#sorry this is late as hell *2

[mwagneto]

sorry idk but the way the world is so fast and the people in it still want it to be faster is sooo annoying to me. people groaning while standing in line for 3 minutes people being mad the train ride is gonna take 2 hours people complaining that the bus is a few minutes late people being angry that construction work is taking months even though it used to take decades. don't you see the world is already so so so fast in every single aspect can't you understand that being mad will do nothing and just make your mood worse. enjoy the moments of stillness you're given. just stand in line and look at the people around you. sit on the train and watch the scenery. you'll get there.

#it's literally one of my main pet peeves not even sorry actually!!!!! esp ppl loudly complaining while standing in line or #when the train's like 2 minutes late coz it has to stop and ppl start yelling #hell even if it stops for 2 hours. who cares who cares who cares unless you're late for like a weeding or smtg who cares !!!! #literally just relax slow down. look at your phone idk #this one should be it's own post but like when people complain about budapest public transport it makes me so mad.... #bruhhh shit's on time 99% of the time and it's like. outstandingly good compared to any other city #hungarian infrastructure in general like are the trains the best NO but they get you pretty much anywhere for like 30 cents #calm down !!!!!!!!!! #barking #humans

[unknownartiste]

Who Are You? (Part 3/3)

Part 1

Part 2

Based on the song by AJJ

#fucking hell #sorry this is so late #tysm for liking this series #<333 #collapsing now #tf2 fanart #tf2 scout #tf2 spy #scout tf2 #spy tf2 #dadspy #tf2 #team fortress 2 #tf2 comic #team fortress fanart #tf2 scout’s mom #scout’s ma #my art #oh my god

[isjasz]

the way you draw pearl is so gender omg

hehehehe ty!! have this too then <3

#wanted to properly render this but never did o7 #pearlescentmoon #bigbst4tz2 #nosy neighbors #my art #limited life #limited life smp #traffic smp #trafficblr #sorry this is late as hell *2 #I wanted to pick a good time to post this and just kept procrastinating KLASJDKJW #is.asks

[soft--dogs]

aaaaa i'm really excited about these pride chibis, i hope everyone likes them :3c i'm always worried about how long my queue is, and if it takes me longer than june to finish these, but i really wanted to do them. hopefully people don't mind if they end up going into july to complete, but i also might just be over-worrying as usual and i'll get them done on time xD

#sorry sorry sorry my anxiety/depression has been really bad lately :C #really unpredictable too #i might have one day where i get a ton of shit done #and i'm like hell yeah we're back baby #and then 2 minutes later i'm crying and spiraling into the void #so i hope everyone can bear with me while i'm stilllll trying to get my brain right #anyway it all makes it hard to draw consistently #very frustrating >:C

[maxphilippa]

uh. vent art. or something. losing yourself and losing everyone who you cared about as a result

#inanimate insanity #inanimate insanity invitational #ii #ii 2 #ii 3 #inanimate insanity cabby #. that's it #i'm. so so exhausted. #i feel like i'm actually going to throw up from how disgusted i am with myself #of course they wouldn't want to be friends w/me of course they don't like talking to me anymore #i am too broken to even be a good friend #hell even my best friend is leaving my side lately #i don't want to go back. i don't want to see them again tomorrow. i don't want to. #i don't want to feel like i'm insignificant i was doing so good why does it hurt why is it hurting now #i don't want to feel like death is the only solution i don't want to i don't want to be alone i don't want to be forgotten #i don't want to be unloved just because i can't fix myself anymore #i don't have anything to offer anymore i'm so so sorry i wish i did i wish i was still happy and healing #i wish i was i wish i was im sorry i can't. #sigh. well can't do much about it now anyway. uh yeah cabby is my mood rn. also talking about irl friends here. #god this was so bad i need to die rn #cw vent #cw sui mention #i guess #mhm. i think i need a therapist

[chevs-and-spiders]

im the leader now.

#infinity train #infinity train fanart #simon laurent #bro im still on that simon obsession :( #ugh.... #smth about this feels off but i just cant place it. #anyway sorry to everyone friends and this account literally so busy lately only got time barely for destress drawings #bro like working so hard and uni starts next week #🤡time for hell #anyway if any of the 2 1/2 followers of this blog see this art ty ilu <3

[redwhiteandroyalbluequotes]

“The next slide is titled: EXPLORING YOUR SEXUALITY: HEALTHY, BUT DOES IT HAVE TO BE WITH THE PRINCE OF ENGLAND? She apologizes for not having time to come up with better titles. Alex actively wishes for the sweet relief of death.

