#revival post T.T

[animepopheart]

How do you have time to get permission for all this art?

I want to believe you actually have it, but you re-post so many things claiming to have permission that it doesn’t seem feesible… T.T

Love seeing all the art but can’t help seeing numbers that don’t add up………….

I think newer subscribers might be surprised, but those who have followed me all these years won't be. They know I'm super consistent and committed, and I think they understand my character.

I hit the site HARD back in the day. Tumblr was my primary social media platform; I poured a ton of energy into it and engaged lots of mutuals on a personal level. That level of engagement has gone away (though I hope more people will reach out once again and revive that part of this blog!), but I've stayed consistent all these years with the fanart aspect.

I've actually been requesting use of art since 2014 and about 6,000 artists have allowed me to post their artwork. About 5,000 have denied it or have not responded to my requests.

I'm not sure what numbers you were thinking of in your head, but I actually thought I'd contacted way more than 10,000 or so artists the last decade! There were many days when I would send out more than two dozen queries. When I typically ask, I identify at least a dozen artists and then make my requests. They come in bunches.

The past couple of years, though, I haven't had as much time to ask new artists for use of their art. Most of my time with artists has instead been used to tend to existing partnerships, to ensure they know my current URLs and to give them a chance to end our contracts if they've changed their minds. Some do. Others are thankful that I'm sticking with them. I'm grateful, too, both for them and for all the folks that continue to follow me. It's been a lot of fun!

#me #personal #pixiv

[postwarlevi]

Hey! Fairly-new-to-tumblr anon here again, lol. THANK YOU SO MUCH for your response. After I sent the message and saw your posts about taking your time to reply, I felt bad because I didn't want to guilt trip you T.T I'm so sorry for that. Of course I understand, and was not putting any pressure on you for a fast reply in the least hahaha only sending an idea that came to mind. I really like the space you've created here, so getting to read you is more than great for me! =) glad you thought the idea was cute! More than honoured to be added to a WIP list! I didn't realize you had something similar in mind, you just made it 100% better by adding a dog hahahah! And thank you for the tumblr welcoming! I'm really liking it, remembered some old fandoms I loved aside from SNK and revived my fangirling past hahaha. Anyway end of rant, hope to see you soon!! 💫💫

No no no I'm so sorry. Arg, so, as per my rants it's ME that can't figure out how to manage time. I would love to spend more time here with you and everyone interacting and writing stories. Between my work schedule changing and living with others there's always work work, or house work, and some days I have to decide if I'm going to get some sleep or stay up late to do things now that I have alone time. Lately I've been choosing sleep.

However! I got word that my work will be starting to close early for a while starting next month so maybe I can figure things out! I'm sorry if I made you feel bad, I wouldn't ever want to do that. I want people to know I love interacting and feel terrible I don't do it more often!

Honestly IDK why I put so much pressure on myself, no ones ever been mean about me taking time to respond and I'm just doing all this for fun anyway! I need to chill LOL.

Anyway! Your idea is so sweet and original. The dog story just shows that yes, I totally love Levi as a step dad figure of sorts. Your idea, I love that it's post war Levi and a woman that has basically adopted her nephew. That'll turn out fluffy and sweet for sure!

And thank you for the kind words about my blog. I like that it can feel like a welcoming and warm place, that's what I'm hoping for. You're always welcome here and I hope you continue to enjoy the tumblr experience!

#eliza answers #anons welcome

[jeongjaebae]

kim sunwoo is literally going to be the death of me i sweaarrrr 😭😭😭😭 and yeah now that you mention it LOL i guess my bias line is dance line ft. sangyeon (you can imagine how well i was faring during the no diggity special stage jwhdkwkfek). i usually don’t have a specific archetype i gravitate towards for biases i think? usually the loserboys get me LMAO but i usually just go for anyone who i think is cute and who i’m endeared by !! like for seventeen my bias is hoshi which came kind of out of the blue for me but idk i want to keep him in my pocket T.T and for nct 127 my bias is doyoung but my nct dream bias is haechan so its a vast assortment of different personalities LOL. do you have a bias line or a type u like to gravitate towards too (for tbz and/or svt haha)?? i might be missing some off the top of my head but i think those songs def are in my top picks for bsides from reveal !

and yeah i noticed that too :(( it didnt help that 2022 was really hectic for them esp with the world tour jebdkwkdn ist is so …. 😭 i mean we all know how ist is lmfao but they’ve all said they talked a lot with each other and the company about what’s coming next so i’m really excited to see what’s gonna be in their future! and yes ! i think the comeback in january is gonna be a continuation of whisper? they teased the whistle sound at the end of the whisper mv at their kbs song festival performance so i think its definitely gonna be connected!

and i am actually… in the process of writing a tbz fic right now HAHA its a sunwoo fic! i’m probably gonna post it over at @/svnzwu for fandom consistency’s sake rather than my svt blog haha but im hoping i can take advantage of this winter break to get all if not most of it done ! BTW. UR LATEST SUNWOO FIC WAS SO ….. AUGGHHH so so so cute !! always always loving your writing <3 and yes we should make an initiative lmao Operation: Revive Deobiblr HAHA

and happy holidays!! i hope you had a merry christmas and christmas eve (if you celebrate) 🫶🫶

ngl all your talk about sunwoo (esp in that racer outfit) has gotten me in a slight sunwoo phase like.... have you seen the way he dances 👀 but yeahHHH the no diggity stage had all ur faves!! oooh you bias hoshiii 😍 i swear... when i saw him with that bird.... omg. do you have a svt bias line? also the way haechan and doyoung are the ones who like to fight each other LOL. oh yeah there was a saying in deobiland about how your bias wreckers tend to be the rest of the "line" that your bias is in - if you bias ju then your wreckers might be hyunjae or younghoon, if you bias sunwoo then wreckers might be changmin and chanhee. which seemed to be true for the people i've seen around here but you have an interesting bias line!! i think i tend to like the members who get teased by other members LMAO. so... like mingyu 😶 otherwise for svt i'd say junhui, hoshi, minghao, wonwoo! and for tbz sangyeon, younghoon!! (always rotating tho,,, as i once said "why have a dish when you can have a buffet" hehe)

ohh yeah i heard tbz were talking about the comeback on vlive and it seemed like it'd be darker/sexier? or at least a smoother choreo like no air, which i'm looking forward to!! is there like a particular concept you want to see them do? and omg ist really be making mistakes here, did you see the whole thing about eric's new song and how the producer plagiarized it.... yikes. the poor guy just got back from hiatus too like pleaseee 😭

ahhh ty for reading and for your comments!!! 🫶 the fics definitely hit different when it's for your bias right?!?! ooh what's your sunwoo fic about? and yesss i have a couple more things for Operation: Revive Deobiblr but hopefully we get some more traction with the other award shows and jan comeback 🤩

and yesss hope you had a nice christmas with your family!! happy new year too, may it be filled with all the nice things coming your way!!✨💖💫

#ask #cat <3

[thegreysunflower-blog]

Some more zutara steambaby head canons nobody asked for (long post ahead):

They have 3 children. Zuko and Katara made sure that they are all competent fighters so that they know how to defend themselves but combat isn’t their favourite thing to use their bending/skills for. This is primarily because they’re peace time children. They got to have the childhoods their parents deserved but didn’t get T.T 

Izumi

Izumi is the oldest. She has Katara’s eyes and hair texture, but everything else is all Zuko. She is a firebender with blue flame who uses her bending primarily for healing. As future Fire Lord (who eventually helps transition the Fire Nation into a democracy) she is able to see the Fire Nation with “new eyes” (hence her mom’s blue eyes) and shows her people that there is so much more to firebending than death and destruction (hence, her using her bending primarily for healing).

She is closest to Katara, often accompanying her mother in her hospital visits or visits to the villages. She is also the most like Katara personality-wise, her younger siblings teasingly call her “mom jr.” She wanted to be a waterbender and was extremely upset when she first started fire bending. She accidentally gives her little sister, Kya, a minor burn while they were playing. She was absolutely mortified and asked her parents if Uncle Aang could take away her bending. 

With the help of her father and Druk she eventually comes to embrace her bending. She loved her element all the more when she discovered she could use it to heal. It started off with her heating towels to help with Katara’s cramps when she was pregnant with her youngest child. On a trip to the South Pole, she helps save the life of a toddler who fell into subzero waters by keeping him warm with her touch. Eventually, she learns to master lightningbending well enough to control the voltage of the electric current to help restart people’s hearts (the same technique which saved her little brother’s life).

Kya

3 years younger than Izumi, Kya is the family’s goofball and artist. She loves making her family laugh and is Zuko’s theatre buddy. She loves cuddling with her dad and they often spend time in the library together, reading lines of their favourite plays to each other and reenacting scenes. 

She is the spitting image of Katara but with Zuko’s nose and hair. She is a waterbender and incorporates her bending into her art. She makes beautiful ice sculptures and often makes use of her bending in her dance performances (think Swan Lake with lots of water/ice bending involved). 

She travels all over the world on Druk when she’s older and helps revive the arts in the Fire Nation. Dancing, music, and theatre just explode in the Fire Nation because of her influence. She also helps foster harmony between the 4 nations by establishing Art Festivals where people from all nations can showcase their art and perform dances incorporating their bending. 

