#still doing my second degree

[dailykugisaki]

Day 112 | id in alt

Why does the cursed technique harm Inumaki but not okkotsu? Is it stupid???

#dailykugisaki #jjk #kugisaki nobara #inumaki toge #I love making Inumaki and Kugisaki interactions can you tell #They're so goofy and i didn't realize Inumaki would be the one holding Kugisaki by the scruff to make sure she dosent do first degree #the most caring of the second years has his hands full with the most feral first year #you get it Inumaki #she is still their favorite first year btw #i hc Inumaki has gender fluid bc ya #why not #Kugisaki finding Inumaki putting sugar in the salt container and vice versa and talking to her so casually you wouldn't think about it #they're so silly to me #maki is caring to Kugisaki but thats because shes extremely biased honestly. freak ass. i love her. #tweaking over INUMAKI being the most caring of the second years CANONLY #sorry i had to repeat it bc it didn't latch on quite yet kmao #im inconsistent with the scars my apolocheese #i still know she has them its in my delusional ass head permanently

[hella1975]

what does it mean to average 2:1 or 2:2? I don’t think we do that in America

okay so the uni grading system here is done based on percentages. the pass mark is 40%, which americans ALWAYS hit me with 'only 40???? easy!!!' so id like to clarify the content/exams are very difficult and the marking is very mean and generally it's really frustrating when people respond this way, like why tf would we have such a low pass grade otherwise it's a dumb assumption to make but anyway. you do about 6 modules a semester (on average, some courses have more/less), and each module will give you a final grade, and then the average of all your modules from both semesters will give you your final year grade. they're all marked by the same system, which is:

grade of less than 40% = fail

grade of 40%-50% = third class honours (called a third)

grade of 50%-60% = lower second class honours (a 2:2, literally said aloud as 'i got a two-two in my exam')

grade of 60%-70% = upper second class honours (a 2:1, said as 'i got a two-one'). this is what im PRAYING for.

grade of 70%+ = first class honours (just called a first). this is the highest you can get, so even if you get 90% you'll have the same grade as someone who got 72%. this is also what i mean by the exam system being really tough here, bc most people are just grateful to get a first.

#so last year i got averages of just over 60 in a lot of my modules but also some that i BARELY scraped a pass #bc id resat them and when you resit an exam (bc you failed the first time. lol. lmao) then even if you get 100% on the resit #they will cap you at 40%. so naturally it shafts your average #but i STILL SOMEHOW MANAGED TO AVERAGE WITH A 2:1 LAST YEAR WHICH IS WHY IN THAT POST I MADE BACK THEN I WAS FREAKINGGG OUT #bc that's genuinely such a good grade like that's an UPPER SECOND CLASS HONOURS and i never considered i could do that #bc of how much this degree has pumelled me into the mud. so yeah now that i know it's actually potentially feasible #im really really hoping to keep it up and end with a 2:1 #bc traditionally (and im not saying this is a correct way to think. you're not gonna see me of all people yapping about good grades #have you SEEN the state of my academics) a first or a 2:1 are considered the best outcomes with a degree #while a 2:2 is shrug not bad not great and anything lower is considered 'embarrassing' #and i literally MADE PEACE with the fact id be getting a piss poor grade out of econ so to find out all my hard work and struggling #MIGHT ACTUALLY PAY OFF ON PAPER??? WHEN IT LITERALLY NEVER HAS BEFORE???? POPPING MY PUSSY #ask #hella goes to uni

[teawiththegods]

Btw just because someone isn’t studying the classics in an academic setting doesn’t mean they aren’t knowledgeable on the subject.

#yes experts are great but don’t discredit those without a formal degree #and don’t assume you know someone’s background #honestly I’m just really annoyed right now #I know most of it is because this is a shadow area for me #but I do still think this is something that needs to be said #this moments like this where I feel like I don’t belong in this community #bc unless you have a degree or write posts like term papers pple think you know nothing #just the way that tone immediately changed the second formal education came into play #it really bothered me #no hate or anything #I’ll get over it #I just didn’t like it and needed to express it bc it’s my blog and I’m allowed to

[jackals-ships]

"Nuada."

