#sometimes I get so tired of continuing

[wayward-wren]

In addition to the Jamie being not sexist post I'm still a bit mad about the comment from the First Doctor in Twice Upon a Time about Polly cleaning the TARDIS like nope he would NOT say that and also given that team tardis was a) old man One playing up the frail old man card b) young adult Polly into clubbing etc and c) navy man Ben. Polly would NOT be the one cleaning Ben is the one who keeps the tardis shipshape and he gets so exasperated by the others and I will die on this hill

#doctor who #classic doctor who #first doctor #polly is Me i relate to her so hard #and i CANNOT keep things clean #whereas Ben is used to being at sea in the navy he would get SO frustrated by Polly just throwing clothes across her room #this dynamic continues into Two's run btw #jamie SOMETIMES helps but hes almost as bad as the others #and two is worse than one at keeping clean #ben is So Tired

[deus-ex-mona]

january is finally over…

#im so tired… can the year just end already? #now that it’s feb… ig it’s time for my annual tradition of finding ways to skip cny gatherings a g a i n #‘it’s been a long time since we last saw [my name]’ my relatives say. y e a h that’s kind of the point </3 #haven’t spoken to them since that time i cracked jokes at my grandma’s funeral a couple years back i think #maybe i’ll finally get back to idol sengen if i can skip this year’s cny gathering lmaoooo #but well. that depends on whether i decide to continue to read the 6.6k+ page long epub over the break instead lol #anyways yeah that very long epub is why i’ve been inactive. who has the time to pollute the interwebs when you can read instead— #some words do kinda stick out as possibly mtled but it’s still eons better than some of the official tls out there o o o p #like man. sometimes official tls are worse than the fan tls </3 #especially for this certain series that frequently typoed the characters’ names. sometimes even multiple times through the same chapter #l i k e . lmao. who is ‘partytia’ supposed to be? her name is ‘bertia’— #anyways the epub is calling byebye

[eternalergo]

The lack of appreciation for gifs on this hell site is disturbing

#a trend that's been continuing for years already #and don't get me started on art in general #esp when you're not “fame” enough #sometimes I wonder why I still make them but then I remember I do quite enjoy them and that's the point right?? #← me lying to myself lmao #so fucking tired of this #diary entry

[simcardiac-arrested]

once again sorry to everyone for bringing this to your dashboards. but some of you are like, genuinely delirious. not even in a funny way. & i hope you die. i hope we both die. hand in unlovable hand etc etc

#Just so fucking bizarre to me how people can be Like This. there has to be something so wrong with your brain on a fundamental level #i can’t even laugh about this or anything because i genuinely feel pity for these people. it’s so sad to me how you’re gonna be like 20 #and then go in a niche tumblr community and create drama over Nothing. over Thin Fucking Air #like do you not have a life? do you not have college? or a job? doesn’t it get tiring? don’t you ever feel ashamed about all this #and the fact that they go and complain about the shipping and the ‘fandombrained’ people as well…. oh my god #how are you going to be TWENTY. and DO THAT. are you seriously sick. ? do you need help #just say you are homophobic and that you hate kids and go. it’ll save everyone a bunch of time for sure #anyways. as someone who has been a rain world fan since 2018. i love you embracing canon. i love you changing canon. i love you disregarding #canon entirely. i love you ships that make sense in canon & that make absolutely zero sense at all. i love you fancharacters that don’t #follow canon rules. i love you ‘cringe’ fancharacters and self inserts. i love you self shipping. i love you oc x canon shipping. #and i love you taking inspiration from designs. i love you community & i love you artists & i love you art #i love you borrowing elements and being inspired and referencing something because you liked it. #are fandoms perfect? GOOD GOD no. is every Fan perfect? no. am i also sometimes annoyed or irrationally pissed off over a ship that #i think is stupid and is illogical. Yes! i’m only human! but i can still love and appreciate the whole CREATIVITY of it all. and the whole #Fun that people are having. i love you having fun. if i don’t like it or if anyone else doesn’t like it they can just Cope #instead of hateposting about it on main and indirectly bullying people who are most likely children. or lgbt. or both #anyways. please continue doing whatever you want. The world is your oyster and you only live on earth once #everyone else can fuck off

[tianshiisdead]

