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#so i told my mom it was too crouded and for her to pick me up someplace else
sludgeguzzler · 1 year
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im so glad im getting better lately and thinking of the future as full of possibilities and options. what really keeps me going lately has been thinking about graduating high school and moving out and going to college, getting a job, living my life normaly and on my own pace, which is such a big change from the plans i had made just a few months back. im feeling sorta hopeful about my future for once and its great. i want to grow old now. its great
#i mean it doesnt mean i have a clear vision of what i want to be as an adult and if im even gonna go to college#but. idk im living through it#gosh im just. im just so so glad i cant put it into words#its funny too cus just a couple of days ago i was in absolute misery because of the big test i had to do dfshgh#but actually doing it made something click for me i think. i came out of the building feeling so#so light i guess#it was raining a bit and i just wanted to walk#so i told my mom it was too crouded and for her to pick me up someplace else#and i walked to a bus stop while eating one of the worst cereal bars i have ever eaten and my shoes were all muddy and i had a headache#but idk. i felt. really good#you see i am a certified teenager im six months away from being 17 im living that late teen blues#where my face is becoming a little less greasy and my frontal lobe a little more developed#and that means its almost time for college and for drinking and for partying and for moving out#and like. man#its dawned on me that the plans i had the ones about offing myself when i graduated highschool#they just odnt hold up anymore#i WANT to graduate i WANT to move out to my own apartment#i WANT to get a job; to come out properly; to study art; to put these years behind me and live#and im not saying i want to embrace everything that comes with adulthood no#what the fuck even is a tax. what do you mean i have to pay for my own internet. what the hell water bill#but just the fact that i actually want to go through all the shit parts so i can live the good parts means a lot to me#idk at this point im just rambling#dont want to kill myself anymore yippie hooray#schools definetelly gonna be Hell next year but i want to get through it so i can live the good part of life#im also ok about not going to college. like fuck man if i dont go then i didnt go thats that#i do have one (1) cringe unrealistic expectation which is omg what if me and my current bf stayed together forever [autism stare]#at this point im just incoherently rambling sorry there was alot i wanted to say and i ended up losing whatever sense of writing i had.#if you read through all of thank you tho. extremely personal i know but idk. im happy#sg.txt
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fanfiction-mania · 7 years
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Keep your Enemies Closer (Chapter 14)
P.o.v Ellington
When I woke up I got out of bed and walked out of the guest bedroom into the kitchen. Rocky walked into the kitchen at the same time as I did. We walked in to see everyone crowded around looking at something that everyone thought was cute except Riker. Well it wasn't that he didn't find it cute it's just that he was flipping out saying things like "when did this happen!?!" and "I swear if he breaks his heart!" you guessed it right, Stormie is showing everyone the picture of Rocky and I from last night on the couch.
P.o.v Rocky
I walked into the kitchen after I got up to find my family crouded around looking at something. I wasn't quite sure what it was until I heard Riker saying things like "when did this happen!?!" and "I swear if he breaks his heart!" at that moment I knew that mom was showing the others the picture she took of Ellington and I from last night. At this point I had noticed that Ellington was up as well and had the same reaction that I did. Considering they have seen the picture I'm sure it would be fine if we held hands even though we aren't officially together yet. I say yet as apposed to just leaving it at us not being together because I intend on asking Ellington tonight if he will be my boyfriend.
P.o.v Ellington
I noticed that Rocky was walking over to me. He didn't say anything, instead he just grabbed my hand and we laced our fingers together and he pulled me towards his family. "so are you two like official now?" Riker asked. I was about to answer but before I could say anything Rocky spoke. "we aren't official yet." he began. At this point he was staring me directly in the eyes "I wasn't planning on doing this until tonight but, Ellington I love you more than you could ever imagine, through my eyes you are absolutely perfect, flawless even, all I want is to be able to spend every day with you for the rest of my life and I want you to be mine forever. Will you Ellington Lee Ratliff, be my Boyfriend." as Rocky finished talking I was completely speechless. I couldn't form words at all. What he said was just so amazing. Instead of saying yes considering how speechless I was and currently still am, I kissed him with so much passion that he would clearly know I want to be his forever. At that point I didn't care that Rocky's entire family was watching us. We pulled away from the kiss and that's when Riker said "now Ellington if you hurt my brother just know I'll be coming after ya" he said sounding like he was joking but we all knew he was serious.