Initially, Zuko and Katara planned for Kya to be their last child as Katara almost died because she hemorrhaged pretty bad when she was born. 

Kallik

5 years younger than Kya, Kallik is their only son. He is a non-bender. He is all Zuko. The only physical trait he got from Katara is his wavy hair which he wears in a wolf tail. 

Zuko and Katara didn’t plan on having kids after Kya. One day, Kya and Izumi asked them when their baby brother was coming. Confused, Zuko and Katara asked them where on earth they got the idea they were having baby brother. They explained that they’ve been praying and giving food offerings to Agni, Tui, and La for months to give them a baby brother. (For my Filo friends out there, this bit was inspired by the movie Four Sisters and a Wedding HAHAHA). Katara is able to convince Zuko that it’s been a long time since Kya was born and her body could probably handle one more pregnancy. They had trouble conceiving though. There were many moments when Zuko would just hold Katara as she sobbed wondering why she wasn’t pregnant yet.

He didn’t have a heartbeat when he was born. Zuko/Iroh (I haven’t quite settled on this yet) used lightingbending to restart his little heart. This is why he’s named Kallik (lightning). His older sisters dote on him and fell in love with him the moment he opened his golden eyes.

He is a total mama’s boy and was quite timid as a child. He is a master of the dao swords like his father. He is just as angsty as Zuko and being the only non-bender was hard on him. His family always reminded him that they love him. His sisters tell him about how hard they prayed to the spirits for him and his parents let him know just how hard they fought to have him with them. 

He grows up to become a historian and an academic. He learns about the history of the four nations and helps to correct the narratives constructed by his ancestors. He travels all over to learn the history and culture of each nation and is often consulted by his father and older sister on foreign policy. 

#zutara #zutara headcanon #steambabies #momtara #dadko #momtara and dadko #I wish I was a writer but sadly I am not #if anyone wants to write a fic or make art of this tho that would be amazing

[sarah-comic]

Hello visitor!

This account and the comic will be discontinued due to my lost interest in the comic. I still love undertale and it's fandom and my comics but things happened and I had to moved on. Now, I'm using Facebook for posting my art :https://m.facebook.com/Sarahs-lover-V%C5%A9-tr%E1%BB%A5-m%C3%A0-t%C3%B4i-y%C3%AAu-th%C3%ADch-1671599856254814/?ref=bookmarks

If you're interesting in Losttale's story here's a little description: Our protagonist's name is unknown_000. She's the first creation and the first "human Frisk" of this game made by Tobi. Things started when Undertale is not the game that we knew today, it was when humans and monsters lived in peace. That day, a code worker tried to deleted the game using an unknown virus for personal revenge. It was too late when Tobi discovered it. He couldn't save his daughter also our protagonist from being distroyed. She failed from saving her own best friend forever which is Sans and everyone else. The only things she could hold on was a piece of save file of him then she fall into slumber. Tobi frozen her at that time till now. Using every last save files she still have in, Tobi create Undertale . Years later, for an unknown reason, she woke up in underground after the true ending. Unable to recalls all of the lost memories. This comic is where she have to choose to save herself from being delete again or destroy her own self to save every single lifes because she now carrying that deathly virus which is a part of her body. The Sans that she dear is nowhere to exist, she had no reason to continued on. Will she try to revive Him? Or Tobi ever really care about his on creation like daughter?

Q&A: True reason?

- Ya know my dad Rip my iPad , artblock, endless amount of study and finally time

When will the comic can be continued?

- It depends on the situation, plus I have others projects. To be honest, with the lack of family support for what I did and my mental health being worse than before. I don't know

This account is offline forever? - I used it to read comic but please don't send any message here i will not read

FUCK YOU! - I know!! I'm sorry for being a brat in the past. I was young and naive, I really wanted to slap my 12 year old right now T.T - I'm not a person that likes attention now cuz.. ya know? up there..

I didn't have any expectation for anyone would read this post but if you did, thanks

Anyyyyyway thanks you for reading and bye!! Please enjoy this redraw of mine

[innosen]

headcanon fest 2/? ( au: chihiro horikoshi fam )

@crowara​ / @mahiiwaga​ ( we dedicate this hc fest post for both of chihiro’s papas !! uwu )

👨‍👨‍👧 if suga would stream and play a squad/team shooting game with fans/strangers, imagine chihiro and ashi hiding in the other room, secretly trying to join in the game lobby under one account (they’d even make up this super corny username like ‘not_noobs123’) so that they’d get to troll play with him! since they’re both noobs, they’re probably that teammate whom koushi has had to revive like 5x in one game alsdkfj they’re trying so hard not to laugh tho when they’d hear suga’s frustrations over this certain ‘not_noobs123’ player from his stream 😂  at the end of the game tho, their character would leave koushi a message saying ❛ gg well played, papa! thx for reviving us! ^_^ - chi and papa ashi ❜ 

👨‍👨‍👧 suga and chihiro once placed a lot of cute clips in ashi’s hair while he was sleeping and then when he was waking up, both of them literally just “pretended to sleep” right beside him asldkjf

👨‍👨‍👧 i can see the three of them being like this comic panel huhuu T^T 

👨‍👨‍👧 the only time chihiro deliberately did not follow an assignment’s instruction was when it was asked of them to ‘draw themselves with their favorite/closest parent’, because chihiro drew herself + the both of them 🥺  

👨‍👨‍👧 there was this class activity one time where their sensei gave three pocky sticks to each and everyone of the students. they were given the liberty to do anything they’d want with those sticks, so naturally almost everyone consumed all of their sticks. all except for one student! instead of eating them all, chihiro just took one stick for herself and held onto the two others. when asked by her classmate why she wasn’t eating them, she’d just tell her how she was saving the other two sticks for her papas !!

👨‍👨‍👧 chihiro has absorbed some of her papas’ DRAMATIQUE antics, boosting her dramatics in life to 2x! like one time she got sick w a smol flu, and when her papas asked her how she was feeling, chihiro was all ❛ i’m dyiiiiing *cough cough* ❜ 

👨‍👨‍👧 chihiro sneakily takes pictures of her papas when she sees them laughing/smiling/hand holding. she’ll compile all of the pictures, print them, and add them in a scrapbook that she’s planning to give them on their anniversary :< 

👨‍👨‍👧 a volleyball game with both of her papas? a volleyball game with both of her papas! eventually she’d end up as a scorer tbh bc she’d get tired easily T.T

👨‍👨‍👧 both of them are gonna be on stage a lot during recognition day bc their daughter is gonna get them all the metals/certificates that she can for em during the school year :’) 

👨‍👨‍👧 she is happy when her papas are proud of her ♡

#gg well played 😭💖 #all of these has been in mi head for the past week and i was just letting em grow like fine flowers AAA #ofc onli the best for the horikoshi fam uwu #anyhooo *offers this up* :") yiis yiis #*:･ﾟ✧ ( HEADCANONS ) ↳ ᵗʰᵒᵘᵍʰᵗˢ ᶠʳᵒᵐ ᵗʰᵉ ᶜᵃʳ #*:·ﾟ✧ ( crowara: papa koushi ) ↳ ᵖᵃᵖᵃ ᵃˡʷᵃʸˢ ˢᵐⁱˡᵉˢ ᵃⁿᵈ ˢᵒ ˢʰᵒᵘˡᵈ ⁱ ! #( mahiiwaga tag tbt ) #huhuu i know i said amma write just smol hcs but AAAA im so sorry this got long and a lot skks T.T #long post

[dreamersscape]

The Raven Cycle: A Liveblog (Part 4)

(Let’s just pretend the gap since my last installment was a much shorter and more reasonable period of time than it has actually been, shall we? I tried to make up for it with the length of this edition. Suuuuuper long post under the cut.)

Me, reading TDT’s opening quotations: Okay, yes, good. Taking things out of your dreams into the waking world. Got it.

Me, reading the last quote: ‘I loathe people who keep dogs. They are cowards who haven’t got the guts to bite people themselves.’?

YOU UNDERSTAND NOTHING OF MY PEOPLE, AUSTIN STRINDBERG. GET THEE HENCE.

‘He always returned with gifts, treasure, and unimaginable amounts of money, but to Ronan, the most wondrous thing was Niall himself. Every parting felt like it would be the last, and so every return was like a miracle.’ RONANNNNNNN. (Is it weird that it feels like Ronan is supposed to be my favorite bc he seems closest to my type and goodness knows I can relate to the grieving-a-father feels, but that’s not really the case so far? I love him dearly, but it feels like I should love him more. Weird? Not weird? I dunno.)

*carefully takes notes about the alleged details of Ronan’s birth because I know now every minor detail is actually Very Important*

‘Theoretically, Blue Sargent was probably going to kill one of these boys.’ Oh, good, it’s only a theoretical death. Glad we got that sorted out. Guess I can stop worrying about it now, right? :P

'Adam’s hand glided over her bare elbow. The touch was a whisper in a language she didn’t speak very well.’ I really like this line! Also, somewhat sadly, relateable.

'It had five tiny white buttons: four arranged in a cross shape, and one off by itself. To Blue, that fifth button was like Adam. Still working toward the same purpose as the other four. But no longer quite as close as the others.’ Oh, so we’re going to make my heart hurt over Adam Parrish in the first ten pages of the book. Fine.