Forget school actually please send hate to distract me from no money I'm so hungry o(-( dunno how much longer I can go with the 1 food item per day money saving scheme to attempt to afford rent

#diary #eating issues cw #not bc eating disorder for oncebut yk #mfw my periods stopped #idk if bc food or stress but wehhhhhhhhhhh hewp me #mfw ottawa unlivable rn #next sem student loans should save me for a while but they dont come till Jan... #like. ive been here before but im rlly sick this time (im usually sick but lol) and then exams on top of that and stress abt grandparents #im excited to see parents for xmas bc i feel like i cant continue on sometimes and i dont feel safe being alone in my flat #esp bc its so... like. dark aand small yk and i get claustrophobia but housing is so expensive rn so its the only place i could afford #idk idk its nothing new but im at the end of my line rn #ive been sleeping w the lights on despite cost bc paranoia and i think its fucking with me tbh tbh but again claustrophobia #like in general idk if i can go on like this 🗿🗿 #i feel so sick and cold every day and also tired nd its hard to study when im scared to buy water bc card may decline and my fridge is empty

[transboysokka]

maybe ive been too fucked up by growing up in america during the fucked up hypernationalistic war on terror era but I think it’s FUCKING DISGUSTING to see mainstream people praising the murder of civilians while days ago they were condemning it

it’s also super creepy that so many americans have blind allegiance to a government they don’t live under or actually understand

THATS why I was bothered by people earlier this week posting Israeli flags on their social media

just like. stop killing people on any fucking side, cheering for death is barbaric

#I’ve seen so much of it and I’m just tired #I know this shit is all over social media but I’m tired of the Islamophobia that’s never gone away and I’m tired of the antisemitism that #also feels like it can come out of the woodworks and I’m tired of people making tragedies across the world a part of their agenda and I’m #tired of America continuing its legacy of not minding its own business and I’m tired of continued double standards and meanwhile this shit #in Australia proving once again what we already knew about humanity just being terrible and at least once a day I think about the #inevitability of war here and like I just get fucking tired sometimes #anyway totally not trying to make anything about me I’m just venting like I’m so tired of stupid people

[theres-whump-in-that-nebula]

There always seems to be one kid who just screams like a tornado siren, all day long, at any given opportunity. Like, kid, I love you, you are precious and deserve all the happiness in the world; but please for the love of god shut up. There are people trying to learn here and you’re not helping them or yourself.

#I don’t like being harsh with people in general but if one child is raising the tension in the room to a fever pitch every single day #making it incredibly hard for the kids who are trying really really hard to focus when they already have focus issues #and because I know this specific kid gets absolutely spoiled rotten at home and is allowed to do whatever they want #you know… sometimes it helps to show the kid how they sound to others by demonstrating the obnoxious nature of The Scream #because when the parents do Jack Shit about teaching their kid discipline and courtesy; you have to be a parent in their stead #But do NOT continue to scream. You are an adult with adequate emotional control. Screaming should be be done EXTREMELY sparingly #and only utilized for demonstration purposes or to stop a brawl; not for bullying or intimidation #Don’t do a JoJo Siwa and TRY to make kids cry even though you may get stressed enough that you want to escalate on purpose #Again: you are an adult with adequate emotional control; don’t escalate unless the overreaching plan is to deescalate #if eliciting a startle response will stop harmful behavior and “snap them out of it” for long enough for you to get through #or if they just need to let all their emotions out at once so they can lose enough of that high energy to think critically #then sure #but you have to guide them back down very carefully and calmly; it’s a precise science #Don’t be mean about it; be genuine in your feelings and don’t go overboard. Genuine ≠ mean unless you’re evil #Or if you don’t feel emotions very strongly (like I do) then react like a “normal” person. Lie about being angry or sad if it is appropriat #Again: Your goal should not be to get the kid to do what you want; the goal should be to get them to feel good enough #so they are ABLE to do it in the first place #And the goal should also be to show them how their actions affect others if they are not aware of it #“Teach a man to fish” and all that. Don’t always check them; get them to check themselves #If a kid hits another kid when they’re angry at something completely unrelated; then 1.) redirect destructive behavior #and 2.) walk them back over to the kid they hurt and say: #“Look at [name]; look how sad you made them. [name] didn’t do anything to you #It’s okay to be angry but we CANNOT hit people when we are angry because it hurts and makes them cry.” Works great #Always remember there is a power imbalance inherent in EVERY child-adult relationship and NEVER abuse it #And if you’re not patient or emotionally stable enough to work with or have children; then don’t. Please don’t. #Children are not cute little dolls to play dress-up with; nor are they perfect angels; nor are they your personal stress ball #Having children is NOT A GAME. They are PEOPLE who will grow to be your age one day and everything you do affects them #Sorry I’m just tired of all these parents who shove iPads in their kids faces so they don’t bother them. You’re giving them an addiction

