#sorry for the rambles ahahaha

[hanniesunshine]

Can you be non-binary but feminine presenting? I feel like that’s a thing but like idk really…like if I started using they/them but didn’t change how I look or dress or anything? Is that something people do? Is that ok to do? I mean obviously non-binary people don’t owe androgyny, but it’s kind of…expected, right? Maybe it’s just that I know I’m attractive as a girl, and I would not be attractive as a guy, and it’s stupidly ridiculously important for me to stay attractive because why I don’t know hit it is but if I use they/them but still look like a girl even if I don’t feel like one then…what?

#isabel.txt #idk man I’m having trouble with this #I don’t feel like a girl but I’m for sure not a guy but I don’t feel like I’m androgynous enough that anyone else would be #ok with using they/them for me #is that dumb? #I’m also trying to think of different names to use cuz mine does n o t feel like me but that’s hard too #I’ve been playing with astrea or Alex but astrea is very feminine and Alex is simply not right #I was considering like moss maybe? #idk if you have any ideas please tell me help me out here #sorry for the rambles ahahaha #also it’s been forever since I’ve actually posted anything instead of a reblog lol #y’all miss me? #I don’t expect responses I’m just typing words my guy

[stormboundstars]

all these talk about reboots of already successful book-to-screen adaptations, when you can craft highly entertaining spin-offs from 19th-century classic novels. concoct what-ifs from the canon material and turn them into reality. put that one minor character you thought was kinda cool into all sorts of Situations. make them be uncomfortable and struggle in their new role as the protagonist. make that social commentary cheekier while keeping it accurate. Dickensian with a....twist, as one would say

#get it? aha...ahahaha... sorry #this post is about the artful dodger show btw #the artful dodger #the artful dodger hulu #jack dawkins #norbert fagin #belle fox #oliver twist #charles dickens #i really enjoyed this show #i live for the shenanigans and banter....the romance is ok #thomas brodie sangster #david thewlis #maia mitchell #newt's notes #newt rambles #these are most definitely...words

[linkedsoul]

One of my Italian colleagues told me I have a Russian accent when I try to speak Italian so if anyone needs to be in Goncharov, it should be me

#goncharov #linked rambling #sorry i just thought tumblr would enjoy it ahahaha

[veetowervaporwave]

I feel like voxval are primed for a hanahaki au

Not the regular kind (don't care for that), but the one where the flowers are literally the manifestation of repressed feelings, and the longer you try to hold them in or suppress them, the worse it gets. And the only cure is to confess.

They're both so prideful they'd rather choke on their feelings than admit them.

#.ramblings #whoever gives in first loses #I love him because he's horrible but if I show vulnerability would he destroy me just like he does everyone else? #but if he doesn't is that really the one I fell for? #and if he submits first would I be able to stop myself from destroying him? #uncertainty is terrifying #<- sorry for this pretentious mess it's just really late at night for me and my brain is all over the place #staticmoth #hazbin hotel #valentino #vox #hazbin hotel vox #hazbin hotel valentino #on top of everything I also don't think val has ever felt a romantic feeling before so that's probably not helping #and if vox has already touched red with alastor before... ahahaha #good luck to them #voxval

[katotaines]

⭐HAPPY BIRTHDAY SUBARU!!!!⭐ (ﾉ  *≧▽≦)ﾉ *:・ﾟ✧

#natsuki subaru #subaru natsuki #re:zero #rezero #re: zero #Re:Zero kara Hajimeru Isekai Seikatsu #re:zero starting life in another world #AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH #HAPPY BIRTHDAY SUBARU!!!! #THE BOY I LOVE THE MOST #I just love this dork so much #hopefully this year Tappei will more mercy on you (he won't but one can dream) #he just means so much to me #and to so many others #I don't think I remember a character so many people can relate to on some level #and in turn ended up having a big impact on their lifes #he's trully amazing #trully the best of the best #with all of his flaws and all of his qualities #sorry I'm just rambling at this point ahahaha #and so once again #HAPPY BIRTHDAY SUBARU ヾ(´▽｀*)ﾉ☆

[jazzzzzzhands]

If I ever stop drawing him, assume I DIED

#also im so in love with his design that i dont think ive drawn him in my actual style before!! #hes kinda cute in it! i may play around with that more #or just keep being inconsistent with him because its FUN #im SORRY #im sorry for drawing your bare shoulders wally!! uwaaaaa!!! #i am shimmying about it uwaaaa #but they are cute they are cute #maybe i might color these haha #oh tags!! i keep forgetting those! #wally darling #jazzsketches #welcome home #welcome home wally #i forget to put my tags cause tags is just where i like to talk and ramble on #so that ppl dont have tons of text on their dash #i dont like a ton of text on my dash so its polite!! #plus sometimes im just in here twirling and going insane #Ahahaha!!!! #im the ultimate spazz!! #been playing dangenronpa lmao its a blast #so in case u get my reference!! #awaa! i need to be working on inktober!!

