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moonjxsung · 12 days

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uni classes officially finished yesterday! awh man sorry to hear you've been so busy and tired :( im sure the break from the phone was needed WHAAA SO EXCITING SO HAPPY FOR YOU THAT YOU GOT TO EXPERIENCE THAT OMG tbh I'm not doing too hot... on top of the stress and burn out from uni... I got cyberharrassed by people from my univeristy yesterday on our year's server ... :( basically people were being jerks and playing "jokes" on random people (NOT funny jokes ... like I mean tagging random people and harassing them for homework (which doesn't exist) and accusing their targets of lying when they say they aren't enrolled in the class even when they gave evidence - the poor souls were so confused and concerned) and like just saying shitty stuff about how certain faculties are "useless" and for stupid people ... so I step in and tell them to stop it cause its not funny cause they're all like "its just a joke" ... so when i said that they were like "nah its hella funny" (by they, I mean like 3-4 people are ganging up on me at this point and I couldn't report this to the server mods cause one of them WAS A FREAKING MOD) and then they were like "we should ban you" and were like "I'll bet ur in the stupid people faculty" (which I'm not, but I was so enranged that they kept calling arts a useless stupid faculty so I didn't deny it) and so I excused myself and said "I see I am a minority here [in thinking these things they are doing/saying are unkind and unfunny] so I will leave now" and then they were like "noooooooooo we love minorities" ... "even the bad ones" ... "lmao jk" and then they said "no one likes you go kys" ... so I left the server because I absolutely don't need fucking assholes and worthless losers telling me that :) like. I dont even know theses people. So what they say shouldnt matter. but fuck it hurt so bad :( like these are people MY age who go to MY uni who are probably in my classes or smth like idk I just wasnt expecting such blantant unkindness... I guess that's naive of me ... idk it just really sucked ... like I'm basically fine now cause those kinds of people literally don't matter to me, but it sucks that people like that exist, yknow? like fuck, what if they had said that to someone else who really took it to heart and really did do what they said... like wtf how are there people LIKE THIS :( also, I hate confrontation, so I got like a panic attack after the whole incident and couldnt sleep until 3 am and then woke up at 8 to go to work....... for an 8 hour shift......... and i was so freaking mad at myself for letting it affect me so much cause I WASTED SO MUCH STUDY TIME LIKE UGH idk im just alkdjflkjadklfjdkjfk jakfj my only condolance at this point about the whole thing is the people the jerks targeted/the victims messaged me privately to thank me for stepping in. so at least my actions were not in vain. also im sorry about all the cursing... I RAREly curse... im just so ajsfdkjak over this :( Sorry for dumping all that, do not feel pressured at all to respond to all of that ILY STAR pls continue to take care of urself 🫶💕 🌱

Oh my god??????? This is literally insane?????? What the actual hell is WRONG with people…. And doing that shit in a school server???? What the hell??????

Good on you for standing up for yourself and the others who were getting harassed and for leaving when you did! College students can be so weird bc I feel like they often forget that acting out of turn publicly in a server or online or wherever can absolutely have DIRE consequences for your future and it’s just playing with fire at that point. I remember there was a very famous case of students at Harvard who had a discord server where they sent all sorts of racist/sexist/ableist etc. memes and they legit got KICKED OUT of college when it was brought to light. As a college student you should be acting as though you’re being carefully monitored by your school or even a potential employer at all times, it’s literally so risky to be acting out of turn like that where people can easily report you. And on that note, I hope someone reports them and the server at least gets taken down bc sending death threats like that is absolutely vile, and to your own classmates???? What the hell

I hope you’re feeling better now angel ☹️ I’m so sorry you had to work a long shift after all that, I would’ve been panicking too! But at least know that you did the right thing and if they get in trouble for it, you can’t be blamed for being complicit in their trashy behavior. Your future isn’t at risk like theirs is!

Take some time to relax and try not to think about their words, they’re likely saying that to everybody and it’s not worth dwelling over insults they’re throwing around to every person who breathes in their direction. They’re just a bunch of LEWSERSSSSS 🤢🤢🤢🤢 I love you bby feel better soon ☹️💖💘💞💕💝🫶 here for you if you need anything at all !!

#🌱 anon #ask

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lets-talk-spirituality · 1 year

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hello mod! it's my first time being here and i'm just scrolling and really interested in your hard work. your love for anything spirituality-related is apparent and greatly appreciated! i am clairsentient, but unfortunately i am unable to do readings on myself (my divine guardians are probably looking out for me lol) But i was wondering, could you channel anything about my soulmate? Anything regarding appearance, personality, literally anything you might find important about them / our connection like where we might even meet? Love ya! :) xoxo

Hi! Thank you. It’s not always love that drives me with spirituality, in fact a lot has been desperation lol. When everything is falling down there’s only one place to turn. I’ll do my best to see what comes up.

Green. Green clover fields, spring time. I feel like maybe your person grew up somewhere off the beaten path with lots of fields or hiking maybe, valleys. Fresh forest scents. Like evergreens, crisp air, so somewhere that gets cooler, I’m thinking north, very New England America vibes, not necessarily there but similar like topographically, white linen and swaying laundry, a very simple person, very down to earth and calm. Very chill, like I almost get this like home on the prairie vibe like they just want to sit in the wood house and read, maybe they are into off-grid style living? Maybe they’re very sustainable and environmental, that feels very right to me, so they may be a little extreme. I definitely get sort of hippie vibes with like flowing hair, flowing clothes. I feel some tension in the top of my shoulders so I’m thinking they may engage in a lot of physical labor, maybe logging or something like that for work, maybe even construction?

What say you soul mate?

Very quiet and shy, sort of not much of a talker I’m getting, like much more of an observer and listener, very thoughtful before speaking. What they want you to know? (Lol) All is well (this feels so on brand for their vibe) Don’t worry or stress, allow life to flow like the river over rocks, let life mould you, but never break you down. You never know where the pieces of you are being spread, you never know what future that leads to, you never know where you’re headed, like dandelions let your wishes drift in the air (I think they may be very spiritual with nature, an animist, and maybe follow a lot of more native viewpoints about spirituality and the planet, very very connected to the earth) I think you need to look at the sky more, take in the stars and remember they shine regardless. My love, I think you’ve forgotten that stars don’t care how bright other stars are, they shine their unique power and light, you don’t need to outshine anyone, you need to see that you don’t compare with anyone for you are beautifully and wonderfully made. You don’t need to compete, you need to release and receive. You need to heal the internal feminine and mother within you. This will allow you to move out of your own way. (This person feels almost like a monk, or like highly evolved to me, very wise and understanding, very calm, it feels like you maybe need their energy and assistance more than they need yours at this time)

To call on this energy from your soul mate, go outside and ground yourself in nature, bask in the color of green like bright grass green specifically. Oh maybe this has to do with your heart chakra? That can be tied to healing your energy of reception. Maybe you have grief that you need to heal and clear. Wow. Yeah, definitely do some heart chakra meditations. And let yourself cry, definitely let yourself cry as much as you need. Stop trying to be so strong all the time, be human instead. Listen to soft music, solfeggio sounds for heart chakra, allowing yourself to breakdown your walls will allow you to feel the love and peace of your soul mate more.

Card pull

Ugh I just have this strong feeling of like you having been through a lot of like pain and grief and that it’s blocking you from your own manifestations and magic. Like I’m feeling anxiety in my heart and my head is tingling as I write this. Whatever you’ve been through that you’re holding onto, I feel like I need to cry now. Baby. You gotta open up to life again. Even if you’re scared. Wow. Yeah I’m not sure but I feel like so much coming up in my heart chakra right now. So I did yours differently bc this message isn’t coming about your soulmate, I’m strongly getting they are trying to support you. I saw in my mind a card from the starseed oracle deck I have so I pulled a tarot and two oracles. The starseed oracle card I feel like goes along with this energy is cracked open “surrender to the alchemy of life” “don’t let the weight and density of the world squash your tender spirit”

Tarot card

Queen of wands upright

To me this is asking you to find your way back to your fire, your strength, your leadership, to find your passion again. Let the way you handle your pain and grow from it inspire you and others.

Starseed Oracle

I remember “soul plan, the fated life vs the destiny life”

Man something is majorly shifting for you baby. No wonder your soul mate wants to lend peace and calm and tranquility to you. You’re at a fork in the road between choosing your life for you or still playing the societal game. This card reminds you that you chose all the things that have happened in your life, trust your soul path, I feel you may be having internal and possibly career shifts. This card also talks about surrender. Whatever pain you are going through is trying to lead you to your soul path, allow it to. (Anxiety in my heart space) damn. Are you scared? Worried? It’s okay to be scared and have doubt of whatever this is. You’re being asked to do something different than before and it’s normal to be scared when faced with the unknown. But that’s not a reason to hold yourself back, it’s actually all the more reason to push forward.

Goddess Guidance

I asked what goddess you can draw on for strength at this time and you got Ishtar, boundaries “love yourself enough to say no to others demands on your time and energy”

Okay, well damn. I didn’t expect the reading to take this turn. I hope this helps you. Your soul mate is there trying to support you, you can share your stress and pain and burden with them. Just talk to them and open your heart space so they can send love to you. Sending you all the healing and strength as you make some big changes.

I’m hearing Kesha’s praying. If there is someone you need to forgive and release to karma, please do.

#channeled reading #channeled message #soul mates

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mllemaenad · 2 years

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In Fallout 4, synths are people. This is really apropos of nothing, except that I am tired. When I am tired, I play Bethesda games. I find the games themselves relaxing: I can roam the wilderness, doing quests at my leisure, and collect as many sidekicks as an aggressively modded system will allow. Yes, they crash and they have weird bugs. I am not here for quality. I am here for ‘I’ll get to the main quest when I damn well feel like it’.

But the aggressive modding means that I encounter people and read their opinions, and I sometimes wonder if they played the same game I did. People grimly try to mod Preston Garvey into being a villain for some reason. People spit vitriol at Marcy Long (Her child died and her city was sacked. And she snarks a bit. While also auto-assigning herself to farming duty the moment you arrive in Sanctuary, because she is stressed as hell, but also the opposite of useless. Meanwhile in the real world people throw temper tantrums and assault people when they’re asked to wear a mask in a shop. Perspective.).

