#so scared im gonna throw up

[sleepyjim]

i start school in like 12 hours im gonna explode /neg

#so scared im gonna throw up #none of my accommodations hav been like . Done yk #need an elevator pass and a staff bathroom pass .they said theyll send it to us or we can come pick it up from the school sometime #but as far as i know they havent even Made it #i need someone to help me get around the first couple days or I Will Die and they havent gotten back to us about that either #at least i got out of marching band but like #i really wanted to be in some kind of music class :( #but apparently ! in order to be in Any Music Class At All its Mandatory to take marching band for a year #girl that will kill me .i will die #but the band teacher was a huge ass about it and wouldnt even let me switch to another kind of band #like concert band or jazz band cause theres less physical activity than marching band #AND theyre Supposed to Do that for me anyways cause of my 504 plan #but idk the director just doesnt give a shit about it i guess #still rlly sad about that tho :( im taking music theory/history instead of an actual music class but like #it aint the same yk #OH YEAH!!! and the school introduced a new tardy policy!!! #if you're late to class At All theyre going to confiscate ur phone for the whole day #and report u to the dean #like #????? #but the thing is #im gonna be late to almost Every Class cause i gotta hustle my crippled ass around the school without any kind of mobility aid #cause they wont let me bring em #and im gonna hav to find someone with an elevator key to get to like . over half my classes #so gonna be late to a couple classes obviously #BUT !!!!! #if you're late more than 5 times u get in school suspension ! #im gonna . Get That just in the first day #and they wont make exceptions for me #and it fucking sucks

[butchdiaz]

baby’s first 911 fic!!!!

i wish i said it better (poker fake dating spec 3 months late, 12k)

It’s 7am and Eddie needs to go home. The last 24 hours were non-stop. No big calls, but a million small ones, spread out just far enough to lull him into a false sense of relaxation, barely having time to lay his head on the pillow before the alarm blared through the station. He’s dead on his feet. He has to take a shower, maybe a power nap if he’s lucky, relieve Carla and take Chris to school in a little over an hour. Eddie needs to go home.

He parks outside Buck's loft shortly after 7:15, head reeling, replaying his conversation with Hen right before leaving the station on a loop.

“I'm just sick of it.” Eddie lets out a breath and bangs his head against the locker that he shares with Buck.

 Eddie has been on three dates this week, and it feels like enough for a lifetime. How do people do this for months? For years? He feels a little silly giving up after a week after making such a big deal of putting himself back out there, but maybe he's just not meant for this. The revolving door of women.

“Sick of what?” Hen asks gently.

“The – the small talk and the not knowing what they like and the uncertainty and the thinking twelve steps ahead because there’s no way I'm bringing anyone less than perfect into Chris's life so as soon as one thing is off I'm checked out and I have to smile and nod my way through the rest of the night and,” Eddie sighs, feeling suddenly much older than thirty one, “It's exhausting.”

“Haven't you only been on, like, three dates?” Hen raises an accusing eyebrow. It's a statement with a question mark on the end.

“Shut up.”

“I'm just saying, there are a lot of amazing women in LA. It seems kind of unfair to write off all of them after three dates.”

Eddie sighs, tries to imagine sitting across the dinner table from a woman and wanting to take her home. It’s a blank in his mind. A blurry supercut of perfect women and perfect conversation that never leads to anything more.

He can picture the alternative, though. Coming home to Chris and Buck playing video games on the couch, squeezing in beside them with a beer, listening to their fond banter – exactly like he’s done after cutting every date short this week.

It's easy. No small talk, no pretense, no body on high alert for red flags.

“I'm not writing off all women,” he grumbles, “I just need a break.”

“From dating? Or from women?” Hen asks, a thoughtful expression on her face. Eddie doesn't like that face. It means she knows something.

“Uh,” Eddie stutters, feeling suddenly like he's caught in a trap, “Aren't they the same thing?”

Hen shrugs, “They could be.”

Yeah, definitely a trap. Hen closes her locker, and swings her bag onto her shoulder, taking a second to choose her next words with care.

