#sorry you have to deal with me

[amygdalae]

its interesting to me how self-deprecation neatly ties into making others feel bad. like. if you constantly assume that you’re stupid no matter how informed or skilled in a topic you might be, people who are a bit less learned or skilled than you might see how you, someone who is obviously skilled, talk down about yourself, and assume that if you think YOURE an idiot you must think theyre an even bigger idiot and lose confidence or find you intimidating as a result. its fucked up. and its part of why it can be so important to break out of cycles of self-hatred--not just for yourself, but for people around you

#speaking as someone who deals w imposter syndrome and self-hatred constantly. its just an important perspective to have #especially cuz when you deal with self hatred sometimes self improvement sounds less appealing if you only think it helps you #but understanding true self-confidence as something that can also be good for those around you kind of helps motivate me. idk #sorry i need to eat dinner im feeling a lil loopy

[lookitseddie]

do you ever just think about 'you're the reason i had her, okay? i thought that if i did a decent job raising her, then there was chance she'd turn out like you.' and collapse to the ground in emotion. i sure do

#'because you are an AMAZING person!!!!!!' #WHAT IF I SOBBED. #they mean everything to me *distant incoherent screaming #across the spiderverse #sorry to everyone who follows me and has to deal with me having this brain rot #peter b parker #miles morales #spiderman #spiderman across the spiderverse #atsv

[humbuns]

birds of the same feather?

#obey me! #obey me lucifer #obey me luke #perhaps i'm putting a lot of thought onto luke but i was thinking about how conflicting luke must have felt knowing the image portrayed of #lucifer based on the celestial realm to the actual lucifer he meets #i do think it's interesting how softer he is in nightbringer so while he might seem imposing it's just not on the same lvl to what he expec #'he is your kindred but you are suppose to hate him for what he became since it's in your nature' type of deal #anyways weirdest uncle award goes to lucifer #← the only thought running in his head atm is that luke reminds him of his brothers but he doesn't want to admit it (too personal) #anyways this won't make sense w/o these tags so sorry lmao #doodles

[lazylittledragon]

what do you mean youre technically a detransitioner cause of terf bullshit?

it's a v long story but i detransitioned for a couple of years when i was 16/17, for multiple reasons but mostly because i fell into the blaire white/kalvin garrah chamber of "you have to be This way to be trans otherwise you're not real".

i was already Deeply insecure about myself and my 'passing' and i was led to believe that i couldn't want to wear makeup or skirts, and i couldn't choose not to have bottom surgery, and i couldn't do anything but bind for 12+ hours a day to the point that my ribcage is still misshapen. basically i thought that if i wasn't suffering enough doing 'feminine' things, i couldn't really be trans, so i should just go back to being a girl and suck it up.

the terf bullshit is because i'd seen a lot of terfs/detransitioners talking about the 'dangers' of testosterone and how it would turn me into a horrible ugly evil monster and how there was nothing worse than wanting to be a man. which combined with 'you need to fully medically transition to be valid at all' creates some very dangerous and upsetting feelings to cope with.

it also came from trying really hard to put myself in a little box before i realised that my sexuality/gender are very fluid and it's FINE for me not to have a label and just do whatever i want. when i was 19 or so i went back to using they/them (and eventually he/him) and changed my name again because even though i like doing 'feminine' things, i don't want to be seen as a woman.

tldr: i was conditioned by transphobic/terf rhetorics to think that i was being trans the 'wrong' way so i couldn't be trans at all, so i believed i must actually be a girl if i still wanted to do 'feminine' things. nowadays i am a transmasc who does feminine things because i don't give two shits about what any transmed prick thinks of me anymore.