The one after is: FEDERAL FUNDING, TRAVEL EXPENSES, BOOTY CALLS, AND YOU.

-RWRB, page 237

#omg im so sorry i havent been posting lately #im moving across the country in- #2 days #its been hectic as hell #ill be more active after that promise #red white & royal blue #red white and royal blue #rwrb #rwrb quotes #lgbtq books

[lemongogo]

so if timeskip stampede s2 is fr are u telling me we can possibly get millie and eriks + og vash designs . ..

#YEAAAAHOOOOOOO #i hope so at least😭 man the timeskip thing is such a trip fr because like #did the fifth moon incident happen ?? in stampede . bc if not then theyd be looking at another 2 yr timeskip After the lost july that theyre #(i assume) setting up for in the finale #but then again ig that also assumes tht any semblance of the og plot remains #i literally have so many questions. ik theyd be answered if i just watched the show but i want to finish the manga first #ANNOYING I KNOWW😭💔😋 sorry HAHAGA #but it just confuses me soo much bc i dont know how u can get any forward progression #when theyre taking elements from way late in the series and introducing them in this prequel-esque s1 setup #ok anyaays . ANYWAYS im interested 2 know if we will see these changes #bc j want to see vash actually be and look like vash so bad its driving me crazy #and i want millie in the series soo fucking bad . loled at roberto dying ❤️ MAKE WAY OLD MAN #fr hated that guy.. i think he was intended to be used as this narrator for the audience to guide us into the series #but the whole reporter-know-all thing was annoying 😭😭😭 #anyways . millie be mine❤️ eriks!vash be mine ❤️ #hopefully manga/98-esque looking wolfwood be mine ❤️ #also idk wt the hell they did to livio (did they kill him or is it a fakeout for tripunisher return HELP) #or to legato . but they shld make themm all beefy again❤️ and cool❤️ for ME!!!!❤️❤️❤️ #trigun spoilers #trigun stampede #trigun #also yah someone else wondering if his bounty jumps from $$6 billion to $$60 billion #its such a small detail but i was so sad when stamp only put the $$6 on his head HAHACAHAHAHAGAGA #that one 98 clip thats like ‘the man who will slaughter the innocent.does the most evil of evil deeds- #-with the bounty of 60 mil double dollars on his head? YES I AM THAT MAN👹👍’

[sekaithemystic]

I need to know more about your glass sanctuary ship with hanako👀

jkdljg;sdjsàl *giggle kicking my feet twirling my hair*

okay sorry bout that not every day i get ask about my 0 braincell ship so

I seriously don't know where to start...? Because this ship is tied to Valerie's backstory and explaining all of that would make me look like I'm infodumping so 😭😭😭

Tldr version would be that Valerie was kidnapped and sold to Japan. The gang bought a bunch of kids (including Val) to make them do petty crimes. Eventually Valerie was picked for a job of stealing weapon blueprint from an Arasaka facility in Tokyo. She succeeded but got captured by Shintaro Takayama (Saburo's bodyguard) as Saburo visited the facility unexpectedly. Instead of being killed, Valerie was taken in to become Shintaro's protegee, and that was how she ended up becoming Hanako's bodyguard, plus part time executioner for those who plotted against Arasaka, until 2072 when she "left" Arasaka to got back to NC.

The main themes for this couple are contrast and gap.

There is the class gap, which is obvious because Valerie was simply a bodyguard, while Hanako was the treasured daughter of the Emperor

The age gap: Valerie was 14 when she officially became Hanako's personal bodyguard, so there was this 54 years gap between them. It contradicts to their roles, which leads us to the next point

The role contrast: Valerie was Hanako's protector; however, because of their difference in ages, most of the time Hanako treated Valerie as if she was a child, which was technically not wrong. But Valerie had been taught that she should never concern Hanako with such things, so she felt guilty, and all at the same time, because of her fucked up time in the gang and harsh training by Shintaro, she somewhat craved having someone cares for her the way Hanako did.

Expanding on the role contrast and age gap, Valerie was young, but she had to coat her hands with blood in order to serve the Arasaka; at the age where she should able to keep her innocence, killing instead became a familiar act with her. Hanako, on the other hand, was still in a glided cage at that age, having everything handed to her if her father allowed so. The young was not treated as young and the old was not treated as old; the young who had already lost everything and the old who still had everything. Valerie had to fight tooth and nail, risking her life to gain nothing for herself, while Hanako didn't even have to face the ugliness of the world to have power and wealth.

