice arcadia bay

[coolcoelacanth]

currently feeling the rage™️

#personal #my dumbass neighbor has been playing music for three hrs starting at 9am #and just like loudly moving shit in their kitchen #then my friends once again ignored me talking about myself #bc they literally don't give af to listen to other people #instead of answering me they asked if anyone had cash #like bruh #i do have cash but fuck u u aint getting it #so rude #i am anger rn #like my past friend and i knew every little detail about each other #now god forbid i try to talk about my life its not an option #people are nuts #its like i go from one person w a fatal flaw to the next person w a fatal flaw in an endless cycle #not saying im perfect but at least i listen to the people i call my friends tf #and i dont manipulate them like my past friends to get what i want #or take videos of them crying about the death of their childhood dog #lord please send me people that are normal #can i get some fuckinnnn uhhhhh compassion #everyone is so self absorbed i stg #like u werent punished for existing and it shows #u werent punished for having needs and it shows GOD #one day......ill have people who do the bare minimum #one day.......... #......right #or am i punished to this lonely existence #then they wonder why i stopped hanging out w them as much #like girl its bc i literally cant talk about anything without yall changing the subject immediately and or not listening #like talk to urself in the mirror it would probably have the same effect #its like being friends w a wall

[potaho3frog]

fml

spent the last 2hrs reading a fic..i finished reading it wasn't complete, is left on the worst cliffhanger (like imma be hanging by that cliff but just throw me from the cliff atp cuz), last updates was last year..

i have nothing left to do w my life anymore

{says the person who's got an exam in 7 hrs, and feels like shit}

#idk how to tag this #let's see what goes down #idfk #nothing left to do w my life #tf am i doing

[lesbianlenas]

everyone who says i complain abt my d*d too much look away rn 🤪

#michelle speaks #my d*d is sososo evil i really just hate him so much u cannot even imagine fr #my mom has been having a really bad health issue for half the day today where she seriously needs to go to the hospital bc #she’s been in severe pain for hrs & my d*d has refused to take her & said she is making it up & a bunch of other bs he makes up in his head #also it is not just refuses to take her it is more so will not let her go period. at all. #& legit the last time this happened my mom was literally abt to die like FR before he gave in & took her & he still had to be forced #& yet once again he STILL goes ahead & insists she’s making it up or it’s not actually that bad or w/e tf #and says oh this is actually a problem for HIM bc she makes his life sooooo hard #i’m like. oh i can’t stand him. u know i like to have a laugh but when i say i literally hate this man so much. i am so serious. #like yes he’s fun to make fun of but he is seriously so evil oh i just hate him. & my mom & my brother r like oh he’s not evil blah blah #IDC!!!!!!! idc what reason they have to justify it from him i do not care!!!!!!!! i need a dart board w his face on it RN!!!!!!

[starfxckersinc]

every time a spooky kids newsletter is addressed as “hey spooksters!!!” i lose my mind a little bit it’s so fucking cute

#aberdeen spoken word #I just spent an hr reading old spooky kids newsletters #i could’ve won the trivia question of the month btw I know shaggys last name #I know everybody’s last name on Scooby Doo who tf does this bitch think I am #also I liked the ‘white trash groupie of the month’ column bc I’ve found what I was #meant to do w my life

[banglatown]

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#i have a bone to pick w my generation #anyone not of my generation piss off pls #okay so like why is it no one replies to messages when you send it to them #like ik you’re busy my god so am i but how tf is it taking you 3 days to reply to me ???? like why have we normalised ignoring each other? #like i don’t give a shit if you’re triggered by this and do the whole #‘my life doesn’t revolve around my phone’ or ‘it’s not glued to my hand’ piss off i do it too but at a point it deadass becomes like #disrespectful??? like for real man #like we need to stop this shit #beebs.txt

[wabblebees]