It's fascinating, the way living with someone will change the way you understand their tone of voice. For instance you've learned when they say your name like that what your dearest consort actually means is "If you don't give me the attention I am oh so politely demanding within the next thirty seconds I'm going to pitch such a fit your father will raise from the dead to personally chastise you for ignoring your most beautiful and precious treasure."

aka local fae prince under the (incorrect) assumption his puppyboyf will live without his attention for more than 30 seconds

#jackals barks #fae au #okay 2 rb #i would do more proper shading but <3 covid has stolen my spoons but i still wanna CREATE- #also its funny I don't talk about their characterization too much but LIKE #part of their whole Thing Is this Pretty Boy Spoiled Brat energy ? bc part of becoming more fae meant dragging stuff to the surface and #amplifying it to an almost Wild degree like theres so many stories of fair folk being Like That it only makes sense jackal is also Like Tha #so while the caption Is silly hyperbole also its Kinda The Truth at the same time bc jackal DOES think they should be allowed 2 monopolize #nuadas attention and they go >:cc when he has to pay attention to things that aren't them like RUDE? they're Right There!!! Bein Baby!!! #anyways tldr fae!jackal is a spoiled lil bratty prince (affectionate) and nuada is their fantasy sugar da- [GUNSHOTS] #bc it is fun and funny to me <3 like this dog has EATEN PPL and they are WHINING bc they didn't get enough kissies in .5 seconds

[arsonist-chicken]

I think my university should pay me for emotional damages for having to write a thesis exposé. To the amount of whatever I need to go on a short trip to Helsinki to recharge from this bs and to get a tattoo and a coffin full of Fazer chocolates.

#i've been in the library since 6pm or so and have not gotten a single letter done #because i genuinely Do Not Know what to write about this #i don't WANT to write a thesis; having to write a thesis will be my last straw to a break-down if that terminography seminar doesn't do it #and i don't get the point of a thesis anyway. no one but me and my advisor and maybe two examinors will read it #i'll not bring forth any important new knowledge to use #even if i did magically discover some groundbreaking new way to teach second languages - which is not the focus of my paper #like i wanted because the head of institute said no - it would still mean nothing because no one's gonna read it anyway #i'm literally just some rando with subpar grades and papers and motivation and dedication to my studies except for the classes i like #and feel like i'm actually learning something important #which is another point: I'm studying translation and interpreting. I'll do a final translation exam in both language directions. #why is that not enough for a degree? it's literally what I study. i couldn't give less of a shit about scientific theories about translatio #yes you should hear about them sometime and it can be useful. but i don't give a single fuck about research etc. #i want to translate and subtitle and maybe at some point interpret. and add a second language besides english because well #the job market but also very importantly my own interests #can't take the swedish course because it interferes with another class; can take a ukrainian class but it's very low-level #can't take a polish or bosnian or serbian or croatian class because they only have higher levels right now #could take a chinese or japanese class but it's... a lecture? with 40+ people in it? how are you supposed to learn a language from a lectur #tried a portuguese class once but the teacher was absolutely awful. nice but so bad at teaching. #and every now and then i think maybe i should learn how to teach a language to someone because oh my GOD would i love to help people #coming here to learn german in ways they'll actually use and see them improve and help them be excited about learning! #or go somewhere else and teach german maybe while also learning the language of the country i'm in #and i thought maybe writing a thesis about second language acquisition and teaching would be a nice way to find out how interested #i am in that actually. but no. my topic now is... hold on. hmmm. #man i'M not even sure. i submitted something and my advisor wrote me an email with a different suggestion for the title #and idk what i'm supposed to write about. not saying the depression isn't playing a role too but damn am i not excited about this #which is. a great start to writing a thesis when 90% of your work ethic comes from being excited about something or interested init #'The preparation of translation-oriented language competence at school using the example of English lessons at Austrian High Schools' #ah yes. someone help me write an exposé about that. #i don't know how and what to include and I don't want to either #come onnnnnn two days ago being at the library helped at least a little bit but now i've been here 3+ hours and i've got nothing

[astrxealis]

btw to filipino moots im gna be an arenean B) or iskolar ng bayan who knows!

#⋯ ꒰ა starry thoughts ໒꒱ *·˚ #my only choices for college r the big 4 personally i'm so sorrey ... but minus ust tbh bcs i rlly dont want to be a thomasian LOL #IT'S JUST REALLY PERSONAL i don't like the culture of ust & etc . i have my reasons. dlsu is ok but ateneo or up is my Dream #may be a surprise but i've always been a straight a student and real smart :3 even in anything to do w filipino #but that is the one thing that drags my grades (slightly) down ..... but my math is so exemplary and i get perfect computer anything always #bs cs future major hereee but since i want ateneo i'm going for dual degree cs bs-dgdd #yeehaw i never talk abt really real life stuff like this but this is still okey #one day u might get a face revea but only for my eyes bcs im sorta obsessed w and unfortunately think im really cute. so #ANYWAY !!!!! excited for college tbh. scared. but yes! #i havent finished my admu app but it is due friday i am so crazy LMFAOOOOOOO but i have recos alr <3 yay <33 #rlly confident in myself but i want to be careful and really get what i desevre. gna do my best and try to get top 15% AND MAYBE even 200 #but that one specifically is sorta crazy but tbf i could achieve it if i study a bit more :P so ya #it's amazing bcs ... english is literally second nature to me BUT i am and have always been amazing at math & sci #always been a math kid and sci kid AND art kid AND eng kid and music too and computer #idk. just proud of myself. i love me lol #there's a lot to it but no need to get into specifics :3 im just happy w myself yay!

