#since im more certain im expressing myself in the way i intend. whereas if i use specialized chinese words theres a higher risk i say

[mejomonster]

Sometimes I feel like I write really... simple? Which isn't a bad thing. Just sometimes rereading my stuff feels like I'm reading a fairy tale (ignoring the actual Faerie Stories I write galore lol)

#rant #mejo writing #like. i get it? part of it is i lean toward simpler words because i want as MANY people to understand what i mean as possible #and im used to tutoring a lot of people of varying vocabulary and the simpler more understandable words the BETTER when #trying to teach math frankly. and then also when i speak in french or chinese i likewise lean toward more common words #since im more certain im expressing myself in the way i intend. whereas if i use specialized chinese words theres a higher risk i say #something i didnt mean. and in general i just notice a lot of things i got used to in french grammar i... #oddly ended up integrating into how i write english. which is absolutely bizarre to me. and tjen since reading more chinesr #ive really adapted to more SHORT sentences just focusing on making my point. #and then of course. my biggest style influences are haruki murakami and edgar allan poe. #i dont pick as perfect words as poe (unfortunately). but i like the idea of prose written as if its poetry. with thought put into #the length of sentences and SINGLE WORDS as sentences. and cut off sentences. and alliteration. to control #the reader experience and affect the impact of the prose on the emotions. #and then murakami lol. murakami??? my favorite short story he wrote is The Kangaroo Communique #which i think explains a LOT about why the fuck i write the way i do #have you ever read his stories in The Elephant Vanishes??? #its like this... the ideas and words and settings are ordinary. but the experience is emotional and surreal and magical and it swallows you #inside the narrator's head. #and you truly have no idea what objective reality in the story is. only what the character narrating is Claiming to experience (and they #might be lying about themselves and whete their attention is too). #and i LOVE it. i love it i love it. it FEELS like being in my mind. so i try to write that way. #and i almost feel like when the prose is simpler words... its more like how a general person may think things #(at least how i do. with simple understandable explanation) and so its easier to suck the reader into the #narration pov's mind #and get them to feel what the character feels and notice what the charqcter avoids. and feel reality of the story #becoming as warped and unreliable as the narrator.