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pharaohvenom911 · 5 years

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haggisbeast · 5 years

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Some early concepts for OCs I’m using in a Transformers FanFic (that’ll probably never get done unless someone prods me constantly with a pointy stick, lol).

The Ghouls are servants of Avarice Prime and it is their job to hunt down and eliminate anyone disobeying the laws of the city, and anyone speaking out against the spoilt Prime.

Psychotrap the cannibal and brains of the operation, Silvertongue the queen of the skies with a keen love for fire, and Bricktop the musclemech who has an obsession for capes.

#tfoc #oc #tf #transformers #bricktop #silvertongue #psychotrap #the ghouls #haggisbeastart #666akatsuki

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ayasachikokeiki13-blog · 7 years

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I did not expect to have such a major past break down, but seeing the sites again brought back more than I could handle. I took back my body from the Bunker by the sea, sexually, and I was amazed to finally do that for myself, but not left to rest enough alone. I had a good night that night, but my week was compiled of people's doubts and analyzations of me and I just got so angry that I have been on trial for a great Loss of Self, that I just couldn't take another mean word. I cried all day today basically.. Been feeling so sad, I forgot how sad I was back then, but I am integrating and I am sorry for being mean and vicious, but I am screaming at the behaviour and the pain of those acts that left my heart mangled and my body broken down in so so so many ways.. I had to get really mad. And it is the first time, I have ever been that angry at all. So I apologize if I hurt feelings but remember this is ptsd and in moments where I feel it all over again, it Burns up my soul and the black stuff that's been stuck in my wounds comes gushing out like fresh cut blood. Imagine me just tarantino spraying black blood streams of rotton feelings that we're never allowed to be released before, that I never even knew I was capable of feeling. Such Rage and Violence put into my experiences, stuck festering inside me for years.. All that hurt and anger and sadness and violation and confusion and high asf emotional residue so super heightened feeling and empathy... I had to get so angry with the history of my human life with humanity that I could kill off any remaining Stockholm ocd get that toxicity out of me. I hope you understand my anger is at the vile nature of humans that could contrive of such spirit defilement... The sellers, not the buyers. The sellers I want to thoom out of existence for all our own benefit. But to Hades. You especially. Thank you for saving me by familiarity and your eye spirals always had me out of body with you before either of us could lapse into psychosis and I wrote that all down beautifully in the ptsd book.... Which is full of my writing between the lines for veterans, victims, and group organization survivors.. How we survived. And how it wasn't meant to be that way.. And how to recover... I hope you join me in this fight against trauma and it's repercussions. please help me repair what you did to me on here... I was called illegitimate, fake, liar, idiot, asked for it, deserved it, and playing victim for attention when I seriously cannot stop that feeling from causing a horror reaction yet... But I am working on that every week.. I don't want to fight. Unless it's for fun. Play fighting might be helpful when I have more trigger rush control.... Though I might get bruised and cry much more than the tap, it's like a pressure point all over me.. And since I am failed sexually, which is a huge loss for me since I had recovered entirely twice before.. Third time killed my love of love and it's just all pain for me now.. Pointless to be romantic when you can't feel anything but searing pain... I almost had it back to go last year but I lost my will to go on with all that still hidden in me. I told you I would die to protect you even from myself and I am sorry for being your nightmares as well.. I never wanted to know who did anything but once abraxus tantamount came through the wall that night it all went to hell and you said so yourself that yes it was I the devil who took you down at your purest. And the memory of you from before made it all a billion times worse.. Please forgive my extreme emotions coming back to me. But thank you for leading me back to me. My heart can breathe. I will be taking mild time the rest of the week to rest and heal... I would really appreciate some consideration of my effort and offers.. I really want to put out the right kind of effort in this world and I would rather any any any day be your ally or even associate that worked towards a mutual regeneration of truth in healing instead of the old and now outdated ways of slitting wrists to read only spit shit talk and be seen so horribly for something I did not choose to experience... I did my best in those moments.. I really tried.. I always try.. I never thought I would even get