[vampireghostlawyer]

wonderful day to remember i have more education than daniil dankovsky. wish he was real so i could rub it in his face because i know it would kill him

#clem.txt #even if it's not canon #i will still always believe in my head that he's got some sort of masters or doctoral degree tho #like he spent all that time in the capital with grant money #surely he got SOME sort of other degree #god if i had rich people in my pocket and was well known in academia #the first thing i'd do is start a second doctoral degree

[singsweetmelodies]

your mom being a springbok supporter omg I love that😭 would u consider writing fics about them tho ?🇿🇦

morning anon! ohhh, great question - but i'm afraid it's going to have to be a no, for various reasons. firstly because, well, i simply don't know enough about rugby or about the team... my mum might be a big rugby fan but i'm not, really. i only ever watch 2 or 3 matches once every four years for the world cup 🥲

secondly, even if i did know more about rugby, i would still have to say no because my writer's block is currently so bad that it's even extending to my PhD. (🤣😭) in all seriousness though, i can't write anything of quality at the moment, and the second i do get my writing mojo back, i have a whole list of f1 rpf fics that i need and want to get to.

sorry to disappoint, love! but i hope this answers your question 🥰

#asks & answers #anon #fic asks #of sorts? lmao 🥲 #anon i'm very sorry that i wrongfully gave you the impression that i know anything about rugby 🥲 #that is not the case i'm afraid #like i said; i only ever really watch the last couple of matches of the world cup and only because my mum makes me #soooo uhhh... not ideal fic scenarios lmao #ALSO - and this is quite personal #i am actually related to someone on the springboks team 🙈🙈 not very closely or anything - he is my second cousin - but still #the degree of separation there is FAR too close for comfort for me #d'you know what i mean? #so even if i DID know more about rugby and DIDN'T have writers block it would STILL be a no because yeah. there is a line #i would feel way way too weird to even consider doing it for any amount of time 🙈🥲 #I FEEL WEIRD EVEN JUST TYPING OUT THESE ASKS #akshdjdhdjdhdjdj and i don't even know the guy well... we have met maybe twice #BUT STILL #🥲🥲🥲🥲🥲🥲🥲 #it's an absolute no from me i'm sorry anon #(P.S. - the person i am related to is NOT faf de klerk. i just wanted to make that quite clear before i hit post on this 🤣😭) #(there's no way that i'm going to say who it *is* because yeah - degree of separation - but pls it is NOT FAF xD)

[antstarion]

cough. starting to realise i really dont care about my dissertation. scared

#i was supposed to submit a draft before monday but like uh its just not done #been sick and still sick but it needs to be done #usually the panic would have set in by now and i would be able to force myself to sit and do it but. i am just sat here #i wrote about 100 words and i need to write at least 600 more (and actually fix my fucking algorithm but we dont talk about that) #but alas i dont care. I will care tomorrow (sunday) OR AT LEAST I HOPE SJDLFHSDKFJSDK #i think the one of the shittiest symptoms of my various Brain things is the lack of motivation #Because there are so many things i want to do but i simply cant do them #i was getting 90%-100% in EVERYTHING at uni until half way through my second year when i had a psychotic episode #now i average about 60% #this isnt bad and i will get my degree #but its not really what i went to university to do #anyways maybe if i wrote as many sentences as tags on this post i might finish my disseration tonight

[hwsforeignrelations]

Everybody learns at their own pace everybody learns in their own time everybody everybody learns at the time best for them everybody-