[i-tzi]

POKEDDEXY DAY 1: BUG TYPE (#988)

Another year, another Pokeddexy!! 🎉

I honestly don't know how much I'll be able to combine because objectively January is kind of a shitty month for me lol

But WHO CARES, enjoy my boys, see you again at the end of the challenge if I'm still alive lol o|-<

#Anyway i just decide that I'll be deranged in the tag lol #infinite rambling moments ahahaha #so #I just asked my friend the prompt list for this year for like a month?? bc in this way i can prepare a bit #guess who is STILL LATE??? #and is just the first day lmaoo #Sorry toff you know i love u😔💖 #Anywayy i decided that even this pkdexxy has to be chaotic so i just slapped Ribera here for the first day without contest ahahah #I draw him last year but who cares??? +1000 pokémon but i love him so \_( ´ ▽ ` )_/¯ #I can give some context tho #Or maybe not lmaoo my word building is not something amazing #Paradox pkmn are all bikers since this gen the legendaries are walking bikes lol #There are two gangs one for past paradox one for future paradox and blablabla onestly I wrote abt this last year too lmao #I also said that I'll explain this better and not in the tag. Did i do that? No. Did i care? No💀 #Anyway motorbike shops are cool #They are something between a decathlon sportswear aisle and the aestetich moodboards you see on pinterest #And I don't know why but the walls and shelves are always white ahaha I mean it looks a bit like a hospital too #I understand it may be an accurate choice since 292992 of the motorcycle suits are neon color lmao #pkg pokeddexy #pokemon gijinka #slither wing

[three-leafed-clover]

day three - bread @nosebleedclub

i went to church with my parents and the pastor was talking about the origins of communion and how jesus broke the bread and said that it was his body. and all i could think about was that someone had to make that bread. someone had to harvest the wheat so they could do it. 

and i remember how my best friend was so convinced when we were teens that she was born alone and that she would die alone. with no one to ever love her. 

at the time, i was very annoyed by this sentiment. i was there, so clearly she was not alone. i was there, and did i not love her?

and presently, i still say no, you’re wrong. your birth involved the pain of your mother. you had doctors, and nurses, who washed you off. you had sisters, and they held you when your mom said it was okay. 

someone made the bread. someone tilled the soil. someone planted the wheat. harvested it. ground it into flour, and made a yeast starter, and fed the chickens so they could have eggs. so many people were involved in making the bread. the body. 

i loved you. i love you. it’s not a great romance, but it’s something. i’m sorry if it’s not enough. 

and even if you don’t die in a house made by other people, even if you die in the middle of the fucking woods somewhere. well. humanity has been around for many centuries on this continent. at minimum, someone else was here too, once.

#ramblings of a lunatic #ahahaha this one is the worst one yet #this could literally be dedicated to most of my best friends as a teen which is actually very sad #but it is for a specific person who had and has a lot of issues at the time #realistically this could also be dedicated to me #so in that spirit #hey future me #give this a look #idk i'm so obsessed with the interconnectivity of shit anymore #just look at it #so much connection <3 #mkay sorry for rambling byeeeeeee #death tw

[hanabeeri]

i am forcing myself to finish little women. because aaaah i'm so sad and not satisfied with the way things are ending.

jo is basically like alcott herself in many ways, alcott didn't want her to marry anyone initially, which is fine - but to marry her off to some old man that "tamed" her free spirit is so AAAAAAH frustrating!!! the same if teddy!!! he didn't want to fit into the world that was already set for him, he didn't want any of it and he was still paired up with the one sister that appreciated good manners and the old world more than anything; that quite literally tamed him, too.

burn me on a stake but i will die with the belief that jo and teddy should have been together. if not as a married couple than as lovers to defy societal standards of the times. and i know deep in my heart that they would have fit 😭 ms alcott once i'm dead i'm finding your soul and you will sit through days upon days of my crying because NOOOOOO!!!! if jo really HAD to marry someone it should have been the only man that didn't try to change her!

they deserved so much better. the relationships felt so unnatural and forced. i can get behind the marriage of meg and john, it's sweet and as traditional as it gets. but jo and teddy could have been the complete opposite. and the relationship between them was building up!!!! like you could tell he really liked her from an early point :(((