“Have you considered,” she says, “that it's not the dating that's the problem?”

“Um,” Eddie replies eloquently once more, feeling lost. Hen sighs, looking at him like he can't grasp basic math.

“Maybe it's the dating women, Eddie. Maybe that's the problem.”

And, oh. Hen thinks he should date–oh.

He just stands there, LAFD jacket hanging loosely off one shoulder, mouth slightly agape like a fish out of water. Hen turns to go, taking one last look back at Eddie from the doorway.

“Just something to think about,” she says, that damn twinkle in her eye, knowing that she’s caught him, hook, line and sinker, “if you never have.”

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tagging the homies <3

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#HI BE NICE TO ME IM SCARED #i hate sharing my writing gonna throw up #rbs + kudos + comments are so so so appreciated :') #911 #911 fic #buddie #abby is making #my fic

[ajodreja]

You don't know how devastated I am

the idea of simon being rude to a little kid is so vile

#crying screaming throwing up #this series is gonna kill me man #adventure time #simon petrikov #atimers #yeah thats his leg i just know #Thinking about it #we never really got to know simon as his personality #His appearances in the series were very sporadic and we only know things about him from other characters #maybe we morphed a wrong interpretation about him this whole time and boy im so scared

[arctrooper69]

Oh God, help me.... I can't.... I can't with this....

I HAVE SO MANY THOUGHTS AND FEELINGS ABOUT THIS YOU HAVE NO IDEA

My stomach hurts....

#i have never been so excited yet so scared at the same time #it's too many feelings #i cant process them all #im gonna throw up #or cry #or jump around #or all three #or none #idk #Youtube

[ittybittybumblebee]

a thing about me is i feel nauseious really frequently but i cant even remember the last time i actually threw up

#me: im gonna throw up (no i am not) #i WISH i could to releive nausea soemtimes but noooo #i think the reason is i was really really sick when i was little and i was gen traumatized by that experience. i would cry whenever i #got sick after because i was scared of being so ill again #so maybe my body just wills me Never to throw up unless i have a bad srtomach bug

[corntort]

most beautiful single second of my life

#rambles #from clown town which is. something i cant watch because im scared of clowns <3 #but my friend sent me the Single Second she shows uo in and yeah. yeah i am wibbly about it #shes so cute in this styleim gonna throw up for real #stej #spark stej

[exoscreamsoda]

i cant BREATHE

ARE THEY GOING TO DO A VAMPIRE CONCEPT? MONSTER 2.0? HELLO?

#CHANYEOL TROLLED US 3 TIMES WITH THAT BUBBLE MESSAGE #OH IM SCARED FRFR THEY LOOK SO GOOD #EXO #THEY GAVE US LUCKYONE BEFORE MONSTER AGAIN #KAI #BAEKHYUN #CHEN #XIUMIN #SUHO #D.O #CHANYEOL #SEHUN #JONGIN #JONGDAE #JUNMYEON #KYUNGSOO #IM GONNA THROW UP FRON EXCITEMENY #CREAM SODA

[brainrot-stitch]

EVERYTHING IS TWRRIBLE EVERYTHING IS HORRIBLE WHAT THE FUCK WHAT THE FUCK THE ROT THE ROT IT FEELS LIKE YHERE ARE BUGS IN MY SKIN MY ORGANS ITCH AND IT WILL NOT GO AWAY THE VOID KEEPS STARING AT ME WHENEVER I LOOK INTO THE DARK I SEE ITS EYES HOLY SHIT OTS NOT EVEN ONLY HAPPENING IN THE DAYDREAMS ABYMORE IT BROKE FREE I FEEL LIKE IM ABOUT TO RHROW UP EVERYTHING OS TERRIBLE WHY IS THE VOID LOOKING AT ME