#.txt #AGONIZING #the desire to improve right.this. second to unattainable degrees is crushing me oh nature cleooo #so many skilled artists and writers to be inspired from and motivated by #I REALIZE its like. all 20-smiths but I just love their stuff so much TT #and look. I still have to do my yearly america cringe post redraw and I’m excited BUT LAST YEAR I literally preferred the previous #and writing again and realizing I might have REGRESSED?!?!? from 2021?!?!? well maybe not BUT #its a tough lesson to learn that just because you age you don’t improve things you associate ur identity with if. you don’t. PRACTICE #like idk #anatomy not good enough #dialogue not good enough #not doing trends means less acknowledgement and that HURTS but I just don’t like making shit idc about it so it doesn’t feel worth it #going to college and realize it ur gonna have to stop being a kid and being ok with inadequacy #loving talking to fandom ppl but thinking oh ill never be as charismatic never be as interesting or as knowledgeable about history and #lighting #PEOPLE SHOULDNT COMPARE THEMSELVES TO THOSE 5+ YEARS OLDER bc DUH they’re gonna often be better #I just. havin a creative bump where it feels like ill never bring my ideas to as good fruitation as others can #well. um. yea if that’s about it. I’m gonna go plan for tomorrows usual week comic cuz I’m flying to England at 5pm and wont have time/bars #ill be in Europe for the next three weeks and I’m very excited #just feeling all around inadequate if cuz Europeans often judge you REALLY harsh when they find out your American #I just need to POWER THOUGH and have a good time and make the comics and write the stories I wanna write #cuz that’s all I can do and the only way to get better at walking is to walk the walk

[forabeatofadrum]

GOOD DAY EVERYONE, HAPPY EL WOO WOO WEDNESDAY! I haven't been tagged and I didn't have anything to share. In fact, I was feeling Pretty Bad, but then I got hit by a sudden Moment of Inspiration and I wrote 480 words for The Class Menagerie, which, compared to earlier progress reports, is huge and I want to share that!

Have some Kurt lore:

“How did you get into teaching?” Blaine asks. Kurt lets out a sigh. It isn’t a big marvellous story. Teaching wasn’t his dream growing up, but that is fine. Sometimes you work hard on something, only to realise that it isn’t what you want after all. That’s what happened to Kurt. He was enrolled in a drama school, but he wasn’t feeling it. This only stressed him out, because he’d worked hard to be accepted into the school. He thought that acting on stage was his dream, so it really messed him up when he realised that it wasn’t true. Still, he saw no way out. He was committed to finishing his degree. Then in his second year he had to do an internship and he did it at a school. He helped out in a drama department and it was as if the clouds in his head parted. He realised that he was still young and that he had his life ahead of him, so he made the big decision to quit drama school to learn to become a teacher. During that time, he realised he preferred the pre-school age. “And here I am,” Kurt wraps up his story.

I am still not finished and I hope (HOPE!) to have finished it on the 30th, so that I can post it within the posting period, but I am carefully and yet totally obviously planting the seed here that I might not make it. I did revise my plans for the ending, but alas, I don't know the concrete plans. But it's a-going!

As usual, have a Mimi:

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#wip wednesday #tagged in #basically i am happy i got some writing down #these days i am just so tired #like i havent even attempted any audio editing in weeks even tho jenna made me that video cause i an tired #like i haven't been doing well for almost 3 weeks now #cause of all the aforementioned stress caused by my current degree #i am just so busy and then once i am done in the evening i just play viddy games #cause that feels the easiest #i wanna draw and read and write but i am just Tired #and that feels like more energy cause i am currently playing (and enjoying) a very cosy game #oh and splatoon which does occasionally makes me want to tear my hair out #but that is splatoon #but yeah i am stressed but still comfortably dressed and i even ordered a second hand ring fit adventure in order to release stress #trying to manage my stress yada yada #and around 8pm - 9pm i tell myself i need to be done with study stuff unless i really cannot afford it #so that i have the evenings off so that i can hopefully decompress #ANYWAY #that is life #god i wish i had a mimi to cuddle

[peachzin]

one thing abt working w ppl in their 50s and older is that they never stop reminding u that ur ssooooo young and ur kinda stupid bc ur just sooooooo young so u might as well just stay silent in convos bc u wont understand bc ur ssoooooooooooooooooooooooooooo young and cclleeaarrrlllyyyyyy dont have aannnyyyyy life experience. Bc ur so young

#like i do enjoy working here. its nice place and okay community. #but fucks sake ive been here a month and its like im still everyones little sister or niece or daughter or granddaughter #im not any of that im. ur fucking coworker. im just as qualified if not more. to be working here as ur equal. #just bc i have babyface or dress differently (modern young what have u) does not take away my degrees my qualifications my ceritfications #any of it #so shut up for 2 seconds abt how bad ur fucking back hurts and how i have it sosooooooo good rn #bc i know i do! im enjoying being my age! very much! but i dont need u in my ear equating my age with me being stupid and inexperienced #you dont know what ive done or what ive possibly been through or whatever else

[zackcrazyvalentine]

I swear to the almighty my entire BODY is SCREAMING for me to get back to writing NOW

I have this one idea with a new fandom that's tickling all the right spots, like that one Haikyuu fic I wrote yeeeeaaaars back and GOD I WANNA SCRATCH THE ITCH AND WRITE

BUT MY GODDAMN UNFULFILLING JOB THAT'S BURNING ME OUT TO THE CORE IS PREVENTING ME FROM DOING ANYTHING

I HAAAAATE IT SO MUCH, FUCK THIS SHIT!!!!!