'In that moment, Blue was a little in love with all of them. Their magic. Their quest. Their awfulness and strangeness. Her raven boys.’ Aw, those lines sound familiar. ;) And we’re all right there with ya, Blue.

'The dorms were emptier than they would’ve been during school term, but they were not empty.’ Whoops unrelated-to-TRC-but-nevertheless-on-brand feels ahoy.

So it’s been long enough since I read TRB that I can’t recall if I had any particular feelings about Declan then, but definitely feeling pretty sympathetic towards him now, what with his father’s seeming dismissive attitude toward him and the assault from this Gray Man. Also, have I read the word Greywaren before? Not sure.

Oh. So Ronan is the Greywaren, then. Guess that answers that.

’Mom is nothing without him’? Woooow, Declan. Wow. A bit less sympathy, now. (Maybe there’s something about their mother I don’t know yet, but still…)

’Creature was a good word for him, Ronan thought.’ Oof. He’s gonna make me eat my words, isn’t he? I already said I love you dearly, Ronan!

And now he’s gonna divert himself from his unpleasant thoughts with an external distraction. Oh good. That doesn’t mirror any of my other favorite characters at all.

'Back then, it had surprised Ronan; he hadn’t realized yet that Gansey could persuade even the sun to pause and give him the time.’ [drags a hand slowly down my face] Don’t do this to me, Maggie. Haven’t you already put me through enough with Adam and Gansey?

'His thoughtless expression was one of wonder or of pain; with Gansey they were so often the same thing.’ Well that–that’s a sentence.

’“Ronan, there’s no reason for that,” Gansey said sternly, as if Ronan had hurled a toy on the floor.’ Gonna start listing all the mom-friend!Gansey moments, 'cause I gotta.

'He laughed enough that Chainsaw abandoned her paper shredding to verify he wasn’t dying.’ This is cute, other than the implication that Ronan genuinely laughing is a all-too-rare occurrence.

’“So what you’re saying is you can’t explain it.” “I did explain it.” “No, you used nouns and verbs together in a pleasing but illogical format.”’ Hee!

I half expect tired-of-potential-and-only-being-useful-needing-something-more!Blue to break out singing ’I want much more than this provincial life/I want adventure in the great wide somewhere/I want it more than I can tell’ and I don’t say that at all in a disparaging way, that’s just what it made me think of. It’s a very understandable desire on Blue’s part.

’“Jane!” Gansey said joyfully.’ I will never tire of this. :)

'When she returned, she leaned on the table beside Adam, who touched her wrist. She didn’t know what to do in response. Touch it back? The moment had passed. She resented her body for not giving her the correct answer.’ So! Freaking! Relateable!

'Kavinsky headed directly to the large table in the back, and the postures of the other boys all changed drastically….Gansey stood, leaning against the table, and there was something threatening rather than respectful about it.’ I live a protective!Gansey appreciation life.

The Gray Man is quite a character.

Ummmm so chapter eight just hurt my soul a whole lot? Here’s a list of the culprits:

'He’d spent just two hours at the easiest of the jobs — Boyd’s Body & Paint, LLC, replacing brake pads and changing oil and finding what was making that squeaking noise there, no, there — and now, even though he was off, he was ruined for anything else. Sticky and sore and, above all else, tired, always tired.’

'The only rub was, Blue was another troubling thing. She was like Gansey in that she wanted him to explain himself. What do you want, Adam? What do you need, Adam? Want and need were words that got eaten smaller and smaller: freedom, autonomy, a perennial bank balance, a stainless-steel condo in a dustless city, a silky black car, to make out with Blue, eight hours of sleep, a cell phone, a bed, to kiss Blue just once, a blister-less heel, bacon for breakfast, to hold Blue’s hand, one hour of sleep, toilet paper, deodorant, a soda, a minute to close his eyes. What do you want, Adam? To feel awake when my eyes are open.’ (This hurt less than the 'to go home, to go home, to go home’ passage, but ONLY JUST.)

'He’d already seen the ignored, unopened envelope emblazoned with Aglionby Academy’s raven crest. For two days he’d been stepping over it, as if it might disappear if he failed to acknowledge it.’ (Ah, hello avoidant coping skills, my old friend.)

’[Adam] ached inside.’/'He still ached.’/'his spine aching, shoulders aching, soul aching’

'They stared at each other, both hurt.’/'He tried not to let it sound like he was still hurt, but he was, and it did.’/'She tried not to let it sound like she was hurt, but she was, and it did.’

’What do you want, Adam? He didn’t even know.’ (T.T)

'His wide eyes and gaunt face peered back at him, troubled but not unusual.’

I’m so done, he thought. No more. Please, I can’t take any more.’ (SAME.)

'The difference in tuition between this year’s and next was twenty-four hundred dollars. That number again. It couldn’t be a coincidence.’ (SERIOUSLY THOUGH, I CAN’T TAKE ANYMORE GANSEY/ADAM TENSION/CONFLICT/FIGHTING. WHEN DO WE GET TO THE GETTING BETTER PART?)

'They couldn’t hurt Gansey. Nothing could hurt him; people who said money couldn’t buy everything hadn’t seen anyone as rich as the Aglionby boys. They were untouchable, immune to life’s troubles. Only death couldn’t be swiped away by a credit card.’ (Oh Adam honey, you don’t even knooooow. :()

Adam! Some people show and feel love through acts of service! It’s not an inherently bad thing! Concern and the desire to help are not the same thing as pity!

Also, Blue’s “Then don’t be pitiful!” response was kinda strange, even for an impulsively perturbed remark? Just felt weird.

'She was looking at the box that served as his nightstand. Somehow it had moved several feet away from the bed. The side was badly dented, its former contents scattered violently across the floor. Only now did he remember the act of kicking the box, but not the decision to kick it.’ (Crap.)

'He calmed enough to remember that if he waited long enough, carefully analyzing how it felt, the emotion would lose its inertia. It was the same as physical pain. The more he tried to mentally decide what made pain hurt, the less his brain seemed able to remember the pain at all.’

'He’d never escape, not really. Too much monster blood in him. He’d left the den, but his breeding betrayed him. And he knew why he was pitiful. It wasn’t because he had to pay for his school or because he had to work for a living. It was because he was trying to be something he could never be. The sham was pitiful.’

'Some nights he lured himself to sleep by imagining how he would word the favor for Glendower. He needed to get the words exactly right. Now he rolled phrases around his mouth, desperately reaching for one that would comfort him. Ordinarily, words would tumble and lull through his mind, but this time, all he could think was Fix me.’ (On a related note, I’m dead.)

'He had a strange, disconcerting feeling that he couldn’t trust his senses. Like he was tasting an image or smelling a feeling or touching a sound. It was the same as just a few minutes before, the idea that he’d glimpsed a slightly wrong reflection of himself. Adam’s previous worries vanished, replaced with a more immediate concern for this ragged body he was carting around in. He’d been hit so many times. He’d already lost his hearing in his left ear. Maybe something else had been destroyed on one of those tense, wretched nights.’ (*Spontaneously revives to continue worrying myself to death over Adam Parrish* WHY CAN’T I TAKE CARE OF HIM?)

'Ronan, Noah, and Gansey were at the Dollar City in Henrietta, loitering. Theoretically, they were there for batteries. Practically, they were there because both Blue and Adam had work, Ronan’s shapeless anger always got worse at night, and Dollar City was one of the few stores in Henrietta that allowed pets.’ These stupid codependent teens.

“Hello? Oh, hey,” Gansey said to the phone, touching a notebook with a handgun printed on the cover. The oh, hey was accompanied by a definite change in the timbre of his voice. That meant it was Adam’ [tries to feel the joy I deserve at this past my intense anxiety about the probable clashing over the tuition thing]

'Ronan rested his forehead on the topmost shelf. The metal edge snarled against his skull, but he didn’t move. At night, the longing for home was ceaseless and omniscient, an airborne contaminant. He saw it in Dollar City’s cheap oven mitts — that was his mother at dinnertime. He heard it in the slam of the cash register drawer — that was his father coming home at midnight. He smelled it in the sudden whiff of air freshener — that was the family trips to New York. Home was so close at night. He could be there in twenty minutes. He wanted to smash everything off these shelves.’ He and Adam both want to go hoooome and I wish I could provide that for them and turns out I am actually Gansey.

'“Glitter,” whispered Noah reverentially, giving it a shake.’ Truly Noah is their light in the darkness. I LOVE HIM SO MUCHHHH.

'Farther down the aisle, Gansey suggested to the phone, “You could come stay at Monmouth. For the night.”’ Like I said. Also, I really, really wish I could hear both sides of this phone conversation.

'Sometimes Ronan thought Adam was so used to the right way being painful that he doubted any path that didn’t come with agony.’ I mean, fair. And heartbreaking.

'Gansey’s back was turned to them. “Look, I don’t know what you’re talking about. Ramirez? I didn’t talk to anyone at the church. Yes, twenty-four hundred dollars. I know that part. I —”’ Oh no. It’s happening.

'But one of the marvelous things about being Ronan Lynch was that no one ever expected him to do anything nice for anyone.’ I would hug you Ronan, except there is now more Adam 'n’ Gansey friction and I’m really bad at handling it!

