Ok but seriously, tomorrow i have my last exam, i can't believe i've reached this point but here i am!
The problem is i saved the worst and most difficult exam of my degree for last, basically i had to make a web service where users can log in, create blogs and post and basically do things you do on social platforms. All the data are collected in a database that i coded as well and let me tell you: this stuff is way above my skills, i was not prepared to do it and like many people before me i had to ask a private teacher to help me sort things out
This exam is the reason the average time to complete this degree is higher than it should be and i haven't seen a student take it without struggling. It doesn't help that the teacher has an impossible attitude (like the all the teachers in my last like, four exams were :((((( ) and he treats you like a criminal if you don't know every single line of your code by heart. Idk, coding is hell, we are all in this degree bc we want a stable job, and i had to pay private lessons with my own money for this project, and if i end up failing my whole graduation will be postponed to next year and i will lose a whole year of my master degree!! I swear if something comes up and the teacher wants to fail me, i WILL get on my knees and scream and cry until he passes me
I'm so anxious and i know i say the same thing over and over again but the last exams i did were all like this, and the level of uncertainty was this bad every single time. I'm really hoping for a miracle atp
if i manage to pass this the nightmare will be over! i will graduate and move to the next chapter of my life!! it's THE most crucial moment, everything i sacrificed these past eight months, everything i did led to this. I spent money for this exam, i didn't leave the house the whole summer and the whole winter and spring before that, i basically had zero breaks in between exams, i had to shut down instagram, i only studied, went to uni, went to work to pay for these classes, and went back home. On repeat every. single. day since september and in godspeed mode since january. And yet i have imposter syndrome and i feel like i should have done more and i know my professor doesn't give a shit about all this because if i don't know those hundreds of lines perfectly it's over !!!!
so yeah uhm keep me in your thoughts maybe lmao 😭😭😭😭
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