But today it was synths, and the ‘stupidity’ of the Railroad for wasting resources on helping ‘machines’. And I am just ... baffled. And yes: this is my own fault. Read a forum thread, be grumpy on the internet. But I do at least have the sense to not actually argue with these people. Just - ew.

Gen 3s, at least, are human in the most literal sense of the word. They are flesh and blood and bone. You cannot take a blood sample to determine that a synth is ‘not human’ like you could a Changeling in Deep Space Nine. You can’t even really cut a person open and determine that they are a synth: all you’ll find is human organs on the inside. You can stand in the Institute and watch them 3D print a human being, in case you have any doubts about what they’re made of. They are human beings with some weird ... component in their heads that allows the Institute to interfere with their minds, and that cannot be removed, or even identified, without killing them. That’s no weirder than stuff done to actual humans in The X-Files.

Sturges is a synth, but you won’t know that from inside the game, because he either doesn’t know himself or elects not to tell you. And it doesn’t matter, because he’s a character who operates exactly the same as the others do. Danse is a synth, but you won’t know that unless you make it a long way through the Brotherhood of Steel questline (a thing I admittedly struggle to do, because ugh). It will matter, because the Brotherhood’s attitude to synths can destroy someone you have come to know as a person.

And of course, there is debate even among the Railroad about Gen 1s and 2s. Deacon will describe the problem of needing to fight Institute synths when some of your number – largely the synths themselves – regard this as murder.

But nevermind the Institute synths, for the moment. Just consider robots. The moment you do that, you can immediately see there is a spectrum of consciousness. There are absolutely Mr Handy and My Gutsy models out there that are doing nothing more than repeating instructions that were programmed into them two centuries earlier. If they’re even aware of the war, they don’t care about it or see why it should change anything. And then there is Codsworth. While his opening post-war dialogue makes him seem oblivious, it only takes a very small speech check to push him to admit his despair: the local inhabitants are dead or turned into feral ghouls, and are thus beyond his help; attempts to seek out other survivors in Concord ended in being violently driven away; he is completely aware of the futility of being a robot butler in the apocalypse. He can join you, and will have opinions on your actions. He can come to despise you, and abandon you, or come to define you as a family member. So Codsworth is a person. Likewise, Curie is a person – one who eventually goes “I’m gonna need opposable thumbs from now on”.

Nick Valentine has a whole questline about the problems of being a mechanical person with the memories of a pre-war man – an idea that ties in nicely with the problem of the Railroad loading up escaped synths with false memories. DiMA comes at this from the other direction, with the ability to selectively erase his own memories, if they disquiet him.

So any ‘robot’ may be a person. Obviously you don’t get enough interaction with most of the Gen 1 and 2 synths to assess where they’re at. But even if they are not conscious now, all the evidence tells you that they could be, so why not give them the chance? They’re never going to get one unless you take down the Institute, which will just use them to murder people, but with that done – why not?

The game’s whole story swings on the idea of “Who gets to be a person?” Ghouls do not get to be people: they were born human, some of them are even contemporaries of the Sole Survivor, but they are despised and driven out of Diamond City on the basis of ugly prejudice. Super Mutants – at least in Fallout 4 – are operating on the assumption that they are people and no one else is: you largely can’t deal with them because they think you are inferior. These groups are visually distinct from ordinary humans. The problem of Gen 3 synths is that they are indistinguishable. They are literally just human beings. Hatred cannot be easily directed towards them as a group, so anyone who is deemed ‘weird’ cops it. An idea that obviously could have no real world application at all.

The Institute feeds all of these prejudices to prevent the various peoples of the Commonwealth from uniting against them. They do it repeatedly, and most people in the game can cite instances of them doing exactly that (The CPG massacre being a common one). But only a small number of people – most notably Hancock – actually spot the pattern and so anything about it. It’s usually a ghoul with a lost toe or a runaway synth who suffers instead of the actual people with the power.

And yet we’re sticking with “The Railroad are idiots for helping machines”.

#fallout 4

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imaginewitchsheart · 3 years

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If you aren’t too busy, could you possibly do some headcannons for Claire + the boys with their s/o during a blackout due to a thunderstorm??

Personally I find peace in the rain but I did pepper some variety in there for you, Dear anon so please enjoy.

Claire:

As a loud clap of thunder resonated against the roof of the house you shot up in bed with a start.

You hated thunder storms they always made you anxious. The noises, the flashing lights outside, how rickety everything felt in the house when a storm would get severe enough.

You just did not vibe with any of it at all.

Claire wasn’t exactly fond of storms either, but she didn’t mind them too much. Her only real gripe was the fact that she wouldn’t be able to sit outside and enjoy the flower fields she liked to visit or the garden the two of you shared.

Stirring sleepily in bed her voice groggily carried through the room, “What’s wrong y/n. Did the storm wake you?”

Hearing her voice just made you melt you could never quite describe why Claire made you so relaxed but whatever the reason, you appreciated it none the less.

You glanced at the bedside clock, but the numbers didn’t show. It wasn’t even lit up- fuck a blackout? Really? Right now when you felt your most vulnerable?

Your mind began racing again, thoughts only slowing as Claire drowsily booped your nose with her finger. “Y/N look over here.”

Weird how she was the one redirecting you for once.

You gently took her hand as she was withdrawing it, fingers clasping tightly.

“I’ll hum for you ok, y/n? Then we can go back to sleep.”

Reluctantly, you laid back down, resting your head against her chest so the only sounds you could focus on were her heartbeat and the soft chime of her voice.

You were asleep again in mere moments.

Ashe:

He always found the rain soothing, on nights he could sleep anyway.

Sometimes it quelled the nightmares which often clutched at his heart.

As thunder rumbled, he felt you stir next to him, your arms gripping his midsection in a vice.

“Awake now then, Y/N?” You groan at his statement. Atleast Ashe was warm. Why wasn’t he asleep?

You slowly sit up, rubbing your left eye. You then notice the room is pitch black and the sound of him setting a book aside resounds through the empty room.

That made more sense, seems he couldn’t sleep and chose to read. In the dark…?

“Is the power out?”

He hummed a reply, “Yes, and I was just getting to the interesting part of this citation. Though, perhaps your company will be more interesting, hm?”

The two of you then proceed to talk through the rest of the evening. That book had interested him but any time he had with you was more precious.

Wilardo:

You had been helping Wilardo with the flowers all day and had fallen asleep quite early.

Normally you consider yourself a night owl. You rarely sleep at normal hours but because of the work you did today, you had ended up passing out on a loveseat in the living room.

Wilardo couldn’t bring himself to move you since most of the time you were a light sleeper anyway. He had put a soft blanket on you though.

A thunderclap resounded, shaking the roof of the house which then awoke you with a start.

You didn’t recognize your surroundings at first but before you had a chance to get up a low gravely baritone grasped your attention.

“Yea, that one was pretty fuckin’ loud huh?”

Rising from his spot on the couch, he turned to look over to you. Seems instead of choosing the bed, he laid in wait on the couch closest to you.

Had he intended to sleep there if you hadn’t woken up? That seemed possible.

Wilardo was never really picky about where he slept so long as it was close to you.

He stood from the couch, stretching and with an exhale he crossed the distance between the two of you.

“Power went out bout ten minutes ago. Least the garden will be well watered. We can check any wind or flood damage tomorrow.”

Wilardo had brushed some stray strands of hair from your face, gently stroking backwards to pat your head before withdrawing his hand.

“We can stay up as long as ya need to, y/n. Can even pick the room ya want since the window in this one is so damn large.”

You shake your head, rising to meet him with your blanket draped on your shoulders. Sauntering to the windowsill you sit along it among the cushions.

Sure, the rain was scattering hard across the window, but it was something you enjoyed watching.

The sound of the thunder itself was your only real aggravation when it came to storms.

Wil had followed you, sitting behind you and pulling you back with a tug so you could lay back against him.

Both of you had napped here like this on sunny days, though tonight you both exchanged small stories as you watched the rain paint the window.

Sirius:

You were watching the rain from bed, unable to sleep.

Sirius was asleep next to you, arms curled around your midsection. It’s how he always slept but denied it anytime it was brought up in conversation.

A loud thunder clap resounded outside, with this the lavender went rigid against you.

The two of you may be an item now but he still was rather reluctant to be completely open about his emotions with you.

Thankfully, you were the observant type so this didn’t frustrate you as much as it would for most.

Exhaling, his arms had tightened into a vice, you could tell he was hoping you weren’t awake yet.

Sirius loathed displaying weakness in front of others, especially those he greatly admired.

You counted yourself lucky as being one of very few on that list.

Mocking a yawn, you stretched your back against his chest, a hand reaching back to comb through his hair.

You even went so far as to fake the bleariness of sleep in your voice. “What’s wrong, Sirius?”

He melted into you, rather reluctantly but so long as you didn’t bring it up then it was likely he wouldn’t chastise you for it.

“This bloody storm is making sleep nigh impossible for me.” He grumbled tiredly with a huff.

You let him vent about it, you know storms bothered him; especially if they were loud.

“Mmm, then we could talk until it passes?” You suggested gently. Your goal was to redirect his attention onto something else.

He scoffs, “That isn’t the worst idea. Though it seems you’ll be the one leading the discussion this time, Love. I find myself unable to still my train of thought.”

“Oh? Don’t I lead in most situations anyway?” You couldn’t help but tease him slightly, he had left himself open for such a statement with his phrasing.

You could feel his glare but he only sighed, “Yes well it isn’t as if you’ve complained about it in the past now have you? And you’re rather lucky, I let no one else do anything of the sort.”

He paused, burrowing his face into your shoulder upon realizing what he had said with a loud “Ugh, how is it that you bring out this sort of honesty in me so easily?!”

To this you laugh, “It’s not so bad. Atleast it stays between us. So, I wouldn’t stress so much about it.”

“I suppose you aren’t wrong…it’s simply embarrassing that it happens to begin with.” With this statement, silence carried between the both of you for a few minutes.

That was until thunder clapped again and he tensed against you back.

You roll to face him and bring his face to your chest, “Relax. You’re wound up tighter than a bed spring.”