'Abruptly, Ronan’s entire body went cold. Not a little chilly, but utterly cold. The sort of cold that dries the mouth and slows the blood. His toes went numb, and then his fingers….Then Noah reappeared in a violent sputter, like the power crackling back on. His fingers clutched Ronan’s arm. Cold seeped from the point of contact as Noah dragged heat to become visible.’ Oh, so Noah can do that with Ronan too? Because of his greywaren-ness?

'“I lost …” Noah struggled for words. “There wasn’t air. It went away. The — the line!” “The ley line?” Gansey asked. Noah nodded once, a sloppy thing that was sort of a shrug at the same time. “There was nothing … left for me.”’ Not allowed. Just saying.

'He didn’t say, Or maybe something terrible happened to Adam that day he sacrificed himself in Cabeswater. Maybe he’s messed up all of Henrietta by waking up the ley line. Because they couldn’t talk about that. Just like they couldn’t talk about Adam stealing the Camaro that night. Or about him basically doing everything Gansey had asked him not to. If Adam was stupid about his pride, Gansey was stupid about Adam.’ Yes, we know. :)

'From Ronan’s room, he heard Noah’s laugh. He and Ronan were throwing various objects from the second-story window to the parking lot below. There was a terrific crash.’ Having witnessed my younger brother doing basically the same thing once, I can vouch for the authenticity of this teenage-boy activity.

'Once, he had dreamt that he found Glendower. It wasn’t the actual finding, but the day after. He wouldn’t forget the sensation of the dream. It hadn’t been joy, but instead, the absence of pain. He couldn’t forget that lightness. The freedom.’ Yeah, don’t we all dream about the absence of pain. *buries face in hands* OH GANSEY BOY.

’“Do you want me to talk to her?” This was something he definitely, 100 percent felt certain in his guts that he had no interest in doing. “I’m really bad at talking, Gansey,” Adam said earnestly. “And you’re really good at it. Maybe — maybe if it just comes up natural?” Gansey’s shoulders collapsed; his breath fogged the glass and vanished. “Of course.” “Thanks.” Adam paused. “I just want something to be simple.” So do I, Adam. So do I.’ This right here? This A Whoooole Lot. Is there anything you wouldn’t do for Adam if he asked, Gansey?

'Noah slouched in. In a wounded tone, he said, “He threw me out the window!” Ronan’s voice sang out from behind his closed door: “You’re already dead!”’ OH. MY. GOODNESS.

’"You should come over.” “Not tonight,” replied Adam. I’m losing him, Gansey thought. I’m losing him to Cabeswater. He had thought that by staying away from the forest, he’d keep the old Adam — put off the consequences of whatever had happened that night when everything started to go awry. But maybe it just didn’t matter. Cabeswater would take him regardless.’ I dream of the absence of pain!!!

'His skin shivered and crawled, and he realized it was crawling with hornets, the ones that had killed Gansey all those years ago. There weren’t many this time, only a few hundred. Sometimes he dreamt cars full of them, houses full of them, worlds full of them. Sometimes these hornets killed Ronan, too, in his dreams.’ Oh, Ronan.

’Arbores loqui latine. The trees speak Latin. “You’ve done this before,” she said. Time was a circle, a rut, a worn tape Ronan never tired of playing.’ Huh. Has Ronan been dreaming of Cabeswater for years and years?

'Curled on the mattress, [Adam] covered his face with his summer-hot arm. Sometimes, if he blocked his mouth and nose, just this side of suffocation, sleep would overthrow him.’ THAT DOESN’T SOUND HEALTHY, MY BOY. :(

'He was awake enough to think of the invitation from Gansey. There might be an internship in there. Adam knew it was a favor. Did that make it wrong? He’d said no for so long that he didn’t know when to say yes….He hated the careful way Gansey had asked him about it. Tiptoeing, just like Adam had learned to tiptoe around his father. He needed a reset button. Just push the reset button on Adam Parrish and start him again.’ I am sad. (But maaaaybe he’s starting to reconsider the idea that he can never accept hep of any kind?)

'After he had exhausted this line of thought, Ronan gave in to the brief privilege of hating himself, as he always did in church. There was something satisfying about acknowledging this hatred, something relieving about this little present he allowed himself each Sunday.’ Oh, Ronan.

'“Hey, pal,” Matthew whispered. He was the only person who could get away with calling Ronan pal.’ Awww. :)

'Matthew Lynch was a bear of a boy, square and solid and earnest. His head was covered with soft, golden curls completely unlike any of his other family members. And in his case, the perfect Lynch teeth were framed by an easy, dimpled smile. He had two brands of smile: the one that was preceded by a shy dip of his chin, a dimple, and then BAM, smile. And the one that teased for a moment before BAM, an infectious laugh. Females of all ages called him adorable. Males of all ages called him buddy. Matthew failed at many more things than either of his older brothers, but unlike Declan or Ronan, he always tried his hardest.’ Whoops, I’m attached.

'Ronan had dreamt one thousand nightmares about something happening to him.’ *rubs heart*

'A lady reached over the top of Noah to pat Matthew’s head fondly before continuing down the aisle. She didn’t seem to care that he was fifteen, which was all right, because he didn’t, either. Both Ronan and Declan observed this interaction with the pleased expressions of parents watching their prodigy at work.’ Once again: Awww. :)

'Blue very much liked having the boys over to her house. Their presence at the house was agreeable for several different reasons….And the third reason was that it suggested permanence. Blue had acquaintances at school, people she liked. But they weren’t forever. While she was friendly with a lot of them, there was no one that she wanted to commit to for a lifetime. And she knew this was her fault. She’d never been any good at having casual friends. For Blue, there was family — which had never been about blood relation at 300 Fox Way — and then there was everyone else. When the boys came to her house, they stopped being everyone else.’ THEY’RE FAMILY NOW. <3

'Crossly, Blue realized that Gansey had now called her Jane so often that it felt strange to hear him say her real name.’ Embrace it, Blue. Embraaace it. :D

'He hid the insatiable wanting well, but now that she’d seen it once, she couldn’t stop seeing it. But he wouldn’t be able to explain it to Maura. And he would never really have to explain it to Blue. It was his something more.’ Awww. :)

(Sorry this liveblog is devolving mostly into either EVERYTHING IS TERRIBLE or But this is cute! and if that is starting to become boring…)

’"What did they die of?” “Mom always said ‘meddling.’ Gansey completely forgot they were being secretive and let out a tremendous laugh. It was a powerful thing, that laugh. He only did it once, but his eyes remained shaped like it. Something inside her did a complicated tug. Oh no! she thought. But then she calmed herself. Richard C. Gansey III has a nice mouth. Now I know he has nice eyes when he laughs, too. This still isn’t love. She also thought: Adam. Remember Adam.’ 1.) I hope this line of rationalization works out for you, Blue. ;) 2.) I am still feeling torn, though. Blue and Adam are cute together. 3.) I’d be okay with a Blue-Gansey-Adam OT3 though.

'Maura frowned. In a low voice, she said, “I think I need to have a conversation with that boy.” “Someone does,” Calla replied, heading up the stairs. Each stair groaned a protest for which she punished the next with a stomp. “Not me. I’ve outgrown train wrecks.” Blue, alarmed, said, “Is he a train wreck?”| Her mother clucked her tongue. “Calla likes drama. Train wreck! When a train takes a long time to go off the tracks, I don’t like to call it a wreck. I like to call it a derailment.”  From upstairs, Blue heard Calla’s delighted cackle. “I hate both of you,” Blue said as her mother laughed and galloped up the stairs to join Calla. “You’re supposed to use your powers for good, you know!” After a moment, Adam said to her, without lifting his eyes, “I could hear y’all, you know.” Blue hoped fervently that he was only talking about Maura and Calla and not about her kitchen conversation with Gansey. “Do you think you’re a train wreck?” “That would mean I was on the tracks to start with,” he replied.’ I would just like to say that I am miffed by this passage on Adam’s behalf. Thank you.

The chapter where Mr. Gray comes to 300 Fox Way was… interesting.

'Gansey, a furious sun, glowed from the other side of the universe, his gravitational pull too distant to affect Adam.’ WHY WOULD YOU DO THIS TO ME MAGGIE I CAN NEVER RECOVER.

So yeah, I just read the part where Adam is thinking back to how he and Gansey became friends and I think my heart just burst from emotional overload.

'Sometimes Adam wondered what would’ve happened if he hadn’t stopped that day. What would be happening to him right now?’ Sometimes, Allan wondered what would’ve happened if Robin hadn’t stepped out of the trees that day. What would be happening to him right now? SORRY, I HAVE A PROBLEM.

Also, it only just occurred to me that Allan and Adam are A-names and Robin and Richard (even if that’s not what Gansey goes by) are R-names. This makes me so unreasonably happy!

'Gansey was giddy now that they’d decided to go back to Cabeswater. He hated nothing more than standing still. He ordered Ronan to put on some terrible music — Ronan was always too happy to oblige in this department — and then he abused the Camaro at every stoplight on the way out of town. “Put your back into it!” Gansey shouted breathlessly. He was talking to himself, of course, or to the gearbox. “Don’t let it smell fear on you!” Blue wailed each time the engine revved up, but not unhappily. Noah played the drums on the back of Ronan’s headrest. Adam, for his part, was not wild, but he did his best not to appear unwild, so as not to ruin it for the others.’ REEELATABLLLLE!!!

