#photogirlrant

[photogirl894]

Okay, I don't normally get too heated or angry about a lot of things, but oh my gosh, I have seen something that absolutely made my blood boil more than anything else on this site ever has.

Yesterday was 9/11, which in America, is a solemn day because our country suffered a devastating terrorist attack on this day 22 years ago.

I am an American. I was young when that happened, but I do still remember seeing footage of what happened on TV while in school.

Yet I saw with my own eyes this post from @the-bad-batch-baroness where some uncultured, heartless ASSHOLE said some truly awful things to her about her and about this event my country suffered.

I'm going to say this right now:

If ANY of my followers think the same things as the anon on that post, then you can get the HELL off my blog, unfollow me right now and never speak to me again because I WILL NOT tolerate such horrible behavior towards my friends and especially about my country!!

Anyone who says "America deserved it" or anything like that, you can kindly go f**k yourselves.

NO country deserves suffering a devastating attack like we did and I would never wish that on anyone! If you DO wish that on my country or anyone like me, then I'm sorry, but you're no better than the terrorists who attacked us.

Yes. I went there. Deal with it.

I am proud to be an American and September 11th is a day that still makes me humbled to be alive every year. I don't care how many years it's been! That's not something anyone can just "get over" and I am appalled that someone actually had the balls to say such an awful thing!

If that anon my friend got was someone I know or I'm friends with, you better hope to high heaven that I never find out because you will see a side of me that hardly anyone has ever seen and I will tear you a new one! I am NOT the sweet person I normally try to be and you don't want to see how I get when I'm truly angry.

Do. Not. EVER. Speak ill of my country, ESPECIALLY in regards to September 11th!!

Like I said, if any of you feel remotely this way, don't ever speak to me again, get off my blog, unfollow me and go f**k yourselves.

#photogirlrant

[photogirl894]

Why I love the Bad Batch: A deeper analysis nobody asked for 😅😁

I think I’m starting to realize the deeper reasons as to why I love “The Bad Batch” so much...

I mean, there’s the obvious: it’s a good show, the characters are awesome and fun (and certain ones are hot as hell 🥵 Y’all know who I’m talking about), there are a lot of good morals and lessons in each episode, but upon reflection, I’m starting to realize why this show resonates with me so much...and it all comes back to this quote in the Clone Wars episode where we first the boys of Clone Force 99.

For those of you who don’t know, I work in special education. I’ve been a para or an aide who works with special needs kids and I’ve been doing that for over a decade in different capacities, but mostly in schools. I work every day with a range of kids who are seen as different. I work with higher-functioning kids that need academic help and have ADHD, dyslexia, high-functioning autism, etc., and I also work with more physically and mentally-disabled children, like kids with Downs Syndrome, etc. All of the kids I work with are different than most in one way or another. This quote from Clone Wars stuck with me since I first saw it and I loved it. I actually have it as part of my email signature at work, so anyone who sees an email from me reads that, too. I felt it was perfect for my line of work. Embracing those who are seen as different can really fill a void in your heart and soul and some of those people can be the sweetest, most loving individuals you’ll ever meet in your life. I had friends who were special needs growing up, I have autistic cousins and I’ve also been fortunate to work currently and in the past at schools where the special ed students are loved and accepted by their gen ed peers and I’ve had some students who have worked with them that have said they absolutely love it. This line of work is very fulfilling, which is why I firmly believe the second half of the quote above that says “for that makes you whole”. I have a lot of experience being around people that are different from “normal” people.

The Bad Batch are seen as different from “regular” Clones. 

I’m not saying that the Bad Batch are special needs individuals or anything, but they have certain things about them that differentiate them from everyone else, some physical and some mental, just like the students I’ve worked with. Society, however, looks at them and sees them as freaks or not as important as other Clones. Their whole situation just resonated with me from the very beginning. I’m someone who sees another person get treated badly because they’re different or special needs and I just get furious. I recently came across a TikTok where it was a social experiment with a rude customer in a restaurant being horrible to a young man with Downs Syndrome. At first, I couldn’t tell it wasn’t real and I was about ready to scream at some of the things the customer was saying. Even after I realized it was all staged and they were experimenting to see how other people would react, I was still just fuming because that sort of behavior is just unacceptable. I saw the Bad Batch being treated that way and I remember feeling something similar the first time. Even though they might look different and have different traits than everyone else, why should the Bad Batch be treated badly?

