#slowlykillingmyself

[yungernst-blog]

#drugs #drugabuse #lonely #depression #slowlykillingmyself

[fadingheartbeat]

Rant ...

People always say you're losing control when you start to get sick again but I've never felt more in control, there's this small voice that keeps telling me to eat that I deserve it that what I'm doing is stupid but it's slowly getting quieter and quieter, soon it will be gone and food will have no control over me. I may be losing friends over this but honestly they're better off without me I'm changing I don't feel the same towards anyone anymore I'm happy on my own. I can't trust anyone but myself maybe not even myself If anyone who loves me ever reads this I'm sorry for what I'm doing but this is what's right this is what I need to be happy Control ....

#personal #rant #anamia #slowlykillingmyself #alone #control

[peachnaked]

Turns out APPARENTLY my vomiting and sickness is from stress and anxiety. I am that stressed I make myself physically ill. My body is in stress mode and turns to nausea and I vomit and then I stress out over being sick and make it worse. If it doesnt stop over an amount of time i have to go back. I have to join a woman's health clinic too. I am also on antibiotics to help my throat. Kewl.

#me #imfucked #stopstressin #slowlykillingmyself #wah #behappy

[iwatchedworldsburn]

5:33am

And all I slept so far was 20 minutes on my basement couch 12 hours ago in the past 3 days.  Fuck my sleeping schedule.

#slowlykillingmyself #fucksleep #butilovesleep #whatthehell #5:33am #sleepingscheduleisfucked