ALSO also the void is like a terrible horrible thing that would happen in the daydreams where the character I'm looking thru the eyes of would somehow end up there and if I didn't snap out of the daydream within enough time thevoid would start staring back and it's terrible and it KNOWS but idk what it knows but it has like 2 very very extremely realistic eyes that just look back at me from the distance and I drew it bc I couldn't find a good image to represent it on Google but I would like to let u know the way I drew it does not give it justice the eyes are actually so real so terrible and I can't draw realistic eyes bit this is the clearest any daydream has ever b3en and now it's not even staying to the daydreams I just look to the dark and I see them now what the fuck what the fuck wake up wake up wake up wake up wake up wake up

#jap jap jap #jap.. #jap not yap #im going insane #the bugs #NOT a :3 moments #the void #the eyes #eyes #if i dont get medicatdd soon i fucking swear im gonna go feral #I NEED TO CLAW SO BAD GET THE BUGS OUT RN SOS SOS #my body is terrible my skin is wrong and THE BUGS ARE CRAWLING #vent #vent post #tw vent #tw eyes ig #i need to vomit ao so bad but i cabt bc im so scared of doing so #im like one of those gagging cats that spikes ur anxiety but ends up not throwing up

[twentyfivemiceinatrenchcoat]

ari!! i have a question! what made you choose your username? i remember seeing it for the first time and being like woah thats crazy :0

alexis‼️‼️ dude i rly rly wish i had a good answer for that PHDGSH

but tbh… i just suck at coming up w usernames. like fr. thats all. every single day i see ppl w really catchy good usernames n im just like HOW..

i dont even remember how it happened i was just kinda like…… ok what do i want ppl to think of when they hear my username….. and the answer was 25 mice in a trench coat

#i just imagine the mice sitting on each others shoulders. n when u take the coat off they just scatter away into the night #ive gotten attached to them so i dont plan on changing it but i do worry that it scares ppl off my blog PHDHSH 😭😭 #idk man i think i just identify w mice…. raccoons…… etc…… if i could go back in time i wouldve picked fiveraccoonsinatrenchcoat instead #IM JEALOUS OF U THO ALEXIS bc ur username is so catchy n cute <///3 im just gonna throw the question back at u…!! #how did u come up w it? 🎤 #ask tag ✩

[krimmyy]

AHHH OKAY OKAY ANOTHER RANT KINDA

okay so, I’m going to eat friday and I want to ask my boyfriend if he wants to come with me, but IM SO SCARED. Like what if he says no or something like AHHH. I don’t think he’ll say no but like what if he does then i’ll actually cry. I’m about to just go for it and ask him, give me a sec.. UHHH OKAY OKAY I KINDA ASKED. I’m literally about to throw up please help omfg. I’m literally sitting in the back of the class hyperventilating ughhhh chat please help me. Being in love is so wilddddd like every thing that he does- OH SHIT HE TEXTED BACK OKAY I ASKED FOR REAL THIS TIME HELP OMFG IM GONNA CRY . I really hope he says yes okay i’ll update you guys on what he say 🫡

(Sorry this post is kinda all over the place. I’m all over the place at the moment. Also sorry for all the rants lately I just kinda wanna talk)

UPDATE HE SAID YES 🤭

-krimmy <3

#black tumblr #black writers #help im so scared #im gonna throw up #ahhhhh #im so nervous #pls help me #im actually gonna cry #i might die #i love my boyfriend

[eddiebabygirldiaz]

why do so many people think it's funny to push past someone else's boundaries and making them uncomfortable

#like ive had to deal with it for as long as i can remember #you dont like being picked up? oh ok im gonna pick you up and throw you around youll like that right #you dont like to be touched unexpectedly? oh ok im gonna sneak around and touch you without you knowing and scare you and laugh about it #you dont wanna participate in this activity bc its overwhelming and makes you wanna peel your skin off? #oh ok we are gonna laugh at you and pressure you into it and then laugh some more as you clearly struggle #what the fuck is up with this shit really #i am so so so so tired #ry rambles

[todayisafridaynight]

So, here’s a question I don’t think anyone’s asked or at least it’s been a while… why is Jo your favorite?