Sirius grumbled quietly until you began to hum softly.

It took a few minutes but gradually he drifted into a light sleep in your arms.

Noel:

He was always up in the evenings, rain or clear nights it didn’t matter.

You had dozed off next to him, he was already in a down mood from there being no stars that night.

Lightening lit up the sky outside the window and the thunder clapped so hard it shook the house.

Noel’s chest tightened and instinctively he gripped your hand.

Loud sounds bothered him more than he could explain.

He had reacted this way if you ever dropped a pan too. You wondered if it was related.

Stirring from both the sound and pressure of his hand, you recognize the signs and sit up quickly.

You rub his shoulder and hum softly.

He leans into your chest, curling like a cat as you sooth him through his panic attack.

You’d done this before, but in the pitch black like this where only the occasional lightening lit the room.

It felt like you were closer to him than you’ve ever been.

That thought alone brought you peace as you focused on soothing Noel back to his senses.

Gradually he found them, slipping into the depths of sleep against you so very shortly after. ~Mod Sirius

#Claire Elford #Wilardo Adler #Sirius Gibson #Noel Levine #Ashe Bradley #Witch's Heart #headcanon #headcanons #Mod Sirius

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forbidding-souda · 3 years

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Could you do Kaito Momota x reader who is nonbinary but really scared to tell him and he eventually finds out and is like super nice and comforting about it? I’m currently trying to tell my bf I’m nonbinary but it’s been really hard. Kaito is my comfort character so I feel like this might help me be a little less nervous about it. Thank u if u do this💛!

Kaito Momota finding out his S/O in non-binary

Ugh, yes! Sometimes I wonder what being in Kaito’s jacket is like. Not sure if you wanted it killing game or not, but here you go~

-Mod Korekiyo

Kaito

You didn’t know how to tell your boyfriend that you’re non-binary.

You’re scared he might scold and break up with you.

After all, he did tell Shuichi to “man up” and insulted Korekiyo for being too feminine.

You roamed around the school, fingers tracing the cracks on the walls of the school building.

What’s worse is that, if you tell him and he breaks up with you, everybody would know.

Fear seemed to be almost human as you felt pressure weighing on your shoulders, or rather on your mind and mental state.

You bit on your thumbnail; saliva covering it.

You then stepped outside to see the dome covering the school.

Standing there, you observed the dome, covering you and the 17 students.

You’ve wondered why people would get out of their way and time to capture 17 students with talents, just for them to die.

The buildings were very detailed and well built.

There were even Ultimate Labs!

Your current situation made you even more stressed out, fear covering your atmosphere.

You took a sharp inhale then started walking.

You saw a tall figure and began walking the other way until you were stopped in your tracks.

“Hi Miss Y/N!” a voice called out.

You turned your head to the figure who was actually Gonta.

“Ah.. Hi Gonta!” you said, your words sounding inflected.

“Miss”, you thought in your head.

You were now non-binary now, so the word made you a bit uncomfortable.

Gonta ran up to you and grinned.

You were kind of intimidated with his height, made you feel like a bug.

Gonta took a notice in your facial expressions and tilted his head.

“You look sad, what’s wrong?” Gonta asked you.

“Well.. I-”.

You were hesitant.

You worried Gonta wouldn’t understand and tell the others.

Either way, you were taking chances today.

“Well.. I want to tell Momota-kun/Kaito that I-I’m non-binary…” you said, your face turning into a pensive frown.

“Ah?” Gonta blurted out.

“...Gonta does not know what “non-bandaid” means but… Gonta accepts you! I bet Momota-kun/Kaito will too!” Gonta exclaimed, a smile plastered on his face.

His words seemed to cure you as you felt more confident.

“Thank you.. Gokuhara-kun/Gonta” you mumbled.

“Gonta is always happy to help!” Gonta spoke out.

Gonta’s eyes seemed to look somewhere else.

“Oh! Is that a bug? U-uhm, sorry Miss Y/N, but Gonta must go!” he exclaimed, running off.

“U-uh, bye Gonta!” you shouted out.

You inhaled, you felt more confident thanks for Gonta and decided you’d confess right now, today.

You knew Kaito was in the Casino, so you began walking there.

Not long after, you made it.

You took another shape inhale, as you stopped inside the building.

Bright lights were everywhere, so you let your eyes adjust to the quite bright lighting.

You scanned your eyes back and forth to try and find him.

Then, you found him.

He was fiddling around, which seemed to be a joystick connected to one of the casino’s machines.

You wanted to surprise him.

So you quietly crept towards him.

You were now behind Kaito, ready to jump attack on him.

“BOO!” you shouted out.

Kaito’s face turned into horror as his body became like a broken toy and of course, him screaming.

He soon fell down onto the floor only to look up and see you.

“S/O!?” the astronaut said, his face becoming more relaxed.

“Hey Kaito..!” you replied, chuckling.

You soon remembered what you came here for, making you pressured.

You lended out your hand towards him as he grabbed your wrist and stood up.

“H-hey, what was that for!” he fumed.

“I’m sorry Kaito! I just thought it was funny” you teased.

“Well,I guess it was a good scare..” he mumbled.

You were now practically shaking, as you thought in your mind, and looked up at Kaito.

“Kaito..” you called out.

“Uhh, yes S/O?” he replied.

“I have something to tell you, Kaito” you sighed out.

“Well, what is it?” exclaimed the astronaut, as he tilted his head in confusion.

“...Well, I-” you faltered out.

You interjected your sentence to think for a second.

‘Would he still accept me? I’m sure he would! Maybe..’ you thought in your head.

“S/O? S/O..?” Kaito asked, his smile becoming more forced.

Out of the blue, you blurted out your thoughts.

“Kaito I’m non-binary!” you shouted out.

You realised what you’ve done and looked up at him.

His face turned to being a forced smile and into shock.

“I-.. S/O..” Kaito murmured.

“I know you don’t love me and I-” you said, but your sentence was once again interjected.

YOu were embraced into a hug, with your boyfriend, Kaito.

“Seriously? I still love you! I don’t care if you’re non-binary… I’ll love you no matter what S/O” Kaito grinned.

You felt tears welling up on your eyes.

“Thanks Kaito..” you said.

“No problem. Want to ask Kirumi for some ice cream to celebrate?” he asked.

“Ice cream!? Heck yeah!” you said, smiling.

#kaito momota x reader #kaito momota #lgbt

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moudschegiebchn · 2 years

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Before I start a little disclaimer: I don't put too much energy into this. I'll explore as I go along however long that may be. Don't take anything I write too seriously. This is all just meant for fun.

Now that we have that out of the way here's our Sim who'll explore Isla Paradiso for us:

Say hello to Silvie Rogue. She's pretty much a preset face but idc she's cute. Traits: absent-minded, loves outdoors, sailor, clumsy, family-oriented Lifetime wish: Great Explorer

many ramblings + a few more pics form my first evening playing under the cut

i'll probably always prefer the cartoon-y look from ts2 & ts4 but i don't hate ts3's style anymore xD

the very prominent eye shine creeps me out though

i did manage to find some default replacements i actually like!

there's a weird thing in CAS going on with the camera but that's probably on me? or due to the fact that i'm playing in borderless window mode on a 34" monitor

you can't create mermaids from CAS?? that's disappointing

i miss the option to have more than one outfit per category (later i realised that this is possible but only through a dresser? ugh)

after only checking CAS for young adult females lemme tell ya: ts3 doesn't has such an obsession with them as ts4 lol

Isla Paradiso is huge there are so many lots my starter sim could choose from and it's just beautiful

there are two cemeteries. two! it was a kinda happy-sad thing realising that cemeteries used to be a thing with the sims. per default not because of a mod.

already found the option to disable all the store advertising, hooray! i will never get over this whole store thing

her work hours are 8am - 2pm. she's gonna have a job and be able to do other things easily! it feels like ts4 work hours are generally pretty long and i find it hard to get them out and do stuff

there are different ringtones for the phone omg! it's like five or six and it's making me genuinely a little bit excited lol especially that we can set it to sound like a home phone in ts2 *nostalgia intensifies*

the little sound it makes whenever a pie menu opens ;_; <3 i've missed this!!

can't use SRWE because of the way the ui reacts to it (not at all thus making it look very weird) sad

hitting fast speed 2 actually feels so much faster!! getting a bit too excited over this but it is one of the biggest smallest things that bug me about ts4. speed 2 doesn't feel that different and don't get me started on speed 3. but this…!! it's a whole new world

the bed is messy! i repeat: the bed is messy!!

my sim made waffles three times and burnt every one of them

her TV broke and she was so upset about it lmao

despite having the sailor trait Silvie is not immune to getting seasick. can you imagine the same thing in ts4? me neither

it's only Thursday and so far everything that could be dirty or broke was dirty and/or broke, some things even multiple times. i love it.

I SEE SHARKS!!

while repairing the TV she got electrocuted and didn't loose the spiky hair just by going into the ocean hehehe

there are wishes and they matter!! *happy cry*

still think only being able to lock four is not enough but eh. it's better than three meaningless whims. and i like having so much more control than in ts2 with the random rolls after completing one

still miss fears though

stuff in the reward store is expensive and it takes time to get enough points. it actually feels like i have to work for it and it's great

the actual ts3 camera feels a lot different from the ts4 version of it and i don't like it

tab mode is absolut torture WHAT IS THIS?!

so far the game crashed once and another time it didn't close properly and I had to force a restart

the ui isn't all over the place like in ts4 and i find it much less stressing + overwhelming

we only have one shortcut key for inventory?? how did we ever live like this?!! such peasantry

#moudints3 #ts3 island paradise

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gunsatthaphan · 3 years

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A wonderful evening from german anon🌸💜

So there was a lot. WBL was soo good and than they just gave us that tesser for the next part. Like wtf is happening. So many emotions, but also I am so happy we will get the next part soon, it gives me something to look forward to.

To My Star, excellent. Like just perfection, it was fun and sweet and had a little bit of plot and ahh just everything.

1000 stars is just getting better and ohh Drake is here, yess. Also the chemistry is soo good. And Inam happy to have Earth back, especially when we get two shows with him this year.

And bc I am that late, the last MOD episode.... .

