#still not over how stupid that name is

[arthursfuckinghat]

"I was gonna say you're like a son to me.. but you're more than that."

"It ain't that complicated!"

How quickly that shoulder pat of comfort turned into a condescending one.

#he makes me feel so emo #this life was never meant for you but your fate was forced #the way dutch (and hosea) talks to arthur like he's stupid will never sit right with me #like they've been by his side over 20 years they KNOW he isn't stupid because if he was he would have been gone a long time ago #not only is arthur incredibly emotionally smart but he's a trained conman vault breaker gunslinger horse rider you name it #the fact that his own adoptive parents break him down like that hurts #it's a manipulation tactic on dutch's end - break your victims self esteem to make them chase your praise and approval #hosea I believe has just gone along with that kind of attitude but in a different way he just likes to jest lightheartedly #arthur doesn't see the difference though and it's understandable but he takes it to heart #the worst part is that hosea sees through his tough guy act and has called arthur out on it #his act is a defence mechanism to protect himself from being too vulnerable - in arthur's mind #and it isn't a sudden thing it's very likely something that has built over the years given the life he has lived #and hosea notices he knows this #but they still jab at arthur #oh it hurts #is he your son dutch? or is he your guard dog? your personal workhorse? #playing through the second time is opening my eyes more and more #rdr2 #red dead redemption 2 #mick squeaks #mick rants #mick gifs #arthur morgan #dutch van der linde #liveblogging #you guys gotta understand - arthur seeks and longs for dutch's approval he'll never say it but it's the key motive behind his loyalty #and arthur *rejects* dutch's comfort #he doesn't *want* dutch to pat him on the shoulder because he knows dutch is digging them an even deeper hole #he doesn't want that touch he craves #it's so insanely monumental for such a small scene because it shows us how arthur feels without telling us

[stormyrainyday]

joshua you're the biggest fucking loser i have ever seen in my life and i adore you from the bottom of my heart

#r1999 #reverse 1999 #reverse 1999 horropedia #r1999 horropedia #horropedia #i still can't get over how his name is joshua #he's my boyfailure #my stupid loser ass boyfriend #i wanna do unspeakable things to this man

[dimiclaudeblaigan]

nah but like

they're "seiros lapdogs" because they're fighting back against the people who attacked them completely unprovoked??? also because it so happens that thales is at garreg mach so they have to go there to reclaim the area to defeat him???

i just hate this because it's just perpetuating things about faerghus and its people that just aren't true. it frames it like they jumped into the war willingly for the church and that they're only here for the church. like nah buddy, it's not faerghus' fault you're out here fighting to protect thales and ludwig.

it also is batshit to me how he and leopold are fighting to stop faerghus from advancing but like... they know what's happening to the empire and that edelgard isn't even calling the shots anymore, yet they still stupidly fight for the very person who is literally razing their country and burning their villages. they know the empire is in shambles and that the kingdom isn't targeting them and is specifically aiming for gm to get it back from who? thales; who, mind, at this point is in his real form and not posing as arundel anymore. everything is laid out plainly, but they still act like faerghus is the bad guy.

but yeah, okay. faerghus BaD for defending themselves, fighting back, finding out who is behind all the puppeteering and heading to take him out. sure, that makes them seiros lapdogs. like what are you, an agarthan mouthpiece??? may as well be like yeah you go retreat and leave you agarthan lapdog. if they don't realize it's Someone Else in charge of course, then ludwig lapdog works fine too.

and it sucks because other than this shit, i like waldemar just fine as a character. it's just like, it feels like they forced someone to have to stick in that final faerghus BaD insult before the grand finale so they just randomly picked someone to remind us that faerghus is Always Wrong as long as they continue to fight back and prevent being attacked in the future.

waldemar here is just basically ag caspar. fighting and risking his life for thales, who is destroying the empire and basically holding the emperor hostage. if the writing here had any decent plot points, they would've all stopped and have been like hey wait, shouldn't we be fighting to get our emperor back? why are we stopping these guys from killing the people who are destroying this country?