We see Rex embrace the Bad Batch for their differences and he came to realize that they were excellent at what they do and were good men, even praising them as “the finest soldiers he’d ever fought alongside”. We see Echo embrace them for their differences because he himself found that he was now different from the rest of the Clones after his experiences at the Citadel and Skako Minor and he found himself another squad to belong to. We see Omega embrace them for their differences and she finds safety and the family she’s always wanted with them. Just because someone looks different or acts different than you for any reason, whether it’s a disability or not, doesn’t make them less of a person. We are all human and we all deserve to be loved. 

What I also find inspiring is that the Bad Batch know they’re different and they too embrace themselves and their differences. They know who they are and nothing anyone else says influences the way they see themselves and each other and I think that’s something we all sometimes struggle with. It’s easy to take the negative things people say about us to heart and let them make us miserable, but if you really know who you are and accept everything about yourself, including your flaws, then nothing anyone can say can affect you. We all should learn to embrace our own differences and that too can make you feel whole. When you know you’re different from other people, accept it and are even proud of it, then you will find that life will be a lot happier that way 😊 Of course, I understand in some cases that can be easier said than done, but it’s never too late to start! It took me a long time to accept certain things about myself, but once I embraced the fact that I’m a nerd and that I’m crazy about different things than other people might be, I’ve been a lot happier and have a much more positive outlook on myself as well as better self-esteem. Be proud of who you are! 💜

Embracing others for their differences truly does make you whole. I see that lesson not only with the Bad Batch, but I’ve learned that with my work helping special ed students in several different capacities and it has truly blessed my life. It’s something that has influenced me and how I treat others in many ways.

That is just another reason to add to my ever-growing list of why I love the Bad Batch so much 🥰💜

#star wars the bad batch #the bad batch #photogirlrant #though it's a good rant! #positivity #star wars positivity

[photogirl894]

*Sigh* Sometimes I hate being easy to please most of the time when it comes to fandom/movies and shows...because when I enjoy something that everyone else seems to not like, I feel bad because then I feel like I can’t talk about it with anyone. That’s why I came to Tumblr so I could find people I could talk to about those things, but when even it seems they don’t like them...that gets kind of lonely sometimes. Not to say I think everything I watch is great and a masterpiece, but I can still appreciate them and find enjoyment from them, even if they’re not spectacular.

That’s how I feel about the latest Bad Batch episode, in case anyone hadn’t figured it out. That’s all I’ll say about it.

I’ll just enjoy things in my own little corner, I guess.

#photogirlrant

[photogirl894]

I'm gonna have a full-on freakout!! So many of my moodboard links now aren't working!! You know how many of those I have and how hard it's gonna be to go back and find all of the original links?!?! 🤬

@staff FREAKING FIX THIS PROBLEM!!!!

#photogirlrant

[photogirl894]

Gosh damn it, more of my masterlist links aren't working again!! What the hell, Tumblr?!?!

#photogirlrant

[photogirl894]

All right, I'mma just come out and say it:

I'm a big Tolkien fan. Have been for most of my life. I've read the books and I love them a lot. I love the movies. All of the movies. "Lord of the Rings", "The Hobbit" and "The Silmarillion" are a huge part of my life and who I am today.

That being said...I'm actually looking forward to the new "Rings of Power" series and I enjoyed the first two episodes that premiered this week.

I recognize not everything is perfect. It's not the same as "Lord of the Rings". Nothing ever will be like those films. Not even close. But it's still a show set in Middle-Earth, a place near and dear to my heart and, to me, when I was watching the show, I felt like I was back there again, just in a different time. That was a feeling I wanted and I got that from seeing the locations, hearing the music, meeting the characters and so on! It felt like coming home.

Lore-wise, yes, I realize some things may not be the same, changed or left out. I might not remember everything cuz it's been years since I read "The Silmarillion" or the LotR Appendices and that may be why I enjoy it more, but even so, I'm willing to give the show a chance, something most people aren't doing without even seeing it. I've been looking forward to this for years and I'm still remaining cautiously optimistic. Plus, there's only been 2 episodes. You can't judge an entire show just off of those, especially when most of it was set up for the upcoming story.