Itvwas so much plot, I am so invested and feel like I can't wait till next Monday. First at least I was right Rung didn't kill him bc of jealousy, but bc she is just a horrible person ( I has so much faith in her🙃). Also somehow now I am convinced(a little bit) that Pued didn't kill Jane. Also all the cute scene with Tan and Bun, and the one with the fish. Omg it was hilarious.

And when Inspector M doesn't survive(bc fuck that preview for the next episode what is happening???? To all of them) I will throw hands. As well if the babys aren't safe.

Also again about their parents, like Nam wakes up and who is their? Her friend, his baby gangster friens, her headmaster (wtf?) and than her teacher/gangster and a wanted doctor 😂.

Danke🌺🍀

Und dir noch einen schönen Abend.💜🌸🌙🌟

Bonjour!!!! 💜🌸

The teaser for WBL season 2 is stressing me out lmao. But also I’m super excited that we’re getting a sequel and I’m looking forward to the office setting!!! Also To My Star is--- I have no words. I still haven’t recovered jksdfhs

and gosh the last MOD episode was a ride lol. Tbh I don’t have a clear standpoint on Rung’s story yet. Her killing Pued makes very much sense and he deserves it, but only if he actually killed Jane lol. It never came to my mind that she would do it out of jealousy though; her avenging her sister always seemed like the more likely option. But at this point I don’t know what to believe anymore lmao. Pued killing his girlfriend because she threatened to expose something he wasn’t even a part of?? idk.. It seems like Rung was covering someone up. Also if it’s all true, how tf did Tan not know about any of this???? idk, him always being so clueless about everything is still kinda sus to me... 👀

But at least we got some cute domestic shit from them like UGH that was so soft 🥺

M will survive for sure, I have no doubt in that. I liked the scene with Nam waking up but also why was that old dude there??? Who is he again? the director of the hospital?? i can’t remember.. But anyway sorn, that and tan and bun being there for her was so cute 💜 I love their little family moments so much 🥺 Also the way they escaped had me cackling lol.

have a nice day!!! ❤️

xxx

#manner of death #MOD #anonymous #ask #doreen answers

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funkymbtifiction · 3 years

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Hello!

Hope you and the other mods are doing well. I was wondering, how likely is it that stress/exhaustion can warp perspective in regards to discerning whether one is so or sp (specifically in the case of 1)?

I remember reading somewhere on the blog that a so 1 is the equivalent of, “I know what’s right and I need to teach humanity that.” whereas an sp 1 is more like, “Ugh, I need to be perfect because I’m so flawed.”

At first, I related to sp and nothing else. I sometime struggle to acknowledge my flaws, but I will face them because I know they exist. To run away from them, to lower my expectations of myself, is wholly unacceptable because I know I can do better. I’m rarely kind to myself and it’s taken a lot for me to even consider being a bit kinder.

But then I think about how I have a tendency to correct others (whether it’s grammar, facts, principles, argumentation/debate, whatever). It feels stupidly elitist to write it out here and now, but it’s really hard to let someone walk away when they’re making what I believe to be a mistake. I like to think it’s my way of helping them earn credibility in the world and sidestep embarrassment, but I honestly think it’s just a “See? I know what I’m doing. And I can show you how to go about things the ‘right’ way, if you’d just let me do my thing.”

Anyway, I’ve been trying to objectively step back and analyze where my morals come in. Irritatingly enough, I think pandemic fatigue is getting in the way. Hence, my earlier question and this additional one:

If you can see examples of both so and sp motivation, how do you distinguish which one is more prevalent? I suspect it goes back to that 'You have to be honest with yourself’ which makes absolute sense. But is there a perspective or question to consider in particular?

I would recommend you both consider the full breadth of each instinct in terms of how it influences the 1, and consider the instincts as a separate entity. Sp-doms are always concerned with survival and the welfare of their resources, which can run the gamut from getting enough sleep to always having enough money saved to be comfortable. The over-focus of the dominant instinct means ‘neurosis’ around this area in your life. For example, an sp1 neurosis at its worst might be an eating disorder -- an over-focus on what is going into my body and how healthy I am. A normal, sane use of sp1 would be to simply regulate what goes in, but an over-use to an unhealthy level can develop into self-shaming and self-punishing for every calorie that goes into your body.

I know an sp-1 who scolds other people for eating sugar, who religiously takes supplements to counter-act the wheat and/or dairy products in his diet (because he “feels” worse eating and drinking those things, and because a medical chart told him he has ‘sensitivities’ to them), and who will turn down a cookie at someone’s house if he has already had his allotment of sweets for the day. It’s all part of sp1 “over-focus” on being appropriate / good in terms of diet, which is an sp-dom concern. Like most sp-doms, he is almost continually preoccupied with how his internal body is feeling at all times (he also has Si). How much sleep he got the night before. How much doing X will cost him in physical energy. Sp-doms are all about survival and bodily needs and whether they are getting filled. An sp-dom is the person who says, “Well, it’s been nice talking to you, but it’s bedtime now, so goodbye.”

So/sp would be sp-oriented but in service of building connections -- so going home and going to bed would be secondary to a stimulating conversation or the chance to connect to someone on a more meaningful level, because their first priority is connectivity to other people. Social awareness, social appropriateness, mobilizing through other people to get things done (that’s where the social “group” emphasis comes in -- but it can be as simple as “okay, kids, we’re going to the park on trash duty today!”). Social 1s are more concerned with how others are perceiving them and their actions -- they are like my soc 1 sister, going to make sure their kids behave appropriately in public. Their area of over-concern is often on social causes, everyone behaving appropriately, and in being in harmony with other like-minded, responsible people. They are primarily concerned with their reputation, the impact they are having on the world, and on their influence within their sphere of ... well, influence. Family, friends, coworkers. They are not as self-rigid as the sp-dom and their continual focus is outside themselves on the world and its needs more than on their health.

Sp-doms can be very “my body is a machine and I must keep it running so that I can get all these things done.” Soc-doms can be very “my reputation matters and I want others to approve of me.” Which would you sacrifice and which would you find it intolerable to live without, if the worst happened? Would the loss of your reputation damage or scare you more than the loss of your job or health? Which one seems to be the area in which you feel the most anxiously fixated?

You may want to spend time reading this. And reading my Enneagram 1 page, which outlines instinctual examples under the subtype sections.

#question #enneagram #enneagram 1 #submission

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come-on-shitty-boys · 3 years

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send this to the twelve nicest people you know or who seem to have a good heart and if you get five back you must be pretty awesome

Hi Maddi 💛💛

I HOPE YOU’VE BEEN HAVING A SPECTACULAR DAY AND THAT YOU’LL CONTINUE HAVING A SPECTACULAR WEEK 💛

I love you super super super super super much

-micchi 🦝 @sanso

MDKSKSKS M I C C H I 😭😭 IM GOING TO S C R E E C H I LOVE YOU SO SO SO MUCH 🤧🤧🤧

you're such a sweet bean and I do not deserve to have such an absolute QUEEN a GODDESS an ETHEREAL BEING like yourself as a friend and moot 🤧 I hope you're taking care of yourself, darling 🥺💕 please be sure to drink water and get a snack if you haven't lately 🥺 i love you so very much so beaucoup des bisous for you MWAH

ALSO @catharsisbabey 🥺💕 thank you for tagging me as well 🤧🤧 you're such a sweet blessing and I love interacting with you 🥺 you really deserve only the best and I hope you're doing well, okay 🥺 please make sure to take some breaks sometimes so you don't get stressed or overworked 🥺💕 I love you bunches and thank you for being so very kind

{I'm also too lazy to send this to inboxes so enjoy some love letters under the cut}

@cherryonigiri - alice my darling 🥺💕 my love 🥺💕 I wish only the best for you and I don't think I could thank you enough for creating the server and giving me the opportunity to meet so many wonderful and amazing people 🥺 you really have made 2020 so much more bearable with your kind and compassionate soul 💕

@afterglowkuroo - lou I gotta tell you how much I love you one more time before you delete your account 👀 even if you aren't some super cool artist living a hella cool life in a new york apartment 👀 lou I know that tumblr has not been kind to you, but I do hope that you'll at least be able to look back on some fond memories. I wish you only the best in where life takes you and please don't hesitate to reach out, okay 🥺💕

@ush7jima - T E M M I E OH HOW I LOVE YOU SO 😭😭 your blog has grown so much since I started following you and I couldn't be more proud of you, sweetheart 🥺 you're so sweet and funny and I hope that you continue to do incredible things. You've made me smile and giggle and screech more than you could ever know, so yes I love you very much 💕

@tokyosdawn - we haven't been moots for long but you're so sweet 🥺 I love seeing you in my inbox and I'm so glad that we got to meet and become mutuals bc I really do love interacting with you, sweetheart 🥺💕

@icyhearts - icy my bby my love my darling my very first anon and my first ever request 🥺💕 it's been so long and we've seen each other grow so much in a only a few short months and I couldn't thank you enough for all of the love and support that you have given me. I hope you're doing well, babes 💕

@boosyboo9206 - whether it's bitching the pot or building houses in the sims 🥱 I know you got me b 🥴 even if you clown me like there's no tomorrow (that's okay though. i'm asking for it 97% of the time 😭) I love you bunches and I could never say it enough 🥺 thank you for supporting me in all of my tattoo artist kuroo dreams and thank you for being an even more amazing friend than I could ever ask for ❤️ red hearts for kuroo ❤️

@writingfreakk - please you're literally so fucking funny 😭😭 what did I do to deserve the absolute tiktok queen that is zaynab 🤧 nothing. The answer is nothing. I do not deserve you 😭💕 I hope you're wall turns out well and you better be sending me pics bby 😤💕

@ga1axy-defender - I cannot tag you for whatever reason but hi yes hello thank you for being my friend 🥺 and I really like talking to you so very much 🥺 thank you for being such a sweetie dkskskdkd 😖💕

@quilledinkpen - YOU BEAUTIFUL KIND SWEET WONDERFUL HUMAN BEING YOU I- 😭😭please you are so amazing and talented ugh I love seeing your art it's all so amazing 😭 I literally sent that daishou fanart you did to every single one of my friends because I couldn't stop crying over it 😭😭 you are so wonderful and I love you so very much 🥺💕

@sugasugawarau - xkdksks I literally do not deserve you marika 😭 you are so damn sweet and for what?? you're so kind and wonderful and you deserve the absolute god damn world 🤧 🤲❤️ that's my heart take it it is yours 🤧 I hope you're doing well 🥺💕

Bubbs 🥺 hi bubbs idk if you'll see this but please know that I'm thinking about you and that I hope you're doing well

Daishou mod 🐍💕 hi sweetie 🥺 I hope you're doing okay and taking care of yourself 🥺 I know life can be kinda hard but just know that you make me very happy and I don't think I could ever put into words how glad I am to have you (yes you mod 😠 daishou is great but you are very important to me too) 🥺💕 please remember that I am always here if you need me and be sure to take some breaks from time to time, okay?