and like, they literally went from siding with ludwig during the insurrection to siding with edelgard in this timeline to... jumping immediately back to ludwig as soon as he was at the top of the food chain (thales notwithstanding). as soon as the person in charge changes, they jump ship immediately; then of course get mad that the people they attacked are coming after them... and fighting them as they defend the very people who are letting adrestia become a literal, physical ruin.

it really just tells me that these people don't care about adrestia itself, but status, power and wealth. they don't care about the country itself as long as they're doing well. that's like, the only thing i can get from still fighting with/for ludwig/thales. the fact that they just fight for ludwig again as soon as edelgard is out of commission is also pretty gross to me. they have no loyalty at all.

and it's like, i want to like waldermar and leopold, but they come across as just selfish, entitled and only there for their own asses to be covered. and i get that - that is a realistic take on politicians, but the fact that the game regularly loops back around to faerghus BaD despite that and despite portraying these people as opportunistically selfish is like... what are they even trying to write??

#DCB Three Hopes Run #ah yes. the hours i wait for to post this stuff. #it's like whenever i finally find an adrestian character i like they have them spew some bs like this #or in ferdie's case i loved him and hopes made him another edelgard simp instead of like #the one person around her who contested her views and BLATANTLY OUTRIGHT told her "you're wrong'' #but ofc yes edelgardwash him bc that's too extreme in a fodlan game #and in this case with waldemar it's not EVEN edelgard. it's just ''faerghus evil for trying to retake gm'' #''we attacked gm and won so it's OURS now the ppl who lived there first don't matter anymore'' #''what do you mean it's being held by a threat to all of us? no such thing only you are a threat'' #literally like they either killed off the adrestians offscreen or made them stupid as fuck just to have you #fight named characters. like if leopold KNOWS all of this then why is he STILL fighting and acting like it's for adrestia #when his actions in that moment were actively HARMING adrestia? #but yet somehow it like I said loops back to faerghus bad... but yet the writing in general #does portray faerghus as doing the right thing... and then has other characters insist they're bad #and so much so like they're purposely shoving it in your face TO believe it #it's like saying someone helped save a village from destruction and protected all the children in a safe shelter #but a bunch of characters say those ppl are evil and it keeps pressing and pushing that statement OVER and over #like rly what are you trying to write with this? i love ag but the last few chapters are just like #wow how dare you try to kill ludwig the one true future of adrestia who is being puppeteered by thales. like. okay.

[rxttenfish]

also yes i headcanon that aaravi's nickname for miranda is "princess", partially as an insult/snide comment that grew more affectionate over time, and partially because she didn't actually learn miranda's name for an embarrassingly long time and just defaulted to calling her "the princess" in her head

#all the care guide says is 'biomass' #miravi.txt #monster prom #teehees and gives my memory issues to my favs #miranda on the other hand. oh miranda. #she LOVES nicknames and pet names and she wants to be DRAMATIC about them #she uses mer words less commonly as nicknames and usually just selects one of them for use with someone #(aaravi's being the ''wolfish'' nickname) #but the others she goes ham with. her hero. her beloved. darling. love. dearest. #if she can be sappy and romantic with it shes pulling it out #aaravi has one other nickname that was used moreso in the era where she didnt know miri's name #and that was ''the fish one'' #miranda is still so sappy and thrilled over it while aaravi is just embarrassed due to how stupid it is #but miri loves it!!!! she thinks its cute!!!! which only makes aaravi turn even more shades of red

[moregraceful]

my follow up to last night's post is that my boss okay'd my new schedule (🥳) and my maybe new boss said, I am concerned about how much you have on your plate, and then instead of spending any time figuring that out, I spent two hours trying to dodge the allegations and queuing posts on the Cuda blog. Cole Cassels you truly are this year's less broken Pat Sieloff

