#ryambles

[nyanryan]

happy birthday to ME!!!! I cannot believe i am 23 i did not think i was going to live this long but i am ENDURING with the help of my lovely wife marijuana. here are 2 images and a video from today 2 celebrate

#goddd she is so cute i love her ❤️❤️ #also i went to the arcade w my brother and his gf and i wore a very cute outfit. and that was my day. #kind of boring but that is ok bc i am boring. i am so ready to get baked and go to sleeeeeep #ryambles #turning off reblogs is not working -_- no one rb this pls and thank u. ❤️

[void-bee]

heya!

ahhhh hello darlin!!! :D

Silencio - Alias Conrad Coldwood from the OFF Soundtrack

- [incomprehensible whispering]

that was a bad example so ill do another 😂

Mama, I’m a Big Girl Now - Nikki Blonsky from the Hairspray Soundtrack

- Woah, once upon a time I used to dress up KenBut now that I'm a woman, I like bigger menAnd I don't need a Barbie doll to show me how'Cause mama, I'm a big girl now

ahh thank u 💖

send a heya and i’ll say my favorite words to a random song :>

#brinley ryambles #ask meme #ahh thanks nina #nice to talk at u #yaboybergara

[nyanryan]

cookie's bustle and poinie's poin are 2 games of the same genre. to me. and i love them both and have to play them.

#i love uuu games that make you say. what the fuck. #i hope i am spelling that right. vinny played the cookie one tonight on stream and it was SO GOOD. love shit like that. #weird as fuck game but it has something to say means everything to me #ryambles #what if i became a streamer and my entire gimmick was that i do full playthroughs of games that vinny did not give enough airtime to #there are so many that he plays that are so cool and he doesnt even care. VINNY YOU ARE KILLING ME!!! #WAHOO cookie's bustle is on mac garden and i already have sheepshaver set up on my pc 👍

[nyanryan]

the need to have "neurotypical" and "neurodivergent" be two completely different things with no grey area in between is a disservice to both groups. i would say every single person on this earth could qualify as neurodivergent if they bothered to go see a psychiatrist. its just that only certain ppl are going to be put in a situation where they cannot function and need a label to explain it bc society

#btw I am convinced that I am the only person who truly understands the field of psychiatry. or the lack of evidence to support one. #there are so many symptoms that are just the exact same thing but described in different ways and depending on the biases of whoever #diagnoses you You will end up with a completely different disorder! #there is no way to be objective about something as subjective as human experience #this is a vaguepost ab r/adhdwomen btw i love the group but also freshly diagnosed ppl be acting in ways. #being neurodivergent forces you to be more in touch with your own needs but every single person on this Earth would benefit from that #so please for the love of God teach the neurotypical people in your life to do that too #I also saw a post earlier about how shopping around 4 therapists should not exist because you don't shop around for surgeons or restaurants #and it made me so mad because you literally do shop around before therapists and for restaurants #and there are 1 million different subfields of therapy please for the love of God do not give up if CBT does not work for you. #if your therapist is so unskilled that they cannot help you because they cannot change the physical reality of your situation #then they are a bad therapist. they are bad at their job! #their job is not to make your situation better their job is to give u the ability to deal w the situation no matter how bad it is. #ryambles #my only sources are that i am mentally ill and have been in therapy since i was 14. but im right. #i meant to say for surgeons and restaurants but i was typing too fast. bc of the adhd. sorry. #i am reading all of this over and maybe it makes no sense but i dont care. read my post boy.

[nyanryan]

one of the most embarrassing things ab being menthol willness is when u get doombrained for weeks at a time and ur like... well i guess i am going to be miserable for the rest of my life and then you go for a walk and things are fine. nvm i guess

#<all he needed was to go on a little walk #get out of your mind and into your body!!!!! #world is beautiful there are trees out there and dollar stores. peace and love on planet earth #ryambles

[nyanryan]

i ❤️ babies they are so stupid and do not know anything. today one of our little girls went to touch the scissors i was using and i was like careful!! we do not want to cut your fingers off. and then she was like pleaaase?? please cut my fingers off??? and i could not find the words to explain to her how much she did not want me to do that.

#GIRL!!! I AM NOT GOING TO DO THAT !!!!! #ryambles #all staff took turns trying to convince her how bad that would be. but she did not comprehend. bc she is 2 😔😔😔

[nyanryan]

Finally got around to stuffing my build a bear alien and made a little ufo to put in her instead of a heart :)

#why did i put so much effort into making the ufo when it is going Inside Of The Bear you ask? bc i can ❤️ #it is so cuuuute im dying + she is so cute and i love her sm already #ryambles

[nyanryan]

if you do acid twice you will stop caring about shipping discourse. this Is a suggestion btw. a recommendation maybe. i do not think weird ppl writing weird stories on an obscure website is an actual problem that effects the real world. ❤️