Literally everyone else fkdldlsls hi if you haven't been called out yet, I love you 🥺💕 you have made my 2020 bearable. when I started this blog in June, I had no idea that it would grow into something like this. I didn't know that I would make so many friends and have so many people interested in my stories, wanting to interact with me 🥺 I fully expected to only be here for about a month and then get burnt out, but thank you for giving me the motivation to keep writing and thank you for always supporting me 💕 there are now 1.4K of you and I never really thought about how big of a number that is? That's so many people that want to see my content and want to listen to what I have to say 😖 you have made me so incredibly happy and, while this year was definitely ✨not the vibe✨, you are the reason that it was far from the worst year of my life. so thank you for everything and I hope you have a good day and an even better tomorrow ❤️

much love

xx maddi

#shitty has mail #micchi 🦝👑#OMG I DOODLED A LIL RACCOON THE OTHER DAY AND A LIL RACCOON INSPIRED DRAGON DJSKSKSK VERY PRECIOUS 10/10 #he's being incorporated into my final project bc i really like is design 🥴#alice darling 🥺💕#lay 🐦#onyx 🖤#lou bby 🥺#wife temmie 💍🥺💕#zaynab 🦋#🧊💕 bby #eve 💫#every time I sign off i feel like im dying #like no i swear im still alive 😭#bonk sentimental maddi

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dangan-happy · 3 years

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KAME-HAME FORGET ABOUT IT!

I would like to say thank you to mod taichi, mod rantaro and mod komaeda. I am the anon who was desperate, the one who struggles with academic issue, keep sleeping past midnight because of extra chores, and struggling with executive dysfunction. I don't know how to refer myself haha

It's funny, I saw the notification from your blog about my ask when I was REALLY in need of comfort unexpectedly. it was one of the worse day, I failed the selection to go to college I'm aiming for. there is an alternate way by taking a test but it was a huge and important thing for me, because other relatives would talk (or possibly brag) about how their children are doing wonderfully in academic stuff to my parents. I don't want my parents to feel embarrassed because of me. so of course, it gives me a LOT of anxiety. my heart is beating rapidly that my chest hurts so much.

Then I receive your response to my ask. It's very comforting, it calmed me down. I may teared up a bit. I really appreciate the advices, encouragements, and hugs. (I love hugs) Especially mod komaeda's advices. Thank you so much, I appreciate them. They really mean a lot to me. I didn't realize how much I needed all of these. To be honest, when I was re-reading my ask, I almost can't believe I typed all that. I didn't realize how much I struggled and desperate I am. It was truly a moment of weakness lmao

I've been struggling to respond your response because,, well. I'm still struggling haha. Unfortunately, after I send that ask, things are getting hella rough for me. It was one of those unlucky phase of time, where your days get worse each day, except this time is WAY worse because I'm going to graduate in a month and I have an important exam in two days. Then I got hit by other problems too like a member of my group project doesn't corporate so we were late to submit and it was even half done (it happened just a hour ago and it gives me an emotional breakdown because it was an important one but I'm fine now), I got blamed for something I didn't do (this happens a lot anyway but I'm very drained mentally and physically), I accidentally spat something that I've been keeping to myself to my parents and made them angry (I don't want to talk about my true feelings to them bc they only make me feel worse or worse, they get upset), more homeworks to catch up and more stressful stuff .

Basically anxiety is on my ass 24/7. It's the worst time of my life.

But whenever I hit rock bottom I would re-read your response and it lifts me up, you know? It always cheers me up reading your kind words about me, and as cheesy as it sounds, it makes me feel hopeful haha. But I never felt this hopeful before. So I'm very thankful for it, and thankful for the other mods who work hard helping other people too who come to this blog. Because even though I'm still struggling and facing the worst time right now, I'm not doing as bad as before.

Is it alright if I ask for another hug? Sorry, this whole ask ended up with me venting again haha. But I really am doing not as bad as before... I guess I'm doing better. Step by step maybe. Again, thank you so much!!

( By the way, this is out of topic but... hopefully people who know me don't recognize me on this blog for this question haha (if they do then oh well. shrugs): which one does look scarier for you, Once-ler from Lorax or the character designs from the movie called Cats (2019)? I'm not hating the movie, my friend and I are having a lighthearted discourse about it. u_u )

(Neither. Neither one is even that scary at all, for I fear nothing ~ Mod Hajime 🍊🌈)

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O-Oh, welcome back, kiddo! Whoa, that’s quite the ask you got here. But it’s more or less an update, i-if I’m correct, and a decent one at th-that. Like you said, it’s all step by step progress, wh-which is still progress no matter how you look at it.

I-I hate to hear that there’s been a few extra bumps along the road since your last ask, b-but I’m at least glad to hear that you’ve been making some sort of progress. Progress is still progress, no matter what. I-I’m just glad that you came to us. I-I’m just some average programmer, but I will agree that Nagito and Rantaro did amazing. Nagito’s... quite the interesting kiddo, but he means well, and Rantaro’s a brotherly figure th-that everyone likes, one way or another. Me? Ah, well... I-I can at least give good hugs, I guess?

S-Speaking of hugs, I’d love to give you one. I-I can at least do that right, heh. I’ll give you as many hugs as you want, kiddo. I personally don’t mind at all.

Hey there anon, you don't have to worry about referring to yourself, I remember you just fine! Hey, how's that for awesome timing huh? I'm glad you could read our answers when you needed it. I'm sorry to hear that you were having a worse day, but hey, it sounds like there's a way to make that test up a different way, so I'd give your all to trying that route. Don't give up just yet ok? Damn, yeah, I'm no stranger to the whole family bragging thing, that's a whole lot of pressure I think both of us can do without. It's really thoughtful of you to worry about your parents in this scenario, but you can worry about yourself too ok? Regardless of what you do, they should still be proud of you, and if they aren't, they're completely oblivious to your intelligence level and the amazing things you can do. Aw, I'm smiling real hard hearing how much our response helped, I'm always worried that I didn't help, or I somehow made it worse. Not gonna lie, this did give me a confidence boost. Hey, it's ok, you were in a more emotional state. It wasn't a moment of weakness. Everyone breaks down like that from time to time, and I'm happy that we were here to help you at the time. So don't feel bad about that, you're only human, and it's ok to get like that.

You don't have to worry about having the perfect response either. As much as I wish we could, we can't automatically fix any anons' problems, we can only toss our two cents in and cross our fingers that it helps. The good news is that you came to us with your struggles again, so we can try to help some more. Eesh, yeah, those periods are never fun. Pretty sure Komaeda knows more about them than I do, but I can understand at the least. First of all, congrats on graduating! That's real impressive all by itself, so hopefully you can take some pride in that. Ugh, ok, wow, the second part of that. Damn I got hit with all the feels. I hate it when group projects go like that. I'm usually stuck with all the work, or the one who's up at one am trying to finish the damn thing. I think I'm getting kinda incoherent, so sorry about that. I'm glad you're doing better on that end though, hopefully things work out with that. Aw man, I'm really sorry to hear about the blaming thing. Is there any way to prove your innocence? I'm not saying go all class trial or anything, but is there any way for you to argue your case? Even if it happens a lot, that doesn't mean it's ok. You shouldn't have to get used to things like that.

Yikes, yeah I can totally relate to the last part too. I'm also the type to clam up about my feelings because I don't wanna make anyone mad, but that happens some times, and honestly you had every right to say how you feel. You're keeping this all in, and it's gonna take a toll on you. Yeah, that's a whole lot of stress for one person to carry. I'm really impressed you haven't crashed and burned under the weight, seriously, you're an amazing, strong, resilient/ person, and it just blows me away. Trust me, you're gonna get through this stressful time. You're getting close to the end of it, and I know that you're gonna make it through. Damn, I'm smiling and blushing now. I'm really really glad we were able to help you out that much. Good! It's not cheesy at all! I'm glad you're feeling hopeful! The little steps are just as valuable as the big ones, and the fact that you're at least doing a little bit better is fantastic. Of course you can have another hug! It's ok, we're here to listen to vents, so say whatever you want to, no one's gonna judge you, I promise. Yeah, step by step, that's how you do it.

Oh damn, that's an interesting question. Honestly, I unironically love the Lorax movie, so the Oncerler ain't scary to me. Cats however...that was a trip. I don't have a better way to describe it, it was just a trip. So the Cats designs are way scarier. Like if I met the Onceler in a dark alley, I'd be just fine, but if I saw a cat-human-thing in a dark alley, I'd run for the hills. However, if I met the onceler fandom in a dark alley, that's a whole other story. Ok, I think I'm rambling again, so I think I better stop talking. Keep making those small steps forward ok? You got this.

W-wow... my advice actually helped someone? Please tell me your joking, or better yet pinching me. I can’t believe my little words could affect you so much.... I think I’m tearing up... hehe. I gotta admit, Rantaro and Taichi did a better job than me! What else do you expect from two amazing Ultimates! Anon, I’m terribly sorry to hear that some things have turned up and made your life a bit more harder, but I want you to keep your chin up ok? You’re doing amazing Anon, I can truly tell! Having a partner that doesn’t help with group projects stinks too! It’s ok that you vented again, it’s always good to speak your mind when you feel bad! Helps to let other people hear to so they can help you! And hey, compliments from Taichi? So nice of you! Never heard myself being called an “interesting kiddo” it’s cute!