#i was like why am i being SUCH a jackass to everyone around me and then i remembered it's my dad's birthday on friday lmfao #fresno oilers.txt #also i think pat sieloff fr retired bc ALL of his sticks were in the cuda shop #i was like i should buy these. but then i was like what do i do with ten pat sieloff sticks #maybe i will just slowly buy them over the course of the season. new stupid sidequest identified #by the end of the season i will have ten hockey sticks labeled with pat sieloff's name. and i will still not follow him on instagram #do you ever think abt like....i have no kids and may never and someday i'm gonna have a stress aneurysm while living alone #and the police are going to find me dead on the floor with my chihuahua having eaten parts of me for food #and someone is going to have to go through my house and deal with all my stuff #and they're going to find ten pat sieloff hockey sticks #and they are going to say #i completely understand how this guy had an aneurysm

[eosofspades]

in these trying times, please keep in mind that people who claimed cayde was coming back all along can enjoy their vindication and people who claimed his story was over and he was not going to come back in beyond light/witch queen/haunted/lightfall were ALSO right and we don't have to have another fandom war a la season of the haunted please let the main tags remain functional

#like his story was over for the time being. arguably his story is STILL over. like trailer cayde is very distinctly not our cayde #i dont know how to elaborate on this but i'm seeing so much of 'we always knew he would come back to us you were all stupid' #and like. no we were correctly interpreting the lore lmao #that cayde died in forsaken and that his story was functionally over was the correct interpretation of all the info we were given #and even now i am 100% confident that man is not going to be OUR cayde (my money says hes a phantom/manifestation of some kind) #and like. however this goes. the cayde stans and the cayde antis were both WAYYY out of line for a LONG TIME #(some of you are still severely weird and toxic about this. im not naming names but this is still a weird ass problem) #i was always on team 'his story is over he's not coming back' and i still think thats a correct interpretation of whats happening #but like. okay. we have cayde in final shape. is it our cayde??? unlikely but we'll see #EITHER WAY. I AM ASKING WE STAY CHILL ABOUT THIS #PRETTY PLEASE. #destiny 2 #cayde-6 #cayde 6 #mine

[vvanessaives]

i was tagged by @shadowglens and @risingsh0t to make some ocs in this picrew. thank you so much besties, i loved this picrew so much!! <3

vesper moxley (cp2077) • victoria gray (cp2077) joelle knight (fo4) • nina bower (fo4) selene (oblivion) • hiraeth (skyrim)

tagging: @uldwynsovs @arklay @devilbrakers @nuclearstorms @morvaris @girlbosselrond @indorilnerevarine @moiragf @cultistbase @faarkas @steelport @nokstella @reaperkiller @malefiicarum @brujah @calenhads @lightwardens @aelyosos and whoever else wants to do this or that i missed bc i'm terribly forgetful sorry!!

#tag games #warning i accidentally infodumped in the tags i'm sorry ignore me 😔 ckjsdhdskj #made this based on relationships idk why jdksd. victoria is vesper's bestie 4 life & first gf. joelle & nina my fave wlw married couple #and then for the last one. listen. i've resurected a very old oc and i'm still not so sure but i miss skyrim so bad. they idea is that #they are related as in hiraeth is a descent of selene bc i think dragonborn=martin septim's child> family line going forward until we #have our little hiraeth. i never thought of selene & martin having a kid in canon (only stupid ideas of an au) but u know. what if. she #still ends up in the shivering isles tho and becomes sheogorath. hiraeth's bloodline having like an emperor & a daedric prince. OK KING!! #much to think about tbh. not sure if they/she(probably he too. thinking of their gender as therapy for myself) will stick as nord or maybe #wood elf too like selene. or maybe even dunmer?? it makes no sense fjkdfhk IDK. literally i HAVE so much to think for them #also their name came to me bc i read the welsh word Hiraeth that basically means 'a mixture of longing yearning nostalgia homesickness' #+ 'an expression of an empty desire and grief over a past life or place' and with drangonborns i like to push the idea of 'maybe they were #actual dragons in a past life and now human' u know?? so i thought it was sooo fitting. i also like the idea of the more dragon souls #they absorb the more their features turn..dragonesque?? draconic jkfdhfkdsj idk i love them very much (: #(i have no idea how dragon in past life + martin's bloodline can fit but i'm literally only vibing rn) #i want to replay skyrim SO bad but i need someone to hold my hand so tightly as they help me set up mods for this game bc i never played #skyrim with mods (collective gasp) and i have no idea of what to pick ecc especially bc everything..breaks with a snap of fingers so yea ri #SORRY for talking so much i get excited about new things (my oc in this case) so easily.. #oc: vesper #oc: victoria #oc: joelle #oc: nina #oc: selene #oc: hiraeth #ALSO FUCK OFF JOELLE IS SOOOOOOOOO CUTE HERE!!!!!!!!!!!