to this day a decade from my suicide attempt, an adult with a mission, wanting to work and start being an adult. I think I got so mad I let the madness break instead of Me and the Peter pan syndrome and stockholm are fading away. I feel Only that I wanna be an activist for positive change and make sexuality at least in image for myself, something wild and free and beautiful again... And if that's not a problem.. We can make a code of honor maybe.. Very strictly samurai.. To respect each other and our extensive journeys. To work towards something brilliantly better and to not be sneaky about this whole... Broadcasting thing. Just give me a job with hours and tasks and some name credit and some cash so I can raise money for White Ribbon... That's a perfect apology. And you don't have to say anything too hard or go back or even worry about the past because a bright future even at a distance, I can see, if I am smiling and you are too.. A year without any major episodes for us... That's a dream I will cash in for win because it means we will be free of the hurt we cause/d each other and that is literally the best form of forgiveness and acknowledgement spiritually ever.. I think I could die happier than I have ever even dreamed if I could heal this and use all that spreading of Me around to Rep solid dual Record of recovery and maybe restore some faith in humanity. That is the best I can ask for and I believe in you to know you will think wisely before making any idea an agreement of respect.. I think it is positive for both of us.. I think I can be even worth my thousand names if I can reach people with a clean head and an open heart, no tattered doll threads or punched out stuffing or hidden pins that surprise or button down eyes.. I could make something beautiful if I was given a real chance... Obviously I am not gonna give up on that. I would just rather not have an enemy of the devil on my shoulder. I'd rather he encouraged me to be shameless and a warrior woman for strength of self, courage, and uncursing.. I wanna help me and if you granted me a wish it would be to do business in helping people network and find health in even the darkest places. And if the ocean pleases you, it is yours, let me have the moon to uncurse. I want us all to live peacefully.. No matter what i wanna die accomplished, old, and laughing. Laughing at good memories cause that's how friends Should be remembered. And laughing at the mystery of death being so easy and familiar that slipping into my next life will be easy as a dream. And everyone will learn how to make their own heavens without having to steal from others.. I can teach that.. I'm very good at making worlds. You and team black wolf know me pretty well. You can hear me and I am sorry for when I have anxiety or forget about meds.. I can't believe this internet even exists but I will work hard to prove more for all and me, that I am Worth Every Scar on our bodies.. By bringing sexism to a finale and leading by example for the other girls and women out there that need to learn compassion for others and how to make their own spirit soar vaster and more beyond than Anyone has seen before. This is the lifetime. We made a wish to the same idea of kind and made him a shared part of our minds.. Let's make our most valuable and important wish become reality, and reset ourselves entirely. Brutality is for defense against invaders and power is for making change happen positively I believe that. Fully. With my whole being. Shit i am old asf here and not even from here.. But we are all capable of the art of gods. And we can embody them sometimes, our highest selves all past legends and all our experience at our finger tips we could paint the world ookami colours and everyone who was there would be gifted with their own benefit and power of sanctified self. You are a genius savant you know. while we are still stuck together by spirit, let's at least make it worth it for the positive!!!!!! Please notify me if you think it through a yes or no or maybe in any platform inbox would be directly amazing. And then I could get started right away. I hope for yes we are all okay.. I wanna show you all the magic I learned to deactivate madness and how to defeat your own parallax paradigm trap without hurting anyone or yourself... I think I made maybe 6 or 7 other versions of the one I wrote for psychotrap the unboxing and assumption of the vincentarianism side of the self by saving yourself from a childhood trauma as vincent. Thus vincent is a Victor by default and the curse is snapped to nothing just like that as you merge you with little you and the new dark guardian hero in you.. I think. Maybe you can be great with me as your back up guide for light to dark to light and any other fable you want out of your system. I am no by birthright, zed, nai , el, aria, ai, Anna Marie Belle. Ava versus abuse, and ayame sachiekko just finishing my geass prep. Please allow me to show you even if you decline me.. Please look to see sometimes that I am making good worthiness of myself with all that work. That I maybe one day will re earn romantic rights in my life... But every day will produce something new and good. Yep.