I thought you’d never ask! I’d love to give you another hug! As long as you’d let me, I get worried when people want to hug me since I’m utter garbage, but if it makes you feel Hope, then I’m happy to oblige! Ah, and the Onceler or the designs of cats? I’d say the cats, I remember everyone having the hots for the Onceler once, so he can’t be that bad, right?

#danganronpa #danganronpa roleplay blog #ask #taichi fujisaki #rantaro amami #nagito komaeda #mod hajime #mod rantaro #mod nagito

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unibrowzz · 3 years

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Mod (finally) reviews all 67 winners of the Eurovision Song Contest Part VII (FINALE)- The 2010s

And we’re on the home stretch! Just 10 songs left now.

The 2010s stands as the only decade I watched live and the only decade I haven’t yet rewatched, mainly because I have no interest to. I’ve already seen the contest anyway, if a song didn’t stick with me then, it probably won’t now.

Also prepare for some hotter than usual takes, mostly down to the 10s contests being the most well known due to recency bias. I can say whatever the Hell I want about older contests and what songs I despise from there, but one non-positive comment about Euphoria and suddenly about five butthurt anons appear in my inbox telling me why I’m wrong.

But without further ado, let’s finish these off!

2010: Satellite

Country: Germany

Artist: Lena Meyer-Landrut

Language: English

Thoughts: I used to defend this song a lot, for some reason. I used to get super defensive when people dismissed it as a cheap lazy pop song that shouldn’t have won over (insert song here, but let’s be real here, 99% of the time it’s Turkey's equally cheap lazy emo rock song) and that it robbed so many better entries, blah blah, you know the drill. And I think it’s because it was the first winner I saw as I started properly watching in 2010, so I didn’t want to shit all over the winner that introduced me to the contest. Or maybe it’s that it makes me really nostalgic, or something to that effect. But, dear God, why did I? It’s so… not worth it. I appreciate it for being a much less instrumental-heavy winner, with its skippy, snappy beat and bouncing vocals which sound closer to plain talking than actual singing, but… How many times were the lyrics ran through GoogleTranslate before they were finalised? What’s with the janky, overexaggerated fake-English accent? Why does the singer look embarrassed to be a part of this? Why was this written? And how the FUCK did it win? It’s so weird and awkward to listen to. It’s the song equivalent of trying to make small talk with that one classmate you never talk to because they’re shy and boring. It’s like listening to an old person laugh half-heartedly at their not-that-funny old person joke. It’s canned laughter in a mediocre sitcom. It’s just an awkward, painful to listen to song that’s made all the more painful by the fact that Germany has sent much better songs that easily could have replaced this as their one post-reunification winner.

Was this my personal winner for this year? No

If no, what was? Spain- Daniel Diges- “Algo Pequeñito”

Personal ranking (out of 67): 60th

2011: Running Scared

Country: Azerbaijan

Artist: Ell and Niki

Language: English

Thoughts: Look, this one isn’t as bad as people make it out to be. Doesn’t mean it’s good, or that I find it particularly good, but the worst winner of all time? Goodness no, it doesn't even come remotely close. What we have here is a mildly pleasant ballad duet song with a distinctive sad-boyband vibe. Like you can definitely hear the “X-Factor winner’s first cover song” energy just radiating off it from the first few lines. I suppose you could argue that that does make it feel a bit clinical and like it’s trying too hard to be a big hit, but come on, it’s not like this is the first winner like that. The singing is alright; better than half the singing that won in the 2000s anyway, and the male singer especially has a nice voice. The lyrics aren’t exactly poetry, sure, but again, other winners have terrible lyrics as well and don’t receive nearly as much hate as this one does. And… that’s it. Why all the hate? No idea, but I can only assume the people who declare this song to be the worst winner ever haven’t heard anything that won before 2010.

Was this my personal winner for this year? No

If no, what was? Denmark- A Friend in London- “New Tomorrow”

Personal ranking (out of 67): 42nd

2012: Euphoria

Country: Sweden

Artist: Loreen

Language: English

Thoughts: Ugh. Listen. This is not a bad song. It’s decent, middle of the table, listenable, marketable, well sung, well performed, well shot. I must stress, this is not a bad song. But the best Eurovision song of all time? Absolutely not. Euphoria is one of the few winners I would describe as “overrated”, and that isn’t a term I use lightly (since it’s overused as Hell), because frankly, I don’t see what people see in this song. Hell, I forgot it completely until the 2012 voting, and further still until mid 2013 when a friend said he liked it. This song left that little of an impression on me that I completely forgot everything about it for a solid year. And considering how many fans regard this to be one of the best, if not the best song to ever come out of the contest... that baffles me, I just can’t wrap my head around why so many people hold this song up on a pedestal and worship it like it was dropped from the hands of God himself. And I'm not sure if it's because this just isn't a genre I care about, or if it's because this was WAY back when I was a casual fan who didn't follow any of the songs or artists so didn't know who'd be the favourite going in like I do now, and therefore didn’t know to keep an ear out for this one. Or maybe you have to be piss drunk and at a nightclub to really feel the impact of this song. This song triggers absolutely no response from me other than “Oh, a Eurovision song”. I feel no emotion towards it aside from complete indifference. I can’t deny that this song made an impact, it just… didn’t make an impact on me.

Is this my personal winner for this year? No

If no, what is? Spain- Pastora Soler- “Quedate Conmigo”

Personal ranking (out of 67): 40th

2013: Only Teardrops

Country: Denmark

Artist: Emmelie de Forest

Language: English

Thoughts: Let me ask you a question: What do you get when you sandwich an otherwise decent pop song between two of the most iconic and recognizable winners of the decade? You get this. Only Teardrops is a weird, weird winner to me. On one hand, the fandom acts like it might as well not exist, you go straight from Euphoria to Rise Like a Phoenix, who cares about that filler song which came between them. On the other hand, I know a lot of people who really like it, yet all of them are either very casual fans or not fans at all. So this makes me feel like this song’s main weakness is that it’s too mainstream, at least for Eurovision fans. What are my thoughts? It depends. For one, I enjoy this song a LOT more than Euphoria; I always have done and I’m not ashamed or afraid to admit that. I find this song has a lot more personal appeal, particularly a much bigger finale in my opinion, and being surrounded by people who like this song has admittedly kept me fond of it. BUT, I still wouldn’t necessarily call it a favourite of mine. Maybe a favourite of the 2010s, but not overall. At the end of the day, it’s a little too generic, a little too normal, a little too like every other song you’d hear on the radio. It’s not really a song I find myself coming back to again and again and loving every time, it’s the song I stick on to shut my family up when they want to listen to Eurovision music and I’m too shy to show them the songs I actually really like. It's just a decent song that's unfortunate enough to be stuck in between two more iconic winners, doomed to be little more than the answer in a pub quiz question. And even though I do prefer this one to some of those icons, and don’t really have anything else to say about it, it’s just enjoyable yet kind of bland.

Is this my personal winner for this year? This or Iceland

If no, what is? Iceland- Eyþór Gunnlaugsson- “Ég á Líf”

Personal ranking (out of 67): 16th

2014: Rise Like a Phoenix

Country: Austria

Artist: Conchita Wurst

Language: English

Thoughts: Ah yes, the man who made the entire continent of Europe collectively forget what a drag queen is. What a shitshow that night was. But I'm not here to talk about that, I'm here to rate/say some things about the song, and honestly? This is arguably the most vocally impressive winner from the 2010s. Seriously, there’s nothing I can fault here; this guy’s got some serious pipes. Every time I go back to it I just end up blown away by how powerful and raw this song is. And obviously good vocals alone can’t carry a song forever, otherwise I would’ve had nicer things to say about the early 70s and mid 90s, but with this song the vocals go hand-in-hand with the gimmick. Without the powerful vocals this would just be a knockoff Bond theme sung by a drag queen with a beard, like it’d just be another sensationalist gimmick song to throw onto the pile with all the other gimmick songs. But with the good singing, this has the distinction that it’s a gimmick entry that still had every right to win because the singer was actually competent. Also unlike the 70s winners this one actually has strong emotions tied to it rather than it just being a bunch of pretty French words, so there’s that.

Is this my personal winner for this year? This or the Netherlands tbh

If no, what is? N/A

Personal ranking (out of 67): 17th

2015: Heroes

Country: Sweden

Artist: Måns Zelmerlöw

Language: English

Thoughts: Fun fact: I was so bitter this won that I stormed off before the voting was done and cried in my room over it. I hated everything about this song: I hated how Sweden won just three years after their last win, I hated how the staging was just BEGGING people to vote for it, and I ESPECIALLY hated how it beat out the televote favourite because the juries were too busy wanking off to this one to care about anything else. I just despised everything about this song, and it turned me into an obnoxious jury-hater for a solid year. And yes, I'm extremely embarrassed of all that because honestly this song is fantastic. I would go as far to say it's my favourite Swedish winner, maybe not one of my favourite Swedish entries but definitely my favourite winner of theirs. Everything about this is just so appealing to me, from the brooding intro and vocals, to the lyrics, to the staging, my GOD the staging! It’s one of the best performances of the contest to date; It's impressive without being tacky or try-hard, he interacts with his background, and that little doodle boy character he’s created is adorable. I just love this performance, it’s so mesmerising.

Was this my personal winner for this year? Not then, is now

If no, what was? Then? Serbia- Bojana Stamenov- “Beauty Never Lies”

Personal ranking (out of 67): 11th

2016: 1944

Country: Ukraine

Artist: Jamala

Language: English, some Crimean words

Thoughts: I mean… it’s good until she starts singing. Now I am by all means not an advocate for bringing back the old language rule, but songs like this sure as Hell make me one. This should have been left entirely in Crimean. Simple as that. The English lyrics are bloody awful, no way to sugarcoat it, and absolutely annihilate the potential this song is otherwise seething with, because the instrumental to this song is fantastic and the chorus and climax give me goosebumps. The performance at the contest was chilling as well; a perfect blend of both simple yet flashy staging to set up a really uneasy atmosphere that compliments the song perfectly but, God, the lyrics are bad, man, especially for such a serious song about a personal topic. That said, it's still the only song in the 2016 top 3 that seemed winner-worthy, unlike Australia's obvious Jurybait and Russia's obvious Telebait. So… it has that.