[diseaseriddencube]

Immo existing for more than one panel in a single chapter compilation 😍

#tye #oughfgjjg look at him!!!!!! #he exists in the story once more #so bothered by the fact that Fushi only seems to own like... two shirts and a school uniform #he can put his forms into any clothes he wants #yet he doesn't #get some drip #also I just cannot get over how fucking stupid Anton Day looks #just the tiny child head with the stupid goggles on the body of the hulk #I wonder what kind of character he'll turn out to be #he seems to have potential despite not even showing up that much #the hunters I can't even tell apart and who don't have names (?) are more characters to me than Anton Day #rave ramblees #I still don't understand a single thing that's going on in the afterlife arc but alright :))))) #I'm okay with this #maybe it's just because of how weird it's been with the chapter releases #I got so cushy with having them perfect weekly uploads ripped from the official translations #maybe the nyaasi guy will upload the chapters from the volume release whenever that's out

[rottengurlz]

Someone go back in time and kill me before I accepted my assistant position i can’t stand dealing with rude ass people all day and fixing their problems

#THIS IS ABOUT THE GUEST FROM YESTERDAY AGAIN #THE ONE WHO SAID I WAS STUPID FOR ASKING IF SHE WANTED A RECEIPT #I swear she came in knowing she was going to ruin my day #she literally stood in my office for at least 20 minutes arguing with me about a charge #that I explained OVER SND OVER since yesterday #and the entire time she’s calling me rude and how awful I am #she even said I got a biblical name but I’m not biblical 😭 and that she believes god will get me #she just stood there complaining about the hotel and how we’re all liars and everyone should be fired #and then had the audacity to still want to extend her stay 🧍🏻‍♀️SHE WANTED TO STAY LONGER #I told her no because she was being very disrespectful to me and I wouldn’t put up with it #she started getting angry saying she never yelled or raised her voice and that IM #the rude one #she wouldn’t even let me get a word in and interrupted every thing I tried saying #CAN U PLS JUST LEAVE #LEAVE THE OFFICE THE HOTEL STAY SOMEWHERE ELSE #FOR MY SANITY PLS

[krispiecake]

uk moots idk if youve seen the rishi sunak school guidelines shit but. like it was already so bad like its been getting worse and worse for years now and somehow it just. like i dont think ive heard someone say something so obviously VILE about the equality act.. ever. i know its not all official yet like it was a proposed speech but i do not see this being scrapped not with the people in control rn. this is gonna kill lgbt kids especially trans kids and i feel so fucking helpless again.

#in fucking pride month too. i feel stupid and helpless. #i want to be a teacher too. i wanna make school safe for kids like me and the idea of having to follow #these fucking human rights abuses of guidelines makes me feel physically nauseous #how am i ever meant to work in education? how am i meant to be a teacher if my basic rights are encouraged to be ignored. #am i meant to put up with misgendering and disrespect every day until it kills me? until something even worse happens? #how are you meant to protect vulnerable kids when your told to hand them over to potential abuse violence homelessness or even death #conversion therapy is still legal here too. #they keep saying theyre banning it but its been 5ys since they said that and still NOTHING. #not only does it mean outing kids to their families #but it also means that they will not be protected from transphobic abuse and harassment from teachers or students. #teachers dont have to and are told not to respect any name pronoun or gender changes #if the parents dont approve #and even then teachers and other students alike will not have to respect them anyway ‘if they dont want to #you know. the shit that has been proven to fucking kill trans youth. #they wanna gut lgbt sex ed too. like probably all of it. the stuff thats been put forward from stonewall (our main lgbt charity here) #i just. i feel so fucking small. #rishi sunak and every single tory needs their head beat in with a cricket bat i literally do not fucking care. #transphobia tw #homophobia tw