#this is not @ anyone in specific btw the whole dash is talking ab ao3 like that shit matters at all. #if u dont like ao3 that is literally fine no one has a gun to ur head and is forcing u to use it. there are other fanfiction websites w #more censorship you can use instead. or u can use the robust set of filters ao3 has created specifically so you only see the content u want #to see #i think ppl should be allowed to write fucked up shit for whatever reason even if i see it and go 'ew! thats repusive!'. #u dont have to like it! u can hate a piece of art but that doesnt mean that it doesnt have a right to exist. #saying this as a previous hardcore anti btw. i understand where u r coming from but i just truly do not think it matters #ryambles #for disclosure's sake i am a fanfiction enthusiast and an ao3 user but i usually do not consume morally objectionable fics except for like. #just to go what the hell. what is wrong w u. why did you write this #AND!!! i can feel that way without thinking that work shouldnt exist. bc im capable of understanding that my moral framework is not gospel #maybe this counts as caring ab shipping discourse actually. but im rly just mad that so many ppl are not thinking critically ab this. #idc ab the shipping i care ab the ppl on my dash saying censorship good. NO!!! disturbs the comfortable comforts the disturbed etc etc

[nyanryan]

having a really big 😬😬😬 moment about my every safety code violating job bc my boss just called basically begging me to come in tomorrow and probably also begging my coworker to do the same even though we're both sick with the same thing that landed one of our kids IN THE HOSPITAL THIS WEEKEND. sorry but i care more about the health and safety of myself and these kids then ur doomed business. respectfully please die.

#offhandedly mentions 'the only one who was sick is name and she was in the hospital on and off all weekend' LIKE GIRL!!! WHAT THE FUCK!!! #🚨🚨🚨 #i neeeeed to quit i do. i know i do and ive known it for like a month but i am so scared that i will then spiral and destroy my life #and if i quit then the daycare will have to close or my boss will work my 1 other coworker to death and i like my coworker so i dont want #that. also how do u give ur 2 weeks to your boss if that 2 weeks is going to destroy their business. she is going to want me dead ❤️ #ryambles #i ❤️ my unprofessional work environment until i realize that maybe a professional work environment is there for a reason #and maybe ur boss being extremely unprofessional is a bad thing actually. i didn't know

[nyanryan]

my special talent is matching w really cool ppl on bumble and having a 10 minute conversation and then never talking again

#sorry i ran out of.things to say #i feel like that Tumblr post ab the lesbian sheep every time i open the app. no texting just vibe w me. please. #ryambles

[nyanryan]

society if fire emblem awakening got a switch remaster

#i know it was not released that long ago but its the only good fire emblem game i have ever played and the 3ds looks like shit 👍 #i am watching vinny play the new one and it is. eh. ehhhhh. #i like the main characters deviantart energy. baby's first oc ass design. #ryambles

[nyanryan]

matching w so many cool people on bumble but unfortunately i am completely socially inept. girl help </3

#HOW DO YOU TALK TO PEOPLE. CASUALLY. #i can only talk to toddlers and people i have already known for years. #ryambles #I just don't know how to hold a conversation. are you allowed to just ask a random question every time the conversation dies. #is that what youre supposed to do. i don't know #I am so good at talking to people in real life because i am Charismatic or at the very least. my charming weirdguy energy is unintimidating #but I am absolutely hopeless at texting 💔

[nyanryan]

i ❤️ autistically cooking for myself it is so awesome. i am never following a recipe i am just combining foods i like and seeing what happens

#inventing a new meal every single night like a toddler making potions 👍 #ryambles

[nyanryan]

he is literally an internet musician though. William You Have A Patreon.

#i dont know why i am still thinking ab that quote but it is stuck in my brain. #he literally an internet musician. but im not gonna tell him that. #ryambles

[nyanryan]

I am probably not the first person to complain about this but dear god if I listen to a podcast on spotify once and end up not liking it why is it prominently featured on my homepage every single time I open the app for the rest of time with no way to get rid of it. violence and biting and killing for real.

#or if i put on a sleepy noise podcast for babies in the naproom 1 time 6 months ago and then discover youtube has way better options #why am i forced to see sleep relaxation podcast that i will never listen to ever again first thing when i open the app #and neved anything that i actually listen to. show me my likes show me my last played album #why aren't you showing me William Wood that is all I listen to #I am not going to switch music subscription service because I am lazy but I am not happy about it and every single time I open the Spotify #app I get pissed off ❤️ #ryambles #die die die die die die

[nyanryan]

hate my therapist so much it is unreal but also have no idea how to find a new therapist so i keep going to see her and then spend the entire session seething w rage

#i am not even subtle ab itttt and idk if she is actually oblivious or if she is just playing along #every week she goes all ur problems would be fixed if u had friends and dating :) #and i am like. i cannot do that bc of the brain damage. and then she changes the subject and we talk ab nothing the whole time #like girl HELP ME!!!!! #i also cannot leave bc last time i tried to therapy break up w her she locked me in her car while i screamed at her to take me home and #i have not felt safe w her since. hell on earth everything sucks for ryan. what is new. #ryambles #i really am just out here being fine though. i feel like i need to put that disclaimer on every post. i will be fine after i smoke weed