Was this my personal winner for this year? No

If no, what was? France- Amir Haddad- “J’ai Cherché”

Personal ranking (out of 67): 57th

2017: Amar Pelos Dois

Country: Portugal

Artist: Salvador Sobral

Language: Portuguese (Translation: “Both of us”)

Thoughts: I still question why it took Portugal until 20-fucking-17 to even reach the top five, but that's a rant for another day. Not that this is a rant, far from it. Anybody who knows me knows that I love this song after all, and that it’s one of the few winners I remain rather defensive of, though that’s mostly down to the amount of hate this song and its singer receive. I will defend Sal and his hot takes on pop music until I die. Now I’ll admit, this song surprised me in more ways than one. Namely by actually winning the televote; given how this song has split opinions clean down the board as to whether it’s spine-tinglingly beautiful or soul-crushingly boring, I was expecting it to come mid-table in the televote whilst some other country swiped first. Yet somehow it managed to stomp the televote just as hard as it stomped the jury vote. I guess I wasn’t the only person this struck a chord with after all. Also, I can’t be the only one who thinks this is a perfect dance song? Like it’s great for ballroom, or contemporary. It’s so dreamy and flowy, and I usually HATE dreamy flowy songs, yet this one just resonates with me for some reason and I’m not sure why.

Is this my personal winner for this year? Yes

If no, what is? N/A

Personal ranking (out of 67): 4th

2018: Toy

Country: Israel

Artist: Netta Barzilai

Language: English, some chicken noises, cringe

Thoughts: And here we have another case for bringing back the language rule, because if this song had a Hebrew version I would 100% listen to it more often. When I heard Israel was sending an, ahem, "feminist anthem" about the #MeToo trend on twitter, my first reaction was "ew". When I heard it was the favourite to win, my reaction was also "ew". And when I heard the song for the first time? "Hm, not as bad as I thought." And also "ew". This song is just embarrassing. I’m embarrassed listening to it, I’m embarrassed watching it, and I’m embarrassed when someone mentions it when I’m trying to convince them Eurovision actually has good music. You can just tell from the first few lines that it was written by middle aged men trying to shill themselves out to gullible young women who think listening to a song by some Israeli DJ “empowers” them. And let’s be honest here: “empowering” is just media speak for “shit”. The only thing stopping me from putting it at the VERY bottom is the instrumental and performance because without the cringy lyrics you’re left with a pretty good club song, and I swear to God Netta Barzilai could sell herself sneezing for 3 minutes. If “Toy” had been entirely in Hebrew I would’ve given it a pass, and maybe a cheeky vote or two. But, alas, that was not to be.

Was this my personal winner for this year? No

If no, what was? Italy- Ermal Meta & Fabrizio Moro- “Non mi Avete fatto Niente”

Personal ranking (out of 67): 64th

2019: Arcade

Country: The Netherlands

Artist: Duncan Laurence

Language: English

Thoughts: You know, in my 9 or so years watching the contest, I don’t think I’ve ever felt genuinely ecstatic watching a song win. Most of the time I either feel neutral (most of them) or a more general, content kind of happy (2014 and 2017). Like I’ve never let out a shout of joy and slid on my knees across my living room floor in sheer, blind happiness. But that’s what I did with “Arcade”. I’m not really sure why that is because, I must confess, it wasn’t my personal winner of the night, and, looking back, I preferred other songs, but… God, I just can’t explain how overwhelmingly happy I was when this song won. I’m not sure if it’s because I was alone or if I was rooting for this deep down (or if it’s because it was between this song or fuckin’ Sweden again). But that’s by the by. How’s the song? Honestly? Really good. One of my favourites of this decade, if I’m honest. It’s the kind of song that’s grown on me a lot since the night of the contest; even though it wasn’t my favourite song from 2019, I’m not mad at all at it winning.

Is this my personal winner for this year? Honestly I had about 10

If no, what is? I could list them if you want

Personal ranking (out of 67): 6th

#AND IT IS DONE #eurovision #mod's winner reviews #esc winners #finally glad to get these done lmao these were so tedious to format

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((idk when the mod with the one kintype is gonna come out or if the source’s fandom is even gonna grow from it i dunno besides whitty is still my main kintype anyway and ive got friends and canonmates that we legit found and shit i have all i could want why am i stressing abt shit i dont have how selfish is that. like this other kintype is another very strong one i also wanna try writing but man,,,ugh idk feel like it might not work out. this blog gets hate just for existing, or at least it did once, i feel like i’m just a burden and making people so uncomfy and here i go doing it again probably sounding like a guilt tripper too i just am running on no sleep and have no idea how to get ideas across im sorry again))

#Out of explosions {ooc}#News flash. {update}#Can't escape this. {vent}#Another part of me out in the open. {kin}#aaa

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June 30, 2021

Maybe it’s the Vitamin D deficiency (not officially diagnosed or anything, but I’ve certainly not been getting enough sunlight, especially since the cicadas emerged and filled the air), but agh sometimes I feel so overwhelmed??? Like, just outta nowhere I get this trapped feeling, like I can’t move or something and it’s actually kinda scary? And like some of it is physical but most of it is like... hm.

You know how something oscillates, like a wave, right? Up and down, like a... like a sine wave. Picture the graph of a plain old sine function. f(x)=sin(x). Think of that as my baseline level of... thinking, I guess? The default rate of thought. Sure. Here, let me go into Desmos and illustrate it, because I feel like this is a good illustration.

Figure 1. y = sin(x)

Now imagine that same sine wave, except the wavelength decreases, and the frequency is increasing (amplitude stays the same). f(x)=sin(5x) This represents when I’ve got quite a bit going on in my head, but everything is still recognizable. I might have a groove going on in this state. Stuff is getting done (or, more likely, I’m procrastinating at this stage).

Figure 2. y = sin(5x)

Okay, and lets say that those wavelengths are getting even shorter, like f(x)=sin(10x). At this point a bit of stress might be setting in, but there’s still some room to breathe.

Figure 3. y = sin(10x)

Then we continue to decrease the wavelength as more things seem to be piled onto what I’m thinking about that I stop being able to differentiate between the important parts on a curve. f(x)=sin(75x) It’s all just a big blob and I feel too overwhelmed and uncomfortable to try to sort it out, so I go paralyzed. Hands-off. I shut down.

Figure 4. y = sin(75x)

And that’s where the trapped feeling comes in. And while at the steps before this point, I was feeling okay, at this point I don’t think I start to feel like myself again until I get back to a complete reset at sin(x) again.

Honestly I’m really proud of this analogy.

Anyway, I’m feeling like I’m somewhere between Figures 3 and 4 right now, and I’m not sure why? I also feel like I might be a little irritable as well, and I don’t know what’s brought that on either. Maybe I need to get out of the house. Maybe I need to pick up an instrument again. I ordered the next uke today, and it should be here by Friday(!). I need to go and try to return the old one. Maybe that’s contributing to this weird feeling, this tightness.

I finished Community today. I will say, I enjoyed the series throughout (especially the paintball episodes!!!!), and I think it was very obvious that the writers were having fun with the final season, with the inc~st episode and the f-bombs in the last episode. I’m glad it got a proper ending, even if they didn’t get their movie lol.

Next up, I intend to watch Fullmetal Alchemist: Brotherhood, an anime recommended by my dancer-friend (her first anime, I believe). She seemed really excited about it, so we’ll see how it goes :)

Um, did some sewing tonight on the modded McCall’s 8181, and I had to stop because I got frustrated. Put the front and lining together and (I mean, I had to make some adjustments which were fine) it’s quite a bit roomy everywhere, especially around the arms, to the point where they fall off and the square neckline is really really deep. I’m going to probably add darts to the front pieces of the straps, similar to the way that I’ve altered trousers in the past. We’ll see, we’ll see. Also, I have literally no idea how to sew sharp turns at seams??? Like I thought I had figured it out but I encountered the same issues I did with both of the AD capes I made while working on this black bodice, ugh.

That might be contributing to my weird mood.

Today I’m thankful to have finished Community.

I’m tired, and I need to rest for sure.

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mightve scrolled throu your blog a little bit, so without wanting to be too noisy here futaba, akira and kawakami for the ask persona 5 ask game tell alot about someone i really enjoyed your content pls do more for the fandom xx

To be honest I had totally forgotten about this ask, since I wanted to answer it when I’m on PC! :(

Thank you for your kind words, dear! I’m trying to do stuff for the fandom. It’s just a little far from what I usually do so it’s a little complicated. For my other fandoms I install camera mods, reshaders etc. and edit to find either small details in games or show the cutscenes in a different way. Editing and video game photography have become a big hobby of mine. As for Persona 5, that’s a little harder. There is no PC version, so I took some screenshots from Scramble’s switch version and enhanced their quality. I want to do more cool stuff, but it’s limited TT Atlast what I’m planning to do is play Scramble on YouTube when it comes out! Also for Scramble the in-game cutscenes have become way better. I might be able to do something about it. But enough rambling

Futaba: Favourite Palace?