[klonoadoortophantomile]

started mother 3 . real good so far but the battles r kinda driving me crazy w the rhythm game thing

#IM STUPID !!!!!! I CANT DO THSI SHIT #i dont really play rhythm games the only other thing ive played is the fucking. rhythm heaven tutorial level at my friends house #multiple times. ive never beaten it. IM SO BAD ITS NOT EVEN FUNNY #i dont even get what ur supposed to be timed to or whatever in battles tho like #i keep putting enemies to sleep and trying to do it to the heartbeat thing but it doesnt ?? do anythint ??? #the stupid thing that tells u abt the rhythm battles in game says you can get by without doing it but i kinda doubt that #like…. thats half the whole battle gimmick youd imagine the game is balanced around it being utilized #also im judt absolutely getting my ass kicked rn i never got any game overs until i got to the castle #i forgot how to spell the name sorry #uh anyways i died like 7 times . sigh #still havent gotten thru all of it but whatever ill figure it out eventually #i needed to take a break anyways #its kinda bumming me out how much trouble im having w this but ive only played for like 3 hours its a whole game ill probably get better #as the game continues ??? idk #inqusitivewaltz.txt #characters and whatnot r very fun so far but again im only 3 hrs in so not much has happened i didnt already know abt XD

[frostynovaprime]

Ig now that gauss prime rly is a thing that one person who tried to publicly mimick my name can do so lmfao

#this happened years ago now but it still makes me cringe when i think abt it #it wasnt even subtle cause they kept trying to tell me how they were inspired by me #then in a public server gc just went hmmmmm i wanna change my name to like.. frostygaussprime but there’s no gauss prime yet :/ #me who is frostynovaprime: thats not uncomfotable at all with you also taking heavy inspo from my art style #rant over #stupid post

[beboppop]

Yknow a lot of ppl when the menu came out were saying how they didn’t get it and stuff and I’m usually really late on yknow. Stuff but watching it now idk. Kinda easy? I liked it. I thought the idea was really cool and the peoples reactions

#I mean the whole idea is self explanatory #it’s about a guy who lost his love of cooking because he kept kept having to entertain rich people #he was under the thumb of one and had to make adjustments that he didn’t want bcuz it ruined the menu #which yknow stupid idk what’s wrong with substitutions but I get getting annoyed at so #some guy trying to dictate ur menu #rich ppl making a spectacle of ur work and losing the passion feeding ppl who only want the spectacle rather than the food #then he invites over a selected amount for the final menu ppls he has a grudge against #or whatever the hell was Margot’s date thing I forgot his name #but obv Margot was not part of the menu cuz she was lower class #killed the guy who held his ownership over his head #killed his student didn’t really get that mb some like self hatred thing #I say killed but idk mb he actually did want to die #I kinda like how chill the staff was tho #except Elsa idk her problem #the fake boat guy was genius tho also like wow he fr thought of everything #I also think why Margot lived is smth that uh #ig it’s different interpretations #but the way I see it she saw him as a chef rather than some holy figure #she didn’t like the food she sent it back #she’s still hungry #mostly everyone else has been very like oh this food you can’t complain because we paid money it’s a very high end experience #and she chooses a cheeseburger because she saw r #the framed photo in the silver room #he let her live because for a moment he enjoyed cooking #ik she said more stuff like how pretentious he was #I wanna say she’s the only one who had backbone but I mean #idk #half of the people were so #they admired the experience too much yknow #the critic and the Margot’s date

