One of the reasons I find Lizzie so interesting as a character is that, of all the interns, I feel like her characterization is the hardest to nail down.
Like, she has an aesthetic, to be sure, and a bit of a sarcastic, irreverent demeanor, and I think most fanon is content to run with that-she’s the punk, the rebel, the delinquent. But if you look at what she actually says and does over the course of the game, it doesn’t really align with the surface level interpretation. She’s the Bad Girl-who uses less profanity than either of the ten-year-olds. She’s the delinquent-who thought she got a buzz from a pickled onion. She’s the slacker truant-and one of the few interns to actually work on their assignment. She’s the edgy badass-who runs around in the woods pretending to be a vampire.
But it goes beyond just subverting her surface aesthetic. She comes off as almost chronically indecisive. She takes part in the intern’s shenanigans, but almost never on her own initiative, always as an accessory to another intern’s antics. She’s the one to suggest Raz use mental connection to change Hollis’s mind...and then she seems to immediately get cold feet about the idea, if her passive-aggressive “You’ll get kicked out of the Psychonauts for trying, but what the heck?” is any indication. (Interestingly, this the second time she brings up getting expelled from the Psychonauts as the inevitable consequence of rule-breaking.) She spends almost the entire middle third of the game hemming and hawing about getting a goat to follow her, without actually doing anything. She has tattoos, but are they real? Temporary? Drawn on with marker? Projected figments a-la-Helmut? Honestly, given that we only know her for half a week at most, it’s entirely possible that even her goth getup is a more recent development than we might think- it certainly does have an amateurish “i’m gonna wear all this cool stuff at once” vibe about it.
One could reasonably argue that these inconsistensies are simply the result of the limitations of writing and screentime - obviously Doublefine can’t fully flesh out every secondary character in the game. But given the writers’ attention to detail, and the relatively consistent writing of the other interns, I can’t help but wonder whether this apparent incongruency speaks to some deeper facet of Lizzie’s character. How does she understand herself? Does she even know who she is?
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i wish I'd written this down sooner so I could remember more of the details, but I'll never forget one of my first queer moments of connection, even though I didn't realize that's what it was until much later
when I was about 14, I changed my name publicly, and I didn't think much of it once I'd told my family. they were my main focus--I was going to a new school the next year, so no one would know or have questions, I wasn't very online, and I didn't know hardly anything about the queer community or anyone immersed in it. my side of things was done, but my parents (with permission) had been using my new name and informing others, like their friends and adults in my life, of the change
not long after I came out, I was helping rehearse for a puppet show at my Baha'i center, and in my area the vast majority of our community was older people, and it'd been a while since I'd seen some of them myself. but the community is small and close, and they'd known me since I was little, and my parents were talking, so word had spread. and at this rehearsal one of the older ladies, I think in her sixties or seventies, came up to me and asked to talk for a moment
I had no idea what she wanted, but in the corner away from everyone else she asked me why I had changed my name. and I got nervous and prepared to defend myself, but she was curious and polite, so I told her. I didn't feel like I fit as a girl, but I didn't feel like a boy either. I was something else. but my birthname felt like it put me in a category I didn't want to be in, so I changed my name to reflect that
I didn't expect her to understand, I thought she'd have questions, but this look of relief crossed her face and she put her hand to her chest, and I can't remember the exact words but I remember their meaning as she leaned in close and her voice got quiet: "you feel like that too? it's not just me?"