I've seen it been said that if you enjoy this show; this "piece of trash", that you're not a real fan of Tolkien or his works. That's gatekeeping at its finest and I will not have anyone telling me that. I hate that people will try to make me feel bad for enjoying something! I get it enough with the Star Wars fandom and it's really pissing me off with this fandom now, too.

I have been into Tolkien's work since I was six years old. I've read the books, I've watched the films, I know a lot about Tolkien's world that most casual fans might not know. I am a fan through and through, more than most people, I might say. I'm just not close-minded about the show based only on things shown in trailers. No one can tell me I'm not a real fan of something based on their own opinion.

I don't care that there are black Elves/black people in the show. I don't care that some of the Elves have short hair. I don't care that there's a beardless Dwarf woman. I don't care!! The people who do are being racist and nitpicky over such trivial things. I'm just thrilled to be back in a fictional world that I love so much and have missed incredibly since the last "Hobbit" movie came out in 2014.

Some people say "this isn't Middle-Earth".

Well, to me; someone who is very familiar with the world in different aspects, it is.

And no one is going to change my mind.

So, while a lot of people are just going to complain and bash it endlessly, I want to spite all the haters and say: have fun being miserable! I'm going to look forward to every Friday for the next six weeks and enjoy watching "Rings of Power" anyway 😊

Photogirl out.

#photogirlrant #the rings of power #tolkien

[photogirl894]

It is amazing to me how there are actually people on this site that have blogs literally dedicated to just hating certain TV shows, movies or fandoms!

Do y'all literally have nothing better to do with your life?! 😩

I so want to say to these people, "You know you can just...not watch this show, right? Then you'll be much happier!" Like, why waste your time being miserable little shits and hating on things when you can just focus more of your time on things you do like and being a positive person for once? And for those claiming they're doing it to be "activists" for some cause or another...this is freaking Tumblr. Nobody high enough to remotely handle any kind of "cause" cares about Tumblr or even knows about it, so any kind of activism isn't gonna go anywhere! So why don't you find something better and more worthwhile to do with your time instead of constantly making multiple posts a day shitting on something you hate all the time?

Keep scrolling, don't watch it, ignore it, don't give it attention...it's not that freaking hard!!

Seriously, these people that just want to hate and shit on things and on the people who like those things really need to get over themselves and get a freaking life 😝

#photogirlrant

[photogirl894]

Trying real hard not to just lose my shit at work right now...could use some positive vibes and happy thoughts 😩😩

#photogirlrant

[photogirl894]

Newsflash: not every "vague" post I share is about past Tumblr drama. Some of us actually don't revolve our lives around that kind of stuff and actually have other drama and other shit going on in our lives. Heaven forbid I try and move on and I get things thrown back at me when the situation didn't even warrant it.

Move on. I already have. And I've got other things to deal with besides petty Tumblr bullshit.

#tired of this shit #photogirlrant

[photogirl894]

I want nothing more right now than this...

(From @oneshot-one-kill)

(From @darthzero22 using lyrics from a song I love)

Both of these wonderful friends made these for me when I was having an absolutely terrible day on Thursday. I just want to run away from everything...and I wish Hunter would be there to run away with me...because things are not great right now.

Below is my explanation of what's been happening. All work drama. It's long cuz I give some prefacing, as well, so if you're not interested, then don't worry about it.

Earlier this school year, I had posted that I was finally happy at my job. For those who don't know or forgot, I work in the special education department at my old high school working as an aide with physically and mentally disabled kids. I'd had some things happen and wanted out, but ended up being unable to leave, but then things got better and I was fine.

Jump to December of 2021, halfway through the school year. I got told by my department head that I was being switched out of my current classroom and moved to be one on one with a new student and I would be working under a different teacher. Wasn't fond of that, but it was whatever. Switches like that can happen. I met the new family and my new student. She's in a wheelchair and had a couple other physical and mental disabilities, but she had a lovely smile and seemed very sweet and fun. I figured we'd have fun together.

The parents...are awful. And they have been since the start. Especially the mother.