Ethereal and otherworldly, she has never had grime from the street besmirch her clothes or the imperfections of age or illness pock her body-the latest and greatest marvels of cosmetic engineering have always been at her back and call. Her entire essence is one of dissonance: age without aging, power without agency, family without real intimacy or trust.

The Official Artbook of Cyberpunk 2077, about Hanako Arasaka

Valerie was aware of how she was contributing in building Hanako's glass cage. She realized she had a hand in taking away the older woman's freedom, but she was blinded by duty and responsibility: she knew Hanako was capable of changing the whole world, but she was also scared that the cruel world, the very much same world that had broken Valerie would break her too.

They formed a translucent barrier around her, forcing her to stay in this suffocating bubble in the name of protection, all while she could thrive more and more and more if only she was given the chance.

our sanctuary in this broken world, chapter 3

In the current time of 2077, Valerie and Hanako's relationship has shifted to this complex stage of "we are both fucked right now but we are also busy pining each other": Valerie is dying, just lost her best friend, and prior to that was pushed off the corporate ladder which forced her to stay away from her family so that they wouldn't get mixed in her new life; Hanako just lost her father, and from their point of view at that time, her brother was very much planning to kill her. (Fun fact, Hanako died in every route except the Devil; however, Yorinobu never intended her death in all of those endings, but it happened either way.)

I chose glass sanctuary because I was impulsive it represents what Valerie and Hanako try to find in each other: a sanctuary amidst of this storm brewing out there. However, it was fragile, for that they were of two different worlds - their differences are what draw them together, but also what break them.

So yeah, that's what I can say for now...? I say I won't infodump but damn this is pretty much it either way lolol.

#ship: glass sanctuary #sorry for late reply ajsfkl;asj was busy as hell and ik the moment i sit down and write this i will enter a trance #cyberpunk 2077 v #valerie phan #hanako arasaka #cp2077 #hanako x v #v x hanako #fun fact: the first draft of our sanctuary in this broken world was written in january 2021 #fun fact 2: i actually written the ending first and i intend to stick with it

[onlyblackcoffeez]

yeah so next time i'm at ois's i'll definitly see if he'd let me try another of his meds just to see whether it's a fluke or not lol

#like he doesn't take them daily as he's meant to so he always has a surplus #Usually he just uses them until they run out and then fills the perscription - its not something he does every month on the month yknow? #and yeah he has been v open to my trying it out since i told him about my suspicions #well.. after the first time i told him & it was a lil bit of a shitshow but that was bad reactions on both our parts & we're over it now lo #he even said that like yeah #given that a common tester is seeing how you react to the meds #whether you go 'zoom zoom get a million things done in 20 minutes' or 'hey i can do these tasks with less pushback now' #and yeah i'm certainly not zooming #like hell i'm still on the conclusion i've been writing for the past couple hours #but its just easier to get it done #idk i'm rambling sorry lmao #a n y w a y i took it like 2 hours ago and it's a normal-speed release as far aas i'm aware so i'll probs just work on this for a lil while #like what i'm currently working on was due wednesday gone at 3pm (so like 49 hours ago here) and apparantly you lose 10% every day late #but i've had this lecturer for two other modules previous years and she never docks marks for lateness and i did a great presentation #for the module so here's hoping <3 #well that was certainly a tangent lmao #me talking into the little hellsite (affectionate)

[oatflatwhite]

how the fuck am i meant to go about my day after finishing number four was always you by thefaceofno

#stayed up way too late reading it last night woke up without enough sleep nauseous as hell #then spent 2 hours at work this morning finishing it. yeah. ok. #sorry mota friends i am in a ted lasso fic spiral rn #liz.txt

[mickgaydolenz]

the world loves me so much and said here asia we would like you to have your cluster cycle start on new years eve this time :) . also to anyone out there that suffers with cluster headaches, i fucking see you dude and it fucking sucks and i’m so sorry

#i also love having one of this chronic pain issues. that is very hard to be diagnosed because it is cyclical #*those #and mine is especially small given i tend to have 1-2 cycles a year predominantly falling around late august- january #when i brought it up to my doctor she essentially was like hmm that’s hard to deal with so no point getting any diagnosis 🤷‍♀️ #so thanks girl. but mine are very typical cluster. always on the right side of my face. the violent stabbing pain behind my eye #i also have the nice after cluster hangover headache tenderness that just fucking knocks me clean off my feet #rocking and counting tend to be my go to distractions. not that they do anything. but when it’s really bad i unfortunately tend to hit #myself for some fucking relief :s #oh also i get the classic wake up from a dead sleep clusters. and mine are reliably every two fucking hours :) #and usually i get anywhere from 1-8 a day during my cycle period. although 4-5 is pretty average for me #my last cycle was hell. my clusters were lasting upwards of an hour. that is really what i’m hoping to avoid this time around…. #sorry i just really needed to rant about this it fucking sucks. they don’t call them suicide headaches for nothing #cluster headaches