[chocosvt]

i am sorry for asking for jun's appreciation posts!! you have great stoicism and patience 😭 i literally wasted a whole day when it was only a week before my college entrance exam (it's known to be hard and i already failed twice) just to listen to fml (seriously fml), but i passed this time!! real life "f my life to fight for my life" moment, swear!!

sorry for the rant! and all the best for the midterms, hope you slay (as always whether it's ffs or exams).

teehee it's okay <3 i am a jun appreciator to my bones!! and i WILL conquer the psycho mv i just need more time 🫣

CONGRATS! that's amazing!! maybe one day out of the week isn't so bad if u rly cracked down afterward (i always tell myself that lolz) and omfg i used to take kpop comebacks so seriously back in the day i would legit set ALARMS so i could watch the mvs right when they came out and it would always be at 6am!! rip timezones :p

and tysm!!! :D

#omfg #i'm still so mad #one of the electives i'm taking rn is foundational psychology or some shit and we can only access the textbook #through a separate online platform called tophat #which you have to pay for!! it costs over 140 freaking dollars!! to get access to the platform + the textbook #and my professor #he legit uploaded an entire pdf of the textbook chapters to our uni's central learning website #it's called brightspace #so i was using that!! AND IT WAS FREE #but then a week afterward #he took it DOWN and said 'bc of system abuse' #so BASICALLY PPL WERE DOWNLOADING IT AND STRAIGHT UP POSTING IT ONLINE/DISSEMINATING ELSEWHERE #LIKE GUYS HOW C OULD U BE SO EFFING STUPID!! #I SHOULD HAVE FUCKING DOWNLOADED IT MYSELF #I LITERALLY WANT NAMES LIKE WHO TF WAS SPREADING IT AROUND I'M SO MAD #anyway sorry for my own special rant ive been complaining abt it to everyone #whoops #n: moonbeam #t: choco's letters

[apathyfairy]

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#tonight or tomorrow morning actually is the 4 year anniversary of my dog dying and like surprise surprise lol im still not over it like. #i honest to god dont think i ever will. i honestly dont know how people move on and get other pets and just. keep on living like i #understand it like for some people it's part of the healing process but i just could never do it. like i just cant even fathom #i dont know that's not the point. the point is im having such a hard time because everytime i do anything tonight i keep thinking #4 years ago i still had my dog or 4 years ago in 5 hours i didnt know id be going to the vet at 1am and going home without my dog at 5am #and i just keep reliving it no matter how hard i try to not. and on one hand i want it hurt like i want to remember it just to punish myself #i just i just cant move on like it's just. i went 24 years of my life without ever experiencing death and then 4 years ago today my dog dies #in the most tragic possible way ever and then 11 months later my other dog who i had for 17 years since i was 8 dies and yeah still #not over that one either because i never let myself process that or truly grieve her because i had to shut that up real tight #or i would have lost it for real. and i have the most fucked up miserable tragic dreams about her so many nights a week #because she was old and had been u know. like old dogs do they just decline and that was impossibly hard to watch but at least i kind of #knew it was coming u know but like with my other dog. there was just absolutely no warning it was so sudden and it just ripped me apart and #i honest to god will never be okay again and then 6 months after all that i find out my ex died and only because after 6 years i finally #Finally decide to have the guts to talk to him again and apologize and explain and try to be friends and then nope he's dead #then in between all those deaths a super close family friend died and my grandpa my dad's dad died and like it's just #i had never even experienced death before and then all of a sudden i was engulfed in it and i just dont know how to come back from it. #but tonight is just. painful. like i havent even said his name out loud since it happened. i cant talk about him at all just writing this i #want to cry like it just fucking hurts forever. and it should i guess. #and i feel so stupid because so many times i wonder if my cat even remembers them and i wonder if she misses them too and idk #that makes me feel stupid and emotional and im just a wreck but i should be.