[astrxealis]

me rn having the biggest hots for leon kennedy and astarion sorry LMFAOOO <3

#⋯ ꒰ა starry thoughts ໒꒱ *·˚ #^___^ me smiling innocently #bg3 is on the MIND !!! i dearly want it so badly. turns out my dad played 1/2 (not sure which) a looong time ago #but he never got too far i think bcs he's busy... :P but hey i love him. wow. it's really cool he knows it too (ofc he does lmfao) #me and him (handshake emoji) also never getting far in da origins yet bcs we have it on xbox bcs of him getting it a long time ago #but there's that bug in the mage tower... :( funny we both went thru it LMFAO <//3 anyway i got it on steam so i've been playing #again but not recently anymore since 1. ffxiv took over my life last days of summer again 2. summer is over back school so rip #anyway can u tell i love fantasy :)) da and bg babeyyy !!! my type is going to make you guys cry i'm so obvious #zevran... fenris... astarion... i have a thing for ppl w blond/white hair :P idk my fav in inquisition yet and idk anything abt bg1&2 yet #but Yeah. GHBSHJGBSHJG..... da origins is kinda funny (lack of better word) to me btw bcs i like all four main romance options #but it's hard to explain (i have a story behind stuff i want to share but it's tiring and annoying of me /hj !!!!!) #anyway i like blond elves if it wasn't obvious. yes i also like link and zelda from loz. yes i like legolas. yes i like #...anyway! so where does re fit in this? uh. u see i'm a coward actually i'm too scared to play re LMFAOOO #BTU I ADORE THE LORE and the characters and the game franchise and shit ^_^ just. i shld really watch it sometime #instead of reading wikis all the time and just soaking up all the knowledge but i'm. a Coward. okay #i can't even play bloodborne despite how nerdy i am over it... it's so scary to poor little me... i'm a coward (it's the harsh truth)..... #anwyay i'll conquer my fears one day but that day is NOT SOON !!! i wna get into re properly tho aside from just being a nerd #so i'm too scared to play but i'll watch playthroughs sometime (and admire leon) <3 yeah. another blond. i know. shut up. #is this my life rn am i just infatuated w blonds and white haired guys. it's gna be hell if i continue nier replicant rn too huh #uh. goodnight!

[blk-xniverse]

This year's just... yearing.

#So tired of folks thinking they can play in my face + continue to be disrespectful with little to no consequences in return #I am NOT the same girl I used to be #I'm not just gon sit on my hands + take it AND that infuriates them SO bad #cause it's like... 'who do you think you are??? you think you allowed to take up for yourself??? defend yourself?? set BOUNDARIES???' #and that shit blows bc then they feel like they can challenge me to see if I'll fold or not which is even more disrespectful on top of the - #- shit that was already going on in the first place #like if I gotta go through AAAALLL that for a weak ass connection then I gladly let it go but don't let me say that - #- bc then it's an even BIGGER showdown bc I be letting em know that if they gon keep disrespecting me + my folks then they need to get tf on #very simple terms imo but mfs want to fight + be passive-aggressive all day like.... ain't nobody got the time nor the energy for allat fr #and as soon as me and my sisters stand our ground we magically become the villains and the bad guys #and this shit is spread to whoever is willing to listen and this shit irks so bad sometimes ngl bc idfw ppl lying on our characters #this year has completely SUCKED in terms of my connections with ppl and that makes me real life not want to talk to anybody ever again bc #ppl always pretending to be something they not to get what they want out of us #+ as soon as we fall short/make a mistake/unable to do a thing then the mask falls off + they become the most disgusting person ever!!!!! #and it's like... who tf is this person???? this aint who i befriended???? hello????? #and the lamest part about all of that is that we are always 1000% ourselves so we automatically expect folks to do the same with us #and maybe that's our fault for thinking like that idk but at the end of the day the shit is wack #and I just plan on being in hermit mode for as long as time permits + until i get a sign/message to do something else #if anybody read all of this: thanks for reading + sending you so so so much love + kindness into your life! We for sure all need it 🫶🏾✨️✨️ #abtme #4:26 pm