'Adam felt like he was watching it all from outside. He felt like he was about to catch another image, like a flick of the tarot cards he’d looked at earlier. Was that someone standing by the side of the road? I can’t trust my eyes.’ Leave him aloooone. :(

'Gansey leaned back, head thrown to the side, drunken and silly with happiness. “I love this car,” he said, loud to be heard over the engine. “I should buy four more of them. I’ll just open the door of one to fall into the other. One can be a living room, one can be my kitchen, I’ll sleep in one …” “And the fourth? Butler’s pantry?” Blue shouted. “Don’t be so selfish. Guest room.”’ He’s adorable.

Huh. Cabeswater’s gone!

'Adam felt that the Pig’s status perfectly encapsulated how he felt. It was not really dead, just broken. He was held inside the question of what it meant for him if Cabeswater was gone. Why can’t things just be simple?’  While this is a legitimate concern, Adam, to be fair, just a few moments ago you were worrying about was going to happen when you returned to Cabeswater for the first time after your sacrifice. Poor guy’s anxious over everything. :/

'Ronan leapt out of the car and slammed the door. The thing about Ronan Lynch, Adam had discovered, was that he wouldn’t — or couldn’t — express himself with words. So every emotion had to be spelled out in some other way. A fist, a fire, a bottle. Now Cabeswater was missing and the Pig was hobbled, and he needed to go have a silent shouting fit with his body. In the back window, Adam saw Ronan pick up a rock from the side of the road and hurl it into the creeper.  “Well, that’s helpful,” Blue said tersely.’ 1.) [Fond but exasperated] Oh Ronan. 2.) I appreciate your reaction, Blue. You’re not wrong.

'“I’m calling Declan,” Gansey said. “And telling him to bring a battery.” Ronan told Gansey what he thought of this plan, very precisely, with a lot of compound words that even Adam hadn’t heard before. Gansey nodded, but he also dialed Declan’s number. Afterward, he turned to Ronan, who leaned his cheek hard enough against the top of the window to make a dent in his skin.’ Please stop dealing with difficult emotions/situations by causing yourself pain, Ronan, honey.

'Gansey rounded on Adam, clutching his own headrest and looking behind him. “Why is it gone?”’ Why is my mental picture of this so endearing?

'Declan’s Volvo glided up, as quiet as the Pig was loud. Ronan said, “Move up, move up” to Blue until she scooted the passenger seat far enough for him to clamber behind it into the backseat. He hurriedly sprawled back in the seat, throwing one jean-covered leg over the top of Adam’s and laying his head in a posture of thoughtless abandon. By the time Declan arrived at the driver’s side window, Ronan looked as if he had been asleep for days.’ Oh, Ronan. What am I going to do with you?

'And as he sat there, observing the set of Declan’s shoulders and the way his eyes looked, he realized something startling. Declan was afraid. Probably it wasn’t apparent to Gansey, who was fairly oblivious, nor to Blue, who didn’t know what Declan looked like ordinarily. And Ronan’s feelings about his older brother were like blood in the water; he wouldn’t be able to see through the bilious clouds. But to Adam, who’d spent a fair amount of his life afraid — not only afraid, but trying to hide it — it was obvious.’ [Gansey voice] I am right to have Allan feels here and I will not be made to feel bad about it! (Also, in blast-from-the-past news, I’m really close to finally done with putting my anxiety-and-Allan thoughts into words and I’m excited for that.)

I love when Noah senses one of the other boys is in distress and goes to them and does his ghostly best to comfort or assist them. <3

'He thought about the day he’d been stung to death by hornets and lived anyway. Gansey ran over the memory until he no longer felt the thrill of hearing Glendower’s name whispered in his ear, and then instead gave himself over to feeling sorry for himself, that he should have so many friends and yet feel so very alone. He felt it fell to him to comfort them, but never the other way around. As it should be, he thought, abruptly angry with himself. You’ve had it the easiest. What good is all your privilege, you soft, spoiled thing, if you can’t stand on your own legs? ’ OH HONEY :( (But Noah does try!)

'“It’s not just the blood,” Ronan said. His chest moved up and down with his breath. “Something else got out, too.”’ Uh-oh.

Phew. They dispatched the nightmare creature while remaining mostly unscathed. Although they needn’t go around asking each other, "Are you murdered?” with the reply, “I think so.” anymore, please.

'“There was another one,” he said. “It got away.”’ Well, that’s not good!

'“It’s for the distasteful thing,” Gansey said. He plucked at the T-shirt with deprecating fingers. “I’m rather slovenly at the moment, I know.”’ [Fond, amused sputtering]

Oh, they’re going to the Barns!

'Gansey, a bit of the gallows in his voice, advised, “Poke its eye.”’ [Confused, taken-aback sputtering]

'“It feels the same as when you guys lived here,” Gansey said finally. “It seems like it should be different.” “Did you come here a lot?” Blue asked.  He exchanged a glance with Ronan. “Often enough.” He didn’t say what Ronan was thinking, which was that Gansey was far more of a brother to Ronan than Declan had ever been.’ Brothers <3<3<3

'Ronan loved it so much. He nearly couldn’t bear it. He wanted to destroy something.’ That’s…one reaction to profound love. (Yes, I know. Profound love for something that’s been stripped away from you.)

'“Ronan Lynch,” he said. It was the voice Ronan couldn’t not listen to. It was sure in every way that Ronan was not. “Stop this right now. Go see your mother. And then we’re leaving.”’ More Mom-Friend!Gansey.

'Ronan walked directly up to her, close enough to see that she had not changed a bit since the last time he had seen her, months and months ago. Though his breath moved the fine hairs around her temples, she didn’t react to her son’s presence. Her chest rose and fell. Her eyes stayed closed. Non mortem, somni fratrem. Not death, but his brother, sleep. Blue whispered, “Just like the other animals.”  The truth — he’d known it all along, really, if he thought about it — burrowed into him. Blue was right. His home was populated by things and creatures from Niall Lynch’s dreams, and his mother was just another one of them.’ Huh.

'My soul’s in enough peril as it is.” At this, Gansey’s face turned to a genuine frown and he looked as if he was about to say something. Then he just shook his head a little….“She didn’t try to see the future. It’s not something she became; it’s something she is. I could just as easily say that you’re evil because you can take things from your dreams!” Ronan said, “Yeah, you could.” Gansey’s frown deepened. Again he opened his mouth and closed it.’ Same, Gansey. Same.

'Ronan looked at him. That look, Blue thought. Ronan Lynch would do anything for Gansey. I probably would, too, she thought.’ If only he knew it. *rubs heart*

'Blue and Gansey exchanged a look. Blue’s look said, I’m so, so sorry. Gansey’s said, Am I the pretty one?’ Bless his cotton socks.

'Ronan thought of what Declan had said all those months before: Mom is nothing without Dad. He’d been right.’ Okay, but does Declan know about this stuff and how it works?

'Ronan interrupted the silence. “Cabeswater. Cabeswater is a dream.” Calla stopped rotating. “You don’t have to tell me I’m right,” Ronan said. He thought of all the times he had dreamt of Cabeswater’s old trees; how familiar it had felt to walk there; how the trees had known his name. He was tangled in their roots, somehow, and they, in his veins. “If Mom is in Cabeswater, she’ll wake up.” Calla stared at him. Silence was never a wrong answer.’ Okay then.

'But those words of Declan’s needled Ronan: She’s nothing without Dad. It was like he knew. Ronan wanted badly to know how much Declan knew, but it wasn’t like he could ask him.’ No, that would be too easy.

'“Says you and Dad were both dreamers,” Matthew said, “and you’re going to make us lose everything.” Ronan sat very still. He was so still so quickly that Chainsaw froze as well, her head tilted toward the youngest Lynch brother, purloined tuna sandwich forgotten. Declan knew about their father. Declan knew about their mother. Declan knew about him.’ Curious. Very curious.

The Gray Man is going to Monmouth Manufacturing!

'He had spent forty-eight hours more or less awake and restless and then, on the third day, he had bought a side-scan sonar device, two window airconditioners, a leather sofa, and a pool table. “Now do you feel better?” Adam had asked drily. Gansey had replied, “I have no idea what you’re talking about.” “Hey, man,” Ronan said, “I like the pool table.” The entire situation made Blue apoplectic.’ Tag yourself; I’m Adam with a dash of Ronan. Pool tables are cool.

’"You are still wearing those incredibly stupid boat shoes, and of all the things that you have bought, you still haven’t replaced them!” Gansey, bewildered, observed his feet. The movement of his toes was barely visible through the tops of his Top-Siders. Really, in light of recent events, these shoes were the only things that were right in the world. “I like these shoes.”’ Update: he’s still adorable.

’[Gansey] exchanged a glance with Adam, because it had to be done’ 1) What does this mean? 2) I love them SO MUCH!

'In some parallel universe, there was a Gansey who could tell Blue that he found the ten inches of her bare calves far more tantalizing than the thirteen cubic feet of bare skin Orla sported. But in this universe, that was Adam’s job. } He was in a terrible mood.’ Oooooh. 👀

'So these were the people Greenmantle had warned him about. Fellow seekers of the Greywaren, whatever it might be.’ Curious and curiouser.