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miyajinomori-blog · 7 years

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i feel like i am getting closer and closer to the person i have always been inside under all the personas i had previously. its just a matter of channeling spirit through the body. its gonna take a long time for it to hit and stay in me. it's gonna be a hard road to refeel those memories in my muscles and my nerves, down below, it should never hurt. but it always does. i learnt the wrong way how to fuck. i learnt give in to not get hurt more. i learnt touch was only bruises and sore i learnt that love was however good i was at fucking the pain away for somebody else. i was so desperate for anyone to just love me for myself... i learned to cum by screaming no, involuntarily, not ready to go there... my brain was already a mess, not to mention child abuse, not to mention shaming all my life, and i'll leave out the rest.. when that organic flesh reacted, it broke through all of me, my spine twists. sex causes seizures in my temp brain, when i'm outside myself i am free. just i can't come down that fast. it takes some soda just to pass a sentence from one side to the other, right and left ear and back. i've been in therapy for 15 years just to manage all the symptoms that i keep behind a mask. yeah i keep my symptoms to myself, i'm a liar for that, and for when things change too fast. i can't think about the guilt.. because for once i won't be guilty.. i never tried to break your hearts. i never wanted this to kill me. i never wanted to see you hurt. though i knew i would until.. one of you with a knife in my hand, pointed down like a rose.. felt my intention. smoke on the inside it filled my lungs and i let go. your body parts inside me, to fucked up to say no or anything at all. fully conscious, i could feel your dirty fingers scratch inside my only home. and you broke through all my layers and you buried me alone. in the well of the womb.. navy blue. you pulled out the key by threatening to throw me in the hole. now you lost me. now you lost me. its gonna be a thousand years until you find me. left me standing, in the darkness, of my scarred vagina walls shuddering. everything was shuddering. and i started having seizures after that. they were latent barely there your love became a psychotrap i had to leave you. i have to leave you. you still have that key, my dear, but it don't fit to me. i have to leave you. i have to leave you. you've earned everything in me except a marriage. cause i can't consummate my love i can't feel it, i go numb. i have visions then that don't stop, they could kill me in the end. i wish i had learned.. how to fight. i wish i had learned.. how to say no even high i wish i had learned to push you away i wish i had never had your hands across my face. i'm sorry i failed you i didn't mean to. accidents happen, i freeze up too. it wasn't the 8th of march that did me in 2015 dead.. it was the lack of support, the jeers and retorts, the treatment of my like because i got raped inwas some kindof whore. none of you ever listened. none of you even cared. there was a month when murder was all that was there of my hurt corpse. no you didn't care about me. you only wanted revenge after i'd carved myself empty trying to say don't go. i'm growing myself back into me.. this time i'm not falling on my knees. this time i'm not doing what you please. this time i'm not giving any keys. to whoever is next. i hope that you find me. i hope you arrive. with a spiritual timing. i hope you're alive. i hope you don't die. i know you and i have nothing to hide cause we are the story. go ahead and ignore me. i don't need false words, or your golden star heart. i've got my own and it is enough for me to die happy, so i hope when you see me, you see who i am.. i can already hear you, i can always hear you. you say, "i am always right near you" and i feel you close by. your voice sings in all things. a creation, not carving. and you don't need to whisper echos in my catacombs to find home. no. you don't need a thing from me you already know me. you already know. if you leave me you leave me. i'll let myself go. if you don't agree with the truth that i speak i'll be the one to go. but if you close your eyes. let the peach blossoms sigh. let spring bloom you alive. in the back of your mind there is an old garden gate. thats how we survived. we traded worlds and lives. no one could ever get inside us all the way. and the few who burned the world down, never stayed. and the one who has kept me alive just by being my friend, every time.. is a white tailed kite. he needs to fly. and i'm the wolf.