#ramble #ok to reblog btw i'm fine with this being shared #this was meant to be a short version but this is just the whole story whoops #sorry i realised the way i phrased it sounded like i'm the detrans you see in the news #i'm Technically a detransitioner because a lot of detrans stats are people who go on to RETRANSITION #because detransition is often because of social stigma and not because you realised you weren't trans #so anyway. terfs are cancer and if you don't think their bs is harming children you're wrong #i know it's easy to say 'you should've used your brain and realised those people were wrong' #but like. when you're 16 you're SO impressionable. even if you think you aren't #especially when you're watching people who have been transitioning longer than you and you assume they know everything #i was in my mid-late teens when 'transtrender' videos were MASSIVE and i believed it!!! and i was Not nice about those people #all they made me believe was that being trans couldn't be colourful and comfy and fun. it just had to be Pain #i hope everyone who contributed to the 'you need to be this way to be trans' mindset knows how much hurt they've caused #nowadays i don't care. go and be stargender. we have actual problems to deal with not debates about neopronouns #anyway this was long. that's the story

[redundantz]

immortal x mortal problems

#astarion #bg3 #baldurs gate 3 #astarion x tav #sketches #im sorry you all have to deal with me being consumed by this lmao #my art #redundantz art #faetheri #my writing sucks so bad sorry #im making my hyperfixation everyones problem #astarion x faetheri

[uncanny-tranny]

Hey, if you have speech impediments, you are so amazing.

If you stutter or have a lisp or misspeak easily or you have a flat affect or a limited verbal vocabulary or if your voice is AAC or if you just have a difference in your vocality, you are so incredibly important and amazing.

Just know that your voice is yours. Nobody will ever be able to truly take it away. Your voice is part of you, and you deserve to make it as true to you as you deem fit. I hope you have the space to grow with your voice and whatever about it makes it unique.

#positivity #disability positivity #partially because so much of voical differences arise from disability #i've developed a really annoying lisp-ish issue #and it's hard to be positive about it because it makes me feel like i'll be treated as lesser because it's a 'childish' affect #but i literally can't help it unless i spend 110% of my focus on it. and i don't have that amount of energy #but it makes me think about others and especially those who have it more intensely than i do #and i just want to uplift everybody because vocal differences are neutral at worst #man my dad always tells a story about this coworker he had who had a stutter like you wouldn't believe... #...and he was fucking BRUTALIZED for it... 'c-c-c-c-CAN YOU GET TO THE POINT?!' is how people would talk to him... #...and obviously that made his stutter twice as fucking worse and i can't imagine the shame and humiliation that followed... #...i hope he learned that those assholes were a fucking waste of time and that he doesn't have to deal with that... #...like i'm sorry but there is no fucking need to be that sadistic toward somebody who is obviously already anxious and worried

[shima-draws]

Ghost Cora AU where he’s actually been following Law around ever since he died but nobody has been able to see him, so all he’s able to do is watch Law get hurt and suffer in silence. UNTIL, miraculously, the battle of Dressrosa ends, and for some strange reason—through some supernatural bullshit or maybe just fate—one person is finally able to see him.

Law is sitting on the deck of the Yonta Maria watching everyone party when Luffy comes trotting over to him. And Luffy plops down beside him and says, “I’ve been meaning to ask, Torao, but who’s that really tall blonde guy with the funny makeup that’s been following you around?”

And Law’s just like

#Meanwhile Cora is absolutely THRILLED. LMAO #Eventually Zoro calls Perona over and since her devil fruit power deals with ghosts. She makes it so that Law can see Cora too #(And by some bs he’ll probably be brought back to life somehow idk) #One Piece #Trafalgar Law #Donquixote Rosinante #Cora #Corazon #Luffy #Law: Ha. Haha. #Law: You’re shitting me right. #Luffy: ??? What? No? #Cora: LAWWWWWW 😭😭😭 #Luffy: He’s crying your name this guy CLEARLY knows you Torao #Law; having a mental breakdown: Uh. Uh-huh??? #Shima speaks #Sorry I’m coping. I’m coping really hard rn #Actually. I feel like I was more upset about Cora’s death than Ace’s. WHICH LIKE. YOU’D THINK IT WOULD BE THE OTHER WAY AROUND BUT #I’m very. Very weak for the unsuspecting father figure who dies trope #(Sideeyes Tony and Harry (who didn’t even die anyway but it was still Traumatic for Eggsy to watch)) #COUGHS