She's a full-blown Karen. She's consistently late 10-15+ minutes every day, yet gave me crap for showing up 5 minutes late to pick up her daughter cuz I was meeting with my teacher and even gave me crap for walking out 1 minute late! Everything and everyone has to cater to what she wants. She shows up to the school constantly demanding to see my teacher when she's in the middle of teaching. She's vain and cares way too much about appearances, claiming "no hair should be out of place on her daughter's head because everyone is looking and judging". She comments and nitpicks every little thing I do and has just been awful to me, my teacher and a lot of other people.

That's not even the worst part.

In the very beginning of all this, they came in claiming they'd heard horrible rumors about me, somehow even though they just moved here, and had all these reservations about me. My teacher and VP stood up for me and tried to get them to name their source, but the mom wouldn't. I had a hunch of who it might've been, but I had no idea how they would even know each other, so I kept that to myself.

A lot of things kept happening that made the parents upset, despite me trying my damned hardest to do what they wanted and to do my job, but nothing was ever good enough for them. Finally, this week, they stopped sending their daughter to school. Cut to Thursday, the family shows up to meet with my VP, principal and department head. My mom, who works in the security office and checks people in, told me someone else was with them.

It was the person I had suspected from the very beginning was the one who was spreading nasty rumors about me...and I was so furious, I thought I would kill someone.

It was an old coworker of mine from a school I worked at over 5 years ago. I got fired from that job (for cell phone use, which is bullshit cuz that was how my teacher at the time was communicating with her aides, but that's a whole other stupid thing) and I haven't seen or spoken to this woman since. Funny enough, her name is actually Karen and she is the epitome of the name. She's a 50-something year old woman who I remember was miserable to work with.

I learned from meeting with my principal later that day that Karen met my student's mother on a neighborhood app when she found out I was working at the high school. She claims I was "abusive to special needs children, hitting them, yanking them around, being forceful with them" and I'm "unfit to work with them". She has threatened to go to the district to find out why they're still hiring me and is trying to get my job taken away.

I swear on my life that I would never, ever treat any child in such ways!! I have been working with special ed kids at different levels for 10 years, I have cousins who are special ed, too. There are no grounds for her accusations whatsoever! I have no idea what I did to offend this woman; I was nothing but nice to her! I was so angry and emotional that I ended up going home early on Thursday and then took Friday off cuz I needed a mental and emotional break from everything. My mom went full Mama Bear (bless her) and called my dad, telling him to start finding a lawyer because "We're gonna sue that bitch!!" She told me she would've taken Karen out for me.

On the plus side, I'm now getting switched out of being one on one and being put back in my old classroom, for one thing. I'm getting away from that family, halle-freaking-lujah. Second, my principal has known me since I was student and he knows me very well. He has no intention of firing me and he's not going to let district do anything to me. If anything, HR will most likely defer to his decision and his mind is already made up.

Literally, all Karen has is petty, false gossip and nothing to prove what she says is true. Even so, I have a ton of people I work with who can vouch for me and my character. I even had a hearing years ago with my former principal and the head of HR after I lost my last job and nothing about such accusations was ever mentioned! My dad was in attendance at that meeting and he said the same thing. So there's nothing on my record of anything like that! I would never treat a child the way she claims I did! She's just such a miserable bitch that she has to dig up things from over 5 years ago and try to ruin the life of a young 27 year old woman. She may be all talk with her threats to go to district, but if she does, we're going to issue a cease and desist letter. If that doesn't shut her up, then we're gonna look at suing her for slander and defamation because that's 100% what she's doing. So I may have a long road ahead of me...

I don't know why all of this is happening to me. I have done nothing wrong and I try my absolute best every day to do my job well, especially when it's not an easy job. I'm tired of drama and I'm tired of being the one who suffers for it.

I want to extend my deepest and sincerest gratitude to @oneshot-one-kill , @scarlettroseog , @tech-deck , @thisistheendtimes , @darthzero22 , @cutie-cult-666 , @ilovecrosshair , @superiorsniper and @shadestepping for all being there for me these last couple days. And thank you also to @nimata-beroya , @leias-left-hair-bun-again , @ilikemymendarkandfictional and @locitapurplepink for giving me comfort and support in the days leading up to all of this. Your guys' words, support and willingness to come beat the shit out of Queen Bitch on my behalf has meant the world to me! I'm doing my best to stay strong. I know I most likely don't have much to worry about, but there's still a nagging feeling deep down that things could still go wrong....