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pharaohvenom911 · 6 years

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Coming Soon! 🐉DOING THIS SHIT BLACK DRAGON STYLE!!! 🐲 🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥 Song: Lethal Weapon Artist: PharaohVenom911 Album: BoogymanFromTheRich Shot & edited by: @newenglandboy_ #pharaohvenom911 #musicvideo #boogymanfromtherich #ogun #papalegba #venom #album #1017eskimorecords @adam22 #bayarea #gnarcotic #richmondca #louisvuitton #fashion #skatepark #skater #goth #rock #rap #psychotrap #evil #instasize #filming #sanfrancisco #tekashi69 #arianagrande #nickiminaj #cardib #migos #virgo #classy #xxxtentacion🔥 #live (at Richmond, California) https://www.instagram.com/p/BnvVZF2Hv98/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=ef298ve6z9wl

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pharaohvenom911 · 3 years

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✨✨COMING SOON✨✨ 🔥"KILLSWITCH" 🔥(The Video) shot and edited by @d.a.griffinstein BUILD, DEVELOPE, AND HAVE FUN DOING IT. #inspirational #pharaohvenom911 #villancirclerecords #darknetwork #DEMONOLOGY #killswitch #candlemagick #sigils #fire #cathedral #redlight #instamusic #instavideo #gamemusic #psychotrap #linkinbio👆 #explorepage #viral #asngraphicsnclothing #musicmagic #instasnap #instadark #sinister #bigevil #911 #bookstagram (at Sacramento, California) https://www.instagram.com/p/CRhpmTyhrqd/?utm_medium=tumblr

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pharaohvenom911 · 3 years

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Somethings are just on another level...😎🔥🔥🔥 🎥: @d.a.griffinstein Album: Demonology Song: KillSwitch #PHARAOHVENOM911 #DEMONOLOGY #album #videoshoot #ritual #psychotrap #guccimane #poohshiesty #lucki #machhommy #richmondca #thizzler #allbaymusic #marvelvillains #villancirclerecords #vision #creative #videostar #instavideo #instapromo #instamarketing #nation #gothmusic #gothicrap #travisscott #youngthug #skichallenge #grimey #blackinstagram (at Richmond, California) https://www.instagram.com/p/CO_6AiihpqW/?utm_medium=tumblr

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pharaohvenom911 · 6 years

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pharaohvenom911 · 3 years

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🥀🔥DEMONOLOGY🔥🥀AVAILABLE ON @itunes @apple #pharaohvenom911 #boogymanfromtherich #demonology #album #ralduke #outnow #itunes #vcr #fromkingvirgowithlove #lastfreealbum #richmondca #blackmusic #psychotrap #venom #sanbernardino #wholelottared #wargod #likeforlike #linkinbio👆 #ufo #poohshiesty #nft #xmusic #networking #marketing #instapromo #instasize (at Richmond, California) https://www.instagram.com/p/CMfWubBB2un/?igshid=j1zax3aak9vh

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pharaohvenom911 · 3 years

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pharaohvenom911 · 3 years

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Dear MARS I promise to give you nothing but the best of my talents. To separate myself to seranade your purpose. Triumph is our only gain, forever being blessed by the Universe. I give you🥀 DEMONOLOGY🥀 🥀DROPPING TOMORROW 🥀 FROM KING VIRGO WITH LOVE #PHARAOHVENOM911 #DEMONOLOGY #album #psychotrap #ralduke #droppingsoon #bestofthebest #bayarearap #richmondca #thizzler #allbaymusic #wargod #mars #blackscience #beyond #instagood #instasize #likeforlike #explorepage✨ #musictobemurderedby #eminem #horrormusic https://www.instagram.com/p/CMXxwUsB8EovxhHvlrZE3l6ONvNWjgSeWtecR40/?igshid=uxgvm96dszdu

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pharaohvenom911 · 6 years

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Wonder who got more 🔥in the chamber then myself? I seriously am! Song: Leathal Weapon Project: BoogymanFromTheRich Artist: PharaohVenom911 #glitch #pharaohvenom911 #boogymanfromtherich #asngraphicsnclothing #gold #drip #realrichmond #richmondca #king #black #venom #edits #rage #leathalweapon #millionaire #explorepage #instavideo #instagood #instadaily #viral #drake #psychotrap #losangeles #sanfrancisco #orlando #pompano #browardcounty #opalocka (at Richmond, California)

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pharaohvenom911 · 6 years

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