[tariah23]

aisjsjjensnJAJAJ

#because… we wrote one idiot 😭!!! #I guess wp and nbs just learned that black ppl have our own National anthem and are of course spazzing tf out #just… write one? #yourselves??? if this is such a big deal like kskskskskl #there’s no arguing with racists but this is still funny #I saw a few black folks not know about it but they probably either went to white schools or aren’t from America so they missed out on #having to sing lift every voice and sing for 5 days a week 8 years straight #I only sung it for 7 since my 8th grade teacher didn’t care if we did it or not #I just didn’t feel like standing up sorry and I’m sure her lazy ass didn’t either that’s why she didn’t care lmfao #no wait I did do it for 8 years because my mom made my teacher hold me back in 3rd grade 🗿…. so #crying #you can feel the antiblackness roll off of that ‘s’ #rambling

[autoraton]

Riz pulling so much weight for everyone and securing votes vs Kristen being the closest to failing out of school thus inadvertently screwing him. plus her inadvertently bringing Kalina back, who as it stands serves as an antagonistic and deeply painful force in Riz's life. there's just something really ripe and tragic about their friendship rn (even moreso if you wanna throw in the meta that the narrative was steered towards Riz running against Kipperlilly) and it's neither of their faults. I feel like I'm watching a disaster in slow motion.

#fantasy high #dimension 20 #kristen applebees #riz gukgak #fantasy high junior year #it's inevitable don't you understand it's inevitable #riz was always going to be deeply selfless and work himself to death to help his friends. he was never gonna say no. #kristen is put into a continuous series of deeply unfair situations and has to deal with the consequent pain of so much failure #do you understand me. #said all this in the tags of a funny gifset i was reblogging #before realising i can just make a post. i have a blog. #anyways i hope this didn't come off critical of kristen because i dont feel that way at all. literally this sucks so bad girl im sorry #chatter.txt

[trashpocket]

au inspired by flight risk where eddie's a celeb and steve is a boyfriend for hire 🥺

(eddie wants to see if the stalking and harrassment from fans and media stops but ends up LIKING liking steve, and doesnt know if steve tolerates him for himself or for his job

and steve ends up liking the eddie behind closed doors, who establishes boundaries with him and respects him, but he doesnt know if he could be loved back when he's just a business. a transaction. nothing more than bullshit Hshsjsjaiav)

#steve harrington #eddie munson #steddie #steve x eddie #hairmetal #AU #inspired by kleo and ayes #idk their @ here im so sorry T-T #and for those who've messaged me on anon #and my DMs #thanks for cheering me up #SOME PEOPLE CALLED ME DRAMATIC WHICH IS LIKE #REALLY FUNNY AND I CAN AGREE HAHAHAHAHAHA #but i am and i always need time to stay away from things before i get in the right headspace to deal with em later #thank you though #now have a piece of this as i slowly come back to #sanity

[improvapocalyps]

I am so sorry it was you.

#double life spoilers #double life smp #double life #tangotek #solidaritygaming #trafficblr #tangotek fanart #tango fanart #jimmy solidarity fanart #jimmy solidarity #solidarity fanart #mcyt #mcyt fanart #mcyt art #my art #fanart #i am so sorry it was you because i am very prone to accidents and you should not have to deal with my clumsiness #i am so sorry it was you because now that you are soul-bound to me i am afraid that my ties with death will doom you too

[brainrotisseriechicken]

..

extra:

(it was a spring morning)

(he was a frail boy with no friends)

(he ran into you from across the wall)

(you said hello to him, and asked him to play along)

(at that very moment, he received his lifelong—)

extra 2: oscar boogaloo

yeahhhh....iykyk

#ozpin #professor ozpin #it never gets less embarassing tagging this #rwby #ugh #wait hm #ozma #salem #not tagging ozlem because its kinda giving ottokallen and ergh #oscar pine #sighs anyways #both of them have the same role functionally #they parallel eachother via #hold on im getting ahead of myself #he really does remins me of otto #theyre like prometheus #but with the gift of flight instead of fire #(haha flight as a heavy-handed metaphor for civilization) #they both give said gift through something of the previous civilization #im playing fast and loose w otto but he gave the gift of flight through ingenuity #thus wooden planes #ozpin gave the gift of flight (quite literally) through his magic #thus #gestures vaguely #i have so much more to say but alas ... #horrible corvid anatomy cw #while ozma is kinda su coded tbh...immortal brown dudes dealing with their megalomaniac white-haired situationship core #if you know what im referencing im so so sorry #EVERY NIGHT BRINGS A DREAM BUT THE DAYYYY RELENTLESSLY KEEPS ME AWAKEEEE #honestly idk where the quote is from kevin said it so it must be true