'Blue cheerfully spit a mouthful of brown water on his boat shoes. It pooled in the canvas over his toes. “Good God,” he said. “Now they’re really boat shoes,” she replied.’ Blue’s crusade continues.

'He knew what it was. He just didn’t know why it was. He said, “Well, that’s a wheel off the Camaro.” And it was. It looked identical to the wheels currently residing on the Pig — except this wheel was clearly several hundred years old. The discolored surface was pocked and lumpy. With all of the deterioration, the elegantly symmetrical wheel didn’t appear that out of place beside the shield boss. If you overlooked the tattered Chevrolet logo in the middle. “Do you remember losing one a little while ago?” Ronan asked. “Like, five hundred years or so?”’ Aggressively the Most Curious.

'Blue held his gaze, unflinching. Crisp, she replied, “None at all.” And it was a lie. It should not have been, but it was, and Gansey, who prized honesty above nearly every other thing, knew it when he heard it. Blue Sargent cared whether or not he was interested in Orla. She cared a lot. As she whirled toward the truck with a dismissive shake of her head, he felt a dirty sort of thrill.’ Oh, you kids.

'“Hey, Noah.” He was too busy being ghostly to attend to her, however. Currently, he was engaged in one of his creepiest activities: reenacting his own death. He glanced around the tiny yard as if appraising the forest glen containing only himself and his friend Barrington Whelk. Then he let out a terrible, mangled cry as he was struck from behind by an invisible skateboard. He made no sound when he was hit again, but his body jerked convincingly. Blue tried not to look as he bucked a few more times before falling to the ground. His head jerked; his legs bicycled. Blue took a deep, uneven breath. Though she had seen him do it four or five times now, it was always unsettling. Eleven minutes. That was how long the entire homicidal portrait lasted: one boy’s life destroyed in less time than it took to cook a hamburger. The last six minutes, the ones that took place after Noah had first fallen but before he actually died, were excruciating. Blue considered herself a fairly steadfast, sensible girl, but no matter how many times she heard his torn-up breath seizing in his throat, she felt a little teary. Between the twisted roots of the front yard, Noah’s body jerked and stilled, finally dead. Again.’ I feel w o u n d e d.

'They wandered to the door like that, a pretzel of dead boy and not-psychic girl.’ Don’t even look at me!

'Gleefully, Noah said, “There’s a pool table now! I’m the worst at pool ever! It’s wonderful.”’ THIS SWEET CHILD IS GIVING ME EMOTIONAL WHIPLASH.

'Gansey, pacing next to his ruined miniature Henrietta, set his eyes on Ronan. There was something intense and heedless in them. There were many versions of Gansey, but this one had been rare since the introduction of Adam’s taming presence. It was also Ronan’s favorite. It was the opposite of Gansey’s most public face, which was pure control enclosed in a paper-thin wrapper of academia. But this version of Gansey was Gansey the boy. This was the Gansey who bought the Camaro, the Gansey who asked Ronan to teach him to fight, the Gansey who contained every wild spark so that it wouldn’t show up in other versions. Was it the shield beneath the lake that had unleashed it? Orla’s orange bikini? The bashed-up remains of his rebuilt Henrietta and the fake IDs they’d returned to? Ronan didn’t really care. All that mattered was that something had struck the match, and Gansey was burning.’ #JusticeforMiniatureHenrietta

'“Don’t say anything stupid to him,” he told Gansey.’ Did I read that right? Did Ronan really just advise Gansey to be careful?

'The Gray Man recalled the buzz of his phone and patted his pockets. His phone was missing, however. Maura Sargent had stolen it while they were making out. In its place was the ten of swords: the Gray Man slain on the ground and Maura the sword driven through his heart.’ Interesting. Sorry that always seems to be my reaction to the Gray Man, but there it is.

#emily reads the raven cycle #status: tdt pg. 230 #jammeke #exlibrisfangirl

[mapenvs3000f21]

Ideal Role as a Nature Interpreter

My ideal role as an environmental interpreter is to be a storyteller that incorporates both indigenous and western ways of knowing as it applies to nature. For me the ideal role would be revive indigenous knowledge and share that with others along with the wonders of turtle island. I see that happening in many different ways which I will highlight below. First, I will describe what I mean by storyteller.

A storyteller is defined by the Cambridge English Dictionary as “a person who writes or tells a story or reads them aloud” (1). Storytelling is often thought of as an oral sharing of information. As an audible learner I love to hear storytellers and interpreters share the connections of the plants, animals and humans. My favourite stories not only tell about the natural world, but also shares what our role and responsibilities are as human beings in the natural world. These types of stories invite us to be a part of nature not merely observe it.

To me a storyteller not only uses oral words to tell stories but can use many different mediums to share a collection of knowledge or a story. Storytelling can be done through pictures, drawings, music, videos, experiences or words. My ideal role would be use both in person, art and social media to reach a boarder audience and promote perception as highlighted by Beck et al, 2018, p 90. Promoting perception is described as facilitating understanding and helping the audience to form new perspectives.

My passion is birds and I love to see more people connecting with birds. I see my ideal role being both through social media and through in person interactions all about birds and their habitat. I have very little experience guiding others through a nature interpretation. To be successful I will need to learn to guide bird walks, like Nature Guelph or other volunteer opportunities. In addition, to connect with my audience online I will need to create a blog and social media accounts to help reach a further audience. Skills that I will need to develop include organizing and planning content to share, plain language writing for blogs, and utilizing social media platforms. I can see that planning content being one of the more challenging skills to develop of those listed. Some questions that come to my mind include: How much do you share? How structured do you make the interpretation? How do you prepare for questions? What do you do if you can’t answer a question? How do you ensure your content is relevant and factual? How do you connect with the different learning styles? I found this helpful infographic from National Geographic that share the key elements of storytelling. These elements include:

Defining a question

Collect information and analyze data

Organize the thoughts and information

Revise, revise, revise

Get your story out there!

One the most important skills in my ideal role will be the most challenging to develop – Anishnaabowin language and knowledge. I am not a fluent speaker, but feel I need to learn the names of the animals, birds and plants that are here on turtle island. As Joe Pitawanakwat from Creator Garden shares with CBC: "Learning about plant medicine, you need to be able to address the plant by its name” (3). To be able to truly address the animals, birds and plants we need to learn the names and the connection between those beings and us. This will be a key part to my nature interpretation.

I suppose in some sense I am hoping to inspire others to get outside and experience nature through their phone or computer. 

Sources for this blog post:

1)     Cambridge English Dictionary. STORYTELLING Definition. Accessed 2021-09-24 https://dictionary.cambridge.org/dictionary/english/storyteller

2)     Beck L., Cable, T.T. and D.M. Knudson. 2018. Interpreting Cultural and Natural Heritage: For a Better World. Sagamore Venture Publishing. United States.  

3)     National Geographic. The Elements of Storytelling Infographic. Accessed: 2021-09-26 https://media.nationalgeographic.org/assets/photos/693/953/34350fce-bd48-4402-8ab0-c0795821c258.jpg

4)     CBC Radio. This plant medicine teacher is reclaiming Anishnaabe names for species. Accessed 2021-09-24.  This plant medicine teacher is reclaiming Anishinaabe names for species. Why that could be good for the planet | CBC Radio.

Photo: Rock Point, Ontario, Canada.

[inconveniencedneutrons]

Tobi before Hashi sees him for the first time in this outfit and after he is finished with the brotherly overprotectiveness:

more under the cut

Tobirama: Brother what are you doing?

Hashirama: There are pervs out there, Tobi. You can’t walk around like this. What if you get attacked?

Tobirama: Brother I’m a god

Izuna: It’s indecent!

He is currently trying to revive his own brother, who seems to have stopped functioning. They are both turning very interesting colors.

Tobi banishes Hashi’s whatever and conjures some sheer pants, that help absolutely nothing.

Tobirama with a raised eyebrow: better?

All of the others: NO!

Madara kinda halfway functions again. He is still lowkey screeching but it’s less noisy now. It gets louder every time he looks at Tobi’s anything, though. Tobirama raises a judging eyebrow at him and cocks a hip. The whistling aprubtly raises to deafening loudness again.

A little behind the scenes of drawing my two gods:

Tobi, I‘m not Hashi, you can‘t just exasperate me into doing shit. Yes, we are both incredibly sad that I can‘t incorporate the fluff or the crop-top into this but it‘s just not feasible. Don‘t make this any harder for both of us.

I tried to draw five different backgrounds for this asshole. five!! He turned his nose up at every fucking one of them! Tobirama is such a high maintenance drama-cat, I can‘t even.

And don‘t get me started on the hair, by the god, every time I was even half a milimeter out of line, Tobi was like nope, not me, I‘m out of here. And then suddently Obito was there?? Like, where did you come from?? What is happening???

Finally, after I sacrificed a Uchiha to him he was appeased. Well on the hair, at least. The background not so much, that‘s his win. Please nobody ask after Obito. He is... uhhh.. somewhere.

You know, if Hashi could see you right now he would flip his shit, Tobi. Here let him drape you in clothes. Or mummify you, that works too.

Success! I have pleased the demon cat cleverly disguised as a human being! The offered bg has been accepted!