P.o.v Riker
Wow my sister has a girlfriend and now one of my three brothers has a boyfriend that happens to be my best friend! I did not see that coming. After that I spoke "Now Ellington, if you hurt my brother just know I'll be coming after ya" I may have sounded like I was joking because of the way I said it but I'm being entirely serious.
P.o.v Rose
i woke up and i really didnt feel like going to school today. im not sick or anything its just i really dont feel like going. i asked my mom if i could just not go and maybe if Amy convinces her parents to let her stay home too we could hang out and talk about our weekend. i picked up my phone to text Amy "im going to ask my mom if i can just ditch school today so we could chill, you should ask your mom if you could stay home today too." i sent that text and waited for a reply. once i got a reply i looked at the text and it said "yeah sure let me just ask my mom, maybe i could get dells to text her mom to see if she could skip too" i aswered by saying "yeah totally that would be so fun!" not long after that i got a text saying that she could skip school and that Rydel could too. now all i have to do is ask my mom if i can skip. now that i think about it i probably should have done that first, i thought to myself. anyways i walked out of my room to find my mom getting ready for work. "hey mom would it be ok if i skipped school today to hang out with Amy and Rydel? i promise i will catch up on my school work tomorrow!" right when i thought she was going to say no she actually said it was ok. With that i texted Amy asking who's house we should meet up at. i got a reply that said "can we just meet at my house cause dells is already here" i read the text and replied by saying "shes been there all weekend hasnt she?" after that i got a reply saying "ha ha yeah and you can come over whenever." i kinda goggled at her text and then quickly replied saying i would be right over.
p.o.v Rydel
ive been at amy's house all weekend and now we get to skip schol to hang out! how awesome is that! Rose is on her way over and Amy and i are getting doing our morning routine. after we finished our morning routine we went to the kitchen to make some breakfast. At first neither of us had an idea of what to make but then after about a minute we looked at eachother and spoke at the same time "pancakes!" we said excitedly. after that we began to make the pancake batter. a few minutes after we got the first few pancakes going it began to smell really good in here. all of a sudden Rose walks through the door saying "man it smells really good in here. "yeah i know we are making pancakes!" i said excitedly. with that we went about our day. we ate some pancakes and had left overs so we just put them in bags to go in the fridge. after that i told my mom we were heading downtown for the afternoon. we rounded up the few things that we would be talking with us for the day and headed out to my car. when we got downtown the first thing we did was go to starbucks because lets be real, even though its expensive its amazing. after we were done at starbucks we just walked through different stores looking at stuff. we were all getting kind of bored and we were just about ready to go back to amys house when she spoke. "before we go back to my house we absolutely have to go to kiwi kraze." throughout the day we were gossiping because thats just what girls do. all of a sudden i get a text. i checked my phone and it was a picture from mom. i opened the text to look at the picture she sent me. it was a picture of rocky and ellington asleep on the couch together and it was captioned 'they made it official this morning'.
p.o.v Amy
we were gossiping about random things and all of a sudden Rydel's phone goes off and he pulls it out to check it. she looked at it and read the caption "they made it official this morning" Rose and i gave her curious looks. "who made what official this morning?" I asked curiously. She turned her phone towards us to show us the picture. "awwwwwww that's adorable!" I said. After rydel showed us that picture we literally could not stop talking about how cute it was. our origonal plan after kiwi kraze was to go back to my house but instead we came to a mutual agreement that we would pay a little visit to the new couple so we could say congrats.
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