This will be very boring since it is a popular answer as far as I have seen, but Sae’s palace, the casino. Kamoshida’s and Madarame’s are very close, but Sae’s has everything to me. The casino aesthetics are so beautifully done and the whole concept was thought through. You enter and have to obtain a members card which I found very interesting. Instead of just letting you pass and do the cool puzzles, this is your first job. When that is done, you need to obtain the High Limit card. This is all very casino-like. You have to play games to obtain it, but it is rigged. It is impossible to win and it is a hell lot of fun to see the casino workers losing their shit about you actually winning since you let Futaba hack the control panels, which by the way are the only part I did not enjoy. I looked for the red or green one for ages and almost died, because I kept running and circles. I’m good at reading maps, so I was surprised. This was the first palace where I kept going in circles and couldn’t find my way back - twice! I don’t remember a puzzle I didn’t like. I enjoyed both. The house of darkness as well as the Battle arena. The house of darkness gave me major amusment park during halloween season flashbacks. I love visiting haunted house, so this whole part just felt like something I would’ve loved doing in reality anyway and now I can enjoy it as a game with a fantasy aspect to it. It was really cool that without using Third Eye it was actually pitchblack - which I hadn’t expected from the developers. It was intriguing. When you went further, the casino lights came back, but enemies where around every corner. I loved it! The battle arena just felt epic to me. I liked how Joker had to fight alone, making it the first time the player is forced to do this alone, especially since you get tricked once again. The Phantom Thieves are told it is a 1v1 fight, but it’s not. Joker has to fight against two shadows, which is a major disadvantage. The boss fight was fun to me as well. It was the first one where I didn’t get angry, but felt like I was actually gambling. To think about if I put high risk high reward and might end up losing my life or if I play safely. Instead of just having to think about the combat strategies, you now had to think about how to gamble. Rather than getting mad, I got stressed - in a good way, what gamble does. Giving you adrenaline when you win, but making you fall even harder when you lose. I ended up playing safely and winning, so I thought let’s go high risk high reward - I died. Lastly, this palace is what ties everything together. This is what you see when you start the game and you finally get context to it on why Joker is running away - especially alone! - and how he gets arrested. The whole built up is nicely done and it feels satisfying, more than any other palace to me. Instead of just continuing with the story, you get so many answers on top and from then onwards the game takes a whole twist and becomes even darker.

I also really liked Madarame’s musuem, but hated the boss fight so it would never become my no1. For Kamoshida, I love the castle design and aesthetics. And since it is the first palace, you have so many memories with it. I started my second playthrough a week later and for some reason got all happy and excited during the first time you enter the castle. The beginning of Persona 5 just has a certain charm to it for me.

Akira: If you had a palace, what would it be?

Damn I never thought much about it. I read alot of headcanons for palaces for Akira and thought about them - I love the theater idea by the way, fits him a lot - , but never thought about my own. I think, without making this too personal, I would have a palace in this world. I definetely would. Probably an amusment park, an arcade or something along the lines of things going up and down, moods going up and down quickly as well as the way I view myself, my emotions and life. Just in general something where you can do a lot of different things and feel a lot of different, intense emotions but with an aspect that’s alot me. It would be a turbulent, kind of sad yet kind of fun palace. This would get hella personal, so I’ll stop here, but these two would be very fitting ^^ I might need to write it down one day for myself. It’s an interesting thought!

Kawakami: Most surprising scene?

It is either when you meet Akechi on Shido’s cruiser or the way end of the Yaldabaoth fight. As for the scene with Akechi, I was just exhausted. It was really late and I hated the mice puzzles. I died to the caretaker three times and was reliefed when he finally let us go. I thought Okay all that is left now is get back to the safe room and sleep in reality. My friend had warned me and told me to tell her when I’m in the engine room. After the caretaker fight being so hard for me, I thought this was what she had wanted to talk about. But well...then you leave the room and meet Akechi. I thought we would either never meet him again and he’d think Akira is dead until the very last minute or we meet him at the end somehow. It was surprising to me and seemed so random, until you find out Akechi’s real motives towards Shido. In general, I was just pretty dumbfounded at this scene. Didn’t die once against him, but it was a tough and kind of scary battle. Made me emotional and I went to sleep having nightmares actually. I felt bad for not being able to save him as well as I did in my dreams and cried in there. I don’t like him as a character, but stated in my analysis before that he is really interesting. My friend and I kept on saying ugh can he just leave or die he is so annoying, but when he died my first thought was that this ain’t how it was supposed to end. It’s not fair, not even to him. I wanted Akechi to attone for what he did. To get to jail with Shido together and then get help, but with genunine concern. This is what I wished for this character. As for the Yaldaboath fight, I died three times and got pretty angry. I was pulling an all-nighter to finish the game, it was 5AM and I had been emotional all day. When I finally had him down enough, I thought the Phantom Thieves would just kill him like normal and that’s it. Then this whole scene happens where all the people cheer them on and Akira has his second awakening, unleashing some freaking demon god. I was screaming to my friend. It looked so cool and it made me so emotional. Also, unpopular opinion, but I love the anime scene a lot for this. It’s beautifully done (it’s an OVA which have better graphics so be sure to check it out!) and made me feel a lot.

Thank you for your message! It was fun to write this.

Send me a Persona 5 character name for the ask game if you’re interested about my thoughts!

#ask #persona 5 #ask game

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littlechinesedoll · 4 years

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Graveyard Keeper Review

Platform: Steam

Playtime: 73 hours

Game Stats: 484 graveyard points, 70 church points, 81 tavern points, 91 Gold, 15 or so zombies, +/- 2k red points, +/- 1500 green points, +/- 500 blue points, did not unlock all the technologies.

Mods used: Faster Craft, Increase Inventory, Infinite Energy, Inflation Mod, No Cooldown Teleport, Sprint

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Okay, so I finished the Graveyard Keeper (discounted at 4 or 5 bucks), together with its two DLCs, Breaking Bad (free) and Stranger Sins (6 bucks). Overall for that price it’s pretty good.

Spoilers ahead, of course. Oh, and very long rant if you’re up for the read.

So it starts with you going to a store to pick up some groceries, then you look at your phone while crossing he street and it’s you love calling, and because you didn’t look both ways before steeping on the crosswalk, you die. And then you wake up as the next graveyard keeper.

Honestly, whoever the last one was did a poor job of keeping the graveyard, cos what the fuck are all these bad corpses doing buried here? JK. ANYWAYS.

First, we’re gonna talk about mechanics.

I loved the game. It’s much like Stardrew Valley in a sense that you’ve got pretty much the same thing going on, except that it’s much, much, much more stressful. You can’t just go forage things and then sell all of it expecting you’ll get money and then buy the thing that you need to accomplish this task.

Nope. It’s none of that. it’s goes so far as you have to make your own goddamn ink to write something. But then you’d have to go to the poultry to buy feathers to write with?? There’d been too many time’s I’d say ‘what the fuck’ every time I’d have to craft something to do something as mundane as fucking frying onion rings.

There’s a review on steam that perfectly summarizes what I feel about the game as a whole. It’s a review by Isackender they say:

“I love grinding games like Stardew Valley, Don't Starve or Forager. When you play them, you feel good completing a task because what you just achieved will help you to advance slowly towards your goal. And what's most important, these tasks are fair.

Graveyard Keeper fails miserably at doing this.

A lot of the tasks you're required to complete feel meaningless.

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That feel of ‘I haven't done anything today’ is constant.”

And that’s true! Every time you go to bed or mediated for energy, it feels like, even though you’ve buried a body, planed some crops, chopped down some wood, crafted all these things, mined a crap ton of stone and marble for graveyard decorations, it’s never enough. You literally have no means of earning other than burying shit-rated bodies at the start, so that you can get money to buy crops that you need to sell in order to make more money. What’s more frustrating, is that if you sell too much of one thing to any NPC who’ll buy your shit, you won’t be able to sell that other 400 pieces of carrots you’ve harvested because they’ll have no money to buy more, and your crops will be of no value because there is too much of it. I mean that makes sense IRL, but god. I was stuck at two silver coins FOR WEEKS.

Though I think I might be comparing it too much to Harvest Moon or Stardew Valley, where everything you do gives you an idea of what you’re working towards: a great farm, with diverse produce, healthy animals, and a good income.

God you’d be crafting for WEEKS and you’d still not be able to earn anything.

I only finished it out of spite. I mean, I’m already here. I already wasted 40 hours on it why not just fucking go on with it? 40 hours! That’s 10 hours more than I work in a week these days.

You’re also confined to a day in a week to do everything you need to do. Many of the NPCs you need to interact with that has something to do with the main storyline are only available once a week. So if you forget what day it is, you’d have to wait for another week to move along whatever it is you want to move on with. I always forget this with Snake, the Astrologer, the Merchant, and Ms. Charm. It’s frustrating to have to trudge through another week and then maybe forget again that Ms. Charm is singing at The Dead Horse today. It’s mad.

And then there’s The Town. You spend MONTHS on earning enough money to get you a Town Pass, only for you to be struck down by lightning the moment you pass the gates. So what’s the point of building up hype and telling you that you need to get to Town, and gather all of these items for you to be able to craft the thing that will get you home? The Town literally does not exist. Which is also annoying because southwest of the Farmer, THERE’S A COAL VEIN THAT I NEED FOR THE FURNACE.

The literal amount of wood you need to advance in this game is insane. I mean I have zombies chopping wood for me but still.

Teleport stone needs way too much time to cooldown, hence, the mod. I hate walking at a glacial pace, hence, the mod. I was frustrated with the money, hence, the mod. It’s not a mod to make me earn faster, but a mod to let me sell as much as the buyer is selling their products. Shit amount inventory, hence, the mod. And I’m not wasting two days for something to craft in the furnace, hence, the mod.

I also hate that big pieces of wood don’t go in your inventory. It’s frustrating because what if you chopped down something on the other side of the map? You’d have to lug that shit one at a time back to your work yard? And then, when you’ve got too many items on the screen, like for example, just because you want to, you chopped down all the trees in your backyard, leaving behind, say, 50 pieces of log. The FPS will drop like a bitch. Seriously. I was at a constant 60fps at the start then by the end, when I’ve got my yard set up, together with the vineyard and my zombie farm, the game is always at a constant 25fps and it’s hurting my eyes. There was a time I left zombies mining at the quarry; the game dropped to 1fps every ten seconds! UGH. JLAKSDJAKSD

Okay. So. Mechanics aside, now on to the story. I mean, alright, it’s cute. I decided to finish the tavern first. The Stranger Sins DLC is where the story of the town comes from.

There’d been an old god and a new god.

I have a lot of questions. Keeper was split in two. Why and where did the old god send him? Why did the old god grant people immortality in exchange for destroying their faith in him? WHY DOES THE DONKEY TALK? I farmed hundreds of carrots for this asshole and he doesn’t even get a story?

Also, what the fuck is up with that shitty ending? I mean, that’s it? It just. Ends. Like that. you don’t go home—your Missus is transported to you and it ends. What the fuck? I wasted 73 hours for that shit?

There’s no replayability either. You finish it and that’s it. you go back to your save and you’re send back to the last time you saved it. It doesn’t even save after you open the portal so you could work on improving your graveyard or make more wine for your tavern.

It’s fun for a while. But if you might not finish it.

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