[sm-baby]

going insane .... losing my mind..... caine and pomni.... they're so good.............................

This is so fucking funny

the Showtime Shipper pipeline... we ALLL understand you, Waddles.. and please keep sharing them, we are ALL SO FUCKING HUNGRY AND NOT NORMAL ABOUT THEM

i would like to give you a proper welcome... via a sticker

also teehee!! THANK YOUU!! IM GLAD YOU'VE BEEN ENJOYING THE CARNIVAL SO FAR

#yall do not want to see me on the showtime discord holy shit #I'm so unapologetically crazy over them its so embarassing #I'M SURE YALL JUST REALLY LIKE THEM.. BUT I WILL GENUINELY SCREAM IF YOU SENT ART OF THEM DURING VC HOURS #PLEASE IM SO EMBARASSING IM SORRY YALL HAVE TO DEAL WITH THIS #scratch that #im not sorry actually hehehe #showtime #caine x pomni #cainexpomni #The amazing digital circus #the amazing digital carnival #carnival au

[its-yashas-strong-arms]

so how do you cope with the realization that we're all going to have 40 years of full-time work at jobs that don't fucking matter. living for the weekends where you sleep one day and dissociate the other and then it's back to work on monday. and if you're lucky you retire just in time to start deteriorating physically and mentally. how do you live with that

#im graduating with a master's degree and honestly a job as like. fruit picker or some shit appeals to me on a weird level #at least with physical jobs you can point at something and say i did that! and now a new thing exists! #anyway I'm dealing so so well with exiting the safety of academia #im having. a week. sorry folks

[lucabyte]

Standalone post of my doodles for @samhainian's AUs of sorts from this post which you should go read because oouuuuh,,,,,

There's a lot of possibilities with how either of these go, mostly depending on how honest Loop is upfront (or how caught red-handed they are, so to speak). Since... Well, the party is loving. That's the point of the story! They just learned this!

But. How do you even begin to explain this. Especially when you aren't fully over it yourself.

#in stars and time #isat #isat spoilers #isat fanart #isat act 5 spoilers #isat act 6 spoilers #isat loop #Nohats AU #Looploops AU #i shouldnt parrot my own tags in here you can read them in the link but aaaaugh. loop having no idea why theyre grieving at all. #its not like siffrin was real. they were just a copy. they can just take their place. its not like they got attatched. #its not like its weird. its not like theyre utterly unrecognisable to themselves. its not like theyre broken so thoroughly. its fine #anyway SORRY BONNIE THERE IS NO WAY THIS COULD BE EXPLAINED ADEQUATELY. KIND OF GETS THE WORST DEAL HERE. SORRRRYYYY #anyway posting this on pokemon day is bold of me im gonna get drowned. #lucabyteart

[pasteilian]

I think some fans and fandoms have the worst time letting go of the idea that something they love has to tell the same story, point for point, over and over again with no variation of creativity. And if it doesn't stay within this path, it's automatically considered bad.

It's especially weird with TMNT because this franchise has never stuck to the same old, same old in every iteration. It's always something new and unique to that story, while still having story beats that you can recognize from the other versions. So fans being upset that the turtles don't stay the same is wild to me. They've never stayed the same, and that's what makes TMNT so fun.

#tmnt #pastries babbles💌 #don’t get me started on the weirdly racist and homophobic fans #tmnt is very queer #The fans that complain about some iterations of the turtles being black are just racist. I’m sorry. #if you’re only problem with a character is their skin color you have some demons to deal with I’m sorry