[deus-ex-mona]

help nooooo i just realised that they butchered akechi’s character too

#i mean… would mr ‘don’t run in the halls’ really *really* smile as two of his students play tag in said halls? #who is he and which ‘verse is he from? the m*t* s**t* ‘verse???? #reliving the [redacted] anime is oddly therapeutic in a way. it gives me an appropriate channel for anger venting #so thanks [redacted] anime for being the anger management course that you are </3 i still hate you though </3 #man it’s almost 2 am and i need to be up in 4 hours but i stayed up late to read pksp anyway whoops #binge reading the su-mo chapter was quite the experience. i’m glad the bookstore had all 6 vols when i dropped by #and now i finally understand the moon berlitz references. hell yeaaaaaaaaaaaaa #i lost it when the faba faba-d off though. sorry (not sorry) faba dude kinda deserved it #but man. freakin’ moon and her ‘is ok i studied pharm sci i know how to make all medicines :))’ #girl pls what kind of magical pharm sci school did you go to? i never learned anythingggg but placebo pills :(( (former pharm sci student) #reminds me that the capsules we used for class were old af and expired so the capsule filling task didn’t go well at all #making suppositories was weird though. shapin’ the thing and pressing it into the mold and all… #but the expensive tablet making machine was very cute. the temptation to smash it to bits was even cuter though~~

[anlian-aishang]

My professor signing this email with "yours sincerely" does not know what he's doing to me 😵

#checking all the boxes #he is cancelling the last class ((hell yes)) #because he is feeling sick ((whump)) #and he sent it at 2 am ((late night anlian is a ho)) #alias's #sorry everyone #power dynamics tw #tw power imbalance #power imbalance tw #power imbalance #power dynamics #reference #need to write more prof ackerman nowwwwww

[fnafawoundleftbleedingau]

...partially considering holding off on posting AWLB part 2 until I've got like, the whole thing written, and re-read/reworked in places fully.

#insomniac hyena rambles #idk if I will. just been thinking lately #sorta realized how badly I stifle myself with my work because of someone I know #and just how much anxiety they give me over my hobbies sometimes #sitting aside for a bit and working on that personal project and just #having the space to do whatever was so damn nice and refreshing #and I want my posted works to have that same feeling #i feel like it may be why i keep having trouble with AWLB part 2 and staying focused #I keep looking at it through that anxiety lens they've saddled me with #it may just be this time of the year gettting to me too thats making really consider holding off on AWLB like this too. but. #the other stuff really doesnt help either #sorry for ranting. um #long story short. taking concerns from others into account is fine #but theres a big difference in things that are constructive and actually should be taken into account #and just not making something that's exactly what someone else wanted when you're just trying to create for yourself #don't let anyone pull the joy out of your hobbies for you. you'll just upset yourself. struggled to find joy in your work- #and get frustrated as hell with people.

[cherry-colored-petals]

Context: me and Esther (@mixed-kester) were discussing about our yanderes from Ansy's Pen Pal event on @throwaway-yandere (gonna fix the tag with it soon oops)

Anyways I think Esther doesn't want to be with Dorian but I am perfectly fine with not having Wanderer yet hahahaha God help me if he finds out—

#🌸🍒 - navi speaks #;; I'll add more tags tomorrow its late rn and im tired lol #;; anyways i hope y'all dont mind the tags I just think its funny HAOSJSISJ #;; imagine having a fake alchemist on your tail and the other is hiding their existence from their yandere #;; crazy shit #;; .. okay sorta HAKSNSKSNSB #;; sorry Esther your (yandere) husband (Wanderer) is busy with a possessed umbrella idk what to tell you man #;; at least he aint on my ass and im not dead but damn imagine if he knows #;; terrifying thought fr #;; anyways time to get ur ass back to your husband and for me to get my revenge by visiting Dragonspine #;; if i dont come back in 2 weeks call the authorities /j #;; (in all seriousness my sleep deprived brain is speaking here and Im in a crackhead mood) #;; (very smooth brain and also somewhat sneeby wwww) #;; (thats all for my ramblings ill think abt writing about this shit again because like hell Wanderer is gonna get the actual me lmao) #;; (try harder bottom /t)