Madara is suspiciously well behaved. Something is clearly wrong. Is it the anatomy? His stance? His face? Is he going to pull a Tobi and suddenly I will have, I don‘t fucking know, Gai here? Am I getting paranoid? Wait, is that what he is after...

Look, Madara, if you just stew sullenly and don‘t talk to me, then I can‘t fucking figure out what you have in your hand there, you moron. Do I have to redraw your arm? I have to redraw your arm. Ok then, could have just fucking told me so but nooo.

What even is your hair? Why did I decide it was feathers? This was clearly a fucking stupid idea on my part, I‘m so very sorry.

Laughing my ass off, oh shit, you look like a rooster! That fell into primary colors!

I wanted to put him into a loincloth thingy like Tobirama but he screeched like a banshee, so I gave him some more clothes to hide behind. Prude.

Hell yes, Disco-ball Madara! Izuna will have a field day. I should make Tobi sparkly too...

Ok, Tobi refuses to be sparkly, I nearly lost my fingers, jfc. Diva.

Ha, I will make you a glowstick instead. Yes, yes, Madara will become a glowstick too, stop threatening my fingers.

Madara refuses the bg and I‘m running out of time if I want to post this on Tobis birthday.

Why are backgrounds so hard T.T

There you have it, finally finished, the prude and the diva forever unified in godly grumpiness.

For the whole pictures, just click my tag ‘god au’

#Tobirama #Madara #Izuna #Hashirama #naruto #mine #I had way too much fun with this project #Someone take my pen away #God AU #madatobi #tumblr keeps fucking with my formatting #anyone have tips for this? #This wasn't meant to have such big spaces inbetween #grumbles

[lapushbtrfly]

The basic rules:

Kindness is the key here people. I work a lot and I RP for fun so I try and avoid mean spirited things as much as possible.

I don't use a lot of icons and mostly just focus on the writing. I have not picked up photoshop skills over the years and have a hard time finding icons for certain faceclaims so I tend to just stick to the writing.

I can be pretty slow at times. As mentioned before I work a lot and I have a few other blogs (TVD: Sage, Leverage: Parker, Psy/Changeling: Tamsyn are the main few at the moment). I promise even if it takes a little while I will respond to whatever you send to me or post for me. Please feel free to give me a bit of a poke if it's been a while since I've responded.

I will only be following character blogs that I am interacting with. I don't want a million and two things on my dash (especially with this new tumblr beta endless scrolling only madness T.T)

Quick mun info:

Hey everyone! I am Lia and I'm going to be 33 in April of 2020. I'm your resident workaholic with two many blogs that get neglected because I work too much. Case in point: I work retail and in these current times of madness with mandatory closures I still worked nearly 50 hours this week. You can blame @mangaien aka Agnes for the creation of this blog. They added Jared to their multimuse again and I decided to revive a Kim muse that I haven't played in YEARS just to have another way to torment them with feels. xD

#ooc tag tbd #faq page is posted #yes agnes you are mentioned in my faq page #xD

[heresjeonny]

I LOVE YOU GUYS

DON’T MIND ME, JUST SOBBING IN THE CORNER FROM ALL YOUR LOVE OMFG. *tries to hug all of you at once* 

Thank you babes for all the lovely comments on my writing! I was so excited, I barely slept last night hahaha - and so many requests! More than I ever hoped for! THANK YOU FOR BELIEVING IN ME AND WANTING MORE OF MY AMATEUR WRITING KYAAAA

Here’s my weekend writing to-do (request) list - not in any order: 

- Part 2 to “Beautiful: A Baekhyun Love Story” - I’m thinking of making it into a longer fic, so please let me know if you would like that or if I should just let it end quickly and gracefully kekeke

- Jealous!Kyungsoo (YES) POSTED: [Read Here]  

- Part 2 to “Send My Love (To Your New Lover)” - oh my god you little angels T.T You guys actually requested this?? Because it was too sad?! That’s so great to hear! (Not your sadness) but that I did a good job with angst! I was actually concerned that it wasn’t painful lol

- Oblivious!Sehun (childhood friends, he doesn’t know you like him, etc.) 

- Chanyeol x Pregnant!Reader fluff 

- Idol!Jongdae x Non-idol Reader [similar to this] 

- Siren!Baekhyun AU (omg I laughed when I saw this, thanks babe) 

- Uber Driver!Baekhyun Sexy Time - so regardless of when I finish writing this one, I can’t post it until my family gets a new VPN, sorry loves! Also, I’ve never gotten a smut request before omg *hides face behind hands* 

UPDATE: 

- Minseok Angst/Fluff (too scared to confess that he’s in love w/ the reader)

[Masterlist] 

So most authors, when they’re ready to post a fic that was a request - that’s when they reply to the ask in their inbox, correct? I’m wondering because I want to reply to all your lovely asks right now, but I feel like you’re only supposed to reply once you’ve completed the fic.... pls let me know, friends 

Thank you agaaaaain for all the attention, I require constant validation to function so I am revived bless your souls <3 

#exo #exo request #exo imagine #exo scenarios #exo smut #exo fluff #exo fic #exo angst #baekhyun #chanyeol #sehun #suho #jongdae #chen #yixing #lay #minseok #xiumin #junmyeon #kai #jonging #kyungsoo #d.o.

[legalseat]

Prompt Corrective Action

[Manal Shah is a B.A. LL.B. (Hons.) student at the National University of Advanced Legal Studies, Kochi and writes at thesecuritiesblawg.in]

Prompt corrective action (“PCA”) is intended to “intervene early and take corrective measures in a timely manner, so as to restore the financial health of banks that are at risk by limiting deterioration in their health and preserving their capital levels”.

The PCA framework was introduced by the Reserve Bank of India (“RBI”) in December 2002. With a view to keeping pace with international best practices, the RBI on recommendations of the Group of Financial Stability and Development Council (“FSDC”) on Resolution Regimes for Financial Institutions in India (January 2014) and the Financial Sector Legislative Reforms Commissions (“FSLRC”) (March 2013), issued the ‘revised PCA framework’ on 31 March 2017. Viral Acharya, the Deputy Governor, RBI considers PCA to be an essential element of financial stability.

Why PCA?

PCA first developed during the Savings & Loans Crisis (one of the worst financial crises since the Great Depression). It developed from a curative approach and led to the adoption of the Structural Early Intervention and Restructuring (“SIER”) and the passage of the Federal Deposit Insurance Corporation Improvement Act of 1991.

Core principles of SIER include the following: firstly, thresholds of performance such as capitalization are identified to classify the banks in breach of thresholds into categories, for instance, in FDIC they were categorized as ‘under-capitalized’, ‘significantly under-capitalized’ and ‘critically under-capitalized’ in which the first threshold levels are set at levels safely above what would allow for an effective resolution/ revival of banks; secondly, the banks not meeting the thresholds are subjected to a layered, progressively stringent ‘program’ consisting of mandatory and discretionary regulatory actions aiming to prevent further hemorrhaging, effectively quarantining the banks in breach until they are resolved; and thirdly, to assist supervisors to enforce corrective measures in a rule-based manner to reduce forbearance risk.

In his speech, Acharya also explained how important bank capital is in loss absorption as it acts as a means of protection against the asset losses of a bank. Bank capital must be high enough to couch through unanticipated losses with enough margin to inspire confidence and enable the bank to continue as a going concern. Basel III norms act as a floor to the minimum capital ratio to be maintained by banks. In addition, the ratio is higher depending on the jurisdictions

India – Recent Ripples

The Indian PCA framework is greatly influenced by the American SIER which still stands as a benchmark. The framework includes the following determinants:

Capital to Risk-weighted Assets Ratio (“CRAR”) measures the available capital of a bank expressed as the percentage of a bank’s risk-weighted credit exposures. It assists in protecting depositors and promoting stability and efficiency of financial systems around the world. Banks risk insolvency from excessive losses.

CRAR is calculated by dividing the total capital (sum of tier I capital and tier II capital) of the bank divided by the risk weighted average. Tier I capital (also called core capital) consists mainly of share capital and disclosed reserves (minus goodwill, if any) and tier I items are deemed to be of the highest quality considering its full availability to cover losses. Tier II capital (also called supplementary capital) consists of certain reserves and types of subordinated debt[1]and also hybrid debt capital instruments[2]. Tier II items qualify as regulatory capital to the extent that they can be used to absorb losses arising from a bank’s activities. Risk weighted assets refers to the notional amount of the asset multiplied by the risk weight assigned to the asset to arrive at the risk weighted asset number. Risk weight for different assets varies, e.g., 0% on a government dated security and 20% on a AAA rated foreign bank etc. The higher the CRAR of a bank the better capitalized it is.

Non-Performing Assets (“NPA”) is an asset including a leased asset which ceases to generate income for the bank.

Finally, Return on Assets (“RoA”) is a profitability ratio which indicates the net profit (net income) generated on total assets. It is computed by dividing net income by average total assets. Formula – (profit after tax/av. total assets)*100. It reflects the efficiency of conversion of invested money into net income.

The RBI imposes PCA on banks whose capital, asset quality and/or profitability do not meet pre-specified thresholds available here. Allahabad Bank in January 2018 was included within the PCA Framework as a result of its breach of the first risk threshold prescribed therein when it fell short of the requisite CRAR. On 8 November 2018, the Bank announced the Centre’s decision to inject it with INR 3,054 Crore towards contribution of the Central Government in the preferential allotment of equity shares (special securities/bonds) of the Bank during the financial year 2018-19, as the Government’s investment.