#the idea with that job is to maaaaybe stay one more year #to see three things #1 finish a degree specialty (idk how to call it in English) that is offered there and I'm paying for #2 get mt 3rd TKT module certificate of band 3 or 4 #and 3 watch my first generation of students graduate #....but the way I feel soooo mentally tired with the majority of my current students #(and the prospect of still giving them classes next year... albeit just once a week and not 4 time like rn) #is making me second guess my decision #....if and when i do decide to leave i do intend on allowing myself 3 months or half a year of rest #bc DAMN AM I TIRED AND IN NEED OF TIME TO WORK ON MYSELF (mainly some aspects of self-esteem and my body) #(i wanna lose weight and go out on walks +learn how to roller skate+ have a professional undo all the knots on my shoulders like 😵‍💫) #well enough rambling #random ramblings #wishes for the following year

[gothamcityneedsme]

back in my td debating of 'how dark should it go'

#Shitpost #td tends towards being. Light enough that i didnt rate it M but at the same time #i can go dark with the T rating still. #i get a lot of very like. I loooove thinking of Worst Scenarios and them im left like #hmmm. Should that happen? Its fun and thematic and terrible #but theres a degree of like. Going too far #and i mentally am questioning all the time and pushing back on myself #its funky lol #this vs fled where fled has all the bad stuff cooked into the narrative #ive been delaying writing the 'heres a scene where the second protagonist is crucified and Doing Badly' scene #Like its 100% happening it just keeps getting pushed a chapter ahead #td and fled are stories i compare so much which is hilarious because i think like #think literally only yarra has read both #its like. I got ONE reader of both. And here i am making parallels constantly #if nanashi and dave were swapped theyd both do better in the other position lol #forbidden fic: crossover fic of my fics #a TD of TD if you will. TD and FLED swap.

[running-in-the-dark]

I have like... two days (max) to come up with a new research question for my bachelor thesis. I HAVE TO officially register/sign up or whatever next week. that's the only way I'll be able to finish it + the oral examination part before my course stops existing at the end of February (my advisor basically assured me that the examination office wouldn't let me register after the end of October).

fuck, I was so motivated last month! I felt ready, I felt good about it, I was sure I'd be able to do it! and then that stupid fucking meeting with my advisor happened and now I feel more defeated and hopeless than ever before. I feel stupid. I feel like I can't possibly do this.

there's just nothing in my brain. it's empty. all knowledge from my entire time at uni (and school) has vanished. the last, oh I don't know, eight fucking years have just been too much. I really don't know if I can do this. I don't know if I'm able to. I don't know how to start over again.

#like I've gone from crisis to crisis #everything since my second semester in 2015 has been hell #like literally #I didn't learn much because I only had enough capacity to study for exams and not to actually remember any of it #and what little I did know I can't recall anymore #my brain is so useless now. I can't fucking think! I can't think about my thesis without wanting to die! I don't want to do this! #but if I don't. I won't get my degree. I'll have wasted so much money (not us levels of money but still a lot) and time and I'll have #nothing #I'll be fucked. I won't have a future. I'll be stuck staying at home and never having my own money. forever. #because there's no way I can do another degree. I can't do it. I can't. #I don't have work experience. I don't have any skills. I'm 31 and my body is a piece of shit and my brain is even worse #I couldn't even work as a cashier (I tried. it was bad.) or anything #I need this degree to have *any* chance of getting a job and I just. #yeah idk maybe that's why this is so goddamn overwhelming #personal

[pigfromchino]

so guess who tested positive for that new dangerous respiratory virus (not covid, sucks that i have to clarify)?

#sat in the ER on Sunday and told the nurse my symptoms including my inability to move or breathe without immense effort and pain #bitch goes: you did great on the way over here 🥰 #i wanted to fucking gut her #i walked over there at a fucking 90 degree angle and fell backwards every two steps when my knee gave way the fuck you mean #anyways my lung xray was clear so i had to bully the SECOND nurse into doing another test and i was negative for covid but positive for that #new rhino virus #yayyyy #my throat burns still after 4 days and ive not eaten much #but oh yeah “ibuprofen will clear that right up” #i hate drs so much you have no idea how much they piss me off. especially er drs and nurses