[love-songs-for-emma]

they say that "time heals all wounds" but i honestly think that upping my anti-depressants has done more for me

#.jokes #hashtag comedy #ok but actually. upping my dosage has rocked my world this last week #i hope this continues!!!!!!! #today is The Day im Feeling It #still a very tired busy guy but at least im not explodingexplodingexploding #also on a serious note. time just passes. it passes no matter what. time is not a remedy to trauma #time will go on but you may get stuck on loop. therapy. unpacking what happened to you. finding coping mechanisms that #work for you. medication maybe. these r things that help #the pain still exists. and it can be just as strong depending on the trauma. but hopefully the time between incidents/episodes lessens #fill the space where u feel capable and free with love laughter joy. fill it with little tasks that set you up to have a better time when #things r feeling bad again #sometimes ill do smth as small as writing out a phone number i need to call in the morning Just to cut out the step of googling it in the #morning. bc in the morning The Phone Call may seem monumental and impossible. but a lil bit less so if everything i need ( #the number & what i wanna say) are written out before me #also also. last thing. the beginning of this is to be read exactly how the person in ''it could take 5 or 6 stores or just 1'' says it #thank u. #.txt #maria is literally just rambling. hi #personal #yes this ok to reblog. its meant to make u snort #mental health #/pos #silly hour!

[yoohyeontual]

I thought I would have a nice day today, but it turn into a big fight how great

#my mom is constantly saying we don’t care about her and that we won’t let her express herself #but the way she need to express herself hurts both me and my dad so we kindly tell to not do it please #but she get offended cause she take it that we don’t care about her feeling and take the side opposite of her #but once we tell her she dosen’t consider OUR feelings she repeat that we don’t care about HERS #no you’re the one only caring about your feeling #I’m exhausted I’m already so stress and confused about what to do I need money and the store won’t call back so I need to find somethin #but there’s nothing around my house that won’t end with me having having panic attack everyday like at my old job #but she won’t hear a word we say if we ever tell her she does something to hurt us she takes it as an insult #she says to take her as she is and she will never change even tho we tell her it hurts us but we should change and and absorb everything #todays conversation was one we have often and I feel the same way she does about the subject but I hate talking about it we don’t have #to keep talking about it what is done is done no matter how much we talk against it it just hurt #even when I told her it was mentally the worst time of my life she still thing that I should listen to her complain non stop and have #to think about it when it just hurt #i feel like Imm just repeating but imm so tired of everything and don’t wanna go in detail I hope it still clear #we had plans today and everything is just ruin #i would continue playing my game and stay distract but this ruined my mood so bad #tomorrow is probably gonna be bad to cause my botch my parents are stubborn especially my dad and he won’t talk to her now and probably #won’t tomorrow neither and she’s gonna be mad and say that he should get over it #i would cause I hate to fight I just want peace but he’s not like that #i love them but they are exhausting sometimes #i wish I could just leave but I have no one to meet and I’m scared if I leave they are going to fight even more today or tomorrow #or that my mom will get offended idk #i wish I wasn’t coming back to complain but I need to ‘’speak’’ somewhere or I’ll break down 😭 #I’m not here often and I don’t feel like scrolling you can tag me in things if you want it would help or use my tag for your content 💕 #I’ve been stalking a tag for a couple of days that’s why I couldn’t resist reblog that nice Eri post when I came earlier and keep reblogging #alex.txt #tw negative

[veone]

daily reminder that at the end of the day people make mistakes and should acknowledge that and grow from it. if people have an issue with that mistake they have that right and that’s fine. Not everyone’s gonna like you and no one’s just out here perfect. everyone’s got flaws and shit they need to address and work on. some of its not that deep but some of it is.