i was trying to find the post where i explained it in depth but i'll give a tl;dr his backstory regarding masato and his implied childhood abuse recontextualizes a lot of his behaviors and actions as well as adds extra layers to his devotions to arakawa and the speculative progression of that relationship going from strictly 'transactional' (being that he's only there to see masato and arakawa just Happens to be there) to genuine respect and adoration and that makes my brain tingle. also i think hes hot

#snap chats #him being attractive to me is like truly at the bottom of my priority list tho #i just think its hilarious how my literal first thought when i saw him on screen was 'oh he's. attractive' #LIKE THAT LITERALLY NEVER HAPPENS SO ITS IMPORTANT I MENTION IT JLVKAEJLVKAJ #but before i act uncouth i'm moving on #he's also silly but Blink And You Miss It so #lke Genuinely silly its realy funny #not Mine slly where he's deathly serious all the time i mean sawashiro actually has a tiny funny bone in his body #for days when the horrors dont overtake him anyhow #thats another thing about jo i really like. like it's just small bits like that that remind you of his humanity #even if he tries to assert he doesnt have any humanity left his sense of duty really is a trait of it #he's not above doing abysmal things no thats why i like him LOL but his sentimentality....... //clenches fist// im gonna throw up #also his theme bangs. both of them #theyre both so good ouuughgghgHHHHHHRRAAAAAH #i was gnna make a note bout the eye scene but then i was gnna make a note about the money scene #so just. Any Scene Where He Scares Me #those are very good #ok thats it i said id keep it short so. bye LOL

[natjennie]

IM SO NERVOUS!!!!! IM GONNA DO A BAD JOB!!!!!!

#im not meant to be a normal human being #just casually doing a phone interview #im gonna throw up #i have the important info about the job in my notebook #and i wrote down ideas about what to say to different questions #and questions i have for them #but im so scared im gonna fumble it so hard #please just let me work at your library for 15 hours its not that many #please i'll do my best but im just not normal i cant be normal im sorry

[scorpiusmalfoylovesoscarwilde]

okay I know I keep talking about my real life when I promise to not ✋🏻 this should be it for now but lmao anywayz - flat out having a screaming crying panic attack cause I'm gonna have to see my dad tonight for the first time in over a year, completely out of the blue and against my will ahaha

#tears blurring the screen lmaaoo #im so so scared not sure it should create such a reaction in me at the prospect of being within 2 metres of a my father #i feel sick #its for my brothers gcse presentation evening #the important exams for his age they all have to dress smart and go on stage and shit #and we didnt think he was going cause my brother could only take two people and chose me and our mum #but he sprung it on us a couple hours ago that hes managed to get a space im going to throw up im shaking #my mum is just as happy about this as me #i've been curled up on her lap for the last half hour dont even get me started on the conflicted mummy issue feelings im having rn #i have to get dressed now #IF I HAVENT RESPONDED TO ANYONES MESSAGES OR COMMENTS OR ANYTHING I WILL IM SORRY IVE BEEN SO BUSY TODAY AND NOW THIS #im gonna throw up and pass out as soon as i see him at this rate oh my god #feel free to completely ignore this im so sorry i dont have anywhere else to say shit like this 🧎‍♂️🧎‍♂️

[stedesbonnets]

i cant believe i'm gonna go to work soon, have my shift until 11pm, go to sleep, and wake up to a brand new season

#really im so excited im so scared im gonna throw up #elinor.exe

[burning-sol]

i cant help it. im just. i cant get over this dialogue it's so sus. how are you gonna banish thanatos rumi??? gonna ask the angel that you fucked??? that confessed their love to you????

#jrwi spoilers #jrwi apotheosis spoilers #📚 my posts #🖍️ art #i like doing these mspaint doodles. #it helps me get ideas out and i dont stress as much over flaws. #just for funsies :) #just roll with it #jrwi apotheosis #jrwi rumi #jrwi exandroth #jrwi eldritchstrings #eldritchstrings jrwi #jrwi miraclevessel #miraclevessel jrwi #im not going to tag peter this time to be polite #im getting very scared tagging this ship btw i have a fear people are trying to be polite but actually hate my guts. #i get so anxious gonna throw up and shit and piss just like peter.