#so now I’m at the emotional maturity of a 23 y/o when I’m significantly less then that

[generalforthetree]

This is a vent! Please dni if you don’t want to deal with me having sad boi hours

This sweet sweet child didn’t deserve all the shit they went through. No child deserves it. Nobody deserves to be locked alone with their thoughts trapped in a body that isn’t right.

No child deserves to have their childhood taken away by the people who swore they would be good enough.

No child deserves to parent their parents. No child should need to keep multiple people on this earth without even knowing their faces. But someone had to, and nobody would.

I’ve lost to many friends. I’ve lost my childhood.

People tell me I should forgive, but how can I forgive if they will never let me heal?

It may be better now, but I owe it to that little girl, I’m getting out and I’m finding a place that loves me. The child inside of me is still broken and scared, that may never change. But one day maybe the pain will lessen, and living won’t be so hard.

I’m going home. Wherever that may be.

#being a genderless blob is kinda difficult when assholes like to stick religion down my throat #and trying to be the only functioning adult at 7? 0/10 would not recommend #that shit sucked #been trying to teach my mom how to be a decent person #it’s going… well #I think #she’s getting there #I matured very very quickly #so now I’m at the emotional maturity of a 23 y/o when I’m significantly less then that #I’ve done the teen angst #let’s be honest that was boring and sad #at least I perfected the art of dissociation #man I love being the family disappointment #which is honestly quite a feat #considering everything they’ve done #if I say anything I’m going to be writen out of the hypothetical will so fast it’s not even funny #why can’t people be decent fucking human beings? #oh god that’s a lot of tags #whoops #oh well #hhhhhhhhhhhg