her question caught me off guard, and I had no idea what to think as I told her no, she wasn't alone in the feeling. and she confessed to me she'd always felt different but didn't know what her husband would think, didn't know there was anyone else like her who didn't feel like they fit. but that she was so glad to finally know it wasn't just her; she hugged me so tightly, and i think there were tears in her eyes
it was such a brief conversation, and I didn't think much of it at the time, but I nearly cry every time I remember it. I haven't seen her since because she moved, but I can't help imagining what it was like for her, the relief after decades of feeling wrong learning there's someone else out there like you. I don't know if she ever did anything else, if she changed her name or her pronouns (I’m referring to her same as everyone always has because she never said to do differently) or went looking for others once she knew she wasn't alone. but I'll always be so glad I got to share that with her, that I got to tell her it wasn't just her
the connection and comfort we can find in one other knows no boundaries, and there is no time limit to finding each other
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Leviticus 27: God Explains To Moses The Proper Value Or Amount Towards Someone Dedicating Somebody To Him
The Lord said to Moses,
2 “Speak to the Israelites and say to them: ‘If anyone makes a special vow to dedicate a person to the Lord by giving the equivalent value,
3 set the value of a male between the ages of twenty and sixty at fifty shekels of silver, according to the sanctuary shekel;
4 for a female, set her value at thirty shekels;
5 for a person between the ages of five and twenty, set the value of a male at twenty shekels and of a female at ten shekels;
6 for a person between one month and five years, set the value of a male at five shekels of silver and that of a female at three shekels of silver;
7 for a person sixty years old or more, set the value of a male at fifteen shekels and of a female at ten shekels.
8 If anyone making the vow is too poor to pay the specified amount, the person being dedicated is to be presented to the priest, who will set the value according to what the one making the vow can afford.
9 “‘If what they vowed is an animal that is acceptable as an offering to the Lord, such an animal given to the Lord becomes holy.
10 They must not exchange it or substitute a good one for a bad one, or a bad one for a good one; if they should substitute one animal for another, both it and the substitute become holy.
11 If what they vowed is a ceremonially unclean animal—one that is not acceptable as an offering to the Lord—the animal must be presented to the priest,
12 who will judge its quality as good or bad. Whatever value the priest then sets, that is what it will be.
13 If the owner wishes to redeem the animal, a fifth must be added to its value.
14 “‘If anyone dedicates their house as something holy to the Lord, the priest will judge its quality as good or bad. Whatever value the priest then sets, so it will remain.
15 If the one who dedicates their house wishes to redeem it, they must add a fifth to its value, and the house will again become theirs.
16 “‘If anyone dedicates to the Lord part of their family land, its value is to be set according to the amount of seed required for it—fifty shekels of silver to a homer of barley seed.
17 If they dedicate a field during the Year of Jubilee, the value that has been set remains.
18 But if they dedicate a field after the Jubilee, the priest will determine the value according to the number of years that remain until the next Year of Jubilee, and its set value will be reduced.
19 If the one who dedicates the field wishes to redeem it, they must add a fifth to its value, and the field will again become theirs.
20 If, however, they do not redeem the field, or if they have sold it to someone else, it can never be redeemed.
21 When the field is released in the Jubilee, it will become holy, like a field devoted to the Lord; it will become priestly property.
22 “‘If anyone dedicates to the Lord a field they have bought, which is not part of their family land,
23 the priest will determine its value up to the Year of Jubilee, and the owner must pay its value on that day as something holy to the Lord.
24 In the Year of Jubilee the field will revert to the person from whom it was bought, the one whose land it was.
25 Every value is to be set according to the sanctuary shekel, twenty gerahs to the shekel.
26 “‘No one, however, may dedicate the firstborn of an animal, since the firstborn already belongs to the Lord; whether an ox or a sheep, it is the Lord’s.
27 If it is one of the unclean animals, it may be bought back at its set value, adding a fifth of the value to it. If it is not redeemed, it is to be sold at its set value.
28 “‘But nothing that a person owns and devotes to the Lord—whether a human being or an animal or family land—may be sold or redeemed; everything so devoted is most holy to the Lord.
29 “‘No person devoted to destruction may be ransomed; they are to be put to death.
30 “‘A tithe of everything from the land, whether grain from the soil or fruit from the trees, belongs to the Lord; it is holy to the Lord.
31 Whoever would redeem any of their tithe must add a fifth of the value to it.
32 Every tithe of the herd and flock—every tenth animal that passes under the shepherd’s rod—will be holy to the Lord.
33 No one may pick out the good from the bad or make any substitution. If anyone does make a substitution, both the animal and its substitute become holy and cannot be redeemed.’”
34 These are the commands the Lord gave Moses at Mount Sinai for the Israelites.
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