I love you all so much. Please keep me in your thoughts and prayers, if that's not too much to ask. I'm really gonna need them.

#photogirlrant #photogirl life update

[photogirl894]

I don't get why so many people didn't like the Book of Boba Fett finale. That was everything I wanted it to be!! 🥰 The droids, the Rancor, Cad Bane, Din and Boba, Grogu...all of it!! 😭💜 I was more than satisfied with it! It was amazing!!

I loved the whole show, every minute of it. It didn't necessarily blow my mind like Robert Rodriguez said it would; that might've been overhyping it, but I still enjoyed it. Wanna know why I enjoyed it when it seems most people didn't?

I didn't have any expectations 😁

When you have no theories or expectations, it's very hard to be disappointed!

Haters can just suck it. Y'all will never be pleased no matter what the SW creators throw your way. You were given more Boba Fett, you complained. You were given more Fennec Shand, you complained. You were given live action Cad Bane, you complained. I can about guarantee that Kenobi is gonna come out, which people have been begging to have for years and years and we're finally getting, and y'all are STILL going to complain about that, too!!

Honestly, The Book of Boba Fett was a good show and I'm happy with it. I said what I said and y'all can't change my mind. I have spoken ✌️😎

#tbobf #tbobf spoilers #star wars the book of boba fett #book of boba fett spoilers #book of boba fett #photogirlrant

[photogirl894]

To all the people who decided to send me some lovely anons last night claiming I'm racist and privileged: thanks for acting like you really know me and for further proving my point that many in this fandom will look for any reason to scream "racism" in SW and call anyone "racist" who dares disagree with them.

You 👏 don't 👏 know 👏 me.

I'm not racist. I know who I am and those who care about me do, too. (And shocker, some of those people are POC) That's what matters. Your anons and opinions of me don't. I'm just tired of woke bullshit.

And if you unfollowed me...why are you still choosing to interact with me? Move on with your life if what I do bothers you so.

To my lovely followers, mutuals and friends who are still with me, you all have a lovely day 😁

To those anons: well, screw you 🖕

#photogirlrant

[photogirl894]

I'm sorry, what??? 😲😲

A couple days ago, I was 4 followers away from 700...now my number of followers has dropped by over 100??? 😲😲 What the actual hell?!?! What weird Tumblr bullshit is this??

Ugh, that pisses me off!!

#photogirlrant

[photogirl894]

Man...as if I don't have enough drama in my life, people have to go digging back up past Tumblr drama along with it. Sheesh!! 😩 Get over yourselves, people!

#photogirlrant

[photogirl894]

I work at a high school in special education and sometimes I hate teenagers...earlier, I listened to a girl (who was a peer tutor) say she's never seen Star Wars or Star Trek because "it's all too fake and dumb", but yet she loves Harry Potter and apparently Planet of the Apes 🤦‍♀️ Like girl...HP is way more fake than Star Wars!! How is space travel more fake than magic or talking animals?? I literally was sitting there going, "I can't believe this!"

However, later this afternoon, my faith in teenagers was restored as I had a conversation with 3 special ed students about Clone Wars and Bad Batch! 🥰 I caught a girl watching a video on Commander Fox on her laptop and that sparked a Clone Wars conversation and 2 other kids heard what we were talking about and joined in!

The peer tutor girl from earlier was a gen ed student. My special ed kids apparently just have better taste 😊

#photogirlrant

[photogirl894]

You know, I love my job as a photographer, but my gosh, all the editing I've been doing and STILL have to do is just so draining 😩 I've been working on my cousin's wedding pictures...it's been over a month and I'm not even halfway done! 😭 I'm trying so hard to get them done as fast as I can, but I still have a full-time job that takes up most of my day and I still want to have time for a social life...I just feel like I'm not making enough progress. My cousin and his wife are very understanding and tell me, "No rush, take your time" but I can't help but still feel I'm taking way too long and they're gonna get frustrated.

I need some positivity right now. I'm just so drained 😩😩

#photogirlrant