As of 16 March 2018, there were eleven public sector banks (“PSBs”) within the PCA framework (Dena Bank, Central Bank of India, Bank of Maharashtra, UCO Bank, IDBI Bank, Oriental Bank of Commerce, Indian Overseas Bank, Corporation Bank, Bank of India, Allahabad Bank and United Bank of India). The scheme of the PCA involves the initiation of certain structured actions in respect of banks which the trigger points. The RBI places restrictions such as on dividend distributions and can decide to require the bank to undergo special supervisory monitoring meetings (SSMMs) at quarterly or other identified frequency, special inspections/targeted scrutiny of the bank and special audit of the bank. In addition, strategy related advisory is provided by the RBI to the board. The government intervention and restrictions increase with crossing to a riskier risk threshold.

Comments

The revised framework is stricter than the previous one in terms of the restrictions it poses, making credit growth difficult to achieve. Financial services secretary Rajiv Kumar and economic affairs secretary Subhash Chandra Garg, who represent the ministry on the board, are learnt to have argued at a recent RBI board meeting that a relaxation under the PCA would not only give the stressed PSBs headroom for growth but also enable them to lend more and support the efforts to ease liquidity crunch being faced by non-banking financial services companies.

The criticisms on the result of PCA on depriving the economy of credit have been rebutted by the Government by highlighting the need to provide banks with capital to enable them to lend again. The framework might be suitable now; however, in the near future things might change considering most government banks have reported losses in FY18 and can be considered waitlisted to be brought in. Banks like the Punjab National Bank and Andhra Bank would have defaulted on meeting the minimum capital requirements; however, earlier this year, the Government recapitalized them.

T.T. Ram Mohan, Prof. of Finance at IIM Ahmedabad analysed the situation critically and opined that a better suited remedy would be an overhaul of management and boards. He also suggested the Government accept that there might be a need for mergers and consolidations and also privatization.

– Manal Shah

[1] Subordinated debt refers to the status of the debt. In the event of the bankruptcy or liquidation of the debtor, subordinated debt only has a secondary claim on repayments, after other debt has been repaid.

[2] Hybrid debt capital instruments is a category which includes a number of capital instruments, which combine certain characteristics of equity and certain characteristics of debt. Each has a particular feature, which can be considered to affect its quality as capital. Where these instruments have close similarities to equity, in particular when they are able to support losses on an ongoing basis without triggering liquidation, they may be included in Tier II capital.

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[legalseat]

Prompt Corrective Action

[Manal Shah is a B.A. LL.B. (Hons.) student at the National University of Advanced Legal Studies, Kochi and writes at thesecuritiesblawg.in]

Prompt corrective action (“PCA”) is intended to “intervene early and take corrective measures in a timely manner, so as to restore the financial health of banks that are at risk by limiting deterioration in their health and preserving their capital levels”.

The PCA framework was introduced by the Reserve Bank of India (“RBI”) in December 2002. With a view to keeping pace with international best practices, the RBI on recommendations of the Group of Financial Stability and Development Council (“FSDC”) on Resolution Regimes for Financial Institutions in India (January 2014) and the Financial Sector Legislative Reforms Commissions (“FSLRC”) (March 2013), issued the ‘revised PCA framework’ on 31 March 2017. Viral Acharya, the Deputy Governor, RBI considers PCA to be an essential element of financial stability.

Why PCA?

PCA first developed during the Savings & Loans Crisis (one of the worst financial crises since the Great Depression). It developed from a curative approach and led to the adoption of the Structural Early Intervention and Restructuring (“SIER”) and the passage of the Federal Deposit Insurance Corporation Improvement Act of 1991.

Core principles of SIER include the following: firstly, thresholds of performance such as capitalization are identified to classify the banks in breach of thresholds into categories, for instance, in FDIC they were categorized as ‘under-capitalized’, ‘significantly under-capitalized’ and ‘critically under-capitalized’ in which the first threshold levels are set at levels safely above what would allow for an effective resolution/ revival of banks; secondly, the banks not meeting the thresholds are subjected to a layered, progressively stringent ‘program’ consisting of mandatory and discretionary regulatory actions aiming to prevent further hemorrhaging, effectively quarantining the banks in breach until they are resolved; and thirdly, to assist supervisors to enforce corrective measures in a rule-based manner to reduce forbearance risk.

In his speech, Acharya also explained how important bank capital is in loss absorption as it acts as a means of protection against the asset losses of a bank. Bank capital must be high enough to couch through unanticipated losses with enough margin to inspire confidence and enable the bank to continue as a going concern. Basel III norms act as a floor to the minimum capital ratio to be maintained by banks. In addition, the ratio is higher depending on the jurisdictions

India – Recent Ripples

The Indian PCA framework is greatly influenced by the American SIER which still stands as a benchmark. The framework includes the following determinants:

Capital to Risk-weighted Assets Ratio (“CRAR”) measures the available capital of a bank expressed as the percentage of a bank’s risk-weighted credit exposures. It assists in protecting depositors and promoting stability and efficiency of financial systems around the world. Banks risk insolvency from excessive losses.

CRAR is calculated by dividing the total capital (sum of tier I capital and tier II capital) of the bank divided by the risk weighted average. Tier I capital (also called core capital) consists mainly of share capital and disclosed reserves (minus goodwill, if any) and tier I items are deemed to be of the highest quality considering its full availability to cover losses. Tier II capital (also called supplementary capital) consists of certain reserves and types of subordinated debt[1]and also hybrid debt capital instruments[2]. Tier II items qualify as regulatory capital to the extent that they can be used to absorb losses arising from a bank’s activities. Risk weighted assets refers to the notional amount of the asset multiplied by the risk weight assigned to the asset to arrive at the risk weighted asset number. Risk weight for different assets varies, e.g., 0% on a government dated security and 20% on a AAA rated foreign bank etc. The higher the CRAR of a bank the better capitalized it is.

Non-Performing Assets (“NPA”) is an asset including a leased asset which ceases to generate income for the bank.

Finally, Return on Assets (“RoA”) is a profitability ratio which indicates the net profit (net income) generated on total assets. It is computed by dividing net income by average total assets. Formula – (profit after tax/av. total assets)*100. It reflects the efficiency of conversion of invested money into net income.

The RBI imposes PCA on banks whose capital, asset quality and/or profitability do not meet pre-specified thresholds available here. Allahabad Bank in January 2018 was included within the PCA Framework as a result of its breach of the first risk threshold prescribed therein when it fell short of the requisite CRAR. On 8 November 2018, the Bank announced the Centre’s decision to inject it with INR 3,054 Crore towards contribution of the Central Government in the preferential allotment of equity shares (special securities/bonds) of the Bank during the financial year 2018-19, as the Government’s investment.

As of 16 March 2018, there were eleven public sector banks (“PSBs”) within the PCA framework (Dena Bank, Central Bank of India, Bank of Maharashtra, UCO Bank, IDBI Bank, Oriental Bank of Commerce, Indian Overseas Bank, Corporation Bank, Bank of India, Allahabad Bank and United Bank of India). The scheme of the PCA involves the initiation of certain structured actions in respect of banks which the trigger points. The RBI places restrictions such as on dividend distributions and can decide to require the bank to undergo special supervisory monitoring meetings (SSMMs) at quarterly or other identified frequency, special inspections/targeted scrutiny of the bank and special audit of the bank. In addition, strategy related advisory is provided by the RBI to the board. The government intervention and restrictions increase with crossing to a riskier risk threshold.

Comments

The revised framework is stricter than the previous one in terms of the restrictions it poses, making credit growth difficult to achieve. Financial services secretary Rajiv Kumar and economic affairs secretary Subhash Chandra Garg, who represent the ministry on the board, are learnt to have argued at a recent RBI board meeting that a relaxation under the PCA would not only give the stressed PSBs headroom for growth but also enable them to lend more and support the efforts to ease liquidity crunch being faced by non-banking financial services companies.

The criticisms on the result of PCA on depriving the economy of credit have been rebutted by the Government by highlighting the need to provide banks with capital to enable them to lend again. The framework might be suitable now; however, in the near future things might change considering most government banks have reported losses in FY18 and can be considered waitlisted to be brought in. Banks like the Punjab National Bank and Andhra Bank would have defaulted on meeting the minimum capital requirements; however, earlier this year, the Government recapitalized them.

T.T. Ram Mohan, Prof. of Finance at IIM Ahmedabad analysed the situation critically and opined that a better suited remedy would be an overhaul of management and boards. He also suggested the Government accept that there might be a need for mergers and consolidations and also privatization.

– Manal Shah

[1] Subordinated debt refers to the status of the debt. In the event of the bankruptcy or liquidation of the debtor, subordinated debt only has a secondary claim on repayments, after other debt has been repaid.

[2] Hybrid debt capital instruments is a category which includes a number of capital instruments, which combine certain characteristics of equity and certain characteristics of debt. Each has a particular feature, which can be considered to affect its quality as capital. Where these instruments have close similarities to equity, in particular when they are able to support losses on an ongoing basis without triggering liquidation, they may be included in Tier II capital.

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