#this is towards everyone eveyywhere 😘 including myself #I just handle certain situations differently not give certain energies tossed my way any of my attention but I know it’s hard #also y’all are to young to be this stressed all the time #sometimes it’s good to argue sometimes it not #don’t sit pissed for days on something you wanted to say #this is vauge vauge but if this applies 👀 I just wanted to put in my two cents #grow from ya mistakes and prove people wrong and hold that same energy for ya friends and allies because ain’t nothing more ugly then a #hypocrite #don’t dish shit out you couldn’t take #also stop sending y’all friends everything someone says about them your a dick 😂 like I would be pissed it every five minutes my bestie or #an anon was like this person is saying this about you like so?? do you want me to be upset #out her gassing ya friends up for something that should’ve been ignored #everyone gets talked about it’s life that people #but if you choose to bring stuff up to ya friend be smart about it and think about the outcomes and how that friend reacts to stuff and #people who are talking about people accept people are gonna be mad and pissed your talking about then don’t victimize yourself #and deflect #veone rants #I unfortunately am an optimist I feel like simblr would be a better place if people just talked through stuff more #like continues speaking and if that goes on for weeks it needs to #I know y’all are tired of the revolving conversation #finish them first

[gideonisms]

thought about working a job again 20 dead 40 injured

#thought about existing in the world again 20 dead etc #would love to get to the point where thinking about having to live my life instead of sitting in my apartment doesn't make me cry! #eventually my savings from 2 years of the soul killing job + living with my aunt will run out #not like. right now or even within the next few months bc. i worked so hard to save all of that bc i knew i was about to crash again #but eventually #like. when i got that job i did have to come home and cry a lot until i adjusted and then i only cried sometimes #it got to where i would have my 2-3 predictable breakdowns a month pause everything to have the breakdown #call in or skip class or whatever #and then recover faster #but the fact is i was still having like screaming in my car breakdowns a couple times a month #i was just like waiting for a private location #if i think about continuing to do that forever i really want to throw up #you can never explain why sometimes you have to isolate yourself completely for a bit either! #what are you even supposed to say #i got really good at being like oh i'm just tired from work need a nap! #but then people could tell i wasn't doing anything but going to work and coming home and getting in bed #idk how i passed those classes #i mean i didn't pass all of them #most #it's just like life is so stressful and you can't even explain why and people's advice is stop getting overwhelmed #i would also like to stop!! #or they'll be like just find a less stressful job! where?? i've tried

[king-minyard]

Patience and kindness in all things! With yourself, other people, the traffic, the weather, and the rest!

#it is sooo fucking hard to uphold this shit #sometimes i have to just. sit. and breathe for a solid minute bc smthn pissed me off so bad #patience and kindness when customers get mouthy at work. patience with them. kindness to myself for not putting up w it if it continues #patience and kindness when someone cuts me off. i'm tired. they're tired. we all wanna get home. i'll still cuss them out but i won't honk #patience and kindness when i'm stressed and make mistakes. i need to take a moment and slow it down. breathe. calm down. i can do better. #patience and kindness when i'm misunderstood. just breathe and explain myself. end the conversation if they don't listen. #patience and kindness. #kind of a vent in the tags here but #reminders #mine

[entropys]

:/

#i couldn’t do anything today…. i didn’t leave my bed the entire time #i didn’t eat or drink water or even go to the bathroom this is crazy #i was just too frustrated to do anything it sucked today was shit #my body is already paying the price but i still can’t do shit #everyone left me here alone and only called to ask for favors :/// it made me feel so alone hh but whatever #i wish i could just go make myself some toast or something but everything feels so dirty and disgusting to me i can’t #everything as in the kitchen the plates the toaster the fridge everything #i’ll continue to rot at least i have my laptop w me to watch alchemy of souls i am Enjoying it #yk sometimes i wish preparing a meal didn’t give this much distress to the point where i can’t do it myself… #i just want to have a nice homemade meal that doesn’t taste terrible or look like its served on dirty plates.. #im so tired of being here genuinely… i need to get out and live on my own that’ll fix me #at least ill have a clean kitchen to work with #ours is a lost cause its disgusting it makes food so unappealing to me i can’t help it #honestly i don’t get how my parents live like this im certainly not 🫠 #every single thing that goes on in this house frustrates so much im going crazy