JO YOU DESERVED BETTER THAN SOME GERMAN OLD MAN 😭😭😭😭😭 she deserved a teddy that would have defied societal expectations and norms, a relationship between them may have been fiery and at times fierce but you can't seriously think that a boy who was set to reach his full potential in his studies to make jo love him, wouldn't have done more to keep the love going? it just doesn't make sense. and maybe, maybe i'm just a little bit misinterpreting and coping (i am ahahaha) but i truly do believe that she would have fallen in love with him for real :( if only he would have tried at a later time when he was more figured out. not tamed, not more mature or nursing. but independent, when he would have realized that he shouldn't have had to impress her in the first place, that she loves people for what they are not for what they try to be 😭

but i do understand that my thinking may be too progressed for the time alcott lived in. perhaps she was forced to alternate a lot of things. but it still doesn't do anything to console my heart :(

anyways. i'll finish the book today. and then i will need some good therapy.

update: therapy won't be enough. I CANT DO THIS ANYMORE 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 why must books hurt me like this, everytime omg 🥹🥹

#sorry for rambling ahahaha #i'm not over the book #i'm really emotional sorry 🥹 #experiencing my current feelings like i was there in the book

[i23kazu]

yiiiiing i just finished reading about your ocs and omg!!! they're all so cute and adorable ♡v♡ i especially adore how some are connected to each other and the details!! but pls tell me shuying (baby <3) is like an older sister to qiqi, one of my babies

also luckily they're all 4☆, watch me pull them all, nothing will stop me 😎

HANA HONEY !!! ty for reading and perceiving my ocs aaaahh ... i appreciate this so muchh hello!!! and its so nice interacting with u ;w;

AND YESSS she is defo a big sister to qiqi!! she helps out at the pharmacy (it gives her a good insight into medical social work too) and takes care of qiqi when she can :3 she brings her out to walk around the mountains and gather violetgrass heheheee and entertains all the discussions about cocogoat,,,,, and when there are days that shuying wld like to be taken care of too, kailah comes around to help out!! altogether very very cute and adorable ;w; shuying is a big sister but kailah is the biggest sister bc i live for found family mwehehehe

may all of them come home within the first 10 pull !!! TRUST TRUST THEY WILL

#AHAHAHA SORRY THIS TURNED TO ME RAMBLING AB KAILAH #AAAAUGHHH TY FOR LETTING ME TALK AB THEM !!! i appreciate this so much #[📥 message received!]

[nezzling]

ok but if you won't send me your name, a pic of your face and your body, your interests, what you do for income, what you had for lunch, three traumatic life events, a time you were the reason a relationship failed, how old you were when you first experienced empathy to a painful degree, something your child self would loathe your current self for, and what in 100 words or less do you think makes me such a perfect pretty princess then why would I waste my time responding

#sorry but some of yall blank accounts be bold tryna get me to talk to a blank wall ahahaha #have some personality at least my god #lil rambles

[im-a-chunky-potato]

I finally got the persona 5 games to try out and WOAHHH IM IN LOVE

#IM SORRY BUT LIKE THE STYLE AND MUSIC AND AHAHAHA #new hyperfixation unlocked #I'll probably ramble about it more later but all you need to know for now is #Futaba is so real and relatable and my beloved<33333 #Joker is Joker do I really need to say anymore♡ #AND OMG ALICE'S OUTFITS I NEED THEM SO BAD #That is all for now

[cherry-bomb-ships]

Psssst my gf thinks I'm sleeping 🤫🤫🤫 Anyways y'all want some angst

So for a long time now my canon with R. Marie has been that she sees that Crash could be very useful if he were actually on the side of evil, but she resents him for not being on their side and choosing to be, eugh, a "good guy". Barf.

But ya know, I don't really have all of my timeline set up as for WHEN exactly R. Marie would join Cortex, if its not from the very start then I'm thinking within the first three games. For the moment, I'm leaning toward having her join the team somewhere between Crash 2 and 3, and in that case I would stick to her thinking Crash could be useful, since she wasn't around to see when his brain got scrampled and doesn't realize that he CAN'T be brainwashed. There's no BRAIN to WASH

BUT. And this is where it gets good 👀 I had the idea today that maybe, if R. Marie was there from the very start to see Cortex create all his mutants, including Crash who would seem to really be his favorite, maybe beforehand, R. Marie suggested using robots, her handmade robots, to build up their army in order to take over the world. Maybe that idea was shot down by Cortex in preference of his mutants. Maybe R. Marie resents them, especially The Favorite, Crash, because of that 👀 What I'm imagining is R. Marie overseeing a test with Crash a la the Flashback Tapes in IAT, and it accidentally turns into her venting out loud about how much she despises Crash for supposedly being a success where her creations have failed, at least from her perception. Maybe she even has a line of wondering "what does Dr. Cortex even see in you that he doesn't in me- MY, in myyyy creations. *awkward cough*"