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#rant incoming! tldr: im just complainin' bc im a dumbass playing with the new blorbos from my head but i SHOULD be asleep. oops #had brain fog + migraine + joint pain BAD all mcfucken day #to the point where i spent the last 11 hours just laying in bed being adhd miserable bc it Hurt to be awake but the understimulation had me #fuckt UP. i couldnt sleep to escape it bc i couldnt fucken relax my FACE enough to make my head stop hurting but i felt like i was going #full yellow-wallpaper lady in my own head bc through the brain fog + the headache i couldnt focus on anything stimulating or fun enough #and now. NOW. now that its 2am and the ibuprofen is FINALLY working. i cant sleep bc i have dnd brainrot #ive got all these fun ideas that i dont wanna forget so ive been scrambling to get them all down before i can #but also i SHOULD be SLEEPING. yet every time i lay down my brain's silly little lightbulb ''bing!''s Back On and im!! hoough!! #sooo fun thinkin abt it all but also... dude. u dont have a campaign or table or a party or ANYTHING. so W H Y do u gotta do this rn #whyyyy rn. all day i wanted this or sleep and got NEITHER. but!! oh sure nOw the brain worms are active. #i have WORK in the morning little brainworms. its 2am!! where were u at 6o'clock!! we coulda done all this t h e n #But Also. i am rotating these new lil fuckers in my head at mach speeds #im so fucken psyched for smth to happen with these ideas even though ik theres like. literally no way in hell for them to go anywhere lmao. #ive never dm'ed in my gd life hgkfshfkgk idk wtf im doing here. ive played in like. 2 canpaigns total. wtf is going ON lmao #goddamn. adhd my beloathed. ah well #also just realised the phrase 'blorbos from my head' probably sounds.... very very silly lmao #im typing this out bc im hoping doing smth slightly Different will break the brain cycle enough to let me Go Tf To Bed lmao #wish me luck lmaooo #bee speaks

[bunnihearted]

i just hate hate hate society so much!!! i have no idea how im supposed to find a way to live and participate in it. i cant stand a single thing abt it. i hate everyone and everything. and the thing lazy ppl dont wanna admit is that WE are society. we create society, we allow the state to do what it does. we choose this. how am i supposed to "love my neighbor" when they are prtially responsible for what this society is???? there is nothing good abt this. it is a cruel and vicious system built on abusing and taking advantage of the vulnerable and the poor. there are no real rules; rules only apply to the ones at the bottom of the hiearchy while the rich and the powerful get away with anything. nothing is fair or just. rules and laws are only there to keep the poor and vulnerable ones down. if you have nothing you will most likely spend your entire life like that, because there is no playing far in this society. nothing is easy. even if it's hard and you fight for it you'll probably not end up going anywhere. the entire thing is rigged. and everyone chooses to just go with it. we have chosen this. and it sucks and i hate everyone and everything because life is so fucking unnecessarily hard and unfair and if you're born with nothing you'll never have anything. even if you try to play by the rules they've set. the rules are against you. and if you break the rules you're immediately punished. life is nothing but an unjust imprisonment.

#and my rage just gets worse each day #bc ofc swedish ppl have chosen a rightist government which is awful and terrible and they make everything worse day by day #i hateeeeee hate hate hate society and the ppl in it so much #they have CHOSEN this they WANT this #otherwise all they would need to do is vote left. so simple. so easy #yet this is what they wanted. an unfair hellworld where the rich get richer and everyday life gets insufferable for everyone else #im so dejected bc it is like IMPOSSIBLE to move #like my mom nd sister have been looking for apartments nd my mom sent an application for one #and they just removed it bc now its apparently illegal to apply for appartments w a family member. it HAS to be a romantical partner. WTF?! #i hate everything abt society #and i hate everyone i see outside bc they VOTED for the right which are the ones responsible for all this #everyone out there CHOSE this #how tf am i supposed to love or care abt them when they are the reason life fkn sucks??????

[talubld-a]

leel vent in the tags ig.

#throughout my life ive been mostly sick without 'reason'. #like. been to the doctors not been diagnosed w anything nor have i been told otherwise #but i am always ill. one way or another. and at this point i just dont think trying to explain to a doctor will do anything #im tired. and it makes me not want to live anymore #in a constant state of absolute fucking misery bc i just dont want to be in pain anymore #or feeling like im a fucking burden on my peers #it affects so much of my life bc how tf am i supposed to work?? #n would they even keep me on bc im always sick one way or another? #and then i spiral into anxiety 🤡 #its just. not a way to live and i want to give into that but my attempts in the past never worked #my head is full and i fucking hate it here #tw depression #tw suicidal thoughts #ooc. » boss battle music intensifies.

[uwooyoungs]

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#im sry for like. babbling abt my dating app experiences on here but i jus t am setting up what is literally my first ever like. actual date #and im pretending not to be fully fucking panicking #but i am Repressing the panic hard rn and Will be having a breakdown when i get home. #ho w in tf is thi s suddenly my life #i havent even been on the app a whole month..... #anyway edit yeah i am. going for coffee w/ someone on saturday and i dONT KNOW HOW TO DO THIS #oh god. my sel f esteem is so bad too...... #im. gonn a fuckin lose it #ive decided im definitely walking the mile walk bc maybe. Just maybe. it'll help me work off the nervous energy before i actually get there