#the point is ahahaha. SHE JEALOUSSSSSSS #she's deadass like ''so unfair is obsessed with HIM when he should be obsessed with ME'' #but girl like. that obsession is desperately wanting him dead 💀💀 #SPEAKING OF DEAD. OHHHH THIS GOT RLY LONG SORRY!!! #hi jane i love you so much dont get mad that im up late baby haha ok bye everyone 💝💝💝 #ruby rambles #🍒🧠: evil does it better #🥭.frnd #💜: the man of my schemes #long post

[inkykeiji]

😭 omg Touya-nii throwing a tantrum over the hickies is so endearing even though it’s really childish and toxic

yes!!! it definitely is!!! but that’s the thing, right???

that’s the thing!!! these hickeys, in his twisted mind, mean so much more than just careless love bites and bruises. they’re all the things he doesn’t yet have the capacity to say. to him, these are some serious proclamations of love!!! because he’s never seriously marked her neck before—he’s given a few superficial nips and has bitten her collarbone, but never purposefully left large bruises in such a visible, hard-to-hide place—and he cannot BELIEVE his baby isn’t taking them as seriously as he is. he finds that so unbelievably offensive. that’s why he’s having this overblown and overdramatic meltdown over them, which seems very overreactive to everyone else (at least at the beginning!) but totally makes sense in his head.

because he’s still in this very vulnerable spot, right? this is all very new to him and he’s still figuring out how to deal with and accept these very scary, very foreign feelings, still figuring out how to express himself vocally and with his words, and he hates being perceived as (what he would consider) ‘weak’—and to love is to open yourself up to many potential vulnerabilities. so he’s trying to reconcile those two things: how he can continue to love her and be what he wants to be for her (a true lover) *and* not feel like he’s being weak in some sort of way. on top of all of those complexities, the tomura wound is still extremely fresh, so when you add it aaaaall together and he sees her covering up these marks of ‘love’, it’s kind of the last straw and he breaks a little bit. i think that’s what makes it feel endearing you know???

i really enjoyed writing this piece because it was super fun to examine their fragile relationship directly after what happened with tomura, and peek into touya’s mind for a moment to see how he’s handling all of this new and unknown territory!!! <3

#i'm glad you enjoyed the piece!!!! #<333 #promise i'll post some touya-nii smut to make up for the hurt ehehe #also sorry i rambled so bad on this answer ahahaha #i hope you're having an awesome wednesday!!! <3 #stay safe n hydrated as always! #staple chan #clari gets mail

[tardis--dreams]

11:45pm, sitting here with my ridiculously large tomato-mozarrella sandwich and crying to bad and crazy. I love life.

#I have to write through the night thanks to my immaculate time management skills #but i haven't eaten a lot throughout the day and I figured it would be sensible to eat something even if it's technically night #since i will be staying up for a While (probably until tomorrow night tbh ahaha) #so i took a break from 'working' and continued the rewatch and that one scene in ep 4 again made me ugly cry #which feels ridiculous when you're eating tbh #aw man #I'm too emotionally attached to this show #I'm not even kidding this is on one level with tdj and beyond evil #(well. #beyond evil is kinda unbeatable. but still it's definitely one of my absolute favorite shows now. so I'm very happy i watched this in the #first place because i wasn't sure if I'd like it and almost didn't give it a try) #sorry for rambling #i will continue working now i guess #only have 3000 words left #i can't believe I'm not even feeling stressed after procrastinating this for 4 weeks and now having to write the entire thing in one night #something really is fundamentally wrong with my brain #(or maybe i just got more chill about doing a bad job. i guess i realized it doesn't really matter anyway so why stress about it #bullshitting is fine when it doesn't affect anyone or anything but you. and i would not benefit from doing well anyway so what's the point #yeah good grades are nice but in my position ultimately meaningless since I'm not gonna get a job anyway and also won't stay in academia #for much longer. so whatever. just do whatever ahahaha) #shut up amy

[anon-drabble]

what other games do you play?

otome or regular? 😂

i'm a bit of a gamer so i play all sorts of games. i usually reblog the otome game type stuff on this blog.

but some of my favorites are the fire emblem series which i've been playing since the first na localization game, blazing blade. i love the dragon age series and way back when i first started this blog, i had a few da:i fanfics lol. i love the japanese game series sakura taisen. big fan of obsidian and their games, the outer worlds and grounded are my favorites, looking forward to their new rpg.

mostly i enjoy rpgs and crafting survival games. i enjoy the harvest moon games (until the split with natsume, after the split the series is story of seasons).

recently played the quarry and loved that, very fun game although the wrap-up to the story was non-existant.

mostly i'll play anything if it catches my eye. i am terrible at fps games though lol.

and i keep my ear to the ground for gaming news so i am usually watching for a few new releases, both indie and triple a titles.

#not writing #ahahaha i rambled a bit sorry lol